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Grabbed Bumbling Boatswain's coat. Kinda like this pairing better than Blue Bird Ult. Might be the fill-in for this outfit till I can get Dancing Performer's coat or just a whole different outfit in mind.

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Got the little flower I mentioned in the other post

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Made a new icon based off my old one and my Sky-Kid

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Was able to find a Shared Space Spell someone placed in the Vault of Knowledge with the Alice in Wonderland gate item placed down. I was able to use it to access the unique space and get the White Rabbit's hair extremely early compared to when I was expecting to.

Got a new look put together cause of it that I think I'll be using for a good while.

Only thing I might change at some point is that there's a new head accessory with a blue flower and a butterfly that I might replace the crown with, but I'd need to buy it first and I have no want to right now. Just another version that I've got in mind.

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First A rank last night

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Just had my first two Career wins in a row in Uma Musume, though neither of them got any speed inspirations despite 900+ speed on both

Suzuka got Stamina 1 and Scarlet got Guts 1

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Recently returned to a shiny hunt in Pokemon Legends Arceus I had initially done a bit of before the pandemic.

P/great IVs to start with too

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Changed up my look in Sky after the concert I saw on monday.

Through the Eyes of a Child hit me like a fucking truck emotionally, but specifically because of it's third verse...

When a Human strokes your skin

That is when you let them in

Let them in before they go

I'd rather feel alive with a child like soul

With a child like soul

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I attended my first concert in Sky today. Aurora Homecoming. An absolutely amazing experience that had me emotionally wrecked the whole time. Trimmed down some recordings and got each song up on youtube too, which lead to making my first playlist on my channel. Go check 'em out if you'd like.

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So I could've finished Expedition 33 last week, but I got really sucked into Hololive's Enigmatic Recollection season 2 while also just not really feeling like E33.

I finished it today though, sadly not in a most optimal way/in the best mood though. I was initially wanting to do all the side-content so I was working through all of that yesterday and most of today. I kinda intended on Platinum for the game since I enjoyed it for the most part beyond some annoying mini-games.

It's a little rough to play, for similar reasons as Sekiro was kinda a pain to get through (though I did, multiple times, and loved it). I have a disorder called Developmental Coordination Disorder. Some of it's symptoms include difficulty in fine-motor control, and a delay in the body's reception of signals from the brain. Essentially meaning I have IRL input-lag. Which for games with tightly timed stuff like E33's or Sekiro's parry mechanics, it can be rough. It's also why I've stepped back from a lot of PvP games, cause so many of them are just twitch shooters now, and I can't keep up regardless how much I play, improve, or learn.

This was fine for most of E33, but earlier today I checked out one of it's super bosses and... yeah, no, fuck that. Dude's timing feels like it's all over the place, he does enough damage to take someone down by half if not full in one hit if I fail to parry or dodge anything, and if a party member goes down then he can just permanently remove them from the rest of that phase. Oh, and yeah, I said that right, the PHASE. Fucker apparently has three phases, and in one of them he just decides to erase your entire primary party from the fight, forcing you to use your backup characters. His second phase just gets even worse than the first with an after-image following-up most of his attacks, and he can STILL remove downed party members from the fight entirely.

When I saw that second phase, after trying the first a few times with it's already rather BS stuff, I just lost all interest in even attempting it. I wasn't about to put my balls to that sandpaper covered grind-stone and keep trying till it was done, fuck no, I'd rather remain sane.

Which, in turn, made me lose any interest in platinum (killing that super boss is one of the trophy requirements) so I just blitzed to the end through the final zone instead.

Overall, Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 is an honestly wonderful game. It's music is fantastic (though very few tracks truly gripped me), it's combat is mostly fun, it's art style is gorgeous all around, it's characters are fun and both them and the story are extremely well written. It's one of few games where things were sprinkled in earlier on that I made connections to that, when later revealed, were really satisfying.

I honestly wouldn't rave and say it's GOTY 2025 100%, I have a number of problems with it (other than the super boss just being a massive pile of rusty-nail-filled shit), but it's definitely one of the better releases of the year so far. I just wish I could've ended it off on a better note in a better mood. Either way, thank you Sandfall Interactive.

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Not felt this horrid in a while

Of course it's today tho

Not too surprised

Terrible sleep + horrible headache + generally lower mood + low energy + piece of shit brain + horrid touch starvation = painful combo

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I fucking swear, any search of F4M ASMR audios on youtube has 50%-60% if not more of the results just fucking LITTERED with Yandere shit, it needs to be fucking studied at this point cause holy fuck is it ever getting annoying as all hell, I want to listen to calming/feel good stuff not some crazy bitch with an obvious undertone of threatening to fucking murder me for the tiniest little fuck up, fuck off

I've actually been looking more for M4M stuff lately cause of this, and what a surprise, hardly anything yandere on that end!

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Literally worst sleep in a long ass time

Everything's sore

Other news, guess who finally picked up Sky, Children of the Light

My Starchild looks like a Jojo character

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12 more days of 27

And I couldn't give any less of a shit honestly

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Never felt safe

Never felt comfortable

Never felt relaxed

Body has felt wound up for well over a decade

Body aches on a regular basis for physical affection it'll never recieve

Brain never shuts up about self-loathing and doubts

Brain can never listen to positive things that it knows are true

Exhausted

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Woke up and body chose pain

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The touch starvation's been getting horrid lately

Between just having been a thing in general, having watched so many rom anime the past while, and so many anime I looked forward to watching every week have their finale's this past two weeks with even more ending this week

It hurts, my body hasn't felt relaxed or comfortable in months, and there are times where I just ache for hours on end