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self para: monty’s song

mentions: jacob oh ( @jacoboh​ ), katherine russell ( @kattcalled​ ), brooks azar ( @brxxksazars​ ), kaeo ‘clem’ dupont ( @dearclem ), melany phillips ( @lanyphillips​ ), malachi phillips ( @malachiphillips​ ) and lunara kaplan ( @lukaplan​ ) trigger warnings: death, death mention, stabbing

something felt off.

it has been bothering him all night, yet montez has chosen to ignore it, nor speak about it, given how it was just the paranoia that the deaths have left him, and the fact that he had an encounter with death himself. it couldn’t just happen more than once in a span of a couple of months, right? he shrugs the thought off, and focused on the people whom he loves surrounding him.

jacob, who besides lu, has been there with him through it all, the ups and downs, the relationships that have blossomed, the heartbreaks, the one who witnessed his journal with the woman he loves, the one he holds close as they just enjoy everything around them, the game on the television and the people shouting. perhaps, jacob may be the first person who was well aware of how he truly felt for lu, the one who…even though his mind has forgotten, made his heart remember. he opened montez’s eyes and made him realize that all these years, he had been in love with her. he gives him a grateful look, even though he obviously was focused with something else.

kat, someone who has been with him through his recovery, the one who remained optimistic when he felt like he wasn’t anymore, hope stripped off of him. she is a ball of fire, one who encouraged him through the hardships, even though it’s evident that he will never have his memories of the past two years back again. he could always create new memories with her and their friends, and the rest of the people he loves dearly.  

brooks, his work husband, someone who has never failed to make him laugh all the time, especially during on rough days for them, after a rough class, or rough meetings, he was always there for him as much as montez is also there for him. that may not be the case as of late ever since the accident, but that has never changed for him. brooks made his stay at wardwell comfortable, lifting the pressure of being as great as his parents off his shoulder without ever knowing it.

clem, his platonic soulmate, his bestest friend in the whole world, bubs. they may not have been best friends for as long as he had been with most, but his bond with clem is deep beyond words. she was that big sister he’s never had, one he’s always talked about and tinkered brains with, and he had been that one person she was comfortable sharing a part of her she hasn’t shared with anyone else, and he is honored by it, the feeling of knowing she trusts him greatly. despite of how her breakup with his brother has severed their friendship a little, it was just nice to have her back in his life. it was nice to have his bubs again.

melany, the person he looked up to the most, especially when him and malachi were both at their lowest when their parents have died. he knew he should’ve been there for her more, be the shoulder she leans on through it all, but she stood on her own and got through it all. if he were to be honest, she is not only the smartest, but also the strongest out of them three, and he truly admires her for that. he wouldn’t be as strong as he is today if he didn’t have her in his life.

malachi, someone he is lucky to call his brother, someone who stood as the parent for him and melany when their father passed, and their mother slipped away from them too. there were things they don’t get to agree on much sometimes, but they’re always there for each other, especially with all the trials and tribulations they’ve been through their lives together. he looks at him, with a smile on his face as his brother lovingly stares at aranya who stood beside him, no matter how hard and complex it is, he hopes this is the love his brother truly deserves this time.

and lastly, the woman in his arms, lu, who has been laughing along the joke that was just being said in their booth. he felt so complete, happy, contented with the person he loves. all he could do is look at her and think about the memories he still has of them for most of his life, how before he truly fully realized it, his heart knew, and even through the accident, it has never forgotten. he has never forgotten his love for her. lu looks up at him, and he smiles, whispering “hello,” as he kissed her softly on the lips, hoping she knows how grateful he is to have her with him, wherever they are.

being able to focus on the positive things, helped him shake off the negative ones, and he instantly felt better. after a couple of moments, he excuses himself to go to the bar and get himself a drink. he orders his father’s favorite, a whiskey sour, and he turns his back on it for a moment to take a photo of the booth he was in with lu and their friends, a memory he doesn’t want to lose this time, at least, now it stays through a photo. he then retreats from his previous position and takes a sip of his drink, attention on the television for a little bit, as he tries to understand the game his brother is invested to. out of nowhere, his vision starts to blur, and mindlessly, montez was making his way out of the place, through the swarm of the crowd, his needed some air. he then finds himself what seems like an exit, and without much thought, he runs out, not really noticing the fact that he has company. though, it doesn’t take him long to notice them, and the way they were watching him.

