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How is one supposed to get on medication for anxiety when you have to call and make an appointment. Like phone calls are what drives MOST of my anxiety omg

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Oh man my anxiety is kinda getting outta control again

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I'm really glad I have my one single gen one Pokemon I love and that it gets no merch. I complain about it but I'm so loyal to this one Pokemon, if it got more I would be absolutely broke. Today I spent 100 dollars on a Hawaiian style shirt because it vaguely alludes to this Pokemon in a way one could only notice if they were familiar with the pokemon and they squinted at my titties. TPCi is simply looking out for me.

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lil vivvy lookbook

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The truth … as well as I understand it. Which is?

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how come you only become aware of how tipsy you are in bathrooms

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I feel so insecure because you can love someone right next to you for two years and they could want you to leave. And then you can end up becoming houseless and homeless. And everywhere can feel like the walls are too small. And you can forget 4 months of your life. And your life can get super unstable.

And you remember waiting until the house was quiet to stand in moonlight and cry out the window. And you can remember cryin on the hill because you love so big but you miss the mountains so much. And you can remember not being able to breathe and what sucks all the oxygen out of the room is when they tell you that they’ll do better but 9 month’s later you still can’t breathe. And you remember the time you drank until you cried so hard you threw up.

And you remember the way everyone looks at them. And you think of all the ways they look at you. And you think about the way you looked at them and it makes you want to throw up even without the bottle of wine. And you think of the trapped in the bathroom and the staring at the phone and the disingenuous promises.

And you think about 10 years of time that makes you nauseous. And you think about the safe places that aren’t. And you think about the people that you have to build walls between because they don’t understand that the room was a black hole and the years were a decade and the silver ring was in the box and the time you cried on the hill and the days you spent waiting and waiting and the parking lots and the end of your childhood was spent on happy memories you can’t recall anymore.

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I’ve got a lot of anxiety because it only took me 1.5 years but I finally changed my address on all my forms. And also I saw a video of my ex today and its doing stuff to my brain.

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👀

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it just is

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Shirt, Metropolitan Museum of Art: Arts of Africa, Oceania, and the Americas

The Michael C. Rockefeller Memorial Collection, Bequest of Nelson A. Rockefeller, 1979 Metropolitan Museum of Art, New York, NY Medium: Camelid fiber, cotton

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wanders into Area 51 and all I find is the star wars cantina band rehearsing

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June 2019 - Protesters in Hong Kong use traffic cones to contain the gas from tear gas grenades, then drown them in water. [video]

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I hadn’t put much thought into the fact that I’m starting a new job tomorrow because honestly its very hard to let go of everything about my last job.

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self portrait

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Carly Rae Jepsen for Paper Magazine (2019)