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It’s interesting how you find life behind all your illusions

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So so so sad about how things happened.

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When we came here this place was full of love, sunshine and chirping birds. Now it’s a war zone, ofc everyone is out

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I have something in me that would go after you if you would lost in the forest of the other side of the world or in another country and I would search for you with passion and I would say “no. I know I will find him”

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Bro hurt me so bad I got to know my shadow self better

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Ez so not cool hogy valaki megszeretteti magát az emberekkel aztán nem beszél az igazi érzéseiről és a gondolatairól mikor már azok az emberek kurvára szeretik… 💔💔

Ez az érzelmi távolságtartás a legnagyobb köcsögség a világon

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Told my Dad that maybe he is upset about me going to India alone but I’m a black sheep in this situation and doing good for my entire bloodline with this. Ik ur upset ik it’s dangerous. Will have fun in the side of the Ganges with the company of your genes also. ❤️

NORMALIZE TALKING HIGHLY ABOUT YOURSELF

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30 THOUGHT-PROVOKING QUESTIONS TO HELP YOU BECOME MORE SELF-AWARE

❦ how much self-control do i have with things that i know are bad for me, but tend to indulge in?

❦ how do i respond to someone who is different from me or whose ideals and beliefs i don't agree with or understand?

❦ how do i deal with being misperceived or misunderstood?

❦ how do i respond when someone judges me, makes fun of me, or calls me names?

❦ how do i deal with other people's mistakes and unpleasant behavior?

❦ how do i deal with people who have hurt me in the past?

❦ how do i spend my free time?

❦ how do i deal with negative people?

❦ how do i deal with stressful situations? do i tend to worry a lot? what else do i do?

❦ how do i deal with inconvenient life situations?

❦ how do i respond to situations that i have no control over?

❦ how do i deal with negativity in my environment?

❦ how do i deal with challenges in my life?

❦ how do i respond to situations that force me to get out of my comfort zone?

❦ how motivated am i to change my life for the better?

❦ how much do i follow through on what i preach and talk about?

❦ how do i deal with uncertainty, the unknown or a future event that i have no control over?

❦ how do i respond to obstacles, hardships, and "bad" things that happen in my life?

❦ how do i respond when i don't get what i want?

❦ how fulfilling is my everyday life?

❦ how do i respond to new ideas and new ways of thinking?

❦ how do i respond to bad or inconvenient news?

❦ how do i deal with the violence, hate, and suffering in the world?

❦ how do i recharge, rejuvenate, and replenish my energy?

❦ how much do i prioritize spending time and energy on myself and on my passions?

❦ how do i deal with change? new job, new house, new lifestyle, new people, new rules, new technology...do i tend to avoid it, welcome it, fear it, like it, complain about it, stress out about it, worry about it?

❦ how do i deal with emotional pain?

❦ how do i respond when plans change or plans get cancelled without my say so?

❦ how do i respond when i make a mistake or when i fail at something?

❦  how do i deal with rejection?

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Almost 2 weeks and I’m in Risikesh. As if it’s not enough, I’m having a desire to travel to this Ladakh area, and oh my god, there is K2. This whole landmark is rocking. Look at these roads. Mountain heaven literally!

I’ll finish the yoga retreat in feb 21, then I’ll have a few days before my flight to Bali, so I may have the oppurtunity and time to travel up to Leh and spend a night or two there. Next year I’m gonna go right into the Buddhist Monastey. I feel this is a magical place.

I feel something very beautiful thinking about these mountains. I’m looking at K2 and I’m seeing myself climbing it. Oh yeah.

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Oh, yes. So some part of us must die from time to time. It's the mind's fault that it projects this into the body (I mean, my body doesn't have to die; my current self does).

what amount of thinking about suicide as an option considered normal?

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Loved when after the breakup the next morning I talked with my therapist and first he was offering relationship coaching for us. It warmed my heart and made me feel good. Then I told him “he is not dealing with these kind of stuff like he does not dealing with self-knowledge at all.” He nodded compassionately “here are the steps to fully grieve this relationship” and dropped a perfect 3 day grieving method to me

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Istenem, örökké imádkozok azokért,

Akiket nem ért még el a fény,

Akiknek nincs kihez szólniuk,

Akik nem mernek kihez szólni,

Akik magukban vannak,

Kívánom, hogy járja át lelküket az ön-szeretet és ön-ráismerés hulláma,

Hogy tudatuk ébredjen és elméjük tökéletes eszközükké legyen,

Hogy a tükörbe nézve érezzék a megnyugvás, az elfogadás korlátlanságát.

Kívánok köréjük olyan kapcsolatokat, amikben a sötét pillanatokban fényre lelnek,

Majd magukban és érzéseikben olyan bizonyosságot és szeretetet, hogy áradjon ez létük minden szegmensébe megkérdőjelezhetetlenül. Ámen.

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They said you won’t hurt me like that & we broke up & I feel all my energy projecting into myself and I feel vibrant. What is this? Didn't you hurt me? Or didn't I hurt myself this time?

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My core memory is Sasuke who left Naruto bc he walked his path but their paths was totally different, opposites even, but they started in the same place and now they are the definition of enemies but they’re not at the same time and I know Naruto is wishing back the good old times with his friend and he’ll never get them back (but the love is always there)

It just makes me remember that feeling when someone you love deeply is changing but they are not really changing bc you always knew in your core that this is their path so they are evolving not changing

You just had the priviledge to be close with them in a short or longer period of time

Because your paths just literally crossed

That’s why you need to live every possible loving moment with people because you never know when will your paths separate really

And no evil is responsible for this it’s just the most beautiful thing in life - evolution and love, goes hand to hand

So just be happy for everyone in your life and shut up

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Where did that love go?

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I want to meditate

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Action is my only spoken language in this part of my life. And i want to create with it