“m’sorry,” he blurts out, shaking his head to himself. “don’t mind me.”

“not minding it at all.”

what they say makes him glance up to get a glimpse of them, and as he was about to say something in response, there’s this feeling of something that has just pierced through his stomach, and without hesitation, it was pulled out, and once again punctured in different places, for at least two or three more times, until the last impales his chest, which makes him drop down to his knees, and eventually, he lies on his side.

“i think he’ll get the message.”

another figure shows up, and montez was too out of it to figure out who they are, blinking a couple of times as he still tries to, before he lays flatly on his back this time, gurgling up on blood and having it spill down his cheeks, whilst he looks up at the sky this time. and as he takes his final breath, a tear slips from his eyes.

'cause i've been waiting from that first sweet breath for to lay me down with my love and rest i know you're hurting, but it's not the end so hold on, darlin', i will see you again hold on, darlin', i will see you again hold on, darlin', i will see you again

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“hey, dude, how you doin’?” he grinned, pulling the other man in for a handshake. “you ready for the game tonight? should be good. didn’t expect either of these teams, to be honest.”

“hey man,” montez shakes the other’s hand, giving him a smile in greeting. “honestly, i don’t watch any of these--well, except when i’m with malachi. i only learn sports and sports terms because of him.” he chuckles lightly, scratching the back of his head.

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BARCHIEWEEK 2023 ❯  day two: theme — barchie + pop’s

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HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER (2005-2014)

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lanyphillips​:

“ … what the hell do you read, monty? i have never heard of that, ” eyebrows knitting together, trying to picture whatever mythical creature that monty was doing his best to describe. “ so, they don’t just sprout wings? what does the other half of their body turn into? the feet of a bat? or does it’s face turn into a bat? ”  maybe not the imaginary she needed to know, but the curiosity always won in the end. at least it’d give her something to look for whenever she returned for the end of her current shift. “ as long as you’ve got it in mind then i’m not complaining, ” tossing her bag over her shoulder before gesturing toward the door— ice cream being the main thing on her head. “ of course i did. cookie dough, always. you should know this by now, monty. it’s only been my go-to for .. what? my entire life? ”

“i didn’t even know what it is about until i picked it up and read it, lany!” he couldn’t help but laugh at his sister trying to imagine what could this creature he has been reading about looks like. “they just grow wings whenever they separate from their body, oh and the lower half? i think it’s the useless part, or you know...their weak spot. that’s why they keep it hidden whenever they split.” montez response as he recalls the last thing he’s read about them. it wasn’t even the usual topic he would be reading about, but it has made him curious. “listen, i still wait for the day you’ll change it, you know?” he shrugs at his sister. “but that cements it, it’s always going to be cookie dough, huh?”

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birthday gifts!!

list of everything this woman got for her soulmate on his special day ♡ @mphillipsfms

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hey @mphillipsfms ツ

OMG happy birthday!!!!! i can't believe my little buddy's growing up so fast! you're honestly one of the most amazing people i've ever met and i'm so blessed to call you one of my best friends and my brother. thank you for putting up with all my crap over the years and for entertaining my craziness, for being my umbrella on rainy days, for listening, and for never failing to make me smile. you've been such a wonderful and special friend to me since we met and i'm so grateful to all of the kindness you've shared with me throughout. i sincerely hope this birthday brings you as much happiness as you give to everyone who knows you—you deserve all that and more!

♡ clem.

GIFT BREAKDOWN:

𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝐎𝟑/𝟏𝟖

a handful of different coloured smiley face balloons were delivered along with a signed copy of the screenplay script of kung fu panda that she called in many favours to get.

𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝐎𝟑/𝟏𝟗

another group of the same smiley face balloons are delivered along with a gift box she put together containing a slew of the different flavoured waffle shots, containing a brief note expressing her sadness that she couldn't find a maker to give him so he could make them himself :///

𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝐎𝟑/𝟐𝐎

more smiley face balloons!!! were delivered along with another gift box, except this one contained different scented candles with personalised labels which she named after some of their inside jokes and core memories.

𝐭𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝐎𝟑/𝟐𝟏

this time, clem delivered the gifts herself and explained that she was celebrating his birthday a little early because she figured he'd be busy with lu and his family and didn't wish to intrude. she came bearing even more smiley face balloons!!! the above note within a birthday card, and two other gifts:

a fresh bouquet bc that's obviously her thing { xx }

sunflowers: loyalty; orange spray roses: energy & pride; delphinium: cheerfulness & goodwill; stock: happy life; veronica: luck & positivity.

