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mnnuni · 29 days ago
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potter!reader x remus lupin au m.list
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ˋ°•*⁀➷ navigation
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꩜ smut ❀ fluff 𖤓 angsty/angry 𖤐 funny
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✩the beginning - How potter!reader and Remus end up together (❀)
✩ sirius scolds- When potter!reader and Remus aren’t too careful about hiding their relationship, Sirius gives them a scolding… (𖤐)
✩ closed curtains and open doors -  Remus and potter!reader still aren’t careful enough in hiding their relationship from James (꩜𖤐)
✩low waisted jeans - you don’t realise you have bruises on your hips when putting on low waisted jeans, and your brother becomes protective over you (𖤐)
✩ the map - In which james gets suspicious about remus and his sister. marlene, sirius and lily cover up for them (𖤓𖤐)
✩brief exposure- When James tries setting you and Remus up, Remus stirs up a lie to keep your secret safe for a little while longer (❀𖤐)
✩a couple months later - Sirius finally reveals the truth to a knowing James (❀𖤓𖤐)
✩ two sides, one door - You go to James after Remus yells at you before a full moon (❀𖤓)
✩ occupied dorm - when Lily gets sick of the commotion in the common room, she is locked out of her dorm because you are occupying it (❀꩜𖤐)
✩ traditions - you and james have a tradition of sneaking out into the courtyard every year on your birthday at midnight, reading the letters from your parents and opening gifts. (❀) COMING SOON...
✩ a few opinions - james finds you crying to remus because of slughorn's disrespectful comments, and decides to tell professor mcgonagall a few opinions about his potions professor (𖤓❀) COMING SOON...
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mnnuni · 1 month ago
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hiii!!! I saw your request were opened and got really excited lol
can I request a Legolas x reader having an angry love confession with a happy ending? U can add as much angst or fluff wanted !
I hope your day goes well <3
Until Dawn
Legolas X half-elf!half-human!Reader
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The clatter of hooves and voices cut through the stillness of the late afternoon. You glanced up from behind the bar, pausing mid-wipe of a glass, your fingers tightening around its rim. Travelers were common in this stretch of the woods, but not ones with such purposeful strides or cloaks woven with the threads of old legends.
The door creaked open, and a gust of wind swept in with the first of them. A tall figure stepped through—and your breath caught.
Silver-blond hair. Eyes like starlight through a winter sky. Legolas.
You didn’t realize you’d frozen until he looked at you, recognition flickering across his face like sunlight on rippling water.
“You,” he said softly, a smile ghosting over his lips. “I had wondered if the stories were true.”
“What stories?” you asked, setting down the glass carefully.
“That the half-elf who once sang Dwarvish drinking songs and shot arrows through the dark of Mirkwood now runs an inn... and claims to be done with the road.”
You huffed a laugh, masking the sudden twist in your chest. “I made a promise to myself. No more goblins, no more dragons, no more running for my life. Just quiet, warm beds and decent ale.”
The rest of the Fellowship trickled in—Aragorn with his wary grace, Gimli grumbling about the cold, and a pair of curious Hobbits looking like they’d never seen such a place before.
“I never thought I’d see you again,” you admitted, voice softer now, carrying only to him. “I thought you stayed in the Woodland Realm.”
“I left,” he said. “There are greater shadows moving now. The kind that threaten all lands, even quiet glades like this one.”
You met his gaze, the old bond between you sparking back to life as though no years had passed.
“I’m not the same as I was,” you said quietly.
“No,” he agreed. “You’re stronger now. But the world still needs you.”
You turned your back, pretending to straighten a bottle on the shelf. "The road nearly broke me, Legolas. I don't know if I have it in me again."
A pause. Then his voice, low and sure: “You don’t have to decide tonight. Just share a meal with us. Rest. Then listen to what the world is asking.”
You closed your eyes for a moment, then turned back to face him. “One night,” you said. “No promises.”
He smiled. “That’s all I ask.”
And somewhere, in the quiet beneath your ribs, something old and restless stirred.
As the last of the Fellowship settled into the great hall, shedding cloaks and weariness like autumn leaves, you quietly made your way to the front door. The bell above gave a faint chime as you opened it and stepped into the dusky twilight
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You looked out at the fading sun, your jaw tightening as you reached up and flipped the wooden sign to closed. The familiar scrape of it swinging into place felt heavier tonight. You didn’t want your usuals wandering in, recognizing faces from stories they'd only half-believed, or—worse—asking questions you’d buried under hearth and routine.
When you returned inside, your two staff members were waiting by the counter, mid-laugh over something. You didn’t smile.
“Here,” you said, pressing coin into their palms, “Head home early. Lock the back on your way out.”
They exchanged glances. One opened her mouth to protest—you never sent them off this abruptly—but you shook your head with a tone that brooked no argument. “Not tonight.”
A beat of silence passed. Then, with hesitant nods, they slipped away. As their footsteps faded, the inn fell into a deeper quiet. It was just you and the Fellowship now.
You lit the hearth anew and began preparing a meal: roasted root vegetables, venison stew, fresh loaves warmed over coals. The motions were old, soothing—until a familiar footfall approached behind you.
“I remember when you could barely cook a rabbit over a fire,” Legolas said lightly.
You didn’t turn. “And I remember when you were insufferable.”
“That cannot be true,” he said with a faint laugh.
Your hands stilled over the chopping board. You breathed in through your nose.
“I was not the one who kept dwarves as company.”
You exhaled slowly. The knife in your hand trembled.
“Don’t.”
His grin faded instantly.
“Don’t bring them into this,” you said, voice hoarse. “I live with their ghosts every day.”
Legolas was silent for a long moment. You resumed chopping, though your cuts were no longer even. Each thunk of the blade echoed too loudly in the warm space between you.
“I thought you might want to remember them,” he said softly.
“I do remember them. Every night. Every time I close my eyes. Kili, grinning as he handed me his last dried pear. Thorin, bloody and dying in the mud, telling me—” Your voice cracked, and you pressed your fist to your mouth. “You don’t get to walk in here and open that door, Legolas. Not like this.”
A long silence stretched. You kept your back to him.
Finally, he said, “I am sorry. Truly. I didn’t come to wound you.”
You swallowed, forcing the knot in your throat down, back into the place where you kept it buried.
“I know,” you said at last.
He didn’t leave. But he didn’t press. You felt him step closer, and for a moment his presence was a comfort—but still a dangerous one. A reminder of who you were. Of what the road takes.
And still… it stirred something in you. Something old. Something that had once burned with purpose.
You set the knife down and stared into the hearth.
The inn was warm now, the fire casting golden light over old wood and tired faces. The Fellowship ate in relative quiet, grateful for the food and for the brief peace. You worked behind the bar, polishing mugs and pretending not to watch them.
But you felt it. The way some of them looked at you with curiosity, as if trying to place you—not just as an innkeeper, but as someone... else.
Frodo was the one who finally broke the silence.
“You were in Bilbo’s journal,” he said gently.
You looked up, a mug still in your hand. “Was I?”
He nodded, setting down his spoon. “There was a drawing—almost like a sketch from memory. A half-elf woman with a braid down her back, and a scar across her temple.” His eyes flicked to the faint mark just beneath your hairline, still visible in the flicker of firelight. “He said you moved like moonlight with a blade. That you fought like someone trying to outrun the end of the world.”
You didn’t speak at first. You returned to your task, cloth circling the rim of the mug, slower now.
“Aye,” you murmured at last, “That was a long time ago.”
Aragorn watched you then, thoughtful, but said nothing. The room held a breath.
Frodo’s voice was quiet. “He wrote about how you fought in the Battle of the Five Armies. Said you moved with the grace of the Eldar—but when you struck, there was something in it... a fury, raw and burning. Like the world had wronged you.”
You paused again. Set the mug down.
“He wasn’t wrong,” you said, your voice steady, though your eyes flicked to the fire. “I lost my brothers that day. Kili... and Thorin. Perhaps not by blood, but in every way that matters.”
“I’m sorry,” Frodo said, with the quiet sincerity only someone still young in the world can offer.
You nodded once. “We all carry ghosts. Mine just sit closer to the skin.”
Legolas, across the room, didn’t look at you, but his hand rested lightly on the hilt of his blade—as though remembering the same battle. The same blood.
“I remember that journal,” he said quietly. “Bilbo called you Eluneth—Moon-blessed. Said you were the only one who could outdrink Bofur and outrun a Warg in the same night.”
That pulled the faintest smile from you. “He embellished.”
“No,” Gimli grunted, lifting his mug, “He didn’t. Bofur still complains about it.”
A small ripple of laughter lightened the air, but your smile didn’t reach your eyes. Your fingers curled around the bar’s edge.
Frodo tilted his head, studying you. “If you were part of Thorin’s Company… why did you stop?”
You looked at him, really looked. At the way his shoulders tensed with questions and quiet burden.
“Because I gave enough to the road,” you said simply. “It took my youth, my friends, and my peace. I thought if I built something steady, something safe… maybe the world would leave me be.”
“And has it?” Aragorn asked, his voice low.
You met his gaze. “You tell me. You’re sitting in my hall with war on your heels.”
The silence that followed was heavier than before.
You picked up the next mug and began to polish again. “Eat while the food’s warm. Sleep while the roof holds. Tomorrow, the world finds you again.”
And as you turned away, your voice softened to a whisper meant only for yourself.
“It always does.”
The inn had gone still. The fire burned low, its glow casting soft shadows across the stone hearth. The mugs were cleaned, the food cleared away. The Fellowship had long since retreated to their rooms or bedrolls, lulled by warmth and weariness.
But you sat alone in a worn chair near the fire, half-empty bottle of mead at your side, boots kicked off, legs curled beneath you. One hand rested on your knee, the other held a cup you hadn’t taken a sip from in a while. You stared into the flames, jaw slack, thoughts thick with the weight of old wounds.
The softest creak of floorboards stirred your awareness, but you didn’t look up. You knew who it would be.
Legolas appeared like a memory made flesh, moving without sound until he stood just beyond the firelight, arms loose at his sides, hair unbound from travel.
“You always drank honey-mead when you were thinking too much,” he said, a half-smile on his lips.
You raised the cup, but still didn’t drink. “And you always appear when I least want company.”
He tilted his head, undeterred. “Then I’m exactly where I need to be.”
You sighed, glancing sideways as he stepped closer and took the seat opposite you. For a moment, he just watched the fire with you, like you were back in some forgotten camp beneath the stars.
“I was thinking,” he began, tone light, “about the first time I saw you. You were being dragged into Thranduil’s halls, soaked to the skin, shouting at Glóin for getting you caught.”
You snorted softly. “He did get us caught. He sneezed. Loudly.”
“I remember.” He smiled wider now. “And you, snapping at the guards in three different languages before turning that fury on me.”
“I didn’t know who you were.”
“You called me a pompous tree-weasel.”
You choked on a laugh and finally sipped your drink. “Sounds like me.”
He leaned back slightly, eyes gleaming with some old, private amusement. “But I watched you. Even then. I couldn’t place what you were—elf and human both, but more than either. You didn’t carry yourself like someone trapped. You watched the halls like a soldier would. Like you were already planning how to get out.”
You didn’t answer. The fire cracked softly between you.
“When you escaped with the dwarves,” he continued, voice lowering, “I told my father I saw you leap into a barrel like it was a warhorse. And later, in the woods—when you fired into the trees to cover their retreat—your arrows flew like mine. No hesitation. No fear.”
Your jaw clenched. “You don’t have to say these things.”
“I’m not saying them to flatter you.” He leaned forward slightly, hands resting on his knees. “I’ve met warriors across all the ages. Elves, men, even the proudest Dwarves. But I never forgot the look on your face that day. You weren’t fighting to win. You were fighting not to lose anyone else.”
A beat passed. You looked into the fire, and for the first time that night, your voice wavered.
“I loved them. Not all of them—but enough to bleed for. To die for.”
“I know.”
“I would have taken Thorin’s place in that final charge,” you said quietly. “I would have stood before Azog myself if I thought it would’ve bought him another breath.”
Silence wrapped the room again.
“I think that’s why I watched you,” he said. “Because I knew—if I blinked, I’d miss you burning.”
You met his gaze now. And there it was: the truth of it, sitting between you like a long-unspoken vow.
“I’m tired, Legolas,” you whispered. “And I don’t know what I have left to give.”
He reached out, not touching, just resting his hand close to yours on the armrest. “Then don’t give anything. Not tonight. Just sit with me. Let the ghosts rest for a while.”
You looked down at his hand, then at the fire. And though you didn’t say it, you didn’t pull away either.
In the silence that followed, there was no war, no crown, no past. Just you, and the elf who never stopped watching.
The fire had burned low, now little more than glowing embers nestled in ash. The bottle beside you was empty, your cup untouched for hours. Legolas had fallen asleep in the chair across from you, arms folded, head tilted slightly to the side, his expression softer than you’d ever seen it in battle or daylight.
You watched him for a while, feeling a strange pull of comfort and sorrow. He always looked younger in sleep. Less of a prince, more of the curious elf who had once tried to understand why you, a half-blood stranger, would ever choose to walk with dwarves into death.
But sleep didn’t come for you—not anymore.
The silence wrapped itself around you like a too-tight cloak, and slowly, the weight of memory began to stir.
There’s a flicker in the fire and suddenly you were laughing again. The clamor of a camp at the edge of Mirkwood, Bofur’s wild song about mountain goats and bad ale ringing in your ears. Kili throwing a twig at you because you said he couldn’t grow a real beard yet. You’d thrown it back, striking him square in the forehead.
“Tell me I’m not the prettiest one in this company,” he had said once, arms spread dramatically. “Go on, say it. You can’t, can you?”
You had smirked, braid half-undone, fingers calloused from the bowstring. “You’re lucky you’re not my type.”
He’d clutched his heart as if you’d shot him, then winked and walked off into the trees.
The warmth twisted.
Another flicker—and you were in Erebor.
Blood in your mouth. Thorin’s hand in yours, his grip weak, eyes clouded with too much pain.
“I was wrong,” he said, voice rasping like wind through broken stone. “I see it now. I see you.”
You had begged him to hold on. Promised him that the sun would rise, and that he would see the mountain whole again. But his breath had rattled in his chest—and stilled.
You had sat there for a long time, knuckles white around the hilt of your blade. Kili lay not far. Fili, already taken.
Only silence answered you.
You pressed your fingers to your eyes, willing the sting away, but it clung, thick as smoke.
“I should’ve stayed,” you whispered, barely audible. “I should’ve done more.”
The ghosts didn’t answer. They never did. But the ache of their absence filled the room all the same.
And yet...
There were other memories too. Softer ones. Bifur teaching you Dwarvish insults you were far too proud of. Balin telling stories until sleep took him mid-sentence. Bombur slipping you extra rations when you looked pale. Thorin, once, catching you singing in Elvish to calm your nerves and saying nothing—just sitting beside you, silent, as though listening to a memory he couldn’t name.
And Legolas. Always watching from the edge. Distant at first. Then fascinated. Then something else.
The present curled around your shoulders again, and you looked over at him, still fast asleep in the chair, the rise and fall of his chest steady.
You reached for the blanket draped over the nearby bench, quietly laying it across him. He stirred but didn’t wake.
As you sat back down, hands loose in your lap, you whispered into the dim room:
“I don't know if I can face another war. But maybe… I don't want to be the last of us, either.”
You didn’t sleep that night. But for the first time in years, you didn’t feel completely alone in the dark.
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Dawn crept in slowly, brushing the sky in pale blue and soft gold. Birds sang tentative notes outside your shuttered windows, but the inn remained hushed.
The hearth was cold now. The chairs had been returned to their places. Tables were wiped clean, mugs polished and shelved, the rooms above emptied of guest linens. The scent of firewood and rosemary lingered, but your inn—the life you had built to keep the world out—was closed.
Literally.
The sign on the door now read “Gone traveling. Indefinitely."
When the Fellowship awoke, one by one, they descended the stairs expecting breakfast and soft beds to still be theirs. Instead, they found you standing near the door, your pack slung over one shoulder, traveling leathers worn like a second skin, bow strapped to your back, and a dagger resting easily at your hip.
Sam blinked in confusion. “Are you… going somewhere, miss?”
You gave a nod, small but sure. “Aye. With you.”
Frodo froze mid-step. “You’re—what?”
“I packed light,” you said, adjusting the strap on your shoulder. “Can’t say I’m thrilled about sleeping under stars again, but…” You trailed off, eyes briefly scanning the group before settling on Legolas.
He was already watching you.
There was no surprise in his face. No shock like the others. Only a quiet calm. Like a note held long and true finally finding its resolution.
“I knew it,” he said, lips tugging into a faint smile.
Aragorn stepped forward, brows knit. “What changed your mind?”
You met his gaze evenly. “Nothing. Everything. I remembered that the world doesn’t stop turning just because I pretend it has. And if it falls while I sit behind a bar, what did I survive for?”
Even Gimli seemed speechless for a moment. “Hmph. Well. If you’re coming along, I hope you still remember how to march.”
“Better than you remember how to bathe,” you quipped.
That drew a snort from Boromir and a laugh from Merry and Pippin, breaking the stunned silence.
As they gathered their things, still murmuring about your choice, Legolas stepped closer, his voice low for only you.
“You were never going to stay behind,” he said, almost gently.
You looked up at him, your voice steady. “No. But I had to believe I would, until I didn’t.”
He nodded once. “Then let us walk forward. Together this time.”
You studied him a long moment, then gave a small, wry smile.
“Try to keep up, princeling.”
You pushed open the door, letting in the crisp morning air. The road waited, as it always had.
But this time, you didn’t face it alone.
The quiet had ended.
The road to Moria had been long and steep, but nothing compared to the cold weight that settled on your chest the moment you passed through the threshold of the once-great dwarven realm.
Darkness clung to the air like dust, and even your elven blood couldn’t soothe the dread coiling in your gut. These were not halls of glory now, not the shining marvel Gimli had spoken of with such pride.
They were tombs.
Your steps echoed too loudly as you walked. The Fellowship moved in a hush, each bootfall and breath drawing the stone’s attention like an unwanted guest.
Gimli had fallen silent long ago.
You watched him, the way he held his axe tight to his chest like a lifeline, eyes wide as he passed shattered archways and collapsed pillars. His gaze darted toward dark corners, as if hoping—aching—for a familiar face to emerge.
But none came.
And then you reached the Chamber of Records.
The skeletons lay still where they had fallen. Weapons rusted. Dust thick on old shields. It was not war that filled the space now, but mourning.
Gimli moved to the tomb at the center like a man in a dream. You followed without meaning to.
He brushed aside what little remained of a helm and whispered a name: “Balin.”
You froze.
Balin.
Old, kind, sharp-eyed Balin—who once told you riddles on long rides and always made you take the last bit of stew. Balin, who had held your hand when Thorin died, his voice cracking as he promised to carry the king’s memory home.
Your throat closed.
“He was the best of us,” you murmured.
Gimli’s shoulders shook. “He was our hope. Our history. And now—he is dust.”
You stepped forward, placing a hand gently on his arm.
“He believed in this place,” you said. “And if he had known it would take him, I think he would have come anyway. That was the kind of dwarf he was.”
Gimli didn’t speak, but he nodded once, tightly.
“I thought the ghosts I carried were mine alone,” you continued, voice softer. “But grief… it finds us all. And when it does, it binds us.”
He turned to you, eyes wet and fierce. “Do they ever stop speaking to you? The ones you lost?”
You hesitated, your gaze falling to Balin’s tomb.
“No,” you said. “But sometimes, they stop screaming.”
A long moment passed between you—two remnants of the Company, survivors of a story carved in blood and stone. Then Gimli nodded again, slower this time, and placed a rough hand over yours.
“Thank you,” he said.
You squeezed back. “We’ll carry them forward. As we always have.”
Behind you, the Fellowship waited in silence. Even Legolas, usually still and watchful, looked at you now not with curiosity, but understanding.
The grief had found you both. And for this moment, you bore it together.
They came like shadows with blades—goblins pouring from the walls, the ceilings, the dark. The tomb of Balin was barely behind you when the Fellowship was forced into motion, swords drawn, feet pounding over cold stone.
You loosed arrows until your fingers ached, each one flying true—some finding skulls, others throats—but they kept coming.
“RUN!” Gandalf’s voice cracked through the chaos, ancient and fierce.
The Fellowship fled, boots striking the echoing halls of Moria. Behind you, the goblins shrieked, relentless, swarming like ants through the cracks in the stone.
The drums of war pounded.
Dum. Dum. DUM.
You passed dark pits and crumbling bridges, pillars shattered by time. You didn’t dare slow. You barely breathed.
And then came the heat.
A low rumble.
A deeper shadow.
The Balrog.
It wasn’t just fire. It was rage made flesh, born from the ancient pits of a forgotten world. You stopped when you saw it—just for a heartbeat—but Gandalf didn’t.
He turned on the Bridge of Khazad-dûm, staff in hand, sword gleaming like starlight in the dark.
“This foe is beyond any of you. Run!”
You didn’t want to leave. Every part of you screamed to stay.
But Aragorn pulled Frodo. Boromir shielded the hobbits. Legolas grabbed your arm as you hesitated, your eyes locked on the wizard’s back.
“Go,” he said. “Now.”
You stumbled forward, breath ragged, until you stood with the others at the far end of the bridge. Just in time to see the Balrog crash forward—flames licking the stone as it advanced.
And Gandalf—brave, maddening, kind Gandalf—stood alone.
“You shall not pass!”
The blast of light from his staff shattered the dark for one blinding moment. The Balrog faltered—then fell, crashing into the abyss.
Relief struck—until the whip lashed back, curling around Gandalf’s ankles.
You saw his eyes then. Not fear, not regret.
Resolve.
“Fly, you fools—!”
And then he was gone.
Silence fell.
And it screamed.
You didn’t remember how you escaped the mountain. Only that your feet moved and the world blurred and somehow, sunlight burned your eyes when you emerged from the tunnel.
The Fellowship collapsed to the grass and stone. Frodo sobbed quietly. Sam sat staring at the dirt. Gimli hung his head in shaking silence.
You stood apart from them.
Legolas approached, hesitant. “We must move on—”
“Don’t,” you snapped, voice sharp.
He paused, his expression faltering.
You turned to him, and for the first time in years, your grief burned through the surface like wildfire through dry wood.
“I have already lost Balin in this cursed mountain. And now I’ve lost Gandalf too.” Your voice cracked. “And it’s only just begun.”
Legolas reached for you—slowly, gently—but you stepped back.
“I don’t know how much grief I have left to carry,” you whispered. “And I don’t know what’s left of me when it runs out.”
He didn’t speak.
You looked down at your hands—scarred, steady, stained by years of blood—and saw the ghosts rise behind your eyes.
Balin, laughing over a campfire.
“You’ll never beat a dwarf at riddles, lass, but I’ll enjoy watching you try.”
His eyes always twinkled like he saw more than he said.
Gandalf, placing a steadying hand on your shoulder as you trembled in Erebor’s aftermath.
“Even the fiercest fire cools, child. But your spirit—it will forge something new from these ashes.”
You had believed him then.
But now… now the fire only took.
You sat down hard in the grass, legs finally giving out, and stared at the distant sky. The others were quiet. No one had words left.
Even the sun, warm as it was, couldn’t thaw what had been lost.
The Golden Wood greeted you in silence.
The moment you crossed into Lothlórien, it was as if the weight of the world loosened, only slightly, from your shoulders. The air shimmered faintly with magic—ageless, slow, and watching. Sunlight pierced the canopy in golden beams, illuminating the green and gold leaves like fire frozen mid-dance.
The others seemed to feel it too. Their steps grew quieter, breath deeper. The grief from Moria still clung, but here… it was dimmed.
Muted.
You stayed near the back of the Fellowship, your presence quiet and inward. Even Legolas, who normally hovered close, let you be—watching you with unreadable eyes.
Then came the soft sound of approaching boots across leaf-laden ground.
You turned at once, bow half-lifted—then lowered it instantly.
“Haldir,” you breathed.
The elf smiled, and it was like watching a tree in spring—still, serene, but warm beneath the surface.
“I thought the wind smelled of old fire and bowstring,” he said. “I dared not believe it.”
You stepped forward without thought, and for the first time in what felt like days—maybe longer—your posture softened. Haldir’s hand found your shoulder, and yours settled on his forearm, a brief clasp of warriors, friends, kin.
“I did not think I’d see you again,” you murmured.
“I often think the same,” he replied. “And yet, here we are.”
There was laughter in his voice—gentle, low. It stirred something in you that had been buried under stone and blood: memory. Of laughing beneath moonlight. Of shared patrols. Of long talks in old trees about the stars and the silence between them.
With Haldir, there was no past to bleed from. Only stillness. Understanding.
Legolas watched from a few paces away.
He did not speak. But his jaw tightened slightly as your laugh, soft and fleeting, reached his ears—something he hadn’t heard in days. Not since Moria. Not since Gandalf’s fall.
You barely noticed him at first. Only when Haldir led the Fellowship toward the inner woods did you catch the way Legolas lingered back, gaze not on the trees—but on you.
Later, as you stood beneath the trees, hands brushing bark that had seen centuries pass, Legolas finally approached. You didn’t turn.
“I didn’t know you were close with Haldir,” he said.
“He was my first real friend,” you replied, voice distant. “Before the Company. Before Erebor. When I didn’t know which world I belonged to.”
Legolas was quiet for a beat. Then: “You laugh more easily with him.”
You turned to him slowly. “Because he doesn’t ask me how I feel. He knows.”
There was a sharpness in your tone—not cruel, but edged by truth. Legolas flinched, just barely.
“I have tried to be patient,” he said. “To understand.”
“I know,” you said. “And I… I don’t fault you for it.”
You looked away, gaze lost in the gold-lit forest.
“But everything hurts, Legolas. I can’t breathe for the weight of it. Balin, Thorin, Kíli, Fíli—Gandalf.” You shook your head. “I don’t know how to laugh with you. Not yet.”
He said nothing, only studied you with eyes full of sea and silence.
You stepped away. “Give me time. I still want to be near the light. I just don’t know how to stand in it.”
And you left him there, beneath a barren tree—where even the sun seemed reluctant to intrude.
•••
The sky over Helm’s Deep was heavy, dark with the promise of death. Rain lashed the stone walls and wind howled through the crevices like a warning too late to heed.
The keep bustled with urgency—armor strapped on, arrows sorted, blades handed out with shaking hands. You moved among the chaos with steady steps, your cloak already damp, your bow newly strung. You had prepared in silence, your choice already made long before the gates had shut.
Legolas found you as you stepped out from the inner keep, near the passage leading to the women and children. He stopped dead in his tracks when he saw the sword at your hip, the set of your jaw, the steel in your eyes.
“You’re not going,” he said, water running down his cheeks like tears he would never let fall.
“No,” you replied simply.
“You’re meant to be with the others—”
“With the helpless?” you cut in sharply. “You forget who I am, Legolas.”
“I forget nothing,” he hissed, stepping forward. “But you were supposed to survive this. Do you not understand what’s coming?”
“I do,” you said. “And I’ll face it.”
He looked at you, truly looked at you, as if seeing the shadow of every battle you’d ever survived and fearing this one would be your last.
“I’ve already watched you fall once,” he said, voice low, taut. “When you lost them. Kíli, Thorin, Gandalf. You say you don’t know how much grief you have left—but do you know how much I have? How much more I can bear if you fall too?”
You looked away, breath catching.
“I’m not a memory to protect, Legolas. I’m not something fragile to lock away.”
“No,” he said. “You’re not fragile. But you are—” he stopped, jaw clenched, the words fighting their way out. “You are important. To me.”
That gave you pause.
The rain softened. For a moment, the world blurred around you, only his face in focus—his pain, his fear, his heart laid bare in the spaces between sentences.
“I’m still going,” you said, more gently this time.
He nodded, slowly. “Then I stay with you. On the wall. Not a step behind.”
You gave a quiet breath of what might have been a laugh, or a sigh. “Then try to keep up, princeling.”
He almost smiled—but it didn’t reach his eyes.
As the horns of war blew in the distance and the thunder of Uruk-hai boots echoed closer, you stood together on the ramparts. He watched the enemy. But sometimes, you felt his gaze shift to you—sharp, quick, as though checking you were still there.
Still standing.
Still his.
The night deepened. The sky wept.
Beneath the thunder and screams of wind, the walls of Helm’s Deep trembled. The Uruk-hai approached like a black sea, endless, armored, merciless.
You stood on the battlement beside Legolas, scanning the dark, arrow ready. His expression was unreadable, though his hand never strayed far from his quiver. Every so often, his eyes flicked to you—not in doubt, but in worry worn raw.
Then came the horns.
Not the harsh blares of the enemy—but something ancient. High. Clear.
Hope.
The gates creaked open and light spilled in—silver cloaks, golden armor, moonlit helms gleaming beneath the rain.
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Elves.
And at their head—Haldir.
You froze, a breath caught in your throat, disbelieving.
He moved like moonlight through mist, every step purposeful, calm amidst the storm. And when he saw you on the wall, his smile broke through the rain like dawn.
You descended the stone steps as he approached. The moment you reached him, you embraced—not as warriors, but as those who had feared they'd never meet again.
“I hoped,” you whispered. “But I didn’t dare believe it.”
“Lothlórien does not forget its own,” he said. “We came as soon as Galadriel sent word.”
You pulled back just enough to look him in the eyes. “You always arrive when I need you most.”
A flicker of amusement touched his features. “Isn’t that what friends are for?”
Nearby, Legolas stood still as stone. His gaze hadn’t left you.
He watched the ease in your voice, the soft warmth you rarely showed. The way Haldir touched your arm when he spoke, the familiarity in your closeness. A part of him hated it—hated that Haldir saw a version of you he feared he no longer could reach.
Later, as the elves took positions and soldiers prepared for the siege, you and Haldir stood beneath the battlements, heads bowed close in quiet conversation.
He looked at you, studying your face. “There is pain in you.”
You nodded. “There always is.”
“But there is strength too,” he said. “Even when you forget it.”
You offered him a tired smile. “That’s why I keep you around. To remind me.”
Haldir placed a hand over yours. “And I always will.”
Above, Legolas stood watching, eyes narrowing just slightly.
He had never been jealous of Haldir’s grace, his skill, his rank. But this—the effortless way Haldir stood beside you, anchored you—this unsettled something in his chest.
Not because Haldir had it.
Because he used to.
The horns sounded again—closer now. The enemy was nearly upon you.
And still, you stood beside Haldir. And Legolas waited, bow in hand, fire in his heart.
The night would be long. Blood would fall like rain.
But not before Legolas promised himself: Whatever the morning held—he would be the one standing beside you when it came.
The sun rose, but it did not warm you.
The battlefield stretched beneath it like a scar—black blood soaked into the mud, bodies sprawled across the ruined stone and grass. The air reeked of smoke, steel, and silence.
You stood where Haldir had fallen.
His body had already been taken, wrapped in elven cloth and carried with reverence by the survivors of Lothlórien. But you had stayed behind, rooted, staring at the bloodstained spot where he had died defending the wall at your side.
He had smiled at you, even as the blade struck true.
And you had screamed—only once—but it had broken something in your throat.
You hadn’t spoken since.
You didn’t hear Legolas approaching until his hand wrapped gently around your arm.
“You should rest.”
You didn’t move.
He stepped in front of you, his face pale beneath the dirt and ash, his eyes rimmed red—not with tears, but restraint. “You fought with honor. He did too.”
Your voice was a rasp. “You pulled me back.”
A beat of silence.
“Yes,” he said. “You would have died.”
“I was ready to,” you snapped, stepping back from him. “We were overrun. I was going to cover the retreat and you—” your voice broke, rage surging into the hollow place grief had carved—��You should have let me go!”
Legolas flinched as if struck.
“I could have died beside him. I should have—” your voice cracked, your fists clenched, “—instead you dragged me back, again, and I’ve lost another piece of myself—”
“Because I can’t lose you too!” he shouted, voice sharp and cutting through the morning like an arrow loosed in fury.
You froze.
He stood there, eyes wild, chest heaving, all the composure of an elven prince burned away by the fire of emotion long held back.
“I watched you grieve them all,” he said, voice quieter now but trembling. “Thorin. Kíli. Fíli. Balin. Gandalf. Haldir—gods, even Haldir. And every time, I saw something break in you.”
He stepped forward, unflinching. “And I stayed quiet. I stayed patient. I gave you space because I thought it’s what you needed—but I—” he faltered, then whispered, “I love you.”
The words hung between you like a war cry stilled in the air.
“I have loved you from the moment you argued with me in the Woodland Realm, stubborn and wild and brave. I watched you fight beside Kíli and Thorin. I watched you mourn them, one by one. And still, I loved you.”
Tears had slipped down your cheeks before you realized they’d come.
“I couldn’t let you go,” he said. “Not when I’ve already watched you die in pieces.”
You stared at him, all the fury ebbing into pain.
“I don’t know how to be what I was,” you whispered.
“You don’t have to be,” he said, stepping closer. “Just be with me. Whatever pieces you have left—I’ll carry them too.”
You let out a shuddering breath.
And finally, your forehead dropped to his chest, the storm within you breaking. His arms wrapped around you, steady and warm.
There were no promises. No healing words.
But in that moment, grief found company. And that was enough.
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The final battle was chaos.
Fire lit the sky in sickening hues—red, orange, and gold twisting like dragons of ruin above the field. Screams tore through the clamor of clashing steel. The very earth trembled beneath the weight of death.
You had lost sight of Legolas.
Not for long—barely minutes—but it felt like a lifetime in the heart of war.
You fought like instinct made flesh, your blade slick with blood, arrows gone. The battlefield blurred around you, faces unrecognizable, only movement and threat. But when you spotted the flash of silver-blond hair through the smoke, something within you slammed into place.
Legolas.
He was on the rise of a broken wall, drawing his bow, loose and precise—until the enemy swarmed behind him. You screamed his name—he didn’t hear it—and your legs moved before your mind did.
A troll's iron mace came down, fast and merciless.
You hit him hard in the side, sending you both tumbling behind a shattered wall of stone as the blow cracked the earth where he’d stood. You rolled, breathless, until you landed hard, half atop him, body shielding his.
There was silence.
Then—
“I’m fine,” he rasped, blinking at you, winded.
“Don’t say that,” you breathed.
Your hands were braced on his chest, blood—thankfully—was not his. But the fear was.
You were shaking.
“You could’ve died,” you whispered. “You should have—”
“But I didn’t.”
You stared down at him, and for one unguarded moment, you let the horror in your chest bloom. “I can’t—I can’t lose you too.”
His breath caught. His hands came up to gently hold your wrists. “You won’t.”
Tears stung your eyes—hot, unwelcome. You pressed your forehead to his, trying to steady your breathing as the sounds of war surged around you once more.
“Still here,” he whispered. “I’m still here.”
You closed your eyes.
You hadn’t made him any promises. You still weren’t sure if you could. But you could hold him close for now. You could fight for his life like he had fought for yours.
For once, it was not about loss.
It was about not letting go.
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The White City gleamed beneath the morning sun, banners fluttering high above the citadel. Flowers carpeted the stone, thrown by joyful hands, the scent of hope and new beginnings thick in the air.
Aragorn stood crowned and robed in light, the roar of the crowd still echoing down the mountainside.
You watched from the edge of the crowd, quiet.
For the first time in an age, there was no battle ahead. No blood under your fingernails. No grief hiding behind your teeth.
Just stillness.
And you didn’t quite know what to do with it.
You lingered until the sun began to lower, until the crowd thinned, until the laughter dimmed to celebration-song in distant halls.
And then he found you.
Legolas.
He approached without armor, dressed in white and silver that caught the dying light, golden hair gleaming. He looked like he’d stepped out of a song—ageless, beautiful, unreal. But when he smiled at you, tired and small, he looked only like himself.
“I didn’t think you’d stay this long,” he said gently.
“I didn’t think I would either,” you admitted.
You stood side by side in the garden, the flowers beneath your boots crushed underfoot, the sounds of merriment muffled by trees and stone.
“It’s over,” he said. “And we’re still standing.”
You let out a soft breath. “Somehow.”
You looked at him then—really looked. And for the first time, there was no fog of war, no heavy grief veiling your gaze. You were just… you. Bruised. Whole. Tired. Alive.
“I thought if we made it here, I’d know what to say,” you murmured.
Legolas turned to face you, head tilted. “And do you?”
“No,” you said honestly. “But I know what I feel.”
His eyes searched yours, and you saw it there—hope, held back so long it looked like sorrow.
“You pulled me from the edge,” you whispered. “Again and again. Even when I didn’t want you to.”
“Because I love you,” he said, quiet and sure, no hesitation now.
You reached up, fingers brushing his jaw. “Then you should know... I’m not whole. I may never be.”
“I don’t need you whole,” he said, leaning in so your foreheads touched. “I only need you *with me*.”
You closed your eyes, the warmth of his skin grounding you. Your hand found his, fingers threading between his own, and this time—you didn’t pull away.
No promises.
But something stronger.
A beginning.
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the plan ; robert 'bob' floyd
fandom: top gun
pairing: bob x reader
summary: the squad are all pretty sure that bob has a thing for you, but you're not convinced, so you hatch a plan to tease him within an inch of his life until he snaps
notes: i fear i may never again experience as much joy as i did while writing this... guys, it was so much fun! i know it's long, but it's full of tension and pining and heat, please give it a read! i actually love this so much, and i hope you do too, so please let me know what you think!!! i literally fell in love with bob while writing this, the lewis pullman spiral is spiralling
warnings: swearing, big dick energy, movie references (the princess bride, the ugly truth, star wars), bob's big dick, tension, lots of horniness (18+ ONLY MDNI), italics, huge dick energy, jealousy, bob is secretly cut, emotional warfare but it's fun, and did i mention bob's massive dick? (let me know if i missed anything)
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your callsign is sunny
It wasn’t long after the uranium mission that Dagger Squad was asked to stay on North Island and train as an elite, mission-focused unit under Maverick’s command. Not that anyone had to be asked—most of the squad was more than happy to be reassigned and stick together. 
Once everything was finalised and the official special operations squadron was born, the first thing most of you did was move out of the barracks. You needed more space—both physically, and from each other—and, frankly, something that didn’t reek of stale socks and floor polish. 
You and Natasha thought you’d hit the jackpot when you found a two-bedroom apartment right by the beach, with a spacious open-plan living area and not one, but two balconies. It was perfect. You could hardly believe it. Full of natural light, and just far enough from the boys you already spent too much time with—training, flying, doing push-ups every time someone pissed off Maverick. 
It was meant to be. 
Until the apartment across the hall went up for lease. 
And that’s how you failed to escape the boys entirely. Reuben and Mickey spotted the sign while helping you move in, and before you knew it, they were neighbours—closer than ever and almost impossible to get off your couch. 
A knock at the door draws your attention from the TV, and Natasha pauses mid-step on her way from the kitchen—bowl of popcorn in hand. 
“Ten bucks says it’s Fanboy,” she says, a smirk tugging at the corner of her mouth. 
You know that Mickey is stuck on overtime tonight—punishment from Maverick for mouthing off during a fly drill this morning. Natasha, however, hadn’t been in the air with you and clearly wasn’t listening on comms. 
Your eyes flick to the door and back to her. “Deal.” 
She drops the bowl on the coffee table and doubles back, swinging the door open. 
“Ugh,” she sighs. “It’s you.” 
Reuben blinks, his smile faltering as his brow creases. “Nice to see you too, Phoenix.” 
She heads back to the couch, Reuben trailing behind. 
“Why’d you knock?” she asks. “It’s always open.” 
“Wasn’t the other day.” 
You sit up straighter, rolling your eyes. “That’s because it was two a.m. and I was home alone—sleeping.” 
Natasha drops onto the couch, a little closer to you than before to make room for Reuben. “Do we seriously not have boundaries anymore?” she asks him. “What could you possibly need at two in the morning?” 
He plucks the popcorn bowl off the table and settles it in his lap. “Fanboy really wanted to watch The Princess Bride, but Netflix logged us out and we couldn’t remember the password.” 
You lean across Natasha for a handful of popcorn. “Then get your own Netflix account, you fucking freeloaders.” 
Reuben gives you a wounded look. “Okay, rude.” 
You roll your eyes again and flop back against the couch, shoving a handful of popcorn into your mouth. 
“What’s got your panties in a twist?” he asks, peering at you from Natasha’s other side. 
Natasha snorts but keeps her eyes on the TV. 
“Nothing,” you mutter. “My panties are perfectly untwisted.” 
Reuben chuckles and shifts his gaze to the screen. “Then maybe someone should twist them up—get some of that tension out.” 
You flip him off without even glancing his way, your scowl still locked on the TV. He just laughs again, and Natasha shoots you a sidelong, knowing smirk. 
Twenty minutes later—and after Reuben has all but annihilated the popcorn—the front door swings open and Mickey breezes in, making a beeline for the fridge. 
“Have you guys eaten?” he calls out. “Because I’m starving. I skipped lunch and Mav still kept me back.” He grabs a beer and spins to face the living room. “Isn’t that, like, illegal? Something about duty of care? I’m about to pass out, and it wasn’t even my fault I got held back. Hangman was the one mouthing off—I just told him where to stick it. But no, now Mav’s all professional, like he’s a real CO with a stick up his ass. Honestly? I liked him better before.” 
He yanks open a drawer, fishes out the bottle opener, and cracks the beer. “Anyway,” he says, glancing up at the three of you, “pizza?” 
A long beat of silence stretches through the apartment as you all stare at him. 
“Jesus Christ, Mick,” Reuben mutters. “Take a fucking breath.” 
Mickey just shrugs, heading into the living room. “What?” 
He drops onto the floor—figuring the couch is already squishy enough—and sets his beer on the coffee table before reaching for the remote. 
“No one’s watching this, right?” he asks—not that it matters. 
He doesn’t wait for a response—just clicks a few buttons and starts scrolling through Netflix. Frustration simmers under your skin, because yes, you were watching that, but you bite your tongue. You know you’re in a bad mood, and it’s not worth taking it out on your friends. No matter how irritating they can be. 
He finally lands on The Princess Bride and makes a satisfied little hum as he hits play. Then he tosses the remote back onto the table, picks up his beer, and leans back against the couch—his elbow jabbing your knee in the process. Your glass, balanced loosely on your leg, sloshes and spills cold liquid onto your lap. 
“Whoops,” Mickey says, glancing back at you. “My bad.” 
“Uh oh,” Natasha mutters, scooting slightly away from you. 
“Seriously, Mickey?” you snap, eyes narrowing. “Could you not act like a clumsy lapdog for five fucking seconds?” 
His eyes go wide at your tone. 
“How the hell did you even get into the navy?” you bite, rising from the couch. “You’ve got the spatial awareness of a drunk oaf and the grace of a newborn deer on ice.” 
You storm into the kitchen, slam your half-empty glass on the counter, and tear off a wad of paper towels. 
“Very descriptive insults,” Reuben mutters. 
Natasha lets out a dry laugh. “Yeah, that’s how you know she’s in a mood.” 
“Why?” Mickey asks, cautiously glancing toward you. 
You shoot him a glare over the kitchen island, dabbing paper towel at the top of your thigh. 
“Bob didn’t talk to her today,” Natasha says. “Like, at all.” 
“Ohhh,” Reuben and Mickey sigh in unison, the sound laced with realisation. 
You toss the damp towel into the sink before turning toward the fridge and yanking it open, bottles rattling. 
“To be fair,” Reuben offers, “you two were on different drills today. He probably just didn’t get the chance.” 
You whirl around, beer in hand, glare sharp. “He asked Phoenix if she wanted to go for a run tomorrow morning—while I was standing right there.” 
You shut the fridge with more force than necessary, then yank open the cutlery drawer and grab the bottle opener. 
“Oh yeah,” Mickey adds. “He asked me too. Wants to do the Coronado Island Loop.” 
You pop the cap off your beer and let it clatter to the floor. “Great. That’s great. Thanks, Mick. Love knowing I was the only one not invited.” 
Natasha sighs, her eyes following you as you trudge back toward the lounge. “I told you—he probably just didn’t think you were interested. When have you ever wanted to go running?” 
Reuben nods. “Yeah, you hate when Mav makes us run laps. You’re always the first to complain.” 
You flop down into your spot and take a long pull from your beer, eyes on the screen. “Yeah, well,” you mutter, “he could’ve asked.” 
“You could’ve spoken up,” Natasha points out. 
You roll your eyes. “Yeah, and invite myself to something I deliberately wasn’t invited to? No thanks.” 
Mickey shakes his head. “Bob wouldn’t leave you out on purpose. He’s too nice.” 
“Exactly,” Reuben says. “It’s Bob. He probably just got awkward about it.” 
You scowl and gesture to Natasha. “He asked Phoenix.” 
“Yeah, but that’s Phoenix,” Mickey says. “They’re crammed together in the cockpit almost all day, every day. She doesn’t make him nervous.” 
You scoff and sink further into the couch. “I do not make him nervous.” 
Natasha sighs again. “Yes. You do. I’ve told you before.” 
“And I don’t believe you,” you say, despite the warmth creeping into your cheeks. “You’re always saying Bob has a thing for me, but I don’t see it. Wouldn’t he actually talk to me if he liked me?” 
“It’s Bob,” Reuben repeats. “He’s not like the rest of us.” 
“Exactly,” Natasha says. “He’s polite and respectful. Way better than the rest.” 
Mickey turns from the TV, shooting her a wounded look. “Ouch.” 
Reuben shrugs. “She’s right. That’s why we can’t tease him about it. We can’t even ask him if he likes you—though we’re pretty sure.” 
You roll your eyes. “How can you be sure when he’s never admitted it?” 
“Oh, it’s so obvious,” Mickey says with a giggle. “He gets all googly-eyed whenever you’re around.” 
You shoot him a sceptical look, brows furrowed. “I don’t see it.” 
“Well, of course he’s not going to let you catch him staring,” Reuben says, a smirk tugging at his lips. “He’s a gentleman.” 
“Yeah, and he’s not stupid,” Natasha adds. 
“But whenever you’re not paying attention,” Mickey continues, “his eyes are glued to you, like a magnet.” 
You roll your eyes, determined to seem unconvinced, even though you can feel the warmth rising in your cheeks. 
“Oh, and every time you’re brought up in conversation,” Reuben says, “he’s locked in.” 
“Unless we’re talking about you and another guy,” Natasha adds with a knowing look “Then he gets all huffy and weird.” 
You snort a laugh before taking another sip of your beer. 
“Why don’t you just ask him out?” Mickey suggests. “Put us all out of our misery. Bob will stop being so awkward, and you’ll stop being so—” He stops when you shoot him a glare. 
“So what, Mick?” 
He turns his gaze back to the TV, muttering, “Moody.” 
You scoff. “Yeah, okay. So, I’m just supposed to believe you guys when I haven’t actually seen any of these so-called signs myself?” 
Reuben and Mickey nod, but Natasha just watches. 
“I’m not doing that,” you say flatly. “I’m not asking him out just to be humiliated.” 
The conversation dies as you turn your attention back to the movie, taking another generous sip of beer. Mickey pulls out his phone to order pizza, and Reuben heads to the fridge for another round of beers. 
You keep your eyes locked on the TV, even though you’re barely watching. Instead, your mind is replaying the day, wondering if you missed the part where it was ‘so obvious’ that Bob has a crush on you. 
It’s hard not to agree with Reuben when he says, ‘It’s Bob,’ because it just is. He’s nice, considerate, raised to respect women and the navy. He’s the perfect officer and the perfect gentleman, and that’s half the reason you’re so damn attracted to him. A gorgeous guy with manners and respect to spare? Yes, please. 
But, God, sometimes you wish he was just a little more basic. A little more in touch with his primal side, instead of always using the higher-functioning part of his brain that most guys don’t even know exists. You’ve never even heard Bob say a woman is attractive, let alone spew some of the caveman shit that comes out of Jake’s mouth. 
And yeah, sure, you could ask him out. He might even say yes, just to be polite. But you don’t want to put that kind of pressure on him or the squad. Him dating you out of pity would be worse than flat-out rejection. 
An hour later, full of pizza and halfway through your fourth beer, you’re curled up with your head on Natasha's shoulder while The Ugly Truth plays on the TV—Mickey’s latest pick. 
“Man, what’s with you and romantic comedies?” Reuben asks, nose wrinkling as he watches Katherine Heigl flail on-screen. 
Mickey shrugs. “Don’t judge. Maybe I’m feeling a little lonely lately.” 
“Aww, Mick,” you coo, voice dripping mock-sympathy. “Better get used to it. You’re going to be alone forever.” 
His head snaps toward you, a scowl forming. “Okay, Miss-I-Refuse-To-Ask-Out-A-Guy-Who’s-Clearly-Into-Me-Because-I’m-Terrified-of-Rejection.” 
A smirk tugs at your mouth. “That was way too long to sting.” 
“Whatever.” He rolls his eyes. “You’re mean when you’re not getting laid.” 
“Hey!” you gasp. “How do you know I’m not?” 
There’s a beat—a static moment where you realise you’ve just fucked up—before they all burst out laughing. And even you can’t help joining in, despite the embarrassed flush crawling across your chest. 
Then suddenly, Natasha jerks upright, knocking your head off her shoulder. Her laughter halts as she stares wide-eyed at the screen, lips parted in a gasp. “Holy shit. I have an idea.” 
“An idea?” Reuben echoes, brows lifting. 
“Yes!” She turns to you, eyes sparkling with mischief. “I know how we’re going to get Bob to admit it.” 
Mickey swivels on the floor to face her. “Admit what?” 
Reuben rolls his eyes. “That he likes Sunny. Duh.” 
“Oh.” Mickey glances your way, then back at Natasha. “How?” 
“He’s only human, right?” she says, and both boys nod. “It’s obvious he likes her—he’s just too damn respectful. He probably thinks she’s out of her league. Or he’s worried about dating someone in the squad. But deep down? He’s still a guy. He has the same thoughts, the same... tendencies. He’s just better at hiding them.” 
Mickey snorts. “Oh yeah. If the way he looks at Sunny in a bikini is anything to go by, he’s definitely got those thoughts.” 
You shoot him a glare. “Don’t be gross.” 
“No, he’s right,” Natasha says quickly. “I hate it, but he’s right. Every time we’re at the beach and you’re half-naked, he looks like he’s barely holding it together.” 
You try to keep your face neutral, but your heart is thudding too fast against your ribs. 
“Wait,” Reuben says, leaning forward. “I think you’re onto something. Like when she squeezes into the booth at the bar and hovers over his lap for a second—he looks like he’s about to combust.” 
“Exactly!” Natasha exclaims. “That’s it. That’s what we need to do—we need to make him snap.” 
You narrow your eyes, ignoring the spark of adrenaline beginning to curl in your gut. “Okay... but how?” 
Natasha turns toward you, her eyes wide and full of focus. The same look she wears just before take-off. “You need to... tease him. Really make him suffer.” 
Mickey’s grin turns wicked. “Oh, this could work.” 
Your brow lifts. “Tease him how?” 
“Tempt him,” Reuben says, matching Mickey’s grin. “Push every button. Get close. Make him want you so badly he can’t hide it anymore.” 
You snort. “So, seduce him?” 
“Worse,” Natasha says. “You’re going to give this man the worst case of blue balls in naval history.” 
Both Mickey and Reuben flinch. 
“He’s going to end up in the hospital with a permanent boner,” Natasha adds, mischief blazing in her eyes. “Crying. On. His. Knees.” 
“Bob’s a good man,” Reuben says solemnly. “He’s respectful. Polite. Sensible. And we’re gonna have to break him.” 
“We?” you repeat, pulse racing. 
“Exactly,” Natasha nods. “If this were any other guy, you could get it done in a day. But Bob? Bob’s built different. If we want to unleash his inner caveman? It’s going to take a team.” 
Your stomach flips, anticipation stirring beneath your skin. 
“It won’t be easy,” Mickey says, his smirk returning. “But it will be fun.” 
“Sunny,” Reuben says, locking eyes with you. “Are you in or are you out?” 
That spark of adrenaline snaps through you like a live wire. 
You nod. “Okay. I’m in.” 
The plan is simple. Straightforward. One objective. Everyone's clear on it. It’s been mapped out and set into motion—now all you have to do is play your part. Which is probably why your heart is hammering against your sternum like a damn war drum. 
“I don’t know, Nat,” you mutter as the two of you walk across the crunchy morning grass. “This feels wrong.” 
“What does?” she asks. “The thong or the plan?” 
You roll your eyes. “Both.” 
“Well, suck it up. There’s no backing down now.” 
You squeeze your eyes shut and take a deep breath. Then you release it and reel yourself in. She’s right. You can’t be a chicken forever—and it’s not like you’re doing anything overtly humiliating. Besides, you’ve got a team at your back, and they’re not going to let you crash and burn. 
Last night, Natasha had texted Bob to let him know she was inviting you on the morning run. He’d replied with a simple thumbs up—something you found a little rude, but the boys insisted he only sends that when he doesn’t know what else to say. Which, apparently, is a good sign. 
This morning, you’d dug deep into your underwear drawer for a lacy black thong you bought a few years ago—back when you were more optimistic about your sex life. You pulled it on, despite the discomfort, and borrowed a pair of light blue workout tights from Natasha. Yep, that’s a black thong under pale blue, skin-tight leggings. 
“Without being creepy,” Mickey says from a few paces behind, “the plan is looking really good from back here.” 
You shoot him a scowl over your shoulder as Reuben smacks his arm, even though he’s wearing the same mischievous grin. 
The four of you wait at a picnic table in the park where you’d agreed to meet, and it doesn’t take long before you spot Bob walking across the grass—dark grey sweats and an oversized U.S. Navy hoodie, his hands tucked firmly into the front pocket. Quite possibly the most innocent, basic outfit he could’ve worn—a ridiculous contrast to yours—and yet you still find yourself thinking wildly inappropriate thoughts. 
About what’s under those sweats. About how good they’d look on your bedroom floor. 
Even the soft smile on his lips as he approaches makes you want to scream. How is one man such pure, soft boyfriend material... yet still manages to awaken your most primal instincts? It doesn’t make any sense. 
“Hey,” he says, eyes skimming over each of you before settling on Natasha. “We ready?” 
Natasha nods, and the five of you start walking off the grass toward the footpath before breaking into a jog. She and Bob take the lead while you hang back, with Reuben and Mickey flanking you like a private escort. Exactly as planned. You might be trying to fluster Bob, but you don’t need half of Coronado getting a look at your underwear—hence the two-man protection detail. 
Two kilometres later, you all stop for a quick stretch. Bob wanders off toward a water fountain, and you seize the opportunity to move up beside Natasha, placing yourself at the front of the group. Again—exactly according to plan. 
When Bob returns and joins in on Reuben and Mickey’s conversation, you and Natasha shuffle a little closer. She props one foot up on the bench, leaning into the stretch as she gives a subtle nod—the signal to begin. 
You let out a shaky breath, then slip on your best cool-and-confident facade. 
“I’m never doing this again,” you say to Nat—loud enough for the boys to hear. 
“I’m just gonna get a quick drink,” Reuben announces, conveniently cutting off their conversation. Right on cue. 
Mickey busies himself with stretching, leaving Bob to ‘accidentally’ overhear what comes next. 
“What?” Natasha asks. “Running? I told you you’d hate it.” 
“No,” you reply, pretending to lower your voice—even though you don’t. “Wearing a fucking thong.” 
She snorts, the laugh surprisingly genuine. Either she’s a fantastic actress, or she’s thoroughly enjoying herself. 
“Why are you wearing a thong?” 
You roll your eyes, falling deeper into the role. “Because I forgot to do my laundry and it was all I had left.” 
She snickers. “Well, have fun on the next eight kilometres.” 
“Oh yeah,” you sigh, “can’t wait.” 
You glance casually over your shoulder—and bingo. Bob’s face is bright red. His lips are slightly parted. And he’s blatantly staring at your ass like it’s the final clue to finding the national treasure—and Nicholas Cage is depending on him. 
Beside him, Mickey looks like he’s about to lose it. 
“Ready to keep going?” Reuben asks, walking back up—perfect timing. 
Everyone nods, and Bob clears his throat, licking his lips quickly. “Yep. Let’s go.” 
You and Natasha take off first, keeping yourselves in the lead. 
Every few minutes, you glance back—and without fail, Bob is staring. Each time, it sends your heart skittering, your cheeks heating, and your thoughts wandering into very unholy territory. 
Maybe your friends have been right all along. Maybe he does like you. Maybe this will actually work. 
By the seventh kilometre—with only three more to go—Bob looks like he’s hanging by a thread. He ditched his hoodie about two k’s ago, tying it around his waist. His hair his clinging to his forehead, damp with sweat, and his glasses are fogging up slightly near the bridge of his nose. 
You glance over your shoulder and give him a small smile. His lips pop open and he immediately averts his eyes, focusing instead on the pavement beneath his feet. You turn back, grinning to yourself, and that’s when he picks up his pace and jogs past both you and Natasha. 
Natasha nearly bursts out laughing, but she smacks a hand to her face, pretending to wipe the sweat from her upper lip. She shoots you a sideways look and a smirk—and the two of you push forward to flank Bob, jogging on either side of him. 
“Hey,” Natasha says, more than a little breathless. “You trying to make this a competition?” 
Bob shakes his head, eyes locked on the path ahead. “Nope. Just staying focused.” 
“What’s so distracting back there?” she asks, fighting a smirk. 
“Is Fanboy being a pest?” you add, giving yourself a layer of plausible deniability—just in case he starts to suspect anything. 
Bob’s gaze flicks to you, then drops briefly to your chest before snapping forward again. “Yeah,” he says, voice uneven. “He’s breathing like Darth Vader.” 
“Hey!” Mickey calls from behind. “I’m not deaf!” 
The five of you share a short, breathless laugh before settling into a comfortable silence. You’re thoroughly exhausted now and decide to give Bob a break for the last few kilometres—merciful, maybe, but also strategic. 
