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this man keeps staring at me and i'm incredibly close to biting him

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Transitioning as a transse individual.

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This only discusses my personal transition and goals. I am transse fictional and I happily align myself as a fictional character more than anything else - even if other terms like eros vampyre or magick may fit. To me, those two things are of fiction and I am proud to be of such.

My identity is just rooted into fictionfolk culture and as someone with fantasy prone disorder, this is just how I embrace being a wakadoodle too alongside being transspecies.

If you're wondering where I got my ideas from, I recently made a document going over transitioning while being transspecies - and while not perfect nor a complete guide (as I am still learning!), it is the best I could make and I have committed myself to updating it (and then putting an update log in it too!)

This document unfortunately doesn't go over transse fictionals, which is not really good for me, but I have been very open to any ideas that could help. In my transition plans post, I mentioned taking DHEA and Lavalced, one hormone and one oil mixture.

I'll break that down here in this post!

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What are these things in the picture?

These four items are items I use for transitioning. All of them are topical because they're the cheapest and the easiest to apply for me. Each item is taken from the chart in the document.

What is SJE Beard Oil?

On my birthday, last year, I had gotten it at a vendors spot. This beard oil is Lavalced under a brand name of "SJE", which is a selfmade business made by Shonda Ashby. I believe she allows for her products to be sold at different vendor spots, and at this time, I had bought it for my hair growth. It just so happened to contain Lavender, Almond, and Cedarwood oil - all the things that make up Lavalced. This isn't sponsored but I'd like to at least give props for the small businesses.

Ingredients as listed; Cedarwood, lavender, rosemary, and almond oil.

What is Well's Oil Beard Oil?

It is another Lavalced mixture under a brand name. As you can see, I have been trying out different beard oils for, ofc, my face but also my eyebrows and my edges. I am mixed so I have edges, yes, lol. This one, imo, has worked slightly better due to the Peppermint oil and Castor oil.

Ingredients as listed; Soybean, Castor, Sweet almond, vegetable glycerin, cedar, lavender, lemon, lime, and peppermint oil.

What is Lavalced? Is it a Hormone?

Lavalced is a topical oil mixture between lavender, almond, and cedarwood oil. I coined the term so that it's easier to talk about transitioning with. These are common oils used to help hair growth and promote healthy hair, and have been culturally used in many households before the coining of the term. Lavalced specifically refers to the mixture of all three in one, no matter the other ingredients present. If there is an additional oil but the lavalced mixture is still present - it's lavalced.

When I said that it's "lavalced under a brand name," assume it's the three oils with or without additional ingredients and that the brand is selling just that - lavalced.

What is Biotin?

Biotin, or the B7 vitamin, is one of the vitamins the body uses for fats and amino acids. Deficiency can cause hair thinning and rashes, and too much may cause nausea or abdominal pain. Excess usually is spent through the urine because it is water-soluble.

Why I have a thing of it relates to my transitioning. I would like to grow more hair, legs, arms, stomach, etc. I don't need it 24/7 or everyday, so I devoted it to be used every Sunday and just a single mililiter.

Biotin isn't just topical, but as I said before, topical is cheaper for me, and I have the means to store it properly. All of these things are readily available in stores selling hair products or online under multiple names.

What is DHEA?

Now onto the hormone. DHEA is a steroid hormone that is a precursor to estrogen and androgens. It is located in your gonads, glands, and the brain. Your body naturally produces it, but you have the ability to stimulate more by taking DHEA. DHEA is hard to get as it is, but synthetic and bioidentical versions are readily available. I own the bioidentical version from BIOLABS PRO. I was on a 50/mg per pump last year but switched to 20/mg per pump this year due to costs. The difference, things work slower but still keep up. I'm not complaining since I have fantastic results.

In my transition plans, I mentioned more body hair and vocalizations. Now that I'm on this, I have more masculine features and a deeper voice - which allows me to deepen my vocalizations when I'm doing calls, growls, or snarls. It allows me to also just pass as more xenine as my animal sounds are a bit more refined.

