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okay its 1 20 am at my place and i just realised that my grandpa has similiar desease as niki shiina from enstars. ya know he eats most of the time and never feels himself full. also he really always hungry and he looks like a skeleton even if he eats like three healthy athlet persons. btw he has never passed out because of hunger, but maybe i don't know about it. AND YOU KNOW i don't know what to say i just realised this and bruh now i know enstars buddies that this is a real desease keep yourself and your family safe anyways

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well, i got fixation on enstars and got a little too excited. and when i say "too excited" i mean "seven oc units where is twenty-eight idols in total, three oc prodiucers and one self-insert producer with full written character stories, new agency, characters lore and personality, unit themes, unit stories, relationships with other (canon) characters and more more over". well a little bit too excited about my fixation. as long as happyele still can present new characters and even agency, i can do so, too, don't i?

alas, i don't know what do enstars fandom thinks about this amount of oc's and even oc's themselves and moreover self-inserts. i just in love with the story and all about my handsome men and queen arashi from enstars. and again it was like i sitted in front of my desk with sketchbook then *blink* and there it all is with even plans of their rooms in seisoukan and other small thingies.

also i don't mind to tell about mh babies for enstars, because i find the work i did pretty interesting (i still hesitating about hair colours bc there is mfking rainbow wtf but i guess it is okay) and idk just don't blame me, an obsessed guy who loves enstars with all his heart, for my deeds.

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i, as a good husband, must keep my handsome himeru clear and shiny 😌😌😌😌 now he is sunbathing

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guys, hear me out, we all need fanarts with enstars units with gorillaz/beatles photos and album covers as references no matter the costs no mater the timing. WE ALL NEED THIS GUYSSS

*actively sketching*

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shhhh don't worry. i know, you need this

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IMMA CRYING THEY ARE SO SWEETTTTT

 This has been a terrible mistake. Really, a terrible one. Eichi had been to parties made by his parents, 'You have to learn how to socialize with high society, not those idols you like for some reason', drinking at them was expected, even if he was still under the drinking age and hated the mere smell of them, but it always had been contained to small quantities, two glasses here and there. It was a routine at this point, drink some glasses, as slowly as possible, while maintaining small talk with potential business partners and after some time excuse himself early, citing important meetings early in the morning as the reason. 

 The Tenshouin family throwing a party for their only son’s birthday was a normal occurrence, his parents made sure the doctors were paying extra attention to his health when a party was coming. So when his parents proposed, it wasn’t a choice, a party for his 20th birthday he didn’t pay much mind to it, adjusting his schedule for the Q&A with his fans to end earlier so their times didn’t clash and making sure everyone in the agency knew about it.

Of course, not rising suspicion was what got him into this precarious situation. First some closer businnes associates made their way towards him, congratulating his 20th birthday started their usual script, ‘Your parents raised such a handsome young man they must be proud’, offering their daughter’s hand in marriage, ‘If lady Himemiya is still unsure, my daughter would love to be your wife’, Eichi started to tune them out, sometimes laughing at the same old jokes they told every year.

 Then when they offered to refill his glass, ‘You are a big man now, don’t be shy, drink more’, Eichi tried to offer his usual rebuttal, only to feel his father approach him from behind and place a hand on his shoulder and answer for him, ‘Of course he accepts, right Eichi?’. He tried to get a grasp of the situation, looking at his father for an answer only to be met with the same cold smile he used when Eichi didn’t follow his orders, daring him to go against him. So all he could do was down the glass in his hand and present it to the associate for a refill, ‘You must be just like your father, he doesn’t get drunk even if he drinks for the whole party’, who laughed when Eichi smiled towards him.