Soon enough, the group slows to a walk as the café marking the end of your run comes into view. 
“Thank God,” Mickey gasps. “I’m starving.” 
“You’re always hungry,” you mutter, shooting him a flat look. 
The café is busier than expected, and you’re about to start crafting a subtle excuse to avoid going in when Reuben steps up behind you and unzips his jacket. 
“Cover your ass up, Sunny,” he says, smirking. “For fuck’s sake.” 
You try—and fail—to suppress your grin as he hands you the jacket. You roll your eyes and tie it around your waist, grateful for the cover. 
Once you’re feeling a little more decent, the group heads inside to order breakfast and find a table out back on the patio. The food and coffee arrive quickly, and soon everyone is digging in, quiet with post-run hunger. Though judging by how often Bob’s eyes keep darting toward you, his appetite might not be entirely food-related. 
“So,” Mickey says through a mouthful of bacon, “are we finishing the Star Wars marathon this weekend, or what?” 
Bob perks up instantly, eyes going bright, the usual stormy blue softening into something more sky-coloured. “Yes. Tomorrow night?” 
Reuben frowns. “But that’s Sunday.” 
“Mav gave us Monday off,” Natasha chimes in. “Weekend rotation, remember?” 
“Oh, right.” Reuben nods. “Yeah, I’m in.” 
“How many are left?” Natasha asks. 
“Six,” Mickey replies. “Not including spin-offs.” 
“We’re not getting through six in one night,” you point out. “We’ll be lucky to finish the prequels.” 
“Unless…” he says, his eyes gleaming with mischief as they flick between everyone at the table, “we had a sleepover.” 
You snort into your coffee before taking a sip, expecting someone—probably Natasha or Reuben—to shut the idea down. But instead, their faces light up with the same devious smirk that Mickey is wearing. 
“We could,” Natasha says casually. “I think it’d be fun.” 
Bob blinks at her. “You do?” 
She nods. “Yeah. Why not? We could play some drinking games and not worry about getting home.” 
“Drinking games!” Reuben echoes with excitement. “You’re a genius, Phoenix.” 
With the way their eyes keep bouncing between you and Bob, it’s clear now: they’re scheming again. Plotting the next phase of Operation Bob's Blue Balls—and your pulse is already quickening with anticipation. 
“We could do it at my place,” Bob offers, earnest as ever. “I’ve got a spare room. Plenty of space.” 
Reuben grins. “What a great idea, Bob.” 
Bob glances around at his grinning friends, the smile on his face tinged with uncertainty. He has no clue what he’s just agreed to. 
“Did you pack sexy PJs?” Natasha asks, her fingers drumming against the steering wheel. 
You roll your eyes. “I don’t own any sexy PJs.” 
She shoots you a sly smirk before her gaze flicks back to the road, her silence thick with something unspoken—as if she already has a plan to remedy your lack of Victoria’s Secret-worthy sleepwear. 
Bob’s apartment isn’t far from yours. In fact, none of you live all that far from each other, but tonight, the distance doesn’t seem to matter. No—the real reason for tonight’s sleepover is something far more sinister. 
You know you’re the last to arrive, not just from the cars parked along the street, but from the group chat where Mickey has been demanding you hurry up so he can order dinner. Your heart beats in your throat as you ride the elevator up, and the ding when it reaches Bob’s level startles you more than it should. 
Natasha’s smirk stays plastered on her face until she knocks on the door, and the second it swings open, with Bob standing there, she’s all business. 
“Hey,” she says casually, walking past him like she’s been here a thousand times. 
A stab of jealousy twists in your stomach—completely unwarranted but sharp nonetheless. Has Natasha been here a lot? 
“Hi,” you mutter, offering Bob a small smile as you follow Nat inside. 
There’s a chorus of hellos from the squad scattered around the living room. Bradley lounges across the two-seater couch furthest from the door, and Mickey is sprawled in a bean bag beside him, grinning like a kid in a candy store. Jake and Javy are tangled together on one end of the three-seater couch, probably having just finished fighting over the remote. And then there’s Reuben, sitting in the middle, with Natasha plopping down beside him. 
“Guess I’ll take the floor,” you mutter, dropping your bag beside the pile of everyone else’s stuff. 
“That’s alright,” Jake says with his usual cocky grin, “You can sit on Bobby’s lap for a bit of comfort.” 
Heat floods your cheeks, but you refuse to let him see the effect of his words. Instead, you roll your eyes and flip him off, then plop down onto the makeshift nest of cushions and blankets on the floor. 
Bob reappears from the kitchen with another round of beers, while Mickey takes orders for dinner. Then Bob settles down beside you, his arm brushing yours just enough to send a sparks crackling across your skin. A moment later, Jake hits play on The Phantom Menace, and the room settles into a comfortable, albeit charged, quiet. 
It doesn’t take long before Jake groans that he’s bored, and Reuben’s eyes immediately flick toward Natasha—like they’d both seen this coming from a mile away. 
“We could play a game,” Mickey offers, all too innocently. 
“Yes,” Jake grins, already invested. “Let’s play a game.” 
“What game?” Javy asks. 
Reuben opens his mouth, but Jake beats him to it. “Truth or Dare, obviously.” 
Natasha snorts and slaps a hand over her mouth, but not before you catch it. That was exactly what Reuben had been about to suggest—and Jake is walking right into whatever scheme they’ve cooked up. 
“How old are you?” Bradley asks Jake, brows furrowing. 
“Not as old as you, Grandpa,” Jake fires back. “But you could at least pretend to enjoy fun.” 
Bradley rolls his eyes but shrugs. “Fine.” 
Everyone else falls in line, shifting around until you’ve all formed a lopsided circle on the floor, your back half-angled toward the movie. Jake claps his hands together like the ringmaster of a circus—which might not be far off from what this night is about to become. 
“Alright. If you’re a chicken and won’t answer the truth or do the dare, you drink. Simple. I’ll go first.” He zeroes in on Bob—poor, unsuspecting Bob, who clearly just wanted to enjoy some Star Wars in peace. “Bob. Truth or Dare?” 
“Truth,” Bob says, almost too quickly. 
Jake leans forward with a shit-eating grin. “Who would you rather go on a date with—Phoenix or Sunny?” 
You choke on nothing, smothering the sound behind your hand and pretending it’s just a casual cough. 
Heat blooms across Bob’s cheeks and starts creeping up to the tips of his ears. He glances your way—just for a beat—then over at Natasha, and your stomach knots. Is he seriously having to think about this? Have your friends been totally misreading Bob this whole time? 
Then, after a moment of hesitation, Bob simply lifts his beer and takes a long sip. 
Jake groans. “Ugh, lame.” 
“Don’t worry, Bob,” Javy says with a laugh. “That was a trap. There was no right answer.” 
Bob chuckles—a low, rough sound right next to you that sends goosebumps up your arms. “I know,” he says, voice deceptively casual. Then he shifts his gaze toward Mickey. “Fanboy. Truth or Dare?” 
Mickey’s face lights up. “Dare.” 
Bob smiles—and for the first time tonight, it’s almost a smirk. There’s something sharp beneath the usual softness, and it makes your stomach flip. 
“Text the last person you hooked up with ‘thinking about you’—no context. And you can't reply until tomorrow.” 
Mickey’s grin drops. “What the fuck, man?” 
Bob just shrugs, raising his beer like it’s a toast. “You picked dare.” Then he brings the bottle to his lips and takes a generous swig. 
And holy shit—you might actually combust from the sight alone. Bob being just a little cocky. Bob utterly destroying Mickey with zero remorse. You know there’s a darker edge beneath that quiet, boy-next-door act. You know he’s got a mean streak. And God, you want to find it. Pull it out of him and ask—beg—for him to do things you can’t even say out loud. 
The group erupts into cackles as Mickey reluctantly pulls out his phone, Reuben peering over his shoulder to make sure he follows through. 
“There,” Mickey mutters, tossing the phone face-down on the floor. “You better watch your back.” 
But Bob doesn’t flinch. He just sits there, calm and collected, with that damn smirk still tugging at the corner of his mouth. 
When you finally tear your gaze away from him, you find Mickey’s eyes locked on you—an evil grin stretched across his face. “Sunny,” he says, voice smooth as silk. “Truth or Dare?” 
You steel your nerves, unsure of what’s coming but already sensing the trap. “Dare,” you reply, trying to keep your voice steady. 
Mickey’s grin widens, tipping his head forward like some sinister villain—and you just walked straight into his web. “Google a dirty line from Fifty Shades of Grey... and whisper it slowly in Bob’s ear.” 
Jake snorts, his face twisted with amusement, and the rest of the group follows—dissolving into fits of laughter. All but Bob, who’s already choking on his beer, turning an even deeper shade of red before you’ve even touched your phone. 
You blink, eyes going wide. “Are you serious?” 
“Oh, I’m very serious,” Mickey replies, practically vibrating with excitement. “And no laughing. You have to sell it.” 
You lock eyes with Mickey, your death-glare sharp as your hands shake slightly while you pick up your phone. Then, you reluctantly tap the search bar and type in ‘dirty line from Fifty Shades of Grey.’ Before you realize what’s happening, Natasha leans over your shoulder. 
“Ooh,” she giggles, pointing at the screen. “That one.” 
You glance up at Bob, your expression a mix of apology and warning. He looks much less confident than before, his lips parted, cheeks flushed, blue eyes wide behind his glasses. His throat bobs as he swallows, and a small part of you—one that feels dangerous—stirs with excitement. 
The room falls into eerie silence, and you realize that Jake has paused the movie. All eyes are on you as you shuffle closer to Bob, getting onto your knees beside him. You plant one hand on his thigh to steady yourself, and you feel the muscles in his leg twitch at your touch. 
His breath hitches, his whole body going rigid. 
You lean in close, your lips barely brushing the shell of his ear as you murmur, “I want your hands on me. Your mouth. I want to feel you everywhere until I forget my own name.” 
A beat of silence stretches, and then Bob exhales sharply, his hand tightening around his beer bottle as if it’s the only thing keeping him tethered to Earth. 
“Jesus Christ,” Jake mutters under his breath. 
“Holy shit,” Reuben says, breaking into laughter. 
Mickey is howling, pounding his fist against the beanbag. “Worth it! So worth it!” 
You slowly pull back, biting back a grin as you settle back into your spot like nothing happened. Bob, however, is still stuck in the mental tailspin you just launched him into, blinking hard and adjusting his glasses like he needs a whole system reset. 
You meet his eyes, and for the briefest second, you see it—buried beneath the shock and heat—that glint of hunger. 
God help you, you're not making it out of tonight alive. 
The game moves on, but you can’t quiet your mind. You’re stuck on the way Bob’s thigh had felt beneath your palm, the way the muscles shifted under your touch. You can’t stop replaying the brush of your lips near his ear, the hitch in his breath, or the way he’d smelled—clean, warm, intoxicating. You don’t just want to fuck this man—you want to ruin him. You want him panting and wrecked, bruised and breathless, oversensitive and spent. There are things you want to ask of him that would guarantee you a one-way ticket to hell. But if he said yes—if he gave you those things—it’d be worth it. 
You’ve never wanted a man the way you want him, and it’s starting to feel like a genuine threat to your well-being. 
“Bob,” Natasha says, her voice snapping you back to reality, “Truth or Dare?” 
You’re not sure how many turns you’ve missed, but Bradley and Reuben seem to have swapped shirts, and there’s a bottle of tequila on the table that definitely wasn’t there earlier. 
“Dare,” Bob replies, seemingly recovered from your whispered indecency. 
Natasha grins. “I dare you to pick someone in this room to do a body shot off of—excluding me.” 
Your heart stutters at the last part. Did she say that because she thought he’d pick her? Would he have? Out of comfort, knowing it wouldn’t mean anything—or for some other reason? 
You shake the thought off quickly and join the group’s laughter, mentally scolding yourself for the jealous spiral. 
“Seriously, Phoenix?” Bob sighs, his brows knit. 
She just shrugs, laughing. “You picked dare.” 
He tips his head back and groans, giving you a perfect view of the long line of his throat, the sharp bob of his Adam’s apple as he swallows. 
“Come on, man,” Jake chuckles, “There’s only one clear choice.” 
Your cheeks flush as Jake nods toward you, green eyes sparkling like he’s the one about to do the dare. 
“As if you’re not going to pick Sunny,” Javy adds, watching as Bob’s eyes slowly scan the room. 
Then his gaze lands on you—soft, but laced with something heavier. Something simmering. 
He licks his lips, and you can’t stop yourself from imagining them on your skin. Imagining his tongue dragging over your body, slow and deliberate. The salt from your collarbone, your abdomen… or maybe lower—right above the waistband of your pants. Would he use the glass? Or would he press his mouth to your stomach, lips sealing around your navel, tongue lapping up the tequila while you tremble beneath him? 
Then the lime—between your lips, waiting for him. His mouth brushing yours as he leans in, breath mingling, tasting more than just the fruit. You imagine the sharp burst of citrus, the tease of contact, tequila heat still slick on his tongue. He’d bite down, lips grazing yours, and it would wreck you more than any kiss ever could. 
“Hangman,” Bob says suddenly, his gaze locked on the man across the circle—who now looks a lot less smug and a lot more stunned. 
Jake’s brows shoot up. “Me?” 
The room erupts into laughter. Bradley throws his head back, already fumbling for his phone to record whatever chaos is about to unfold. Mickey nearly falls over, gripping the bean bag for dear life, and Javy is doubled over, laughing so hard he can’t catch a breath. 
“Why would you do this to me?” Jake gasps, eyes wide. 
“You said there was only one clear option,” Bob replies evenly, the ghost of a smirk tugging at his mouth. “I agree.” 
“You bitch,” Jake mutters. 
“Oh, this is so much better than what I thought was going to happen,” Natasha says. “Shirt off, Bagman. Let’s go.” 
“This could be considered assault,” Jake mutters as he sits forward on the couch. 
“Then press charges,” Bradley says, half-choking on a laugh. “But let him finish first.” 
Natasha bolts to the kitchen for lime and salt, and the rest of the group scrambles to clear space on the lounge like they’re prepping for surgery. Jake peels off his shirt with the theatrics of a martyr, glaring at each of his cackling friends. 
Bob, meanwhile, looks cool as ever—far more composed than Jake. And maybe that’s the point. Picking you would’ve set the room on fire. Picking someone else would’ve gotten laughs. But picking Hangman? That’s just cruel and perfect—and from the slow curl of a smirk on Bob’s lips, he knows it. 
“Let’s go, Seresin,” Natasha says, reappearing with lime in one hand, salt in the other. 
Jake lies back with exaggerated misery, like a man about to be sacrificed at the altar. “I swear to God, Floyd, if you do anything weird with your mouth-” 
“I won’t,” Bob says, calm and unbothered. “Unless you want me to.” 
Your stomach somersaults. He didn’t even look at you—but somehow, it still feels like the line was meant for you. Like he knows exactly what he does to you, without even trying. 
Bob Floyd is fucking smooth when he wants to be. 
The room falls eerily quiet as Bob kneels beside the couch, one hand braced on the cushion beneath Jake’s body, the other holding the tequila bottle. He looks serene—like he’s preparing for a sacred ritual rather than licking salt off another man’s chest. 
“This is happening,” Mickey whispers, wide-eyed. “This is actually happening.” 
“Focus, Bob,” Natasha says solemnly, holding the shot glass as he pours the tequila. “We believe in you.” 
Bob sets the bottle down and leans toward Jake slowly, both hands now braced on the couch as he lowers his head to the other man’s chest. The room is absolutely silent, save for the soft rustle of fabric and the charged hush of everyone holding their breath. 
Jake stares straight up, completely stiff. “Don’t look at me while you do it.” 
“I’m not,” Bob says, deadpan. 
He dips his head and licks the salt clean off Jake’s skin. Jake jerks like he’s been hit with a defibrillator. 
“Oh my God,” Javy whispers, clutching his chest. “This is the best thing I’ve ever witnessed.” 
Natasha hands Bob the shot, and he tosses it back like he’s sampling a fine whiskey. Then he turns to the lime Natasha has jammed between Jake’s clenched teeth. 
“Don’t you dare,” Jake warns. 
“I’m just following instructions,” Bob replies calmly, and leans in. 
There’s a ridiculous half-second where it looks like they’re about to kiss—and everyone knows it. You bite your fist to keep from bursting out laughing… or something else entirely. Because Bob? Cool as ice. Smooth as ever. He doesn’t even flinch as his mouth brushes Jake’s, teeth clamping down on the lime and tugging it free. 
Jake makes a choked sound halfway between outrage and existential crisis. 
Then the room explodes. 
Bradley nearly falls off the lounge, still recording, laughter shaking his whole body. Natasha collapses into Javy’s lap, practically wheezing. Mickey is making noises like he’s being exorcised, and you’re on the brink of tears, shoulders shaking with laughter as Bob calmly returns to his seat, lime in hand, mouth twisted slightly at the tartness. 
Jake bolts upright, wiping his mouth. “I need therapy.” 
Bob frowns. “You needed therapy before that.” 
“Yeah,” Jake spits, yanking his shirt back on. “Well, now I need more.” 
You’re not sure you’ve ever felt it before—and you definitely don’t plan on voicing it—but right now, you are incredibly fucking jealous of Jake Seresin. 
It takes a while, but eventually the group settles down and the game fizzles out—mostly thanks to Jake’s relentless sulking. Not long after, Mickey gets a notification that the food is nearly delivered, and everyone jumps into action to clear the table and grab what’s needed for dinner. 
Less than ten minutes later, you’re all crowded around the coffee table, shovelling Chinese food into your mouths and stealing bites off each other’s plates. Jake’s sour mood has mostly vanished, and everyone is focused on the final battle of the movie playing out on-screen. 
By the time the credits start rolling, most of the food is gone. You and Natasha start carting plates, bowls, and empty containers into the kitchen while the guys finish polishing off their meals, scraping the last of the food off their plates and into their mouths.  
“Did I mention I brought dessert?” Reuben pipes up, eyeing you as you stack a few plates in one hand. 
You raise a brow. “Are you about to make a gross joke?” 
“No,” he laughs, shaking his head. “You know Barb, down the hall?” 
“Neighbour Barb with the yappy chihuahua?” 
He nods. “Yeah. She bakes, like… the most amazing stuff.” 
You narrow your eyes, plates now balanced in both hands. “Do I even want to know how you know this?” 
Mickey answers for him, talking around a mouthful of Mongolian beef. “Because we’re nice to our neighbours.” 
You give him a disgusted look before turning back to Reuben. “Okay. Get to the point.” 
He grins, a smug twist playing at the corner of his mouth. “She made a huge batch of cream pies—I mean, puffs. So she brought some over, and I brought them here. They’re to die for.” 
Your eyes widen almost imperceptibly—but Reuben catches it, and you can see the spark of amusement flash across his face. 
“Have you ever had a cream pie, Sunny?” Mickey asks, beaming up at you with sauce smeared on his face. 
Jake and Javy snort, and behind you—you swear you hear Bob snicker. 
“Yes, Mick,” you bite out. “I’ve had a cream puff.” 
You turn sharply back toward the kitchen, but not before catching the small smirk on Bob’s lips, his cheeks pink as he spoons another mouthful of kung pao chicken into his mouth. 
“That’s not what I asked!” Mickey calls after you, giggling like a grade-schooler. 
You roll your eyes and drop the plates by the sink, where Natasha and Bradley are already washing up. 
“Lookin’ a little red there, Floyd,” Reuben teases, his voice carrying from the living room to the kitchen. 
It’s the chicken,” Bob replies quickly—but there’s something in his voice that makes a stupid, lovesick grin spread across your face. 
Once everything is washed up and everyone has returned to the living room, Jake hits play on the next film. You’re back on the floor, this time with your back pressed to the couch beneath Natasha, who’s curled up with her legs tucked beneath her, leaving you space to lean. Bob is further away now, sprawled on his back across a fluffy blanket, a cluster of pillows beneath his head, hands folded neatly over his stomach. 
You try to keep your eyes on the screen—it really shouldn’t be that hard with both Hayden Christensen and Ewan McGregor to enjoy—but your gaze keeps drifting to Bob. He looks so content, so cute, his lips tipped into a soft half-smile and his blue eyes sparkling behind his glasses. There’s something about him that turns your brain to absolute mush, and you still can’t figure out what. 
Maybe it’s the dichotomy of him. How sweet and quiet he is—some might even say shy, but you know better. He’s just overwhelmingly nice, with a pretty face to match. And yet, you have to remind yourself that this man is in the navy. He’s not spineless—in fact, he’s the total opposite. He’s sharp and quick-witted, strong both mentally and physically. There’s not a single thing about him that’s weak, yet he lets people assume otherwise. 
Maybe it’s confidence. The kind that doesn’t need to be loud. He doesn’t care what people think or say. Not that he isn’t awkward sometimes—he definitely can be—but that’s more about being introverted. He doesn’t need to show off or run his mouth like Jake. He doesn’t need to fly like an idiot to prove himself. He’s just Bob. He knows who he is, and he’s not apologetic about it. 
What is it they call that? 
Oh yeah… big dick energy. 
Your eyes drift down his torso, lingering briefly on his hands—the way his long fingers are laced together—before continuing down to the waistband of his dark blue joggers. There’s a bulge in his lap. A notable one. And a slight outline continuing down the left leg of his pants… 
Wait. That’s like… kind of huge. 
A hard nudge to your shoulder startles you, and you whip around to see Natasha staring at you. Her eyes are wide, her lips pulled into a smirk—half disbelieving, half smug. 
Stop staring, she mouths. 
You press your lips together to hold back a laugh, a little giddy from your fourth—or maybe fifth—beer. Your face feels warm, and you know if you keep looking at Nat, you’ll start laughing, so you quickly turn back to the movie. 
“Okay,” Mickey pipes up, scrambling out of the beanbag and to his feet, “who wants cream puffs?” 
“Only if you serve them warm and full,” Jake shoots back. 
The room erupts—half groans, half childish laughter. Mickey just snorts and disappears into the kitchen, Reuben trailing behind him. A few minutes later, they return, each holding a heaping plate stacked with warm, golden cream puffs. 
“Fair warning,” Reuben says, setting one down on the table, “these things are insane. Like... dangerously good.” 
You grab one without hesitation—soft, golden, still warm to the touch. It’s dusted in powdered sugar and practically bursting with cream. You bite into it and—holy hell—the taste explodes in your mouth. Sweet. Rich. Ridiculously creamy. You moan without meaning to, eyes fluttering shut. 
“Oh, wow,” you say around a mouthful. “That’s... actually insane.” 
The group hums and laughs in agreement, but you barely notice. You take another bite—bigger this time—and it squishes a little too easily in your hand. Cream oozes out the side, trailing down your chin and, with an audible plop, lands squarely between your breasts. 
“Oh, shit,” you mutter, trying to swipe the cream away—but all you manage to do is smear it further. 
There’s a beat of silence, and even the movie playing in the background seems to go quiet. 
“Jesus Christ,” Reuben says, somewhere between impressed and scandalised. “You sure you don’t need a minute alone with that thing?” 
Laughter rumbles around you, and only when you look up do you realise how provocative that just was—the heat in your cheeks deepening. But then your eyes catch on Bob. 
He’s not laughing. He’s not even blinking. 
The lazy smile he wore earlier? Gone. He’s sitting upright now, shoulders tense, jaw clenched. His gaze is locked on you like he forgot what movie is playing, what day it is—hell, maybe even his own name. 
“Floyd?” Mickey nudges his leg with a foot. “You good?” 
Bob jolts slightly, as if waking from a trance. He coughs, shifts, and yanks the blanket from the floor to cover his lap—too quickly to be casual. 
“They, uh...” he clears his throat, voice rough. “They look really good.” 
Your stomach swoops as he leans forward, still holding the blanket tight in place, and reaches for a cream puff from the plate right in front of you—still avoiding your eyes entirely. 
Natasha leans in from behind, her voice low. “You are killing him.” 
You press your lips together to hide your grin, eyes flicking back to Bob—who’s now doing everything in his power not to look in your direction. 
The cream puffs disappear in what has to be a record amount of time. You’re pretty sure you watched Javy inhale at least four, and there was an unnecessarily loud argument between Mickey and Bradley over the last one, which ended in a begrudging decision to split it. 
The rest of the movie plays out without incident, and afterward, everyone decides to change into their PJs for the final film of the night. You’re honestly surprised everyone has made it to movie number three, but you’re not complaining. 
The boys start rummaging through their bags, swapping out jeans for boxers or stretchy pajama pants while Natasha grabs her bag and disappears into the bathroom. You keep your eyes glued to your phone screen to avoid catching a glimpse of something you definitely don’t want to see—because these boys? They have no shame. 
“You can change in my room if you want,” Bob offers. 
You glance up, making sure to keep your eyes fixed on him, because just a little to the left is where Jake is still mid-change. 
“Yeah?” 
Bob nods, a small smile tugging at his lips as he gestures down the short hallway past the kitchen. “It’s the door just after the bathroom.” 
“Thanks,” you mutter, pushing to your feet and grabbing your bag as you slip past the others—now teasing Mickey about his choice of boxers. 
The door is open just a crack, and your heart thuds a little harder than it should as you ease it the rest of the way. The smell hits first—clean and warm, with a twist of vanilla that makes you want to wrap yourself in it and never leave. 
You flick on the light and shut the door behind you, dropping your bag to the floor. You know you should just get changed, but… you can’t help it. You’ve only been to Bob’s apartment a couple times before—once to help him move in (because of course the whole squad helped), and once with Natasha to pick him up before a night out. But never in here. Never in his room. 
It’s almost unusually tidy, but that’s navy life for you. His bed is made neatly, topped with a soft baby blue duvet, coordinated beige and cream pillows, and a throw blanket folded at the foot. It’s a little faded and looks handmade, like something passed down through generations. 
On one side of the room, a bookshelf houses a quiet little collection of well-loved paperbacks, a few aviation manuals, and a line of model planes—some pristine and precise, others clearly glued together by a much younger version of him. A framed photo of a beaming, pint-sized Bob in oversized glasses sits on the dresser, nestled between a small baseball trophy and a display of navy challenge coins. 
A pair of worn sneakers sits neatly by the door, and his uniform jacket hangs off the closet handle, the door slightly ajar. The name tag catches just enough light to pull your eyes toward it. Everything about the room feels like him—modest, thoughtful, quietly proud. It’s the kind of unintentional intimacy that makes you feel like you’ve slipped behind the curtain and gotten a glimpse of the real Bob. 
And somehow… that makes your chest ache. It’s just a room. But it feels so much like him—like you could curl up in here with him for hours, doing nothing but talking and dreaming. Getting lost in each other. Letting the rest of the world wait. And then, later, getting tangled together. Soft kisses, whispered pleas, gentle moans—slow and unhurried, learning one another’s bodies until you know each other better than you know yourselves. 
You shake your head hard and take a breath. You’ve already been in here too long. Pull it together. 
You crouch beside your bag and pull out your pajamas—soft lounge shorts and a matching long-sleeved shirt. It’s nothing special, but a step up from your usual: an old, food-stained navy tee and nothing but underwear. 
You change quickly and shove your clothes into your bag before leaving the room. The lounge room has quieted down, everyone now back in their seats—except for Mickey and Bob, who are in the kitchen grabbing another round of drinks. 
Jake hits play as soon as they return, and everyone settles in again. There’s less chatter now, probably because of how late it’s gotten. Bradley is almost definitely asleep, eyes half-shut on the two-seater, while Mickey is having the time of his life seeing how many of Bradley’s fingers he can get stuck in the top of his beer bottle. 
Natasha is curled up behind you, her head resting on Reuben’s shoulder, and his blinks are getting longer and slower by the second. Jake is surprisingly alert and invested in the film, but Javy looks like his head might lull back at any moment. And Bob—Bob is still wide awake, his eyes sparkling with interest as he watches the screen. 
Halfway through the film, Mickey pushes to his feet and offers another round of drinks, prompting a few sleepy murmurs of ‘yes’ from the others. 
“I’ll help,” you offer, stretching as you rise from the floor and follow him into the kitchen. 
You open the fridge and start pulling out beers while Mickey pops the tops off. But when you close the fridge and turn back around, you spot Reuben—now suddenly very awake—watching Mickey with intent. He’s wearing that little smirk that always means trouble, clearly trying to telepathically communicate something to his WSO. 
Your brow furrows as you glance between them, trying to decode the silent exchange. Mickey looks equally confused for a second... but then realisation dawns and a wicked grin curls onto his face. 
He turns to you and mutters, “Sorry about this.” But he doesn’t sound even remotely apologetic. 
Your frown deepens. “What are you-” 
But you don’t get to finish the question before he starts shaking the beer bottle in his hand. 
“Mick—!” you cry, just as he pops the top off and sprays you with beer. 
You shriek, throwing your hands in front of your face like that’ll somehow stop the onslaught. But it doesn’t. You’re soaked. 
“What the hell, Fanboy?” Reuben calls from the living room, as if this wasn’t entirely his doing. 
“Mickey!” you shout, dropping your arms and glaring at him. 
“Whoops,” he says with a grin. “My bad.” 
Natasha snorts and smacks a hand over her mouth. “Sorry. It’s not funny.” 
“Wow, Fanboy,” Jake pipes up, the smirk in his voice unmistakable. “Is that the first time you’ve made a girl wet?” 
Mickey glares—or tries to. He’s way too pleased with himself for it to land properly. 
“Hey, Floyd,” Reuben calls, “you got any spare clothes for Sunny?” 
Bob is already looking at you, lips parted and cheeks flushed. He swallows hard before turning to Reuben and nodding. “Yeah, of course.” Then he stands, eyes flicking back to you. “Do you want to shower?” 
Mickey gasps, scandalised. “Robert Floyd, are you propositioning her?” 
Bob’s blush deepens, colouring his neck and the tips of his ears, but he doesn’t look particularly ashamed. He looks… flushed. Hot. Close to unravelling. His glare cuts back to Mickey, sharper than usual, a little too dark to be playful. And then his gaze shifts back to you—specifically, your chest. 
You follow his line of sight and immediately wrap an arm around yourself. Your nipples are pebbled beneath your shirt, the damp fabric clinging in all the worst ways. Or the best—if you ask Bob Floyd. 
“Yes,” you say tightly. “A shower would be good.” 
The room dissolves into quiet laughter as you follow Bob down the hall. He slips into his room for a moment, then returns with a folded towel and some clothes stacked neatly on top. 
“Here,” he says, offering them to you. “Take as long as you want. You can use whatever’s in there. Not that there’s much.” 
He dips his head—blush still firmly in place—and heads back to the living room. 
You stare after him for a second, dumbfounded. He got embarrassed about his lack of shower products? That’s what embarrassed him? Not the full-body, post-beer-shower eye-fucking he just gave you? 
You close the bathroom door behind you and lean against it, exhaling hard. You’re buzzing. Overstimulated. Untouched and on fire. You feel like you’re being edged and then abandoned, left to squirm. You’re so sensitive it hurts. Bob is teasing you just as much as you’re teasing him—those glances, the heat behind his eyes, the way his mouth hangs open like he wants to say something but never does. 
You might’ve thought you were playing a game, but Bob Floyd is about to kill you without even realising it. 
You strip quickly, trying not to dwell on the fact that you’re naked in Bob’s apartment. You keep the water on the cooler side—a half-hearted attempt to wash away the heat still simmering under your skin. But it doesn’t help. You shower fast and step out even faster, wrapping yourself in the towel Bob gave you. It’s fluffy, soft, and smells just like him—which makes that spot deep behind your hipbones ache. 
You dry off in record time, then turn to the small pile of clothes on the vanity—Bob’s clothes. Your hands tremble slightly as you lift the satin boxers, dark blue with little white stars, and slide them up your legs. Then the shirt: a worn white tee with a faded Star Wars logo across the chest. 
His scent wraps around you the second you slide it over your head—oversized and impossibly soft against your warm skin. You try not to focus on the rasp of cotton against your nipples. God, if he ever actually touches you, you might just combust. 
You take a deep breath, trying to calm the fire burning low in your belly, then scoop up your beer-soaked clothes and open the bathroom door—steam spilling into the hallway as you step out. 
"Finally," Mickey says, popping up in front of you like he’s been waiting, holding out a plastic bag. 
You blink. “What?” 
“For your clothes,” he says simply. 
“Oh.” You take it and shove the damp material inside. 
His gaze dips—just for a beat—before sliding back up. Then he grins, gives you a cheeky wink, and turns back toward the lounge room. You follow, every eye lifting to you the second you reappear. Warmth floods your cheeks. You’re in Bob’s clothes. Bob's boxers. Bob's shirt. 
“Can we play the movie now?” Jake whines, oblivious to the tension humming through the room. “It was just getting good.” 
You nod, unable to speak, your gaze already locked with Bob’s. 
His eyes rake down your body, slow and deliberate. He takes in the curve of your neck, the slope of your shoulder, the hang of his shirt against your chest. His gaze catches there, as if he can see straight through the fabric, then continues its journey down to the hem. The shorts are barely visible beneath the shirt, and judging by the heat in his eyes, he might be wondering why you're wearing pants at all. 
You shift under the weight of his stare, hyper-aware of every inch of fabric against your skin—of how suddenly hot the room feels. Jake presses play, but no one is watching the screen. Every pair of eyes bounces between you and Bob, waiting—expecting—something to happen. 
Bob looks wrecked. His hands are clenched at his sides, knuckles white, jaw tight. Like he has to physically hold himself back. 
Natasha clears her throat, startling you more than it should. You tear your gaze away and flash her a sheepish smile before finally forcing yourself to move, padding back to your spot on the floor. 
Even then, you can feel Bob’s eyes tracking every step. 
The rest of the movie plays out in near silence, broken only by the soft snoring that eventually starts up from Bradley and Javy. It takes a while for you to settle, but you finally curl up on the floor with a pillow hugged to your chest, watching Anakin fall apart on-screen and become Darth Vader. 
Jake is the only one still fully invested in the film. Even Bob seems distracted now, his eyes flicking toward you more often than the TV. He shifts in place, uncomfortable, dragging the blanket higher across his lap and holding it like a lifeline. You try not to smirk. 
You think you know what might be going on under there… but you’re not about to assume. It couldn't possibly be just because you’re wearing his clothes. 
…Right? 
Eventually, the credits start rolling and everyone begins to stir. 
“Where am I sleeping?” Mickey asks, already eyeing Bob like he’s got plans. 
Bob shrugs. “Wherever. There’s the couches and a couple beds in the spare room, but someone’ll have to sleep with me.” 
“I think Rooster’s good here,” Jake says, glancing at the man awkwardly passed out on the two-seater couch. “I’ll take this one.” 
“I’ll sleep with you, Bobby,” Javy says through a yawn, stretching so wide his joints pop. 
“Damn it,” Mickey mutters as he walks past, bumping your shoulder with his. “Missed opportunity.” 
You roll your eyes but can’t help feeling a twinge of disappointment. You know damn well you wouldn’t get any sleep next to Bob—not when he smells like that, looks like that, and keeps looking at you the way he does. So it’s probably for the best, but still, the thought lingers. 
Everyone takes turns brushing their teeth and shuffling off to bed. You end up in the fold-out bed with Natasha in the spare room, while Reuben and Mickey claim the air mattress on the floor. Apparently, there’s no escaping these boys—not even for one night. 
Mumbled goodnights fade into rustling fabric and shifting limbs, then finally, silence. 
Too much silence. 
You lie on your back, eyes on the ceiling, thoughts screaming through your head like they’re in a race. You should be tired—your body aches—but your brain refuses to shut up. You toss the blanket off, overheated, but even with the cooler air, your skin feels flushed. You roll to your side, careful not to jostle Natasha on the creaky mattress, but nothing helps. 
You glance down at the boys, both snoring with their mouths open, and finally sigh. Swinging your legs off the bed, you wriggle out of Bob’s shorts, thinking maybe it’ll help. You don’t usually sleep in pants anyway. 
It doesn’t. 
Ten minutes later, you quietly slip off the bed and tiptoe toward the door, easing it open with practiced care to avoid the squeaky hinges. Then you turn down the hallway, barefoot and warm-skinned, and pad into the kitchen. 
The hem of Bob’s shirt brushes against your bare thighs, stoking the fire already simmering between them as you stop in front of the fridge and pull the door open. A cool flood of light spills across the kitchen tiles. You grab a bottle of water and twist off the cap, stepping back and tipping it to your lips. But the cold rush does nothing to cool the heat thrumming beneath your skin. 
“You always walk around other people’s places half naked?” 
You choke, almost spilling water down your chin as you turn toward the voice—that low, raspy sound that makes your skin prickle and your spine snap straight. 
Bob stands at the edge of the kitchen, leaning casually against the far counter—but there’s nothing relaxed about the way he holds himself. In the dim glow of the fridge light, he looks almost ethereal. His eyes are sharp, lit with something that borders on pain—hunger, maybe, or full-blown starvation—and his arms are crossed over his bare chest. 
Yeah. Bob Floyd is shirtless. 
You register a flicker of jealousy for Javy—the man who gets to sleep next to this—but you don’t let yourself linger on it. Not when Bob is standing right there in nothing but a pair of loose boxers, the fabric doing nothing to hide the impressive shape beneath. 
You don’t know if it’s because he’s a little turned on or just blessed, but damn. 
“You okay?” he asks, though it doesn’t sound like a real question—because he already knows the answer. 
No. No, you’re not. 
You clear your throat, dragging your eyes back up to his. “Yeah, I—uh-” 
Your words falter when his gaze drops to your legs. There’s something almost reverent in the way he looks at you—like he’s trying to memorise every inch. His eyes drag slowly up your bare thighs, pausing at the hem of his shirt before gliding over your waist and stopping at your chest, where your nipples are clearly outlined beneath the thin cotton. 
The heat of his stare burns hotter than any touch. 
“Couldn’t sleep?” he asks, voice quiet, like he’s just making conversation. Like he has no idea what he’s doing to you. 
He pushes off the counter and walks straight toward you—slow, but sure. He stops right in front of the fridge, close enough that if you moved even a breath closer, you’d feel your nipples graze his skin. 
You take a step back—barely. Just enough to let him slip past you. 
He nods slightly—a silent thanks—and ducks into the fridge for his own water. When he shuts the door, the kitchen is plunged into darkness, save for dim moonlight filtering in from the far windows—but you can still see him. His outline, the dips and curves of his lean torso, the tilt of his head as he tips the bottle back and drinks. 
You watch his throat move with every swallow, your lips parting slightly, craving his skin on your tongue. You don’t move. You don’t breathe. You just stand there, watching. 
When he finishes, he turns to the sink and drops the empty bottle in before bracing both hands against the bench. His chin dips toward his chest, and you see the rise and fall of his shoulders as he exhales—hard. 
Before you can stop yourself, your feet carry you forward until you’re beside him, your bare arm brushing against his. You place your own bottle in the sink, then turn toward him and lean your hip against the counter. 
“Bob,” you whisper. 
Every sound in the apartment feels louder now—the faint snores, the creak of the floorboards, your own heartbeat thrumming in your ears. 
He looks at you, only turning his head, not his body. “Don’t—” he says softly. “Don’t say my name like that.” 
You frown, sliding your hand over his. His grip tightens on the bench like he’s anchoring himself. 
“Like what?” you ask softly. 
“Like you want me,” he murmurs. His voice is thick—rough around the edges like it’s been scraped raw. Like he's holding something back with every laboured breath. 
You press closer, your chest against his arm. The contact is electric. Your skin separated only by a whisper of cotton—his cotton. 
“Bob,” you breathe, a little desperate now. 
He exhales sharply and drops his gaze to the sink again, like something there might help him. “This isn’t…” His jaw flexes. “We can’t do this.” 
“Do what?” you ask, playing innocent, even as your fingers trail lightly up his arm. 
You can feel your chest rising and falling faster than it should, your breasts pressing against his arm like some wanton, starry-eyed girl. But you can’t bring yourself to step away. Every inch of you is on fire, every nerve ending singed and tingling. You want him to turn around and take you—bend you over the counter and make you scream his name. Who gives a fuck who’s listening... or watching. You just want Bob. You want him to know how much you want him, how deeply you need him. How desperate he makes you without even trying. 
“Do you have any idea,” he whispers, finally turning to face you fully, “what you do to me?” 
You feel it—hard and thick—pressing against your lower belly. There’s no mistaking it now. 
“Bob…” Your voice is a sigh, wrecked and begging. 
He catches your wrist, his grip firm, nearly bruising. His eyes are wild as they search your face—from your eyes to your lips, down to your chest, and back again—like he’s torn between reason and ruin. 
You hold still. Waiting. Daring. Wanting him to snap. 
But then... he’s gone—his warmth, his scent, the burning look in his eyes. All of it, gone in a breath. 
“Goodnight,” he mutters, so low you barely hear it before the soft click of his bedroom door… and then the snap of the lock. 
You’re left standing there, chest heaving, skin burning. Your eyes sting with unshed tears, and your mind is a mess. What the fuck just happened? Your panties are damp, and your chest aches like you've been torn in two. You want to cry, but you also want to break down his door. How dare he build you up like that? Look at you like that, talk to you like that—and then just walk away. 
It takes several minutes before you can move, your legs shaky, your mind racing. You stumble back to the spare room, collapse into bed, and stare at the ceiling, flat on your back—Bob’s shirt clinging to your skin. 
You don’t sleep. Not at all. 
“He what?” Natasha’s eyes go impossibly wide. “And then he just—he left?” 
You nod slowly, keeping your eyes fixed on your lunch. The mess hall is loud enough to muffle your conversation—one you should’ve had yesterday but couldn’t summon the strength for. So here you are, in the middle of the hall, with the boys a couple tables over, surrounded by lieutenants you don’t know—blissfully unaware of your current crisis. 
“Yeah,” you sigh, stabbing at another piece of pasta you don’t plan to eat. 
You haven’t eaten much in the last twenty-four hours—not since the run-in with Bob. Everything feels bland now, drained of colour and taste, too dull to bother with. Anything that isn’t Bob just feels lacking, and you're starting to worry that one moment—one heated, breathless moment—has completely ruined you. 
“That’s insane,” Natasha mutters. “That’s so... not Bob. How could he be so—I don’t know... rude? I just—I have no words.” 
You shrug one shoulder. “It wasn’t rude. He just seemed... confused, I guess. And I don’t blame him. If I’m not what he wants, then-” 
“Stop right there,” Mickey interrupts, sliding into the chair beside you. 
Reuben drops into the seat next to Natasha, eyeing your tray of food. 
“Sorry,” he says, reaching across the table to steal your apple. “We couldn’t get away any faster.” 
You glance past Mickey, down the row of tables, and catch Bob’s eyes on you—just for a second—before he quickly looks away. Bradley, Jake, and Javy are still deep in conversation with the other guys, oblivious. Bob seems to be the only one noticing Reuben and Mickey’s absence. 
“Start again,” Mickey says. “From the beginning. We knew something happened.” 
Natasha snorts around a mouthful of pasta, and you sigh, knowing there’s no point arguing. They’d get it out of you one way or another. 
Twenty minutes later, when you finally finish recapping the story for the second time, Natasha taps her watch and nods toward the exit. “We better get back before Mav, or he’ll keep us late tonight.” 
Mickey’s brows are nearly touching as he processes everything you’ve said. “What does he mean, ‘you can’t do this’? He clearly wanted to—so why didn’t he?” 
You pick up your tray and follow Natasha toward the return station. “Your guess is as good as mine.” 
“I mean,” Reuben says, brows furrowed, “you said he was... at attention, right?” 
You blow a half-hearted laugh through your nose. “Yeah.” 
“So he definitely wanted to,” he says as the four of you exit the mess hall. “I just can’t think of why he wouldn’t go for it.” 
“I think it’s because you’re in the same squad,” Natasha offers. “He’s probably worried it’ll get weird—or worse, if it doesn’t work out.” 
You roll your eyes as you cross the hot concrete, heading back to the hangar. “But we’re both adults. Why can’t he just sack up and fuck me, and we’ll worry about the consequences later?” 
Your voice comes out louder than you meant, and you don’t miss the odd looks a few passing officers send your way. 
Reuben chuckles. “Maybe you should just say that to him.” 
“No,” Natasha says, turning toward you with a mischievous glint in her eye. “I’ve got a better idea. Call it Plan B or whatever, but now... we’re bringing out the big guns.” 
“So Sunny pressing her tits against him wasn’t the big guns?” Mickey quips with a grin. 
You smack him lightly across the chest before looking back to Natasha. “I doubt anything will work at this point, but... I’m curious. What’s the idea?” 
“How’s your gag reflex?” she asks, tilting her head thoughtfully. 
You rear back, eyebrows raised—and both Reuben and Mickey choke on laughter. 
Natasha sighs, rolling her eyes. “Not like that. I mean you’re going to need a strong stomach and a Juilliard degree to pull this off.” 
You frown, slowing just slightly as the hangar looms into view. “Okay...” 
She straightens up and faces forward, a proud smirk tugging at her mouth and her chin tilted high. “We’re going to make Bob jealous.” 
Out of Mickey and Reuben, you all collectively decided that Reuben was the more convincing option. Not that you don’t think Mickey’s gorgeous—you do, and so does he—but his acting skills are questionable at best. You at least have a little more faith in Reuben’s ability to fake flirt without making it weird. 
The plan is simple. Convince Bob that he’s lost his shot—or that he’s just about to. Make it clear you’re happy to move on. If he wants you... well, now he’s going to have to fight for it. Because tempting him wasn’t enough—apparently—you need to dig deeper. Tap into something primal and pull it to the surface. Exploit what lingers under the skin of every man: jealousy and competition. 
You’re going to make this a game he can’t afford to lose. 
“You ready for Phase Two?” Natasha asks as you cross the base, the sun still barely above the horizon. 
You take a deep breath of fresh morning air. “Let’s do it.” 
She and Mickey take off ahead of you and Reuben to arrive in the training room first. It’s a known fact that Bob is always ridiculously early—so you know he’ll already be there. You hang back with Reuben, rehashing the plan and trying to get used to flirting with him without cracking up. 
At exactly ten past six, Natasha texts you to give the green light—no doubt having casually pointed out to Bob that you’re not with her, which you always are. 
“What if he doesn’t care?” you ask Reuben softly as you climb the stairs. 
He rolls his eyes like you’ve said something utterly insane. “He’ll care, trust me. He might be Bob, but he’s still a guy. And he’s obviously down bad for you—just needs a little push.” 
You snort. “Little?” 
Reuben chuckles. “Okay, more than a little. It’s Bob.” 
You laugh too, quietly, and then steel yourself as you reach the door—slipping on your game face. You glance at Reuben, catching the smirk tugging at his mouth. 
Then you both nod. It’s show time. 
“So, you’re saying eye contact makes it better?” he asks as you step through the door, voice pitched perfectly. 
You nod, casual but with a hint of something else. “Yep. A thousand times better. And bonus points if you know where to put your hands.” 
He raises a brow, lips twitching. “Where do I put my hands?” 
You giggle, soft and flirty, pausing a few steps into the room. “How about I show you later?” 
His grin breaks loose. “Promise?” 
“Promise.” 
You head toward the rows of seats, sliding into your usual behind Natasha—not missing the way Bob’s gaze locks onto you like he’s been caught mid-thought. His head swivels as Reuben sits beside you instead of next to Mickey. 
“See,” Reuben says, leaning in a little, “all these years I thought speed was the key. But you’re saying it’s finesse?” 
“Oh, definitely finesse,” you say, holding his eyes. “Go too hard and too fast, and it’s just... messy. Sloppy. Unimpressive.” 
Reuben licks his lips, his eyes flicking sideways to Bob—just for a second. “So, you’re offering me private lessons?” 
You lower your voice slightly, knowing it’s still perfectly audible to the rest of the room. “Depends. Can you follow instruction without getting too flustered?” 
Reuben’s grin sharpens. “I don’t fluster, sweetheart. I excel under pressure.” 
You pause, your pulse a little too quick—partly from Bob’s stare, which he’s not even trying to hide now, and partly from the fact that yeah, it’s been a while. And if this whole plan does blow up in your face... well, Reuben doesn’t seem like the worst option for a little stress relief. 
You fight down a laugh at the idea and finally drag your gaze toward the front of the room. Bob—just one row ahead—snaps his eyes forward like he’s been caught eavesdropping, but the bright red of his cheeks, the tight set of his shoulders, and the way his jaw flexes say it all. He’s tense. He’s listening. And he’s absolutely not okay. 
A moment later, Maverick strolls in, completely oblivious to the emotional warfare brewing right beneath his nose. 
The rest of the week passes in much the same way. Each evening, you regroup with your friends to scheme and strategize, brainstorming new antics to pull off the next day. Nothing over-the-top—just enough to catch Bob’s eye. 
On Wednesday, you get Reuben to help you into your flight suit. You both time it perfectly: he exits the locker room just ahead of Bob, and you appear a second later, flashing a flirty grin before asking sweetly for his help. You giggle and call him a sweetheart while Bob nearly trips over his own feet, glancing back with a clenched jaw and a look that could burn a hole through steel. 
Thursday morning, Reuben brings you a coffee—exactly how you like it—straight to the briefing room. You proclaim, not so quietly, that he’s giving total boyfriend material before he drops into the seat beside you and you both giggle over a (completely fabricated) inside joke. 
That afternoon, during a short break between drills and the next briefing, he offers you a bite of his protein bar. You take it right from his hand, licking your lips and throwing him an innocent little wink before sauntering off like it’s nothing. 
By Friday, Natasha warns you that the others are starting to notice. But you’re in too deep to pull back now—not when Bob looks like he’s about to unravel. He’s been tighter than ever, watching you like a hawk, eyes dark and stormy instead of their usual calm denim blue. You’re close. So close. And honestly? You’re kind of having a little too much fun. 
That afternoon, during post-flight checks, Reuben sidles up behind you under the guise of pointing out something ‘mechanical’ on your jet. You’re not actually doing anything with it, but that doesn’t stop him from standing unnecessarily close, guiding your hand with his as he gestures toward something supposedly critical. The two of you are seconds from cracking up, but Bob doesn’t know that. Bob, from all the way across the hangar, looks frozen—eyes locked, breath held, jaw tight—as Reuben presses flush against your back. 
Natasha really shouldn’t be enjoying this as much as she is, but honestly? She can’t help it. It’s too damn entertaining. 
“Hey,” she says, nodding at Bob as she approaches. “You good?” 
He blinks, then turns his sharp gaze on her, jaw tight. “Yeah.” 
She snorts. “That was very convincing.” 
He rolls his eyes and turns robotically back to the maintenance logs he’d been filling out. 
Natasha glances at the paperwork, noting the hard press of his pen and the uneven ticks and crosses—some scribbled over multiple times—down the checkbox column. 
“Wow,” she mutters, raising a brow. “You sure you earned your pen licence? Or should you still be on pencils?” 
Bob’s blue eyes flick up, darker than usual beneath his furrowed brow. “Ha. Ha.” 
“Okay,” she says, biting back the laugh rising in her throat. “So, bad day?” 
“Bad week,” Bob grumbles. 
Natasha nods slowly. “Well, hey, why don’t we fix that by hitting up The Hard Deck tonight?” 
He snaps the logbook shut and tucks the pen into his pocket. “Pass.” 
“Oh, come on,” she sighs. “It might make you feel better.” 
His eyes flick toward you again, watching as you and Reuben dissolve into giggles beside your jet. 
“I doubt it.” 
“Sunny’ll be there,” Natasha says, her voice light and teasing. 
Bob doesn’t respond. Just keeps packing up his things—every motion a little too sharp, a little too fast. 
Natasha exhales. “Come on, dude. Just come for one drink—it doesn’t have to be beer. Blow off some steam. If you hate it, you can bail early. But it won’t be the same without you.” 
He takes a breath and closes his eyes for a beat before letting it out slow. “Fine. One drink.” 
Natasha grins, her eyes sparkling even in the dimming light of the hangar. “Perfect.” 
Later that night, Natasha drives the four of you—Reuben and Mickey included—to the bar. Everyone else agreed to meet there, and she insisted on driving so you could have a few drinks. Not just to loosen up for another round of torturing poor Bob, but to actually let loose a little. She can tell this whole thing is winding you up, and she figures a few beers and a night with friends might help ease the tension—and the guilt—and maybe even the gnawing fear that this whole plan could blow up in your face. 
“Nat, are you sure this dress isn’t too short?” you ask, holding the hem down against the curve of your ass as you follow her toward the main entry door. “I haven’t worn it in years.” 
“There’s no such thing as too short,” Mickey says, deadpan. 
You roll your eyes and step inside, into the warm glow of golden lighting and the low hum of half-drunk conversation. You let go of your dress now that there’s no breeze threatening to lift it, and try to relax, even with the strange sensation of bare legs in public. You’re used to flight suits, not feeling this on display. 
“Ready to put on your best performance yet?” Reuben murmurs, slinging an arm over your shoulder. 
You take a deep breath, feeling it rattle faintly in your chest. “Let’s do this thing.” 
Natasha shoots you a wink over her shoulder, already striding confidently across the bar, her gaze locked on the usual booth where the rest of your friends are waiting. 
There’s a chorus of greetings as the four of you approach, and you all grin and wave, waiting as Bradley, Jake, Javy, and Bob shuffle around to make room. Natasha pointedly takes the spot beside Bob, with Mickey sliding in next to her. You claim the seat beside Jake—which puts Reuben on your other side. Just as planned. 
It’s a little squishy, but after so many nights like this, none of you really notice. Except Bob. He’s noticed tonight. His eyes are locked on the way your side is pressed to Reuben’s, his arm is slung casually over the back of the booth, fingers just barely grazing your shoulder. 
“He looks like he wants to kill me,” Reuben whispers in your ear, low enough that you can barely hear him over the chatter of the bar. “Pretend I said something funny. Laugh like you’ve got a secret.” 
You blink slowly, resisting the urge to roll your eyes, and let out a soft giggle as you lean toward him just a little. 
“You’re a pretty good actress,” he mutters before pulling back slightly. 
You glance up at him through your lashes, feeling more at ease with the close proximity after the past week. Then you straighten your spine and lean in, your lips grazing his jaw as you whisper in his ear. 
“You’re annoying.” 
He chuckles quietly, though you know he really wants to snort and smack you on the shoulder. You’re both enjoying this just a little too much, getting a kick out of your undercover roles. 
When you turn back to the rest of the group, Natasha is very deliberately not looking at you—and you know it’s because she’ll laugh if she does. Mickey, on the other hand, is watching with wide eyes, as is Javy. Jake and Bradley are still arguing about something on your other side, and Bob… Bob still looks like he’s ready to commit first-degree murder. 
“Drink?” Reuben asks after a beat, his smile smooth. 
You nod. “Absolutely. I’ll help you.” 
You both stand and offer a round to the rest of the table, most of whom accept—which makes it less suspicious that you’re going together. At the bar, you make sure to stand just a little closer than necessary as he orders a round of the usual from Penny. 
“Are you sure we’re not pushing it?” you ask, your voice laced with quiet worry. 
Reuben shakes his head. “Nah, not yet.” 
You frown. “Yet?” 
“He’ll snap one way or another,” he says, leaning casually against the bar. “He’ll either lose it and blow up over something totally unrelated—and that’s when we’ll know we’ve gone too far. Or he’ll wake the fuck up and fight for what he wants.” 
You open your mouth to voice another concern, but Penny is already sliding the tray of drinks across the bar. Reuben thanks her with an easy smile as you grab the two beers that didn’t fit, flashing her your own grateful grin before following him back to the table. 
When you set the beers down, you feel the neckline of your dress slip just a little lower. Your eyes flick up to see if anyone’s noticed—and of course… Bob. His gaze is dark and locked on your chest, clearly able to see right down your dress. He doesn’t hesitate, doesn’t even try to look away. He just stares. 
But then he blinks and glances aside, not flustered or ashamed—just determined not to meet your eyes. 
You straighten up and clear your throat. “I’m just going to duck to the bathroom.” 
Then you turn and begin weaving your way through the bar, desperate for a moment to yourself—even though you haven’t been here that long—and to check that you don’t look completely ridiculous in the dress Natasha convinced you to wear. 
You take your time in the stall, then rinse your hands under the cool water for a little longer than necessary. When you glance at your reflection in the full-length mirror, you’re surprised—and a little impressed. Because damn… you do look good. Maybe this dress deserves to see the light of day more often. And if Bob’s stare is anything to go by, it’s definitely not a bad idea. 
You take a deep breath before pushing open the bathroom door, ready to continue your little charade—but you barely make it a few steps before someone blocks your path. You blink and stumble, stopping short before you run right into him. 
You sigh when you realise who it is, that cocky smirk etched across his face. “What do you want, Hangman?” 
“I want to know what’s going on.” 
Your pulse spikes, but you do your best to keep your expression calm. “What do you mean?” 
“Between you and Payback,” he says, narrowing his green eyes. “Because I know that’s not real.” 
Your breath catches—too quickly—giving you away as your gaze flicks to the side. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” 
He rolls his eyes and leans in slightly, keeping the conversation low and private in the hum of the bar. “Don’t try to gaslight me, Sunny. I’m not an idiot. I know Phoenix is in on it—because of course she is—and Fanboy too, judging by the way he giggles every time you and Payback so much as look at each other.” He quirks a brow, daring you to challenge him. “The only reason Coyote hasn’t said anything is because he’s too polite, and Rooster hasn’t noticed because he’s too wrapped up in his own shit.” 
You cross your arms and narrow your eyes, matching his bravado. “You missed one.” 
He frowns. “What?” 
“You listed all the members of the squad… except one.” 
“Right,” he chuckles dryly. “Bob. That’s the funny thing, because ever since we got to this island, you’ve been starry-eyed over Floyd, and he’s either too clueless to notice or too stupid to ask you out.” He pauses, letting it sink in, then leans just a bit closer. “Which is exactly why I’m not buying whatever you and Payback have been trying to sell this past week.” 
