milokitpines

[milokitpines]

"Eh, they can't do nothin to me! They can try, but ya' know, I'm kinda over powered. Almost like a 13 year old made me up or somethin'!" He laughed

"... why can't you lie to him right now?"

"It's your birthday, right? I'm really bad at remembering dates."

- @milokitpines

"It is, but it's fine that if you forget. I don't celebrate"

[milokitpines]

"I don't think anyone cares who I'm friends with- right? Yeah, probably not. People don't like tou, but that got nothin to do with me."

He grins, sitting down and setting the cake between them. He snaps and two plates and forks appear. "Should we invite your brother? His birthday as well! I never met him... is he alive?"

"It's your birthday, right? I'm really bad at remembering dates."

- @milokitpines

"It is, but it's fine that if you forget. I don't celebrate"

[milokitpines]

"I mean, you're my friend! And no one wanted me to invite you to my birthday, so I wanted to hang out with you today!"

"It's your birthday, right? I'm really bad at remembering dates."

- @milokitpines

"It is, but it's fine that if you forget. I don't celebrate"

[milokitpines]

He snaps, and the number 63 appears on the cake.

"I made it! Hehe- Happy Birthday Stanford!!!"

"It's your birthday, right? I'm really bad at remembering dates."

- @milokitpines

"It is, but it's fine that if you forget. I don't celebrate"

[milokitpines]

"Booo, thats boring! How old are you? Wanna hang out? I got you a moth cake!"

He holds out a cake with moth designs all over it with frosting

"It's your birthday, right? I'm really bad at remembering dates."

- @milokitpines

"It is, but it's fine that if you forget. I don't celebrate"

[milokitpines]

"... okay."

He leans into the hug.

"And I'll stay by yours."

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

"... thank you. I appreciate it, and... I understand."

"I also don't know whats... wrong, most of the time. I hardly even know something IS wrong until after the fact."

"It's annoying, and confusing, and makes answering questions so much harder."

He pauses, putting his tools down.

"I think right now I just..."

"... I miss..."

He narrows his eyes as he tries to think. Tries to find the words.

"... I had just started being happy with people. Enjoying being near other people- one year of mostly positive interactions, not always being left out."

"In a stupid human way I need social interaction. I... I miss people, and I feel abandoned super easily-"

He cut himself off, took a moment, and continued.

"... now I don't feel too much of anything. Its just like before last summer, only this time, I know what its like to care about people. I have to be around people- I WANT to be around people, and all I can think about is how happy, or how much fun I should be having, but I'm not."

"... negative emotions are coming back so much stronger than any positive ones, and I'm having to mask again."

"But now I cherish my negative emotions, and thats confusing! They hurt, but I like feeling them because its so so much better then feeling nothing."

He looked over at her, "you can't fix this. I don't want you to try- I'll get help or something, but please don't have this be a burden on your back."

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

Oh

He feels bad

And then he feels kinda happy because he feels bad

He feels horrible.

Hes sure he just hurt his mother...

It stabs him, knife to the heart.

And he relishes in it.

He hates it, but he's holding back a laugh- because he loves feeling.

Let alone anything this strongly.

He feels like he's going to cry and laugh, but he holds it back- Wilhelm being right there.

He feels horrible, but he doesn't regret what he said. He was being honest.

They're his mom. If she doesn't at least tell him what's wrong, why should he tell them what's wrong?

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

"I'll respect you not wanting me help, if you respect me not wanting your help."

He yanks his hands away

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

"But thats. Not. Fair."

His voice broke a little.

"Am I just supposed to watch you be in pain? Watch you be hurt, betrayed, confused? Why should you get to help me and not vise versa?"

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

"I won't let you help me with my shit until you sort yourself out."

He paused, almost suprised at himself st the words, but he doesn't take them back.

"Sorry..."

"But its bad. You're not ok."

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

"... I hate that you think that. You don't spend enough time to yourself."

"I just like feeling stuff, is that a crime? I don't wanna miss out."

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

"... Sure."

*he turns to tinkering again.*

"I think you're worried about nothing."

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

"... hurts less." He seems less then enthusiastic.

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

He pauses, and then nods, giving Wilhelm his hand.

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

"... I like feeling things. If I'm injured, let me be injured until I've naturally healed."

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"

[milokitpines]

"Why? I mean. I get why, but you can't help."

"hey, kiddo. how's sending out invites goin'?"

[ @ivxliwh ]

"Invites?...."

"OH- I got distracted-"

He hands her a little robot mouse, fully operational and moving like a real mouse would.

".... mouse?"