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Im fucking dead XDxD

ok I had this thought and it wonr leave my head. ok you know how yuri got angry at yuuri and said stuff like "there's only room for one yuri" or something? yeah so my point is, that was basically yuri saying "no doubles" thanks for coming to my ted talk

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I just don't understand what so hard to understand about the sentence "I put a lot of effort into this and because I care about you I want to share it with you."

How do I say that and have her hear "please tell me how much my drawing sucks and look at me like I just shoved roadkill into your arms"

And why is it that when it's a 10 second doodle of her favorite Servamp character, she's like "omg it's so cute you're the best artist ever!"

But when it's a drawing I spent 45 minutes on, fully shaded, very complex and stretching my skill level I get "it looks like a snake on a circle where's the fucking hand? It looks bad." With a disgusted look.

Like what, you like my art when it's a doodle of a tiny vampire in a top hat but when I have a fully shaded pencil drawing of a snake wrapped around a hand I'm a failure? From miss "oh I can't even draw a stick figure I'm so bad at art!!!" Yeah no.

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Aaaand now the shift high has worn off and I remember why I forced myself to stop thinking about this source. I feel worthless and unloved again!!!

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Spotify: *slides an electro swing playlist in my general direction*

Me: *whiplashes out of my current shift into my first min shift in over six months*

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I'm sorry I'm never here this is a pure and good kintype blog and most of my kintypes are Cursed™ and they have their own special blog

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*googles "help my Virgo friend is trying to make everything an argument and I think I'm about to cry*

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Someone: I have the exact same morals as you and we share fandoms!

Me: great I'll follow yo-

Them: -but I hate one of your cc's

Me: *aggressively taps the back arrow* not to-fucking-day

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Ayyy here's my face with the cute Snapchat thing + some shitty painted purple nails and my ring. If y'all are still sleeping on Bill, he posted a song called Outside recently and it's actually like... my song of the year. It's so good. It's so weird but so good. Also at my roommates insistence I finally watched what some consider to be the best anime ever and what I consider to be the work and proof of time travel because NOTHING THIS GOOD COULD HAVE BEEN MADE BEFORE 2016 ITS NOT POSSIBLE! MORALS LIKE THIS DIDNT EXIST THEN! And by good I mean morally sound. Not like quality of animation or voice acting, I'm just talking about the fact that aside from a few outdated terms it's aged really well and really just has a nice feeling to it??? It's a wonderfully crafted satirical criticism of the industry with a side of refreshing "that's just how it is" take on a lot of things other shows would make into jokes. It's like... the things that are usually considered okay (but aren't) are shown comically, like "look at these idiots they're actually falling for it!" While things that are just normal (at least in our Tumblr bubble) are just that, normal. It's addressed, usually a minor comical moment where the other characters don't quite know what to do, and then everyone's just like "oh okay. That's a thing now I guess." It's not glossed over, but it's not a huge deal. Things just Are, and I like that. Idk I'm not saying what it is because I'm questioning someone from it and I don't want anyone jumping the gun because it's super popular...

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Character: *is designed with ace colors

Me: yes

Character: *is also just a shithead*

Me: YESSSSSSSS!!!

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So that post I made about the other kintype that I may have that's I'm calling a separate source because even though it's the same people they're in a different place?

I have a double... who is Bad. Very Gross. Does not deserve that Kintype. Kintype to pure.

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Real talk are we considering the ova to be a separate source because while it's the same characters they're not in the same universe and some ages have changed and stuff?

...

Because I really hate having two kintype from the same source like I repress that shit on the regular just because it bothers me (it doesn't bother me for other people, just me)

But I don't want to repress the memories I'm getting. I like these memories. They make me feel strong and loved and generally pretty awesome.

But now I'm stuck in a loop of

"Wow he's cool I wanna be like him, wait I am him"

"Ugh I hate that guy because in my nico canon he was literally the worst human being alive, but I love him because in this canon he saved all of our lives."

"I have a crush on this dude... no wait this dude... myself? Everyone? WHOS MRMORIES ARE THESE"

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Oh wait that's actually canon? Sweet!

Me about something I thought was just in my canon

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AAAHAHAHAAAAA IM DYING IM DEAD IVE ASCENDED I MUST BE IN HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!

OH HOLY SHIT THE MEMORY SURGE THAT OVA GAVE ME

IVE NEVER WHIPLASHED INTO A SHIFT SO HARD IN MY LIFE

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Person: I'm kin with (character I don't share a source with but love unconditionally despite them usually being an asshole)

Me: *fights the urge to scream about how much I love them and deeply want to be friends*