You stare at each other for a beat, both stubborn and scowling, waiting for the other to fold first. 
Then you sigh. “Okay, fine. But you have to swear yourself to secrecy.” 
His smirk stretches into a full grin. “I knew it.” 
“Swear it.” 
“Okay, okay,” he says, holding up a hand. “I swear. I won’t even tell Coyote, and my pillow won’t hear a thing about it.” 
You nod. “Good. Now come over and pretend to pick a song so this doesn’t look suspicious.” 
You grab his wrist and tug him toward the jukebox, leaning over it and pretending to scroll through options while you give him a quick summary of Operation Bob’s Blue Balls—leaving out a few of the more... intimate details. 
“So there,” you finish. “It’s underhanded and immature, but that’s what’s going on.” 
His expression barely shifts the entire time, just the usual entertained glint in his eye and that ever-present smirk. 
“Underhanded and immature?” he says. “I’m surprised I wasn’t in on this sooner.” 
You roll your eyes. 
“I want in.” 
You blink, brow furrowed. “What?” 
“I want to help,” he says, plainly. 
You narrow your eyes, sceptical. “Why?” 
He sighs and braces one hand on the jukebox, leaning in like he’s about to reveal some classified information. “Believe it or not, I’m not the worst guy in the world. I have a few ideas, and I think you two would be cute together.” He pauses, then adds in a quieter voice, “Besides, I’ve been going through a bit of a dry spell, and I figure helping other people get laid might buy me some good karma.” 
You snort softly as he pulls back, his cheeks faintly pink. 
“Alright,” you say. “You can help. But nothing obvious and nothing stupid. The last thing I need is Bob figuring this out and hating me for it.” 
He rolls his eyes, that signature smirk firmly back in place. “Bob could never hate you. But I’ll be subtle.” 
“Good.” You glance past his shoulder toward the booth across the bar. “We better get back before they get suspicious.” 
“Wait,” he stops you with a hand on your shoulder. “One more question.” 
You raise your brows, prompting him to go on. 
“When you fantasise about Bob, is he the top or the bottom? Because I just think you should manage your expectations—ow!” 
He winces, rubbing the spot on his chest where you smacked him, watching you with a wounded look as you shove past with an exasperated sigh. 
Great. Now Hangman is involved... 
You spend the rest of the night practically glued to Reuben’s side, as planned. But now you’re a little on edge. You keep half an ear tuned to Jake’s voice, waiting to see when he might strike—and what he might say when he does. You trust him not to blow the whole thing, but you’re more than a little nervous about what his version of ‘helping’ might actually look like. 
“Another drink?” Reuben asks, just as you finish the last of your third beer. 
You nod, a bit too eagerly. “Yes, please. Maybe something stronger this time.” 
He chuckles and slides out of the booth, offering his hand. You take it, letting him guide you up toward the bar. You’re so wrapped up in your thoughts that you barely register the feel of his hand slipping from yours and settling at the small of your back, his thumb rubbing slow, comforting circles there. 
But Bob notices. 
And Jake notices Bob noticing—taking special joy in the way Bob’s hand tightens around his bottle of Coke, knuckles going white. 
Jake clears his throat and casts a glance toward the bar, leaning forward slightly. “They’re cute, don’t you think?” 
There’s a beat of silence as Bob swallows—hard—and Natasha just blinks, clearly trying to catch up. Then the lightbulb goes off, and a wicked grin stretches across her lips. 
“Yeah,” she says, her eyes following Jake’s. “I think they’d make a good couple.” 
Bob snorts. Actually snorts. But he keeps his gaze fixed on the label he’s been picking at on his bottle. 
Natasha arches a brow. “Something funny?” 
Bob shakes his head. “No.” 
“Really?” Jake presses, grinning. “Could’ve sworn you just laughed, Floyd.” 
“It wasn’t a laugh,” Bob mutters. “More of a… breath.” 
“Oh, a breath,” Natasha echoes, clearly amused. “Because it sounded suspiciously like judgment.” 
“Or jealousy,” Jake adds, leaning back with a smug grin. 
Bob’s gaze flicks to the bar—and to you—then just as quickly snaps away. “I don’t care who she dates.” 
Natasha hums, fighting a smirk as she lifts her beer to her lips, “Didn’t say you did.” 
Shortly after you and Reuben return to the table, giggling like idiots, Bob leaves. He mutters something about not feeling well and ducks out before even saying a proper goodbye. Part of you feels wrecked with guilt—but another part… is quietly hopeful. Because Bob isn’t like this. He’s good at regulating his emotions, even better at staying calm under pressure—he’s a fighter pilot, for God’s sake. But this? This is different. He’s never stormed out on the brink of losing control. Sure, he can get a little frustrated sometimes, maybe throw a snarky comment—usually at Jake when he pushes too far—but that’s as far as it goes. 
If you didn’t know any better, you’d say he’s starting to unravel… 
You spend most of the next day on the couch with the aircon blasting, while Natasha works through some paperwork at the kitchen table. It’s too hot to go outside, and you’re too distracted to do anything that requires even an ounce of brainpower. So instead, you let your mind rot with cartoons, obsessively checking your phone for signs of life in the group chat. 
“I can’t believe Hangman is in on this now,” Natasha mutters, not even glancing up from her papers. 
You sigh and roll from your side onto your back, staring up at the ceiling. “I can’t believe he hasn’t cracked yet. If the roles were reversed, I’d be like a feral cat in heat by now.” 
She snorts and lifts her head, flashing you an amused smirk. “You were already like a feral cat in heat for that man. Hence this whole situation.” 
You laugh softly. “Yeah, not wrong.” 
Your head drops to the side as you half-watch the TV screen, until the apartment door swings open with a dramatic gust of air. 
“I hate to say it,” Mickey says as he breezes in, eyes wide, “but the man is a genius.” 
Reuben follows close behind, and then Jake—grinning like he just solved world peace. 
“Oh, God,” Natasha mutters. “They’re multiplying.” 
“I don’t know why you didn’t come to me sooner,” Jake says, strolling toward the couch. “I’m the king of seduction.” 
You sit up, curling into the corner to make room for Reuben and Jake as Mickey heads straight for the fridge. 
“I wouldn’t go that far,” you mutter, narrowing your eyes at him. 
“Just wait until you hear the plan,” Reuben says, practically buzzing. “It’s perfect.” 
Intrigued now, Natasha gathers her papers into one neat pile and joins you on the lounge. “Alright, Bagman. Let’s hear it.” 
Jake’s eyes sparkle with mischief as he settles in beside Reuben. “Tomorrow, we’re going to the beach.” 
“You’re already way off,” you cut in. “Bob won’t agree to hang out again. Not after last night.” 
Natasha nods. “She’s right. He needs to cool off before we wind him up again.” 
“Absolutely not,” Jake snaps, brow furrowed. “You need to strike while the iron’s hot. You need to push his fucking limits.” 
Mickey appears from the kitchen, a bag of pretzels already open in his hand. 
Natasha frowns. “Okay, but how? He won’t agree to go if he thinks Sunny and Payback will be there.” 
Jake grins. “Which is exactly why he’s going to think they won’t be there.” 
“You want us to lie?” you ask. 
He gives you a flat look. “After all this emotional warfare, now you’re drawing the line at lying?” 
You shrink back slightly. “I guess not.” 
“Exactly.” He leans forward, elbows braced on his knees, hands clasped. “So—I’ll pitch the idea in the group chat. Sunny, you reply immediately that you’re busy—before Bob gets a chance to decline. Then Payback says something vague, like he might come or might not. That way, it looks like low numbers. And if Bob says no, the rest of us can guilt-trip him into coming. Which he will, as long as he thinks you’re not going to be there.” 
Natasha tilts her head. “So... she will be there though?” 
“Yes,” Jake says. “Just not right away. Give him time to relax, have some fun. We’ll play games—I’ll rile everyone up and get that competitive energy going.” 
Everyone nods along, faces weirdly serious, like this is some highly classified mission briefing. 
“Then, you two show up together,” Jake continues, gesturing to you and Reuben. “It’ll throw Bob off, but we won’t give him a chance to leave. We’ll keep the games going. Something with contact. You need to get right up in his space. Go all in. Because then... you’re going to knock him off his feet.” 
“Literally,” Mickey mumbles, chewing a mouthful of pretzels. 
You frown. “What?” 
“Bump into him,” Jake says. “Literally knock him over. Skin-to-skin contact. I’ve seen the way he looks at you in a swimsuit—it’s borderline pornographic. Touching him? It’ll fry what’s left of his self-control. And then, when there’s a moment—just a second where you could apologise for being too competitive or whatever... you’re going to say something that makes him snap.” 
You lean in, heart pounding now. “What am I going to say?” 
The sun is high and brutal in the sky, and you’re already sweating—even though you’re still sitting in Reuben’s car with the aircon blasting. 
“Do you really think this is going to work?” you ask, nervously bouncing your knee. 
Reuben snorts. “If it doesn’t, the man isn’t human.” 
“I feel bad,” you mutter, eyes scanning the stretch of gold sand through the windshield. 
“You won’t feel bad when you finally see what’s in his pants,” Reuben says, barely paying attention as he scrolls through his phone. 
Your eyes go wide and your head whips toward him. “So it is huge? I wasn’t just imagining that?” 
He chuckles and looks up. “Oh yeah, he’s big. Like... big big. I remember the first time in the locker room—no one’s trying to look, obviously, that’s just not the vibe—but... damn. We couldn’t not look. Then everyone lost it. I think Hangman nearly cried.” 
You press your lips together, trying to hold back a grin, but it’s no use—your cheeks are on fire, and your whole face feels like it's bright red. 
“Damn,” you murmur, turning your gaze back to the front as your heart slams against your ribs. 
Reuben laughs again, then cuts the engine, killing the aircon. “Alright. Pull yourself together. It’s go time.” 
You climb out of the car and immediately wince at the lick of heat curling across your skin. It’s blistering—almost hostile—but at least you’re at the beach. Worst-case scenario? You’ll drown yourself in the ocean. Just walk into the surf and keep going. No one would blame you. 
“Relax,” Reuben says, sliding a hand into yours like this is nothing. “This is going to work. Hangman might be insane, but I’m pretty sure it’s because he’s an evil genius.” 
You roll your eyes, exhale hard, then square your shoulders and lift your chin. 
You let Reuben lead you onto the sand, legs already working overtime to stay steady in the heat-softened grains. You can hear the chaos before you see it. Shouts and thuds echo over the sand as your friends tumble and crash around in a messy game of what looks like overgrown keepy-uppies. 
“No hands!” Javy yells, just as Mickey swats the ball to avoid a direct hit to the face. 
“Damn it, Fanboy!” Jake shouts. “You’re giving away points.” 
Mickey drops his hands to his knees, panting. “Can we play literally any other game? I hate this.” 
“You only hate it ‘cause you suck at it,” Natasha says, catching the ball like it’s second nature and bringing the game to a halt. 
You swear you can see Mickey roll his eyes from here. You and Reuben are still on approach, trudging through the soft sand, unnoticed—so far. 
“What about football?” Jake offers, tossing the round ball aside and already pulling a proper football from their pile of gear. “Dog-fight football?” 
“Three versus three?” Javy asks, sceptical. 
“What about four v. four?” Reuben calls, hand cupped to amplify his voice. 
Everyone turns, and there’s a beat of stillness as they clock you. Then Natasha flashes a wide grin beneath her sunglasses, and Jake’s face lights up like a very satisfied evil villain—his plan falling perfectly into place. 
“Well, if it ain’t Sunny and Payback!” he calls, spinning the football lazily in one hand. “You two done playing your own games already?” 
You ignore the jab and focus on not rolling your ankle in the damn sand. At the pile of bags, you stop to drop your stuff and hesitate at the button of your shorts. 
Jake’s eyes are practically gleaming. “How about a swim to cool off first?” 
Reuben strips his shirt with a single tug. “You read my mind, Seresin.” 
The guys—already in their swim trunks—bolt for the water, crashing into the surf in a chaotic stampede. Natasha peels off her shirt and shorts, shoots you a wink, and strolls in after them like she owns the ocean. 
Reuben doesn’t say anything before he leaves you, but he gives a barely-there nod—directed past your shoulder. 
You don’t need to turn around to know who it’s aimed at. 
Bob’s still standing where he was when the game fizzled out, statuesque. His hair is tousled and his lips parted just enough to make your stomach flip. You’re at least ten feet away, but you can see the rise and fall of his chest—too fast, too hard. But he’s not out of breath. He’s not flustered. 
He’s furious. 
And those blue eyes? Laser-locked on you. His entire focus narrowed like a sniper sight. Not a blink. Not a breath wasted on anyone but you. 
You swallow and force your body into motion, unbuttoning your shorts and shimmying out of them before pulling your loose shirt over your head. You drop your clothes on Natasha’s pile and turn toward the water, steady on the lumpy sand. 
And then you hit the firm part—wet, packed, perfect footing—and you dig in. Hips swaying, deliberate and lethal. 
You don’t need to look back. You can feel the heat of his stare on every inch of exposed skin. It’s scorching. Possessive. Almost punishing. Like if he could touch you right now, he’d brand you. 
Hangman might be a genius after all. 
You hit the water with a sigh, not even hesitating before diving beneath a wave before it can knock you off your feet. It’s the perfect temperature—delicious against your too-hot skin. 
You dive under the next wave, cool saltwater rushing over your body, and come up laughing as you slick your hair back. Natasha is standing beside you, arms outstretched as the water laps at her waist, her eyes fixed on the shore. 
You wade closer, smirking. “Did you see his face?” you ask breathlessly, heart still pounding from the walk down the beach—or maybe from the way Bob had looked at you like he was plotting your murder. “I thought he was going to spontaneously combust.” 
She doesn’t answer. Just keeps staring past you. 
You frown as her jaw goes slack and her brows creep up, sunglasses slipping down her nose as she stares at something on the shore—expression caught somewhere between shock and awe. 
You freeze. “What?” 
She still doesn’t speak—just tips her chin the slightest bit, silently gesturing toward whatever has her stunned. 
You twist around. 
And promptly forget how to breathe. 
Bob Floyd is pulling his shirt over his head. 
Bob Floyd, the man who never takes his shirt off. The man who wears it in the ocean and somehow isn’t bothered by the soaking wet material clinging to his body like a second skin. 
And holy shit. 
It’s glorious. 
Sure, you’ve seen him shirtless before. Once. That night. But that was in the dark—his body tense, your mind scrambled, neither of you thinking clearly enough to appreciate what was right in front of you. 
But in the light of day? 
Alabaster skin. Broad shoulders. Deep-cut abs like he walked straight off the set of a Marvel movie. Lean muscle rippling across his chest and arms in a way that feels criminal on someone so quiet and careful. Droplets of sweat cling to his torso like even the heat doesn’t want to let him go. 
The sudden silence behind you confirms it—everyone else is staring too. 
You blink, dumbfounded, mouth dry. “That’s illegal.” 
Natasha huffs out a laugh like she’s short-circuiting. “I mean, I knew he was strong but—wow.” 
You swallow. Hard. “I think I’m going to pass out.” 
Your eyes follow him as he drops his shirt and turns toward the water, cutting through the waves like they’re nothing. He doesn’t glance at any of you. Just keeps his gaze locked on the horizon, jaw set tight, his body moving with single-minded purpose. 
Before you can say something—or even blink—a surge of water smacks you in the face. 
But it’s not a wave. 
You cough and splutter, wiping the salt from your eyes and checking to make sure your sunglasses are still intact. When your vision clears, Jake is standing right in front of you. 
“Wipe the drool off your chin,” he says, deadpan. “You’re supposed to be teasing him.” 
You narrow your eyes, resisting the urge to shove him aside and keep watching Bob. “How did all of you know how cut that man is and not tell me?” 
Jake blinks, thrown for a beat, then grins like the devil. “Wait—you’re mad because we didn’t tell you how ripped Bob is?” 
You nod, arms crossing tight over your chest. “Correct.” 
He lets out a disbelieving chuckle, shaking his head. “Well if that’s got you steamed, you’re gonna be beside yourself when you find out he’s got a massive-” 
“I know,” you cut in smoothly, a wicked smirk curling at your lips. “Payback told me.” 
Jake gapes at you, brows knitting—but before he can get another word out, you shove his shoulder and send him sprawling into the water. 
When he resurfaces, sputtering and grinning, he points at you like a man on a mission—then lunges. 
You squeal, laughing as he barrels toward you, sending up waves in every direction. The two of you splash around like kids, Jake playing it up—grabbing you, poking at your sides, both of you pretending to wrestle. All for show. Because you both know Bob is watching. 
Eventually, the others join in, playful chaos erupting around you. And before long, you’re panting and breathless, dragging yourself back to shore, your cheeks and chest aching from laughter. 
Everyone settles for a few minutes, drinking from their water bottles and trying to knock water from their ears. But then Jake stands up, football in hand and a wicked smirk on his lips, ready to commence Operation Bob’s Blue Balls – Phase Three: Straddle and Conquer. 
“All right, I’ll pick teams,” he announces. 
Normally, this would cause an uproar. But since most of you are in on the plan, everyone just nods in agreement. 
“Phoenix, Payback, Bob,” he says. “You’re with me. The rest of you are on Rooster’s team.” 
You narrow your eyes and cock your hip—it would seem strange if you didn’t challenge Jake just a little. “Why are you two always team captains?” 
He winks. “Because we’re the best.” 
You roll your eyes and turn away, joining the huddle with your teammates as Bradley and Javy argue over what your game plan should be. 
After a few minutes of strategizing, the game kicks off. You’ve never loved dog-fight football—not like some of the others—mostly because it can get a little rough. But today… it’s more than just a game. It’s a full-blown performance. 
You hang back for a bit, letting Jake and Bradley rile each other up and fire up their teams. Bob is still shirtless, which is a tactical advantage he isn’t even aware of—because every time he has the ball, every time he runs or blocks or is just generally in your line of sight, your knees wobble. 
You’ve nearly forgotten what you’re supposed to be doing when Reuben jumps in front of you and snags the ball before you can—thrown by a very disappointed-looking Javy. 
“Getting tired, Sunny?” Reuben teases, his grin smug. “I’m just getting started.” 
Right. The plan. Flirting. Banter. Teasing Bob. 
You step closer, slowing the game down a touch as you stretch onto your toes and drop your voice—but not too low. “Tired? Please. I’m still waiting for you to make me sweat.” 
There’s a beat where you worry Reuben might break, might laugh—high on adrenaline and endorphins. 
But then Jake hollers, “Cut it out, you two! Save the dirty talk for the bedroom!” 
And the game is back on. 
The sun beats down mercilessly, making every flexed muscle shine, every drop of sweat slide in slow, glistening trails. The sand is hot beneath your feet, but it’s nothing compared to the heat building as you and Reuben turn the game into one of Bob’s personal nightmares. 
You dart to the left, brushing past Reuben with a smug grin, your fingertips dragging across his chest like you’re checking his heart rate. 
“C’mon, hotshot,” you tease. “You could try a little harder.” 
He laughs—low and amused—but gives chase, throwing a hand around your waist as you pivot. It’s all too easy to make it look a little too intimate, a little too tight. He lifts you off the ground to ‘block’ your goal and your head falls back in a laugh that’s just shy of indecent. 
And Bob sees everything. 
You feel it—his stare like hot coals dragged across your skin. When you glance up between plays, he’s standing at the edge of the group, jaw tight, shoulders tense, hands flexing like they’re ready to throw a punch. His eyes follow your every move like he’s marking a target, and if looks could kill, Reuben would already be six feet under. 
You catch a toss, and Reuben crashes into you to intercept, spinning you both until you fall together into the sand. You land side by side, giggling like idiots—some might even say lovesick idiots. 
He pushes up first and grins down at you, tipping his head suggestively. “Need a hand?” 
“Oh, I don’t mind being on my back,” you say sweetly, just loud enough for everyone to hear. 
You take Reuben’s hand and let him haul you off the ground, pulling you into his body just a little more than necessary. 
“Damn, Sunny,” Jake calls from the other side of the makeshift field. “Takin’ a few hits today. Hope it doesn’t affect your game.” 
You scoff, rolling your eyes dramatically as you dust sand off your body like everyone else paid to watch. “You know I like it rough, Hangman.” 
There’s a chorus of oohs and a whistle from Mickey, laughter rippling through the group. 
Except Bob, of course. He’s suddenly very interested in the sand, eyes locked on the ground—even though his rigid posture is telling you everything you need to know. 
The game revs up again, and after a few scuffles, you snag the ball off a fumbled toss and break into a sprint, cutting across the sand with laser focus. Reuben’s behind you, winded, and the others are tangled up with the second ball—leaving only one person standing in your way. 
Bob. 
“Stop her!” Jake shouts, too far behind to intercept. 
Bob plants his feet like he’s ready to block—muscles tensing, arms coiled. It’s almost enough to distract you. But you’re feeling competitive. A little reckless. And you’re seconds from a goal. 
He hesitates when your eyes lock, just long enough for your wicked grin to register as you blow past him and skid to a halt—well over the line. 
Your team erupts into cheers behind you, and you throw your hands up, chest heaving as you catch your breath. When you turn back around, he’s still watching you—eyes wide. 
You flash him a slow smile as you walk past, brushing close enough to feel the heat rolling off his skin. 
“Don’t worry, Lieutenant,” you murmur. “I’ll go easy on you next time.” 
After a breather and a drink of water, everyone lines up for another play. Jake and Bradley drop the footballs into the sand, crouched and ready. Jake turns his head your way and gives you a subtle nod. 
This is it. 
Your heart thunders behind your ribs as you sprint and block and laugh along with the others. The competition hasn’t cooled—everyone is still hungry. Even Bob has snapped into focus, finally playing like it matters instead of just standing there watching. 
And for a moment, it is just fun. No schemes, no strategy. Just friends, shouting and stumbling and laughing too hard to score. 
But then the ball is in your hands again—and it’s time. 
Bob is on defence—Jake made sure of that. You just have to get past him again. Or at least… make it look like you’re trying. 
You tear forward. Jake is already behind you, Natasha lunges and misses by a breath, and Reuben very dramatically wipes out in the sand. 
It’s just Bob now. 
He sets his stance, head tipped down in focus. He’s going to stop you this time. Poor thing. He has no idea that’s exactly the plan. 
You charge, feet kicking up sand, heart in your throat. His eyes widen just a second before you collide—your body slamming into his with just enough force to topple you both. 
The ball flies from your hand as you hit the sand hard, clutching at whatever you can—his shoulders, his arms, solid and warm beneath your grip. You spit sand from your mouth and sit up fast��only to freeze, breath caught in your throat. 
You’re straddling him. Hips locked against his. Chest heaving. His hands on your waist. 
You don’t move. 
You’re both panting. The air between you buzzes like static, and everywhere your skin touches his feels sunburnt and alive. His blue eyes are locked on yours—wild and stunned. Bright enough to drown in. 
Your chest rises and falls with ragged breath, but you stay put. 
“Does this count?” you ask, voice low and rough with adrenaline. 
His lips are parted, soft and pink, breath coming in short bursts. His curls are wild, tangled with sand, and his glasses—crooked from the fall—are still somehow on. He looks wrecked. Shattered. Like you’ve stolen every coherent thought out of his head. His gaze flickers—searching your face, desperate not to meet your eyes. 
You lean in just a little. 
“If anyone else looked at me like that, I’d probably kiss them,” you murmur, squeezing your thighs around his waist. Then you bring your mouth dangerously close to his ear. “But we can’t do that... right?” 
His breath catches—and his eyes finally snap to yours. 
They’re wide and stormy now, brows drawn tight. He doesn’t breathe. He just looks. His mouth parts a little further, and you can see it all happening behind his eyes—every thought, every realisation. 
Everything falls into place—the flirting, the giggling, the deliberate touches, the stolen glances. All of it. You’ve been baiting him. This whole time. 
Before you can say anything else—before you can blink or breathe— 
He snaps. 
He flips you, smooth and fast, moving your body like you weigh nothing. Suddenly, you’re on your back, pressed into the sand, and he’s the one on top—straddling you, his weight holding you down. 
And the look in his eyes could burn the sky. 
He leans in, gaze sweeping over your face—your lips, your eyes, the pulse at your throat. He watches it thrum, just for a second. 
You’re frozen beneath him. Every nerve on fire. Every inch of your body sparking. Your lungs are screaming for air, but you don’t know how to breathe. You can’t think. You can barely feel anything except him. 
His breath ghosts your lips as he whispers, “Oh, you’re in trouble now.” 
And then he kisses you. 
Hard. 
It’s not careful. It’s not sweet. It’s months of tension and stolen glances and aching want—every second of restraint finally unravelling in a dizzy, reckless crash. His mouth claims yours like he’s starving, like he’s waited too long and can’t wait another second. 
His chest presses into yours, slick with sweat and dusted with sand, and you arch into it with a gasp. He groans against your mouth, a low, broken sound that feels like fire in your veins. You can feel every inch of him—solid and hot and so hard against your hip, unmistakable and unignorable. 
You shift beneath him, dragging your leg up around his waist, just enough to tease. His breath hitches, and then he’s kissing you deeper, hungrier, like the noise you just pulled from him unspooled something he can’t reel back in. 
You claw at his back—muscles tense and trembling under your fingers—trying to pull him closer when there’s no space left between you. The kiss turns feverish, tongues sliding, lips parting in desperate sync. You’re panting into each other’s mouths, completely lost. 
There’s sand in your hair, in your mouth, sticking to your sweat-slick skin, but none of it matters. All that matters is the way he moves against you, the way he feels—like every bit of control he’d been clinging to has shattered. 
When he finally tears his mouth from yours, he doesn’t go far. His forehead drops to yours, both of you gasping. He’s pink-cheeked and wide-eyed, lips swollen, pupils blown. 
“Jesus Christ,” he mutters, voice wrecked, “you’re gonna kill me.” 
And the way he says it—like a confession, like a prayer—makes you want to do it all over again. 
“YES!" Mickey shouts, loud enough for all of North Island to hear. 
Your friends erupt into cheers and screams, laughter lacing their gleeful proclamations as they jump and dance just a few feet away. 
“Well, fuck me,” Jake drawls. “That was the hottest thing I’ve ever seen.” 
You both slowly—reluctantly—turn your heads toward the noise. 
“I can’t believe it worked,” Reuben mutters, grinning wide, eyes sparkling. “Phase Three actually worked.” 
You’re still pinned beneath Bob as they all close in, every face lit up with smug satisfaction. 
“You named it?” Bob asks, closing his eyes as his cheeks somehow grow even hotter. 
“Oh yeah,” Mickey says, beaming with pride. “Operation Bob’s Blue Balls. Phase One was the run and the sleepover. Phase Two, Reuben. And this—” he gestures wildly at the two of you tangled in the sand, “this is Phase Three: Straddle and Conquer.” 
Bob makes a noise. Somewhere between a strangled groan and a whispered prayer for death. 
“You planned this?” he rasps, forehead dropping against yours again like he might just burrow into the sand and disappear. 
Reuben shrugs, all innocence. “Worked like a charm.” 
“Honestly,” Natasha adds, “we were starting to think you’d never get there. So… you’re welcome.” 
You bury your face in Bob’s shoulder, mortified. He’s burning up beneath your hands—still—and breathing like he just ran a mile with you on his back. 
Jake snickers. “Glad we could help you two get laid.” 
“We haven’t—!” Bob blurts, redder than a stop sign. 
You slap a hand over his mouth, grinning wickedly now despite the embarrassment. “Yet.” 
There’s a beat—a millisecond of silence—before they all burst out laughing again. 
Mickey curls over, clutching his stomach. Reuben walks away, cackling with his head tipped back. Natasha mutters, “Jesus Christ,” but she’s definitely smirking, and Jake claps his hands once as he says, “God bless the U.S. Navy.” 
Bob drops his face into the crook of your neck and groans again, muffled, “I hate all of you.” 
“Even me?” you ask, voice soft and teasing. 
He lifts his head, chuckling softly. “No. But for all that? You’re definitely still in trouble.” 
You lick your lips. “There’s no place I’d rather be.” 
He sighs like you’re actively trying to kill him, then sits up and pushes to his feet—only to glance down at the massive bulge in his shorts, which looks borderline painful. 
“Shit.” 
You scramble up after him, stepping in close and pressing your body to his, barely able to contain your giggles as you shield him from the rest of the beach. 
“Need a minute?” you tease, laughter lacing every word. 
His eyes flash—dark, hungry. “You and I are gonna need more than a minute to deal with this.” 
Heat floods your face and pools between your legs, thick and insistent. 
“But,” he says, glancing toward the water, “I’m just gonna go for a quick swim.” 
You nod, eyes wide and dreamy, watching him from beneath your lashes like an absolute idiot in love. 
And he looks at you like you hung the sun. Like you’re everything. It’s enough to make your heart stutter and your pulse race. He has no business being this beautiful—this sinful—a perfect contradiction of sweetness and respect, with just enough hunger in him, just enough darkness, that you know you’ll be walking funny tomorrow. 
And probably for the next few weeks while you learn how to handle his massive dick. 
“Don’t look at me like that,” he mutters, a shy smile curling his lips. “You’re making it worse.” 
Your jaw drops. “It gets bigger?” 
He laughs, then leans in to press a kiss to your open mouth—chaste, but lingering. Like it physically pains him to pull away. But he does. And when he flashes you that boyish smile—equal parts sexy and shy—it knocks the breath out of you. 
Then he turns and jogs toward the water. 
It takes you more than a minute to remember how to move—how to function—but eventually, you manage to drag yourself back to the others, who are still laughing and chatting like the beach hasn’t just tilted sideways. 
Natasha passes you your water bottle. “What’s Bob doing?” 
You glance over your shoulder, catching sight of him ducking under a wave. A smile tugs at your lips. 
“Cooling off.” 
END.
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mnnuni · 1 month ago
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smash - draco malfoy
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summary: draco malfoy? smash. except you say those words a little too loud. wc: 0.9k+
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Immersed in the magazine in front of you, you only caught bits and pieces of the conversation Harry, Hermione and Ron were having around you, the great hall otherwise mostly empty. It wasn’t everyday the three of you had free periods together, but when you did, the conversations were always entertaining.
Especially when Harry started complaining.
You halted your focus on the magazine at the sound of Harry’s sassy and oddly loud voice. It was as though he wanted himself to be heard. Hermione scoffed from in front of the boy and you pulled the corner of your page up slowly, pretending to still be immersed in your reading.
“At this point, Malfoy is just following in his fa-” “Malfoy?” You asked, humming apprehensively, “Smash.”
From the slytherin table, sat right behind you, Draco’s head snapped backwards, his mouth parting in surprise before he forced his features into a confident smirk. Theo, Pansy, Mattheo and Blaise held matching looks at the bombshell you dropped so shamelessly.
A silence overtook your three friends at your comment, jaws slack and faces frozen in shock. “What!?” Harry spluttered. You flicked over to the next page, shrugging your shoulders as you scoffed carelessly. “Yeah, you can complain about him all you want, but that is one attractive man.”
“If you felt so strongly about the matter, you should’ve spoken sooner.”
Your head shot up and you slammed your magazine shut at the familiar voice, your eyes widening in panic. Ron, who sat facing you, grimaced at you softly. Clearing your throat, you spun around on the bench, kicking your legs over its side. Leaning your elbows back on the table cooly, you replied “Why would I have spoken sooner if you weren’t around to hear it?”
Draco grinned and you cocked your head to the side, holding eye contact, challenging him to keep your gaze. It was silent as you stared at each other, apart from Theo’s loud exhale and Mattheo’s chuckle before he turned his attention back to his cup of tea. Finally, Draco gulped thickly, eyes momentarily flickering to look back at his friends.
Humming apprehensively, you stood up, tucking your magazine under your arm and slinging your bag over your shoulder. “Makes sense you’re not a gryffindor,” You started, eyes trained on Draco as he stiffened up. You leaned closer to him, bringing your voice down to a whisper. “Find me when you’re brave enough to do something about it, Malfoy.”
And with a toss of your hair over your shoulder, you strutted out of the great hall, grinning as you heard a clatter of things behind you. Draco rushed to catch up to you, tripping over his feet as he followed you all the way from the great hall to the girls’ bathroom you dragged him into, pushing him against the wall and pressing your lips to his.
Draco groaned, immediately flipping your positions around so he had you cornered between his body and the stone wall, and he separated himself from you momentarily to ask you “What was that you said earlier?” before moving his kisses down your neck and instantly sucking on your skin to leave bruising hickeys that Harry will most definitely question.
“What? Find me when you’re-”
“No, before that.”
“Um, smash?” Draco chuckled against your skin, trailing his kisses back up your neck and towards your lips. “Would you let me take you on a date before that?” You felt your cheeks go hot at the embarrassing whimper that escaped your lips at his question, but nodded your head nonetheless.
Draco pushed himself off you with a satisfied smile, smoothing his uniform down as he stated “Good. Now, I believe you have a lesson.” You gasped deep in your throat at the realisation that he was correct, hearing the halls outside fill with chatter as students were released from their classrooms.
“Sunday. Hogsmeade.” He told you, pushing the door to the bathroom open and walking past the group of girls who were coming into the room, giving him judgemental looks as he passed them. But then they turned to you, and they were immediately gasping at the revelation of you and Draco being together. You giggled nervously, slipping out of the bathroom when they turned to look at each other, the gossip already beginning to spread.
Meanwhile, in the great hall:
Harry’s jaw dropped lower than he believed possible as he watched Draco stumble to reach you. He shook his head “We cannot let that happen.” Hermione scoffed, “Oh yes we can, and we will. I want all the details when they’re done.”
At the sounds of disgust both Harry and Ron expelled from their mouths, Hermione sighed disappointedly. “Right. I forgot you’re not girls.”
“Hey, Granger!” Hermione turned to the voice that had called out her name and she stared back nervously at Pansy Parkinson, who had a surprisingly welcoming smile on her face. “You can come discuss it with us, if you’d like. I’m a girl, and you’d think they are too based on how much they love the drama.” Hermione laughed whole-heartedly as Pansy nodded her head towards the boys around her with a joking roll of her eyes.
“Will that work if we’re getting different sides of the same story?” Hermione questioned, crossing her arms over his chest in mock rivalry. Pansy hummed, standing up and gathering her belongings. “I get his side of the story, you get hers, then we exchange?” Hermione grinned.
“Perfect. But I think she’ll want to join.”
Pansy winked. “Even better, I want all the filthy details.”
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mnnuni · 1 month ago
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Headcanon that, since becoming animagi, Peter, Sirius and James start changing their diet because now they like more stuff they felt pretty neutral about.
As in, Sirius starts to eat more meat. Including things he didn't like before, like liver.
Peter gets absolutely obsessed with cereals without sugar and granola. Like he wants a snack, the guys offer some chocolate or whatever, and Peter's like "no, I want cereal." Like bestie is obsessed.
James starts having an apple on him the whole time. Or a carrot. As in, he just takes a carrot out of his pocket and takes a bite after Quidditch practice. That level.
The only one that seems to notice is Remus, and he has to actively point it out for them.
They just- start enjoying treats their animals form seem to enjoy. Idk. Remus says it works for him cuz he doesn't have to share as much chocolate anymore.
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mnnuni · 1 month ago
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love — spencer reid
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader ( no use of y/n ) summary: spencer accidentally reveals your secret relationship by kissing you in front of the whole team—oh, and blurting out “I love you” for the very first time, too. content warnings: secret relationship , mention of a case , spencer being very worried about the unsub and case but its mostly fluff !! a/n: haiiii !!!!! hope you didn't miss my secret relationship fanfics too much </3 also i finished writing this like 10 minutes ago but i was too excited not to post it
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Things were heating up.
You were getting closer—so close—to catching the unsub. The map was sprawled across the table in front of you, dotted with red circles.You traced another location with your marker, murmuring quietly under your breath, a habit you'd most definitely picked up from your boyfriend.
Spencer was nearby, slouched in a chair, mumbling to himself in a similar fashion.
His brows were furrowed. You could tell this case was hitting him harder than most. Maybe it reminded him of something—or someone.
Whatever it was, it weighed on him, and that meant it weighed on you, too.
You took care of him as much as you could—though it wasn’t easy with your relationship still hidden from the team. Last night, you’d slipped into his hotel room after everyone else had turned in, finding him already buried in files.
You didn’t ask if he was okay—he wouldn’t have answered honestly. Instead, you’d wordlessly sat beside him on the bed, running your fingers through his hair until his shoulders finally relaxed.
“Want to cuddle?” you’d murmured, and he hadn’t even hesitated before nodding, letting you pull him down against the pillows. He’d tucked himself under your chin, his breath warm against your collarbone, and you’d held him, fingers carding gently through his curls until his breathing evened out.
Of course, sneaking out at 6 a.m. had been its own mission. It took you twenty minutes to escape Spencer’s sleepy, koala-like grip. He kept murmuring thank-yous against your skin—kisses trailing from your collarbones to your jaw, like punctuation marks of affection. It had taken everything in you not to crawl back into bed with him.
Now, back in the briefing room, you had even more reason to catch this unsub.
"I got it." Spencer’s voice broke through the silence.
His head snapped up, and the words came pouring out of him like a dam breaking. Facts, patterns, dates, connections. The rest of the team, who had been working in exhausted silence, immediately turned their attention to him, hanging onto every word.
“Okay. Morgan and Reid—I want you with me,” Hotch announced the moment Spencer finished unraveling the unsub’s pattern.
Garcia’s fingers flew across her keyboard, sending the coordinates to their phones in a flurry of clicks. This was one of those rare, high-stakes cases where even she had to join them in the field. “Location’s live on your devices,” she said, her usual bubbly tone subdued.
Hotch gave her a curt nod of thanks before striding toward the door, Morgan right behind him.
Spencer, however, seemed miles away as he snatched his brown coat from the back of his chair. His mind was already elsewhere, locked onto the unsub.
Then, just before following the others, he turned to you.
You were still standing by the board, capping the dry-erase marker with a soft click and watching him with a soft, worried smile. He seemed exhausted.
“Be careful,” you murmured, voice barely above a whisper.
He blinked, as if snapping back into himself for just a second, and mumbled, “I’ll be okay. I’ll see you later.”
His fingers caught your chin, thumb beneath your jaw, index curled gently under your bottom lip. Time stuttered. His kiss was fleeting, achingly tender, and then his lips brushed yours again as he whispered, "I love you," like it was the simplest truth in the world.
And then he was gone, the door swinging shut behind him.
Silence.
Absolute, suffocating silence.
A pin drop would’ve echoed like a gunshot.
And then—
“Oh. my. god.” Garcia’s shriek could’ve shattered glass.
Your fingers flew to your lips, still tingling from the ghost of his kiss. The rest of the team was frozen—Rossi’s eyebrows had nearly disappeared into his hairline, JJ’s mouth was slightly open, and Emily looked like she was torn between laughing and demanding an immediate explanation.
But you barely registered any of it.
Because Spencer had just said I love you.
For the first time.
And he’d done it in front of everyone.
Garcia was already flailing her hands, rapid-fire questions spilling out of her—“Since when? How did I not know? Oh my god, the touching, the lingering looks, the—!”
But all you could hear was the echo of his voice, playing over and over in your mind like a broken record.
I love you. I love you. I love you.
Your face burned. Your heart threatened to beat out of your chest.
You didn’t even notice Emily waving her hand in front of your face until her voice cut through the haze. “Earth to lovergirl,” she teased, grinning.
Blinking, you turned toward the team—all of them staring at you with varying degrees of shock, amusement, and sheer anticipation.
“What?” you managed, voice still breathless.
“That’s all you have to say?” JJ asked, plopping onto the edge of the desk in disbelief. She grabbed a Cheeto from an open bag, crunching loudly.
Garcia was still gaping at you, hands pressed dramatically over her mouth. Behind her colorful glasses, her eyes were massive. Rossi sipped his coffee slowly, clearly judging the entire situation.
“Huh?” you repeated dumbly.
Emily’s smirk softened just a fraction. “You okay?”
You stared at her, still dazed, before muttering, “He said ‘I love you.’”
Another beat of silence.
Garcia gasped. “That was his first time saying it?” Her hands flew away from her mouth, gripping the sides of her head like she might explode.
And then chaos. Again.
“Oh my god—”
“Since when—”
“Wait, wait, wait—that was the first—”
You spent what felt like hours fielding an avalanche of questions, barely able to catch your breath between them. At first, you tried to dodge them—played dumb, gave vague smiles, busied yourself with the files on the table—but it was pointless. Garcia saw straight through you, pinning you with a look that practically screamed, You’re not getting out of this, sweetheart.
So you caved.
“Six months,” you said quietly.
The collective gasp could’ve knocked over the coffee pot.
Garcia clutched her chest like she’d been personally betrayed. ( She was. ) “Six?! Six whole months? And you didn’t say anything?”
You winced. “We were trying to be subtle.”
“You failed!” she cried, throwing her hands up.
Emily laughed. “Okay, next—who made the first move?”
You hesitated, cheeks burning. “He did.”
Another round of dramatic gasps echoed around the room. Even Rossi raised his brows, murmuring, “Didn’t peg him for the bold one.”
“He’s… not. Not usually,” you admitted with a smile you couldn’t quite suppress. “But with me… I guess he was.”
And on it went—question after question, as if they were making up for six months of missed gossip in a single sitting. But despite your initial resistance, you couldn’t deny the warm buzz beneath your skin. It was messy, chaotic, borderline embarrassing—but it was also kind of nice. Being known. Being happy.
Then came the final question.
JJ’s voice was quieter than the others, softer. “Do you love him too?”
You froze.
For a moment, the whole room seemed to hold its breath. Even Garcia stopped typing.
You looked at JJ—then down at your hands—then back up again. And nodded.
Garcia screeched, practically launching herself out of her chair. “I knew it!” she howled.
Emily beamed, her smile so wide it crinkled the corners of her eyes, and even Rossi let out a low chuckle, shaking his head like a proud, mildly exasperated uncle.
You were a little overwhelmed—okay, maybe a lot—but underneath the chaos, you also felt a sheer amount of happiness that you've never felt before.
Hotch interrupted the moment by calling Garcia. “Unsub’s in custody. We’re on our way back. Everyone’s okay.”
Your breath left you in a rush. Spencer was okay.
Your heart, though—it hadn’t quite gotten the message. It was still thundering in your chest, hammering against your ribs with every second that ticked by.
The others must’ve noticed the way you kept glancing at the door, because JJ finally nudged you gently toward it. “Go wait. We’ll clean up.”
You opened your mouth to protest, but Garcia waved a dismissive hand. “Honey, please. You’ve got heart-eyes so intense it’s blinding. Go stand dramatically in the doorway like you’re in a movie or something. We’ve got this.”
And so you did.
You found yourself hovering in the doorway of the conference room, a half-hearted folder in your hands, pretending to sort through paperwork as you stared through the glass. Watching. Waiting.
Then you heard it—the low rumble of the SUV pulling up outside.
Every head in the room snapped up like it was choreographed. Honestly, for a team of professional FBI agents, they acted like a bunch of high schoolers most of the time.
You glanced back over your shoulder. Sure enough, all of them were watching you, wide-eyed and waiting like you were the final act in a romantic drama. You rolled your eyes with a half-smile, dropped the stack of files onto the table with a soft thud, and walked out of the conference room.
As you left, you heard Emily mutter, “Garcia, don’t follow her.”
You didn’t wait to hear the response.
The moment you reached the main hallway of the precinct, the doors opened—and there he was.
Spencer stepped inside, his curls slightly mussed, cheeks flushed from the cold, and as soon as his eyes found yours, he smiled. That gentle, crooked smile that always made you smile.
You barely registered Derek behind him, hand gripping the cuffed unsub and throwing you a confused look when you didn’t even acknowledge him. Even Hotch glanced over in surprise as you made a beeline for Spencer.
“Hey—wait, what—?” Spencer managed, eyes widening as you grabbed his arm and all but dragged him down the corridor.
You shoved open the nearest empty office, tugged him inside, and closed the door firmly behind you, leaning back against it.
“Did you mean it?” you asked, your voice urgent, breath a little uneven.
Spencer blinked. “Mean what?”
You stared at him in stunned disbelief. “You’re kidding.”
“What?” he said again, completely baffled. “What did I do? Did Morgan tell you about what happened in the field? I know I wasn’t supposed to go near the unsub without backup, but I swear, I had it under control—”
He started to ramble, hands gesturing as he pouted in that way he did when he was simultaneously nervous and a little too proud of himself. “He had a weapon, but I de-escalated him. You would’ve been proud.”
“You did what?” you interrupted, your mind now juggling two emotional crises.
Spencer blinked again. “Wait—so Morgan didn’t tell you?”
“No,” you muttered, your voice flat with disbelief. 
You shook your head slowly, trying to process it all. The nerves, the kiss, the I love you—and the fact that Spencer genuinely hadn’t realized what he’d done.
Spencer’s expression shifted from confusion to concern in a heartbeat. “Hey,” he said softly, stepping closer, his hand reaching up to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear. “Did I do something wrong?”
His voice was careful, gentle, and far too kind for how scrambled your brain felt. “Can you tell me what it is?” he added, tilting your chin up just enough so your eyes met his.
Your mouth opened slightly, but the words were stuck. How could he not know? How could he be looking at you like that—all wide eyes and soft brows and worried lips—and not know?
“Spencer,” you said finally, his name sharp on your tongue.
“Yes?” he replied immediately, those puppy-dog eyes locking onto yours like he was bracing for impact.
“You kissed me.”
His brows pulled together. “I’m—I’m sorry?” he said, clearly confused.
If you weren’t so worked up, you might have laughed at his face. But your heart was hammering, and your nerves were tangled in knots.
“You did it in front of everyone,” you clarified.
And then you said it—softly, barely above a whisper. “And then you said—”
“I love you.” His voice cut in before you could finish.
You watched as the memory clearly snapped back into place. Realization washed over his face like a wave, followed immediately by a bright, burning blush that crept up his neck and across his cheeks.
“Mhmm,” you hummed, nodding slowly, your teeth sinking into your lower lip as you studied his reaction.
Spencer rubbed the back of his neck, eyes wide, flustered in a way that only made you want to kiss him senseless. “Oh,” he breathed, glancing away for a second before meeting your eyes again. 
“Yeah… oh.” you repeated. Both of you stayed silent for a second.
“I did mean it,” he stammered out.
A smile tugged at your lips—finally. After an hour and a half of bouncing knees, chewed lips, and an anxiety storm running circles in your chest, the words you’d been dying to hear had finally landed.
“I love you,” Spencer repeated, a little firmer this time—like he needed to hear it aloud again to make it real. Like maybe saying it twice would help his brain catch up to his heart.
The warmth that bloomed inside you was instant. Like sunshine pouring into your bloodstream. You weren’t sure you’d ever felt this happy in your entire life.
Then, of course, Spencer kept talking.
“Did I say it too soon? I’m not sure. On average, men say it around three to three and a half months into a relationship, while women usually wait closer to four months,” he rambled, already blushing furiously, eyes darting anywhere but your face. “And I know we’ve been dating for six months, so technically it took me twice as long, which isn’t statistically ideal, but honestly I almost said it on our first date, which definitely wouldn’t have been optimal and—”
He was spiraling. Fast.
So you did the only thing that would shut him up.
You stepped forward, gently grabbed his face in both hands, and said, soft but certain:
“I love you too, Spencer.”
He stared.
Just stared—like he was trying to memorize this exact moment, burn it into his brain with all its warmth and disbelief and wonder. You watched his expression shift—first stunned, then relieved, then something so bright and boyish it made your heart lurch.
You’d never seen him so happy before.
Well—once. That first time you kissed him. He’d looked a little like this, dazed and blissed out. But now? Now he looked like his whole world had just clicked into place.
“Yeah?” he breathed, voice shaky with excitement, his grin stretching so wide it practically crinkled his entire face.
“Yeah.” You laughed through the word, nodding, the emotion bubbling up in your chest and spilling into every part of you. Your smile was a mirror of his.
Spencer let out a breathy laugh and pulled you into him, arms wrapping tightly around your waist as if he couldn’t stand the idea of space between you anymore. You buried your face into the crook of his neck, grinning against his skin.
“This is real, right?” he asked into your hair, voice muffled. “I’m not dreaming? Because sometimes I do dream about you saying that and then I wake up and it’s just—”
You cut him off with a kiss to the warm skin of his throat.
“It’s definitely real,” you mumbled against him.
Spencer let out a shaky breath and held you tighter. You stayed like that, wrapped up in each other, both of you grinning like idiots. It felt absurdly, wonderfully perfect.
Then you muttered into his neck, “You do know you outed our relationship to everyone, right?”
Spencer’s arms stiffened around you just slightly. “Yeah. Totally. I knew that. I did it on purpose,” he lied, too quickly, voice pitched a little too high.
You giggled and pulled back, hands still resting on either side of his neck. “You’re a terrible liar, Dr. Reid.”
He didn’t even bother to defend himself, just gave you an adorable, crooked grin and leaned in to peck your lips. “Yeah, I am,” he mumbled, brushing his nose against yours.
You kissed him back, just once, then poked a finger into the center of his chest. “Also, we’re going to talk about your little superhero stunt at home.”
Spencer blinked. “Right,” he echoed, suddenly very aware of his earlier reckless attempt to talk the unsub down without backup. “Are you mad?”
“I’m not not mad,” you replied, giving him a look. “But I love you, so I’m saving the full lecture for later.”
He winced slightly, then smiled. “Fair.”
You let your fingers drift through the curls on his forehead, brushing them back gently. “Well,” you sighed, “for now, we have to go out there… into the land of chaos and gossip.”
Realization dawned slowly on Spencer’s face. His eyes widened. “Oh no. Garcia definitely filled Morgan in already.”
“And Rossi’s probably already told Hotch,” you added grimly.
“And JJ and Emily—”
“—were there when it happened,” you finished.
You both stood there in mutual silence for a moment, dread creeping in.
Spencer cleared his throat. “Maybe we could… go out the window?”
You laughed, smacking his chest lightly. “Nice try, genius.”
He gave a helpless little shrug. “I had to try.”
Taking a deep breath, you grabbed the handle of the door behind you.
“Ready?” you asked.
“Absolutely not,” Spencer said without hesitation.
You squeezed his hand anyway. “Come on, lover boy.”
To say that the conference room was chaos would’ve been an understatement.
Garcia let out a sound that could only be described as a squeal-gasp hybrid, immediately launching into a breathless, high-speed barrage of questions that involved timelines and pet names.
Morgan clapped Spencer on the back so hard he nearly stumbled, muttering something about “my boy finally growing up.” JJ just smirked from the corner, quietly sipping her coffee.
Hotch had walked by at one point, muttered something that suspiciously sounded like “About time,” and kept moving without missing a beat.
The jet ride was somehow worse.
You’d sat next to Spencer, hoping for a quiet, post-case decompression. Instead, you were subjected to Garcia and Morgan playing twenty questions from across the aisle. Rossi, pretending to read, chuckled behind his wine glass the entire time. At one point, you tried to rest your head on Spencer’s shoulder, and he’d blushed so hard you thought he might combust.
You weren’t sure if he was embarrassed from the attention or just overwhelmed from finally saying what he’d been keeping in for months. Probably both.
But the days that followed?
Even worse.
Because the teasing never stopped.
Emily sent you heart emojis during briefings. Morgan kept calling Spencer lover boy—which you regretted giving him the vocabulary for. Garcia had created a mood board on her computer and refused to delete it.
Even Hotch raised an eyebrow when you asked to share a rental car with Spencer.
But through it all, Spencer stayed by your side. Every awkward joke, every embarrassing comment, every not-so-subtle glance—he never flinched. If anything, he leaned into it. He held your hand in the bullpen and he kissed your cheek at the end of the day.
It was domestic chaos.
Romantic disaster. Beautiful, awkward, completely perfect hell.
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mnnuni · 1 month ago
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By the way, fanfiction isn't the place for reviews or criticism.
When you're a published author, it's like you're preparing a meal in a food competition. You expect a rating and to be told what worked and what didn't to improve your craft and embark on your career.
When you're a fanfiction author, it's like taking some of your free time to enjoy the process of baking cookies and then offering them to someone to be kind.
If you take a cookie from the plate, you don't spit it out and tell them it sucked.
Unless the writer asks for your opinion, you can keep it to yourself.
Adding this to clarify, and you don't have to agree with this by any means, I cannot force you to, but the reason Ao3 and Fanfiction isn't the space for criticism and ratings...is that it is a fan space created by fans for fans.
It isn't school.
It is a space where people with the same interests can congregate and enjoy the same fandom.
When you think about commenting on an fanfic authors fics, don't think if it as fishing around in your pocket to give them a compliment.
Compliments are nice. Most everyone likes compliments.
"I like your character development."
"You paint wonderful imagry."
Those are comments that are compliments. Speaking for myself as a fanfic writer they're nice, but they're not what my fan heart craves.
I want engagement with my readers.
The best comments I get aren't talking about my skill as a writer, but what just happened in the story because you and I (the reader) are already fans of the world created.
Comments like:
"NOOOOOOOO!"
"Did she actually just do that?"
"EXCUSE me?!?!"
None of these comments are compliments and none are critical. They are emotionally aligned with the story. They are engaged and with this engagement we create a little community in this tiny little space we get to call ours.
I cannot stop people from saying cruel things, but I can inform those people of the "dangers" so to speak when people treat fandom spaces like Ao3 as if it's Goodreads.
Writers, who write for themselves and offer it to you out of kindness, can decide that if people are just going to spit out their cookies they don't need to post about them anymore and that is how fandom spaces die.
If you don't like the flavor of cookie they made, or you're allergic to one of its ingredients...don't eat the cookie. Put it back for someone else to enjoy and then go find the flavor you do like.
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mnnuni · 2 months ago
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funny how some people will preach “support writers!!” and then turn around and reblog posts shitting on people who write short drabbles and smut like it’s a crime. newsflash: not everyone has the time, energy, or desire to sit down and write a 10k yearning slowburn every time they want to post something. sometimes people just wanna write 500 words of filth and call it a day. because it’s supposed to be fun. it’s a hobby. what’s so hard to get?
also… you’re not slick. you know damn well your mutuals (aka the very people who write the type of content you’re complaining about) were gonna see that passive aggressive ass reblog. it’s disrespectful. instead of crying because someone’s 800 word smut drabble got more notes than a 12k yearning fic, maybe take a breath and remember nobody owes you a certain type of content. if you want long fics so bad, go write them yourself. or idk, look for them instead of bashing writers who are just doing what makes them happy. they’re literally out there.
it’s also so embarrassing to see writers dragging other writers because they’re bitter about engagement. i write long fics too. i have fics that are 5k+, 7k+, 9k+, and yet you don’t see me out here making unnecessary posts and reblogs about what other people decide to create with their hobby in their own free time.
anyway. support all writers. don’t bash them for having fun and writing what they want instead of what other people want. ♡
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𝟏 𝐭𝐨 𝟏𝟎𝟎 — 𝐒𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐇 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑. (𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧)
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lily forces her help on james after discovering an unsent letter he wrote to you at the end of last year. it doesn’t exactly go as planned.
CW | characters are 17-18, lily is the best wingman, banter on banter, MDNI AFTER A CERTAIN POINT (there is a separate warning before it begins)
james potter x fem!reader | 18.7k | series masterlist.
main masterlist.
AN | and so, 1-100 comes to an end, thank you so much to everyone who’s kept up with reading and supporting this series, i love you guys sm !! 🫶
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There’s something about stepping back into the Great Hall after a summer away that always makes your stomach twist.
Maybe it’s the grandeur of it—four long house tables glittering under a sky enchanted to mirror the fading twilight—or maybe it’s the realisation that this is it. Seventh year. Your last first feast at Hogwarts. You glance around at the familiar faces, older now, and think how quickly everything’s changed, and how much it hasn't at all.
The Gryffindor table is buzzing, voices overlapping as friends greet each other, chatter about summer holidays, and sneak wary glances at the staff table where the new Defence Against the Dark Arts professor is already under intense scrutiny. You sit between Lily and Dorcas, with Marlene just opposite, her chin in her hand as she eyes the new teacher with suspicious intensity.
“I’m giving him a two weeks before he loses his temper,” Marlene says, not even blinking. “One, if he’s already had a mental breakdown before arriving,”
“You’re just bitter because Professor Lome never liked your essays,” Dorcas points out, stealing a bread roll from the centre plate before anyone else can. “He gave me full marks on that piece about curse detection,”
You’re half-listening, mostly looking around the room. It’s the same as ever, and yet not. Everyone’s taller. Slightly leaner. Tired in that way only seventeen-year-olds on the cusp of adulthood can be. The weight of NEWTs, of future plans, of knowing this is your last go at all of it.
The buzz of the hall dies down as Professor McGonagall stands at the staff table. The sorting ceremony has already taken place—little first-years blinking up at the ceiling, clutching their house badges like lifelines—and now it’s time for the usual announcements.
“Welcome back, students, to another year at Hogwarts. A particular welcome to our first-years, who I hope will find these halls as challenging and rewarding as the generations before them,”
You tune out a bit as she goes through the basics: forbidden forest is still forbidden, Zonko’s products are still banned, and any students caught brewing illegal potions will be given detention and a strongly worded letter home.
Then, she straightens, and there's a tiny spark in her eye that sets everyone leaning forward.
“And now, I’m pleased to announce this year’s Head Boy and Head Girl of Gryffindor. A pair who will, I trust, represent the house and the student body with diligence and pride. Please join me in congratulating Lily Evans and James Potter.”
Silence.
Then—
“What?” Dorcas shrieks before she can stop herself, hand flying to cover her mouth.
Lily’s face is a perfect blend of composed and internally screaming. You can see it in the way she holds her posture just a touch too rigidly, in the slight widening of her eyes.
A few seats down, James has frozen. Mid-sip of pumpkin juice. You think he might choke on it.
