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I'd forgotten how much I love making coffee in the dripper. I prefer the cleaner taste of filtered coffee.

What I don't enjoy, is waiting for my grinder to finish grinding the coffee. I need a better one.

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At first glance, I thought she was naked.

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8 years since I last posted here.

8 years since I last used Tumblr.

Life has changed so much since then.

I'm older, for one. Mom of 2 kids. Working on my 3rd job since that last post.

Even the world has changed so much since that post too.

I don't know how I feel about coming back on Tumblr, only because I don't think I'll be using Tumblr the same way I did back then.

So we'll see how things go.

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I'm not in the same funk with regards to work anymore, mostly because I'm working in a different environment with different people. The environment is good and all, fun people to work with, I'm just tired. I'm so very tired of the work. It's never ending and it's always the same kind of work.

I'm learning a lot of course, because it's been a trial by fire kind of thing, but I'm at a point where I just want to rest. We've been trying for a baby for a year and we haven't been successful. I'm not sure if it's the stress of working here, the stress of having a boss like mine, or a biological reason (either him, me or both of us). We're going to get a fertility check up soon and I do hope that it is the stress and not because there's something wrong with us.That'll gives me even more reason to stay home and rest and recuperate.

I think I'm just tired. All the time.

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I may not have memorised the Quran, but my heart knows it. My heart remembers it. It makes me happy and sad at the same time; happy that my soul knows the word of God, but at the same time I'm sad that I'm not a better Muslim.

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I need a new job A.S.A.P. It's getting harder to come in to work, harder to not lose my temper at incessant chatter and harder not to breakdown and cry.

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We've applied for a house. We're waiting to see if we'll be able to choose an apartment in the area that we want. I don't mind living in the public housing area but he prefers to live in one of the condominiums. Frankly, we can barely afford it and I don't want to be in such deep debt that we won't be able to provide for our future kids as well as we could.

I'm going to be very thankful if we can get this house that we applied for. A few more days before we'll know. *fingers and toes crossed*

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I have weddings on the brain. I'm mentally planning my wedding, even though my fiance has yet to set a date.

I know the kind of wedding I would like; a small intimate one. Both the fiance and I agree that there isn't much point in having a big, lavish wedding and inviting one thousand people we don't know. We never understood why the weddings are getting increasingly grand. I don't want to start my marriage life in debt, for a wedding that I'm most likely not going to remember in detail.

What's most important for us is that we get to share our happiness with our close friends and family.And also, not blow our budget.

I hoping that we do get to do that. Now, I just have to convince the fiance to set a date.

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Have you ever felt like going to work, the environment at work is slowly killing your soul? Like you hope that the day won't come when you lose your shit and hurt someone at work because you can't take it anymore?

That feeling is ever increasing every day.

Not happy.

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Blogging isn't something that comes easily to me. That is if I want to be able to produce a post that is well thought out or at least, not sounding like verbal diarrhea. There was once up on a time when I could write a post about my observations and not have it turn out like an incoherent pile of bull crap. Now, it's all about 'oh, woe is me. I don't have the time to write properly anymore."

Even I can tell that those are excuses.

How does one retain that level of motivation to post at least a couple of times a week? As it is, I can barely manage to blog once a week. I guess having multiple blogs doesn't help.

How do you do it?

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Some of my friends are diagnosed with depression. When they go into those funks, I don't know what to do. Some of them have suicidal thoughts and they self-harm. I feel at a loss at how to help them. I feel like a bad friend.

I know that telling them to snap out of is the wrong approach. I want to understand what they're going through but I don't know where to start.