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i actually hate begging for attention or love. im starting to lose interest because of this.

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“February is the shortest month of the year, so if you are having a miserable month, try to schedule it for February.”

— Lemony Snicket

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night terrors by hannah green // how to cure a ghost by fariha róisín //writer in the dark - lorde // my mother & i - lucy dacus // take care: mothers, daughters, and inheriting self-hatred by ella wilson // lady bird (2017) // mother wound healing: why it’s crucial for women by bethany webster //don’t know // on earth we’re briefly gorgeous by ocean vuong // mother by maia baia

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book quotes that i will never recover from

"he is half of my soul, as the poets say. " - song of achilles

"write me a letter telling me how to live the rest of my life without you." - how to make friends with the dark

"they were my birthday presents." - shatter me

"she had realized that she had forgotten the precise blue of his eyes and the depth of his laugh." - clockwork princess

"my name is sam cortland... and i will not be afraid." - assassin's blade

"you chose me four years ago. would you choose me still?" - these violent delights

"we were all supposed to make it." - crooked kingdom

"i remember everything." - the invisible life of addie larue

"come home and shout at me. come home and fight with me. come home and break my heart, if you must. just come home." - cruel prince

"i wasted all those yesterdays and am completely out of tomorrows." - they both die at the end

"you hated the idea of me." - the final gambit

"bob says hello." - house of hades

"abuse can feel like love. starving people will eat anything." - nightfall

"i missed you only with an ocean between us. but if death was separating us... i would find you." - queen of shadows

"i loved him. i love him. as best i could." - we were liars

"i'm the villain, even in my own story. but you were supposed to play a different role." - finale

"i will find you again in the next world—the next life. and we will have that time. i promise." - a court of wings and ruin

"i spent half of my time loving her and the other half hiding how much i loved her." - the seven husbands of evelyn hugo

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the idea of living on a farm and being the best version of yourself while romanticizing life with the person you love *chef's kiss

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gluggafoss, hvolsvöllur

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i feel shit today and i hate it

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and in the end, i didn't have anyone I can call my own

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i plan on e*nd*ng life before 25. i dont really see myself continuing life because it's all blank

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I actually hate it when people try to ignore me. I hate being ignored by my loved ones, it feels like I've been hit by a rock thousand times and my heart crumbles every time they ignore me. Ever since I was young, my parents weren't physically there for me nor emotionally present. I had some people try to take care of me, but all they did was abuse me verbally. Financially speaking, yes, they were there, they give me money, not much but can buy me things that I want, especially those delicious foods I saw back when I was young. I struggle a lot in expressing myself, because what if they will try to villainize what I'm trying to say or feel because ever since, I was raised to never talk back or be respectful to your elders even though they do not respect me. Also, I didn't get a slight attention from my parents back then, they were busy fighting and doing jobs. Every night I hear and see them fighting, though I hate to admit it, it did affect me negatively, veryyyy negative. Long story short, I just want to find inner peace and love where I don't need to beg for anyone's attention and love. I want to love myself just like how my little me love myself a hundred percent. I wanna go back to those days where I don't need to anyone's validation just to feel love.