missingmnemosyne

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Body Memories & Unique Softness

I think one of many things that makes Xavier so cute is his emphasis on memory.

He's made it clear once he likes someone, he doesn't plan on stopping. He plans on incorporating you into his life. He wants you to get used to being with him forever, even if it's in your memories.

The use of body memories is also something I'm very fond of, that idea that even if you forget something your body remembers, because in a romantic way it's as if the heart and soul remembers. He worries he'll never be able to see you again, hear you again. What if you turn into stardust in his arms again?

Personally, even in the Intimacy Cards I think there is unique softness in Xavier confessing his fear that all of his senses will fail when he needs them the most, because in Xavier's case it has already had dire consequences. Sure, it could be simple PWP, but it can also be interpreted as guilt manifesting.

He was already not fast enough, what if next time he can't feel you or hear you call his name? If he doesn't connect with you by now, does that mean he's a lost cause?

Xavier only sees you. Only wants to be with you. He is running on sapped energy and yet, wants to spend the whole day by your side. If he falls asleep, he wants you to wake him up. If you're in trouble, he doesn't want you to worry about burdening him. When he falls, he trusts his Partner to catch him. He's not just your accomplice and you're not just his acquaintance. This is a romance is built on complete trust.

You are Partners. Xavier is going at the same pace as you as MC because he wants to be on the same page. He loves you; You as MC are special and important to him, so of course that's the case. He wants to feel you with all of your senses in the hopes that you will never forget him.

He buys books about Date Ideas and How To Make Your Intentions Clear, and waxes poetic in the vastness of space knowing his betrothed might not ever hear it, because he misses you.

Even as Prince of Philos, he only wanted to rule with if you (as MC) were by his side. He discovered planets as a Lightseeker and thought, "She would love this." He proposed the night before learning Starfall Forest was consuming his people made him resort to a half baked plan to save your life out of desperation. Because he thought he could deal with it quickly, just like when you were classmates and just like in your MCs current life.

Yet and still, Xavier even wants to see you in his dreams. He only thinks of you on two occasions: that's day and night. You are his star and he is yours. You'll protect him and he'll protect you.

Xavier really is the best ִֶָ𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ🐇་༘࿐๋ ࣭ ⭑๋ ࣭ ⭑

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Xavier, texting MC after an argument: Can I call you, please?

MC: No, I'm trying to stay mad at you and your voice makes me weak.

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The look at his face at the transition. 💔

Especially his eyes...Like...his eyes lost its light. 😭

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screams IM ILL

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ಥ﹏ಥ They've been accustomed to each other for so long ಥ﹏ಥ

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King of Darknight

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For my fellow Xavie girls 🐇

infold really took all of my fictional boyfriends and turned them into one.

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Canon things about Xavier that I think are funny and people might forget:

Tastes:

Loves spicy food but dislikes wasabi

Enjoys multi-culture foods as long as it involves meats

Dislikes extremely bitter things

Neutral on sweets, it isn't his go-to and doesn't often get them alone, but does occasionally enjoy them

Prefers savory, salty, and spicy

Alcohol tolerance is very high

Prefers beer

Not a fan of vegetables but doesn't mind them juiced

Favorite fruit is cherries

Home:

Has a massive two-person bean bag chair that occasionally he or MC nap on

Has a workout section of his house so he doesn't have to leave the house and can nap right after working out

Has a garden on his balcony with a few flowers, herbs, and frequently harvests strawberries

Prefers homeopathic and traditional medicine

Culinary:

Great at mixing drinks

Great at making coffee; the one time he messed it up for MC even he was surprised and blamed his coffee maker, it hasn't happened since

Good at cooking things that are cold (anything that doesn't require heating up), master salad and sandwich maker although according to 21 Days he's also improved in soup making!

Lifestyle:

Is extremely rich and philanthropic

Graduated with several degrees

Volunteering and side jobs to help backtracker friends, Jeremiah, and other older humans he's met through his lifetime

Commonly stops to help strangers

Despite oversleeping a lot he's never late (lucky)

Has become a morning person even waking up earlier than MC often

Is a ranked FPS player 😭 (He's platinum)

Has a lot of friends he goes out of his way to see often, outside of MC

Stopped practicing piano for a while

Occasionally helps out at a bookstore near the seaside Destiny Café

Holds on to a lot of nostalgic things, even if it's useless

Weakness for small children

Hobbies:

Glass blowing

Fruit and veggie juicing

Traditional calligraphy (masterful enough to teach)

Generally good at all video games

Undefeated in Pile Up

Fishing + Ocean fishing

Reading

Gardening

Poetry

Horror films

Can't stand cheesy movies

Is known to commentate over movies he's not enjoying (yes even if MC is present and enjoying it until she tells him up shut up.)