The hall erupts in applause, mostly polite, some genuine. The Gryffindor table is particularly vocal—Sirius is cheering obnoxiously loud, Remus is clapping with amused restraint, and Peter looks like someone just told him Christmas has come early.
“Head Boy?” Marlene mouths, turning to stare at you and Lily like you’ve both gone mad. “Him?”
You glance at Lily, who is clearly experiencing an existential crisis in real-time.
James slowly sets his goblet down. “I—what?” he says weakly. “Me?”
“I… wasn’t told,” Lily says, her voice barely above a whisper. “I knew I got Head Girl, McGonagall owled me over the summer, but—him?”
You smother a laugh. “You okay, Lils?”
She glares at you. “No.”
James, for his part, finally seems to have processed the information. He sits a little straighter, shoulders back, trying for composed but mostly looking like he might be sick.
“I’m already Quidditch Captain,” he mutters to Sirius, who slaps him on the back with far too much enthusiasm.
“You’ll be brilliant,” Sirius grins. “Just think—power, responsibility, and even more excuses to boss people around.”
Remus raises an eyebrow. “You do realise it’s actual work, right? Prefect meetings, patrols, schedules…”
James pales slightly. “Bloody hell,”
You and the girls settle back into your seats as the feast begins properly. Food appears across the tables in a shimmer of golden light, and the scent of roast chicken and buttered potatoes fills the air. For a while, everyone’s distracted—eating, catching up, stealing sips of pumpkin juice between bites. The announcement lingers in the air though, rippling down the table in whispered disbelief and mild chaos.
You poke at your roasties, thoughts elsewhere. You’re happy for Lily—Head Girl is so her. She’s meticulous, clever, endlessly fair. But James? It’s not that he’s a bad student—he’s clever when he applies himself—but his reputation precedes him. Pranks. Detentions. A casual disregard for rules that somehow charmed most of the school and irritated the rest. You look down the table to where he’s now loudly panicking about his term planner.
“He’s actually worried about having too much to do,” Marlene says, eyebrows raised. “Is this a new personality shift or did he hit his head over the summer?”
“He’ll be fine,” Dorcas says through a mouthful of carrots. “Maybe this’ll actually knock the arrogance out of him. Or at least make him too busy to be annoying,”
Lily just stabs a pea with unnecessary force. “I’m going to murder Dumbledore.”
You snort, covering it with a cough. “Think of it this way—you get to boss him around,”
“Please,” she says dryly, “he’ll talk about the Marauders and Quidditch and I’ll be asleep by the third sentence,”
You laugh properly at that, and the sound feels good. Light. Familiar.
Marlene leans closer, dropping her voice. “Anyway, more important question—have you had any more letters?”
You blink. It takes you a second to realise what she’s referring to.
“Oh,” you say, slowly. “No. Not since the last one. You know, the one I got right before term ended,”
There’s a beat of silence, the kind that means they’re all about to jump in.
“You’ve still got them, don’t you?” Dorcas says, eyes narrowing.
“Of course she does,” Lily says before you can speak. “She practically laminated the bloody things,”
You shove her shoulder with yours. “I did not. I just… kept them. They were nice,”
“Nice?” Marlene repeats. “They were poetry. Like, actual effort. Not ‘fancy you, meet me in the broom cupboard’—actual, personal, stupidly romantic letters,”
Dorcas sighs dreamily. “Still can’t believe we never figured out who it was. No hints? Nothing?”
You shake your head, and try not to let your disappointment show too much. “They just… stopped. That last one before summer hols—it was like a goodbye. Like they didn’t know what else to add,”
“Bit tragic,” Lily says softly, and despite her sarcasm earlier, you hear the real sympathy in it.
You shrug, reaching for a second helping of Yorkshire pudding to hide the sudden ache in your chest. “I don’t know. It’s stupid. I didn’t even know who they were,”
“But they knew you,” Dorcas says. “Really well, apparently,”
The words make something twist inside you. Because she’s right.
Whoever they were, they did know you. The letters had come at your lowest points last year—when the pressure of coursework, the drama with Severus, and everything else felt like too much. Each letter had felt like a lifeline, like someone reaching across the void just to remind you that you weren’t invisible.
You miss that. You miss them.
“I just thought maybe,” you say quietly, “there’d be another one waiting. When we got back,”
The silence around your little corner of the table grows thick with understanding. No one says anything for a moment. Then Lily bumps your knee under the table.
“Well,” she says, with the kind of finality only she can manage, “maybe they’re just waiting for the right time,”
You nod, but you don’t believe it. Not really.
The conversation moves on. Marlene brings up the new Hogsmeade permission rules (apparently no more ‘mysterious illnesses’ to get out of going—thanks to a Slytherin who faked being poisoned last year). Dorcas starts planning the best window seat in the common room for her study spot, and Lily starts stress-talking about her NEWT timetable.
But your thoughts don’t quite leave the letters.
You wonder where they are now—your mystery writer. If they’re even still thinking about you. If they’re watching you across the Great Hall, debating whether or not to start again.
You hope so.
Even if you don’t say it out loud, not even to Lily.
Even if you’re pretending not to look toward the other end of the table for who it might be.
It becomes a weekly ritual. Every Wednesday night, Lily Evans storms back into the Gryffindor common room around ten-thirty, throws herself onto the armchair closest to the fire, and launches into a detailed monologue about the trials and tribulations of patrolling the corridors with James Potter.
And every Wednesday night, you, Marlene, and Dorcas do your best not to laugh too obviously.
“He just won’t shut up,” Lily declares one evening, halfway through untangling her scarf from her hair. “Every corridor, every stairwell, it’s Quidditch this, Marauders that—and not even mildly interesting Marauder tales. No, no. Apparently Sirius once managed to transfigure a Slytherin’s tie into a snake and got away with it by pretending it was a defence demonstration. That’s what I have to listen to for two hours,”
Dorcas, stretched out on the rug with a textbook balanced on her stomach, snorts. “Honestly, sounds like quality entertainment,”
“You do realise he’s trying to impress you, right?” Marlene adds, not looking up from her Ancient Runes homework.
Lily looks personally offended. “By telling me about how many nosebleeds they’ve collectively caused in the name of house pride?”
“Maybe he thinks violence is your love language,” Dorcas offers with a shrug.
You laugh softly but say nothing. Lily rolls her eyes and turns to you, as she often does.
“You would die. Honestly. You should swap with me sometime just to understand the suffering.”
“I’m not a prefect,�� you remind her, amused.
She huffs. “Tragic. You’d actually hold a decent conversation. Meanwhile, I’ve learnt the entire 1974 Quidditch Cup roster twice, and I don’t even like Quidditch,”
Still, she doesn’t ask for a trade from any of the actual prefects. And despite the complaints, she never actually seems to loathe their time together—frustrated, yes. Exhausted, absolutely. But somewhere beneath it all is a sort of resigned affection she doesn’t quite admit to.
You often sit by the fire after she’s done ranting, book in your lap, mind somewhere else entirely.
Because while Lily battles James's endless rambling about goal strategies and prank logistics, your thoughts drift to the letters again and again.
You miss them.
More than you like to admit.
Even now, months after the last one, you still half-expect to find something tucked inside your Transfiguration book. Or a note slid under your pillow. That hopeful little ache has never quite gone away. You know it’s silly—it’s been so long, it’s probably over—but that connection, however brief and anonymous, was something you’d never really had before.
Whoever wrote those letters saw parts of you you didn’t think anyone noticed. They wrote like they knew what you needed to hear before you even knew it yourself.
And now… it’s just silence.
It’s late December when Lily finds it. Just a few days shy of the Christmas Holidays, when the castle starts to shift into that enchanted, warm glow of the holidays. Wreaths bloom along the walls, garlands wrap the banisters, and the air smells faintly of cinnamon and woodsmoke.
It’s snowing outside, but the halls are still humming with end-of-term energy—homework, holiday plans, and whispered excitement about the upcoming Hogsmeade weekend.
Lily’s rifling through James Potter’s satchel.
To be fair, she asked him where the patrol rota was, and he told her—somewhere in his bag. He’s halfway through an apple and elbow-deep in a discussion with Remus about whether or not the Gryffindor team needs a strategy change after Christmas.
She pulls out quills, broken Sugar Quill sticks, crumpled bits of paper, at least two spare ties, and—at the very bottom—a small, folded piece of parchment.
Gold foil.
Your name on the front.
She freezes.
It’s unmistakable. The handwriting is the same elegant, slanted script you used to show them, the same ink, the same careful fold. But this letter has never reached you.
Her eyes widen. Her breath catches.
She looks up at James.
Still talking.
Still completely unaware that in one careless second, he’s just given everything away.
Lily takes the letter. Quietly. Carefully. She tucks it into her robe pocket and says nothing. Not yet.
But she watches him all night. She watches the way his gaze flickers towards you sometimes across the common room. The way he gets unusually quiet when your name comes up.
Later that night, in the corridor outside the common room, she pounces.
“James.”
He jumps. “Bloody—Evans, you trying to give me a heart attack?”
She crosses her arms. “I need to ask you something,”
“Okay…?”
She pulls the letter from her pocket.
He stops breathing.
“Is this yours?”
He tries—tries—to play dumb.
“I—uh—never seen that before in my life.”
She raises an eyebrow.
“No? Oh well, guess i’ll deliver it myself then,”
The way James snatches the letter from her hands you’d think it was his lifeline. It kind of was. “Don’t you dare—”
She doesn’t say anything for a beat. Then:
“It was you.”
He nods, sheepish. “Yeah.”
“You were writing the letters all last year. All that time. While she was agonising over who it was.”
Another nod.
“Why didn’t you tell her?”
“I—” He scrubs a hand through his hair. “I panicked, alright? I was going to. I really was. The last letter—I wrote it to finally tell her. Then I just… I bottled it. It felt too big. Too serious. I didn’t think she’d… you know. Want me.”
Lily stares at him.
“You absolute moron.”
He blinks. “Sorry?”
“She’s been miserable for months. She kept waiting for another letter, hoping you’d write again. Do you have any idea how much she—” She cuts herself off, shaking her head. “Unbelievable.”
“I didn’t think she liked me,” James mutters. “I mean, properly. Not just the letters. And not after everything—after how I was in fifth year—”
“You’ve changed.”
He shrugs. “I don’t know if that matters.”
Lily looks at him, and something softens.
“It does. And for what it’s worth, I think she would want to know. But—” She holds up a finger before he can respond. “—If you want to be a coward, I won’t say a word. But if you want my silence, you’re going to have to make it worth it.”
James straightens. “What does that mean?”
“It means I’ll keep your secret—for now. But only if you actually do something about it. No more hiding. No more waiting. I’m going to help you, and you’re going to let me.”
James looks like someone’s just told him he has a shot at the World Cup.
“You’ll help me?”
She nods. “But only because I’m tired of watching her mope around like a ghost every time she checks her pillow for a letter that never comes.”
His expression shifts—hope blooming like a star behind his eyes.
“Alright,” he says, determined now. “Deal.”
Lily smiles.
The Christmas holidays was an odd time for both Lily and James. While a welcome respite from the usual whirlwind of school activities, they brought their own pressures. For Lily, it was the mounting anticipation of how to pull off her bold plan, and for James, it was the dawning realisation that he might just have a chance with you—but only if he didn’t screw it up.
It started innocently enough: a stack of parchment and a quill. The first few letters between them were brief and clumsy, full of the usual banter that you’d expect from James Potter. But with Lily’s encouragement and careful advice, his words began to take shape. She steered him, nudging him in the right direction.
There were moments of frustration—James was a disaster with anything that wasn’t a Quidditch strategy or prank, and this was, in his mind, far too serious to be a joke. But Lily stuck by him, offering a steady hand when his confidence faltered, teaching him how to make the words meaningful.
The tone of the letters shifted as they continued. At first, James wrote about what he thought you would want to hear—grand gestures, over-the-top declarations that, in hindsight, seemed ridiculous. But Lily patiently worked through them with him, showing him that it wasn’t about showiness—it was about connection. The real connection. The sort of connection that wasn’t about impressing you with his charm, but letting you see who he really was. She made him laugh, made him reflect on his own growth, and made him understand that this wasn’t just some passing fancy.
Their letters became a sort of symbiotic process. James would write something a bit too much, and Lily would dial it back with a comment about being too self-deprecating or too dramatic. He’d write again, taking into account her feedback. Then, Lily would send him back something that was genuinely thoughtful about what he could say to you—subtle things like, “She likes someone who listens, not just talks,” and “Remember, be genuine. It’s okay to be nervous.”
They’d find themselves exchanging letters, not just for the sake of figuring out what to say to you, but out of a shared sense of friendship, a bond that neither of them had expected to form.
They started to know each other better—not just as the Head Girl and the Head Boy, but as two people who were learning to be better versions of themselves. James began to appreciate Lily in a way that went beyond admiration—he respected her, her intelligence, her patience. She had a depth to her that he hadn’t quite realised before.
And Lily, for her part, couldn’t deny that James was more than just the loud, arrogant Quidditch star he used to be. He was thoughtful. He was kind. And beneath that cocky exterior, he was actually a lot more humble than anyone gave him credit for.
When the holidays ended and the students returned to Hogwarts, the air was thick with a sort of nervous energy. It was a fresh start after weeks away, and the school had a distinct feeling of a new term—new opportunities, new resolutions. It was also, for Lily, the moment when the plan she had been quietly constructing would need to unfold in full force.
As they returned to their regular routines, Lily began her work behind the scenes. It started innocently enough—casual conversations in the corridors, the library, and the common room. She would slip in little details about James—never overtly, but just enough to plant the seed in your mind.
“Did you hear about James helping that first-year with their transfiguration homework? I swear, he’s actually really good at it when he puts his mind to it,”
You had glanced up from your own work at the mention of James's name, frowning a little, because honestly, you hadn’t thought about him much. Not lately. He’d been busy with Quidditch, as usual. You couldn’t deny, though, that the idea of him being helpful—genuinely helpful—sounded out of character, even for him.
Over the next few days, Lily casually dropped more snippets into conversations. “James, honestly, I’m impressed with how he’s handled being Head Boy. He really seems to be taking it seriously. Even with Quidditch on his plate, he always makes time to help out,” She’d speak with genuine admiration, her voice unconsciously laced with warmth whenever she spoke of him.
At first, you dismissed it. It was all so subtle—so carefully orchestrated—that you barely noticed it happening. But the more Lily spoke, the more you began to pay attention.
One afternoon, you were walking down the corridor to the library when you spotted James on the far side of the hall, surrounded by first-years. You were about to look away when you saw him gently helping one of them with a stack of books, his hands steady, his voice low and encouraging. A completely different side to the usual cocky, mischief-driven James Potter. You’d never seen him like this before. You’d never seen anyone so engaged in something so simple.
That night, when you sat with the girls, Lily mentioned it casually. “James was really great today, helping the first years carry their books. He’s definitely grown up. It’s funny, isn’t it? We always think of him as the prankster, but there’s so much more to him than that. Honestly, I’m starting to see him in a new light,”
You were about to say something dismissive—something that would push the conversation away. But then, you stopped. There was something in the way she said it, so earnestly, that made you pause.
“Why do you keep talking about him like that?” Dorcas asked, raising an eyebrow at Lily.
Lily didn’t even bat an eyelash. She was smooth. “Why? What do you mean? He’s really changed, that’s all,”
“She has a bit of a point,” You immediately regret backing Lily. Why did you say that?
You weren’t sure what was happening to you. Why, when you closed your eyes that night, did your thoughts drift to James? Why, when you caught his smile in the corridor, did your heart feel like it skipped a beat? Why did you feel the need to brush your hair just right every time you passed him?
What was Lily doing to your head?
Lily Evans was a lot of things. Bright. Commanding. Intimidating when she wanted to be. But above all else, she was strategic. And once she caught on to the fact that you had—finally—developed something resembling a real, actual crush on James Potter, it was game over. For you.
You just didn’t know it yet.
“You need a break,” she said, as if that weren’t a suspicious statement from someone who had spent the last week stress-annotating every page of her Arithmancy textbook.
You glanced at her warily. “A break from what?”
“Studying. The common room. Yourself.” She sipped her tea primly. “We’re going to the library,”
“You think the library is a break?”
“Yes, because you’re not going alone this time,” she said. “We’ll revise together,”
You narrowed your eyes. “You hate revising with other people,”
“I don’t hate it,”
“You said—and I quote—‘group studying is a punishment for introverts who can’t read in silence.’”
Lily gave you her best innocent expression. “Wow. That doesn’t sound like me at all,”
Still, she wore you down. As she often did. And twenty minutes later you were being marched into the library under the pretense of productivity.
You weren’t entirely sure when you’d clocked it. Maybe it was the faint hum of nerves in Lily’s step, or the way she seemed to be leading you rather than walking beside you. But then you turned the corner near the back tables, and there he was.
James Potter. Sat alone at a table by the window, sunlight catching on his hair like it was doing it on purpose. His head was bowed, pencil tapping rhythmically against his lip as he read, and for once he looked almost serene. Normal. Thoughtful.
“Oh,” Lily said, not even bothering to feign surprise. “James. Didn’t see you there,”
He looked up, blinking at the both of you, then smiled—wide and easy. “Hey. Fancy running into you two,”
You turned to Lily with a look. She smiled sweetly and gestured to the empty chairs. “Plenty of room. Come on,”
You gave her a long-suffering sigh, but joined them. You didn’t miss the way James straightened up a little when you sat down. Or how he nudged his textbook closer to make space.
“We’re reviewing Potions,” Lily said, as if that was the plan all along. “James, you’re good at Potions, right?”
He gave a modest shrug. “Decent. Do you need help?”
She said nothing. Just looked at you. Pointedly.
“…Sure,” you mumbled, flipping open your book. “Why not.”
Later that week, it happened again.
You and Lily were walking down toward Herbology, cutting across the greenhouses when a burst of motion caught your eye near the Quidditch pitch.
James was there. Not flying, not showing off—but hovering gently just above the grass, alongside a very nervous-looking first year. The kid was wobbling on their broom, fists clenched white around the handle.
“Easy now,” James called, encouraging but calm. “Keep your knees loose. You’re thinking too hard. Let the broom do the work,”
“Is that Potter?” you asked, squinting.
Lily followed your gaze and made a noise like she’d just noticed. “Oh, yeah. I think he’s mentoring first years this term. Sweet, right?”
You turned back toward him. The wind ruffled his hair, and he reached out to steady the kid’s broom with a gentle hand, his voice low and kind and patient. It was… not a side of him you saw often. Or ever.
Your stomach did a thing.
Lily nudged you. “You’re staring,” she sang under her breath.
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
“I’m observing,” you said flatly. “For science.”
“Sure. For science,”
By the third encounter, you were onto her.
This time, Lily “forgot” her notes in the Divination tower and asked you to come with her to get them. But when you reached the corridor, who was leaning against the wall chatting with Professor Sinistra?
That’s right.
James bloody Potter.
“…Hi?” he said, eyes flicking between the two of you.
Lily acted delighted. “Oh! James! What’re you doing up here?”
“Dropping off the star charts for Astronomy club,” he replied.
Lily gasped. “Look at you. Responsible and helpful,”
You turned your head slowly, muttering under your breath. “You planned this,”
“I absolutely did not,” Lily said, far too brightly.
You stared.
She smiled wider.
James, to his credit, just looked confused.
And maybe—maybe—a little hopeful.
Later, in the common room, you finally snapped.
“You’re setting me up,” you accused.
Lily beamed, completely unbothered. “Yes. And you’re welcome,”
“I didn’t ask for your interference,”
She crossed her arms and leaned against the sofa. “No, but I got tired of watching you pretend not to like him every time he breathed in your direction. So I decided to help you skip to the part where you realise he’s more than just a pretty face with Quidditch shoulders,”
You covered your face with a groan.
“Oh come on,” she said. “You like him,”
“No.”
“You do,”
You peeked between your fingers. “He was really sweet with that first year,”
Lily smirked. “I know,”
You slumped further into the cushions. “I hate how well this is working,”
“I’m a genius,” she said modestly.
And honestly? She kind of was.
It wasn’t long before Lily noticed that she didn’t have to nudge you in James's direction anymore. You started coming to her with your own observations. It started innocently enough.
“Did you see James helping that second-year with her Transfiguration homework today?” you asked, as you sat in the Gryffindor common room one chilly evening. “It was kind of… sweet,”
Lily's lips twitched in a knowing smile, but she hid it behind the book she was pretending to read. “Oh, really?” she asked casually, though her voice was laced with an almost imperceptible hint of amusement. “That sounds like him,”
And then, the more you noticed these things, the more you found yourself noticing him. The way his hair always fell in that messy way, no matter how much he tried to push it back. The way his eyes seemed to light up when he was talking about something he loved—Quidditch, of course, but also the way he spoke about his friends, his teammates. His honesty, unpolished but real. How, after all these years, you hadn’t truly seen him for what he was—someone who, despite his flaws, actually tried to do the right thing, even when he didn’t have to.
The realisation hit you slowly, like a wave creeping up the shore. You liked James Potter. You were attracted to him.
And that made you feel insane.
It was a Tuesday, and the usual hustle and bustle of Potions class filled the air as students shuffled into the dimly lit dungeon. You were seated next to Lily as usual, one row behind the Marauders, but that day, for some reason, your focus was nowhere near the task at hand. You were supposed to be preparing a Draught of Living Death, but your eyes kept straying to James, Sirius, Remus, and Peter, who were across the room, clearly engaged in some kind of prank plan.
It wasn’t even subtle. They were making faces at each other, stifling laughs, and it was so obvious that Professor Slughorn wasn’t even pretending to ignore them. You couldn't help the smile tugging at your lips as you watched James pass something to Sirius behind his cauldron, a quick handoff of some joke ingredient that was almost certainly going to explode in someone’s face.
“You’re staring again,” Lily pointed out with a grin, her voice low enough so that no one else could hear.
You blinked, realising that she had caught you, yet again. “What? No I’m not, I’m paying attention!” You quickly turned your focus back to your potion, though it was already too late—the glint in Lily’s eyes told you that she knew the truth.
She raised an eyebrow, still looking amused, and shook her head. “It’s okay. I mean, I did call it though,”
You groaned, slumping in your seat, feeling your cheeks flush. “I’m insane,” you muttered to yourself, so quietly that only Lily could hear. “What am I supposed to do? He’s been a complete arse to me for years, and now I’m falling for him? I’m a lunatic. Someone, take me away to Mungo’s. Commit me now. I’m beyond saving,”
Lily’s laughter bubbled up, and she didn’t even try to hide it. “Oh, come on, you’re not insane. You just like him. It’s not the end of the world,”
You shot her a glare. “Lils, I hate him. I have hated him for six years. Six years! He’s loud, he’s cocky, he’s arrogant. And now I want to—what? Be all gooey-eyed at him?”
She shrugged, the smile still dancing on her lips. “You’re allowed to change your mind, you know,”
“About him?” you said, pointing dramatically toward James, who was still engaging in some prank or another, his laugh unmistakable even from across the room. “What is wrong with me? Maybe I need a head examination. Maybe I just need to stop thinking about it altogether. Because this? This is crazy,”
Lily laughed again, a sound that was half sympathetic, half mocking. “I think you're being a little dramatic, don't you?”
“Drama's my middle name, Lils,” you muttered, sinking further into your seat, your face growing hot as you tried to ignore the fact that, even now, you could feel the pull of James Potter’s presence across the room. “Ugh. What do I even do? I can’t just talk to him. He’s so annoying. I can’t believe this is happening,”
Lily's tone turned more serious as she leaned a little closer, her voice softening. “Maybe… maybe you should start by just talking to him. Like, really talking. Not about Quidditch or anything that’s just… surface stuff. Maybe actually get to know him, without the whole cocky idiot routine he’s always doing,”
You frowned, looking over at James again, who had just leaned back in his chair, grinning at something Sirius had said. You shook your head, resisting the pull. “I don’t know, Lils. This whole thing is just… confusing,”
Lily sighed dramatically, resting her chin on her hand. “Yeah, I get that. But you know, I think he’s just a little misunderstood. He’s not perfect—he never has been. But… I think he’s worth getting to know. And I don’t think you’d regret it, if you gave him a chance,”
You stared at her, wide-eyed. “Are you… are you implying something here?”
Lily raised her hands in mock surrender, her eyes twinkling. “I’m not implying anything. I’m just saying… you should give him a chance to surprise you,”
You let out a long, dramatic groan. “What is wrong with me? I need help,”
Later that evening, you found yourself sitting in the Gryffindor common room, trying to ignore the noise around you. You were perched on the edge of the couch, pretending to study, but your mind was elsewhere entirely. Not on the anonymous love letters, but on James.
How had it happened? How had the most annoying person you’d ever met—someone who had spent years making fun of you, pranking you, and generally being an all-around nuisance—suddenly become someone you were seriously thinking about? It didn’t make sense. And yet, here you were, sighing over him like some lovesick fool.
“Everything okay?” Lily asked, sliding into the seat next to you. She had that familiar, knowing smile on her face—the one that made you feel like she could see straight through you. “You seem distracted,”
You let out a frustrated breath. “I’m an idiot,” you muttered, burying your face in your hands. “I’m an absolute, utter idiot,”
Lily laughed, clearly enjoying your inner turmoil. “You’re not an idiot. You’re just human,”
“Human, my arse,” you grumbled. “I’m supposed to be in control of my emotions. I’m supposed to be the level-headed one. And instead, I’m obsessing over James Potter. I mean, James Potter. What is wrong with me?”
Lily’s laugh was warm and understanding. She didn’t press you for more, though she did, at the back of your mind, know something you didn’t. She knew that you were slowly starting to see James for who he really was. And she knew that, when the time was right, it wouldn’t take much for him to see you for who you truly were, either.
But for now, all she had to do was sit back and watch the inevitable unfold.
By March, the weight of the upcoming mock NEWTs had hit Hogwarts like a bludger to the ribs. The once-lively Gryffindor common room was now filled with students hunched over parchment, quills scratching like beetles in the quiet, anxious air.
Even the usual chaos of the Marauders had simmered into a tense sort of focus—less pranks, more sighing, and an abundance of sugar quills chewed to bits while everyone tried to pretend they weren’t on the verge of collective academic collapse.
You’d taken to escaping the chaos by spending more time in the library, where the silence was less oppressive and the chances of being interrupted were, blessedly, low. There was something grounding about the musty scent of old books, the feel of parchment under your fingers, and the soft rustling of pages turning around you. Here, at least, you could pretend to have control over the mounting panic.
You didn’t expect to see him there.
It was a Thursday afternoon. The sky outside was grey and moody, a typical March sulk, and you’d made your way to the far side of the library looking for a quiet corner. Your bag was heavy on your shoulder, the strap digging into your collarbone, and your fingers were already ink-stained from a particularly ambitious essay you'd abandoned halfway through breakfast.
You turned down one of the aisles and paused.
James Potter sat alone at a study table, bent over a thick Potions textbook, hair sticking up in that ridiculous, familiar way, glasses slightly askew, brows furrowed in concentration. His quill tapped thoughtfully against his lips as he scanned a particularly long paragraph, completely unaware of your presence.
There were no Marauders in sight. No Sirius lolling about with a smirk, no Peter sneaking sweets, no Remus patiently annotating with colour-coded inks. Just James. Quiet. Focused. Normal.
It was weird.
You hovered there, unsure for a moment. James Potter was not someone you’d ever associated with solitude. He belonged in groups. In crowds. Loud, chaotic ones. He was a whirlwind of motion and noise and cheeky grins. But now—
Now, he just looked… Tired. Still. Almost soft.
You blinked. Once. Twice. And then, before your brain could talk your body out of it, you approached.
“Mind if I join you?”
James startled, looking up as though you’d just Apparated beside him. His expression shifted rapidly—surprise, confusion, and then something else entirely. Something warmer.
“Oh. Er—yeah! Yes, absolutely, yeah, course you can,” he stammered, quickly moving his things to make space for you, nearly knocking over his inkpot in the process. “Didn’t expect company,”
“I didn’t expect you to be in here,” you replied, sliding into the seat beside him and placing your books on the table. “Alone, I mean. No gaggle of mischief-makers in tow,”
He gave a sheepish laugh. “Yeah, I figured I’d actually try to… I don’t know, pass transfiguration this year. Trying this whole ‘focus’ thing,”
You arched an eyebrow. “Look at you. All grown up and responsible,”
He mock-scowled at you. “Don’t make it weird,”
You smiled despite yourself. “I’m stressed about the Potions exam,” you admitted after a moment. “I feel like Slughorn could hand me a list of ingredients and I’d still forget what a bezoar does,”
James gave you a surprised, almost earnest look. “Do you want to revise together? I mean—I’m decent at Potions. Got a weird knack for it. I could help,”
You tilted your head, eyeing him. “You? Helping me revise?”
“Don’t sound so shocked,” he said, grinning now. “I can be serious when I want to be,”
“Can you?”
James snorted. “Okay, I try to be,”
You laughed, and somehow that broke the tension. The two of you slipped into an easy rhythm. You started with Potions, him explaining the nuances of antidotes and the precise slicing technique needed for Sopophorous beans.
His explanations were animated—hands gesturing as he talked, voice fluctuating with a kind of earnestness you’d never quite noticed before. It made sense why he was such a good Quidditch captain; there was something undeniably compelling about the way he communicated, even when it was just about brewing Draught of Peace.
He didn't mock you when you forgot something obvious. He didn't interrupt. He listened.
And when your hands brushed across the table, reaching for the same note at the same time, he didn't flinch away. He just smiled.
Then the subject drifted. From Potions to Charms. From Charms to Transfiguration. From school to House gossip to whether centaurs secretly judged the students during Care of Magical Creatures.
Somewhere along the way, the edges between awkward and easy blurred.
There were pauses, of course—comfortable silences where you simply worked, and longer ones filled with light teasing or surprising bursts of genuine conversation. Like when he told you about his mum’s obsession with over-feeding the stray street cat, or how Sirius once bewitched his bed curtains to play harp music every time someone said his name.
It was weird, how easy it was.
It was weirder, still, when you realised you’d lost track of time.
“Blimey,” James muttered, glancing at the high windows. “It’s practically dark out,”
You blinked, checking your watch. “We’re late for dinner,”
“I was supposed to meet the team for a strategy review,” he said, rubbing a hand through his hair, making it stand up even more.
As if summoned, Peter popped his head around the shelf with a harried expression. “There you are!” he said to James, and then looked at you, visibly surprised. “We thought you’d fallen in a cauldron or something,”
James gave an apologetic shrug. “Lost track of time,”
Peter eyed the two of you, then turned his gaze back on James and raised his eyebrows very pointedly. “Riiight,”
You and James exchanged a glance, and then you both gathered your things and followed Peter out.
When you entered the Great Hall late, your friends were all over you.
“Where were you?” Dorcas asked, half-standing.
“Don’t say the library,” Marlene warned. “We know you left for the library, but you didn’t come back for hours,”
“And with James Potter?” Dorcas added, now openly gaping.
You groaned, sliding into the seat beside Lily. “It’s not what it sounds like.”
“It sounds like you two met up for a shag,” Marlene suggested, delighted.
“Absolutely not,” you said, head thunking dramatically onto the table. “He was helping me with potions. That’s all.”
Lily grinned, rubbing your back. “So you finally cracked, then?”
You peeked up at her with a groan. “I can’t stand how smug you look right now,”
Dorcas leaned in eagerly. “Wait—you like him?”
You sighed and sat up. “I begrudgingly have a crush on James Potter. There. I said it. I hate myself. I hate him. I hate everything. Kill me now.”
The table burst into laughter. Marlene actually clutched her chest. “I knew it. You’ve been making heart eyes for weeks,”
Lily looked positively radiant. “It’s okay,” she said soothingly. “It’s only taken you, what? Seven years?”
You scowled. “This is the worst timeline.”
Still, you couldn’t help the small smile that tugged at your lips.
Meanwhile, James was in the middle of a complete overshare.
“I panicked,” he said, flopping dramatically onto Sirius’ bed. “She just walked over and sat down. And then we actually talked. Like properly talked. And she laughed, Sirius. She laughed. At my jokes,”
Sirius grinned from where he was perched at the edge of Remus’s bed. “So you didn’t ruin it. Colour me shocked,”
James threw a pillow at him. “I’m being serious.”
“I’m being Sirius,” Sirius deadpanned.
Remus groaned. “Not this again,”
Peter snorted, settling at the foot of his own bed. “So what now? You two just revise together like it’s no big deal?”
“She asked to join me,” James said, like it was still unbelievable. “And I didn’t mess it up. I even helped her with Potions,”
Sirius gave him a sly look. “You like her,”
“Yes,” James said, no hesitation. “Obviously. I’ve liked her for ages. And now she’s actually… noticing me. And it’s terrifying,”
“What happened to cool, confident James Potter?” Remus asked with a faint smile.
“He’s dead.” James exclaimed. “He doesn’t exist,”
Sirius cracked up laughing.
James groaned, grabbing another pillow. “Promise me you lot won’t screw this up for me,”
“Course not,” Remus said. “We want you to be happy,”
“Speak for yourself,” Sirius muttered. “I liked it better when he was hopeless,”
But he smiled anyway.
From that point on, library sessions became a thing.
At first, it was casual. A few times a week, whenever you happened to run into each other. Then Lily started suggesting you go together—“oh, James said he’d be in the library after dinner, you should head down,”—and it became routine.
You tried to tell yourself it was just studying. That was all.
But it wasn’t.
You and James talked about everything—from exam stress and professors to more personal things. Like how he hated how he used to treat people, especially you and Lily. How he couldn’t believe he’d wasted so much time being a prat. How he’d let his ego make choices he still regretted.
“I was a total wanker,” he said one evening, sitting across from you, fiddling with the end of his quill. “Back when you and Lily were still friends with Snape. I was just… angry all the time. Jealous, maybe. I don’t know. But I was awful. And I’m sorry,”
You blinked. The sincerity in his voice caught you off guard.
“Thanks,” you said softly. “That actually means a lot,”
He gave you a small smile. “I just—I want you to know I’m trying. Not just for you. For me, too,”
And you believed him.
Which was maybe the scariest part.
Because this—whatever this was—wasn’t just a passing crush anymore.
You were really starting to fall for James Potter.
It was a Friday afternoon, the eve of the Gryffindor versus Ravenclaw Quidditch final, and James Potter was, predictably, in full strategising mode. You’d barely sat down at your usual table in the library before he launched into a spirited rant about formations, wind direction, and something called “chaser rotation efficiency” like he hadn’t just spent the past two hours at practice already barking the same things at his team.
You, meanwhile, were fighting a losing battle against a headache and the slow, creeping guilt of having left your Potions essay untouched for two full days.
“—and I swear if McLaggen swerves left again when I signal right, I’m going to charm his broomstick to fly backwards—”
“I forgot my quill,” you interrupted, sighing dramatically and digging fruitlessly through your satchel. “Great. That’s perfect. That’s exactly what I needed today,”
“Oh—here,” James said, gesturing vaguely to his bag without pausing his train of thought. “There’s loads in there, probably. Knock yourself out,”
You slid his satchel toward you, still only half-listening as he rambled on, now something about wind tunnels and Ravenclaw’s new Keeper. You unzipped the bag and fished around, fingers grazing parchment, a broken sugar quill, and several unidentifiable sticky objects before landing on a whole bundle of rogue writing utensils.
And then—your fingers brushed something else.
Smooth. Firm. Familiar.
You pulled it out.
Gold-foiled parchment.
Your breath hitched.
It was folded and refolded a dozen times over, edges fraying, the once-glossy surface dulled and creased. There were small ink stains on the back. A faint smudge of what might have been chocolate. You didn’t even need to open it to know what it was.
But you did anyway.
You shouldn’t have. You knew that. But your hands acted faster than your brain, and before you could stop yourself, your eyes were scanning the page.
Your name was there, in that now-unmistakable handwriting. The curves and flicks that had haunted your thoughts for nearly a year. And the words—oh, the words. Soft and intimate and so completely James that you were stunned you hadn’t pieced it together before.
I know I said I wouldn’t write you anymore, but I’m afraid I can’t help myself. The truth is, I’ve been terrified of saying it out loud, of giving you something you don’t need or want. But I can’t pretend anymore. I’ve loved you for so long, in ways that I can’t even put into words. I’ve watched you, really watched you, every day, and I’ve noticed things about you that—
You were halfway through reading it when James looked up from his notes, mid-smirk.
“I know my bag’s a bit of a disaster zone, but come on—it can’t be that hard to find a—”
He stopped mid-sentence.
His smile dropped.
You slowly looked up, the letter still in your hands, your fingers clenched tight around the gold paper. Your voice, when it came, was a whisper. Distant.
“…It was you?”
Silence.
James stared at you.
He opened his mouth, then shut it again.
You saw it—the flicker of panic, the rapid calculations behind his eyes, the moment he considered denying it.
But he didn’t.
He just nodded. Once. Barely perceptible.
You rose from your seat with a quiet scrape of your chair.
“I— I need to go.”
“Wait—” James started, standing as if to follow you, but you were already gone.
You didn’t look back.
James slumped back into his seat like the air had been knocked out of him.
He felt like he might be sick.
He'd known it was a risk. He’d always known. That’s why he never sent that final letter. That’s why he buried it in the bottom of his bag with the other forgotten things. Because if you ever found out…
And now you had.
He ran both hands through his hair and groaned into the table.
Lily found him twenty minutes later, still in the library, head buried in his arms.
“James we need to— What happened?” she asked immediately, sliding into the seat beside him. “You look like someone hexed your soul out,”
James didn’t lift his head.
“She found the letter,”
“…What?”
James groaned again. “I had it in my bag and she went in for a quill and she found it. Read it. Said ‘It was you?’ and then just—left.”
Lily’s eyes widened.
“What? James, that wasn’t the plan—!”
“I know,” he said miserably. “Trust me.”
Lily didn’t wait for more. She stood, grabbed her bag, and strode from the library like a woman on a mission.
She found you in the girls’ dormitory, door slightly ajar, the room quiet except for the faint rustle of parchment and the erratic, uneven sounds of your breathing.
The gold-letter lay open on your duvet, surrounded by all the other ones you’d carefully saved. The edges were frayed and thumbed from how often you’d reread them, but now they were scattered like fallen leaves, forming a halo around your crossed legs.
You didn’t look up when Lily entered.
She sat beside you quietly.
For a while, there was only the sound of your sniffles and the occasional tear hitting paper.
“I feel insane,” you said eventually, voice shaking. “I— I didn’t think— I never imagined it would be him,”
Lily reached out gently, plucking a letter from the bedspread. “You mean to tell me you never noticed the handwriting?”
“I never thought to look,” you mumbled. “Why would I? It was James Potter. He was—he was awful for so long,”
“But he isn’t now,”
You looked at her then, eyes red, lips trembling. “No. He’s not,”
There was a long pause.
Lily tilted her head. “You really like him, don’t you?”
You groaned, flopping backwards onto your pillow with a dramatic sigh. “I guess! I don’t—I didn’t think I did, not like that, not really, not until recently, and now—now I don’t know what to do, Lily,”
Lily smiled gently. “It’s okay. It’s… a lot. I know that,”
“It’s so much,” you moaned. “It’s like my brain is having a meltdown. All the letters—I loved the letters, and now they’re his letters and it’s like this huge secret just blew up in my face and I think I want to cry but also yell but also maybe kiss him and I don’t know what order those things go in!”
Lily laughed softly. “That’s the grief talking,”
You sniffled. “Grief?”
“Yeah,” she said solemnly. “The five stages of realising you’ve been in love with James Potter,”
You gave her a look.
“I’m serious. Denial—you definitely had that one early. Anger? You stormed out of the library. Bargaining—we’re doing that now. Depression is when you go quiet and start rereading all his letters while questioning your entire existence. And acceptance—well,”
“I’m not at acceptance yet,” you insisted, even as your voice wobbled. “I’m still in a very dramatic spiral,”
“You’ll get there,” Lily said kindly. “Just… breathe, okay? You’re allowed to freak out. But this—this doesn’t have to be bad,”
“He lied to me,”
“He didn’t lie,” Lily said gently. “He just… couldn’t find the courage to tell you the truth,”
You fell quiet, chewing your lip. “Was this your plan all along?”
Lily hesitated. “Not this exact ending, but… I knew. For a while. And I may have nudged things along,”
You groaned again, grabbing a pillow and burying your face in it. “You kept it from me?”
“It wasn’t mine to tell,”
You peeked out. “He’s really upset, isn’t he?”
“Like a kicked puppy,”
James was falling apart.
The Marauders tried their best to be supportive.
Which, unfortunately, amounted to Sirius offering him chocolate, Remus recommending deep breathing exercises, and Peter saying things like, “Well, at least it’s out now?”
“Out?” James choked. “It’s out like a Blast-Ended Skrewt in a greenhouse! She’s going to hate me,”
“You’re being dramatic,” Sirius said. “She likes you. Even I can see that,”
“She liked the version of me who wrote the letters,” James said. “Not the idiot who shoved them in a bag and hoped they never saw the light of day,”
“She liked you, mate,” Remus corrected. “You were being yourself in those letters. You just… didn’t know how to show it in person,”
James rubbed his hands over his face. “It’s over, isn’t it?”
“No,” Sirius said, surprisingly firm. “Not unless you give up now,”
James looked at him.
“You’ve come this far. She knows now. You can’t back down. Not unless you’re okay with always wondering what would’ve happened if you tried,”
James took a deep breath.
“I want to try,”
“Then try,” Remus said, clapping him on the shoulder.
You stayed up most of the night rereading the letters.
Every word hit differently now.
The soft musings. The little jokes. The genuine awe in the way he’d described you.
James Potter had written them all.
And somehow, that made your heart hurt in the most complicated, overwhelming, real way.
By morning, your mind was no clearer—but you knew one thing.
You needed to talk to him.
James didn’t wake up until nearly noon.
He jolted upright in bed with a strangled noise, heart racing, hair a chaotic mess of pillow creases and stress, the realisation slamming into his chest like a Bludger—he’d missed practice.
He’d missed practice.
On the day of the finals.
There was a beat of stunned silence in the common room, broken only by Peter’s stifled gasp as James scrambled down the stairs, knocking over a chair, his wand, and nearly himself in his blind panic.
“Shit—shit—shit—”
“James, mate, calm down,” came Sirius’s voice, too calm, too amused for the situation.
“I missed practice, Sirius! Finals practice! I'm the captain! I was supposed to run drills, go over the formations—McLaggen was probably leading it, and now the team’s going to think I don’t give a damn—”
“Breathe,” Remus added, flicking his wand to fix James’ mess of a hairdo mid-spiral.
“I can’t—breathe! I should be—kicked off the team, I should sub myself out—”
At that, Sirius sat up properly, ruffling a hand through his dark hair. “Okay, whoa, no. What are you on about?”
James didn’t answer. He was halfway dressed, chest still heaving, hands shaking so badly he couldn’t even fasten the buttons.
“I mean it,” he muttered, voice lower now, harsher. “Maybe I shouldn’t play,”
“You’re literally the best Chaser in the school,” Peter said, face scrunched in confusion.
“I’m also a disaster. You didn’t see her face yesterday. She looked—like I’d broken her, or something. I can’t concentrate, I can’t think—I can’t lead the team if my brain’s stuck on whether or not I’ve ruined the only real shot I had with her,”
“James,” Sirius said carefully, sitting on the edge of one of the sofas. “You don’t have to ruin everything just because your crush found out you have feelings,”
James shot him a look. “It’s more than that and you know it,”
Sirius shrugged. “I do. I also know you’re being an idiot,”
“I panicked. I didn’t mean for her to find the letter—”
“No one thinks you did,” Remus said gently.
“Then why did she run?”
Sirius gave him a flat look. “I dunno, maybe because she’s been falling for you and just found out the sweet, romantic mystery boy she’s been dreaming about for a year is the same idiot who hexed her potions cauldron in fourth year? Maybe it was a lot?”
James dropped heavily into a chair and buried his face in his hands.
He muttered something into his palms that sounded suspiciously like, “I hate everything,”
Sirius stood. “You can’t sit this match out, Prongs,”
“I might make things worse,”
“You won’t,” Remus said.
“You’re just scared,” Sirius added. “And you should be. Feelings are terrifying. But you either play today and show her you’re still you, or you hide away and let her think she was right to walk away,”
James didn’t answer.
You were pacing the corridor outside the Gryffindor common room like a lunatic.
You’d spent half the night re-reading the letters again, still overwhelmed, still processing, but ultimately—and maybe most importantly—feeling guilty.
You hadn’t meant to run out on him like that. You did still care. A lot. Too much.
So you needed to say something. Maybe not everything. Maybe not a confession, not yet. But something.
You asked a third year if they’d seen James. They hadn’t.
You tried the Quidditch pitch. Empty.
Eventually, you made your way to the prefects dorms, hesitating at the door before quietly pushing it open.
“…sub myself out…”
You froze.
James was sitting on his bed, dressed in his Quidditch uniform, looking like the ghost of himself. Sirius was pacing. Remus and Peter were quiet. And then—
“Oh,” you blurted.
All four heads turned.
You immediately wanted to melt into the floor. “I—uh—I didn’t mean to eavesdrop, I was just—um—I came to wish you luck. For the match. Lily and I are gonna watch for Marlene, obviously, and I know you were really going on about it yesterday so… yeah.”
Your cheeks were burning. You tugged at the sleeve of your jumper and avoided eye contact like it would save you from death by embarrassment. “Anyway. Yeah. Good luck,”
You turned and practically sprinted out the door, pressing both palms to your face the moment it closed behind you.
Inside, there was a beat of silence.
Then Sirius’s slow, satisfied, “She so likes you,”
James didn’t believe it. But still—he sat up straighter. There was a faint flush in his cheeks, a tiny, hopeful ember reigniting.
He wasn’t going to sub himself out.
Not now he knew you were watching.
The match that afternoon was nothing short of brutal.
Ravenclaw had a reputation for smart plays and clever feints, and they came in swinging with strategy and speed. But James was a force. It was like someone had lit a fire under him—every pass was clean, every dodge intentional. He was focused. Sharp. Alive in a way he hadn’t been in days.
The crowd in the stands was on fire.
You’d never really been the biggest Quidditch enthusiast—not like Marlene or even Dorcas, who pretended to be bored most games but secretly had a very complex internal fantasy league ranking system. But today? You were completely, helplessly, entirely invested.
Your throat was raw from shouting. You didn’t even care that Lily kept elbowing you in the ribs every time you shrieked James’s name louder than was probably acceptable for someone not dating him. (Yet.)
“I’m sorry,” you rasped after the sixth time, cupping your hands over your mouth as James executed an absolutely outrageous dive to steal the Quaffle from a Ravenclaw Chaser. “But that was hot. That was so—Lily, did you see that—?”
Lily didn’t even try to pretend she wasn’t grinning. “I saw it. The whole pitch saw it. You are so painfully gone for this boy it’s almost tragic,”
You shoved her shoulder, cheeks on fire, unable to wipe the dopey grin off your face. James was glowing—wind-swept, flushed, every movement clean and confident and completely alive. It was unfair how good he looked flying. Like it was something stitched into his DNA.
Gryffindor was ahead. Barely. And the entire stadium was one collective heartbeat waiting for the final move.
It came with a streak of red and gold as the Seeker bolted upward—Marlene’s signature move—and then a roar from the crowd when she clutched the Snitch in her hand, grinning like a maniac.
“Yes!” you and Lily screamed in unison, nearly falling over the bench in front of you.
Below, the team rushed to meet her midair, swarming in a tangle of hugs and back pats, and James—James looked up toward the stands, searching, scanning, finding you.
Your breath caught. He grinned, absolutely beaming, and you—without thinking—grinned back.
The Gryffindor common room was buzzing. It looked like every single student in the house had packed themselves in to celebrate the win. There were butterbeers flying, someone had enchanted the couches to bounce like trampolines, and music blasted from one corner where Sirius had commandeered the record player.
You tried to stay off to the side with Lily and the other girls, laughing and pretending to be just another teammate’s supporter, not the girl who had maybe-sort-of-definitely admitted feelings for the captain.
But they were not having it.
“Go talk to him,” Dorcas demanded, poking you hard in the ribs.
“He just won the Cup, obviously you have to congratulate him,” Mary added, dragging you a few steps forward.
“I will! Just—” You resisted, flustered. “I need a second. Or ten.”
You didn’t get ten.
Because moments later, James appeared near the fireplace, sweaty and still in uniform, laughing at something Sirius said, absolutely radiant. And the girls all but shoved you in his direction.
You stumbled a bit, clutching your butterbeer like a life raft. He noticed you instantly.
His smile faltered. Just slightly.
You walked the rest of the way on your own, heart hammering like a snitch in your chest.
“Hey,” you said.
“Hey,” James replied, voice quieter than usual.
You stared at each other for a long moment.
Then Sirius, bless his idiotic timing, called from across the room. “Oi! If you’re gonna stare at each other all night, at least do it while snogging! Save us all the agony!”
You blinked. James blinked. Your face caught fire.
You coughed, trying to rally. “Congratulatio—”
“I like you.”
You blinked again. He was staring at you now, so intently, like you were the only person in the room. The words spilled out of him like they’d been waiting on his tongue for weeks.
“A lot. It might not even be liking anymore—I think I might actually be in love with you. Which is terrifying, obviously. I mean, do you know how scary that is? I didn’t mean to say that just now but it’s true and now it’s out there and I can’t take it back and I am so definitely panicking right now what am I doing—”
“James.”
He stopped.
You took a step closer.
“I like you too.”
Silence.
Then James let out a sound that was halfway between a gasp and a laugh and maybe a choke. “You do?”
“I do,”
“Like, like-like me?”
You rolled your eyes, grinning now. “Do you want me to write it in a letter that I’ll never send to you?”
“Okay, wow,” James let out a short laugh, one your grateful breaks the tension a little. “Too soon, too soon,”
He looks at you with unbridled affection as you return the laugh with an unapologic “Sorry,”, and he can’t seem to help himself.
“We should kiss now, right? Wait—should I have asked that? That sounded stupid—so stupid—oh my God, what is wrong with me, I’m gonna go cry in a corner—”
You interrupted him the only way that made sense.
You kissed him.
He froze for half a second—just long enough to register that it was actually happening—and then he melted into it like he’d been waiting forever. His hands hovered for a moment before settling, warm and firm, at your waist. His mouth was soft, gentle, hesitant in the best way, like he was afraid he’d wake up and realise this was all a dream.
But it wasn’t. It was very, very real.
And, unfortunately, also very public.
“Oi! You’re in public, you know!” came Marlene’s unmistakable cackle from across the room.
You broke the kiss, face flaming as you realised—oh no—everyone had seen.
Like… everyone.
James looked equally shellshocked. You both stared at the cheering, whooping, laughing room of Gryffindors, then at each other.
You groaned and buried your face in your hands. “Kill me now.”
James laughed, looping his arms around your shoulders and holding you tight, radiating smug glee.
“No can do,” he said into your hair. “I’ve been waiting years for this,”
“You’re insufferable,” you muttered.
“And yet,” he grinned, “you like me anyway.”
You looked up at him. “Unfortunately.”
And yeah, okay—maybe it was chaotic, and soft, and totally unplanned—but your first kiss with James Potter was exactly as ridiculous and wonderful as it should’ve been.
Lily caught your eye across the common room after the commotion of the kiss settled into a hundred knowing glances and too-loud whispers. She made a very obvious, very exaggerated “go!” motion with both hands, then shoved her way across the crowd to reach you.
“We are not doing this in front of thirty nosy Gryffindors,” she said under her breath, looping her arm through yours and all but dragging you toward the dorms.
“Wait, what’s happening—”
“Privacy, darling. Trust me,”
She glanced back at James, who was still slightly dazed, and jerked her head at him. “Potter. Move,”
He blinked. “Yeah—yep—coming.”
“Also,” she added over her shoulder to the room at large, “if anyone so much as breathes near the Head Boy’s dorm in the next hour, I will personally hex your toes off,”
There was a smattering of laughter, but everyone—whether out of respect or fear—gave a collective nod of understanding.
You didn’t even fight her on it. You let her guide you through the winding corridors until James was unlocking the door to his private dorm, a quiet space tucked away on the top floor of Gryffindor Tower.
He stepped aside to let you in first. You walked in slowly, half-expecting something chaotic, like prank supplies or an entire wall of Quidditch posters—but the room was surprisingly clean. A little messy around the edges, sure—a few rogue socks, a quill left in an ink bottle too long—but warm. Lived in. His.
“Your curtains don’t match,” you said, for lack of anything better.
He chuckled nervously. “Yeah. Peter charmed them once to be the colours of the Weird Sisters and I’ve never managed to get them back properly,”
You nodded slowly. “Cool,”
A pause.
Then—
“You’ve liked me since fourth year?”
It slipped out without warning. You hadn’t meant to say it, not so quickly, but the words burned in your chest. That letter, the gold-foiled parchment, the confession—it was still vibrating through you.
James looked startled, but only for a second. He nodded once, soft and certain.
“Yeah,”
You swallowed. “Why didn’t you ever say anything?”
He smiled faintly, stepping closer. “Because I was a little idiot. Arrogant. Immature. A menace, honestly. You hated me,”
“I didn’t—hate you,”
“You did,”
“…Okay, a little, maybe,”
That made him laugh.
“But honestly— I didn’t think I deserved to like you back then,” he said. “You were smart. And kind. And so real. You were always thinking about things, you saw people. I was just the loud idiot on a broom,”
You were quiet, because hearing it like that—laid out so plainly—made your heart ache.
He was in front of you now, barely a foot away. You thought he was going to kiss you again, but he didn’t.
Instead, James reached up and gently cradled your face in his hands, his thumbs grazing the apple of your cheeks like you were made of glass and starlight. And then he just looked at you. Like he had all the time in the world. Like he was committing every inch of you to memory.
“You have no idea,” he said, voice barely more than a whisper, “how much you make me feel.”
You couldn’t speak.
So instead, you leaned up and kissed him.
This time, there was no chaos. No crowd. No interruptions. Just you, and James, and the warmth of something blooming between your ribs.
It was slow—achingly so—your lips brushing his like a question. He exhaled into you, a soft, broken sound, and kissed you back like you were the answer.
It was… everything.
The kind of kiss that didn’t need to prove itself. One that said: I see you. I’m here. I want this.
Somewhere between one kiss and the next, you murmured, “Thank you,”
He pulled back just slightly, brow furrowing. “For what?”
You looked up at him, heart thundering.
“You didn’t make this some huge thing. You didn’t… turn it into a game, or a bet, or something loud and performative. You liked me. And you didn’t hide it, but you didn’t push me either. You just… were. You were you.” You blinked. “Thank you for being you,”
James’s face crumpled just a little, like he couldn’t decide whether to smile or cry. One of his hands dropped to your waist, the other curling behind your neck like he needed the anchor.
He pressed his forehead to yours, breathing you in.
“I don’t think you know,” he said hoarsely, “how long I’ve wanted to hear you say that,”
You smiled, dizzy with it all. “Well. Get used to it,”
His lips brushed yours again, so soft it was almost nothing. “I’m really, really in love with you,”
Your breath caught.
“I know,” you whispered.
And then you kissed him again.
And again.
And again.
-MDNI FROM THIS POINT ONWARD.-
It started soft—careful, like you were both still testing the weight of the moment. His hands cradled your face like you were something fragile, something precious, something he’d been terrified of holding wrong for years. But each time your mouths met again, the kiss deepened. Grew bolder. A little less hesitant. A little more sure.
Your fingers tangled in his hair—so soft, so stupidly soft—and James let out a noise against your mouth that had your heart stuttering in your chest. The hand cupping your cheek slid down, fingers grazing your jaw, your neck, until it found the curve of your waist and settled there, grounding you.
He was warm. Too warm. Like every inch of him was heat and adrenaline and the barely-contained relief of finally, finally having this.
You tugged him closer.
He didn’t hesitate.
Your back met the edge of the desk behind you, his chest flush with yours, and suddenly there was no air left between your bodies. Just the solid, real weight of him—every inch as solid and strong as you’d imagined when he walked through the halls like the sun had chosen him to orbit around. But here, like this, he was just James. And he was looking at you like he could drown in the sight of you.
His thumb brushed along your hipbone, under the hem of your shirt, and your whole body lit up like you’d been cursed—like every nerve ending had just remembered it was alive.
“Are we—?” he started to ask, breathless.
You kissed him again before he could finish. “I don’t know,” you murmured. “But don’t stop,”
James definitely didn’t stop.
His hands wandered with a careful hunger—like he wanted to memorise the shape of you, not just with touch but with reverence. His mouth followed the same path, trailing kisses from the corner of your lips down the line of your jaw to the soft skin beneath your ear. When he whispered your name there, barely audible, your knees buckled.
You gripped his shirt, fisting the fabric at his chest to stay steady. “God, you’re—” You stopped yourself before the rest could fall out, but the look in his eyes said he’d heard the whole thing anyway.
His lips parted like he wanted to say something—maybe something funny, maybe something devastating—but you kissed him before he had the chance. This time slower, more deliberate, your mouths fitting together like puzzle pieces that had always been waiting for the right alignment.
And it worked. Somehow, it just worked.
The kind of kiss that felt like you’d been chasing it your whole life.
James groaned softly into your mouth, and that noise did something catastrophic to your brain. One of his hands slid up your back, fingers spread wide like he was trying to anchor himself to you, and when you opened your eyes for half a second to look at him, you found him already watching you—eyes blown wide with want, with feeling, with everything.
“I’ve wanted this,” he breathed against your skin. “For so long,”
James kissed you like a man starved after that—still gentle, always careful, but no longer pulling back.
It was clumsy in places, breathless in others. Too many teeth in one kiss, your shoulder knocking into a stack of textbooks in another. But it didn’t matter. None of it mattered.
You were on fire.
And James was the match, the spark, the sun itself.
