montiree

[montiree]

alright enough tumblr see y'all again in 6 months not really im in the yearning chamber LET ME OUT LET ME OUT LET ME

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remember fellas you are me and i am the most important so logically you are the most important so you should take care of yourself. drink some water :)

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Since the world began there have been two Jeremys.

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this existentialism shit they got me on in english is really fuckin with me

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im realizing the more i do school the more depressed i become. the more depressed i become, the more i yearn. the more i yearn, the stronger my inclination to post on tumblr. anyway having an crisis bc i like person who has a pretty voice but their pretty voice i like probably because it sounds like the voice of the previous person i simped for but i didnt know that person very well all things considered so they practically only existed in my head and so effectively i like this person because they sound like me and the embodiment of the me from whom i seek validation but will never be enough to earn it from. weeewoooweeeewooo im not reaall endnia wawawawwaw aahhhg sdingidnigi

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yk when like people ask you to vent/offer "dark lore" and you go "hell yeah go for it"

and then immediately its like actual depressing stuff you weren't prepared for when you gave the go ahead, but its #toolate. yeah anyway shoutouts peepaw love your lore its quite crazy dunno how to react to the new additions will try my best <3

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i am so tired of these dry ass conversations

of reaching out to no answer, or waiting for hours just to get the bleakest response of my fucking life

at least when i get a response in a timely manner the mf is still far to afraid to be themself toreveal any oppinion or emotion or add anything interesting to the conversation that they always just say the bare fucking minimum "what music do you like" "rock but ill listen to anything" "what bands specifically" "oh blank blank and blank gotta be my top three" "oh and why do you like them" "dunno sound good i guess" grahhhghgh

i had sugery the other day and was laying in a hospital bed for days striking up converstaions about my surgery and i was getting the same boring ass questions (cuz thats the only time they ask is when somethings wrong) that i was just sitting there copying and pasting answer after answer like i had one conversation with twelve people gdfsfdgioujsdhdigfshidfgshuisfgdihu

sometimes they get a lil more interesting its like lets gossip about this person we both dont like because they're subjectively a mutual bad person and we can both agree that their things are bad so i still dont have to be vulnerable or myself or anything and i can hide behind this wall and hope that you like the person im not WELL GUESS WHAT I FUCKING DONT THE PERSON YOU'RE NOT IS SO ANNOYING AND BORING TO TALK TO PLEASE SAY SOMETHING INTERESTING OR TELL A STORY OR DO SOME RESEARCH INTO SOME NICHE TOPIC AND LORE DUMP ON MY WHAT ARE YOUR INTERESTS WHY DO YOU LIKE THEM TELL ME MORRRRREEEE AHNRIDSFHGISDFHNGIDNFWIGHNIDFN

i understand that my ever growing thirst for knowledge can at times make me a creep or nosey or whatever bad adjective you want to assign to me. i get it that maybe you dont trust me off the bat with your deepest darkest secret or whatever. but being so afraid to even have a personality makes it so hard to even remember you exist.

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i wasn’t good enough for you. and now everyone i think i like embodies an aspect of your ghost

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prev was the valedictorian and threw a backflip at graduation and landed it and it looked super cool and everyone clapped. they then grabbed the mic and made fun of genshin players and naruto fans because they think they are losers.

@ermine-57047 @downthewitchingwell @melonberry85 @mel0maan1ac @beardrawsy @tordotnado

New REBLOG Game

Just fucking lie about the previous poster

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Hello I am asking goodbye thank you-

hey asking goodbye thank you-, i’m montiree :)

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when i leave,

the sun will once again beam down upon my wretched face.

i will have found the rain, will be washed away by that which empowers me.

i will coalesce once more into a true being.

i will find that i have value.

i will remember how it feels to be happy, to be vulnerable, to be wanted, to be loved.

i will free myself from that which brings me down.

i will begin anew.

i will miss what i had here.

what i had here will not miss me.

i will be forgotten.

when i leave.

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guys why does it have to be so hard to live as a low value individual

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i miss you. or i would, if i knew who you were or what it was that i was missing.

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is something genuine too much to ask for?

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maybe you should save your breath.

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you must allow me to drown.