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all my failures will be my own i am undeniable

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this is what it's like to know that there is no self that will not crumble

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in spite of your love i chose the distance in spite of your warmth i made it difficult i chose the distance

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so for those who've been truly devoured keep planting flowers you were never invisible to me

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suffocate me, mutilate me i clench my teeth and embrace the pain can't get out so i choose the chain until the rope breaks

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Clarissa Pinkola Estés, from  “Women who Run with the Wolves,” published in 1992

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trying so hard to accept my mistakes my regrets yet here i am with the same thoughts stuck in my head

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should they catch us and dispatch us to those separate work camps i'll dream about you no i will not doubt you with the passing of time should they kill me your love will fill me as warm as the bullets i'll know my purpose this war was worth this i won't let you down

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how can i hold myself together when everything falls apart?

we inherit the earth we inherit the war i inhabit the wound i dwell in the harm

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am i only flawed when i am alive? only your child if i live denied? i ask of you, benevolence, was i made just to be broken?

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i felt you in my life before i ever thought to i felt the need to lay down beside you and tell you i feel you in my heart and i don't even know you

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i miss the times in streets where we never got tired laying down in the grass by the empty campfire like spies on the roof as we'd watch stars expire but the image is a million years old

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the lights are getting dimmer i hate the person i've become i feel nothing i feel empty dead to everyone you can find me at the bottom river breathing in as the water crashes over me

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i am but a kitchen sink a place to make the others clean

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it never stops or goes away i rip the weeds from my garden every day