At some point, his forehead pressed to yours. You both just breathed. Hard. Laughing softly between gasps, because of course it was James who made kissing this addictive and this stupid.
You were lost in him.
In the feel of every inch of him pressed against you—his hips pinning you to the edge of the desk, his body surrounding you like a forcefield of lean muscle and freckled skin.
Heat was unfurling like liquid fire in your veins, but his mouth still traced over your jawline and across your cheek like he couldn’t stop. Like you were precious.
You gripped the fabric of his shirt, tugging hard enough to bring his gaze back to yours and then holding it, your breath hitching when you caught that look in his eyes, and his hips moved—just once, and just a little—and god, what that did to you. How it sent desire flashing like a lightning bolt down your spine to pool low in your stomach, and you had to bite down on your lip to keep from gasping out loud.
His fingers curled around your hips, digging into the soft flesh through your jeans, and then he pulled you closer like he couldn’t get enough. Closer still, until you were practically draped over the desk, your thighs parted and hips flush with his, and he was devouring you—his touch, his kiss, with no sign of being full.
God, he wanted everything.
His hands mapped out the line of your waist, your ribs, your spine, and everywhere you could feel the warm, rough slide of his touch you burned for more. Your heart was beating so fast you were sure he could feel it pulsing through your skin, and when you rolled your hips up towards his you were just as surprised by the noise you made as James was.
He inhaled sharply, swearing softly, and there would have been time to be embarrassed if you weren’t too busy being turned to mush.
“God that was hot,” James practically breathes out the words, hungry eyes half hidden behind fog-covered lenses as they drag down your body.
He looked utterly ruined already. Hair a mess from you running your fingers through it, shirt rumpled from when you couldn’t keep yourself from touching him. Wanting him.
You reached up to cup his face on impulse, your fingers tracing the lines of his cheeks, his jaw, before sliding your fingers across the arms of his glasses, delicately pulling them from his face. “D’you need these?”
The smirk that spreads across his face is just a little bit smug, but it still does things to you. “Depends,” he said, still breathless. “Are we planning on doing anything that would necessitate me being able to see?”
You laugh, dropping both your voices, and it comes out sounding rough. “Maybe not,” you say, slipping the specs into the front pocket of his shirt. “Do you need to be able to see to kiss me?”
His eyes are half-lidded, and you could count each of his eyelashes from the way he’s looking at you, lips still swollen from a few minutes ago. “No,” he murmurs, leaning down to brush his mouth over yours again, “but it does help with the view.”
He took your chin with his finger, tilting your face up so he could take in the sight of you properly. A slow-burning warmth unfurled in your stomach—no, lower than that, and for a few seconds you were both just looking, and it felt almost more intimate than the last few minutes.
“God, you’re… blurry,” he whispered, and you can’t help the sharp laugh that echoes out of your throat.
“Bugger off,” you said, without any real intent behind it. You weren’t even sure why you were acting so shy—maybe you were just overwhelmed by the situation, the feelings, or the way being with James just felt. Whatever the reason, he seemed to find your nervousness amusing.
He chuckled, dipping his head to press a kiss to the sensitive skin just beneath your ear, right there at the edge of your jaw where you were softest. “I’m kidding,” he murmured. “I’m nearsighted. And you’re definitely close enough for me to see,”
He pulled back just enough for the smirk to return, the tips of his fingers grazing over the strip of exposed skin between the hem of your shirt and the waist of your jeans and sending a shiver down your spine. His mouth was still curved in that maddeningly smug smile, but his voice was so low when he continued to talk. “I’m gonna take your shirt off now, okay?”
The question comes out quiet and gentle, but there’s a heat to it too. Asking what you want, asking what you’ll let him have.
You manage a breathless, “okay,” and his gaze is still fixed on you when he lets his hands slide up under your shirt, calloused fingers dancing over the bare skin of your waist.
Every point of contact seemed to sizzle, nerve endings you didn’t even know you had sparking alive beneath his touch. You felt like you were trembling, like every breath hit was a jolt of pure, liquid feeling.
His eyes were still trained on your face as he drew your shirt over your head, gaze drifting across your exposed chest with an unabashed—and kind of feral—kind of reverence. “God, you’re perfect—”
He pressed a kiss to the spot just below your collarbone, and you could feel the rasp of a day’s worth of stubble against your skin, burning down to your very bones. Both his hands splayed across your ribcage, like he was trying to memorise the shape of your body by touch.
You can hear the sharp intake of breath he takes when his fingers catch the edge of your bra, and he’s already murmuring again, his voice a low, wrecked sound against your bare skin. “Can I take this off too?”
You answer by helping him fumble with the hooks, the heat from his skin and his gaze almost too much to bear. By the time it hits the floor somewhere behind you, his mouth has found the delicate, thrumming hollow of your neck, and his hands are wandering lower. Across your stomach, tracing over your curves to slide across your hipbone and dip under the waist of your jeans.
Any coherent thoughts you’d been clinging on to up until this point were gone, lost in a haze of heat and want. Every touch was electric, his mouth searing a path down your neck, across your shoulder, across the bare skin of your collarbone, until he’d left a trail of warm, open-mouthed kisses along the apex of your breasts.
“You sound so good,” he whispered, the words catching against your skin. “Taste so good.”
He was everywhere, surrounding you, all his attention on the body under his touch. His nose grazed the sensitive skin just above your nipple, just a gentle brush at first, and then he flicked the tip of his tongue across the peak of your breast and every nerve in your body went white hot.
“God—” the single syllable comes out as a broken gasp. A plea, maybe, a wordless begging for more.
He chuckled softly, a dangerous, wicked sound, and then he closed his mouth over your nipple and sucked. It felt like he’d lit a fire in the pit of your stomach, like it was all you could do to breathe, and he wasn’t even finished. One of his hands was still holding your hip—steadying you as he switched his attention to the other, teeth scraping just enough to make the heat in your belly flare brighter, deeper, all of your muscles tensing at once.
Every part of you felt like it was on fire, and you were so empty. The ache between your thighs was insistent, demanding attention you couldn’t give it. You let out a breathless whine, shifting to try and get some friction, and when he raised his head to look at you, eyes all half-lidded and mouth still slightly slick, you thought you might actually go insane.
You were so caught up in the moment that it took a second longer than it should’ve to notice the cocky smile plastered across his face. He was watching you writhe under his touch like it was the best show he’d ever seen.
“You good up there?” he said teasingly. “Look like you’re about to combust.”
“Bastard,” you managed, and it sounded as breathless as you felt. You reached up to bury a hand in his hair, tugging on handfuls of messy waves and relishing in the way he cursed softly under his breath. “You’re a goddamn tease.”
He gave the underside of your breast one last wet kiss, then started pressing a line of kisses up your body towards your mouth. “A tease, am I?” He said between kisses, his voice still low and rough. “I don’t know, sounds more like I’m trying my best to be a gentleman instead of rushing into the action,”
“Some gentleman,” you laughed, and that time it came out more of a gasp than anything else. He’d drawn himself up to full height, looking down at you with a smirk that was half amused and half smug, and god, he was handsome. “You’ve got me half naked on your desk, I’m pretty sure that’s the opposite of gentlemanly,”
“That’s not my fault,” he said, mock-offended, and you let out a bark of laughter. “You’re the one who started it. With the shirt, and the kissing. All my good intentions went right out the window,”
You were still giggling—his hand was now tracing idle circles on your hip, gentle and tender—but his touch was driving you insane. He was everywhere, burning through your skin, and all it did was make the heat beneath your ribs worse. You took a deep, shaking breath, trying to slow down your heart.
Your voice came out much more timid than you expected. “You’d probably better finish what you started, then.”
His eyes caught yours, and the smile that spread across his face sent a shiver straight down your spine. “Are you asking me to take your pants off, sweetheart?”
You rolled your eyes at the endearment, but it was impossible to stay irritated with the way your heart was jumping into your throat. “I’m asking you to take your pants off, actually,”
He raised an eyebrow, expression still cocky but edged with a touch of surprise. He looked so good like that—glasses missing, mouth pink and kiss-swollen, eyes fixed on your every move. “Consider it done,”
He took your chin in one hand, his touch almost teasing, tilting your head back to give himself full access to the line of your neck. His other hand drifted to rest on your side, pulling you away from the desk to push you over to his four-poster instead.
It was a bit undignified, stumbling backwards while he was still glued to your neck, but somehow you both managed to land in a heap on the mattress, with him on top. The sheets rustled in protest, and god, you could just feel his weight on top of you, pinning you to the mattress and setting fire to every point of contact.
You barely even noticed him pulling off his own shirt and pants, your mind too clouded with desire to pay attention. You just watched, taking in the sight of his bare chest and the sharp planes of his muscles, his lean and strong and all you could do was reach up to run your hands down across his shoulders—over the freckles and moles and scars that covered his skin.
He let out a strangled sound when your hands slid over the waistband of his boxers, his eyes fixed on your face, his whole body rigid under your touch as the fabric drags down his thighs. He was breathless, his breathing coming fast and shallow, but he still managed to speak.
“You seem to be missing a few things, if you haven’t noticed.” His voice was still that same, annoyingly smooth, but there was a rasp to it too. Like talking was suddenly more difficult than it should have been.
And yeah, okay, he had a point. You hadn’t even realised you were still wearing jeans until now, but it was quickly becoming an issue. He was still pinning you to the mattress, but you managed to lift your hips up under him enough to reach the zipper on your pants.
He sat back on his heels, watching you struggle out of your jeans—he reached down to help when your legs got tangled, and you swore the smirk on his face when he got the second leg off was almost wolfish. “Careful, there, you almost kneed me in the bollocks.”
“Too bad, I was aiming for them.”
He laughed, running a hand up your bare thigh, fingers tracing across the edge of your underwear and making your whole body burn. “Nice knickers.”
“Shut up,” you said, but your voice was already hoarse, half from the effort of talking and half from the way every little touch seemed to send lightning straight to the pit of your stomach. “You literally have snitches on your boxers, you’re not allowed to make fun of me,”
“For your information, they’re my lucky boxers,” he said, as if it was the most logical thing in the entire world. “And they seem to be working,”
You were about to comment on the ridiculousness of that statement, but then he let his hand brush over the damp patch in your panties and every thought in your head evaporated in about ten seconds flat. “Oh, fuck—”
His touch was agonising. Just a single, gentle stroke traced across the edge of your underwear, but it felt like being set on fire. “You’re so wet,” he murmured, still watching your face like the world’s most beautiful train wreck, and the way he’s smirking is just a little bit cruel. “Is this all because of me?”
You should’ve found the teasing infuriating—maybe even patronising, but your head was spinning and you were so turned on you couldn’t think straight. “You know it is,” you managed to gasp out, arching your hips up into his touch and desperately trying to find more friction.
His thumb pressed across your clit through your underwear and the gasp that came out of your mouth was practically obscene. “Good,” he said. “I like that.”
He was shifting back on top of you, and his mouth was on your neck, hot and wet and distracting, and you’d almost forgotten about his thumb until it moved again—a slow, torturous circle that had you whining. “God, you sound so good,” he murmured against your skin. “Can I take these off? Please?”
If you’d had even a second of self-control left, you probably would’ve found the way he was almost begging for it adorable, but as it was all you could manage to do was nod.
You felt more than heard him swear, and the next thing you know he’s hooking his fingers around the elastic of your underwear, pulling them down your legs with a speed that says he’s having trouble keeping his own eagerness in check.
He sat back once you were completely naked—just you, sprawled out on his four-poster, bare and trembling and wanting. Every part of you felt like it was on edge, like you’d fall apart as soon as he touched you again.
He was looking at you like he was starving, eyes wandering across every inch of your body. “You’re perfect,” he murmured, “Merlin, look at you,”
You couldn’t help but shiver under his gaze, the feeling of helplessness sending another jolt of heat down your spine. You’d almost gotten used to seeing that cocky smirk of his, but now it was gone—replaced by a look you couldn’t place, like he was in awe of you.
You watched helplessly as he shifted, his body covering yours again, bare skin against bare skin. His cock was already hard against your thigh and you were so empty that you knew nothing except the urge to have him as close to you as possible. “Please,” you managed to say, words a gasp as he traced a finger over your hip.
He groaned softly at the desperation in your voice, and then he was reaching down, his fingers finding your opening and sliding in. All you could do was moan out loud, clenching around him and aching for more. “God—” His voice was ragged, rough, like he was using all his willpower just to keep himself from going too fast. “That’s it. That’s it,” he murmured, his forehead dropping against your shoulder. “You’re so tight.”
“You’re gonna destroy me,” you gasped out, as he slowly started to pump his fingers in and out. “I—” Whatever you’d been about to say dissolved into another moan. “Please, just—”
“I’ve got you,” he said, and another kiss, against your collarbone. “I’ve got you, I’ll take care of you,” And then he added a third finger, and you were certain you wouldn’t even be able to string words together anymore.
“Oh god—oh, god—” Your back arched again, hips lifting off the bed, and he curled his fingers again and the pleasure of it was so sharp it almost hurt.
“Just like that? You like that?” He murmured softly against your skin.
You weren’t even sure how to answer that, your brain so overwhelmed by heat and pleasure that all you could do was let out a helpless whine.
He kept pumping his fingers, working you open, and you were trembling with the effort of trying not to let go just yet. “I’ll take that as a yes,” he said, and you could hear the smile in his voice, and god, he was so cocky like this. “Just be patient—”
You gasped out something between a laugh and a moan. “Patient? You have some nerve—”
“Oh, I’ve got plenty of nerve,” he said, and then he pulled his fingers out with another sound from your throat. You were about to complain, but he kissed you before you could—a brief brush of his mouth on yours that was so distracting you almost didn’t notice him moving until he was between your thighs.
He had one hand on your hip and the other wrapped around himself, and the way he’s looking at you makes your whole body ache.
“You ready?” He asked, and his voice is still rough and a little breathy. You nodded, words failing you, and the sound he made was almost desperate.
“You’re so perfect,” he murmured, and then the tip of his cock was right at your entrance and you were trembling so badly you were almost whimpering.
“I’m gonna make you feel so good,” he promised, and then he started to press in. It was a torturously slow stretch, every inch of him filling you like you were made for him. You’re still too full of him—you clench around him without meaning to, and all of him shudders.
“Oh my god,” he says, and it comes out like a gasp, and when he’s finally in all the way you feel like you might cry, like he’s touching all of those parts of you you’ve been waiting for him to find.
“Oh, god,” you moan, and it’s all you can manage. It’s just too much—the feeling of him, the stretch of your body, the heat in your ribs that you can’t seem to breathe around. It’s like he’s everywhere, and you’re not sure you want it to ever stop.
“I’ve got you,” he says, and he’s starting to move, “that’s it, breathe. Just feel me.” He leans down to kiss you, messy and sloppy, just a brush of open mouths before you’re arching off the bed and his lips are on your neck.
“You look so god damn good like this,” his thrusts are slow, deep, and they’re already driving you mad. “All spread out for me.” You can’t even answer him in words anymore, every sound slipping out of your mouth a high, breathy whine.
He keeps up his torturously slow pace for what feels like a small eternity, and every time he pushes in you can feel him against the inside of you, like your body was made to take him in. “You feel so good,” he’s murmuring, “God, why haven’t we done this before?”
“Maybe if you hadn’t been a coward for the last three years—” Your response is humorous, lighthearted, and falls almost completely flat as it comes out more desperate than goading.
But everything feels so good—he feels so good, the slow drag of his cock filling you over and over, his hands on your thighs holding you open just for him, his teeth and mouth everywhere they can reach.
He laughs, the sound coming out as half-moan, and it’s incredible how he’s somehow still acting cheeky when he’s like this—like the whole world has shrunk down to the two of you and there’s still room for playfulness. “Maybe if you hadn’t been so blind you would’ve noticed me sooner,” he says, and he’s still teasing, like he isn’t literally inside you, and you’d hit him if you had the brainpower. “You could’ve had this the whole time.”
Your face is so flushed it feels like you’re on fire, every muscle in your body tense and trembling. You dig your nails into his shoulders, trying to find some kind of anchor. “You’re still a cocky bastard, you know that?” But it’s hard to keep up the banter, and all it comes out sounding like is a soft whine.
“I know,” he grins, and he’s so smug you’d almost hate him if you weren’t so desperate for him. “God why didn’t I know sex felt this good-?” He leans down again, his mouth hovering over yours, the heat of him so close that you can feel it and it burns.
“Maybe I’m just that good,” you manage to say—and yes, okay, your voice is half a gasp and the words are broken, breathless by the way he’s still moving inside you, but you still manage.
He laughs again, sharp and ragged at the edge, and you feel like you’re being unwound like some old toy, your whole body vibrating like a live wire. The stretch of him is almost too much to bear.
He’s still smirking when he says, “And you call me cocky,”
He’s picking up the pace, but only just enough to make you whine again, his head dipped to mouth at your throat again.
You’re so tight around him it’s like he’s trying to make you come apart one piece at a time, his breath warm against your skin as he keeps whispering. “But you’re right, you feel so damn good—”
He’s losing control, losing his smugness, because despite what he said about patience he looks like he’s ready to go over the edge already. But he’s still got that smirk on his face, like even now, when he’s all ragged breaths and desperate thrusts, he’s still teasing. “I should’ve done this sooner. Should’ve taken you back here back in fourth year. Should’ve had you like this when I first started thinking about you,”
His hands are on your hips, his thumbs digging into your hipbones like he’s trying to hold himself back from just snapping and going wild on you.
“Should’ve had every day in fifth year," he’s panting now, and he’s still going just as slow, making it feel like you’re being taken apart, piece by piece. “Would’ve been better than those stupid pranks.”
You can’t even laugh—you just can’t, every nerve in your body is set off like a firework. You manage, “You’re- you’re terrible,” but then you’re arching your hips up into him, your body taking over despite yourself.
“I’m terrible,” he agrees, but he’s grinning, he’s breathless and there’s a sweat on his forehead and he still looks infuriatingly gorgeous. “Doesn’t change the fact that I want you so bad I can’t think straight. Couldn’t, back then. Just followed you around like an idiot.”
“You were an idiot,” you manage, and he’s moving faster now, his arms shaking on either side of you. “You-ah—” You’re falling apart—you can feel it happening—“you were an arrogant bastard—”
He’s kissing your neck and it just makes you louder, your words coming out in ragged gasps. “I know,” he says, like he’s laughing, and you would want to smack him if he didn’t feel so good. “I was an arrogant bastard who was in love with you,”
The words hit you like a bolt of lightning. You open your mouth to respond, but right at that moment he thrusts in a way that hits that spot inside you that makes your vision go white, and the sound that comes out of you is so indecent.
“You—oh, god—” You’re trembling, you’re coming undone underneath him, and he’s doing his best to keep up the pace but you can tell there’s something desperate taking over. “I’m- god, I can’t, I’m so-“
He’s losing more and more control, his breathing ragged and his own body shaking as like he’s just barely holding himself together.
“Please,” it comes out like a gasp, “just come for me, please, come on-” And he’s begging, now, like he couldn’t stand it another minute more, “I just want you to come, please, you’re so perfect—”
He’s pressing right against that spot, over and over, and you’re so on edge you think you might be dreaming. “I’m gonna— oh, god-”
His hand has snuck down between you, fingers moving in tight, fast circles on you clit, and everything is so close and so hot you could die— “God, you look perfect, come on, that’s it, you’re so good—“
The tension in you is snapping, and you’re on the edge, you’re so close you can’t see straight. “Please, I— I-“ you’re there, you’re there, you’re going to fall but he’s falling too.
“Come on, you’re so close, just come-“ He’s begging again, and you’re shaking so hard you feel like you might fall apart—and then you do, and the pleasure hits like a lightning bolt, and you’re crying out loud, the sound breaking like a whimper, and you feel like you’re going to fall apart.
“Oh, god-” His body’s shaking, the breath leaving his chest in ragged gasps, and you’re just clinging to him, riding out the aftershocks of your orgasm and shaking so hard you think you might go insane. “Oh, god, oh, god-”
It didn’t really help that James was still going.
“God you’re so beautiful,” he’s saying, “God, you’re so beautiful, you’re so good, you’re so-“
Another wave comes over you like a shockwave, and it’s almost too much, you’re so sensitive and over-whelmed you feel like it’ll break you, but he’s still going, still moving inside you, still driving you straight through the edge of pleasure and over it into something bright-hot and almost frantic. “God, I’m gonna come, I’m gonna come—“ He’s falling apart, and he’s never looked better. “I’ll pull out I promise—”
You can’t find the words to answer him, but you manage a nod, your whole body trembling as you cling to him.
He swore, and he’d almost be swearing with that same cocky smirk if it weren’t for the fact that he’s falling apart completely, gasping out “You’re gonna kill me, you’re gonna-”
His whole body trembles, and then he’s pulling out, just in time, his body going rigid, his mouth finding yours in a messy, desperate sort of kiss. And he’s still shaking, still panting against your skin, his forehead pressed against yours like he’s never going to let go, watery ropes of his come left decorating your pussy and your torso.
“Fuck,” he’s panting, and he’s still shaking but there’s a smile on his face, like he’s drunk and blissed out and just happy. “Just- give me a minute, just a minute-”
You just lie there, feeling like you’ve just been set on fire and left to burn, and he’s pressing kisses wherever he can reach, on your neck, your temple, the corner of your mouth, until both of you are finally still, just lying wrapped up in each other.
He’s wrapped himself around you like he’ll never move again, his face buried in your neck, and your whole body feels like it’s come unglued.
After a few minutes, he lifts his head to look at you, and that smirk is back, the bastard. “So,” he says, and there’s a sly look in his eyes. “Did I live up to the hype?”
“There was no hype, James, you were a virgin,” You laugh shortly with a roll of your eyes, shifting your legs a little wider open to accommodate for the stickiness between them.
“Ouch.” He winces dramatically. “You’re gonna ruin my ego.”
He’s looking at you with so much heat you’re half-convinced he’s about to go for round two, but then he shifts, pulling away to lie down next to you, your legs tangled together. He’s still grinning, a smug sort of half-smile on his face.
“Don’t look so damn pleased with yourself,” you grumble, but you’re still so buzzed up and he’s looking at you like you’re the best thing he’s ever seen.
He’s looking at you with a kind of reverence you’ve never seen before, but he covers it up with the same stupid smirk he always wears. “So,” he says, like he’s casually mentioning the weather. “You, uh… had fun?”
You laugh—that’s a severe understatement of the year—and you can’t help but smile at the boyish enthusiasm in his expression. “Yeah,” you say, a little softer. “I did.”
He grins at that, and then he’s rolling on top of you again, covering you with his body like a blanket. “I’m assuming that means we can do this again sometime.”
The words come out as the same obnoxious cockiness, still cocky and self-assured, but there’s something almost… nervous underneath it, like he’s not really being blasé at all. You hum, tilting your chin back enough that he can bury his face in your neck. “Yeah,” you say, and you wrap your arms around his back, tracing the knobs of his spine with your fingers. “Yeah, we can probably do this again. But maybe take me on a date first next time,” You laugh.
He grins against your neck, his mouth still leaving lazy kisses on every part of your skin it can reach. “That’s fair,” he murmurs, and his breath on your neck sends a shiver through you. “I have to romance you first. I can do that.” His teeth nip at your earlobe, and you can feel the sharp edge of of a grin. “I could even be a gentleman about it, if you wanted.”
“You? Be a gentleman?” You fake gasp, like it’s the most ridiculous suggestion you’ve ever heard. “Absolutely unheard of.”
He snorts, and you can feel the smile on his mouth, hot and wet against your skin. “You’re laughing, but I could be incredibly charming if I wanted to,” He’s still just mouthing at you, running his teeth over the soft underside of your jaw. “You read my letters,”
“Yeah,” you admit, almost against your will. “I did.”
He pulls back to look at you with a lazy, smug half-smile. “And they were charming?”
You roll your eyes at him, but you’re still smiling. “They were… acceptable.”
“Acceptable,” he sighs sadly, mock-disappointed. “I don’t know how I feel about being reduced to ‘acceptable’. I put a lot of work into those letters, you know.”
But he’s grinning, his chin propped up on your chest with his chin, like he’s waiting to get a response. “Come on. I’m at least worth ‘good,’ right?”
“Yeah, alright,” you give in, even though ‘good’ isn’t nearly enough to describe his letters. “They were good. They were… nice.”
He pouts, like a kid who did a drawing and didn’t get a gold star. “Nice? Jesus, you do not understand the concept of positive reinforcement.”
“Sorry,” you say, with your best attempt at earnestness, “how about this? They were fantastic. World class even. You should be writing love letters professionally.”
It takes him a moment of studying you to realise you’re joking, but then he sighs in mock-agony, burying his face in your neck. “I can’t believe I’ve fallen for a girl who’s mean to me,”
“Yeah,” you say, and you’re laughing, now, your whole body shaking with gales of laughter. “You’re really just… the world’s biggest loser.”
He huffs good-naturedly, his face still hidden in your neck. “Says the girl whose been attracted to me for years,”
“Says the boy who wrote me sappy-ass love letters like a Victorian maiden,” you retort.
He laughs at that, but it’s not mean or mocking. “It’s a wonder you didn’t catch on, honestly,” he mutters jokingly, “I laid it on so thick I thought even you would see me pining tragically through all the ink I used to write about how obsessed with you I was.”
You bite back a smile at that, rolling your eyes at his mock-exasperation. “God, you’re dramatic.”
His mouth presses a soft, wet kiss under your jaw, and he murmurs against your skin—“You like it, though.”
It’s a statement, not a question.
And he’s right, because you do—you do like him, when he’s all bluster and bravado and bullshit, and you like him like this too, when he’s gentle and reverent and a tad bit vulnerable. “Yeah,” you say, and it’s soft. “I do.”
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mnnuni · 2 months ago
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all the reasons we're not in love
James potter x fem!reader ✩ 4.6k words
summary: You and James are best fucking friends—nothing more, nothing less. So why does everyone act like you're secretly in love, like it's some kind of undeniable fact?
cw: fluff, a pinch of angst, steamy makeout but no smut, best friends to lovers, idiots in love.
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James gets up from the booth and leans down to ruffle your hair just because he knows it’ll annoy you. All sat around a too small booth in the back of the pub with a few chairs pulled up to accommodate the large group. It’s James' turn to buy a round, and you make a show of swatting his hand away as he goes, tracking his movements all the way to the bar. 
You have a second to take in the dingy lights and the rowdy regulars in the local before Lily scares you half to death, leaning into your field of view. Eyes alight with mischief and an impish smile on her lip.
“So…” she says, dragging out the vowel, “what's going on?”
“What's going on with what?” you laugh, confused but delighted by Lily after a few drinks. 
“You and James!” she practically squeals, shaking your arm with gleeful energy. “You’ve been giggling like schoolkids all night. He had his arm around you! Just admit it already—you like each other.”
You groan. “Lils, we always do that.”
She rolls her eyes dramatically, clearly fed up with your refusal to see what she sees. And you? You’re fed up with everyone constantly implying that you and James must fancy each other. As if friendship isn’t enough.
“James and I are friends. That’s—”
“Best fucking friends,” James announces cheerfully, appearing out of nowhere and sliding your drink in front of you before placing the rest in the middle of the table.
“Exactly! Thank you,” you say, gesturing to him like he’s just proved your point.
Lily exhales sharply, throwing you a meaningful look before turning back to the group.
James sinks back into the booth beside you, draping an arm casually along the backrest behind your shoulders
“Try this,” he says, nudging his glass toward you. He’s been working his way through the list of ridiculous specialty mocktails on the menu and insists you sample every one. “It’s strawberry… something. You’ll like it.”
You take a sip. He’s right, obviously—it’s sweet and bright and tastes like summer. You smile up at him, pleased. “That’s really good. I’m getting one next round.”
He grins, radiant. “You can have that one, angel.”
You try to push the glass back, but he doesn’t let you. He’s about to insist again—mouth open, eyes soft—when a familiar voice cuts in.
“Why don’t you share your drinks like that with me, Moony?” Sirius whines from across the table, looking genuinely offended.
Remus sighs—meaning to sound exasperated, probably—but the fond look he gives his boyfriend tells a different story.
“We’ve been drinking the same thing all night, that’s why,” he replies, a smile starting to bloom on his lips. “And…” He glances your way with a teasing glint in his eye. “We’re not an old married couple like them.”
“Yeah,” Sirius mutters, barely above a breath, like it's a tragedy, “good thing they’re both fit.”
You let out a loud laugh. “We’re friends—”
“Best fucking friends.”
“—Not an old married couple. And honestly, you can’t say anything, Remus ‘Knitwear’ Lupin.”
“She’s not wrong,” James says with a quiet chuckle, sliding his hand to your back, fingers moving in lazy, absent-minded circles.
Remus only laughs, shaking his head, while Sirius looks scandalized—utterly betrayed on his boyfriend’s behalf.
“I like Rem’s knitwear, Trouble,” Sirius says, fixing you with a glare that would be more effective if his cheeks weren’t flushed from the drinks. “And I’d be very careful, or I’ll convince him to stop knitting your presents. Then all you’ll get are boring gift cards.” He nods solemnly, clearly impressed with his own threat.
You gasp dramatically, hand to your chest like he’s wounded you. “You wouldn’t.”
Sirius just giggles in response—giggles, which is never a good sign—so you turn to Remus, eyes wide, appealing.
“You wouldn’t let him, would you? You’ll still knit me things, Rem?”
Remus chuckles, shaking his head with a smile that promises yes, always.
That’s when you notice James—usually the loudest one at the table—has gone quiet. You turn toward him, curious, and catch the way he’s watching you. Soft eyes. That funny little smile he only wears when he thinks no one’s looking.
“You okay?” you ask, voice gentling with concern.
The question seems to pull him out of whatever haze he was in. His grin returns, bright and easy, like it never left.
“I’m great, angel.” He leans in, dropping his voice so only you can hear. “If Moony stopped knitting for you... I’d learn how to.”
You blink at him. “You? Knitting?”
He nods solemnly, one hand still warm against your back, and raises the other as if swearing an oath. “I’d do it for you. Even if it meant stabbing myself with the needles every five minutes. That’s how committed I am.”
You laugh, unable to help yourself. “You’re so dramatic.”
You’re laughing, and your cheeks are warm, and James is still looking at you like you’ve hung the stars—but you brush it off like you always do.
Because this is what you and James do. Banter, teasing, little smiles no one else gets—your own language that you’ve been speaking fluently for years. It’s not new. It doesn’t mean anything.
He nudges your knee with his own, still grinning like he’s won something. Like your laugh is enough.
And maybe it is. Maybe it always has been.
But then Lily shoots you another look across the table, all smug eyebrows and that annoying “I told you so” glint in her eye, and it hits you again like it always does—this sudden awareness of how everyone else sees you. You and James. As if it’s already written somewhere, carved into the stars or tucked between the pages of your shared history.
You take a sip of the strawberry-whatever to stall, trying not to frown. Because the truth is, you know how this looks from the outside. All the little things he does, the way you lean into him without thinking, the endless inside jokes—it paints a picture. A certain type of story.
Because he’s James. And you’re... you.
And no matter how many times Sirius winks or Mary raises a knowing brow or Lily insists you're in love, you don’t think there’s a universe where you and James actually get together. Not really.
You’re best friends. That’s it.
And maybe there’s something sacred in that. Something worth protecting.
Besides—he doesn’t fancy you. Not like that. And you certainly don’t fancy him. No matter how charming he is. Or how warm his laugh makes you feel. Or how he always saves you the last piece of your favourite treats even when he pretends he won’t. Or how he’s looking at you now like he’d burn down the world just to keep you smiling.
No. You don’t fancy each other. That would be... messy. Complicated. The end of everything easy and good between you.
And James Potter may be a lot of things, but he’s not your ending.
He’s your always.
So you take another sip of the mocktail he gave you and bump his shoulder with your own, like nothing ever passed through your mind. He bumps you back, that lazy smirk still on his lips.
-
The pub starts to empty in waves, voices thinning out as people stumble toward coat racks and lingering goodbyes. You're nestled deeper into the booth than you realized, lulled by warmth and easy laughter and the comfort of being surrounded by your people.
Eventually, someone suggests calling it. Mary’s already halfway into her coat, Sirius is trying to coax Remus into stealing pint glasses for their flat –something about the collection– and Lily kisses you on the cheek with a meaningful look before grabbing Marlene’s arm and disappearing toward the door in a burst of cold air and laughter.
And James?
James is exactly where he’s been all night—at your side, elbow brushing yours every time he moves. When you pull your coat on, he reaches over without thinking and helps tug the hood into place for you.
“You ready?” he asks, and it’s easy, familiar.
“Yeah. Thanks for driving.” You smile, a little sleepy now that the buzz is fading.
He shrugs like it’s nothing. “Wouldn’t trust anyone else to make sure you get home.”
-
The drive is quiet, but it’s not uncomfortable. Music hums low through the speakers—something you’ve heard a million times over, something James mumbles along to under his breath when he thinks you’re not listening. He’s one of those annoyingly good drivers too. One hand on the wheel, the other resting loosely between the seats, fingers drumming to the beat.
You glance over once and catch him mid-yawn, eyes crinkling at the corners as he grins at the road.
“Wanna come in?” you hear yourself ask when he pulls up in front of your place, your voice softer than you expect. “Just for a bit? I might put on a film.”
James looks at you, searching your face for something. Whatever he finds, it makes him smile—gentler than before. “Yeah,” he says. “I’d like that.”
You flick on the lights when you step inside, and it’s like muscle memory from there: shoes off, jacket thrown over the arm of the sofa, kettle filled. James leans against your kitchen counter like he belongs there. And he kind of does. There’s a mug he always uses in your cupboard. A hoodie of his in your laundry pile.
“What are we watching?” he asks, already padding into your living room, socked feet silent on the floorboards.
“Something easy,” you say. “Something we’ve seen before so I don’t actually have to pay attention.”
James shoots you a grin over his shoulder. “That for me or for you?”
You ignore the question, toss him the remote. “Dealer’s choice.”
You end up on opposite ends of the couch, legs tangled somewhere in the middle because it’s late and it’s cold and this is what you do. It’s not new.
The movie starts playing, dim blue light casting soft shadows across his face. You watch it for a while—or try to—but your thoughts start running at a mile a minute instead.
You try to focus on the movie. Really, you do. But all you can hear is Lily’s voice echoing in your head: “Just admit it already—you like each other.”
It’s not just her. It’s everyone.
Sirius, with his loud, theatrical gasps every time James passes you a drink. Marlene muttering “just kiss already” under her breath like it’s an inside joke. Even Remus, who’s supposed to be the voice of reason, always quirking a brow when James tosses an arm around your shoulder like it’s the most natural thing in the world. Which it is. It’s normal. It doesn’t mean anything.
But now? Now it’s stuck in your head. Every glance, every smile, every stupid joke he laughs too hard at—it’s all tinged with the weight of everyone else's expectations.
You lean your head back on the cushion and sigh.
“What’s going on in that head of yours?” James asks, voice soft and scratchy with tiredness.
You glance at him. His eyes are still on the TV, but the corners of his mouth twitch like he already knows you’re spiraling.
You hesitate, then sit up a little. “Can I ask you something?”
His gaze flicks to you instantly. “Course.”
“Do you ever get… tired of everyone thinking we’re in love?”
James lets out a short breath, somewhere between a laugh and a groan. “All the fucking time.”
You nod, almost relieved. “Right? It’s like—just because we’re close doesn’t mean we’re secretly pining.”
“Exactly!” James says, animated now, like he’s been waiting for someone to validate this. “Like, we literally watched Sirius throw himself at Rem for years and no one said shit, but I pass you a drink and suddenly it’s like—‘When’s the wedding, James?’”
You snort, finally smiling. “It’s exhausting.”
“Truly.”
Silence falls again, but it’s different now. 
“I just…” you start, voice quieter. “I wish there was a way to prove it, you know? That we don’t fancy each other. That this—” you gesture vaguely between the two of you “—this is just friendship.”
James raises a brow, half-amused. “You want, like… a presentation?”
You giggle. “Maybe.”
“Bullet points and everything?”
“‘All the reasons James Potter is categorically not in love with me.’”
“‘Exhibit A: the time I ate her last slice of pizza.’”
“‘Exhibit B: he never laughs at my best jokes.’”
“That’s a lie and you know it.”
Another beat passes. You look at each other.
There’s a flicker in James’ eyes—just a spark of something you can’t name—and it hits you, sudden and sharp, how close you are. His knee is still pressed against yours. His fingers are brushing your ankle like it’s nothing. Like it always has been.
You lick your lips. Heart hammering. And then—
“…We should kiss.”
James blinks. “What?”
You’re not even sure where the words came from. They just—slipped out. But now that they’re here, they feel oddly right. Inevitable.
You swallow. “We should kiss. Just once. To prove there’s nothing there.”
He stares at you, stunned into silence.
You rush to explain. “I mean—everyone keeps saying there is. And maybe if we just… did it, and it was awkward or bad or whatever, we could tell them and they’d drop it. They’d finally stop acting like we’re in some secret relationship.”
James is still staring, mouth slightly open.
You flush, heat creeping up your neck. “It’s stupid, forget it—”
“I’ll do it,” he says suddenly.
Your breath catches. “You will?”
He nods, slowly, like he’s still catching up with himself. “Yeah. If it’ll prove a point.”
You try to ignore the way your pulse spikes. “Right. Okay.”
With the room still mostly shrouded in darkness, it's difficult to make out the features of his face clearly. He shifts closer to you whilst manoeuvring your legs to settle beside you properly. There's little time to recognise the shift in his gaze as it pins to your lips before he's grinning and speaking again.
“What happens when you fall in love with me because of this?”
You snort, rolling your eyes, “Your ego’s fucking massive Potter, I’ll be fine.” you say, gently slapping his arm. “Not sure about you though.” he rolls his eyes and shakes his head at you, acting like you're the biggest nuisance in the world.
“Come on then.” you say, impatiently. James sighs, then nods, before he's raising a hand to cup your jaw. His touch is gentle, like he's holding something fragile, priceless. And then he's leaning in so slowly, allowing you the time to pull away in case you’d been joking.
You let your eyes fall shut, expecting his kiss as your hand drifts to rest on his knee. You don’t notice the faint hitch in his breath at your touch—it’s so subtle, it nearly slips past you. The kiss comes and goes in a heartbeat, a fleeting, chaste peck that barely brushes your lips. When his hand pulls away and he clears his throat, your eyes open. He doesn’t say a word.
Despite the fact you should feel happy that you felt nothing, there's a strange twisting feeling in your stomach. Like when you startle awake after dreaming that you're falling. Then it comes to you, that kiss wasn’t a real one it can’t prove anything. 
“That wasn’t a proper kiss, James.” you say while looking down at your hands, not wanting to face him.
“You’re right.” you look up to see his bottom lip trapped between his teeth and you're startled by the sudden fascination with his mouth. 
“You have to kiss me like you’d kiss someone you're in love with.”
James’ gaze drops to your lips and stays pinned there as he’s silent, thinking. 
“I can do that… I think.” 
“Come on then.” you joke as you take a deeper breath in.
James exhales, slow and steady, but you can see it—the way his fingers twitch slightly, like he’s restraining something. Like there’s a weight behind your words neither of you wants to name just yet.
“You’re sure?” he asks, voice quieter now, with none of that usual cocky lilt. It’s careful. Measured. He’s giving you one last out.
You nod. “It’s just a kiss.”
But it’s not. You both know that. It hasn’t been just a kiss since the moment you suggested it.
Still, you say it anyway, because it’s easier to pretend it’s simple.
James shifts closer, knees brushing yours again, the space between you shrinking by the second. His hand finds your jaw again—just like before—but this time his thumb lingers at your cheekbone, the pad of it brushing soft circles that make your heart lurch. There’s something almost reverent in his touch now, like he’s memorising every inch of you.
When he leans in this time, it’s slower. Like he’s moving through water. Like the world around you doesn’t matter anymore.
And when he finally kisses you, it’s nothing like the first time.
It’s not hesitant or performative or brief. It’s warm and aching and real.
James kisses you like he’s been waiting his whole life to do it. Like this isn’t about proving anything or making a point—it’s about you. About this.
His lips are soft and sure against yours, and when your hand slips up to grip the front of his jumper, he deepens the kiss with a low hum in the back of his throat, like he’s been holding that sound in for too long.
One of his hands slips down to your hip, shifting you closer, settling you on his lap. You go willingly, knees digging into the sofa at either side of his thighs as he tilts his head back to reach you better. Completely lost in each other, forgetting, you’re sure your lips will soon turn numb.
Your hands drift upward to settle around his neck and lightly tug the hair at the nape of his neck. James pulls you closer by the waist, chests flush and his mouth remains probing and searching on your own.
There’s the feeling of a smile in the kiss but you can’t tell who’s it is. You’ve fallen into a steady rhythm, easy and sweet, but when a noise is pulled from his throat you freeze, pulling away. 
Looking down at him your face sits somewhere between concern and confusion. James stares right back at you panting, but otherwise seemingly unaffected.
“Forgive a man for getting distracted, angel.” he defends, like it's all your fault. 
You know you should move away from him now. Really, you know. But there's a strange standoff happening where neither of you look away and neither of you move. Until you do. 
It's hard to tell who moves in first, but the other reciprocates and you’re kissing again. James kisses you like a man starved. It's feverish and intense. It's everything. 
You can’t help but grab hold of his hair, curls silky and soft through your fingers, giving them the slightest tug experimentally. It makes James shamelessly grind up against you. Nails digging lightly into the back of his neck, you gasp when his mouth leaves yours properly and latches onto your neck, lost in the bliss of it all, you grind down against him.
“Fuck, don’t do that,” His breath sounds strained. “can’t take it—“ His murmur is a rumble against your skin. You flush at the idea that he can’t contain himself because of this. Because of you. 
When he pulls away, finished ravishing your neck, you come back down to earth, scrambling to remove yourself from his lap. His hair is messy, messier than usual, from your touch and his lips are red and kiss bitten. 
You look to the far corner before you speak, unable to look at him now. 
“... I guess we’ve proved we don’t fancy each other, then.” 
You’re a liar and you know you are.
-
It’s been two days since the kiss. Two long, excruciating days where you haven’t spoken to James once. Not a text. Not a call.
You’ve replayed that night over and over in your head, hoping it would start to blur around the edges, lose its sharpness. But it hasn’t. If anything, it’s crystal clear—every touch, every sound, every look he gave you. And worst of all? You don’t even regret it.
You’re halfway through nursing a lukewarm coffee at the back corner of a café when Sirius slides into the seat across from you like he owns the place, all leather jacket and smug grin.
“Oi,” he says, tugging your cup toward himself and taking a sip without asking. “You’ve been avoiding us.”
You blink, startled. “Us?
As if summoned, Remus appears beside him, calm and neat in that way that makes you feel even more frazzled by comparison. “She’s definitely been avoiding James,” he says, not unkindly, as he slides into the seat beside Sirius.
Sirius throws an arm around Remus’ shoulders with dramatic flair. “And thus—by extension—the rest of us, tragically caught in the crossfire of whatever the hell is going on.”
You frown. “Nothing is going on.”
Sirius lets out a loud, derisive snort. “Right. Tell that to James, who has been moping around the flat like a Victorian widow.”
“I’m serious,” you say quickly.
Remus raises an eyebrow. “So are we.”
You roll your eyes. “Come on. He’s not moping.”
Sirius levels you with a look, all theatrics dropped. “He didn’t even yell at me for eating his last bag of crisps yesterday. He just sighed. Like—actual sadness sighing. Who even does that?”
Your heart sinks, but you try not to let it show. “He’s probably just… tired. He drove me home from the pub that night, maybe he’s still catching up on sleep.”
Sirius and Remus share a look.
Remus tilts his head. “That’s the night it started, you know.”
“I told you,” Sirius says, grinning now like he’s cracked a case. “Something happened in that car. Or after. Did you two fight?”
“No,” you say quickly. Too quickly. “Nothing happened.”
Sirius narrows his eyes at you. “You’re a terrible liar, you know.”
“I’m not lying,” you lie.
Remus leans in, voice quieter now, more careful. “We’re not trying to corner you. Just… we’re worried. About both of you.”
You take a long sip of your coffee, trying to buy time, but it’s cold and bitter and doesn’t help at all. You stare into the cup like it holds the answers. It doesn’t.
Sirius softens, which is somehow worse. “Look, we’re not asking for details. Just—maybe talk to him?”
You sigh. “I don’t know what I’d even say.”
“Try the truth,” Remus offers gently.
The truth is a mess, though. The truth is a blur of lips and hands and breathless gasps. It’s James’ eyes on yours in the dark, his fingers brushing your cheek like he was afraid you’d vanish. It’s the way you didn’t sleep that night, couldn’t sleep, because your skin still remembered the shape of his touch.
And the worst part? The worst part is you know what you felt wasn’t one-sided.
Sirius glances at his watch. “If you don’t call him, I’m sending him to your flat.” He threatens, leaving no room for argument.
-
You don’t call him.
You want to—God, you want to. You’ve picked up your phone half a dozen times just to stare at his name, thumb hovering over the call button like it’s going to electrocute you. But every time, something stops you. Some awful cocktail of fear and guilt and what-if. What if it was a mistake? What if he regrets it? What if he doesn’t, and you’re the one who ruins everything?
So you don’t call. You sit with the silence and let it suffocate you.
It's nearly midnight when there's a knock at your door.
Your heart jumps into your throat. For a second, you think about ignoring it, pretending you’re asleep, but you already know who it is.
You open the door anyway.
James is standing there, hoodie thrown on as if he’d left in a rush, curls messy and damp like he’d just run his hands through them a thousand times on the way over. His eyes flick across your face like he’s checking to make sure you’re real. Like he didn’t quite believe you’d actually answer.
He looks tired.
You swallow. “Hi.”
“Hi,” he echoes, voice low.
There's a silence. Tense. Tight. It stretches between you like a rubber band pulled too far.
“I wasn’t gonna come,” he says eventually, shifting on his feet. “Told myself you’d call. That I’d give you space.” He pauses. “But I waited. And waited. And you didn’t.”
Your chest aches.
“I know,” you say, barely above a whisper. “I just… I couldn’t.”
James steps past you without asking. You don’t stop him.
He makes his way into your flat like he always has- it’s muscle memory. Like he belongs here. And God, maybe he does.
“I’ve been losing my mind,” he says suddenly, turning to face you. “I thought we were okay and then it’s like you disappeared. No texts. No calls. Like it didn’t mean anything.”
“It wasn't supposed to mean anything, James.” you snap.
He flinches, like you’ve slapped him. You immediately regret it.
“I didn’t mean—” you start, but he cuts you off.
“You didn’t mean for it to mean anything,” he says, voice low. “But it did.”
You exhale shakily, crossing your arms like they can shield you from this. “We said it was just a kiss. To prove a point.”
“Yeah, well, that didn’t work,” he says, stepping closer. “Because I haven’t stopped thinking about you since.”
You glance away, blinking too quickly. “That’s not fair.”
“No, it’s not,” he agrees. “It’s not fair that I kissed you and everything changed and you’re acting like it didn’t.”
You hate this. Hate how right he is. Hate how vulnerable he looks standing in your living room like he’s afraid to breathe too hard and scare you off.
Your voice is quiet. “I didn’t know what to say.”
He’s quiet a beat. Then:
“Say anything.”
You hesitate. Your throat feels too tight. But then you force yourself to look at him, to see him.
“I love you,” you say. “And I don’t care if it’s wrong, I just do.”
James exhales, a slow, shaky breath like he’s been waiting for this—like he wasn’t sure he’d ever get it. “Say it again.”
“I love you,” you repeat, firmer now. “I love you and I’ve been trying not to. Because I thought it would ruin everything.”
He steps forward, hands gentle as they come to rest at your waist. “I’ve always loved you, I think.”
It breaks something open in your chest. This is real. This is terrifying. This is everything.
“But what if we mess it up?” you ask, voice trembling.
James gives you a soft, crooked smile—the one that’s always undone you. “Then we mess it up. Together.”
You laugh, a watery, disbelieving thing, before wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him in.
And when he kisses you this time, it’s not tentative or desperate. It’s steady. Sure. Like he knows you’re his.
Like he always has.
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perfect storm ; jake 'hangman' seresin
fandom: top gun
pairing: jake x reader
summary: you and jake have a messy history and have been comfortably hating each other for the past few years, until all hell breaks loose when you're brought in as the newest member of maverick's special detachment (enemies to lovers)
notes: okay, i'm starting to think that i really should work at work instead of write... like, is it unethical? anyways, idc!!! have some enemies to lovers! i'm not feeling as strong about this, despite the fact that i've chosen writing over sleep and work for the past few days... but i really hope y'all like it and i hope it lives up! please let me know what you think!!!
warnings: swearing, angst, miscommunication, jake is an asshole, allusions to sex (18+ ONLY PLEASE), bad weather / storm descriptions, a written plane crash, and frequent mention of plane crashes! let me know if i’ve missed anything!
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your callsign is angel
“Alright, listen up.” Maverick stands at the front of the room, his trademark leather jacket draped over his shoulders and his hands firmly planted on his hips. “You received your official briefing this morning, but we’re going to go over a few things now.” 
The chatter that had filled the room falls to an abrupt silence as the aviators, now fully attentive, settle into their chairs—every eye on their captain. 
“Let’s start with the basics. Just like the last operation, this mission is classified. You’ve all been reassigned from your standard duties to continue training as part of this special operations detachment. Not all of you will deploy, but everyone will undergo training and remain in reserve if you’re not selected. We’ve got a bit more time to prepare this go-around, but don’t mistake that for leniency. This mission is unlike anything you’ve experienced before, with brand new challenges ahead.” He pauses, his gaze sharpening as he locks eyes with Mickey and then Bob. “Our weapons systems officers will be key to our success.” 
Natasha raises her hand, waiting for Maverick to acknowledge her before speaking. “Will the same pilots from the last mission be prioritised?” 
Maverick shakes his head firmly. “No. There’s no favouritism or preference. Selection will be based on performance during training. We’ll see who excels in the specific skills needed for this mission.” 
Bob leans forward. “Will Omaha and Halo be returning to the detachment?” 
“Unfortunately, no,” Maverick replies. “As you’re all aware, Omaha and Halo were urgently recalled to their original squadrons and will not be returning. But rest assured, arrangements have been made to bring in a top-tier replacement.” 
Jake tilts his head, a frown forming as confusion plays across his face. “Replacement, sir? Singular? If this mission hinges on WSOs, shouldn’t we be getting a pair to replace Omaha and Halo?” 
What Jake is really asking—without being blatantly obvious—is why they’d bring in another pilot to compete with him for mission lead. 
Maverick’s signature smirk, the one that gets him both in and out of trouble, curls at the corners of his lips. “You’re not wrong, Hangman," he says, voice steady. “Which is why I’ve decided that Coyote”—he glances at the man sitting beside Jake—“will no longer be flying solo.” 
Javy’s eyes widen, brows lifting in surprise as a grin tugs at his lips. “I get a WSO?” 
Just outside the training room door, a knot of nerves begins to coil in your stomach, but you don’t let them show. Nerves are nothing new to you—unwanted, but familiar. You’ve learned how to manage them. When your heart starts to race at the thought of something trivial, like walking into a room full of the country’s best naval aviators, you remind yourself what real fear feels like. Like being strapped into the back seat of a fighter jet, spinning out of control, wondering if you’ll ever see your family again. That’s fear. This? This is just another challenge. 
The admiral standing beside you smiles, but it’s an awkward fit for his hard-lined face. “They’re ready for you now.” He gestures toward the door. “If you need anything, don’t hesitate to reach out. Maverick is your captain, but… well, he can be a bit trying. Exceptionally skilled, and somehow always managing to dodge death, but trying.” 
A light laugh escapes your lips before you can stop it. “Duly noted. Thanks, Admiral Simpson.” 
His smile tightens as he gives you a terse nod. “Cyclone,” he corrects, his tone sharp. As he turns to walk away, he glances back over his shoulder. “Good luck, Angel.” 
You take a steadying breath, roll your shoulders back, and step through the door into the training room—where ten sets of eyes, and one captain you’ve already met, turn to face you. 
“This,” Maverick announces with a grin, “is Angel.” 
Jake fucking Seresin—because of course it’s him—shoots up from his chair like he’s been launched, disbelief written all over his face. His scowl is thunderous as he whips toward Maverick. “You’ve got to be fucking kidding me.” 
Maverick’s smile drops instantly, confusion flickering across his face before it hardens into something closer to disappointment. He may not be a by-the-book kind of CO, but he’s not about to tolerate open insubordination first thing on a Monday morning. 
Your heart slams in your chest, each beat pounding hot blood through your veins. Anger simmers under your skin, but unlike Jake, you don’t let it take the wheel. Instead, you plaster on the sweetest, most radiant smile you can summon—one worthy of your callsign. 
From the front row, Natasha snorts. “Oh, man. This is going to be fun.” 
“Lieutenant Seresin,” Maverick snaps, voice sharp. “Sit. Down.” 
“Mav,” Jake says, clearly abandoning any trace of professionalism, “you don’t understand-” 
“I understand perfectly,” Maverick cuts in, his scowl deepening. “Now take your seat. That’s an order.” 
Jake drops into his chair stiffly, posture ramrod straight, jaw clenched so tight you can see it working from across the room. 
“Good.” Maverick’s gaze shifts to you, his tone softening. “Take a seat, Angel. I take it you already know a few of my aviators.” 
You nod and start forward, willing your legs to move. “Yes, sir.” 
You offer quiet hellos to Harvard, Yale, and Fritz as you pass them, and Reuben and Mickey each get a subtle fist bump. Bradley throws you a wink as you slide into the open seat beside him, and Natasha and Bob twist in their chairs to whisper excited greetings your way. Across the aisle, Javy leans forward past Jake’s stone-still form to offer you a smile—though there’s a flicker of nervousness behind his eyes. 
“Alright,” Maverick claps his hands together, “let’s go over the mission parameters.” 
You do your best to focus on what your captain is saying, but it’s difficult with Jake shooting you dirty looks every few minutes. When Maverick announces that you’ll be flying as Javy’s WSO, it clicks—that’s why he looked so nervous before. Still, you’re more relieved than anything. As long as you’re not stuck in a jet with Jake at the controls. 
After nearly an hour of mission briefing and discussing operational challenges, Maverick finally decides that it’s time to fly. 
“Phoenix,” he calls as the group begins to file out. “Hang back a sec.” 
Natasha gives you a curious glance but stops, turning back to the captain. You continue out the door with Bob, only half-listening as he talks about the last special detachment training. Something about SAM evasion drills and low-level ingress routes. 
Once the room clears, Maverick crosses his arms and lets out a heavy sigh. “Can you explain whatever the hell that was?” 
Natasha’s concern fades instantly, replaced by a smirk. “You mean Hangman and Angel?” 
He pinches the bridge of his nose. “Yeah.” 
“Why don’t you ask one of them?” 
He looks up, visibly exasperated. “Did you see the way they were glaring at each other? I’d get two completely different versions of the same disaster.” 
Natasha laughs quietly. “Fair.” 
He waits, arching a brow—inviting her to keep going. 
“To be honest, I don’t know the full story,” she says. “But it goes back to TOPGUN. She was his WSO. They were… kind of legendary. Unbeatable, from what I’ve heard. There were even rumours about the two of them dating.” 
Maverick’s expression shifts—mild curiosity now threading through his frown. 
“Rooster swears she’s the only woman Hangman ever really wanted but couldn’t have,” Natasha continues. “But I think he saw her as a threat and convinced her to fly with him just to keep her close.” 
Maverick’s frown deepens. “So, what happened?” 
“One of their last flights before graduation, Hangman pulled something reckless—overconfident, stupid. The usual. He got them into some serious trouble. They lost control and had to eject, both ending up in the hospital.” 
Maverick doesn’t interrupt, just listens, arms still crossed. 
“They refused to speak to each other after that. It got so bad during the investigation that they almost got court-martialled—they kept arguing during the hearing. I’m pretty sure the crash was ruled pilot error on their records.” 
He lets out a low whistle. “And they still graduated?” 
“With conditions,” she says. “They were given a choice—suspension or assignment to the same fleet squadron.” 
That earns a blink. “Who gave that ultimatum?” 
Natasha grins. “Admiral Kazansky.” 
Maverick actually chuckles at that, despite himself. “Of course he did. So, they chose to patch things up?” 
“Yes… and no. According to Coyote, they’ve coexisted by pretending the other doesn’t exist. That’s why Hangman was so eager to join this detachment—he was planning to request reassignment after it ended, and I’m pretty sure she is the reason why.” 
Maverick’s amusement fades. A pale look crosses his face as the reality sets in. “What have I done?” 
Natasha’s grin widens. “Sir, you’ve just set us up for the most entertaining training cycle in Navy history.” 
The roar of jet engines fills the comms, and the sky outside is a dizzying patchwork of clouds and sunlight as Maverick's jet cut across the HUD like a ghost—fast, erratic, and unpredictable. 
Javy’s a solid pilot, but you can feel the tension in his movements. “He’s all over the place,” he says, “I can’t get a clean shot.” 
“You won’t,” you reply, voice steady. “That’s the point. Don’t chase—bleed his energy.” 
Javy exhales sharply through his mask, trying to keep up. Maverick flips his jet inverted, slicing low over the water. Javy follows, but you're already moving, fingers dancing over the console. The radar pulses with activity, tracking Maverick’s erratic manoeuvres.  
“I’ve got tone in five… hold steady,” you say, fighting a smirk under your mask. “Three… two…” A sharp beep echoes through the headset, and you let that smirk stretch across your lips. “Fox Two. Guns, guns, guns.” 
“Holy shit,” Javy gasps. 
On the HUD, Maverick’s jet flashes red—the simulated kill confirmed. 
“Nice shooting, Angel,” Maverick says over the comms, a hint a laughter in his tone. 
“Anytime, Captain.” 
“Don’t get used to it,” he adds. “I was going easy on you.” 
