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Welcome - Let’s chat

I doubt anyone will ever read this, but if by chance anyone does - and they do give half a shit what I have to say. Let’s talk about why I made a second tumblr account in 2019. When it is clearly no longer cool, and I’m probably too old to be on it anymore even if it was. But hey, I thought journalling about all the shit I’m feeling would be too much to physically write out (carpel tunnel obvi.) and starting a blog runs the risk of employers seeing it and wondering why the hell they hired someone like me. Someone who titled their “journal” the mother of all messes. 

To start, I will say I’m a 23 year old, female, living in Texas and doing my fucking best to make it through each day. I graduated from Texas Tech University (wreck em) in December 2018 and moved to Houston Tx soon after. I studied nutrition in college and triple minored in biology, chemistry and addiction and recovery studies - which 1. makes me seem much smarter than I really am. and 2. it’s semi-ironic I studied nutrition when I ate like shit all throughout college and addiction when I spend the better part of my first post-grad year drinking heavily to cope with the reality of life (more on that in the next post). Goes to prove that you can know so much on some subjects and still take nothing to heart I suppose. 

When I first graduated and moved to Houston, for those that are from here as well - I didn’t know people were that serious about the humidity but dear GOD. it does not fuck around. I started a job (part-time) at a cryotherapy facility. For those who do not know what that is - essentially rich people pay $40 to freeze (literally below -200 degree F) for 3 minutes, based off the claim it helps burn calories, decrease inflammation, whatever whatever whatever. You get it. Here’s the thing about before I took this job/ why I took the job, since clearly I’m realllyyyyy a believer in it. I was fucking desperate. I was searching frantically for jobs in the houston area for probably 2 months before I graduated (not long enough I know). I thought the job was full-time when I accepted the position, and I didn’t know at the time, it would end up being the end the worst 5 months of work of my life - we’ll talk more about that later too lol. 

Finally! after 5 more months of searching after I moved to the houston area - I got a job at a nutrition and weight loss company, doing nutrition consulting and I took it on a whim. The office was nice, the website looked clean cut and professional (backed in healthcare - sounds legit?) and the managers who interviewed me were kind and welcoming - pretty unusual from the previous interviews I had done. I have now been with the company for a little over 6 months. I get my own office, my coworkers are some of the best people, and I get to spend all day talking to people about nutrition education, and see them reach their weight loss goals. I got really freakin lucky with the job, and sometimes I feel like I do not deserve it, and I really suck at socializing (which is not stellar when a lot of my job is forming relationships with people to help them want to lose weight). - we’ll talk more about my non-sucky job later :)

Congrats. if you’re still with me, you survived. Hopefully you’ll stick around for the rest of my ramblings. I am hoping to use this as a candid outlet to let shit out. to be open, raw and unfiltered. If you want to hear some positive, some negative, maybe helpful? relatable? advice and situations, stick around!