Bird watching

Music (Listens to a wide variety and also composes his own)

Collects vinyls and CDs

Photography (digital + film)

Fondant + cake decorating (don't ask him to bake it though he can decorate)

Absolutely horrendous at drawing but he likes to doodle

General:

You think he's soft but has ruthless comebacks

Won't hesitate to say no even if you beg

Makes time and effort to spend time with other friends

Often asked to babysit Frankie

Has had to kill off a lot of people who've turned on him, in order to protect MC

Prefers phone calls to texting

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──── 𝑭𝑨𝑳𝑳𝑬𝑵 𝑪𝑹𝑶𝑾𝑵

╰ 𝑿𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒓 LOVE AND DEEPSPACE: FALLEN CROWN

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──── 𝑭𝑨𝑳𝑳𝑬𝑵 𝑪𝑹𝑶𝑾𝑵

╰ 𝑿𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒓 LOVE AND DEEPSPACE: FALLEN CROWN

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ଘ( ･ω･)_/ﾟ･:*:･｡☆

may the lumenflora guide the cutie bunny king to find his way home to you queens °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

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I couldn’t help but draw him 🥀

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✨️good luck everyone! ✨️🖤

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Switched the wigs because these colors match better to me 🫶🏾👑

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"don't leave."

his hand circles around your wrist when you shift ever so slightly, rustled clothing filled the once peaceful silence. his voice is muffled into your shoulder, his brows furrowed at the disturbance... and a pout on his lips.

a small breath fans the skin of your exposed shoulder, his nose skimming almost the surface. half asleep. words jumbled and not quite awake. but his grip is assured. seeking.

"don't..." he trails off, grumbling incoherently, and the sight almost makes you laugh. your mirth is greeted with an eye lazily pried open. "'s not funny. you're leaving me all alone. it's cold."

"i'm just going to the bathroom..."

your reasoning falls on deaf ears, much to your growing amusement and disbelief. sylus lets out a huff and turns around on his side, petulance evident in the seemingly nonchalant manner of his body language. his bare back expands with an exaggerated sigh of resignation.

"sylus—"

"no, no. if you loved me, you would have used the bathroom beforehand. clearly love is not something your bladder has for the sanctity of sleeping together."

he waves you off, a light waggle of his fingers, and draws the covers over himself. you can only exhale and laugh quietly to yourself. unable to help it, you linger just for a few more seconds and crawl back into bed.

"marriage has made you soft." your voice teases him, pressing a kiss to his shoulder. "you used to go days without seeing me and now you can't handle five minutes."

sylus turns, sleepiness doing little to hide the devotion in his gaze. his hand gently cradles the side of your face before he speaks. "i waited for you for years. forgive me for being greedy."

"it's just the bathroom," you protest weakly. damn him and his penchant for making your heart flutter. his head tilts, unmoved at your rebuttal.

"so? i would sit on the toilet while you showered if you let me. i want to be everywhere you are."

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chinese hanfu

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"Be honest with me, Cutie. Please." But his words are slurring, his cheeks are flushed a pretty shade of pink, and you swear there are tears brimming in those beautiful duo-chrome eyes.

"Raf, you're drunk..." But he clings onto you tighter, more of his weight falling into your hold as he nearly chokes on a sob. "I don't care, Cutie. Please, just be honest when I a-ask this." A little blip, the tiniest choke, but you know you can't deny him now.

"Okay, okay. Anything, ask me anything and I'll be honest." The night air was slightly chilly by the water, his home was only a few blocks away. But whatever he needed to ask you, he needed to ask it now. Nothing else would subdue him until he got an answer.

"Do you see me as more than a friend?"

It was said so confidently, so steadily, you nearly tripped on the pavement and took him down with you. "Rafayel-" But he grabbed onto you tighter, steadying you despite being unsteady on his own feet. You had no choice but to look at him, stare into those eyes and-

"You said you'd be honest with me, cutie. So answer my question honestly." Your throat was dry, your mouth full of sand, he was centimeters from your face, noses nearly brushing, his breath warm and lingering with the scent of alcohol.

"You're drunk, I'd rather have this conversation when I know you'll remember what I say." But his nose is scrunching, those pretty lips turning downward in a pout. Fuck he was so cute, so pretty, so endearing. He was a siren, that was the only way to describe him.

"We can h-have this conversation again in the morning, and you'll tell me what I want to hear. But I will never forgive you if you don't answer me right no-hmph!" You crushed yourself to him, pulling that infuriatingly perfect face against your own.

He tasted of champagne, fizzy drinks, something so uniquely Rafayel that you couldn't help but whine. Despite his drunken state, he was able to catch up quick. His hands groping every part of you that he could reach, mouth moving sloppily against your own.

Actions have always spoken louder than words, and you hoped that this would be enough to satisfy is drunken thoughts. Maybe subdue the insecurities that ebbed their way up his spine and landed him where he was now.

“Does that answer your question?” You gasp, barely getting the sentence out before Rafayel’s lips chased yours again. Before they connected, you swore he mumbled out a “yes.”

At least when he crashed, he landed in your embrace.