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Moiraine & Lan | The Wheel of Time 2x08

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they're not waking up.

@forwardlion asked: " Are you okay?" - Elayne

GROGGY WAS AN UNDERSTATEMENT, Moiraine thought as the words slowly drifted into the edge of her consciousness. She wasn't sure how much time had passed, wasn't sure how long it took her to drift more fully into consciousness again. Far too long, she imagined. But there was no time to dwell on that now.

She recognised the voice, even if it took a few moments to place it. The words themselves, the meaning of the question, took a few moments more, and finally she forced her eyes open, focusing on the familiar face before her.

"So far as I can tell, yes," she replied, her voice sounding much less certain that she would have liked. Her head was pounding and there was a sharp stinging sensation stretching across her right temple, but aside from that, there did not seem to be any particularly concerning damage, from what she could tell.

Physically, there seemed to be little harm done. As far as pain went, it was all quiet manageable. But mentally? Emotionally? Come to think of it, Moiraine wasn't entirely certain.

"What happened?" she questioned after a moment, a frown forming on her lips as her brow furrowed. The memories were foggy at best, much to her annoyance.

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They're not waking up.

"Are you okay?"

"Answer me."

"Please answer me."

"Do I need to call for help?"

"Are you breathing?"

"They're not breathing."

"Help, someone, please."

"You need to get help."

"Can someone help me."

"I have you."

"Please wake up."

"Please, please, please."

"Promise me you're going to get better."

"I promised I'd keep you safe."

"I didn't meant to let you down."

"You need to wake up."

"Wake up for me."

"Please."

"Please hang on."

"Help's coming."

"No..."

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okay so i'm gonna have to watch the season finale again because i kind of only half payed attention after Hopper go bye-bye because I was too busy ugly crying on my dog, who was like giiiiirrrrlll wtf, but tolerated the snugs anyway.

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i'm still alive, i swear. i've been ignoring my computer for two weeks while my fiance was in town, also two of my plants have spider mites so now i've been obsessively checking the other 140 of them and treating them all just in case because ANXIETY.

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i swear i'm still alive, i'm going to try to do replies and maybe start some new things this weekend.

basically... my psychiatrist put me on adderall and now i just work constantly because i have all the brain for work but no time for other things and yeah... good for the bank account, not great for...literally everything else

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Moiraine not listening to WikiHow

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Aeryn Sun has taken over my life for the time being and i’m mostly living over here. i’m aiming to get some of my moiraine drafts done this weekend. fingers crossed. i’m trying to get my shit together i swear.

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toxicmalicex​:

˚ · .✧˚ · .✧˚ · .    lips pursed in a thin line, brows came together as she seemed to consider for a prolonged minute. precious time slipping between their fingers ; marisa could see the other’s face match the shade of the moon above their heads. the sound of howling accompanying the scenery. to just leave her was a tempting thought. how long before body would grow too weak to remain conscious ? would the wild animals, the wolves, be enticed by the smell of blood ? would moiraine found strength to fight them off before fading away ?

the visions so dark yet alluring. nevertheless, the red ajah pushed those aside & approached the other. crouched in front of her, marisa reached to brush a lone strand of hair from aes sedai’s face. ❝ that’s an appealing thought, can’t fight you on that. ❞  the navy cloak was pushed aside to reveal the stabwound. a small spark of blue light formed in her palm. she squashed it soon enough though, saying, ❝ but that’s not enough. ❞  marisa’s head tilted lightly, eyes bore into another’s.  ❝ you’re gonna tell me exactly what you’ve been doing here. you’re going to spill your little secret— what you’ve been really doing in all those years on the road. ❞ ೄྀ࿐ ˊˎ-

IT WAS ONLY A MATTER OF WAITING NOW. What would happen would happen, and there was nothing to do but accept it. Weak as she felt, Moiraine could not seem to shake the morbid curiosity as to how this would all play out. Whether she lived or died, it hardly mattered, she supposed. Brows raising again, the slightest bit of a smile crossed her lips once more.

"Do you think you are the first to make such threats?" the Aes Sedai questioned, the tone of her voice caught somewhere between boredom and amusement. "Death, pain, torments of all sorts — I have heard it all. I daresay the information you seek would be quite common knowledge by now if I were the sort to give in to such threats." She would have shrugged if she had been inclined to waste energy on such a thing in the moment. "Do what you will. The only answer I have to offer you is the fact that to Tower grows dull after a time." She let out a dry laugh. "But I imagine you've had plenty of time to experience that for yourself."

