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forever in awe of people who pay attention. people who wait for you while you tie your shoes while the others have walked away. when they continue listening intently while the rest of the group stopped listening. noticing your moments of silence when everyone else hasn’t. “this made me think of you” noticing things you never even noticed about yourself. people who say “text me when you get home safe.” people who make you laugh until you cry. childhood friends who keep in touch. people with genuine intentions. people who are soft when the world has given them every opportunity to turn hard. the “let’s get ice cream” at 3am friend. the turn up the music in the car and sing friend. people whose actions match their words. people who make the world feel less chaotic. kindred spirits. the trustworthy and honest. hard workers. good listeners. clear communicators. people who love you for who you are. people who don’t ask you to be anything other than yourself. people who choose you. people who stay.

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My one friend group can't stop saying, "See you in hell!" in a cheerful voice instead of, "Talk to you later!" and my other friend group can't stop calling things "penis" instead of "cool" or "good", so I just unironically uttered the phrase, "Sounds penis, see you in hell," as I got off the phone.

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In my soul and spirit I'm rejoicing with the 911 kiddos for their good fortune, but the true vector for spreading fannish enthusiasm on Tumblr is the gifset, and all the 911 gifsets seem to be of 2-3 absolutely identical dudes, so it's all very confusing. I don't know which one Buck is, but I guess he's going on dates with a guy who isn't the other main guy? I actually thought there were gays already, but what I'm learning is that those are the gays from a different show which is also 911, a show I was not even aware had a cinematic universe. Anyway I believe in my heart that all of this would feel less confusing to me if it were happening on a space ship, but people who watch procedurals deserve happiness and I'm not afraid to say it. God bless you and your 2-5 sturdy, indistinguishable white men.

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society if the magicians s5 had been a eurydice and orpheus type story of the whole crew going to rescue quentin from the underworld and bring him back to life as he has done similar for them countless times culminating in eliot being the one to save him and get him back through the power of gay love and they got to grow old together again in their own timeline and the lesson was that you can grow beyond your depression even if it stays with you and find people that love you even when you are flawed and would move heaven and earth to get you back and not only that but that you DESERVE that love and you deserve to be happy.

instead of. whatever the FUCK it was that we got.

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hannibal posts (dracula edition)

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but what if some weird energy thing happened when hannigram had sex for the first time and it balanced their shit out and suddenly they became mellow? like "oh.....that's all we needed" cause the sexual tension was the true reason behind their psychosis

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Behind every gay person is a gayer, more evil gay person, and a little off to the side is a social worker inside a horse.

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I started reading The Magicians books on the recommendation of another user and uh, wow, Quentin is very. He's very teenage boy (which he is, since in the books they're all like 17-19 at the start instead of 21-24 like they are in the syfy show).

And spoiler but

Him watching Eliot give another guy a blowjob (like a pervert) and just being jealous that Eliot never hit on him is making me laugh out loud

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Happy anniversary, Q.

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I still firmly believe that Will never truly took issue with Hannibal being a serial killer. Like that rage in the end of Season 1 and the first half of Season 2 stemmed entirely from the fact that he 1) didn't notice it despite that being his entire job 2) felt betrayed because he truly believed that Hannibal was his friend and he doesn't really have friends 3) believed Hannibal killed Abigail (who he was definitely overly attached to)

I mean, in the show, I wouldn't say that Will has a strong "saving people" instinct, so much as a need to "solve the case/catch the guy", except when it comes to kids (i.e. the Lost Boys case, Abigail). Will admires Hannibal's kills and only seems bothered by them at all when it's someone he personally knows/cares about (i.e. Abigail, Beverly, Molly & Wally) or feels that Hannibal is going "too far" like with what he did with Miriam.

His drive to get Hannibal caught in Season 2 was motivated by the need to clear his own name and prove to others that Hannibal wasn't who he seemed to be, for his own sake. To prove that he wasn't crazy. He truly did the bare minimum to warn other people about Hannibal and when they didn't listen he was like "oh well." He thoroughly enjoyed himself in his little honeypotting endeavor, including racking up a kill for himself and attempting at least 2 others without success. And when the plan to get Hannibal caught actually seemed like it was about to work, he immediately backpedaled and tried to stop it in its tracks or get Hannibal out before the FBI showed up.

Like even the "You delight, I tolerate" scene in Season 3...I feel like he was just pissed that Hannibal tried to eat him, and also that Hannibal did his best to unleash all the violent desires in Will and then got mad and tried to kill him when Will acts on them?? Like especially with how horny about the idea Hannibal was in Season 2, suddenly Will trying to kill him is a bad thing?

(I also think the whole thing with Mason made him step back and realize what life with Hannibal would be like, now that he was a known international criminal with public enemies [which was Will's own fault] and that he needed to step away from being in Hannibal's orbit constantly and decide with a clear head. And as someone who clearly craved a domestic life with a family as much as he wanted to act on his darker urges, it's hard to fault him for choosing the "safe" domestic option that there wasn't a clear path to with Hannibal, with him being on the FBI watchlist and also Abigail being dead.)

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Will Graham bad words compilation from the book. There’s at least ten more but they’re boring he just uses the words damn and shit very casually