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hope is a skill

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Being aroace is so funny because sometimes I'll go to sleep thinking to myself "do I lack something fundamental to the full human experience" and then I wake up the next day and realize it is not that serious

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looks inside procrastination -> it's anxiety -> looks inside anxiety -> it's fear -> looks inside fear -> it's shame

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the way I crave a parent who, not only loves me, but likes me, and notices me is so so embarrassing

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growing up with an angry father is terrifying but growing up a daughter with an angry mother is gut wrenching because you get it, you understand that she’s been worn down by the world and being treated as less and she’s been carrying the rage and traumas of her mother and her mother before her and her mother before her and when you see her you recognise that same rage in you

but her rage is not pointed at the world, it’s pointed at you because you’re 14 and not used to the harshness of it yet but she will make sure you get there and you don’t know what to do but cry and she hates seeing your tears because they make her nauseous

growing up with an angry mother feels like being ripped apart because you know she loves you, she’s your worst enemy, she makes you feel safe, she terrifies you, she’s your best friend, she’s the reason you can’t let people get close, you love her, you never cried over a boy or a girl as much as you cried over her words, she made you, you’re her puppet, you’re desperate to leave, you’ll never escape her blood or her judging gaze and even when you leave you can hear her voice in your head and it will haunt you until you’re dead

you understand her rage but you see it in yourself and that scares you more than anything else

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it's never too late to start brushing your teeth again. i basically never brushed my teeth for a whole 10 years. a decade. A DECADE. i still struggle to brush my teeth once a week, but it all started with brushing my teeth once every few months. so i mean it when i say brushing your teeth once a week, a month, a year, or even a decade, is better than nothing.

and still, nothing is not shameful. it is not immoral to struggle with self care. and it is also not pointless to keep trying. anything you can do, even if its wiping plaque off with a towel, is enough. it is good to take care of yourself however you can, even if it's just trying to muster the will to. reading this post is good, too.

i believe in you and i am proud of you, even in the smallest of steps. it's okay. you can give yourself grace.

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bombo.love

@shhlomotion et @barryxco

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this blog 100% supports chubby tummies, arms, and thighs 👀👌👀👌

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Source

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“You can be sad when you’re with me. You can show me your pain.”

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My deepest darkest fantasy is that I collapse on the street and I am rushed to the hospital. They perform a bunch of tests and find out I am severely deficient in some kind of vitamin. Then I start taking the vitamin and I become the happiest cleverest person alive because all my problems were caused by this one deficiency

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ppl don’t binge eat bc ~processed food tastes too good~ or whatever paranoid reasoning diet culture has taught us, they binge bc they have a history of deprivation and restriction, often self-imposed. 

if you think you’re not allowed to eat this or that food, you’re going to binge 

if you think your “good” diet/lifestyle/behavior will start tomorrow, you’re going to binge (aka last supper eating)

if you have a history of food insecurity, you’re going to binge when food is available

if you have a history of dieting or being put on diets, you’re going to binge to be sure your net energy needs are met 

if you have an eating disorder, you’re going to binge… and if you don’t, you’re more likely to die of the illness

the body drives hunger for very good reason, and it takes a long, stable period of eating sufficiently to get its hyperphagic (extreme hunger/eating) mechanisms to stand down. more deprivation means more out-of-control eating; more response to hunger means more regulated eating patterns. it really is that simple.

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hi! your blog is absolutely fascinating. thank you for the great work u do ! do you know amy poems about long distance friendship/love? or poems about distance between two people im general?

thank you so much 🥺 here are some poems i love about long distance relationships:

“The Quiet World” by Jeffrey McDaniel

“A Second Train Song for Gary” by Jack Spicer

“Want” by Joan Larkin

“Like an Auto-Tune of Authentic Love” by Carmen Giménez Smith

“Torn Map” by Naomi Shihab Nye

“My Lover Who Lives Far” by Camille T. Dungy

“Morning” by Frank O’Hara

“In Trust” by Thom Gunn

“Dear One Absent This Long While” by Lisa Olstein