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i'm still alive, i swear

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Moiraine: Talking about your feelings is SO important. I won’t do it but you guys definitely should. 

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「   RP MEME :    THE NIGHT BEFORE A CERTAIN DEATH  .   」   * change pronouns as needed .

‘ well, if i have to go out with anyone, i’m glad it’s with you. ’

‘ i can’t believe i’m going to die with you at my side. ’

‘ come here, we only have tonight. ’

‘ i can’t sleep. ’

‘ how can you sleep at a time like this? ’

‘ shouldn’t we be planning? ’

‘ what’s the point of planning? we’re doomed, anyways. ’

‘ save your strength. you’re going to need it for tomorrow. ’

‘ try to get some rest. ’

‘ share a drink with me. ’

‘ it’s our last night alive, you know. ’

‘ a toast to our short lives. ’

‘ dance with me? ’

‘ no one deserves to spend tonight alone. ’

‘ for old times sake. ’

‘ there’s so many things i want to tell you. ’

‘ there are so many things i want to say, but our time is so short. ’

‘ i’ve got nothing more to say. ’

‘ i could’ve done so much more. ’

‘ you could’ve done so much more with your life. ’

‘ i’m sorry, but they sent you here to die. ’

‘ no regrets, right? ’

‘ do you regretting signing on for this mission? ’

‘ nah, i’m not going out with any regrets. ’

‘ we’ve all got to die sometime, right? ’

‘ i guess we’re just going out sooner rather than later, huh? ’

‘ i’m sorry i didn’t tell you earlier. ’

‘ if it’s my last chance to say it… i love you. ’

‘ i wish i could’ve done everything in the world with you. ’

‘ i can die happily, just knowing that you love me, too. ’

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drafts: too many brain power: zero

i'm sorry i'm the worst and super slow and haven't answered stuff in 84 years

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luckhissoul​:

he couldn’t sit around and pretend to understand what she meant. light, he hadn’t even understood her bloody letter. what had happened in the tower still played in his mind. everyone had thought that she was dead. rand had, thom - who still seemed so bloody grateful that she wasn’t. that was going to take some getting used to. the pain in his head has subsided just a little bit, throbbing there in his skull where his eye should be. it hurts a bit more when he talks. but he brushes it off. looking at her a moment he lets out a breath, his gaze trailing away from her. “going to tell me why?”

THERE WAS SADNESS    in the hint of a smile that crossed Moiraine’s lips upon hearing Mat’s question.  “One day,  perhaps,”  she responded in a quiet voice. Perhaps she didn’t fully understand the  ‘why’  of it all herself - merely that it had to happen that way.  But for the time being,  it was the last thing she wanted to think about.  For the time being,  she wished she could simply forget it all.  With the Last Battle looming closer every day,  at the very least there was something more important she could focus on.

A brief pause,  and her eyes flickered back to the young man once more.  “Mat?”  Her voice sounded tentative even to her own hears,  perhaps even hesitant. “Thank you.” 

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things i’ve learned when searching for a literary agent: i should NEVER look at who they’ve represented before because then i just go full on I AM UNWORTHY

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◈   TAG NINE PEOPLE YOU’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER!

favourite colour(s): blue and green

favourite flavour(s): peppermint, ginger, lemon

favourite genre(s): fantasy, sci-fi, drama

favourite music:  symphonic metal, classical (mainly romantic era stuff), musical theatre, rock, some pop... idk... kind of a bit of everything except country tbh

favourite movie(s):  the price of desire, casablanca, alfred hitchcock's notorious, daphne

favourite series: into the badlands, buffy the vampire slayer, 1899, firefly, his dark materials, doctor who

last song: this is how the world ends by kat leon

last series: doctor who... i binged the whole thing while i was stuck in bed with covid 

last movie: return of the king

currently reading:  i’ve been on a reading hiatus since finishing a memory of light... i’ve been distracted by writing instead. i’m about to start new spring, though

currently watching: right this second? the last of us. in general, i've been rewatching game of thrones and grey’s anatomy

currently working on: writing the second novel in a series i started in november

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loyalxtotheend​:​

In order to keep himself from wringing his hands uncertainly, Thom let one of his daggers slide from his sleeve, fiddling with that instead. If he could pass it off as threatening rather than nervous fidgeting, even better. He didn’t really the the strange man meant any harm, but he was ready to protect Moiraine - and even Mat - at a second’s notice, if need be. Not that he thought it would come to that. But he was ready.