“Bullshit,” Bradley pipes up from somewhere in the sky. “You were scrambling, Mav.” 
“Yeah, alright,” Maverick says with a chuckle. “Now get your asses on the ground. I want Pheonix, Bob, and Hangman up here.” 
You let out a breath of relief as Javy guides the jet back to base, the landing smooth and controlled. The jet powers down, and you run through a quick check before climbing out. The second your boots hit the tarmac, you yank off your helmet, sweat dripping from your brow, and turn to Javy, who is grinning like an idiot. 
“I can’t believe you just shot Maverick,” he says. “None of us have ever done that.” 
You tilt your head, amused. “Really? Maybe he was going easy then.” 
“Oh, he was,” Jake says, his voice sliding down your spine like ice. “You’re not that good, Angel.” 
You round on him, jaw tight. “I’m better than you, Bagman.” 
He lets out a laugh—sharp and mocking. “Says who?” 
You shrug, masking the anger bubbling beneath your skin with false nonchalance. “I don’t know. Ask your friends—or, sorry—friend. Singular. Because I’m pretty sure Coyote’s the only one who can stand you, and even he’d admit I’ve got you beat.” 
Javy chuckles under his breath but shifts awkwardly. “Hey, leave me out of-” 
Jake cuts in before he can finish, cockiness dripping from every word. “You know, you really shouldn’t obsess over my social life. Maybe try having one of your own. Or better yet, get yourself a date. Maybe if you found some loser to fuck you, you wouldn’t be so tightly wound all the damn time.” 
His words stick in your skin like pins in a voodoo doll—sharp and cruel. He always knows exactly what to say to really get to you. 
“Fuck you, Seresin,” you snap, before shouldering past him and storming toward the hangar. 
Your eyes sting, and your throat burns with the threat of tears, but you force it all down. You won’t cry. Not here. Not today. Not because of him. 
Instead, you take a hard turn into the locker room—the men’s locker room—and head straight for Jake’s stuff. His name is stitched on the inside of his clothes, which you scoop up along with everything else he owns—socks, boots, the whole lot. You carry it all around the corner to the showers, drop it into a stall, crank the cold water, and walk out without a backward glance. 
A few minutes later, you’re in the waiting room with the others, tension still buzzing under your skin but your expression cool. Natasha, Bob, and Jake are in the air now—you can hear their comms crackling over the speaker. 
Maverick’s voice cuts through the static like a knife. “Hangman, if you pull a stunt like that again, I’ll ground you myself.” 
You smile to yourself, satisfaction blooming like a flower in your chest. 
The next week passes in much the same way. You do your best to avoid Jake, but apparently, he didn’t get the memo. At first, you think it might have something to do with how much time you’re spending with Javy, but it quickly becomes clear—he’s just really enjoying getting under your skin. 
You argue almost every day. Most of the time, someone has to step in to break it up. But it’s never like that first day again. The fights stay surface-level—petty jabs over gear, disagreements about drills, snide little comments. It’s stupid, juvenile, and relentless. Still, you’re grateful that none of it gets personal again. Because it still hurts to think about what he said on your first day. 
By Friday, you’re right back in the same room where it all started, sitting through an updated mission briefing from Maverick. You try to focus, but your attention keeps drifting. Jake is sitting across the aisle from you, whispering snide remarks about this morning’s drill—childish jabs you can’t help but respond to. 
He leans in slightly. “Hell of a move back there. Almost looked like you knew what you were doing.” 
You glare at him. “Yeah? That part where you nearly clipped your wingman was real smooth.” 
He scoffs under his breath. “At least I was actually doing something instead of riding shotgun in the backseat again.” 
Your head snaps toward him, heat flaring in your chest. “Why don’t you just-” 
“Enough!” Maverick’s voice cuts through the room like a blade. “Both of you—cut it out.” 
You freeze. So does Jake. Slowly, the entire room turns toward the back, every pair of eyes locked on you, and none more intense than Maverick’s furious glare. 
“Everyone else—you’re dismissed. Hangman. Angel. You’re staying behind to help with inventory, and you’re not leaving until you sort out whatever the hell this is. I don’t care if it takes all weekend.” 
You both know better than to argue. There’s a heavy silence as everyone else stands, shuffling out with awkward glances and murmured goodbyes. You sink lower into your chair, dreading whatever’s coming next. 
Neither of you speak as Maverick leads you down into the hangar, where maintenance crews are busy running post-flight checks on the jets. The air smells like jet fuel and frustration. 
He stops to speak briefly with a technician before handing Jake a clipboard thick with paperwork. “You’re logging and checking all the equipment used this week. Everything. Make sure it’s clean, accounted for, and stored properly.” 
He meets both your eyes with a dry, unimpressed stare. “Don’t kill each other…” He pauses. “Or do. I don’t care. Just as long as you’re not still bickering on Monday morning.” 
And with that, he turns and walks away. 
The two of you quickly fall into an unspoken agreement to work in silence. You start with the flight suits and G-suits, then move on to spare helmets and oxygen masks. There’s the occasional grumble or muttered complaint, but for the most part, you both keep your heads down and your mouths shut. 
It’s about an hour into your assigned torture when Jake drifts away from where you’re double-checking the spare survival kits. He doesn’t say a word as he crosses the hangar, heading toward a short row of rusted lockers shoved into the back corner—right where most of the gear you’ve been sorting through came from. Two of the lockers hang open and empty, but the one in the middle is sealed shut with a heavily rusted lock. 
Jake gives it a jiggle, then a harder tug. Nothing. You glance over, ready to tell him to stop wasting time, but your own curiosity is starting to itch. 
Against your better judgment, you rise from your crouch and wander toward the tool pile a tech left behind earlier. You grab a pry bar and walk it over to Jake. 
“Here,” you say simply, handing it over. 
He quirks an eyebrow, like he’s trying to figure out why you’re helping him. But he takes it without a word. You nod toward the locker, silently urging him to get on with it. 
Jake wedges the bar into the seam and heaves. There’s a horrible screech of metal grinding against metal, and the door practically explodes outward. You yelp and instinctively jump behind him, your hands landing on his back as if he could shield you from whatever haunted relic might burst out of the spooky locker. 
When nothing attacks, you quickly step away, cheeks burning. Jake looks over his shoulder, cocky grin already forming—but for once, he spares you the teasing. 
“When do you think this thing was last opened?” he asks, using the pry bar to hold the warped door fully open. 
You peer inside and snort. “Judging by the Barry Williams photo taped in there? I’m going to guess sometime before Mav even joined the Navy.” 
Jake chuckles—and for once, it’s not smug or biting. It’s warm. Deep. It rumbles through his chest like thunder and coils around you like smoke, pulling you toward him despite the apprehension roiling in your gut. 
He steps closer, pulling out his phone to shine a light into the dim locker. It’s mostly empty: a few cobwebs, a protein bar wrapper, a single sock, and the faded photo of Barry Williams. 
Jake picks up the wrapper. “Wow. They really thought this was health food?” 
You laugh softly, taking the pry bar from his hand. As he keeps inspecting the wrapper, you use the bar to hook the sock, trying to lift it gently. But it doesn’t drape—it holds its shape, stiff and unbending. 
“Gross,” you mutter, balancing the hardened fabric on the end of the bar. 
Jake glances up, his eyes widening. “Is that thing... solid?” 
You drop the sock onto the floor. It hits with a soft thud and stays exactly how it landed: twisted and grotesquely preserved. 
“Yup.” 
Jake lets out a snort. “Do you think it’s full of-” 
“Please don’t say it.” 
“Jizz,” he says gleefully. 
You groan and shove the pry bar back into his hands, fake gagging as you walk away from the scene of the crime. 
Jake eventually wanders back over to the survival kits, apparently satisfied with having quenched his thirst for mystery. The two of you settle into what could almost be called a companionable silence—rare for you both. 
About half an hour later, one of the techs approaches, his face smudged with grease and sweat. 
“Most of us are headin’ out,” he says, wiping his hands on a rag. “Lance is still workin’ outside. If you need anything, give him a shout. Security’ll be doing their first walkthrough in about an hour. You can stay as late as you want, as long as your overtime’s cleared.” 
You snort and shake your head. “Oh, this isn’t overtime.” 
“It’s punishment,” Jake adds dryly. 
The man tilts his head, a smirk tugging at one corner of his mouth. “What’d you do?” 
There’s a beat of awkward silence before Jake replies, “Captain got sick of us arguing.” 
The tech raises his brows, glancing between you with an amused glint in his eye. “That so? Wouldn’t’ve guessed. You two looked mighty cosy pokin’ around that locker earlier.” 
You glance over at Jake, only to find his gaze already locked on yours. Heat creeps up the back of your neck, blooming across your cheeks. You quickly duck your head and return to sorting the gear. 
Jake lets out an awkward chuckle. “Sorry about that. Curiosity got the better of me.” 
The man waves a hand dismissively. “Ain’t no thing. Have a good night.” And with that, he ambles off. 
“Cosy,” Jake mutters, cracking open another kit. 
You roll your eyes, weariness softening your usual edge. “Don’t think I’ve ever been cosy with you, Seresin. Friends, maybe. But never cosy.” 
You keep your eyes on the kit, missing the flicker of something—hurt, maybe—that crosses his face. 
“Friends, maybe?” he repeats quietly. “If I remember correctly, we were very much friends.” 
“Yeah,” you murmur, your voice flat. “We were.” 
Another few minutes of silence tick by, broken only by the shuffle and scratch of your work. You’re almost finished with the survival kits when Jake speaks up again. 
“You know it’s not true, right?” 
Your brows knit together as you look up slowly, meeting his green gaze. “Well, I can’t say for sure, but I’ve always assumed you’re lying about having a massive-” 
“Not that,” he cuts in, almost growling, irritation flashing across his face before something softer—something almost sad—takes over. “I mean about why I encouraged you to become a weapons systems officer. Phoenix told everyone it was because I was threatened by you, but that’s not true.” 
“Oh.” Your frown fades. “I know.” 
He cocks his head. “You do?” 
“Yeah.” You shrug one shoulder and pack up the last kit, dusting your hands on your pants. “Like I said, we were friends back then, Jake. I know you weren’t trying to screw up my career. You saw that I had potential to be a great WSO—and you were right. I am.” 
You can’t bear the look on his face. It’s too open, too honest—too much like the way he used to look at you right before a flight. Right before you both climbed into the jet and he’d promise to keep you safe. 
You straighten up and turn toward the checklist Jake left nearby, grabbing it and pretending to study it. Anything to avoid the weight of his stare. “We’re almost done. Just a few miscellaneous items and we’re out of here.” 
Jake pushes to his feet and puffs his chest out, as if trying to shove all the emotion down and replace it with ego. “Alright. Let’s hurry up and get the hell out of here.” 
You barely sleep all weekend. You’re too strung out, too confused, and—annoyingly—still thinking about Friday night. Why the hell was Jake nice to you? You know you both need to get your shit together and start acting like adults, but he didn’t need to go dredging up the past like that. 
Every time you close your eyes, you see his face. The one you used to love. The one you used to daydream about kissing. But that was years ago. Any feelings you had for Jake Seresin died the moment you heard his voice through your headset that day—that calm, reckless voice telling you that it didn’t matter if he made it out alive, as long as you did. 
By Monday morning, you wake up in a cold sweat for the third night in a row, sheets twisted and soaked. Your head is a mess and your chest is tight, so you do the only thing you can think of that might help. 
You throw on your workout gear and head to the gym, ready to exorcise some demons. 
The gym on base is unusually quiet for a Monday morning, and you decide that it’s a blessing—you’ll get your pick of equipment without having to wait for others to finish. You set yourself up on a treadmill first, hoping that getting your blood pumping will distract from your turbulent thoughts. Sliding your headphones over your ears, you pick an upbeat playlist and start marching along to the beat. 
Most of the other early risers are packed into the weights section—well away from you, thank God. 
But then, Jake’s words from last week creep back into your mind: Maybe if you found some loser to fuck you, you wouldn’t be so tightly wound all the damn time. 
You grimace. You hate to admit it, but there is a nugget of truth in there. Maybe you do need a release. Maybe that would help you stop fantasizing about strangling—or worse, kissing—Jake Seresin every time he so much as breathes near you. You’ve fought too hard for your spot here. You’re not about to let Jake, or your traitorous body, screw it up. 
Your gaze strays toward the weights section again, casually scanning the candidates like you're hosting your own imaginary version of The Bachelor. 
First up: a beefy guy with a shiny bald head, a thick goatee, and a death grip on the bench press bar. He’s grunting so loudly you can hear it over your music. Definitely not your type—hard pass. 
Next contestant: a scrawny dude slouched on a bench, hoodie up, thumbs flying across his phone screen. The impressive-looking weights at his feet are a hilarious mismatch to his weedy physique. He’s either a sleeper-build legend or seriously overestimating himself. 
Your treadmill beeps, announcing another mile. You bump up the incline and glance back up just in time to spot someone more promising. 
Sitting at the lat pulldown machine is a guy with dirty blond hair, piercing blue eyes, and a smirk you can feel from across the room. He’s broad-shouldered, strong without looking like he eats steroids for breakfast, and he pulls down the heavy bar with ease. That little smirk screams trouble—and you love trouble. A cocky, pretty boy who can back it up? Now that is your kryptonite. 
After a few more minutes of half-assed walking while planning your opening line, you see him leave the machine and wander toward the water bubbler. 
It’s now or never. 
You jump off the treadmill, loop your towel around your neck, and start sauntering over, practicing your most casual, I-don't-care-but-also-maybe-marry-me smile. 
But then you see him. 
And you stop dead in your tracks. 
In the far corner of the gym is a man doing deadlifts, shirtless. His dark blond hair is sweaty and spiked up like he’s been dragging his hands through it. Tight grey shorts—painted on by Satan himself—cling to him like they were designed for the express purpose of making you lose your religion. 
You only get flashes of his reflection in the mirror, but it's enough to short-circuit your brain. Broad back, taut glutes, rippling arms. Every single inch of him looks carved by someone who knew exactly what they were doing—and wanted you to suffer. 
You forget all about Water Bubbler Guy. About why you even began walking this way. You stand there, completely paralysed, mouth dry, heart hammering, one singular, shameful thought blaring through your mind: 
I want to lick him clean. I want to taste him like a cat in heat. Forget cold showers. Forget dignity. Just sign my soul over now. 
The tremendous grunting of Goatee Guy jolts you out of your impure thoughts. You blink once—twice—before your gaze snaps back to the guy at the water bubbler. He smirks at you like he knows exactly what you’d been planning to do just minutes ago. 
But not anymore. Sorry, buddy. 
You give him a tight, awkward smile before scurrying over to the free weights section. You drop your stuff in a heap and unroll a rubber mat, all while stealing glances at the man still doing deadlifts—your future husband. 
You still can’t see him properly. He keeps his back to you—which you’re not entirely mad about—and continues heaving that heavy bar off the ground like it's nothing. It has to be close to four hundred pounds, easy. Which means, yes, he could definitely lift you. Throw you around. Pin you down until you’re squirming. 
God. Stupid Seresin was right. You do need to get laid. 
You spend the better part of the next hour watching him like a creep. Subtlety is dead and buried. He never strays from his corner, which frustrates you—because it would be so much easier to accidentally make eye contact if he’d just wander past. Instead, you’re stuck hovering like a predator, practically salivating. 
Eventually, you give up on trying to telepathically tell him to walk your way and decide to hit the showers before maybe—maybe—approaching him afterward. What’s the worst that could happen? You accidentally propose? Even if you crash and burn, odds are you’ll never see him again since you've never seen him here before. 
You pack up the weights you’d been pretending to use and make your way toward the showers. After a quick (cold, very cold) rinse and a change into fresh clothes, you walk back out. 
Your eyes immediately dart to the corner where they’d been glued all morning, but he’s gone. 
Panic sparks low in your gut as you scan the gym, your pace quickening toward the centre of the room for a better vantage point. You’re so focused on searching that you don’t even notice what’s right in front of you—until you plough right into a firm chest. 
You stumble back, an apology on the tip of your tongue—but then you realise exactly who you just ran into. 
“Ugh.” You glare up at a very shirtless Jake Seresin, cocky grin firmly in place. “It’s you.” 
He chuckles, deep and smug. “You really do know how to make a man feel special. It’s honestly a mystery why you’re still single.” 
You roll your eyes. “Shove it up your ass, Seresin, I’m-” 
The words get stuck in your throat as your gaze drops. 
Shirtless, yes. And wearing a criminally tight pair of grey shorts. 
No. Fucking. Way. 
Silence stretches thick between you before Jake tilts his head, amusement dripping from every pore. “Cat got your tongue?” 
Yes. A cat in heat. 
You wrench your gaze back up to his face. “No.” 
Without another word, you shoulder past him and bolt for the exit. 
The second you step outside, you suck in a gasping breath like you’ve just broken the surface of deep water. Your stomach twists, nausea clawing up your throat. 
There’s no fucking way you just spent the entire morning fantasizing about Jake fucking Seresin. 
You try to avoid Jake for the rest of the day, which proves absurdly difficult—he’s like a bad smell you can’t escape. It makes you wonder if he caught you creeping on him at the gym. You weren’t exactly subtle. But if he did notice, he’s keeping it close to his chest. 
By lunchtime, you’re so desperate for a reprieve that you decline the invitation to join your friends in the mess hall, opting instead for a little peace and quiet in the training room. Unfortunately, Maverick isn’t a mind reader, and he’s completely oblivious to your silent plea for solitude. 
“You alright, Angel?” he asks, sliding into a seat across the aisle from you. 
You glance up from your phone, hoping he didn’t notice that you had Tinder open. “Yeah, I’m good.” 
There’s a brief pause before he chuckles to himself, shaking his head softly. “You know, I’ve heard a lot of callsigns, but yours always makes me hesitate.” 
Your brows pinch together. “Really? There’s definitely worse out there… for example, Maverick. Ugh.” You can’t help it—being a smartass is in your blood. 
He laughs again, tilting his head with a fond smile. “I don’t mean it’s bad. There are worse. But ‘Angel’—it’s so... affectionate. Forgive me, but I’m not exactly used to calling my lieutenants pet names.” 
You snort, watching as Maverick’s face turns a soft shade of red. “Sorry, I’m not laughing at you. I guess I’m just so used to it, I stopped thinking of it as something affectionate.” 
He leans back in his chair, considering you for a moment. You feel a little too seen under that sharp gaze. Maverick is smart—almost obnoxiously so—and you’re not naive enough to think he doesn’t see straight through you. 
“So it was affectionate,” he says finally, cutting through the silence. “At some point, at least.” 
You sigh, warring internally about how much to share. The usual, abbreviated version you tell everyone else seems… somewhat insufficient right now. 
“Yeah,” you admit. “It was actually Ja—uh, Hangman who called me Angel first. We met at the Academy. He tried some stupid pickup line on me, and I told him—rather colourfully—where to stick it.” You pause, chest aching as you drag the memory out of the dark corner you’d shoved it into. “He thought it was hilarious. Said I looked like an angel but swore like a sailor.” 
Maverick chuckles softly, but his expression gives nothing away. You can’t tell if he’s judging you, or simply wondering how you and Jake could have fallen so spectacularly apart. 
“Then, when I decided to become a WSO, people started calling me ‘The Avenging Angel’,” you add. “Because I was good at it. That’s usually the story I stick to. I don’t like admitting who really gave me the name.” 
Maverick nods thoughtfully. “Fair enough. You two clearly have a complicated history. You don’t owe anyone an explanation.” 
You offer him a tight smile, grateful he isn’t pushing, though you aren’t sure what else to say. 
“I’m not big on advice,” he says after a beat. “And I’m not going to pretend to know you better than I do. But I’ve known Hangman a little longer—and if you’ll let me, I’ll tell you one thing. Take it however you want.” 
You nod once, fingers fidgeting anxiously with your phone in your lap. 
“I once had a back-seater who kept me grounded when I needed it most,” Maverick says, pushing slowly to his feet. “And I’d give anything to have him still flying with me.” 
Your breath catches. You know exactly who he’s talking about. 
“Unfortunately,” Maverick adds, offering a small, soft smile, “there’s nothing I can do to get my back-seater back.” 
Then he turns and walks out, leaving you frozen in your seat, staring after him like he just dropped a nuclear bomb. 
Did Maverick just tell you—in the most roundabout, emotionally devastating way possible—that Jake misses having you behind him? That you still matter to him? 
You blink back the sting of tears. 
Oh, for fuck’s sake. 
The afternoon passes in a blur, and before you know it, Maverick announces that it’s time for some outdoor team-building—something everyone is far too excited about. You’re not sure why until he tells everyone to change into their “beach clothes” and then leads the group down to the sand, where Bradley and Reuben are quick to start setting up a volleyball net. 
The sun is blazing, and the energy is electric. Everyone is stretching and practicing, casually tossing jabs at each other as they get the trash-talking started early. 
Maverick decides that the WSOs will be paired with their pilots—so you’re with Javy—and the solo flyers are free to pick their partners. Jake teams up with Billy, callsign Fritz, while Mav steps in as Bradley’s partner. 
The first teams to play are Reuben and Mickey versus Jake and Billy. The rest of the group settles around the court, all eager to watch and prep for their own games. The competition is fierce, and the excitement is palpable as Mav twirls the white ball on his finger and shouts out the rules. 
But then, the worst thing imaginable happens. 
Jake takes off his fucking shirt. 
You hadn’t even noticed that the other guys had already opted to go shirtless under the blazing sun, but the second Jake peels off his white cotton t-shirt, your eyes lock onto him like a magnet. 
You can feel your mouth go dry, your heart rate spiking, like a predator eyeing its first meal in days. The logical part of your brain is screaming at you. 
Look away, you fucking idiot, before someone notices! 
But you can’t. You can’t look away. You’re still seeing the guy from the gym—before you knew who he was—and now, against the backdrop of the beach, he looks absolutely obscene. His tan skin gleams in the sun, and his sunglasses sit low on his nose, giving him that effortlessly cocky look that makes your stomach tie itself in knots. 
“Hey,” Javy appears beside you, nudging an elbow into your ribs. “You’re good at this game, right?” 
You snort, tearing your eyes away from Jake. “I haven’t played since high school.” 
Javy chuckles. “Well, shit. Let’s just hope we’re not up against Hangman and Fritz. Those two are more competitive than they have the right to be.” 
You laugh again, letting your eyes slide back toward the game, landing immediately on the hot, tan man you hate yourself for fantasizing about. But you can’t help it—he’s fucking magnetic. 
And, of course, he’s fucking good too. He knows how to play volleyball like a pro, and despite the stiff competition from Reuben and Mickey, Jake and Billy eventually prevail. 
The rest of the group erupts into laughter and cheers as Jake does a victory lap around the court—cocky bastard. Mav then tells you and Javy to flip a coin with Natasha and Bob to see who goes next. Your heart pounds in your throat as the coin spins in the air, and when it lands on heads, you curse under your breath—you’re up. 
The sun feels twice as hot as you stand across from Jake, grateful for your sunglasses that hide the very hungry look you know is threatening to spread across your face. This is Jake—annoying, cocky, careless Jake. There’s nothing special about him just because he was carved by the gods... right? 
You wriggle your feet in the sand, trying to shake off the way your body is betraying you, and decide to take a little of Maverick’s advice. Maybe it’s time to stop hating Jake Seresin and at least try to be civil. 
Jake gets into his stance just on the other side of the net, and then he tips his chin forward. His sunglasses slide down his nose just enough for you to catch a glimpse of those piercing green eyes. And then he fucking winks at you. The audacity. 
He throws the ball into the air, his body coiling as he leaps up after it, slamming the ball over the net toward your partner behind you. Your stomach flips. This bastard knows exactly what he’s doing. 
Javy whacks the ball back, and Billy returns it with equal intensity. You barely have time to think before you’re leaping up and spiking the ball back onto their side. It’s clearly Jake’s to save, but for some inexplicable reason, he freezes. He just stands there, staring at you like you’ve grown a second head, as if he can’t believe you just pulled that off. 
It wasn’t that impressive. In fact, you’re pretty sure you hit the net, which would be a foul in a real game—but this is just a friendly match. 
The ball hits the ground, and Billy throws his hands up in disbelief. “Dude, what the hell? I thought you had that.” 
Jake snaps out of his daze, his head jerking toward Billy like he’s just been slapped. “Shit, sorry.” 
You can’t help the grin that spreads across your face as you turn to Javy. “Did you see that?” 
“Fuck yeah, I did!” he exclaims, beaming back at you. 
You rush over to him and deliver a high-five so hard it stings, but you don’t care. You just scored on Jake. 
You glance back over at him, jutting your bottom lip out exaggeratedly. “You okay, Seresin? Cat got your tongue?” 
You can’t see his eyes, but you know they narrow as he tips his head forward. “Oh, it’s on!” he growls. “You’re about to lose those wings, Angel!” 
A giggle escapes your lips before you can stop it. “Bring it!” 
The game wears on, and your confidence begins to wane—because, yeah, Jake is good. Really good. But that only fuels your competitive fire. You’re sprinting, jumping, leaping without worrying about how you look. All that matters is keeping that ball off your side. You hit the sand twice, and your knees are starting to burn, but it’s worth it. You’re in it now. 
You and Javy are almost perfectly in sync, anticipating each other’s moves without a second thought. After every point, you share a high five or—at one point—a painfully awkward chest bump, but it’s worth it for the rush. 
The fatigue starts to creep in after about fifteen minutes, but you know the game is nearly over. So, when Jake sends a ball sailing just out of reach, you spring as high as you can, throwing your entire body into the jump. Your fingertips brush the ball, just enough to send it back over the net. 
You brace yourself for the inevitable thud of hitting the sand again, but instead, two strong hands catch you by the waist, pulling you into a solid, muscular chest. You do hit the sand, but with far less force than you anticipated. 
And then, you tumble right on top of Javy. The two of you land in a heap, laughter spilling out of you like it’s been building up all day. Sand is everywhere, covering both of your faces as you giggle uncontrollably. 
You hear Billy’s frustrated shout from across the court, and you realise that your dramatic save just scored you another point. 
“Are you okay?” you ask, climbing off Javy. 
He’s still chuckling and shaking sand out of his hair as he takes your hand to let you help him up. “Yeah, I’m good. You?” 
“Yeah, I had a pretty soft landing,” you reply, winking playfully at him before you can even think about it. 
When you turn back to your competitors, wearing a cocky smirk that could rival Jake’s, you’re met with a pair of blazing green eyes. Jake’s glare is nothing short of stormy, his sunglasses now perched on top of his head, eyes flicking between you and Javy. 
Wow, he really does not like losing. 
The next few volleys are borderline dangerous. Jake is putting everything he has into each hit—swinging hard and fast, directing every single ball straight at Javy. He’s darting all over the court, barely allowing Billy to touch the ball, sending it slicing through the air with a vengeance. 
Five minutes later, Jake and Billy are declared the winners, but Javy is wiped out. Not because of the loss, but because he’s exhausted from dodging and saving himself from Jake’s ruthless shots. 
Maverick calls for a break, giving Jake and Billy some downtime while Natasha and Bob face off against Brigham and Logan. 
Billy shoots both you and Javy a teasing grin, offering a little jab about doing better next time before grabbing a water bottle and heading over to chat with Bradley. The two of them stand at the edge of the water watching Reuben and Mickey try their hand at body surfing on the small waves rolling toward the shore. 
Javy grabs a cold bottle of water from the cooler before flopping down beside you in the sand. “That was intense,” he sighs. 
You nod, taking a long drink of your own water. “Yeah. Hangman doesn’t like losing.” 
Javy chuckles, his grin a little knowing. “In more ways than one, apparently.” 
You frown, opening your mouth to ask what he means, but Javy cuts you off with a subtle shake of his head as Jake approaches. His dark sunglasses are back in place, concealing any trace of emotion written on his face. 
You’re sitting next to the cooler, so you decide to extend a small olive branch. You pick up a bottle of water and offer it to him. 
He takes it without a word and starts to walk away, effectively snapping your olive branch. 
“I think the words you’re looking for are ‘thank you’?” you call after him, unable to stop the words before they slip out. 
He spins on his heel and strides back toward you, his broad shadow swallowing you whole. “Thank you? Right. For what? Doing something nice? I’m not in the habit of handing out gratitude to people who only pretend to care when it’s convenient for them.” 
Your heart races as the words sink in. The heat of the moment rushes to your head, and you rear back, suddenly feeling too small beneath his towering presence. “What the fuck is your problem?” 
“You are,” he snaps, voice sharp and low. “I can’t escape you. The academy, flight school, TOPGUN… then you had to run your fucking mouth and get us deployed together. This detachment was the best thing to happen to my career, and then you had to come in and fuck it all up. As usual.” 
The sting of his words lands like a slap across the face. Your heart beats louder in your chest, and the bridge of your nose burns. Your vision blurs, but you rapidly blink away the tears, refusing to give him the satisfaction. 
“As soon as we’re done here,” he says, stepping closer, his voice dropping even lower, “I’m getting reassigned and getting the fuck away from you. For good.” 
“Good,” you bite back, scrambling to your feet. “The further you are from me, the better. Because I fucking hate you, Jake Seresin.” 
It’s a cheap shot, but it feels like the truth. You’ve never felt as hollow as you do in this moment, realizing that your past and what you once meant to each other still haunts you. He knows exactly where to hit to make it hurt. 
“Woah, woah,” Maverick’s voice cuts through the tension as he rushes over. “What’s going on? I thought you two-” 
“It’s fine, Mav,” you cut him off, voice cold. “It’s nothing.” 
Without waiting for a response, you turn and storm off, your feet digging into the sand with every furious step. You have no destination in mind, only the burning need to get away from him. You swipe the back of your hand across your cheek, feeling the dampness of your skin and realizing too late that you’ve been crying this whole time. How fucking embarrassing. 
Later that night, Maverick sends out a message to everyone to let you all know that training will start a bit later tomorrow. Something that you’re grateful for, because you don’t fall asleep until well past midnight. You spend the hours crying and wallowing, allowing your mind to spiral, and ultimately giving way too much of your time to the thought of Jake Seresin. 
By morning, you’re feeling a little better and a lot stronger, fully prepared to ignore the hell out of him for the next few weeks. 
At 9 AM, you’re all gathered in the training room, waiting for Maverick to finish his meeting with the admiral. Everyone is there except one—Javy. And the absence of your pilot is making you more nervous than you’d like to admit. 
“Hey,” Nat says quietly, twisting in her chair to face you. “You feeling better?” 
You nod, forcing a smile. “Yeah, heaps. Yesterday was just... a bit of a shit show.” 
She waves her hand dismissively. “We’re all entitled to a meltdown, especially with the kind of assholes we have to deal with.” 
You offer her a tight, appreciative smile. “Tell me about it.” 
She turns back around just as Maverick breezes through the door, his face tight with tension. 
“Alright, listen up,” he says, standing at the front of the room. “You’ve probably noticed by now that Coyote is absent. That’s because, during a particularly intense game of volleyball”—his gaze flicks sharply toward Jake—“he hurt his back. The doctors have recommended that he not fly until further assessment, so unfortunately, he’s out.” 
Your stomach drops and your heart starts pounding as a wave of anxiety washes over you. 
“Angel,” Maverick continues, his gaze shifting to you. “This means you’ll be Hangman’s back-seater.” 
A collective gasp ripples through the room, and your heart jumps into your throat. This has to be some kind of joke. This can’t be real. 
“Mav.” Jake leans forward, his posture stiff and tense. “This isn’t a good idea. I can’t fly with-” 
“You can and you will fly with her,” Maverick interrupts, his voice hard and final. 
You don’t look away from Jake, studying his profile with desperate eyes, searching for even a hint that he’s on board with this—like Maverick said he would be. But his face is stone cold, and you’re starting to think that Maverick might have been full of shit when he told you that Jake misses his back-seater. 
“That’s all,” Maverick says, his voice slicing through the stillness in the room. “Now, let’s hit the skies.” 
Downstairs in the locker room, your hands shake as you tug your flight suit on and drag the zipper up to your collarbone. You haven’t been this nervous since your first flight after the crash—but you managed then, and you’ll manage now. It doesn’t matter that you haven’t flown with Jake in years. You’re good at your job and he’s good at his. As long as you can both be mature, this will be fine. 
Jake’s already seated in the jet when you approach, head bowed over his controls. He doesn’t flinch when you climb up and strap into the back seat. He doesn’t even move—until it's time to follow the ground team’s signals toward the runway. 
You focus on steadying your breathing, the rumble of the engine thrumming through your body. When you glance up at the familiar helmet in front of you, a wave of aching nostalgia crashes over you, stealing the air from your lungs. 
Once you level out in the sky, you take a gulp of oxygen from your mask. 
Maverick’s voice crackles through the headset: “Enemy fighter inbound. Take him out. Work together.” 
You snap to attention, eyes locking on your radar, fingers flying over the controls with perfect precision. 
“Talk to me, Fritz,” Jake says coolly. “Where is he?” 
“I don’t see him yet,” Fritz responds. “Angel, anything on radar?” 
And then—Maverick’s jet appears on your radar. Fast. Slippery. Impossible to pin down. 
“I see him, but he’s bouncing all over the place,” you say. 
Jake dives after him instantly, and you resist the urge to look up—you have to trust him. 
“I’ve got him,” Jake says. “Fritz, on your left.” 
The g-forces shove you into your seat as Jake throws the jet into a tight, reckless turn. 
“Hangman, wait—follow my lead,” you snap. 
Jake scoffs. “No. Just be quiet and let me do my job.” 
You grit your teeth and swallow your retort. 
“Hangman, on your six,” Fritz warns, a beat too late. 
Jake yanks the jet into a hard, inverted climb. Your stomach flips, chest compressing painfully. 
Maverick isn’t playing fair. He’s a blur across your radar, pulling turns that would rip lesser pilots apart. Your fingers dance across your controls, tracking him as best you can. 
“He's coming up behind us, Hangman,” you call urgently. “Evade, evade.” 
Jake finally hesitates. 
“Left, now! Then roll!” you bark. 
And this time—he listens. 
The jet swings in a sharp, vicious arc. You spot a window, heart hammering against your ribs. 
“He’s right behind me, guys,” Fritz says, his voice strained with panic. 
“Hangman, right!” you yell. “Hold steady! I’ll have tone in four... three... two…” 
The shrill beep fills your helmet, and adrenaline floods your veins. 
“Fox two. Guns, guns, guns!” you shout. 
The HUD flashes red. Maverick is hit. 
“Nice move,” Maverick’s voice comes over the comms, surprisingly warm. “Very impressive flying.” 
You sag back in your seat, heart still racing. 
Flying with Jake used to be your favourite thing in the world. 
And God help you—you’re starting to realise it still might be. 
Back on the ground, the others are buzzing. They can’t stop raving about how good you were—how insane it is that you managed to catch Maverick with the way he was flying. 
Harvard and Yale are next up in the sky with Bradley, and Hondo tells you and Jake to go clean up before the afternoon briefing. Apparently, the admiral himself will be joining for a mission update. 
You’re just about to push into the women’s locker room when Jake’s hand slaps against the door, stopping you cold. You hadn’t even realized he was right behind you until he’s there—towering over you, close enough that you can smell the sun and sweat on his skin. 
“You—uh,” he starts, voice low and rough, like it’s been scraped raw. His free hand drags through his hair, mussing it up. “You were damn good up there.” 
You blink up at him, heart thudding. “Um. Thanks. You too.” 
You try to slide past him, but he doesn’t budge. Instead, he leans in a little closer—close enough that you feel his chest against yours when you inhale too deeply. Your whole body locks up, wired so tight it’s a miracle you’re still standing. 
“I’m sorry about yesterday,” he mutters, voice dipping even lower. “I shouldn’t have said what I said. It was... way outta line. And if you like Coyote... that’s fine.” 
You raise an eyebrow, the tension snapping something sharp inside you. “Thanks for the permission,” you say, voice dripping with sarcasm. “Especially coming from the guy who told me to find some loser to fuck in the first place.” 
You pause just long enough to see the way his throat bobs when he swallows. 
“But for the record?” you add, voice soft but cutting. “I’m not interested in Coyote. He’s got a little too much Hangman in him for my liking.” 
You expect him to lash back, but he doesn't say a word. He just stares at you—hungry, furious, starving—like he’s seconds away from doing something reckless. 
“Move,” you whisper, breath hitching. “I’m hot and sticky and I need a sho-” 
Before the words are fully out of your mouth, he grabs you. 
His fingers wrap around your bicep, pulling you against him and then pinning you against the wall. He cages you there with his body, pressing so close that there’s not a sliver of air between you. You can feel every hard plane of him, the heat pouring off his skin. 
“You drive me fucking crazy, Angel,” he growls, voice low and ragged, the sound vibrating through your chest. 
You gasp, back arching instinctively toward him. 
His mouth hovers just a breath from yours—so close you can almost taste him. His gaze drops to your lips, then flicks back up to your eyes, desperate and agonizing and wrecked. 
“Do you have any idea?” he murmurs, the rough edges of his voice catching. “How fucking hard it is to be around you?” 
His thumb brushes along your jaw, slow and deliberate, like he’s memorising the shape of you. Your skin burns under the touch, your whole body tightening with the need to just lean in—just once—before it’s too late. 
Your mind is scrambling, unable to catch up with whatever the fuck is going on. I mean, yeah, you know you drive him crazy—but not in this way. Not in a way that should make him look at you with that much hunger in his eyes. 
“Jake, I-” 
The sound of footsteps shatters the moment. 
He tears himself away from you like he’s ripping off his own skin, turning and disappearing through the next door without a word. 
You sag against the wall, dizzy and aching, as Reuben strolls past and raises a curious brow. You can’t even summon the energy to pretend you’re fine. 
Because for the first time in a long time, you know you’re absolutely, dangerously not. 
The next three days feel like you’re an extra on The Walking Dead. You can barely eat, barely sleep, and even breathing feels like a conscious effort—and half the time, you forget to. Every time you see Jake, your chest tightens, your lungs constrict, and your limbs seem to forget how to function. You stand there, frozen, like you’ve forgotten how to be human. But then he walks right past you, as if you don’t even exist. 
How he went from being molten hot to freezing cold is beyond you. And it’s almost tearing you apart. 
Everyone can feel it—the thick tension that’s building between you two. It’s suffocating. Even over the comms during flight drills, you can’t ignore the electricity crackling between you. It’s as if the entire world is holding its breath, waiting for the moment when everything explodes. 
Maverick has noticed it too. You haven’t even come close to catching him again during the drills. It’s like you’re both on autopilot—doing your jobs, but barely. 
It’s finally Friday, and you and Jake are the last to fly today. You should be focused—laser-focused—on the radar in front of you, tracking the mission as Jake does the high-speed manoeuvres Maverick instructed. But you can’t. Your eyes keep drifting toward the horizon. 
The sky was clear and sunny this morning, but now it’s turning ominous. You know there’s a storm coming tomorrow, but today was supposed to stay clear. Yet here you are, watching the sky darken, thick clouds rolling in like a slow-moving freight train. 
“Angel?” Jake’s voice snaps you back into the cockpit. 
“Yeah?” You blink, shaking yourself out of the daze. “Sorry, can you repeat?” 
“Do you see Mav?” 
“Not yet.” You hesitate, weighing up whether or not you should say something about the storm. But when you twist in your seat, you catch sight of the darkening clouds creeping toward you. 
“Jake,” you murmur, your voice low, “the sky looks bad.” 
The jet shifts into a turn, angling toward the oncoming storm. 
“Shit.” Jake curses under his breath. “Mav, are you seeing this?” 
“Yeah, I am,” Maverick responds, his voice tight. 
You tune out the next few seconds of chatter as Mav asks control if they need to call it off. The jet begins to shake slightly, the turbulence picking up, and Jake curses again as the wind buffets the jet, pushing you off course. 
You want to speak up and tell him that you’re scared. The words are sitting on the tip of your tongue, but then the memory hits you—the one from that day before the crash, when you told Jake, your best friend, that you were afraid. 
“You’re gonna alright, Angel,” Jake’s voice comes through your headset, as calm as it has no right being. It’s meant to be reassuring, but it only makes your stomach twist in knots. Those aren’t the words you wanted to hear then, and they're not what you want to hear now. 
The jet lurches again, and you grip the armrests, knuckles going white. Your chest tightens and you struggle to breathe. 
“Control has called it,” Maverick’s voice crackles through the comms. “Bring it back to base immediately.” 
“Copy that,” Jake replies, his voice steady but edged with a tension you can’t ignore. 
You try to focus on the instruments, but the jet is shuddering, veering off course as the storm grows closer. The sky is turning an almost unnatural shade of grey, and you’re pretty sure you can see a flicker of lightning in the distance. 
“Jake,” you say, your voice barely a whisper. “Tell me we’re going to be okay. Both of us.” 
There’s a long pause before his voice comes through the comms, low and firm. “We’re gonna be okay, Angel.” 
You keep your eyes trained on the instruments as the jet wobbles its way back toward base. You’re moving slower than usual, every inch of the plane hesitant as it fights against the unsteady weather. Over the comms, you hear Maverick speaking with control, his voice calm and confident as he lands, having been much closer to base than the two of you. 
Just when you think you might be able to breathe a little easier, a downburst hits, and the jet is slammed by violent turbulence. A scream tears from your throat as the plane pitches up and down, lurching wildly in the storm. You’re thrown against the harness, the seatbelt biting into your skin as your body is tossed around like a ragdoll. 
Jake’s voice cuts through the chaos, but you can barely hear him over the deafening shrieks of the wind and the thunderous shakes of the jet. His words are broken and distorted, lost between the gusts of wind and the violent rocking of the plane. 
You glance up just in time to see a massive bolt of lightning slice through the dark clouds ahead, and the jet jerks again, diving into a deadly spin. 
“Jake!” you shout, panic rising in your chest. “We need to eject!” 
His voice is strained, barely audible, but you catch the tail end of what sounds like him saying he can save the plane—save you—but you know it’s too late. 
“Eject now!” Maverick’s voice crackles through the comms, urgent and commanding. “Eject, eject!” 
“Jake!” you scream, the fear in your voice raw and desperate. 
“Okay,” he says, his voice a rasp. “Eject!” 
You brace yourself, gritting your teeth as the plane continues to be tossed around like it’s made of paper. You have no choice but to trust in the training, the equipment, and Jake. 
Then, with a frantic press of the button, you eject. 
The world explodes into chaos. A rush of wind roars in your ears, the pressure so intense it feels like your bones are being hollowed out. For a heartbeat, everything is spinning, and then the world falls silent. Your stomach drops as you’re weightless, free-falling through the air. 
You force your eyes open, the blurring motion of the storm clouded sky making it hard to focus. But then, with a violent jerk, your parachute deploys, the canopy snapping open above you, catching the air and slowing your descent just enough to ease the shock of it all. 
Being picked up and rushed to the hospital is a complete blur. The only clear memory you have is giggling like a lunatic in the back of the ambulance when you hear a huge crack of thunder. Like... yeah, you were just in the sky. 
Once they’ve got you in a bed, hooked up to machines, your mind slips into a half-conscious state. You're too full of adrenaline to fall asleep, but exhausted and in shock enough to let your eyelids drift shut. You hear the doctors discussing your condition—something about you being fine but clearly sleep-deprived. Rude. 
The thing that snaps you back to full consciousness is the sound of Jake’s frantic voice. Cracking and desperate as he argues with the doctors. 
“I told you, I’m fine!” he exclaims. “Look! I’m standing, breathing, walking. I need to see her. Let me see her or you’re going to be the one in a hospital bed!” 
You shift higher in the bed, and the beeping of your heart monitor increases its pace. 
“Oh, thank God,” Jake sighs, his eyes reflecting a mix of relief and something you can't quite place as he rushes into your room. 
The nurses at the door scowl at him, but they don’t try to stop him. 
“Are you okay? Are you hurt?” he asks, stepping quickly to the side of the bed. “I’m so, so sorry.” 
He reaches for your hand, hesitates, and instead places both palms on the bed railing beside you. 
“I’m fine,” you say softly, your voice still rough. “Just sleep-deprived, apparently.” 
His smile is shaky, watery, and the sight of it makes your chest ache as you look at the earnest, green-eyed boy you haven’t seen in years. The real Jake Seresin. 
“What are you sorry for?” you ask after a beat of silence. 
His brows furrow, and he hesitates, as if weighing his words carefully. “Um... you know, the whole plane crash thing... back there. Do you—did you bump your head?” 
You roll your eyes, shaking your head. “No. I told you, I’m fine. Just sleep-deprived—which is something you should be apologizing for. Not losing control of a jet in a storm. That wasn’t your fault. You did everything you could.” 
He opens his mouth, likely ready to protest, to say something about how he should’ve seen it coming sooner, but then he stops himself. His eyes soften, and he tilts his head slightly. “Why do I need to apologize for your lack of sleep?” 
You snort loudly, a very unladylike sound. “Because of that shit you pulled the other day. Cornering me near the locker rooms and telling me that it’s hard to be around me. But not like ‘hard’ because you hate me, but like... I make you hard or something ridiculous.” 
You feel your cheeks burn at the thought. 
He chuckles, his shoulders visibly relaxing. “Oh. That.” 
“Yeah,” you say. “That.” 
Another awkward silence falls between you, and both of you glance away, unable to meet each other’s gaze thanks to the thick and unholy tension hanging in the air. 
Your chest tightens as your heart tears itself in two. One half wants to forgive him for everything, to beg him to be your friend again and forget the years of unadulterated loathing. But the other half refuses to give in, holding onto the hurtful things he said and did—especially what he said before the first crash. 
Huh. Now you get to sulk about not one, but two plane crashes with Jake Seresin. 
Jake clears his throat, breaking the thick silence. “Do you want to know the real reason I encouraged you to become a weapons systems officer?” 
You glance at him, your brow furrowing. “We had this conversation last week, Jake. Are you sure you didn’t bump your head?” 
He rolls his eyes. “I said the real reason.” 
You gasp dramatically, pressing a hand to your chest. “So it is because you were intimidated by my massive talent. I knew it.” 
He closes his eyes for a beat, inhaling like he’s summoning patience. “Why are you making this difficult? I'm trying to be intensely heartfelt right now.” 
You bite your lip to keep from giggling, not sure if it’s the painkillers or lingering adrenaline making everything feel strangely buoyant. “Sorry. Force of habit to annoy you. I’ll shut up. Please, enlighten me.” 
He grips the bed railing so tightly his knuckles turn white. When he looks back up at you, the intensity in his green eyes steals all the air from your lungs—and every ounce of humour drains away under the weight of his stare. 
“The reason I encouraged you to become a WSO is because I knew you’d be good—and I knew we’d be good together. And if we proved that, we’d most likely be deployed together.” His voice drops almost to a whisper. “I didn’t want to lose you.” 
It feels like you've just been ripped from your jet again, but this time you’re not free-falling—you’re caught in the storm, spinning helplessly out of control. Your heart pounds painfully against your ribs, and thanks to the rapid beeping of the monitor beside you, it’s not exactly subtle. 
Jake’s eyes flick toward the machine, a quick flash of amusement crossing his face, but when he meets your gaze again, his smile is small and fragile. “I was scared to lose you, and then that stupid crash happened. I knew I’d screwed everything up. I knew you’d hate me for ruining your record, but I-” 
“Wait.” You sit up straighter, twisting toward him. “Is that why you think I was mad? Because of the mark on my record?” 
He blinks, confused. “That’s... not why?” 
You stare at him, shock crashing through you. For years—years—you've carried this anger, this bitterness between you. And he never even knew the real reason why. 
“Jake...” You hesitate, emotion swelling tight in your chest. “I wasn’t mad about the crash being labelled pilot error. I mean, sure, it sucked, but that’s not why I couldn’t speak to you afterward.” 
His eyes widen, the colour draining from his face. “What?” 
“God, this is going to sound so stupid.” You drag a hand over your face. “The reason I was angry was because of what you said before we almost died. You told me it didn’t matter if you survived—as long as I did.” 
A heavy silence settles over you both, broken only by the too-loud beeping of your heart monitor. 
“I just...” You can’t bring yourself to meet his gaze. “I hated that you thought so little of yourself. That you could leave me behind and think I would be fine. That I could just go on like you never existed. You scared the hell out of me, Jake. And when we ejected and I couldn’t find you... I didn’t know if you were alive. I thought-” You stop, throat closing up. 
Jake’s chest heaves with quick, shallow breaths, his hands trembling slightly where they grip the rail. 
“When I saw you again, I wanted to forgive you. I knew I would... eventually. But then, before the hearing, you told me to-” 
“Stop acting like you're better than everyone else and get a fucking grip,” he says, voice hoarse, repeating the ugly words that had haunted you. 
You nod, forcing yourself to look at him. 
“I thought you hated me,” he mutters. “When you wouldn’t talk to me... I thought you hated me because of the crash. I thought I'd wrecked everything. I convinced myself you didn’t want me around anymore. I thought I’d lost you.” 
A flash of anger sparks in your chest. 
“So instead of just asking if I was okay, you made sure you lost me by being a prick?” 
Jake’s brow furrows, a flush creeping up his neck into his cheeks. “You didn’t talk to me for three fucking weeks after we almost died! What was I supposed to think?” 
“Maybe that I needed space?” You throw your hands up. “Maybe that I was a little rattled and trying to figure out how to breathe again? But no—you assumed that I hated you, so you just decided to hate me back.” 
He scrubs a hand through his hair, frustration practically vibrating off him. When he leans in closer, his eyes blaze with an intensity that makes your heart stutter—and the monitor beside you makes sure everyone hears it. 
“Don’t you get it?” His voice is low, rough around the edges. 
You can barely breathe. 
“I never fucking hated you,” he says. “I’m in love with you.” 
A nurse freezes at the door, shooting a concerned look toward the screaming heart monitor, but you barely notice. 
Jake’s voice softens, but it still hits like a punch. “That’s why I couldn’t stand seeing you with Coyote.” 
He pulls back like he’s preparing to walk away, but before he can, you grab his hand. Without thinking, you’re up on your knees, yanking him back toward you. There's a clatter behind you as your movement tugs at the cords and machines, but none of it matters. 
Jake stares at you, stunned, like he’s bracing for you to shove him away. 
But you don’t. You reach for his face, holding him between your palms like you’re afraid he’ll disappear if you let go. You barely have time to catch your breath before crashing your mouth into his. 
The second your lips meet, it's like a dam breaks. Jake's hands find your waist, steadying you as you cling to him, desperate and trembling. He kisses you back with a rawness that speaks of years of confusion, anger, and longing all tangled together. His mouth is warm and familiar, yet new all at once—like you’re discovering something you’ve been searching for without even knowing it. For a moment, there’s nothing else: not the heart monitor blaring, not the nurses whispering at the door, not the ache still lingering in your bones. There’s only Jake, and the way he kisses you like he’s terrified to let you go again. 
But then a god-awful alarm explodes through the room, startling the two of you apart. 
One of the nurses rushes in, heading straight for the heart monitor. She presses a few buttons before turning to you with a spectacularly unimpressed glare. 
Your cheeks burn as you sink back into the bed, trying to sit properly. “Sorry.” 
She gives you a deadpan stare, then starts untangling the cords from around you. “I can see you're feeling much better. I’ll remove these to avoid any... further incidents.” She fiddles with the machines, then adds, “And I’ll page the doctor to clear you for discharge.” 
You nod sheepishly. “Thank you.” 
Then she turns her death stare on Jake. “You still need to be examined, so please return to your room.” 
Jake flashes her his most charming, boyish grin. “But I—” 
“Now.” 
You have to hold your breath to keep from laughing, but Jake doesn't even try. He chuckles low and deep, then leans over you again, his presence swallowing the space between you. He kisses you—firm and possessive—right on the mouth. Then at the corner of your lips. Then your cheek. Your jaw. Finally, he breathes against your ear, voice a delicious threat: 
“When we get out of here, I'm gonna be the loser who fucks you ‘til you finally unwind.” 
And then he’s gone, leaving you breathless and blushing like a maniac, while the very exasperated nurse pretends she didn’t hear a damn thing. 
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The Boy Is Mine
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poly!wolfstar x fem!reader
Summary: you’re quiet by nature, content in the background—until someone pushes too far. When a girl flirts with Remus, something shifts. With one kiss and a quiet claim, you remind everyone exactly who he ( and Sirius) belong to.
Warnings: possessiveness, jealousy, strong language, suggestive content, heated kiss, and public displays of affection.
Word count: 3.4k
Authors note: i need both Remus and Sirius at the same damn time.
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You’ve never been the loudest in the room.
You don’t need to be. Not when Sirius is tossing his head back laughing beside you, all glittering chaos and charm, or when Remus leans in close, voice low and deliberate, like every word he says is meant only for you.
They fill the space so effortlessly—Sirius with his magnetic presence, Remus with his quiet gravity—and you find yourself fitting between them like a breath between heartbeats. Steady, constant and soft.
You like watching more than speaking. Not out of shyness exactly, but because you enjoy observing—feeling everything. It’s the way Remus’s thumb circles over your knee under the table without him even realizing. The way Sirius always saves you the last bite, even when he swears he won’t. You don’t need to be loud to be loved here.
They know you. They’ve always known you.
Sirius, who pulls you into the middle of the common room and spins you in dizzy circles until you’re breathless with laughter. Remus, who presses his nose into your hair when the world feels too sharp and mumbles poetry against your skin. 
Between the two of them, you’ve never had to shout to be heard. They listen in the silence. They love you in the quiet.
But sometimes, even the quiet hums with something fierce.
And today, it’s starting to burn.
The loud music thumps through the walls, pulsing in your veins, but all you can hear is Remus’s voice rising above the chatter of the party. He’s talking to a girl, one whose name doesn’t matter.
because you’re already irritated.
Sirius is speaking beside you—his voice low and animated, probably bantering with James about something as thrillingly idiotic as who cheated in the last round of Exploding Snap—but the words barely register. They fade into the background like the bass of the music humming through the party, the way laughter spills and drips from every corner of the Gryffindor common room like syrup.
You’re curled up beside him on the leather couch, soft and familiar, half draped across his lap like you belong there, because you do. His palm is warm against your skin, fingers lazy as they trace circles over your thigh, an unconscious kind of touch that says mine without needing the word.
But your attention isn’t on Sirius.
It’s fixed—razor sharp and unblinking—on the girl across the room.
She’s all lip gloss and bright laughter, the kind of girl who doesn’t walk into a room so much as glitter through it. Her blouse is buttoned just low enough to draw the eye, her skirt just short enough to be a statement. She leans in closer to Remus like she’s in a slow-motion daydream, twirling a strand of hair around her finger as she giggles at something he said.
Except Remus isn’t laughing.
He’s smiling, but you know that smile. It’s the strained one. The tight-lipped, please-don’t-make-this-weird smile he gives when someone crosses the line and he’s too damn kind to push them away.
And she—well. She’s not backing off.
Your fingers tighten around the stem of your glass. Not enough to shatter it, but enough to feel it, to ground yourself before the rising tide inside you gets too high. The jealousy doesn’t burn. No, it doesn’t scream or sputter like some childish tantrum. It’s quiet. Sharp. Ice in your veins, snow behind your ribs. It’s precise.
You watch her touch his arm, watch her eyes flutter and her voice pitch just so. You watch Remus stand there with all that quiet discomfort in his shoulders and all that unnecessary politeness keeping him rooted in place.
And something inside you shifts.
You’re not the loud one at these parties. You’re not the girl who shouts or struts or demands. You’re the one who stays curled up in the lap of a boy with stardust in his smile, sipping your drink while the chaos unfurls around you. You’re the calm in their storm, the softness they return to.
But not tonight.
Because tonight, someone is trying to touch what’s yours.
And whether Remus knows it yet or not, whether that girl ever figures out just how royally she’s miscalculated, one thing is already certain.
You are about to stop being the quiet one.
“Moony’s got his fan club going tonight, huh?” Sirius says, his tone casual, his fingers playing with a loose thread on the hem of your sleeve. “I swear, every time he talks to a girl, she looks like she’s ready to devour him.”
You hum, an absent sound, not really acknowledging him. Your gaze stays fixed on Remus and that damn girl, the way she’s tossing her hair back and laughing too loudly.
“You okay, dove?” His voice drops a little, his fingers tracing the line of your spine with a slow, deliberate motion.
You want to lie. You want to say it’s fine, that you’re just tired or distracted, but the words get stuck in your throat. Instead, you give a small shake of your head, the fluttering in your chest too strong to ignore.
“I’m fine,” you mutter, a little too quickly. “Just… thinking.”
Sirius’s eyes narrow slightly, but he doesn’t push. He knows you well enough to sense when you need space, but tonight, there’s something different. The energy in the room feels electric, like it’s just waiting for a spark.
Remus laughs again from across the room, and this time, the girl reaches up to touch his arm, her fingers trailing lightly along his sleeve. The sight, the sound, the way her body leans just a little too close to his, sends a pang of something sharp through you. Your breath catches in your throat as you watch her lean in, her lips too close to his ear as she whispers something.
Your fingers grip the edge of the couch, your nails digging into the fabric. You feel like you’re going to snap at any moment, and you’re so sick of it.
Sirius seems to notice the shift in the air. His hand halts on your back, and he turns his head toward Remus and the girl, then back to you. His expression softens, understanding settling in. He leans forward, his voice low as he speaks, a slight smirk playing on his lips.
“Love, I think we’ve reached a new level here,” he says, voice laced with something almost teasing. “You’ve been staring at him for ages now.”
You swallow hard, trying to keep the fluttering in your chest under control. “I’m not staring,” you say, but even you can hear the edge in your voice.
He raises an eyebrow. “Oh? ‘Cause I think you’ve definitely been staring. You want me to go over there and break it up?”
“No,” you snap, a little too quickly, and then you freeze, realizing just how harsh you sound. You soften your tone, but the words still feel like they’re cutting you open. “I… I don’t know.”
