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mortician-beautician · 6 years

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So funny story. It wasn't so much funny haha but now it is so I figured caring is sharing.

SO! I've been engaged for almost 6 months now. I never thought I would end up this far. I wasn't the kid that dreamed up her wedding as a child and I've literally had one official boyfriend before this. So anyways, I'm making my list of people who I would love to be at my small low key wedding and scrolling through Facebook to make sure I haven't missed anyone. Low and behold, someone who had called me her best friend for literally almost a decade is no longer my Facebook friend. Now this wasn't 100% out of the blue. We had been growing apart since I moved back into this craptatic province. Moving in with a man who even though we talked all day everyday was essentially a stranger, and his roommate is a little stressful. Also considering if I fell flat on my ass I had no family near by to help me. So I was terrified and excited. We had been dating for 10 months at this time and wanted to spend as much time with him as possible because he had VERY little free time due to his job in the moving business. Also there was a 3 and a half year old in the mix. So understandably there was A LOT to handle and get adjusted to in a small amount of time. However I tried to maintain my friendship with her and go out and do things with her, it didn't end up working out. There was just literally too many balls in the air for me to try and juggle. So while feeling this overwhelming dread that in fucking up, she is messaging me all the time to hang out.

Now a little bit of backstory to this woman. I stood by her through everything. Every relationship, every break up, when she moved to another country for a man, when she herself needed to shut down from the world and went on a hiatus of life for a bit. I stood by her for literally everything she had done for a decade.

So in typical fashion, I told her she needed to get out of my ass because I can't handle the world right now and I need to figure out my life and home before I could add anything else. And that ladies and gentlemen, was apparently the end of the world. I got my life in order and where I could handle it all and tried to reach out. I was getting one word answers and I was being shown that it was read and sometimes never responded. So I apologized for lashing out at her (the one time I did ever in our friendship) and was hoping to not throw out a decade of friendship with someone. Well that ended up down the shitter and which brings us to the fact that she unfriended me off of Facebook as her last cartharic herrah. I messaged her about it and she tried to be a dick about it saying how I only noticed now after so long. To which I realized that if that's how she is going to be, then perhaps it's better she isn't in my life.

My life is fantastic! I have a 5 year old now who adores me, a house full of animals, and a man who loves and treats me wonderfully. What more could I possibly want in life. So that will be my revenge. I'm going to be a happy little bitch and help raise the most bad ass little girl in the world with the man who makes me laugh and still drool when I see him shirtless. Plus all of this happening made me connect with a very old friend who is now my maid of dishonour and her manic hippy love trumps everything.

However every so often on the memories on Facebook are old posts on "if your friendship lasts 7 years it'll last a life time" and it makes me laugh.

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