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CARLOS SAINZ Don't Blink S5 EP4 - CS55 Racing

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dude what the fucking fuck

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it should be illegal to be this pretty

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dude what the fucking fuck

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pato o'ward for man about town | ss24

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i just don't understand how people can't understand that you can have complex feelings about a person. you don't have to either completely love or completely hate someone. you can feel a range of different things about them, and that's okay!

like was i disappointed by the comments lando and daniel (and all the other drivers) made? yes. did it make me think less of them? yes. does that mean i have to hate them and never feel anything nice about them ever again? no. feelings just aren't that black and white 🤷‍♀️

i don’t get it either 😔

understanding that human emotions are layered and complex is i think something that comes with time and maturity and everyone’s at a different stage in that journey. being back in a fan community again has been a stark reminder of how hard it can be to discuss hard topics or share opinions. it’s practically impossible unless you find someone who is either willing to listen to everyone or who shares the same views. otherwise it ends up being super unproductive for everyone and we get nowhere.

but reading your message restores my faith that there are people here who are critically thinking instead of forcing their views on people to make them feel like shit. thank you for your message x

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just don’t understand why u keep saying you’ve gone off daniel because of ‘what he said/did earlier in the season’ yet ur perfectly happy to write for lando who also made questionable comments idk just feels hypocritical. what made landos comments ok but daniels so horrid lol it makes no sense 👍 if u want to be a daniel hater just come out and say it instead of being all coy about it and pretending like ur not being weird about it cause u say u won’t write for him and then u update ur layout and put up a picture of it lmao so which is it

i don’t know if this is the same anon that’s been sending me shit every second day for months about this - i’m going to give you the benefit of the doubt and say it’s not because of the way you’ve typed this out but the message is still the same and this is the last straw.

i don’t hate daniel. if you look at my last post i said that he’s a big part of why i fell in love with f1. he was also the reason i started this blog so just because i’m not writing for him now, doesn’t mean i hate him. it’s not as black and white for me as it seems to be for you.

writing doesn’t define my blog - its something i do when i feel like it and most of the time i’m either chatting with you guys on here or supporting other writers. it was a fun escape but lately it’s been the opposite of that.

people may not like this but in my opinion daniels comments were significantly more damaging than landos vague response to a question that nobody could factually corroborate. i don’t think i’m alone in thinking that. daniel straight up said the one thing i personally hate the most when someone’s defending an abuser which is, “well [insert name] has always been good to me so…” that’s what upset me the most and now i have no desire to write for him. that is simply how i feel and if you don’t agree/understand, it’s all good. try and find other blogs who do share your views. makes life a lot easier.

anyway, did daniels comments make me want to erase every trace of him from my blog? no but i made it clear that i wouldn’t be writing for him for the foreseeable future and if anything changed, i would give people the heads up. what i absolutely won’t be doing is caving in to bullies who hide behind a shadow on the fucking internet who say i that i should delete my blog and myself while i’m at it.

so the context of why i made a header with daniel in it was that i thought including him would allow people the chance to bounce if they don’t want to read any daniel fics or interact with a blog that had a lot of daniel content in the past - people hate him and have made sure to tell me how fucked i am to still have his fics in my masterlist. thats the sort of hate that really gets to me because i’m so proud of some of those fics and spent a lot of time on them. that’s one reason why I won’t ever delete them but it’s also because there are daniel fans out there who hopefully feel like they can still interact with me even if we don’t share the exact same opinion. i don’t want that to change.

another thing to note is that this header was up for like two seconds and the fact you saw it must mean you’re just stalking my page? are you checking in to call me out the second i do something wrong? and you think i’m weird? alright lol

lastly, saying i’m being coy and weird isn’t fair - i’ve been honest about where i stand and even when i’ve been unsure, i was still being upfront and owning the fact that i didn’t know what direction this blog would take after all that. so if what i’ve said in this post or in the past isn’t enough for you, then just leave please. literally leave me alone because i don’t want to do this anymore.

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are you writing for Daniel

considering the last blurb i published on here was nearly a month ago, i’m not really writing for anybody rn 😞 but honestly, i haven’t written for daniel in ages and the desire just isn’t there after everything that happened earlier in the season. he’s still a big part of why i fell in love with f1 and i have a tonne of stories inspired by him on here so that hasn’t changed - i just don’t know what it looks like going forward.

there’s also a few messages in my inbox asking when i’ll be posting fics again and my writing approach at the moment is just jotting ideas/dialogue down when inspo strikes. sadly, i’m not someone who can just smash something out for the sake of it but i’m hoping to finish some wips for you guys soon ✨

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Ur a fucking weirdo

oh, mate i know haha

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LANDO ... Sunday, Chinese gp 2024

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OH THIS MAN

from formula santander

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Lando wearing his trophy!

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angry daniel today truly gave me flashbacks to red bull era daniel but in the hottest way possible

he was heated and rightly so. it does feel like pressure is really intensifying on him and i always worry when that happens to any driver because they tend to make really crucial mistakes - in this case, he’s having a streak of bad luck and that must be so frustrating. it’s particularly tough to watch daniel when things aren’t going well for him but hopefully he improves and keeps his nerve. it’s all he can really do 🤷‍♀️

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hometown hero!

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