He raised one eyebrow at Moiraine’s weak reply to the man. Well, at least she was consistent. They’d both been reluctant to give any details of how she had gotten injured to him, and he had only been a complete stranger to one of them at the time. Something about this man made him uneasy, though. Thom couldn’t really see anything he was doing, but he didn’t like it. Was he channeling? Was that how he was meant to help her? Thom liked that even less.

He looked over at Mat again, uncertain. Then his gaze went back to the stranger and Moiraine. Was she looking a little better? Was there a little color coming back to her cheeks? Or was that just wishful thinking? He really wasn’t sure one way or the other. So, he turned to Mat again, whispering so he was the only one to hear. “Does she look a little better to you? Or am I just imagining things?”

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“Too right she looks better,” Mat whispered, although he wasn’t altogether certain that she did. He wasn’t sure what was happening. Was the man actually doing anything yet? Or was he just being hopeful that this wasn’t one more snake oil salesman out to con the world out of a bit of coin? Mat edged closer to Thom – and, incidentally, closer to the door. As he watched, as it looked like nothing was happening, his skin began to crawl. There was no way this could be a good thing. It had seemed like it at the time, seemed like a brilliant idea really, but now that his initial burst of panic was over, Mat was deeply, deeply second-guessing himself. 

After all, he’d brought a man who could bloody well channel into the room. The man seemed sane enough, but how could he be? 

Mat bit the side of his thumb again, trying not to fidget – failing badly. 

“Come on, Moiraine,” he muttered. 

As for the stranger… 

He gave Moiraine a somewhat sad but still friendly smile. “Secretive, hm?” he asked, smiling a little more, and he shrugged one shoulder. “Fair enough. That’s a life I know well. Now, if you don’t mind, my lady, I’d appreciate you not trying to kill me when this is over.” He winked, as if this were all some harmless, merry sort of game, despite the sadness in his eyes. Then, he lay his other hand on her and closed his eyes, exhaling softly before going perfectly still. 

Saidin and saidar twined themselves together, simply and naturally, as they were always meant to do. There was no taint, no twist of darkness, nothing foul that came along with the magic. The Healing he wove was simple enough on the surface, but if Moiraine had the strength to follow along, she might be able to see enough tiny threads to know it was anything but simple. And, if she did not have the strength, she might feel a calming sensation, like a comb being gently run through one’s hair, as tendrils of energy moved through her, cleansing away the lingering darkness and poison of her wound before acting on the wound itself, before the true healing began.  

It wasn’t fast. Another Aes Sedai could doubtless have done it in a few heartbeats. But it was gentle, as gentle as floating in a warm pond, bathed in sunlight. And, when it was over, the Blue’s wound would be cleansed, healed, nothing remaining but a scar. 

The stranger opened his eyes and dropped his hands to his lap, watching her intently. 

Mat stepped forward. “She’ll be alright now?” 

“I hope so,” the stranger murmured. “My lady? How do you feel?” 

THIS DIDN’T SEEM TO BE    the first time the stranger had done this sort of thing, Moiraine observed.  He seemed far too confident to not have done this before,  far too practiced in his weaves.  However he had managed it all without being caught and gentled by the Red Ajah,  she wasn’t going to question that.  She was far too grateful for his help to even begin to question anything he did.  

It felt odd,  whatever it was he was doing.  Moiraine was all too familiar with being healed,  but this felt different.  She couldn’t quite place what it was,  however,  though she could tell it wasn’t the same as what she was accustomed to.  It drew far more of her energy than she would have expected,  though to be fair,  the stranger seemed to know what he was doing,  and Moiraine had had little strength left to begin with.  She supposed it was the first time she had been quite so close to death upon being healed.  Perhaps it was to be expected that it would leave her much weaker than she would have expected. 

Her brow furrowed just the slightest bit upon hearing the question,  though she was quick to return her expression back to one of calm composure,  despite being unable to completely hide just how  drained  she felt.  

For a moment she was silent,  merely considering her answer,  trying to pay close attention to what was going on with her own body.  There was only a dull ache left behind where not too long ago had been sharp pain,  like fire coursing through her veins.  She imagined it was the sort of ache that would fade in time,  once she was rested and had regained her strength.

“Exhausted,”  she finally admitted in a quiet voice,  barely able to even keep her eyes open.  “But... It is definitely an improvement.” 

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