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Hasn’t that always been the case?

Ballister is no stranger to living life on the edge. Even before their death, all it took was one accident, one mistake to tank the savings his parents spent months building up. Their community was not much better either. Funds saved up to improve infrastructure, the community center, the mosque could disappear without any warning. 

And then one accident, one accident was all it took to take his parents and then his home.

And still, he dreamed, dreamed of standing at the side of the Kingdom as a hero of the realm.

Even when the queen inducted him as a squire, he could never find better footing. He knew; one mistake, that’s all he needed if he wanted to be put back in the streets. And yet that dream, his dream never strayed far. Stayed so close to him every time he reached for it, he could feel it, like silk, between his fingers before it to slipped away.

He thought being with Ambrosius would have been like that too. At first, it was a pipe dream- being friends with the descendent of Gloreth, herself? Impossible. Ambrosius falling in love with him? Gloreth’s descendent wouldn't do that. Dating and building a life with Ambrosius? A life that both Ambrosius and the Kingdom would approve of?

Only a fool would dream to do so.

And yet.

And yet, it had all been in Ballister’s hand, once upon a time. So close, sometimes Ballister’s phantom arm twitches at the thought of it. Silk, golden white like Ambrosius’ hair resting between his fingers. Sometimes Ballister doesn’t dare to move his arm in those moments because what if it still was all possible? Maybe if he’s careful enough, this time, it won’t slip away-

He’s only deluding himself. The world isn’t meant to be draped in sheets of white silk and Ballister doesn’t believe it’s all gray or varying shades of black either. It doesn’t have to be- Nimona taught him that- that splash of PINK on an otherwise pristine canvas.

Why should he have to keep chasing a future, a dream that keeps running away when he catches up?

He won’t do it anymore. He can’t, even if it’s Ambrosius who beckons him to come back. He won't trade a clad of black armor sprinkled with specks of pink for the pristine white and gold banner one he longed to wave once upon a time.

The day Ballister left the Kingdom, three years ago, he set aside that dream. Broke it in two alongside the life he once shared with Ambrosius. No more. No more.

( Even if he cried, staring at the remains of them. What they were. What they would have been. )

Now there’s only them, surrounded by the ruckus. And Nimona, in the back, picking off Ambrosius’ backup with generous strokes of her claws.

“Don’t say that, Ambrosius. You- you of all people don’t get to say that to me,” Ballister says, finally. The sword held by his mechanical arm feels heavy as he points it at his beloved enemy. “Don’t make this any harder than it has to be.”

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[LYRIC STARTERS] ✧˚ · . so much (for) stardust - fall out boy

WITH REFERENCES TO: alcohol. feel free to change these in any way you seem fit.

" you know I'm dying out here " " what would you trade the pain for? " " you were the sunshine of my lifetime " " I'd never go, I just want to be invited " " I've just about snapped " " don't look back " " nowhere left for us to go but heaven " " we're told we've got to get ahead no matter what it takes " " there's nowhere off the hamster wheel of this rat race " " give up what you love before it does you in " " no matter what they tell you, the future's up for grabs " " is there a word for 'bad miracle'? " " nobody said the road was endless " " nobody said the climb was friendless " " could we please pretend this won't end? " " we could cry a little, cry a lot " " don't stop dancing, don't dare stop " " we could dance our tears away " " heartbreak feels so good " " we said we'd never grow up " " when you ask how I've been, I know you mean well " " who am I dialling tonight? " " that's a bummer " " thaw out my freezer burn feelings for twenty summers " " I'm just a cherub riding comets through the night sky " " I love my life " " I know I'm getting older 'cause I'm getting less pissed " " you put the 'fun' into disfunction " " hold me like a grudge " " the world is always spinning and I can't keep up " " can't do it on my own " " I guess somehow we made it back with a few dreams of ours still intact " " I am a diamond on the inside. just add the pressure " " I thought I knew better " " I thought it would get better " " I figured somehow by now I would have got it together " " I make no plans and none can be broken " " remember us just like this together " " but this can't last - won't last " " do you laugh about me whenever I leave? or do I just need more therapy " " buried alive inside my dreams " " my mood board is just pictures of you " " but I'm not sad anymore " " I didn't take the love when I had the chance " " you and I and a screw top bottle of wine " " kiss my cheek - baby, please, would you read my eulogy? " " I will never ask you for anything, except to dream sweet of me " " tell me: when the party ends, will you still love who I am? " " here we are untouched forever " " half your life you've been hooked on death " " twice the dreams but half the love " " be careful what you bottle up " " I got this doom and gloom in my mind " " I've got love in my heart " " we'll drive until the engine just gives up " " I know I've made mistakes but at least they were mine to make " " all of my wildest dreams, they just end up with you and me " " I'll be whatever you need me to be " " here I am, not sure if you should take a chance " " I like playing dumb letting you figure me out " " got to throw this year away " " I know I keep my feelings so tucked away " " just another day spend hoping we don't fall apart " " let's twist the knife again " " I'm just trying to keep it together but it gets a little harder when it never gets better " " I'm trying to keep it together " " I guess to you now, I'm just a face in the crowd " " last night I dreamed I still knew you " " I've got all this love I've got to keep to myself " " all this effort to make it look effortless " " I can't be who you need me to be " " someday every candle's gotta run out of wax " " someday no one will remember me when they look back " " time is luck and I wish ours overlapped more " " I'm just melted wax on a birthday cake " " another year fades away " " if you want a job done right, you gotta do it yourself " " what is there between us if not a little annihilation? "

" I'm pretty sure as far as humans go, I'm a tough pill to swallow " " I miss the way it felt " " passed my old street, the house I grew up in " " it breaks your heart, but four of the ramones are dead " " I felt you at the beginning, but I needed you at the end " " stop me if you have heard this all before " " but you don't know me anymore " " that's the way the world used to be before our dreams started bursting at the seams " " the view's so pretty from the deck of a sinking ship " " I just need someone to hold me " " what a time to be alive " " they say that I should try meditation, but I don't want to be with my own thoughts " " when I said 'leave me alone', this isn't quite what I meant " " bad news, what's left? " " I feel like something that's been stretched out over and over again " " I don't have the guts to keep it together " " life is just a game, maybe I'm stuck in a lonely loop " " we thought we had it all " " I need the sound of crowds or I can't fall asleep at night " " can't take my thoughts " " I'm pretty positive my pain isn't cool enough " " ache it 'til you make it " " in another life, you were my babe " " I used to be a real go-getter " " I used to think it'd all get better "

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