2. a framed piece of artwork that she drew ( pls use your imagination and picture it in this kinda art style aka a cartoony van gogh-esque style, except with much more texture considering it'd be oil paint on a canvas )

the artwork is a rendition of a family photo including momma & papa phillips, along with mal, monty, & lany. she tried to imagine, and capture in the piece, what their family photo would look like if it were taken yesterday.

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lukaplan​:

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the way lu pleaded out for him is something he’s never going to get over with, her eyes shut, back arched up from the bed, and legs struggling to be kept apart whilst he gripped on them to keep it that way. montez then pulls away and before lu could even protest, he flips her over on her stomach and pulls her by her hips, lifting it up as he slides her panties to the side. not wasting any more time, montez finally gives in to what lu has been begging for, leaning close, his mouth now in contact with her core as his tongue swiftly finds her clit, eyes shut while he moans on how she tastes.

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kattcalled​:

katherine had to fight the urge to roll her eyes. it wasn’t because his words were irritating but because it was true. she knew of their struggles and even been there to be a shoulder to cry on, yet that went all out the window because she was upset. she chewed on her bottom lip as she shook her head, looking down at her feet. the pain in montez’s voice hurt her. it made her feel disappointed in herself. she slowly looked up at malachi’s name. it wasn’t that she wouldn’t apologize to him. she just feared that whatever he threw at her would be worse than tez. the blonde shook her head at his question. “ not yet. . it just been hard to find a good opportunity for it around everything that’s going on. ” that was true to a certain extent. nightrest had been crazy, and she didn’t want anyone to think she was ignoring the pain of it all to make things about herself. “ i’m going to apologize to him tomorrow i just wanted to come to you first cause i know i hurt you badly. i mean you never gone this long without talking to me and fuck, i hate it. i miss you a lot, monty and i want to work on fixing us. . what i said in that shitty moment isn’t the real me. i don’t just hurt the people i love like that. ” she let out a deep breath at how that sounded. distancing. it sounded like she was distancing herself from her actions even though she owned up to her mistake. what happened wasn’t her. kat couldn’t picture herself saying something like that now during her healing process. or maybe she just thought that she was becoming a better person when in reality, she would flip back in a second.

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it felt like some weight has been lifted off montez’s chest as he says his piece to katherine, things he had been thinking about for weeks and may have prompted him to initially decide to cut kat off of his life if she was going to talk about his brother that way. like he said, he may not support malachi’s decisions at times, but he was still his brother, and more than that, he stood as his and lany’s sole parent as they’ve dealt with the hardships the death of their father has left them. he sighs at her response. “that’s the apology i prefer right now, kat. a sincere one, to malachi. but i understand. i’m proud of you though, for making an effort--you shouldn’t have.” he turns to the oversized stuffed toy by the dancer. “the coffee and the apology was more than enough.”

“i know...but you still have to hold yourself accountable for the things you’ve said.” montez sighs. “and it’s not the best feeling at first, but it gets better, kat. now i’m not telling you what to do...but that’s how i feel. i am proud of you for recognizing what you’ve done though, what you shouldn’t have said.” he gives her a soft smile. “and of course...no pressure. you know...i’m not going anywhere, kat. i just...a cut too deep takes time to heal. death of someone i love is something i’ve not a clue how i’ve survived from and i would not go through again, nor wish it upon someone.”

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Montez 📲 Selin

Selin: once lukas learns how to make it, i'm sure his will be better

Selin: i don't think that's bad at all. we've all been drowning in the bad for a while now that we all deserve a break

Selin: you know moni fought me after the whole blind date thing?

Montez: is this you subtly asking for a competition?

Montez: she...fought you? why?

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as much as montez wants to just pour it all out on lunara, release all the pent up anger he’s chosen to keep to himself after what happened, he’s still chosen to put the woman first, which a thing he couldn’t resist, especially with the way she stares into his eyes. even before, that look from lunara does a lot of things for montez, it makes him feel this need to give her everything she wants, to hold her, touch her, love her in ways she deserves. the stare from her makes him groan lowly, deciding to just prolong making her wait a little bit more, instead of immediately giving in, he locks his lips on her inner thigh, suckling on her skin hard enough to leave marks, tongue flicking against them. “tell me what you need, baby...”