mourningmydeath

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It kills me that some of these white pop stans actually think that their basic white faves are talented and deep with their albums. They’re always so disappointed when they are presented with superficial slop. Like, imagine thinking sabrina carpenter was going to make an incredibly deep and subversive album about gender roles in relationships, etc. fake deep asses.

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This weekend showed me just how much i miss my my room. I miss having privacy

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MAGA slut Sweeney

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Sydney Sweeney, the ugly big titty maga martyr. Fuck her!

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Rage, anger, and fear are the emotions I’m most acquainted with. Rage rage rage!!!! Guilt guilt guilt! And a heart that can’t handle it

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I’m so angry over my existence. Life is a fucking burden

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Life is fake and means nothing at all

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Kerry James Marshall

Study for ‘Slow Dance’ (1992)

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I’m over this long as fucking week!

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Feel like I should put my thoughts down here for now. Twt is absolutely frying my brain and I find this app kind of peaceful.

Leftists on twt are absolutely unbearable. Black people as well. As a Black American Woman on social media, I feel very isolated.

My favorite artist (Bey)can’t even serve as a means of escape for me bc politics follows her everywhere. She’s very polarizing. Uniting the two annoying groups I named against her.

It’s all becoming too much.

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Being an African American woman online sure is an experience…. I’ve always been able to ignore most of the vileness thats sent our way, it’s just become damn near unbearable recently. Hate and micro aggressions from white and non black people, hate from black men, hate from non Americans, hate from other black ethnicities, hate from ignorant bw ( kills me each time), and hate from society. Constant dehumanization. I hate how acknowledging it feels like defeat. I keep telling myself that I should be able to ignore it, it’s expected of the social media, but now I’m able to see the harm and pain it causing so many aa black women.

*** this is not to deny the overall hate bw from other ethnicities experience bc misogynoir is something black women around the world experience. I just wanted to speak about my specific experience as an aa woman. Misogynoir manifests in different ways. This is just one pov*****

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Supporting black men now comes with terms and conditions. The vile misogynoir the spewed at black women this past week has change my whole perspective. It’s just so sad, all this hate just to defend abusers! Fuck race loyalty that comes at the expense of black women!

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Today is all about preserving my sanity.

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Sometimes I feel so stupid for having hope. And for having dreamed at all

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What is art? And what is its purpose?

Looking deeper into these questions because I want to be able to speak knowledgeably about music, artists, movies, etc that I like. And I want to be able to defend my taste with takes that are grounded in reality.

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I hate that when life gets incredibly tough, my strength and desire to care about ANYTHING dissipates. There’s so many important events, topics, movements, to care about, but I just can’t bother when it feels like darkness and negativity is taking over my mind.

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Life is incredibly fucking overwhelming and this bitch thinks that I’m about to give a fuck about her self victimizing ass meltdown. Truly a fucking narcissist. Her and her dumb, instigating ass cousin. Fuck them! Life is hard bc life is fucking hard!