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feeling fat in tight AND baggy clothes>>> so fun, so great🥰

just kidding, i hate it here. 

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TW

some people get really triggered by summer and I completely understand it but I really think fall gets me more. 

Like I really want to pick out a costume and not worry about my weight.

I want to wear cute skirts and baggy sweatshirts without looking like they’re tight.

I want to wear chunky boots with skinny legs.

Thigh highs that actually fit my thighs and don’t cut off circulation.

a thanksgiving where people tell me “you look like you’ve lost weight!” 

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This close 👌 to purging and the only reason I’m not is because my best friends are over

Good thing I’m biking 30 miles tomorrow

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Opened my Fitbit account for the first time in 4 years and saw my ‘last weigh in’ of 178.6lbs

Genuinely forgot I used to be so fat

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Anyone else get excited/relieved when they get their period? And like, not just cause they’re not pregnant

For me it means that my body is still healthy enough to HAVE periods

And it also means that all the bloating n water retention I’m experiencing is gonna go away soon!! :D

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Mmmmm Dinner :)

Plus a 15 mile bike ride!

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Me: *goes for a bike ride but gets tired halfway through when I’m the furthest from my house*

Ana: ahaha gotcha fucker this ain’t the gym!! You can’t give up when your bike is your only transportation home!!

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Unexpected benefit of losing a lot of weight (and keeping it off):

I’ve been watching a lot of ‘thrift flip’ YouTube videos where skinny girls go to a thrift store to buy oversized clothes with the intention of altering them and I realized that I’ve been holding on to a lot of stuff from high school *just in case* I gain all the weight back that I lost in the past 3 years... but I think it’s safe to say that while I might gain and lose the same 10lbs I will NEVER go back to my high weight

Which means I get to ‘thrift flip’ my own closet without even having to go shopping!

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I was making cosplay Tiktoks earlier today and my body dysmorphia is on the fritz because like. I know I lost weight in the past 2 weeks but I don’t know how much because I can’t access the scale,, anyway my collarbones ate super obvious in all of my videos and my legs look a little smaller too but because my waist isn’t ~snatched~ so like. My brain can’t parse that my body has changed at all

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I'm coming out of quarentene 15lbs lighter or I'm not coming out at all

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“[Eating disorders], at the most basic level, [are] a bundle of deadly contradictions: a desire for power that strips you of all power. A gesture of strength that divests you of all strength. A wish to prove that you need nothing, that you have no human hungers, which turns on itself and becomes a searing need for the hunger itself. It is an attempt to find an identity, but ultimately it strips you of any sense of yourself, save the sorry identity of “sick.” It is a grotesque mockery of cultural standards of beauty that winds up mocking no one more than you.”

Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia, Marya Hornbacher

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ED tumblr would you step on a racist to get to your UGW?

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Slow weight loss is better than no weight loss

Thats what we keep telling ourselves while consuming 800 calories a day. But thats not what a slow weight loss is. This is starving.

Not long ago I tried to make myself eat 1200-1300 calories to avoid binging. And even tho it’s hard to believe, that eating that much I could really lose weight, it really helps. After a week I still have energy to study and to do some sports, and I still haven’t binged. I divide those calories into 3-4 meals.

I try to excercise at least 30mins a day, usually 1h. If I feel too tired or busy, I do stretches for 30min. It’s better than nothing!!! And it helps to relax.

I’ve seen so many posts with extreme diet plans recently, and I just want to say - that won’t help! Eat more, boost your metabolism, excercise, drink water, let yourself eat some small dessert, and don’t ever think, that You don’t deserve food!!

Stay safe ❤️

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My mom did that to me a couple of times over winter break and always used the word ‘we’ when talking about exercising and eating healthy 🥰 I told her to stop projecting because *I* hadn’t gained any weight over the holidays

part 53626272 of my mom indirectly calling me fat🥰