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— "POV: You’re lost in an ethereal fairytale."

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being sensitive is so embarrassing like how am i supposed to tell you i'm upset just because your energy felt a little off and it made me feel unwanted

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"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

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Idk man I just feel lonely and little and my heart aches all the time

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"to endure!"

vincent van gogh ("trees and undergrowth") robert lowell [How will the heart endure?] vincent van gogh [I must endure bad times and the waters will rise, possibly as high as the lips and possibly even higher, how can I know beforehand? But I’ll fight my fight and sell my life dearly and try to win and pull through.] rainer maria rilke [To be loved means to be consumed. To love means to radiate with inexhaustible light. To be loved is to pass away, to love is to endure.] joan didion [Not just to endure it, not just to suffer it, not just to pass through it, but to live in it.] elena ferrante [maybe not even a very orderly mind can endure the discovery of not being loved.] elena ferrante [I will give what I can give, I will take what I can take, I will endure what has to be endured.] han kang [The feeling that she had never really lived in this world caught her by surprise. It was a fact. She had never lived. Even as a child, as far back as she could remember, she had done nothing but endure.] victor frankl [What is to give light must endure burning.]

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"I'm no longer looking for you...", Hovhannes Grigoryan (translated by tathev simonyan)

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— Franz Kafka, The Castle | The Lovers of Valdaro

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It’s strange to think that long before I had a name or a heartbeat, I existed in some shadowed, elemental way. Women are born with all the eggs they'll ever have, and these begin forming while they're still in the womb. So when my mother was just a fetus, the egg that would become me was already inside her. That means my grandmother carried not just my mother, but the beginning of me as well. For a fleeting moment, the three of use shared one body, and went through life together, layered like nesting dolls.

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Anthem, Leonard Cohen

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I could listen to Helena Bonham Carter read allllllll day wow wow wow ! 🤍

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ever since i was a little girl i knew i liked problematic tropes

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lets splish splash with mama

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let's hold hands with mama

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lets spend a sunny afternoon in the forest with mama

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lets give kisses to mama

Photo by Jeremy Hynes.