Sirius doesn’t push you, but he watches you carefully, his lips curling into a small, knowing smile.
You shift uncomfortably, your gaze returning to Remus and the girl. It’s like a magnet pulling you in, the way she laughs again, her hand resting on his shoulder now, fingers tracing the outline of his collarbone.
The thought makes you want to scream.
You watch the girl lean in closer, her breath light against his ear as she says something you can’t hear, but you can see it in the way her lashes flutter and her lips curl. It’s an obvious flirtation, the kind of thing that would make anyone else swoon, but you just feel your stomach twist in knots. Remus gives a tight, polite smile, the one he always does when he’s too kind to be rude, but you know that smile too well. It’s a mask, a shield, and you can see right through it. He’s uncomfortable, but he doesn’t stop her.
The touch lingers. And Remus—sweet, gentle, infuriating Remus—doesn’t stop her.
He doesn’t pull away. Doesn’t step back. He doesn’t even glance in your direction.
And maybe that’s the worst part.
Maybe he’s just being polite. Maybe he’s too soft-spoken for his own good. Maybe he thinks you don’t mind, that you’re tucked up on the couch beside Sirius, warm and safe and unbothered. Maybe he’s forgotten that while you may be quiet, you’re not blind.
But oh, you care.
You care enough that your drink is forgotten in your hand, the condensation sliding over your fingers like cold sweat. You care enough that your jaw clenches tight, the muscle ticking with a quiet fury that pulses behind your ribs. There’s a pressure building in your chest, a weight that has nothing to do with insecurity and everything to do with possession.
You’ve always known what’s yours.
And Remus?
He is yours.
The room around you begins to blur, voices fading into background noise, like someone’s turned the volume down on the rest of the party. The flickering firelight, the chatter of students, the low buzz of magical music—all of it dulls. All you can see is the way she’s looking at him, lips parted in a practiced little smile, eyes batting as if she’s never had to work hard for attention in her life.
You hear her laugh—sharp and high and entirely insincere—and it cuts through you like a blade. Remus chuckles along with her, and it’s that sound, that soft little sound of his, that makes something in your spine snap straight. His eyes catch the light just right, that familiar glint of mischief and charm you’ve seen a thousand times when he’s teasing you softly beneath the covers, and it stings more than you’d like to admit.
And suddenly, you are no longer the quiet girl curled in the corner.
You are no longer the soft one who waits patiently for your boys to come home to you.
You are standing up, not with a shout or a dramatic flourish, but with a kind of cold certainty, like the sea deciding to rise. Sirius shifts beside you instinctively, his hand brushing your back as he senses the change in the air, his voice dipping with curiosity.
“Love?” he says quietly, brows raising. “Everything alright?”
You don’t answer. Not yet.
Because your eyes are still locked on the girl in the too-tight blouse and the too-pretty smile and the entirely wrong assumption that she has any right to touch your Remus like she belongs there.
She doesn’t.
And she’s about to learn exactly why.
It never felt like you needed to compete for Remus’s attention. He had always been yours in that quiet, unspoken way—his careful gestures, the soft smiles he gave you when no one was looking, the way he always made sure you were okay, even when you didn’t ask. You had a bond, something deeper than words. But now, watching him allow her to invade that space, something inside you snaps.
She’s leaning into him like he’s already hers, one manicured hand lingering on his forearm, like she doesn’t see the slight pullback in his posture. Like she doesn’t notice the way his smile doesn’t quite reach his eyes.
Sirius’s hand slips off your thigh, stunned. “Where’re you going?”
“To get what’s mine.” you say, and your voice is soft, sultry, but it slices through the noise like a blade.
James chokes on his drink. Lily turns, eyebrows lifting as she watches you stalk forward, hips swaying, jumper slouching off one bare shoulder. You hear someone mutter, “Bloody hell.” and you don’t even need to look to know Marlene is probably grinning like a wolf.
The girl is still touching Remus. Still laughing.
You don’t give her the chance to speak. You don’t give him a moment to explain, or to blink, or to pretend he doesn’t feel the air shift as you close the distance between you like a storm cloaked in silk.
Your fingers slip beneath the hem of his jumper, curl tightly into the soft wool, and tug. Hard. Hard enough that he stumbles forward, just one step, just enough to crash into your gravity.
His eyes find yours, startled and wide, and for a heartbeat he forgets where he is. The party, the music, the girl whose perfume is still clinging to the air around him—all of it vanishes the moment your lips catch his.
It is not a kiss built from politeness or affection. It is not the kind of thing meant for privacy or delicacy.
This kiss is war.
It’s bruising and slow and devastating, like a spell whispered in the middle of a battlefield. Your hand tangles in his curls and tugs, just enough to make him gasp into your mouth. Your other hand slides down to his belt, fingers brushing over the buckle, teasing with the lightest hint of promise. You tilt your head to deepen it, your lips parting just slightly, just enough to taste him.
He groans, low and helpless, the sound caught between your mouths, and you smile against him, smug and sinful.
When you finally pull away, his lips are pink and glistening and parted like he’s about to say something but hasn’t figured out what language he speaks anymore. His hands are still hovering at your hips, and his chest is rising with uneven breath, eyes clouded with something that’s definitely not confusion.
You turn to the girl, and she looks like she’s just witnessed something religious and blasphemous at the same time. Her mouth is hanging open. Her expression is frozen in that awkward no-man’s-land between horror and disbelief.
“Oh,” you say sweetly, voice thick with honey and venom, “were you still talking? Only he seems a bit busy now.”
She blinks. Opens her mouth. Closes it. You don’t give her time to think. You trail your fingers down the front of Remus’s chest, slowly, like you’re remembering the way his body feels under your hands and enjoying every second of it. You play with the collar of his shirt, letting your nails drag across the fabric, soft and sure.
Your eyes never leave hers.
“I mean,” you go on, voice quieter now, conversational in a way that is somehow even more intimidating, “I don’t blame you. Honestly. Look at him. He’s got that whole clever boy thing going on, right? The kind of boy who knows all the answers in class and still somehow makes you want to climb into his lap and ruin his concentration. And don’t even get me started on that body—tall and lean and unfair, and the scars…” you let your fingers trail over his chest again, nails teasing the fabric, “Body built like a sin under those clothes, too bad only me and Sirius get to see it though.” 
A grin spreads across your face, wide and wicked like a cheshire cat.
Remus lets out a sound that’s definitely not family friendly and buries his face in your neck for a second, either to breathe you in or to hide the fact that he might actually combust.
James lets out a strangled sound from across the room. “What the actual hell is going on?”
Lily is watching with wide, fascinated eyes, looking between you and the girl like she’s witnessing a lioness dismantle a bunny in slow motion. Marlene, from her spot near the fireplace, raises her drink in silent toast and mutters, “Finally.”
You lean in close to Remus, pressing your lips to the shell of his ear. “But here’s the thing,” you whisper, just loud enough for the girl to still hear. 
“He’s mine.”
Then you pull back and look her dead in the eye, your gaze soft but lethal.
“And I don’t share.”
The girl blinks once. Twice. Then turns with all the grace of someone trying not to run.
Remus just stares at you for a long moment, breathless, hands still planted on your waist like he’s afraid to let go in case the earth tilts and he floats away.
“What the hell just happened?” he asks, voice low, rough, and wrecked.
Sirius appears beside you like smoke, sliding his arm around your waist as he grins like you’ve hung the bloody stars for him.
The girl’s mouth parts, clearly searching for a clever retort, something sharp or self-righteous or maybe even pathetic to claw her dignity back from the floor where you left it. But the words never come. Her lips tremble like she’s buffering. You don’t give her the chance to reboot.
Instead, with calm that borders on cruelty, you turn back to Remus and brush your lips against the corner of his mouth. Not a full kiss this time, but something quieter, more dangerous. A period at the end of a sentence she was never invited to read. 
You feel the way he freezes for just a moment, breath hitching as your fingers slide up to rest at the base of his throat, just enough pressure to remind him—and everyone watching—exactly who he belongs to.
The common room is stunned into silence. Even the portrait hole seems to creak softer, like the whole castle is holding its breath.
And then James, bless his nosy little soul, practically falls off the arm of the couch. He stares at you with something like religious awe, eyes as wide as Galleons, hand clutching his drink like a lifeline.
“That,” he says reverently, voice cracking with disbelief, “was the hottest thing I have ever witnessed. And I saw Sirius in a crop top once.”
Sirius doesn’t even bother to pretend he’s unaffected. He slumps back against the couch, one hand dragging through his hair like he’s trying to keep his brain from melting. His grin is crooked and wild, like he’s seeing you for the first time all over again.
“Merlin’s tits,” he says, almost reverent. “I think I’m in love. Again.”
Lily, sitting upright with her legs crossed like she’s hosting a panel discussion, blinks slowly. Her jaw is slightly ajar, her drink forgotten on the floor.
“Did she just… flirt and threaten simultaneously?” she asks, clearly reevaluating everything she thought she knew about you.
Marlene doesn’t even bother to hide her grin. She claps once, loud and delighted, and leans forward with sparkling eyes.
“Oh, I love her,” she announces with glee. “Someone give that girl a crown and a throne and maybe a leather corset. She just out-Slytherined the entire House.”
You don’t look away from Remus. He’s still breathless, a little dazed, his lips parted like he’s forgotten how to speak. His hands are at your waist now, gripping softly like he needs to touch you just to make sure you’re real.
You lean in, voice velvet-sweet, and say, “Now Remmy, were you going to let her keep touching you or should I start hexing?”
Sirius, meanwhile, is leaning back like a man thoroughly entertained, one arm draped across Remus’ shoulder with a love-sick gaze in his eyes.
Remus just blinks for a moment, his mouth parted, completely undone. Then a sound escapes him, surprised and delighted, something between a laugh and a groan, like you’ve just knocked the wind out of him in the best way.
“I think I’m in love with you all over again,” he says, a little dazed.
And then Sirius leans over, as if conjured by the heat of the moment, slipping in behind you like gravity itself gave him no choice. His hands slide over your hips, warm and certain, like they’ve always belonged there. He leans in until his mouth brushes your neck, breath hot and voice lower than sin.
“That,” he murmurs, lips grazing your skin, “was art. You’ve officially ruined me. I’ll never recover.”
You shrug, casual as anything, but your pulse is thundering and your eyes are glowing and the adrenaline is still singing in your bones like an aria. “Good,” you say simply, and it lands like a spell.
The common room hasn’t even recovered. Conversations haven’t resumed. Heads are still tilted in your direction like they’re not quite sure what just happened, if they witnessed a declaration or a detonation. And maybe it was both. You were the quiet girl. The sweet one. The one with gentle touches and soft smiles who moved like a secret in a room full of noise.
But tonight? Tonight, they watched you stand like you were carved from something divine, watched you kiss Remus like he was yours and always had been, watched you claim your place not as an afterthought, but as a force of nature wrapped in wool and confidence.
And Remus? He’s still holding your waist like he might never let go. Sirius looks like he’d fight anyone who even breathes in your direction the wrong way.
Together, they look ready to tear the world apart if it means keeping you. And somehow, the quiet girl has become the storm they’d die for
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mnnuni · 2 months ago
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Honestly? The best treat I could give myself this weekend was reading this masterpiece.
Loved it.
domestic fantasy ; jake 'hangman' seresin
fandom: top gun
pairing: jake x reader
summary: your ex is coming back to collect some things he left behind and you accidentally tell him that you have a new boyfriend, so hangman accepts the role of your new (fake) boyfriend
notes: did i spent the last three days writing for 8-10 hours a day? yes... am i going slightly insane? also yes... but guys!!! fake dating!!! i don't know how i vomited this fic up so quick, jake is just so easy for me to write (i think it's because i love him but not in a soul-crushing way like the way i love rooster?) anyway, PLEASE enjoy and please, please let me know what you think!
warnings: swearing, alcohol consumption, reader is shorter than hangman (just want to mention it), allusions to sex, and it's pretty horny so 18+ ONLY please! let me know if i’ve missed anything!
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“This weekend?” Your voice is unsteady, but you hope the crackling from the poor phone reception is enough to mask it. “I’m not sure if I can do this weekend.” 
Spencer sighs, clearly frustrated by your repeated attempts to keep him away from San Diego. “Look, I know you don’t want to do this—and honestly, neither do I—but it has to be done. I’ll only be in town for a couple of days. I’ll grab some boxes, hire a van, and get them shipped straight to my condo. Don’t you want your spare room back?” 
You gnaw nervously on your bottom lip as you glance out at the open-plan office space, hoping none of your coworkers are listening too closely to your phone conversation. 
You broke up with Spencer six months ago, after dating for nearly four years, and he left in such a rush that almost an entire room of his stuff stayed behind. It isn't anything important—mostly old sports gear and college memorabilia—and it’s not like he’s needed any of it. The breakup hit him hard, and he spent the following four months backpacking around Europe to clear his head. He’s only been back at his condo in Upstate New York for two months, and during that time, he’s been relentlessly bugging you to let him come pick up his things. 
It’s not like you want to hold on to anything that reminds you of him, but you desperately do not want to see him again. You offered a few times to pack up his things and ship them to him, but he flat-out refused. He even called it a violation of privacy now that you’re no longer together. So, about a month ago, you told him you’d find a free weekend for him to come by and collect the rest of his stuff—and you’ve done everything you can to avoid it since. 
“Okay,” you mutter, turning away from the office to face the window overlooking North Island Naval Air Station. “But you can’t stay at the apartment.” 
“What?” Spencer snaps. “Why? It’ll be so much easier. I’ll be in an out in three days, tops.” 
“Three days?” you echo. “Spence, that’s my whole weekend gone.” 
“There’s a lot of stuff,” he argues. “I could bring Harry with me, if-” 
“You are not bringing your brother, Spencer.” You stomp your foot, despite the conversation being over the phone. “Look, if that’s how long it’ll take, then fine. But you are not staying at the apartment. You can’t. My boyfriend just moved in last week.” The last few words slip out before you can stop them. 
Fuck. 
There’s a beat of silence before Spencer speaks again, his voice wavering. “Boyfriend?” 
You tip your head back and take a deep breath. “Yes, boyfriend.” 
Another awkward stretch of silence. 
“Okay... I’ll stay at the motel around the corner,” he says. 
You nod, even though he can’t see you. “Good.” 
“See you Friday, then.” 
“See you Friday.” 
You pull the phone away from your ear and tap the red button, watching Spencer’s caller ID photo flicker out before the screen goes black. With a sigh, your arms drop to your sides, and you lean forward until your forehead rests against the windowpane with a soft, dull thud. 
What the fuck did you just do? 
Gravel crunches beneath your tires as you swerve into the parking lot of The Hard Deck bar. You pull up beside a familiar Ford Bronco, yanking the parking brake just a little too hard before practically stumbling out of the car. Your feet carry you across the lot and through the front door before coming to a stop as you survey the room, searching for the familiar face you came here to find. Across the bar, tucked into the booth closest to the pool table, are your friends. They’re sipping beers and chatting happily, blissfully unaware that an electrical storm of stress and anxiety is headed right for them. 
You weave through the tables and other patrons with determination, your breath coming and going in quick, anxious bursts. Your feet only stop when you reach your friends’ table, and their conversation quickly dies as they each turn to look at you. 
Jake’s brows pinch. “Hey, are you okay?” 
You suck your bottom lip between your teeth and bite down nervously, unsure how to reply. 
Javy, who was sitting next to Jake, stands up and nods toward the bar. “I’m going to grab another drink. Want anything?” 
You nod. “Whatever you’re having.” 
He gives you a cheeky wink before striding off toward the bar. You watch him for a few seconds before turning back to the booth and sliding in beside Jake, leaning into him and letting your head fall on his shoulder. 
Natasha sits across from you, her head tilted and a curious glint in her narrowed eyes. “You look like you’ve seen a ghost.” 
“Not yet, I haven’t,” you say, before letting out an exasperated sigh. “My ex is coming back this weekend.” 
She rears back and sits up straight, her brows raised. “Coming back to stay?” 
You lift your head from Jake’s shoulder and shake it softly. “Nah. He just wants to pick up everything he left behind.” 
Jake shifts beside you, his arm sliding around your lower back almost possessively—but you know he only means to comfort you. “Including you?” he asks, his tone playful but laced with a hint of uncertainty. 
You snort and turn to face him, a little startled by how close those piercing green eyes are. “Of course not. Or at least, I hope not. I mean, I think I made it pretty damn clear he wasn’t getting me back, even if he was planning to try.” You trail off, turning away, unsure how to bring up the real reason you came here tonight—the question that’s been gnawing at you since your phone conversation with Spencer. 
“Okay,” Nat says, “so, what’s the big deal?” 
You suck in a deep breath, filling your lungs as you gather every shred of dignity you still have left. “I told him he couldn’t stay at the apartment because… my boyfriend just moved in.” 
Natasha’s brows shoot up toward her hairline and her mouth pops open. Amusement dances behind her eyes, but she has the decency to hold it back as you drop your head into your hands and let out a groan. “I fucked up.” 
Beside Natasha, Mickey leans forward. “But you don’t have a boyfriend?” 
You look up at him and scowl. “No shit.” 
“Oh.” He nods slowly, fighting the grin that tugs at his lips. 
“So, what are you going to do?” Reuben pipes up from the other end of the table, looking just as amused as the rest of your friends. 
“Well...” You lean back, pressing your shoulder blades into the vinyl of the booth as you twist your neck to glance at the man beside you. “I was going to ask Jake if he could help me... pretend.” 
Jake’s smirk fades, and a flush creeps into his cheeks. His green eyes widen, the usual cocky confidence replaced by startled confusion. “What? Why me?” 
You shrug, trying to act nonchalant about asking the man you regularly fantasise about to be your fake boyfriend. “It just makes the most sense. I’ve known you the longest.” Your eyes flick toward the other boys at the table. “No offense, but Jake and I just have better chemistry—and Spencer knew it. He was always a little threatened by our friendship.” 
You shift your gaze back to Jake, who’s still looking stunned, his lips parted slightly. 
“Plus, I only broke up with Spencer six months ago. I couldn’t have met someone new and asked them to move in that fast. It has to be someone I already knew.” You widen your eyes and bat your lashes dramatically. “Please, Jake. I’ll do anything.” 
He blinks at you, cheeks still tinged pink. “Define anything,” he says, that cocky smirk slowly starting to return. 
“Whatever you want,” you reply, planting both hands on his thigh closest to you—oblivious to the fact that it makes his dick twitch in his jeans. “You know I’m good for it.” 
Jake coughs into his hand, shifting slightly, trying to hold onto his bravado while making sure your touch doesn’t creep any higher. “Alright,” he says, voice a little rougher than before. “I’ll do it.” 
You raise a brow. “That easy?” 
He lifts a finger. “On one condition.” 
You narrow your eyes, suspicious. “Which is?” 
He leans in, that cocky smirk curling at the edge of his lips. “I want a home-cooked dinner. Every night I’m there. Candles. Music. Maybe a little wine. You know... boyfriend perks.” 
Natasha snorts across the table. “You mean domestic fantasy perks.” 
Jake just shrugs, eyes still locked on yours. “Hey, if I’m going to play house, I want the full experience.” 
You swallow hard, but your mouth moves before your brain catches up. “Deal.” 
He grins wider, and this time you’re pretty sure it’s not just cockiness—it’s anticipation. 
You pace in circles around your kitchen island, one arm tucked under your breasts, holding your opposite elbow as you anxiously gnaw on your thumbnail. Jake is supposed to be here any minute, and the cork in the bottle of nerves rattling around in your stomach just won’t stay put. 
You’ve known Jake for years. You met in college and, despite the distance with his deployments, have been metaphorically inseparable ever since. But physically? That was a little harder, obviously. 
You’ve always had a soft spot for Jake—a bit of a crush, but you were never foolish enough to think anything could come of it. You’ve been perfectly content being his friend, never pushing for more. But every single one of your boyfriends? They hated him. You can’t blame them, really—Jake has that effect on people. That cocky, irresistible charm that makes it impossible for anyone else to ignore him. 
Still, you can’t shake the guilt creeping in. Fooling Spencer into thinking you and Jake are together? After all those times you promised him there was nothing more than friendship between you and Jake? It feels wrong. Even if Spencer never really took your word for it. 
A knock at the door pulls you out of your spiralling thoughts, and you hurry to answer it. Jake is standing on the other side, looking even more irresistible than usual. There’s no uniform today, no flight suit or polished boots. Instead, he's wearing a simple white t-shirt and jeans, and somehow that makes him look even better. His hair is messy, not gelled like it usually is, and the scruff on his jaw—a day’s worth of stubble—only adds to the allure. He looks... delicious in a way that’s totally different from the polished, put-together fighter pilot you’re used to. 
“Hey, girlfriend,” he says with a smirk, “sorry I’m late.” 
Your brain and mouth have completely short-circuited, leaving you with no choice but to smile, nod, and step aside to let him in. He’s got a duffel bag slung over his shoulder and a box of random belongings in his arms—little odds and ends that someone might have lying around their apartment. 
Jake drops the box onto the kitchen counter and turns back to you. “What time is Spencer the Snob getting here?” 
You roll your eyes, crossing your arms. “In about an hour. Do you think you can manage to be civilized?” 
“Yes,” he replies, his voice sharp as he props his hands on his hips. “Can he be civilised?” 
“Spencer is always civilized.” 
You walk over to the box and start pulling out items, mentally sorting them. But Jake isn’t done. 
He scoffs, shaking his head. “Spencer is not always civilized. He’s just really good at hiding what a complete dick he is.” 
You turn and lean your hip against the countertop, raising one eyebrow. “You only don’t like him because he didn’t like you first. And let’s be honest, that’s because you bought me lingerie for the first birthday that I was with him. He didn’t get the joke and thought it was way too suggestive.” 
Jake snorts, his jade eyes lighting up with mischief. “Yeah, that was a good one. I’ll never forget the look on his face.” 
You resist the urge to laugh and roll your eyes again, turning back to the box. “I’ll admit, Spence is a little snobby. But that’s just how he was raised. It’s not his fault he’s got money.” 
Jake’s expression darkens, and he narrows his eyes at the affectionate nickname. “Spence?” 
“Sorry,” you say, your cheeks flushing pink. “Force of habit.” 
The two of you move quietly around the apartment, slipping into an easy rhythm as you make space for Jake’s things. You tuck two framed photos of his family onto the bookshelf, nestled between your novels, and slide one of his official Navy portraits beside them—one you definitely wouldn’t mind keeping. 
He hangs a jacket and a couple of worn caps on the hooks by the door and drops two pairs of his boots beside your own lineup of shoes. You clear off a bedside table for him to clutter with his things, and listen to the soft clink of bottles as he unpacks his toiletries in the bathroom. 
Finally, you add a towel for him to the rack beside the shower. And for a moment, you let yourself imagine it: the two of you in there together. His hot, slick skin pressed to yours, the steam curling around your tangled limbs. His hands sliding soap across your body, rinsing you slow and thorough. He’d wash your hair too, fingers working into your scalp until your eyes fluttered closed—and then you’d return the favour, watching his mouth part in bliss beneath your touch. 
“Hello?” Jake waves a hand in front of your face. “Anyone home?” 
You blink rapidly and turn to face him, only to find him standing way too close with that maddening smirk tugging at his lips. Your eyes flick up to his, and the look he gives you is downright dangerous—curious, cocky, and just a little bit amused. 
“You good, sweetheart?” he asks, tilting his head. “You’re lookin’ a little hot under the collar.” 
Your mouth opens, but nothing comes out. Instead, you let out a weird half-laugh, half-scoff and sidestep him like he’s radioactive. “I’m fine. It’s just warm in here. Is it warm in here?” 
Jake leans back against the bathroom doorframe, arms crossed and eyes glittering. “Could be. Or maybe you were just thinkin’ about something real steamy.” 
You choke on air. “Excuse me?” 
He shrugs, all faux innocence. “Just sayin’... you’ve got that look. Like your brain wandered somewhere it probably shouldn’t have.” 
You grab a towel—any towel—and smack him in the chest. “Shut up.” 
Jake laughs, catching the towel with one hand like he knew it was coming. “Whatever it was, must’ve been good.” 
When he finally steps aside, you scurry past like lingering too long might scorch your skin. Only once you’ve turned down the hall and reached the kitchen—putting a safe stretch of space between you and him—do you exhale the breath you didn’t realize you were holding. 
“Okay,” you say, planting both palms against the cool, marble countertop. “Spencer is going to be here in half an hour, so we have exactly thirty minutes to practice being a couple.” 
Jake smirks like this is nothing—like he’s been in this exact situation a hundred times before. “You tell me what you’re comfortable with, darlin’.” He steps up to the other side of the kitchen island and leans forward, mirroring your posture. 
You tilt your head slightly, a playful smile tugging at your lips as you narrow your eyes at him. “We need to look convincing. No weirdness, no pulling faces. Just... act natural.” 
Jake cocks an eyebrow, clearly enjoying himself. “Natural, huh? So, no kissing? Not even a little peck?” 
You try to focus, but the way he’s leaning across the island—just far enough to make the space between you feel electrified—throws you off. “Uh, no. Nothing like that. We’ll start slow. Hold hands, sit close... you know, the easy stuff.” 
Jake’s grin widens, his gaze flickering down to your lips before locking onto your eyes. “Hold hands, sit close. Got it. But what if I make you want to kiss me? I’m really good at that.” 
You feel the heat spreading through your chest, but you refuse to let him see it. “You think you can make me want to kiss you?” You raise an eyebrow, trying to match his cockiness. 
He leans even further toward you and drops his voice low, the teasing edge still there but with a smouldering intensity you’re having a hard time ignoring. “Oh, sweetheart. I know I can. All I need is the right moment.” 
You can’t help but laugh nervously, your pulse quickening as he stays there, so close you can feel the heat of his presence even if the island bench is still separating you. “Well, we’ve got thirty minutes to see if you can keep your hands to yourself, Seresin,” you tease, but there’s an edge to it now—a hint of challenge. 
Jake leans in a little more, his gaze fixed on you, like he’s seconds away from crossing the line. “Trust me, darlin’. I can keep my hands to myself... but only if you can keep your hands off me.” 
Your chest rises and falls faster than usual, your head spinning slightly from all the extra oxygen surging through your blood. You part your lips, ready to fire back something just as cocky—something to keep the volley going—but the sharp chime of your phone slices through the tension, and both your gazes snap to where it buzzes on the countertop. 
You settle back onto your heels, and reach for your phone, huffing out a small, frustrated sigh before sliding the answer button and pressing it to your ear. “Hey, Spencer.” 
“Hey, how are you?” 
Your eyes slide toward Jake, who is looking almost as frustrated as you feel. “Fine. How far out are you?” 
Spencer chuckles, and something inside of you instinctively recoils, even though the sound itself isn’t particularly offensive. “I’m great, thanks for asking. The flight was fine, a little bumpy, but we made it. I’m just waiting at baggage claim, so I’ll be about twenty minutes.” 
“No worries,” you say, “see you soon.” 
You hang up before he even finishes saying goodbye, drop your phone face-down on the bench, and glance back at Jake. “Alright, let’s go over the details. We started dating three months after Spencer left. You asked me out, and I was a little surprised.” 
Jake frowns, already halfway to an objection, but you cut him off with a raised hand. “Just go with it, okay? It keeps my integrity intact. You have no idea how many times I had to convince him I wasn’t into you.” 
His frown fades fast, replaced by that maddeningly smug smirk. “Go on, then.” 
You roll your eyes, but continue. “I was surprised, but everything just... clicked. Being best friends made the relationship feel natural. That’s why things have moved fast. You were already here most nights, your rent went up, so you moved in two weeks ago.” 
Jake nods like he’s logging it all away. “Okay, but more importantly—how’s the sex?” 
You stare, deadpan. “Seriously?” 
He shrugs, hands raised like a saint. “What? It’s a legitimate question. Spencer might ask.” 
“I highly fucking doubt it.” 
Jake chuckles. “Yeah, fair. Still worth a shot.” 
With a long, theatrical exhale, you walk around the kitchen island and stop in front of him. “Alright, let’s talk touching.” 
His eyes light up, devilish. “Now you’re speaking my language.” 
You ignore him. “I’m ticklish, so don’t touch my ribs or ghost over my arms—I will flinch.” 
“I know.” 
You pause. “Okay…” You shake your head, ignoring the question trying to form. “I’m not huge on PDA, but I like lingering touches. Just small things, to remind each other we’re there.” 
“I know,” he says again, that smirk glued in place. 
The question in your head itches a little louder, but you push it aside. “And if we go out—which I really hope we don’t—make sure you’re always sitting next to me. I hate it when couples sit across from each other. I don’t want to gaze into your eyes, I want to feel your warmth.” 
Jake’s smirk splits into a wide, boyish grin. “I know.” 
The floodgates crack. “How the fuck do you know everything?” 
He leans in just slightly, voice soft but sure. “Because I know you. I’ve watched you with every guy you’ve dated. Just because I wasn’t the guy doesn’t mean I haven’t been paying attention.” 
You blink, reeling from the quiet truth in his tone. It hits you like a gust of wind—real, unshakable. You actually have to take a step back to steady yourself. There’s no teasing in his voice, no smug edge. Just Jake, earnest and open in a way that’s rare. 
And it almost wrecks you. 
Jake might be cocky and insufferable ninety percent of the time—but when he loves, he does it fiercely. Deeply. Fully. And you’ve always known you were lucky to be one of the people he loves. 
But for the first time, you let your mind wander somewhere dangerous. What would it be like to be loved by Jake Seresin—not just as a friend, but as his person? His everything? 
“So,” Jake says, cutting through the tension like a hot knife through butter, “where should I touch you first?” 
You close your eyes for a beat, reminding yourself that this is still Jake—insufferable, irritating Jake. “You don’t have to be weird and over the top about it. When he gets here, you can just sit on the couch, then I’ll join you and sit close. You can put a hand on my thigh.” 
Jake’s brows furrow, his face contorting with mild disgust. “I know you’re trying not to make him uncomfortable, but that’s not going to work. Think about it—your ex is coming over, and your current boyfriend is just sitting casually on the couch? Not buying it.” 
You roll your eyes again, hoping to avoid yet another pointless argument. “Jake, this doesn’t need to be-” 
“You told him you’re dating me,” he interrupts, poking his chest with a finger. “And if this was real, I’d be making damn sure I had a hand on you at all times.” 
You raise an eyebrow, trying to ignore how your body reacts to his proximity and his words. Heat floods your chest and settles behind your hipbones, desire tightening in places you don’t want to think about right now. “You don’t need to stake your claim, Jake. Spencer isn’t here to win me back.” 
Jake steps closer, cutting the distance between you until there’s barely two feet separating you. “You don’t know that.” His voice lowers slightly, making the air between you feel thick and electric. “And yes, I do. If you want him to believe we’re dating, then you need to let me do exactly what I would do if this was real.” 
You’re not sure whether he’s just being cocky or trying to show off, but damn it, he’s making a good point. “Okay, fine. But don’t make him uncomfortable.” 
Jake’s smirk widens, taking on that familiar, smug edge. “No promises, darlin’.” 
You spend the next ten minutes pretending to clean—wiping already spotless counters, rearranging throw pillows, and dusting things that definitely don’t need dusting. All while Jake lounges on the couch like this is the easiest job he’s ever had. 
“It’s three days, sweetheart,” he says. “By Sunday, Spencer will be back in his overpriced New York apartment sipping single malt and Googling himself.” 
You snort but say nothing. Three days. Just two dinners and one brunch. You’ll keep the visits restricted to daylight hours, keep Jake close, keep your story straight—and by Sunday afternoon, Spencer will be out of your apartment and out of your life. 
That’s the plan, anyway. 
But as you glance over at Jake—sprawled out, so completely at ease in your space, looking infuriatingly good even in his most relaxed state—you start to question the rest of it. 
Because it’s not Spencer you’re worried about fooling anymore. It’s yourself. And when Jake turns his head and catches you staring, smirking like he knows exactly what you're thinking? 
Yeah. This might be harder than you thought. 
The intercom buzzes, loud and sudden, startling you from your task of rearranging the flowers on the dining table. Your heart launches into your throat, pounding like you’ve just jumped from a plane without a parachute. 
Jake chuckles and rises from the couch, strolling over to the intercom with infuriating confidence. He presses the button and leans in. “Come on up.” 
You force your feet to move, carrying you toward him and not stopping until you’re right beside him. You press yourself against him and the moment your body meets his, heat blooms under your skin. It’s not new—you've touched him before—but it feels different. More charged. More deliberate. Jake’s arm slides around your waist without hesitation, and his fingers curl into your hip, firm and possessive. There’s a subtle squeeze and the pad of his thumb grazes a sliver of skin just beneath the hem of your shirt. 
You feel it everywhere. 
He leans in, his lips brushing the shell of your ear as he murmurs, “It’s showtime, sweetheart.” 
Your breath stutters. This is just pretend. 
Your heart pounds against your sternum, each beat like the tick of a countdown clock. The elevator dings. Footsteps echo down the hallway. Closer, closer. You draw in a deep breath and hold it, ignoring the sharp ache it sends through your chest. 
“Relax,” Jake murmurs, pulling you tighter against his side as he reaches for the doorknob. 
The second the footsteps stop, he yanks the door open—no chance for a knock. 
“Spence!” Jake beams, like they’re old frat brothers reunited. “Come in, buddy. How are you?” 
You nearly snort. The absurdity of his enthusiasm bubbles up in your throat, but you bite your lip hard enough to keep it down. 
Spencer looks good—but all it does is remind you how little you miss him. His perfectly coiffed blonde hair hasn’t changed one bit, but he’s tanner than you remember—courtesy of the European sun, no doubt. He’s not as tall as Jake, but he’s got that same overinflated ego. The difference? Jake’s cockiness comes from… well, let’s just say it’s probably anatomical. Spencer’s is inherited—passed down with a trust fund and a country club membership. 
He’s dressed exactly as you expected: a sky-blue Ralph Lauren polo, crisp white pants with a crease so sharp it could slice bread, and tan boat shoes—an ironic choice, considering he’s terrified of boats. 
But it’s his face that really seals the moment. Jaw unhinged, eyes wide, staring at Jake like he just opened the door to a ghost. Or maybe something worse: the ghost of his ex-girlfriend’s new sex life. 
“Jake?” Spencer finally says. “Your new boyfriend is Jake Seresin?” 
Jake’s grin is unbothered—like this is the moment he’s been waiting for his whole life. “The one and only.” 
You feel his hand press a little firmer into your waist, anchoring you there like you might suddenly run—and you’d be lying if you said you weren’t tempted. 
Spencer steps further into the apartment, his eyes glued to Jake’s smug face. “I thought you said there was nothing going on between you two.” 
Your stomach twists, but you keep your voice even. “There wasn’t. Not back then.” 
Spencer glances at you. “You told me I was being paranoid. That he was just your friend.” 
Jake chuckles. “I remember you telling me about that.” 
You shoot him a look that’s supposed to say “not helping,” but he just smiles innocently and shrugs. 
Spencer looks seconds away from spontaneously combusting. “I trusted you,” he says, starting to sound like the whiny, private-school rich kid you always tried to ignore. “You promised me nothing would ever happen with him.” 
“Yeah, that was then, and this is now. Things change, Spence—and this has nothing to do with you,” you say, tone sharpening. If he’s going to act like a child, then you're going to treat him like one. 
Jake’s hand slides from your waist to the small of your back, his thumb sweeping in a slow, easy circle like he’s soothing a spark before it ignites. “People change, bud. Timing is everything.” 
Spencer folds his arms, visibly rattled. “So, what—he swooped in the second I left?” 
Jake tilts his head, eyes full of mock offense. “Swooped? Come on. Give me a little credit. She came to me.” 
You snap your head toward him, about to object, but his grin is wicked and the mischief in his eyes dares you to play along. 
“Well...” You drag the word out, buying a few precious seconds to stitch your story together. “Technically, yes. I was upset after the breakup, so of course I turned to my best friend for comfort.” 
Spencer’s blue-grey eyes narrow. “You broke up with me.” 
“That she did, pal.” Jake tries for a sympathetic look, but you know better—he’s enjoying this a little too much. 
“Just because I ended things doesn’t mean it didn’t rattle me,” you shoot back, trying to shift the focus away from Jake. “We were together for four years, Spencer. That’s a long time. I just had the guts to do what you didn’t. So, forgive me if I’m not in the mood to explain myself to you. I don’t owe you anything—and my new relationship? It’s none of your business.” 
You see his expression twist into an offended scowl, and anger flickers in your chest. The nerve of him, acting like you still owe him something just because you pulled the plug first. 
“For the record,” you continue, voice cool and firm, “yeah, I leaned on Jake. And somewhere along the line, I found something a lot deeper.” 
Then, without missing a beat, you glance at Jake—who’s already wearing that cocky smirk—and let one of your own curve across your lips as you look back at Spencer. 
“Actually,” you say, eyes narrowing with satisfaction, “I think it was Jake who found something a little deeper… if you know what I mean.” 
Jake snorts, slapping his hand over his mouth, but he can’t suppress the gleeful chuckle bubbling from his lips. Spencer, on the other hand, looks utterly humbled—his cheeks are bright red and his jaw is hanging open like he’s just been slapped across the face. 
You step away from Jake, waiting for his hand to drop so you can grab it. The second your fingers slide into his, a rush of warmth zips up your arm, and you try to ignore how good it feels, but damn, it’s hard. 
“Get your boxes,” you say to Spencer, keeping your tone cool. “Jake will help you pack some stuff this afternoon, but it’s date night, so you’ve got exactly two hours. You can come back in the morning.” 
Spencer's lip twitches, like he's about to argue, but then he stops himself. He nods curtly and unties the fancy cashmere sweater draped around his shoulders, hanging it carefully on a hook by the door. He hesitates when he notices Jake’s clothes tossed haphazardly alongside yours. After a moment, he huffs, shakes his head, and stomps out of the apartment. 
You fight to suppress a grin as you turn to Jake, but he’s already beaming at you. “You’re amazing, you know that?” 
You pretend to flick your hair off your shoulder with theatrical flair. “Oh, I know.” 
He chuckles. “I can’t believe you just told your ex I’ve got a huge dick.” 
You shrug, one shoulder rising nonchalantly. “You’ve got the ego to match, so I figured I could make an educated guess. Besides, it’s not like Spencer will ever know for sure.” 
His brows shoot up. “Oh, so you were just guessing?” 
Heat floods your cheeks, and suddenly his eyes are too intense to meet. “Well, obviously.” 
He leans in, his hand tightening around yours, voice low and teasing—laced with a challenge that feels dangerously not like a joke. “Want to find out for real?” 
Your breath hitches. Words abandon you. All you can do is stare at his face—too handsome and too tempting. 
“Because I’d go a hell of a lot deeper than that weasel. So deep, you’d be screaming-” 
The intercom buzzer cuts him off, and you’re hit with a wave of relief and frustration all at once. Your pulse is racing, your chest tight, and the thrum of your heartbeat fills your ears. 
Jake chuckles, clearly amused by the timing, and leans back, releasing your hand to press the button on the intercom. He glances over at you, winks, and casually strides toward the lounge, sprawling out like he owns the place. Like he’s some modern-day Adonis—there to wind you up and then claim your couch like it’s his throne. 
You force your limbs to move, opening the door for Spencer and helping him carry in the flattened cardboard boxes tucked under his arms. You lead him to the spare room—where all his abandoned belongings have been gathering dust for the past six months—and leave him to it. 
You don’t have to ask Jake to help. The second you return to the living room, he stands, crosses the space without hesitation, and steps right up to you. His palm finds the back of your head as he pulls you in, pressing a warm, gentle kiss to the top of your hair. 
You know he’s just doing what you asked—pretending to be your boyfriend. But the tenderness of the gesture feels heartbreakingly sincere. It sinks into your skin, fills your chest like warm water, and when he pulls away, he takes the comfort with him. 
Your eyes trail after him as he walks toward the spare room, and you shamelessly ogle his ass on the way out. Then you collapse onto the lounge where he’d just been sitting, curling up in the lingering scent of his cologne. You tug a blanket from the wicker basket beside the couch and wrap it around yourself, clicking on a show you barely register—because all you can think about is the way Jake Seresin touches you. 
This might not have been such a brilliant idea after all. 
Spencer uses up his two hours like he paid for them, waiting until exactly 5:59 PM to dust off his palms on those stupid white pants—as if he hadn’t made Jake do all the heavy lifting—and announce that he “better get going.” 
You give him a tight smile as you hold the door open, already half-relieved just watching him walk out. It's not that pretending to love Jake is hard—you do love him. It’s the reminder that all the lingering touches, the soft smiles, the stolen glances—they’re just an act. That’s what’s draining you. 
The second the door clicks shut, you let out a long, theatrical sigh, like you’ve been holding your breath for the full two hours. “Oh, thank God. I don’t know how I’m going to survive a whole day tomorrow.” 
Jake chuckles, but there’s something tight about it—like he’s forcing it out through gritted teeth. “Am I that hard to love?” he asks, and though his tone is teasing, something flickers behind his eyes that doesn’t feel like a joke. 
Your brows knit. “No, it’s not that. It’s just...” 
He steps closer, invading your space like he’s done all day—and you hate how much you don’t mind it anymore. In fact, you kind of want him to stay right there. 
“What is it?” he murmurs, voice low and rough enough to make your skin prickle. 
You swallow hard, suddenly aware of how close he is, how good he smells, and how charged the air between you feels. “It’s just Spencer, you know? Having him around is... exhausting.” 
Jake’s lip quirks, but his eyes are sharp, studying you. “Oh? So you’re not struggling with this fake relationship thing at all? Not even a little confused? Frustrated? Having trouble remembering it’s not real?” 
You blink, stunned silent. You’re not sure how, but you’re starting to believe Jake Seresin might actually be a mind reader. 
“I-” The words catch in your throat, strangled by the weight of his stare. His piercing green eyes pin you in place, make you forget how to speak, how to breathe. 
Then, just when it feels like you might combust, his smirk cracks into a grin and he takes a step back, letting the tension snap like a rubber band. “Alright then,” he says, clapping his hands together, “what’s for dinner, gorgeous?” 
You inhale like you’ve just broken the surface of the water. Your lungs burn. Your head spins. This man is giving you whiplash. 
It takes almost a full minute to regain control of your body, and when you finally do, you walk straight into the kitchen without giving Jake an answer. You can’t even look at him right now—but he has no trouble looking at you. 
He watches you like he’s starving and you’re the feast. It makes focusing on dinner nearly impossible. 
You busy yourself preparing the meal you planned yesterday—Italian sausage spaghetti with a pull-apart garlic loaf. You don’t usually go all out for dinner, but you’re using Jake’s presence as an excuse to cook something hearty and delicious. Maybe after eating, you’ll both be too full to maintain this unbearable sexual tension. He can crash on the couch, and you’ll curl up in bed. Or maybe you’ll take a long, steamy shower and do what you need to do to unknot the tension pulsing behind your hipbones. 
Dinner comes together quickly, and after a few casual questions from Jake about the food, he drifts back to the couch, half-watching whatever show has been playing in the background for past few hours. You set the dining table just the way he asked—candles, wine, and soft music humming from the speaker on your bookshelf. 
Finally, you place two full bowls of pasta on the table—opposite each other. Because you’re not really dating, so why would you sit beside him? To feel his warmth? Let him rest a hand on your thigh? 
The thought alone sends a shiver down your spine. 
You try to shake it off and glance at Jake—only to find him already watching you. 
You clear your throat. “Lieutenant Jake Seresin, your dinner is served.” 
He grins like a kid in a candy store, pushing off the couch and sniffing the air like a Loony Tunes character. “Damn, I think Phoenix might’ve been right. This is a full-on domestic fantasy.” 
You roll your eyes and duck your head, hoping he doesn’t see the heat rising in your cheeks. “Just sit down and eat, Hangman. I’m tired and hungry.” 
You flick off the kitchen lights, leaving the room bathed in the soft glow of the candles. The atmosphere feels far more romantic than you intended. Is this what Jake wanted? 
You don’t give yourself time to overthink it—because the food smells amazing, and there’s a very attractive naval aviator sitting across from you, looking like he was plucked straight from a dream. 
You spend the first few minutes eating in silence, both too busy shovelling pasta into your mouths and tearing into buttery garlic bread to speak. Somehow, Jake even manages to make slurping spaghetti look hot—and you hate when people make noise while they eat. 
“So,” you say, slowing your pace and setting your fork down, “did you want to stay here tonight or head back to your place?” 
He keeps his eyes on his plate, as if avoiding yours will mask whatever he’s really thinking. “Up to you, darlin’. Whatever you’re comfortable with.” 
“Well, Spencer did seem pretty suspicious about the whole thing… so I think it’s safer if you stay.” 
His head snaps up, and that signature smirk spreads across his lips. “Is that so?” 
“Yeah,” you say, fighting the heat rising to your cheeks, “he might sniff around tomorrow. Like, literally. He might be a creep and notice your towel’s untouched, or that your side of the bed hasn’t been slept in, and-” 
“You want to share the bed?” he asks, looking far too pleased with the idea. 
You shrug, feigning nonchalance. “We’ve shared a bed before.” 
“Yeah,” he says, a low chuckle slipping out, “blind drunk.” 
His eyes are too pretty, too intense, and your chest feels tight under their weight. You look away, eyes darting around the table until they land on the wine bottle. 
“Well then,” you say, picking it up and refilling his glass, “drink up, Seresin.” 
Two bottles of wine later, you’re both loose-limbed and laughing—less awkward about the day’s chaos, and a lot less anxious about sharing a bed tonight. 
You giggle at one of Jake’s ridiculous jokes while clearing the table, and when he insists on helping clean up, you swat him away, telling him it’s all part of his domestic fantasy. He rolls his eyes but still hovers, drying dishes and pretending not to notice the way you keep throwing him side-eye glances every time he guesses wrong about where something goes. 
“Do you want to shower?” you ask as you finish wiping down the stovetop. 
His green eyes go wide, that crooked grin slipping across his face like sin itself. “Is this you offering?” 
Your stomach flips, heat crawling up your chest. “I meant—do you want to shower first?” 
“Oh,” he chuckles, almost disappointed. “Yeah, sure. If you don’t mind?” 
“Wouldn’t have asked if I did,” you mutter, turning back toward the lounge. 
You listen to his footsteps fade toward the bathroom, then collapse onto the couch, burying your face in a pillow that smells maddeningly like him. 
What the fuck are you doing? 
Yes, you’ve always had a little crush on Jake, but you’re not delusional. He’s out of your league. You’ve made peace with that. You’ve always been happy just being his friend. So why does all of this feel so good? Why is it getting harder to remember that he doesn’t see you the same way? 
He’s thrown himself into this charade like it’s more than just pretending, and it’s messing with your head. Does he want something more? Something casual? A few nights, maybe? Or... does he want you—the whole messy package? 
The shower starts, and you groan into the pillow. You’re confused. You’re also so fucking horny. Red wine was a terrible idea. 
Ten minutes later, the bathroom door creaks open. “All yours,” Jake calls, his voice smooth and casual as he walks toward the bedroom where he left his duffel bag. 
You drag yourself upright, every step toward the bathroom a battle against the mental slideshow of naked, wet Jake. You shut the door, strip down, and step into the shower, letting the hot water calm your skin and chase away the ache blooming low in your belly. 
You don’t have the guts to do what you really need to make that ache go away—not with Jake just a paper-thin wall away. The thought creeps in, bold and reckless, whispering what if you just called him in here? But then you laugh softly under your breath and shake it off. As if. The idea of Jake rejecting you would be a level of humiliation you’re not prepared to face tonight. Or ever. 
You shut off the water, swipe a towel from the rack, and give yourself a quick dry before wrapping it snugly around your body. The bathroom is thick with steam, your skin flushed and dewy, your pulse still thudding from thoughts you shouldn't be entertaining. 
You open the door to let in some air—only to nearly collide with Jake. 
He’s right there. Shirtless. Grey sweatpants slung low, a towel around his neck, and an annoyingly cocky smirk on his lips. 
“Damn,” he says, leaning one arm against the doorframe, eyes roaming blatantly. “I was coming to see if you drowned, but now I’m thinking maybe I should’ve brought more wine.” 
You try to step back, but he follows, slipping inside like he belongs here. You grip your towel tighter. 
“Jake,” you warn, eyes narrowing. “What are you doing?” 
“Just enjoying the view,” he says casually, his eyes far too warm for comfort. “This your idea of torture? Walk out here looking like a damn dream and expect me to just keep pretending?” 
You’re not sure what’s pretending and what isn’t anymore, and you have no idea what his words mean. Is he just messing with you? He has to be. 
“I didn’t ask you to come in.” 
“And yet,” he says, grinning, “here I am.” 
The heat in the room is stifling—and it's not just the steam. Jake moves in closer, crowding your space, eyes flicking from your lips to your towel and back. His fingers reach up, slow and deliberate, and tug lightly at the edge of the fabric resting on your collarbone. 
“Think this is regulation towel length?” he teases. 
“Do you want me to report you to HR?” you ask, trying not to smile. Your voice wobbles on the last word when his fingers brush across the swell of your breast. 
“Only if HR gives out spankings,” he says with a wink. 
You laugh, then immediately regret it, because the movement loosens the towel just slightly—and his gaze drops. The air between you crackles. 
“Jake,” you murmur, breath hitching. 
He leans in, his lips brushing your temple like he’s not even aware he’s doing it. “Say the word,” he whispers, voice lower than a dare. 
You turn your face toward him, your lips just inches from his—and then: 
BZZZZZZZZZZZT. 
The intercom buzzes loudly from the living room, startling you both. You jump, and Jake curses under his breath. 
“Saved by the buzzer,” you mutter, half annoyed, half relieved. 
He takes a step back, eyes still dark with want, running a hand through his hair. “Or maybe cursed by it.” 
You give him a pointed look. “Shut the door on your way out, Hangman.” 
He backs out slowly, smirking the whole way. “You know I’m not going to forget this, right?” 
You roll your eyes and wait for him to close the door before locking it for good measure. After drying off, you go through your usual skincare and haircare routines, trying not to think about whatever the hell just happened between the two of you. But one glance down the hall as you exit the bathroom makes your heart plummet. 
Spencer is standing by the front door. And Jake—still very much shirtless—is looking smug as hell. 
“Hey, darlin’,” Jake drawls, turning to Spencer with a wink. “We just finished up in the shower, if you know what I mean.” 
You freeze like a deer in headlights, towel clutched to your chest. You feel like a naked model caught mid-pose in front of a life drawing class—except your ex is the one holding the sketchpad, and Jake is… well, Jake. 
“Spencer,” you bite out, “what the fuck are you doing here?” 
“I-I forgot my sweater.” He holds up the creamy cashmere one he’d left by the door, eyes darting anywhere but your body. 
You raise a brow. “And that couldn’t wait until tomorrow?” 
He opens his mouth, then shuts it again—clearly trying not to ogle you while very aware of the broad, half-naked man beside him who is allegedly your boyfriend. Jake’s green eyes darken the longer Spencer’s gaze lingers. 
“I’m sorry,” Spencer mutters. “I guess I didn’t think-” 
“Yeah, thinking’s never really been your thing, huh, pal?” Jake cuts in, clapping a firm hand on Spencer’s shoulder. “Now if you don’t mind fucking off, I’d like to get back to round two with my very satisfied girlfriend. And just so we’re clear—if you show up before 9AM tomorrow, all you’re gonna hear is her screaming my name in ecstasy.” 
Your body lights up like a struck match. You don’t even look at Spencer as Jake all but escorts him out the door. Your focus is entirely on the shirtless man—the ridiculously hot, dangerously cocky, fake boyfriend who just made you feel completely and utterly claimed. 
You’re not sure if it’s the wine or the caveman behaviour, but suddenly, the idea of crossing that line doesn’t seem so dangerous anymore. In fact, it sounds like the best idea you’ve had in years. 
Jake shuts the door and flicks the deadbolt before turning those dark green eyes on you. “Keep lookin’ at me like that, darlin’, and you’re gonna make my dreams—and Spencer’s nightmares—come true.” 
His dreams? 
Your breath catches in your throat. Then, like a startled chicken, you turn and bolt to your bedroom, slamming the door shut behind you. Your head spins as you scramble to grab the pyjamas stashed under your pillow. Every inch of your skin feels hypersensitive, like Jake’s gaze alone has lit up your nerve endings one by one. 
Once you’re dressed and your face isn’t quite so scarlet red, you head for the bathroom. You hang up your towel—deliberately ignoring the sight of Jake’s hanging next to it—and start brushing your teeth. But the flutter in your stomach is relentless. 
Jake appears a moment later and joins you silently, his eyes finding yours in the mirror. You try to avoid them, but your gaze keeps drifting back, always checking, always wondering. And every time, he’s still watching. 
You rinse and spit, then flee the bathroom before your knees give out. You don’t bother with the rest of your night routine—you need sleep, or space, or maybe a total reset of your entire hormonal system. 
You crawl into bed and flick on the TV perched atop your dresser, the hum of background noise a small comfort. But it does nothing to quiet the static under your skin when Jake steps into the room. 
He flicks off the main light, shuts the door with a soft click, and then sits on the bed beside you. The mattress dips under his weight, and it feels like the whole room tilts with him. 
He doesn’t say anything at first. He just sits beside you in the dim glow of the TV, his body so close you can feel the heat radiating off his bare skin. 
You pretend to be engrossed in whatever’s on the screen, but your heart is thundering, and you can feel his gaze on you like a brand. 
Then his voice, low and rough, slices through the quiet. “You always wear shirts like that to bed, or is this part of the fantasy?” 
You try to scoff, but it comes out a little breathless. “You think everything’s about you.” 
Jake chuckles. “You’re sitting here braless in a tissue-thin shirt, biting your lip like you want me to devour you—and I’m the one with the ego?” 
You turn your head, ready to throw back some snark, but he’s already watching you with that look. That look that makes your insides clench and your breath catch. Like he’s starving. Like you’re the first real meal he’s had in days. 
“Jake…” 
His gaze drops to your lips, and his voice is rough around the edges when he says, “I’m not gonna make it through this night if you keep lookin’ at me like that.” 
“I’m not looking at you like anything,” you whisper, but even you don’t believe that. 
Jake leans closer. “No? Then why’s your chest rising like that? Why are your pupils blown wide? Why is every part of you screaming touch me?” 
You don’t answer. You can’t. 
He shifts toward you slowly, like a predator moving in, until his thigh brushes yours and his hand finds your jaw. His thumb drags lightly along your cheek, then down to your bottom lip, tugging at it just enough to make your breath stutter. 
“Tell me to stop,” he murmurs, eyes locked on yours. “Just say the word.” 
You stay frozen, heart galloping in your chest. 
“Because if you don’t…” he leans in, voice barely audible now, “…I’m gonna lose every ounce of self-control I have left.” 
Still, you say nothing. Can’t say anything. 
Jake’s eyes search yours for a second longer. Then— 
“Fuck it.” 
He crashes into you like a storm. His mouth slants over yours, hot and possessive and desperate, like he’s finally giving in to something he’s been denying for far too long. His hands cup your face, then slide down, over your neck, your shoulders, gripping your waist like he needs to ground himself. 
You gasp into his mouth, and he takes the opportunity to deepen the kiss, tongue sweeping in to taste you. It’s not gentle. It’s fire and tension and not just one day, but years of pretending finally snapping all at once. 
Your fingers thread through his hair, tugging, pulling him closer. He groans against your lips and pushes you back into the mattress just slightly, moving over you, his body caging yours in without touching more than he has to. 
You arch up into him, chasing his heat, his weight. And when his hand slips under the hem of your shirt, resting just above your waistband, your breath catches in your throat. 
He pulls back just enough to look at you—his pupils dark, his lips kiss-bruised. “Still pretending?” he breathes. 
You shake your head, dazed. “Not even a little bit.” 
You wake up warm. Too warm. 
Jake Seresin is sprawled across half your bed, one leg tangled over yours and an arm wrapped around your waist like you’re his personal body pillow. His bare chest is pressed to your back and his breath ghosts hot across your neck with every slow, sleepy exhale. 
You’re painfully aware of two things: one, you’re very, very naked. And two, so is he. 
And then... you remember everything. 
The kissing. The touching. The downright Olympic-level sex. The way he looked at you like you were something he’d been starving for. 
Your body aches in the best way, but your brain is in full meltdown mode. You try to untangle yourself without waking him. Emphasis on try. Because the second you shift, Jake groans and tightens his arm around you. 
“Nuh-uh,” he mumbles, voice still rough with sleep. “You’re not goin’ anywhere.” 
You huff, trying to wriggle free. “I have to pee.” 
“Fine,” he says, releasing you with an exaggerated sigh. “But don’t even think about climbing out the window. You’re mine now.” 
You roll your eyes as you slip out of bed, grabbing the closest shirt—his shirt—and tossing it over your head. It hangs low on your thighs, smelling like him and sex and very bad decisions. 
By the time you return from the bathroom, Jake’s propped up on one elbow, watching you with the same hunger in his eyes as last night “Damn, you look better in my shirt than I do.” 
You scoff and head for your dresser. “Don’t you get tired of hearing yourself talk?” 
“Not when I’m this right.” 
You grab a pair of shorts, but before you can pull them on, Jake is already moving. He slides off the bed, all muscles and tan skin, and corners you against the dresser. 
“You know,” he murmurs, eyes dark and wicked as his fingers slip under the hem of his own shirt you're wearing, “you didn’t officially wake me up yet.” 
Your heart kicks up a notch. “Is that a thing now?” 
“Absolutely.” He leans in, brushing his nose along your jaw. “You gotta wake me up right, darlin’. Or I’m gonna be all cranky.” 
You arch a brow. “Define right.” 
He grins, lips brushing yours. “Tongue. Teeth optional.” 
You laugh into the kiss he gives you—hot, deep, and toe-curling. His hands roam down your back, tugging you flush against him. You can feel he’s already half hard again, the cocky bastard. 