My DHEA is mixed with a little bit of hair oil just so it isn't too rough on my skin when I apply it, so the color has changed to a cream (dark brown oil + the white of the cream), and absorbs pretty fast. To avoid the oily problem, I stick it in my fridge (which is on the highest setting for cold to prevent it from simply staying at the top.) I don't mind but I always shake it before use whether it sticks or not.

Why transition like this? Isn't it hard to use four items? Why not get on testosterone?

My transition isn't simple, nor is it normal and I don't want it to be. In reality, I only use two of these items every other day. So it is not a hassle to take care of these.

My well's oil is the main lavalced i use, the other is a backup, which is why there's so much more of the SJE than the other. My biotin is full because I only use it on Sundays and am very scarce with it. My DHEA is an every other day thing because I know too much can hurt me. I am pro-DIY transitioning and as of right now, I don't want to spend money on testosterone if it means not being able to afford or not being able to tweak it the way I want.

I don't want the effects of testosterone, I want the effects of DHEA and lavalced and biotin. It's why I am taking those three. Also, testosterone is often associated with masculinity and I don't want that, even if I know that's not always true nor is it masculine to take testosterone- everyone has it. But so is the case for DHEA, everyone has it, but yet it still seems easier for me to take.

Hell, this transition doesn't even feel like DIY. This transition is transspecies transitioning, and I like to think my document goes over that well, and while those listed aren't "officially" transspecies hormones, they might as well be because including estrogen and testosterone, these impact your life just as those two do.

My transition is very animalistic and I'd like to have control over what I grow on my body. One day, biohacking will be something I study and implement. And I am willing to take the risks for it because it is my body and my transition and my animality I wish to change.

Viva la Transespèces, or something like that.

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i called out of work today. it's getting bad

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God I really wish carrying stuffed animals around with you was socially acceptable

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how does anyone tolerate me

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i'm so exhausted even though i slept okay. i was doing fine but some days it does feel like episodes just come out of nowhere. even feeling tired i cant figure ouf exactly whats going on. the hallucinations aren't great and the paranoia is seeping in but the worst part is the RAGE. the rage and the anxiety. I love my cats but not even theyre making me happy

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listening to my parents chatter and watch tv

neither of them were downstairs. they were both upstairs asleep

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9.20am

a muffin. the muffin? what do you mean? she's a tiger, barry, tigers and muffins. what the fuck? who are you talking to? barry you wouldn't understand

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'he's vegan guys'

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sounds silly but. one of the greatest things ever as someone with a trauma background is learning that things aren't inherently as bad or as scary as I thought. it IS possible to assemble Ikea furniture without arguments. is IS possible to discuss boundaries without having something thrown at me for speaking out of turn. it IS possible to spend hours on end sharing your favourite things with your favourite people, and not get called annoying for it. the world is an incredible place

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I would have gutted myself for you and you turned away at the very chance of a paper-cut.

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☆ The Mind of a Mutt ☆

i'm arthur, but you can call me art. i'm a 21y/o trans man (he/it). i'm nonhuman. this blog is a space to post uncensored thoughts and rambles. i'm severely mentally ill and will be posting openly about it. you have been warned.

dni:

- basic dni

- minors. you will be blocked.

- anyone looking to start shit

- anti physical nonhumanity.

- if i block you, you deserved it.

All the personal stuff:

Identity -

I'm not a therian, though I have nothing against them. I identify more with turned A. For psychological reasons, I do not identify with or as human, and often use either animalistic or canid terms to refer to myself.

Interests -

Music (Kittie, Linkin Park, FFDP, Korn), writing, drawing, psychology, toxicology.

So.. what's up with you? -

Professionally DX'd BPD and psychosis, being explored for secondary dx.

Tag System -

#artsquared - my own art

#dogposting - nonhuman posts

#lifestuff - mh posts

#spilledink - vent

#thelog - personal tag for documenting symptoms

TW/CW System -

I will always use a '(thing) cw' system. I will also use singular (e.g bug tw as opposed to bugs tw)

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pt: a beaten dog will be wary of any outstretched hand