But before things can spiral into round two, your phone buzzes loudly from the nightstand. 
Jake pulls back with a dramatic sigh. “If that’s Spencer again, I swear to God-” 
You smirk. “Jealous?” 
He kisses the corner of your mouth. “Jealous? Sweetheart, I just spent the night making you scream my name.” 
You roll your eyes, fighting a smile, and he grins like he just won the damn lottery. 
To Jake’s great disappointment, it is Spencer. He’s on his way over, and the motel he’s staying at is only five minutes away. You both overslept—but can you really be blamed? No way. You were up most of the night tangled together, doing something that definitely didn’t feel pretend. 
“Come on, Romeo,” you say, tossing Jake his shirt. “Get dressed before Tybalt gets here.” 
Jake pauses, one brow arched as he tries not to stare at your naked chest. “Did you just imply that you used to date your cousin?” 
A light laugh bubbles out of you. “Not intentionally, but I’m surprised you know Shakespeare.” 
He grins, smug. “A little knowledge never hurt anyone. Helps win the ladies over, too.” 
He’s joking, you know he is—but the way he says ladies—plural—hits you like punch to the gut. That’s what Jake is: a ladies’ man. It was stupid to think this could be anything more than a bit of fun. Some stress relief between two friends who spent all day teasing each other until they snapped. 
If anyone can do casual sex, it’s Jake Seresin. It doesn’t matter how many pretty words he said last night—you can’t let yourself believe he actually meant them. 
“Hey,” he says gently, catching the shift in your energy. “You okay?” 
You nod a little too quickly, offering a smile that doesn't quite reach your eyes. Your nose starts to sting, and you blink fast, trying to will the emotion away. Who the hell cries after the best sex of their life? 
You gather your clothes and retreat to the bathroom, needing a buffer between you and Jake’s curious, overly perceptive eyes. You dress quickly, trying not to think about how good his shirt felt against your skin. 
It isn’t long before Spencer buzzes the intercom again, and you’re almost grateful. Jake doesn’t get the chance to press you, to ask about the look on your face that feels like it could crumble into a sob at any second. 
You’ve really fucked up now—because you let yourself believe it might’ve meant something. 
The two men spend the morning in the spare room, exchanging nothing more than grunts and sidelong glances while packing Spencer’s things into boxes. You don’t bother checking on them—you're not sure you can look at Jake right now anyway. So, you remain firmly planted on the couch, stuck in a spiral of your own damning thoughts. 
Around midday, you consider offering them lunch, but then you remember the mischievous glint in Jake’s eyes when he said that “it helps win the ladies over,” and you quickly decide against it. Instead, you grab your keys, tuck your phone into your back pocket, and head toward the door. 
“I’m heading out for a bit. Won’t be long,” you call out, not waiting for a reply before stepping out. 
“Wait,” Jake’s voice calls after you as the door swings shut. But you pretend not to hear. 
You stride toward the elevator, pressing the button more forcefully than necessary, but it doesn’t arrive fast enough. By the time the doors finally slide open, Jake is already in the hallway, his brows furrowed in concern. 
“Hang on a second,” he says, stopping right beside you, raising a hand to hold your jaw gently. 
When you step back, his face falls, confusion and dread flickering across his features. 
“What’s wrong?” he asks. 
“Nothing,” you answer, stepping into the elevator. 
But he follows you in, jaw ticking with tension. “Darlin’, if you keep looking at me like that, I’m gonna start thinking I broke you.” 
You shake your head. “I’m not broken.” 
“Then what’s going on in that pretty little head of yours, hm?” His voice softens, but the underlying concern is still very present. 
You take a deep breath, averting your eyes to the floor of the elevator as you try to carefully assemble your thoughts. You don’t want to hurt him, but you also can’t ignore how wrong everything feels in your gut. 
“I just... I can’t do this, Jake,” you say, your voice almost cracking. 
He looks absolutely gutted, like you’ve just sucker-punched him. 
“I know it shouldn’t be a big deal. Plenty of people do it without any consequences,” you ramble on. “But I think there could be some huge consequences if we keep doing this. There’s just too much on the line. And while the sex was—God, it was mind-blowing—I just don’t think I can handle you doing it with other people while I’m over here trying to... figure out what this is.” 
The hurt on his face quickly morphs into utter confusion. “What the hell are you talking about, sweetheart?” 
“This,” you gesture between the two of you. “Last night. Us having sex and the whole ‘friends with benefits’ thing.” 
Now, he looks genuinely offended. His eyes widen, green irises flashing with disbelief. “You think that’s what this is?” 
Your heart races, the pulse in your throat thrumming. “Isn’t that what you want?” 
Jake lets out a short, humourless laugh, running a hand through his hair. He glances briefly at the elevator doors before locking his gaze on you, intense and unyielding. 
“Is that what you think?” he asks, his tone a low warning. 
Suddenly, you feel very small—not in a sad way, but in a vulnerable, exposed way. He steps closer, stalking toward you with predatory intent, and you instinctively back up against the elevator wall. His presence fills the small space, and the hunger in his eyes is unmistakable. 
You swallow thickly and nod. Just a small movement, but it’s enough to make him pounce. He presses his body to yours, trapping you between him and the wall, the metal rail digging into your lower back as he cages you in. 
“I thought I made it pretty fucking clear last night, darlin’,” he whispers, his voice low and almost dangerous. “But if I didn’t, then let me say it now.” 
He pauses, eyes burning into yours as you breathe in each other’s air, hearts racing in sync. 
“I want you. Only you. All of you,” he growls. “I’ve been waiting years to do what I did last night. And now that I’ve had a taste?” He lets out a deep, throaty chuckle. “I’m never letting you go. You’re mine.” 
Your mind goes blank. Your mouth is dry, and your heart’s thundering in your chest as his words hit you like a freight train. 
“Say it,” he whispers, his lips brushing against yours as he pulls you closer. “Tell me you understand.” 
“I’m yours.” The words fall from your mouth before you can stop them, but they feel right. Like they were meant to be said. 
Jake smirks, a wicked, cocky grin that makes his eyes sparkle with unspoken mischief. “Good.” 
And just like that, his lips crash into yours—urgent, fiery, and full of need. The kiss is wild and untamed, teeth clashing, tongues battling for dominance. His hands drop to the curve of your ass, lifting you effortlessly, forcing your legs around his waist as he presses you harder against the elevator wall. 
Every inch of your skin hums, the heat between you two scorching. You can’t get enough of him, his touch, the rawness of this moment. You claw at his shirt, desperate to feel his skin against yours, and before you can even think, you're already lost in him, all logic and restraint flying out the window. 
But then, right on cue, your personal cockblock arrives. The elevator dings and the doors slide open. Spencer stands there, completely flustered, mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water. Neither of you had pressed a button when you entered, but the look on Jake’s face suggests that it might have been intentional. 
“Sorry, pal,” Jake grins, his lips bruised and swollen. “I just can’t get enough, you know what it’s like.” 
Spencer’s mouth moves, but no words come out. 
Jake casually takes the box from Spencer’s arms. “Let me help you with that. Go grab another one. Let’s get you out of here before you see more than you’re willing to, hm?” 
Spencer nods woodenly, still staring in complete shock. 
You can’t help the giggles that escape you as you slip past Spencer and out of the elevator, back toward your apartment. 
There’s nothing fake about you and Jake anymore—not that there ever really was. And now, you can confidently say that Jake’s ego is as well-proportioned as the monster between his legs. 
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mnnuni · 2 months ago
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Rumor Has It
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James Potter x Slytherin!reader
synopsis: James Potter is in a secret relationship with Y/N, but things spiral when someone mistakes Regulus Black for Y/N’s boyfriend and spreads the rumor around Hogwarts. How far will he go before he can’t take it anymore?
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note: 16+ fluff. part II?
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He was in Gryffindor— the golden boy, Quidditch captain, and this year's Head Boy. She was a Slytherin— sharp-tongued, keen, and entirely off-limits.
James Potter had a reputation to maintain, and people finding out that you and him were dating would spark nasty rumors, ones that could damage both of your standings. So, one night, hidden in the shadows behind one of the castle's staircases, he proposed that you two keep your relationship a secret.
You immediately agreed. You'd never hear the end of it if someone knew, anyway.
But right now, you were perched on James's lap, your back pressed against the cold walls of an unused classroom. The boy kissed you with hunger, like he hadn't seen you for months.
"Missed you so much, love." He murmured against your lips, hands snaking at the nape of your neck, pulling you impossibly close.
You smiled into the kiss, fingers tangling on his messy curls. "We were just in the same class not an hour ago."
"Details, details," He hummed, fingers creeping dangerously close to the hem of your skirt.
Sure, the two of you shared classes. But between the rift of the two houses— Gryffindor and Slytherin— you two were only reduced to stolen glances, shared smirks behind textbooks, fleeting brushes of fingers as you two passed by each other. Moments that meant everything, but looked like nothing, especially under the watchful eyes of his rowdy friends.
The same group that made a habit of declaring an absolute hatred for your house. Who never missed a chance to sneer at Lucius Malfoy or mock Severus Snape. Who would lose their minds if they found out that James Potter, of all people, was sneaking around with a Slytherin girl.
It all happened at last year's Yule Ball after party. Everyone was beet drunk, sneaking in a couple of firewhiskey and muggle beers and alcohols. You found James pissed drunk, staggering through the rose bush before puking out.
You were just trying to get some fresh air, having been suffocated in a room full of intoxicated young adults. You found him slumped against the stone bench, suit disheveled, crown of the night askew.
"Such an unexpected act from a Slytherin like you," James threw a lopsided smirk when you handed him a bottle of water that you just conjured.
"And such an expected act from a Gryffindor like you. So reckless and annoying." You muttered, rolling your eyes at him.
You expected him to leave you alone after that. Act like nothing happened.
But he didn't.
After that night, James couldn't stop seeing you— even when you weren't looking his way. Couldn't help noticing the twist of your mouth when you read, or how you sat in the far corner of the library where the sun always hit the table just right.
You knew who he was. Everyone did. The James Potter. The boy who pined after Lily Evans for six years. So, yes, you were skeptical. You thought it was a prank. A bet. Some stupid Gryffindor game orchestrated by his infamous friends.
But then weeks passed. Months. And he kept showing up. With books. With sweets. With flushed cheeks and sincere eyes. He started learning the little things about you— like how you tie your shoelace twice, or how you hummed when you were stressed.
And eventually, you gave in.
Honestly, your dating life was surprisingly good. Shocking, even. James turned out to be nothing like what you'd expected. He was thoughtful, passionate, and stupidly charming. He made you laugh. Made you feel seen. The problem was... well, it was a secret.
You weren't famous, per se. Sure, many people knew of you— top of your year, Slug Club regular, often praised by professors. But your name didn't echo towards the halls— not in a way that James's did. Which was fine. You liked it that way.
Most people would never expect you to be James Potter's secret lover. And that was fine, too. You were secure in yourself. Let them think what they want.
But the thing that pisses you off the most was when everyone still kept teasing James with Lily. It was relentless, to say the least. You've heard about the comments. Even his friends laughed about it, like it was some unshakeable part of his identity. You knew they meant no harm— that it was all good and fun— but Merlin, it gets exhausting. Especially now that both of them were Head Students. The school seemed obsessed with watching their every move.
Still, James never made you feel less. Never made you feel like you're the second best. And you were extremely grateful for that.
Sirius Black, for all his charms and recklessness, has an absolute talent for unknowingly stirring the pot.
"Do you reckon Y/n has a boyfriend?" He whispered during Flitwick's lecture, nudging James with his elbow.
James's head snapped toward him so fast. "What?"
Sirius smirked, "I mean, I know we said not to involve ourselves with Slytherins, but I could turn a blind eye. For her, I'd even forgive Malfoy."
James blinked. He felt his left eye twitch. His internal monologue was screaming.
Over my dead, hexed, and dismembered body.
"Who are you talking about?" Peter leaned in.
"Y/n Y/l/n." Sirius said without missing a beat, eyes still glued to where you sat a few rows ahead, effortlessly answering Flitwick's question. "Slytherin's babe."
James's hand gripped his quill so hard that it snapped in two. Sirius didn't even notice.
Peter let out a snort. "Oh, you're too late."
Sirius and James both turned to him, twin expressions of horror and confusion.
"Word is, your brother beat you to it."
Silence.
"What?" James whispered, his voice unnaturally high, which earned looks from Remus, who had been listening quietly.
"Yeah. Regulus. Everyone's basically saying they're a thing now." Peter shrugged.
James's jaw dropped.
"What? Since when? How did that happen?" Sirius asked.
"I don't know, mate. Probably because he has the same face as yours but isn't annoying?"
Sirius scoffed. "Rude."
James's ears almost turned into a violent shade of red. Regulus? REGULUS?!
Remus finally cut in, trying to hush them when he caught Flitwick casting a suspicious glare at them. He nudged Peter with his foot under the desk.
But James was already spiraling. He barely heard a word of the lesson after that. He just stared straight ahead, occasionally throwing a glance your way.
After class, he wanted to march straight up to you and ask you about this Regulus nonsense. But he couldn't. Not with Sirius bouncing beside him, talking about dinner plans, and not with Peter listing why Regulus "would totally pull."
And definitely not with Andromeda swinging her arm around your shoulder, chatting your ear off, pulling you toward the dungeons with the ease of someone who doesn't have a secret boyfriend fuming five feet away.
James and you just quietly exchanged glances before parting in different ways.
"So, what do you mean by Y/n and Regulus?" James asked once they were in the Gryffindor common room. He tried to sound disinterested, like he was just trying to gossip. "He's a year younger than her."
"So?" Remus sat across from him. "Age doesn't matter. They're both adults."
"W-well, yeah, but—" James tried to explain something, but failed to do so.
"Reg doesn't even have game." Sirius still looked bothered by the thought of his own brother having a romantic interest.
Peter leaned back in the chair. "Maybe he doesn't. But he has the face. Mysterious, brooding, those dark, haunted eyes. He looks like a bloody romance lead in a gothic novel, and Y/n's the artsy type. They probably sit in the library and bond over tragedies."
"Yeah, I'm not gonna lie... they do look good together," Remus added.
James looked at him and frowned. "What do you mean they look good together?"
Remus shrugged, "She looks like the kind of girl who'd fall for someone like him— quiet, witty, and handsome."
WRONG. WRONG. WRONG. WRONG. YOU'RE ALL WRONG. BECAUSE I'M DATING HER, YOU TWATS. James sat there, stewing in silence while his friends continued chatting. He barely said a word that night. Sirius assumed he was just sleepy, and Peter thought it was because of his Head Boy duties. But Remus?
Oh, Remus knew.
Later, when only the two of them were left behind, Remus caught up to James just before he went inside his separate Head Boy dorm.
"Hey," He called. "You dating someone?"
James froze.
"W-what?" He squeaked, trying to laugh it off,
Remus smiled, eyes too knowing. "Just asking. Valentine's day is coming up, after all. Lily might be expecting flowers from you. You know her type."
He winked and turned ahead towards the boys' dormitory, leaving James standing alone.
The next evening, James pulled you from the Great Hall after dinner and dragged you into his dorm, leaving no room for protest. His arm was slung over your shoulder like a possessive man, and now, you were on his bed— more accurately, you were pinned under him while he refused to let you go.
You'd barely managed to shuffle into his oversized Gryffindor Quidditch hoodie before he was already throwing himself at you like a starved dog.
He was quiet, oddly so, his arms wrapped around your waist firmly, his face buried into the crook of your neck. Ocassionally, you can hear him sniff you. He was literally inhaling your existence.
"...James?"
"Hmm..?"
Your brows furrowed slightly, fingers weaving through his dark curls— a trick you knew that would either soothe him or get him to talk. Hopefully both.
"You okay, love?" You asked, concern creeping into your voice. "You've been extra clingy tonight. More than usual. You've been practically attached to my hip like a koala."
He let out a muffled whimper against your neck, something between a grunt and a groan. Then, finally, he lifted his head and looked at you— brown, doe eyes, full pout in swing, and hair flopping boyishly on his head.
"Can I ask you something?" He said, very seriously.
Your fingers paused in his hair. "Of course."
"...Is there something going on with you and Regulus?"
Silence.
You blinked. "Regulus Black?"
James nodded miserably before burrowing his head into your lap.
"Love, what?" You asked, stunned and exasperated.
"I'm just asking." He mumbled. "People are saying things."
You laughed softly. "Okay, well, no. Nothing's going on with us. We're just friends. You know that."
James sat up. "Then why does everyone think you're dating him?"
You blinked again, trying to keep up with the sudden tempo change. His arms were crossed now, cheeks puffed out slightly, and brows drawn together like the cutest angry bear.
You bit back a smile. "I mean... maybe because we're friends and we do study together?"
"But I'm dating you!" He whispered-shouted, pointing at himself. "We've been together for months! Why is he the one everyone thinks you're snogging?"
"Probably because we're hiding this, James." You gestured at the two of you. "Like it's the crown jewels."
He flopped onto the bed with a dramatic groan. "Wormy heard the rumors. And you know he remembers everything and says it out loud like he's reading the newspaper headlines."
You lay down beside him and propped your head on your hand. "Okay... and what did he say?"
"That you and Regulus make sense. That you're both dark, mysterious, and brilliant, and pretty—"
You chuckled.
James glared at you. "And Moony agreed! He said you probably like quiet boys who look like they cry reading Wuthering Heights under the candlelight. What does that even mean?!"
You were full-on laughing now. "That does sound like Regulus."
James groaned again, rolling to his side so he could look at you. "And then Pads said you're pretty. And I almost popped a vein right there and then."
You gasped feigningly. "Sirius thinks I'm pretty? I must elope with him now."
"Don't joke like that!" He whined again.
You giggled, poking his chest. "I told you before, Regulus was just my friend. I help him with Potions, and he helps me with Charms. That's it. That's all."
James narrowed his eyes, still not convinced. "Are you sure you don't secretly like guys who brood?"
You booped his nose. "I only like you, Potter."
He huffed, a blush slowly creeping to his cheek. "...Really?"
"Yes. My sunshine, loud, chaotic boy."
James looked at you lovingly. But then, he tried to rally again, sitting up slightly. "I'm not jealous, by the way."
"Oh, yeah?"
"Yeah." He hummed. "I'm just saying. Regulus is all... poetic and quiet and mysterious and you like books and art and moody stuff—"
You raised a brow. "So... you are jealous."
"I am not!"
"You totally are." You sing-sung.
"Am not!"
"Then why are you pouting?" You teased, reaching over to squish his cheeks.
"I always pout." He grumbled, but didn't resist the affection.
"And why'd you drag me to your bed like a clingy boyfriend who lost his teddy bear?"
"Because I am your clingy boyfriend who lost his teddy bear."
"Aww," You cooed, leaning in to kiss his forehead. "My poor jelly baby."
"I'm not jelly," He said with a pout.
You peppered his face with kisses until he stopped sulking, which only took about eight seconds. You were now situated on his lap, hands cupping both of his cheeks, while his hands were on your waist, pulling you close.
"I like you, James Potter. Not my poetic, sad-boy friend. Not Sirius. Not Remus. Not Peter— although he is very entertaining."
"Thank Merlin." James sighed. "I don't think I could survive if I ever lost you to Regulus. I would become a monk."
"You? A monk? You couldn't go twelve hours without touching me."
He grinned, face buried in your shoulder. "You know me so well."
“I do. So trust me when I say you’re my favorite boy. The loudest, sweetest, most golden-hearted one of all.”
“Even if I don’t read Wuthering Heights?”
“Especially because you don’t read Wuthering Heights.”
James grinned.
And if you caught him muttering mine mine mine mine into your neck while you both fell asleep, you didn’t say anything.
But you definitely smiled the whole time.
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mnnuni · 2 months ago
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.⛧ motel chats universe .ᐟ
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synopsis → the mini masterlist where the three installments of this verse live!
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→ the three installments
⛧ motel chats → ruby x reader → the one that started it all ⛧ all alone? → ruby x reader; feat. voyeur!sam → do they say the sequel is better? ⛧ ménage à trois → samruby x reader → a third time's the charm
→ the mood boards
⛧ motel chats ⛧ ménage à trois
THIS SERIES HAS BEEN COMPLETED! [AS OF APRIL 11TH, 2025]
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a/n: i never expected for my first ruby fic to expand into this little universe (or get so much love) so i decided to dedicate a mini masterlist that will live in both sam and ruby's masterlists! but thank you guys for reading and enjoying this little verse! i've had so much fun creating for it hehe 🤭
a/n pt.2: all of these works contain smut so MINORS DNI!
a/n pt.3: sobbing in the club rn bc its over now T-T buti had tons of fun with this universe and im sad that i have to see it go. but who knows maybe i still have more to say or not, never say never 🤭 <-[ a/n added april 12th 2025]
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Wish You Were Sober
Spencer Reid x Fem! Reader
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Summary: The four times you confessed to Spencer while drunk, and the one time you did it sober
WC: 8.0 k
Tags/warnings: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, lot’s of mention of alcohol consumption, regretting things said while drunk, drunk flirty reader, reader is emotionally constipated and doesn’t want to feel her feelings at first
A/N: chat I’ve been sitting on this for MONTHS it’s been marinating in my google docs for a while so hope you enjoy! I lowkey picture this happening in earlier seasons Spence but picture whatever you like ;) Beta read by the lovely @whats-yesterday00
The first time it happened, your feelings were just starting to peek through the surface. 
You tried your hardest to shove them back down. Trying to convince yourself that developing the beginnings of a crush was absolutely not happening. But the alcohol opened the door you tried to close.
The whole team went out for drinks on a friday night. After multiple shots with Derek and JJ, plus the drinks you had before that, you were feeling quite a buzz. A buzz that always left you more flirty and courageous than normal. 
You were busy dancing amongst the crowd with Penelope and JJ. The music was flowing through you all as it blasted throughout the bar. The movement and crowd caused the temperature to rise exponentially. 
You wiped the sweat forming on your forehead and paused your dancing. 
“What’s wrong?” JJ asked. 
“I’m melting,” you answered, fanning yourself. “I gotta go sit down.” 
Penelope blew you a kiss and said, “be back soon!” as you made your way to the table. You of course blew a kiss back to her. 
After weaving through the mass of people, you approached the table housing the rest of your coworkers with a heavy sigh. 
“You done partying already, pretty girl?” Derek teased. 
“No, not yet. I just need a breather. It feels like 1000 degrees right now.” You sat down across from him and next to Spencer. 
Derek’s attention was pulled towards someone behind you. A smirk grew on his face, “Oh Reid look, it’s that girl from earlier she’s back.” 
Spencer’s face flushed at Derek’s remark. 
“What girl?” you asked intrigued. You hated the taste that question left in your mouth. 
“It’s nothing,” Spencer tried to brush off before Derek interrupted. 
“She was flirting with him when he went up to the bar.” 
“She was not!” Spencer squeaked. 
Derek chuckled, “oh yes she was,” his eyes turned back to you. “She was definitely into him. And judging by the fact that she keeps looking over here, I think she wants to talk to him again.”
Spencer hid his face in his hands and quietly groaned.
“Why don’t you go over there? Go talk to her,” you encouraged while silently hoping he doesn’t leave the table.
Spencer lifted his face from his hands. His face was scarlet now. 
“I can’t.” 
“Why not?” 
Spencer opened his mouth to say something, but cut himself off. He saw your eyes staring back at him and felt his palms getting sweaty. He swallowed and stuttered on his words. “Because I wouldn’t know what to say. I can’t flirt.” 
Derek leaned back in his chair, dissatisfied with his answer. “That’s bull.” 
“It’s not bull.” That was probably the closest you came to hearing Spencer curse. “I’d probably make a fool of myself and say something stupid.” 
“Spencer, you say a lot of things,” this earned a chuckle from Derek across the table, “But I don’t think you could ever say something stupid.” 
Spencer tried to resist the smile spreading on his face from your compliment. 
“Still doesn’t change the fact that once I open my mouth, she’ll lose all interest in me.” 
A small pout appeared on your lips. “Well, I don’t see how a girl wouldn’t find you endearing.” 
“Really?” He didn’t believe you. 
“Yes! I thought you were so cute when I first met you,” your eyes brightened. “The day we met, I remember you were rambling about something and I just sat there amazed.” 
He swallowed as his ears turned crimson. “You thought I was cute?” his voice cracked at the end of his question.
“Sweetie, I think you’re more than cute,” your voice lowered as you locked eyes with him. 
“Morgan calls you pretty boy for a reason,” you continued with a mischievous glint in your eyes. 
Spencer’s heart damn near stopped. He knew your playful demeanor was from the amount of drinks you’d consumed, but still seeing you so openly attracted to him was making him delirious. 
Morgan, of course, found the whole interaction to be the most intriguing thing he’d seen all week. The growing amused smile on his face was telling enough. 
“Wow I think that girl from the bar has got some competition,” he teased. 
You shrugged in response to his comment. “Maybe,” was all you gave as your answer. You stood up from your chair with Spencer's eyes still beaming at you. 
“I’m gonna go dance some more,” you turned to the man next to you. “You wanna come with, pretty boy?”
Spencer struggled to get the words out for a few seconds. “I can’t. I don’t know how to dance.” 
You tried to hide the disappointment on your face but the gleam in your eyes had dimmed. 
“Maybe next time,” you replied before making your way back to the girls. 
Spencer watched you walk away and disappear into the crowd. He then received an extensive amount of teasing and questions as to why he didn’t say yes from Morgan for the next 20 minutes while you were gone. 
Over the weekend, the hangxiety set in. You layed in bed staring at the ceiling as the memories from Friday night flooded your mind. 
The anxiety followed into Monday as you stood in the elevator. The doors opened to the sixth floor and you reluctantly dragged yourself to the bullpen. 
Your hands tightened around your bag as you approached your desk. Spencer’s eyes lingered on you as you set your things down
“Morning,” he greeted with a small smile.  
“Morning,” you mumbled. 
You fidgeted with your hands and stepped closer to his desk. 
“Listen Spence, about Friday night… l’m sorry I was flirty with you.” 
His cheeks turned a dusty rose at the memory. “It’s alright.” 
This still didn’t ease your worries. “Are you sure?  The last thing I want is for you to feel uncomfortable around me. Especially because of something I did.”
His eyes softened when he noticed just how nervous you were. 
“I don’t, I promise,” he reassured. 
“So we’re okay?”
He nodded with a small smile and the weight started to lift off your shoulders. 
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The second time it happened was a few weeks later. 
It was Derek’s birthday. The whole team went out to dinner followed by a trip to the bar to keep the night going. 
Spencer stayed behind at the table, watching you order drinks and chat with Emily at the bar. He also tried to ignore the angry green feeling surfacing as the bartender flirted with you. 
“So, are you finally gonna dance with her tonight?” Derek asked the young man as he sat down beside him. 
Spencer sighed as he kept his eyes trained on you. “I don’t know.” 
His friend patted him on the back, “Come on man. Consider it my birthday present.” 
Spencer turned his attention to the man beside him. “I already got you a present.” 
“Kid,” Rossi interjected from farther down the table, “in my professional opinion, when a woman asks you to dance, you dance.” 
This brought out a smile from Hotch. 
“Even if you think you’ll look like a fool,” Rossi continued. 
“Like two weeks ago when that woman asked Morgan to dance,” Hotch teased, which brought out an annoyed expression from the man in question. 
“Hey! I was not that bad,” Derek defended. 
“You looked like a bird doing a mating dance,” Spencer now joined in. 
Derek looked appalled from the younger man’s joke. 
Soon after you approached the table with Emily. “What’s so funny?” You asked the table.
”Morgan's attempts to woo women,” Rossi joked. 
Emily took a sip from her drink and rolled her eyes playfully. “Oh where do I begin?” 
Derek stood up from the table shaking his head and smiling. “Well, I’m gonna go dance with people who appreciate my moves.” He then made his way to the open area where Penelope and JJ were. 
Back at the table, before you could sit down, the speakers of the bar started to play Maneater by Nelly Furtado. You gasped and a bright smile filled your features. 
“I love this song!” You squealed. 
You set your half consumed drink down on the table and looked at Spencer, “Do you want to go dance?” 
He looked at you surprised. “Me?” He squeaked. 
You giggled, finding his reaction cute, “Yes you!”
Spencer started closing in on himself. Before he could come up with the excuse he used last time you said, “I can teach you. It’ll be so much fun!” 
You were oblivious to the knowing looks from your other team mates at the table. Your focus was only on Spencer. Staring deep into his golden eyes and finding nothing but comfort. 
“Okay,” he agreed with a small smile. 
You beamed with excitement, “Yay! Let’s go.” You offered your hand to him. He took it and found you pulling him up from his chair and towards the dance floor. 
He followed you through the people in the crowd until you found an open space to settle. You held onto his hands as you swayed to the beat. 
Spencer tried to follow you but was still noticeably tense. He was also less focused on his dancing because he was too enamored by your movements. Watching you sway so effortlessly with the rhythm. 
“Look at you Spence! You’re getting the hang of it,” you praised. 
He appreciated the compliment but cringed, “I feel awkward.” 
“That’s not how dancing should feel. You should feel free and loose.” You let go of his hands and spun around.
A real smile spread on his lips, “I’m surprised you’re this coordinated with how many drinks you’ve had.” 
“Oh, I guess you missed when I almost stepped on you.” 
He chuckled, shaking his head, “I guess I didn’t.” 
The song ended and changed to Don’t Stop The Music by Rihanna. Your jaw dropped and your face filled with excitement. 
“You like this song?” he asked even though he already knew the answer. 
You grabbed his hands once more and grinned, “Yes!” You resumed dancing with his hands in yours. This time you were mouthing the lyrics of the song. 
I gotta get my body moving, shake the stress away you heard from the speakers and shook Spencer's hands. 
“You gotta shake the stress baby!” you cheered at him. 
He bashfully laughed watching you drunkenly shout. And hearing you call him baby, but that’s beside the point.
As the song played your hips and shoulders moved to the rhythm of the music. He wasn’t as successful as you when it came to swaying his hips but he could move his shoulders and copy you. 
Who knew that you’d be up in here lookin’ like you do?
You took a step back and gestured to him as the song said. Spencer shook his head and pulled on your hands to bring you back closer to him. 
Do you know what you started? I just came here to party
You took him pulling you back as a way to sneak your arms around his neck. 
But now we're rockin’ on the dance floor actin’ naughty 
Spencer’s cheeks started to turn red at the closeness. 
Your hands around my waist, just let the music play
You retracted your hands to grab his and place them on your waist. 
We’re hand in hand, chest to chest, and now we’re face to face 
By the time your arms returned wrapped around his neck, his ears were crimson. With your arms around him your shirt raised slightly. His hands met the gap of your skin that was exposed. 
Even though he felt like his insides were going to melt, he kept his hands on you and kept dancing. Spencer followed the steps you took, the way you moved back and forth. He was finally starting to let the music flow through him. 
You definitely took notice. It only made you more eager to dance with him. 
As the song continued into the next verse you grew more confident. 
Don’t you feel the passion ready to explode? 
Your hands moved to his shoulders. You moved in closer, and with a playful smirk sang along the words so Spencer could hear. 
What goes on between us, no one has to know
Just when Spencer thought the fluttering in his stomach couldn’t get worse, you leaned in close to his ear and whispered the next lyric.
This is a private show
The air between you was magnetic. It felt like you were in your own little world. Like the rest of the bar goers were gone. Suddenly, it was just you two on that dance floor. 
Spencer’s face was inches away from yours. You were so close you could count the freckles on his pink cheeks. 
“You look so cute, all flustered,” you muttered. 
He licked his lips nervously, “I’m not used to dancing like this with someone.” 
“Are you having fun at least?” 
“Yes,” he answered instantly. 
“Well then, we should do this more often,” you offered with a sweet smile. 
As the song came to an end you leaned up and left a kiss on Spencer’s cheek. You took a step back to fully look at him. His eyes slightly widened and his lips parted from your peck on his cheek. 
“I love dancing with you,” you released your hold on his shoulders. The ghost of your touch was still hot on his skin. “Hopefully we can do this again.” 
His eyes shined as he looked at you, “I’d like that.” 
________________________________________
The third time it happened, Spencer got a phone call at 12:04 am. 
He was resting on his couch, nose deep in a book, when he heard his phone buzz. He breathed a sigh of relief at the caller ID revealing it to be you instead of Hotch with a new case. 
When he answered, he heard loud music and faint voices in the back. 
“Hello?” 
You quickly answered back, “Spencer! I didn’t wake you, did I?” Your voice had a higher pitch than normal. 
“No, I was just reading. What’s up?” 
“I went out to a bar for girls night but…I had one too many drinks,” you whined. 
He sat up straighter, “are you alright?” 
There was a pause before you spoke again. “The room is spinning. I’m really dizzy and everything is overwhelming,” you mumbled. Hearing you sound so scared and small made his heart hurt. 
“I didn’t want to bother the girls because they’re having so much fun and none of them can drive right now.” 
Before you could finish your statement, he was already standing up and walking to find his shoes and jacket. 
“Do you want me to pick you up?” He knew the answer. 
“Please. Can you?” you begged. 
Spencer was grabbing his keys and out the door in a heartbeat. “Of course, I’m on my way.”
Ten minutes later, he pulled into the parking lot. He walked inside and looked around the crowded room. A few meters away, a hand rose from a booth and waved him over. 
He followed it and found Emily, JJ and Penelope keeping you company at the booth. You rested your head in your arms, which were folded on the table. 
JJ carefully tapped your arm, “hey, your ride is here.” 
You slowly lifted your head up and beamed at the sight of him. 
“Hi.”
“Hi,” he said softly. 
“They found me,” you said pointing to your friends. “They said they would babysit me until you showed up.” 
He chuckled and lightly rubbed your shoulder, “You okay? You think you can walk to the car?” 
You nodded and slowly stood up. 
“Text one of us when you get home safe,” Penelope announced. 
You gave a lazy thumbs up in her direction and turned to Spencer, “Can you remind me to do that?” 
The corners of his mouth turned up in amusement. “Of course. Come on, let's get you home,” he nodded towards the door. 
You waved and said goodbye to the girls before Spencer led you through the crowd with his hand in yours. You grasped his hand like it was an anchor in the over-stimulating environment. 
When you stepped outside, the cool breeze caused goosebumps to rise on your skin. The fresh air and dulled sounds were already starting to help you feel better. 
Unfortunately, your balance was still screwed and you managed to trip over air. Before you could fall to the ground, Spencer swiftly reached out and caught you. He helped you stand back up and wrapped an arm around your shoulder. 
“I got you, you’re okay,” he muttered close to your ears. 
Him being so sweet was going to make your stomach twist. 
The rest of the walk to the car he kept his arm around you. Your body instinctively leaned into him and used his frame to keep you upright. 
When you reached his car, he opened the passenger door and let go of his hold on you. You almost whined at the loss of contact. 
“Thanks for coming to get me,” you spoke quietly as he helped guide you into the car.  
Before he closed the door and headed to the driver's seat he offered a kind, “You’re welcome.” 
The beginning of the car ride was quite aside from the hushed music on the radio. You leaned back, slouching in the car seat. 
You watched Spencer’s hands on the wheel instead of the rapidly changing view of the windshield. Your fuzzy mind was trying to focus on anything that wasn't the dizzy spinning feeling that couldn't go away. 
Of course your thoughts were jumbled with images of the man next to you. 
“You’re so nice,” you said with a fond look. 
He looked at you with brief confusion over your random declaration. “Thanks,” he returned his eyes to the road. 
You shuffled in your seat to face him. 
“No you’re really nice,” you huffed, frustrated he somehow didn’t understand the full scope of what your drunk brain meant. “You’re so kind and sweet to everyone. I love it.” 
An amused smile grew on his face. “I try to be,” he returned.  
“You are.” 
He quickly glanced over to see your figure leaning against the seat. Or more like the seat holding you up. Your eyes occasionally felt heavy, leading to your eyelids fluttering every so often. 
“You look half asleep,” he teased. 
“I feel half asleep.” 
“Then why are you so chatty all of a sudden?” 
You shrugged, “I don’t know, just feel like talking.” 
You forced your eyes open to get a better look at him. “I like talking with you.” 
Spencer tried not to think about how your voice was much more soft and melodious than normal. 
“I like talking with you too,” he affirmed. 
He suddenly went down a mental rabbit hole of your previous conversations with him. How often you conversed over coffee early in the morning. All those plane rides home where you both had to stifle your laughter so as to not bother the others. Or the dozens of times he rambled to you about endless topics. 
“I’m surprised I haven't bored you yet with how much I talk.” 
“Oh sweetie, I could never get bored of you.” 
His ears started to turn red at the flirtatious tone in your voice. 
“I could listen to you talk for hours. Even about things I don’t understand. I’ll always listen to you,” you continued.
“Really?” He muttered with a slight voice crack. His heart rate was steadily growing. 
“Uh huh,” you confirmed sweetly. 
His eyes darted to yours for a fleeting moment. You looked completely and utterly enraptured by him. 
“Your voice sounds like honey.”
Spencer's grip on the steering wheel tightened. He kept his gaze trained on the road ahead. 
“We’re almost at your apartment,” he deflected. 
Your smile fell slightly. 
The air in the car was growing stale by the seconds. Neither of you spoke until he pulled up to your building. 
As you reached for the door handle, he whispered for you to “wait one second.” You complied. He got out of the car and walked to your side. He opened the passenger door and held out a hand for you. 
“What a gentleman,” you said with a smug grin. 
He chuckled and made sure you didn’t stumble as you stepped out of the car. 
“I try,” he replied. 
“You succeed.” 
As you walked together to your apartment, neither of you let go of the other's hand. At your door, you fumbled with your keys. Spencer tried to offer to open the door himself but you shooed away his hand and mumbled, “I got it, I got it.” 
After fighting with the lock, you stepped inside and practically threw your bag on the couch. You were seconds away from falling on the couch yourself before Spencer calmly grabbed your shoulders. 
“Come on, let's get you to bed.” 
You whined but didn’t object. He guided you down the hall to your room. In the dark, he reached for your lamp and turned it on. You plopped down on your bed and yawned. 
“Where are your makeup wipes?” He asked, looking around the room.
You pointed towards the dresser, “In the top left drawer.” He followed your directions and returned to your bed, handing the pack to you. 
“See I told you. You’re so nice,” you complimented while lazily cleaning your hours old makeup off. 
“Why because I got you your makeup wipes?” He joked with a playful tone. 
You giggled in response. The sound made Spencer feel like he was the intoxicated one. He would never get used to the way you laughed. 
“No silly, not just that. The fact that you’re still here.”
You tried and failed at getting your lipstick and eyeliner off. Instead you smeared the deep colors around your face. 
Spencer’s lips formed a thin line, trying not to smile at you smearing your makeup. He grabbed a fresh wipe and kneeled down in front of you. “Here let me help,” he mumbled. With careful hands, he pressed the damp wipe to your face to finish the job. 
“Of course I was going to stay with you,” he acknowledged your previous comment. “I’m not going to just drop you off. I wanted to make sure you were safe and feeling okay.” 
You tried not to smile because his hand was so close to your mouth. Your brain was going to short circuit at the closeness. His face mere inches away. His hand and the skin of your face are only separated by a tiny piece of cloth. 
You watched intently as he used his thumb to wipe off the last bit of lipstick. His movements were desperately slow as he handled you with care. Like you were a fragile statue he couldn’t let break. 
The action made your chest tighten and your heart race. If you had consumed another drink or two back at the bar, you would’ve jumped at the chance to kiss him. 
But instead, you stared deeply into his eyes as he checked your face for any more makeup residue. His pupils were wide. You assumed it was from the dim lighting of the room. 
You may not have been drunk enough to kiss him, but you were drunk enough to joke about it. 
“What if I just kissed you right now?”
His eyes widened and his lips parted in shock. “What has gotten into you?” he questioned in a lighthearted tone. 
“What? it’s not just me! You’re also staring at my lips!” you put your hands up in defense with a mischievous grin. “Just say you wanna kiss me.” 
He chuckled at your antics. “Because I’m taking off your makeup. And what about you staring at my eyes?” 
A grin spread on your face. “I can’t help it. They’re beautiful. Nice to look at.” 
“They’re not that nice.” 
“I beg to differ gorgeous,” you returned with a wink. “I could look at them all day.” 
Spencer smiled as his cheeks turned pink. He looked between your eyes and your lips before his expression faltered for a moment. Like he was mentally stuck on something. 
However, because of your dizzy mind and vision, you didn’t pick up on it. 
He stood back up and stuffed his hands in his pockets. “You think you’ll be okay?” 
You nodded, “Yeah. Thanks again for … everything.” 
“You’re welcome.” He started walking towards your bedroom door but before he left the room, he paused. “Don’t forget to let the girls know you got home safe.” 
Your jaw went slack and a hand flew to your forehead, “oh my god you’re right.” 
He fought back a grin from your reaction. “Goodnight,” he offered before he left. 
You waved and said goodnight as his frame left your bedroom. The sound of the front door shutting soon followed. 
Before you passed out for the night you texted penelope you got home safe. But you didn’t see her reply until the morning. 
Penelope: yay! 
Penelope: hope you feel better my sweets <3
Thanks :) I have a raging migraine so I better feel better soon 
Penelope: :(
Penelope: oh btw, how’d it go with boy genius???
Ugh 
I flirted with him AGAIN 
Penelope: you’re kidding! 
Penelope: What did you say?
I can’t remember all of it but at some point I said his voice sounds like honey 
Penelope: OMG
Oh no it gets worse
He helped me take off my makeup and I said I wanted to kiss him. And THEN I pointed out how he stared at my lips and I said “just say you wanna kiss me” 
Penelope: oh girlie
Penelope: I think you have to throw in the towel 
Penelope: you love him
You stared at the words on the screen before your hands could even type a reply. Mentally fighting with yourself about the subject. 
No way
I can’t be in love with him
He’s my friend I can’t do that 
Penelope: I don’t think you have much of a choice  
You sighed and turned off your phone. As you reached for the aspirin bottle, you prayed you wouldn’t do something stupid like this ever again 
You were wrong. 
______________________________________
By the fourth time it happened, almost a month had passed since you asked him to pick you up. 
To celebrate the success of a case, his coworkers and friends wanted to go out for some down time. He thanked them for the invitation but kindly rejected it saying he had previous plans to attend some film festival. In reality, he had been on the fence about attending the film festival and ended up spending the evening at home. 
As much as he wanted an excuse to spend time with you, he couldn’t go through another evening of you flirting with him. 
Normally, it’d be his dream to have you flirt with him and call him sweet names. To hear how much you liked his voice, his eyes, and the way his brilliant mind worked. But the more it occurred, the more confused he felt.
At first, he assumed you were just a flirtatious drunk and there was no meaning behind your advances. But as time went on, he saw your actions and affectionate words had so much desire, so much longing that he started to suspect they were based on real feelings. 
Yet, it was only reserved for the version of you that had multiple drinks running through your system. 
He’d almost given up on asking you how you felt. Almost. 
Something that gave him a glimmer of hope was a voicemail he received. 
In an effort to actually get some sleep, he took a late night shower. When he returned to his bedroom, he found his cell phone had received a voicemail. He checked and saw he missed a call from the very person he was anxiously avoiding. 
With new clean pajamas on, he grabbed his phone and sat down on his bed ready for the possible plea for him to pick you up. He clicked the message and lifted the phone to his ear. 
“Hi Spence! I wanted to talk but it looks like you’re busy,” your voice sounded sweet and bubbly. He deduced you might have already gone home at this point given the fact that this time there was no loud background music or voices.
“I missed you tonight. I wish you came with us. I know that isn’t always your favorite place to be, but I still kinda had hope. I love spending time with you. I don’t care if it’s at work or off the clock, it makes me so happy to see you.”
His heart felt warm from the way you talked about him. Your voice sounded giddy and occasionally you would slur your words. 
“It’s kinda silly but when we don’t have work or plans, I will literally count down the days until I get to see you again. Isn’t that silly? I spend like five or six days of my week with you and when I don’t see you, I’m thinking about when I’ll see you again.” 
Spencer found familiarity in what you were saying. For the last few weeks he found his thoughts were constantly revolving back to you. Whether intentionally or not. 
“I pretty much think about you all the time. It’s becoming a bit of a problem. I don’t mean you’re a problem! The problem is how much I like you. I’ve never liked someone as much as I like you.”
There was a brief pause in your message. He almost thought the voicemail was over until your voice returned softer than before. 
“I’m probably falling in love with you.” 
“And that’s really scary to think about because I don’t think I’ve ever been in love before. You’re different Spence, when I’m around you I feel-“ 
You were cut off by the time limit of the voicemail. Spencer stared at his phone screen with wide eyes. His heart was beating so fast it could’ve jumped out of his chest. 
He finally got an answer to the question that plagued his mind. You loved him back. 
You loved him. 
His whole body was filled with adrenaline. He almost grabbed his keys and drove over to you at that moment. But he knew he had to wait. He couldn’t have this conversation with you while you were still intoxicated and would probably fall asleep by the time he got there. 
Spencer on the other hand, could barely sleep. He was too busy on cloud 9 to come back down and let sleep overtake him. 
The next morning he was practically buzzing with excitement. He got up earlier than normal for work so he could stop by your apartment. 
He nervously knocked on your door. He kept fidgeting by fixing his tie and cardigan while he waited for you. 
When you did open the door he saw you were still in the process of getting ready. You had on dress pants and an old college t-shirt. 
You looked surprised to see him of course since he didn’t announce he was going to come over. “Spencer? What are you doing here?”
Suspicion started to creep its way into his mind. For now he ignored it and pushed on. 
“I thought we could commute to work together. I figured you would be hungover and not in the best mood to drive.” 
Your eyebrows raised and lips turned up. “That is so sweet of you,” you beamed. You opened the door wider, suggesting he was welcome. He followed and walked inside your apartment
“You’re absolutely right by the way. I feel like shit,” you groaned. “My head is killing me, I’m exhausted and I have this massive bruise on my leg.” You waved your hand over your right thigh indicating where the injury was. 
“I have no clue how I got it. I probably fell but I'm not sure. Most of last night is fuzzy, I barely even remember how I got home,” you joked with a chuckle.
The suspicion Spencer felt turned into a pit in his stomach. With furrowed brows he asked the million dollar question. “Do you remember calling me last night?”
You stared at the ground as you tried to shuffle through the vague images of the night before. “No I don’t. What did we talk about?” you asked innocently. 
His grip on the strap of his satchel tightened. “We didn’t. Talk. I couldn’t pick up the phone and didn’t realize you had called me until this morning. That’s why I wanted to stop by. To make sure you were okay.” He topped off his lie with a flat smile. 
”Thanks for checking up on me,” you sweetly replied, not yet aware of the internal mess he was experiencing. 
“It’s no problem,” his voice almost cracked.
“I need to finish getting dressed and brush my teeth but I’ll be ready to leave in like five minutes.” You speed walked back to your bedroom. 
It wasn’t until he heard the door close that he finally let the storm of emotions rip through him. His chest was getting tighter by the second. It felt like he was suffocating. 
You don’t remember. 
You told him you loved him and you don’t remember it at all. The best news he’d heard in months was a blip in your memory. Was late night drunk babbling. 
He felt so foolish. So stupid for thinking you might really reciprocate his feelings. 
One part of himself that was still holding onto hope tried to remember that “drunk words are sober thoughts.” But that’s not always true. 
He knew studies have shown intoxication can lead to someone misinterpreting their own thoughts or feelings. Leading to them impulsively expressing things that they don’t really believe. 
Unfortunately, the factual and heartbroken part of his brain was overwhelming compared to the sliver of hope he had left. 
“Alright, I’m good to go,” you snuck back into the living room. Your voice brought him back to the present. 
You grabbed your purse off the couch and walked towards the front door. As you put on your jacket you noticed the sudden change in Spencer’s demeanor. 
“Spence, you okay?”
”Yeah, I’m fine,” he nodded and answered with a light voice. But you could see right through it. His eyes gave it away. They looked so full of hurt. 
”Spencer-“
”I promise, I’m fine,” he interrupted. He offered you a fake smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. He walked to your door and tightly held his bag. “We should go before we hit traffic.” 
You observed him for a few seconds longer than he liked. The profiler side of you wanted to pry but you knew it was a bad idea to push your friend. 
The drive to work was agonizingly quiet. It was odd for you two to barely speak when in close quarters. Instead, you both let the tension hang in the air, ignored and untouched. 
Spencer sat with his feelings for most of the drive. He didn’t want to be hopeful anymore. He didn’t want to be confused if it was real anymore. At this point, he just wanted to give up. 
Now, he’d have to keep a tight lid on his feelings for you. Leave it to fester and wear away at his heart. 
Like that would do any good though. He couldn’t stop loving you no matter how hard he tried. 
____________________________________
The following days felt like a dream to you. But not in a good way. 
It felt like one of those dreams where you know something is off, but can’t tell what it is. 
Spencer had been closed off ever since he picked you up for work. You couldn't wrap your head around why. He seemed so happy and eager when he arrived at your apartment that morning. 
That was the last time you saw him act normal around you. Now there was an underlying bitterness in the words he spoke. Everytime you tried to ask him if he was okay, whatever excuse he gave you left a sour taste in his mouth. 
You weren’t the only one to notice either. Everyone could sense the air go stale when you entered a room he was in. How his eyes no longer lingered on you. Or how it almost pained him to even look at you. 
His sudden change in behavior was starting to drive you insane. You were overthinking and overanalyzing every single interaction you had with him, leading up to that day in your apartment. Every move you made around him was calculated. You were terrified one wrong word or move would make him hate you. 
“He hates me.” 
“He doesn’t hate you,” Penelope swung around in her chair to face you. “I think it’s impossible for him to hate you.” 
You shook your head, “but still he won’t talk to me Pen. He’s always been so open with me and the last few days he’s been shutting me out. He hasn’t been weird around you guys at all.” 
She twirled a sparkly purple pen in her hands as she watched you sulk. “You said it started on Thursday last week?” 
“Yeah, the day after our last case.” 
Penelope sat back in her chair thinking. “Do you think the case bothered him? Could that be why he went home instead of going out with us?” 
“No, I don't think so. The next morning when he showed up at my apartment he was in a good mood. A great mood even,” you folded your arms in frustration. “But when I left the room and came back he looked like a sad puppy.” 
Penelope tapped her pen against her chin. “Why was he at your apartment before work?” 
“Apparently, I called him the night before but he didn’t pick up so he stopped by to check up on me and assumed I’d be hungover.” 
“Awe, that’s sweet,” she cooed before her confusion crossed her features. “Wait, you apparently called him? You’re not sure?” 
You cringed as you explained, “I don’t remember calling him. I was really drunk.” 
She tried to hide the amusement on her face but failed. “Why did you call him?” 
You stared at the floor trying to piece together what happened after you got home that night. “I remember missing him. I wanted to talk to him, but I’m not sure what about.” 
“It’d pay good money to hear whatever voicemail you must’ve left him,” she chuckled with a cheeky grin. 
“Right!” You started to chuckle with her until vague memories of talking on the phone came to light. Your face fell as your drunk declarations were pulled out of your long term memory. 
“Oh god,” you said barely above a whisper. 
Penelope filled with concern, “sweetie what’s wrong?” 
“I did leave him a voicemail. He must have listened to it while I was changing,” your eyes widened and anxiety started flowing through your veins. 
Before she could ask what you said in the message, you interrupted. “I have to go,” you alerted as you remembered Spencer already left the office. “I’ll text you later!” 
You practically ran back to the bullpen to grab your things and tell Hotch you were leaving for the night. 
The car ride to his apartment was agonizing. You gripped the steering wheel so tightly your knuckles turned white.
This was all your fault. He couldn’t stand to be around you and talk to you anymore because you drunkenly told him you loved him. 
You ruined your friendship. 
The least you could do was go to his apartment to try to make things right. Try to fix whatever you have broken. 
You couldn’t lose him. Not Spencer. Not the first man you ever actually truly wholeheartedly loved. Even if he didn’t love you back the same way. You’d rather live with the soul crushing pain of unrequited feelings, than lose one of the most important people in your life. 
The walk to his apartment was even worse than the drive to his building. With every step you took, your heart grew heavier. By the time you weakly knocked on his door, your eyes had started to water. 
When Spencer opened the door, his face fell with concern. 
“I remember,” you whispered before he could ask what was wrong. 
A look of realization dawned on him. He stepped to the side and opened the door wider, “come in.” 
You followed and stood awkwardly in his living room. You’d been here hundreds of times before. But now it feels different. Even though you were welcomed inside it still felt like he was miles away. 
“Spencer, I am so sorry.” 
“For what?” He already knows what you’re talking about, you can see it in his eyes. 
“The voicemail.” 
He stuffed his hands in his pockets. “You’re sorry for sending it?”
“Yes, no!” you stuttered fidgeting with your rings. “I meant what I said. Every bit of it. I just uh- I wish I had told you all of that when I was sober. Maybe I could’ve phrased it better. Not come off so strong.” 
“Why didn’t you?” he inquired, a hint of desperation in his voice.
He took a single step closer to you. “You could’ve told me.” 
Your eyebrows furrowed at him, “wait, you’re not mad about what I said?” 
He mirrored your confusion, “what do you mean?” 
“All week you’ve been acting weird. I thought you were mad or uncomfortable with me because I said I love you.”
Spencer raised his hand to his face as he realized. “I would never be mad at you for that.” His voice raised slightly in frustration, almost a wine, as he continued, “I was upset because by the time you sobered up, you forgot about it.” 
“Oh,” you whispered —if you could even call it that— under your breath. 
He lied. He listened to the message before he showed up, was going to ask about it, and you forgot like an idiot. 
“You only flirt with me or show interest in me when you're drunk. I couldn’t tell what was real or not,” his expression showed more pain as he spoke.
“Spencer, I promise I really do have feelings for you.”
His lips formed a flat line as he stared back at you. “Then why did you only show it when you were drunk?”
“Because I was scared!” your voice raised. You spoke with your hands as you got louder. “How do you tell your best friend you fell in love with them? You can’t! It just doesn't work. I thought I was going to lose you.”
“I’m in love with you.” 
You deadpanned at him, “Spencer, I’m being serious.” 
“So am I,” he said louder than you. 
The weight of his confession finally settled. Time stood still. The world stopped turning. The hands on the clock stopped ticking. 
His voice was quieter this time when he said it. He spoke in the gentlest tone you’d ever heard from him. Like the words dripped right from his arteries, carrying them away from his heart and to you. 
“I love you.” 
“You do?” 
You don’t know why you asked that. It seemed to be the only thing that could leave your mouth. How could you not believe him when he said those three words like that. Like it was his purpose. That he was put on this earth to love you and only you. 
The realization of what his confession meant started to dawn on you.
“That’s why you were at my apartment. So you could tell me. And I-“ 
You stared at the floor with wide guilty eyes and sat (more like fell) on his couch. The guilt started to creep into your blood. It started to crush your bones. 
“Oh I screwed up everything,” you buried your face in your hands. 
He sat down next to you, “no you didn’t.”
“Yes I did. You have every right to be mad at me.” 
”I'm not,” his hand landed on your back, his thumb slowly caressing you. 
You looked up at him, “really?”
“Yes.” 
You stared back at him, looking unconvinced. 
He surrendered and shrugged, “okay I was kind of crushed about it. But I know now that you really did mean it.” 
“I still hurt you,” you returned meekly. The tears started to return back to your eyes and you blinked them away. 
“I’m so sorry. What can I do to make it up to you?” 
His thumb stopped its movements on your back. With the same hand, he pushed back the hair that had fallen in your face. He looked into your eyes like he wanted to see all of you. See every little crack and crevice of your soul you tried to hide from him in fear of judgment, in fear of him running away. 
He could never run away from you. 
“Tell me everything you wished you could say when you were sober.” 
You sat up straighter and turned to fully face him. After taking a slow deep breath, you said what you’d wanted to say to him for months. 
No liquid courage. Just the pure, raw, unadulterated you. 
“Spencer, I’m in love with you. I couldn’t tell you when I was sober because I was afraid. I was in denial for so long. I tried to convince myself I wasn’t falling for you. And it’s not because I don’t want to have feelings for you. It’s the opposite. I love you so much it scares me.”
You started to play with your rings again. “I’ve never been in love before. I’ve never said it and been sure that I really meant it.”
“I mean it when I say it to you. I know I mean it because I want to spend as much time as I can with you. Doesn’t matter if it’s sitting quietly next to each other on the jet or dancing in a crowded bar. I know I mean it because I’d do anything for you. I’d listen to anything you want to ramble about. I’d drive you anywhere you wanted to go because I know you’re not the biggest fan of driving.” 
You swallowed down the lump you didn’t realize formed in your throat. 
“I always find myself crawling back to you when you’re not near.” 
It was only now you really noticed Spencer's expression. His eyes were soft and dilated so much there was barely any brown left in them. His waterline threatened to spill with tears. 
Before you could even dare to say anything else, he reached to the back of your neck and pulled you closer. His lips mixed with yours in a long awaited dance. 
The kiss wasn’t overwhelmed with passion. But also not too slow and careful. The only way you could describe it was perfect. 
It was perfect. 
He was perfect. 
Every aching moment of yearning and longing leading up to this. 
After kissing for what felt like forever —although you’re pretty sure you could kiss him for forever— you laid down on the couch with your head on his chest. Your arms wrapped tightly around him as if he could disappear at any moment. His one arm wrapped around your waist while the other was playing with your hair. 
“You can stay the night if you want,” he nonchalantly tried to offer without explicitly asking if you would stay over. 
“Do you think we’ll have time in the morning to stop by my apartment to get me fresh clothes?” 
“If not, you could borrow one of my sweaters.” 
You chuckled, “Imagine their faces when we show up to work together and with me very clearly wearing your clothes.” 
He smiled at the thought of you wearing his clothes to work. The image of you proudly showing off that he was yours. “Yeah I can imagine it.” 
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