 The same pattern repeated itself for the rest of the night, an associate he doesn’t even remember came up to talk to him, offered to fill him a new glass and watched, almost anxiously, for him to finish his glass before offering another one. Eichi lost count how many glasses he had drank and by now he was, simply put, drunk. The conversations which he didn’t care for started to only show as a blur at that point, people were still pushing more alcohol onto him and he was starting to slip up in the conversations he was having, rambling on and on about his actual interests not those scripts his parents forced him to memorize, to a point his parents decided it was enough, joining the conversation to excuse their son for the night, ‘He has an important meeting in the morning’. Of course, it wasn’t out of concern about their son’s situation, but out of fear he would ‘dirty the family's name’.

 So he took the opportunity and started to bid farewell to the mob of faces he had been socializing for the past hours, tumbling over his own feet everywhere, it wasn’t that big of an issue as almost everyone at the place was too drunk to not be the same, and calling his driver to take him home. 

 Now any sober person might have gone with the original plan, go to his dorm and if his health deteriorated during the night to go to tue hospital, but of course Eichi wasn't a sober person and insisted the driver got him to the beach and sending a quick text without much explanation to Rei, of course the text was probably just a ramble without a single coherent word that Rei would probably take way too long to decipher, but he knew that somehow he would find him either way.

 So here he was drunk, way too tipsy for him to trust his own legs and waiting for someone that probably was grasping at straws trying to look for him while seating in the sand of a empty beach, with the cold wind of the sea making him stay awake and sobering him up.

 The whole day was hectic, Eichi didn’t stay for the after party at Ensemble Square and so hadn’t had the time to talk to his own friends on his own birthday. What made it even worse was the fact one of the meetings he had to clean on his schedule was the dinner Rei had been talking about the whole month, he had booked a small restaurant in a part of town where idols weren’t as widespread and they could just be themselves without thinking much about their surroundings and maintaining their image. Eichi had been looking forward to it the entire time and dreaded having to cancel it, but his parents, as always, were a bigger priority in his life. Rei understood the entire situation, saying they could always reschedule for another day, but Eichi could see he was disappointed with the entire circumstance.

 The only thought running through his mind was finding a location that there weren’t people around at this time of the night and making sure Rei would come his way. 

 He doesn’t even know how much time passed since he first arrived at the beach and told his driver he would call him when needed. He, finally, could hear soft footsteps on the sand, only for them to turn quicker and heavier, stopping by his side.

 "You know 'mwt me 1o bac ' isn't really a good clue to where you were" Eichi could hear Rei's breathing being somewhat ragged, he probably had been running around looking for him "I've been looking for you everywhere you know, Wataru somehow managed to decipher your code and I managed to find you here by mere luck" 

 Eichi didn’t answer him, continuing to gaze towards the ocean as if Rei wasn’t even there. Rei sat down by his side after a while and bumped his shoulder against the blond’s waiting for him to feel comfortable to talk about it, Eichi let his head fall onto the offered member, nuzzling closer to it, and let out a sigh.

"The party went that bad then huh" Rei started to run his hand into the blond locks and with the other reached for something "Here drink some"

 He offered Eichi a bottle of water, which he tried to grab, only for it to fall to the ground with a soft thud and a small laugh to be heard to his side. Eichi tried to sound his complaint but all that he managed to get out was a grumble, pinching the other’s side as a warning, which of course only made the laughter get louder.

"Don't worry your majesty, this humble peasant will help you" 

 Eichi let out another grumble but didn't push him away, so Rei took it as permission to continue. He brought the bottle to the other's lips and helped him take small sips. 

 Eichi kept his head tucked in Rei's shoulder only lifting it up to take another small sip from the bottle and immediately after moving back to its rightful place, letting out small noises when he wanted something else which Rei dutifully answered. 

 Some time passed and Eichi was beginning to, thankfully, sober up, finally being able to form small sentences without slurring his speech, but still maintaining his comfortable position, almost dozing off multiple times only to be awakened by the cold breeze of the ocean.

“I missed you” It was said in such a small voice he wasn’t sure Rei would be able to hear it, making sure to hide his face as the words left his mouth.

 If he heard it he didn’t make it known, instead changing to an entire different topic.

 "We should probably go back, it's getting way too late for an angel to be awake"

 Rei started to get up pulling the blond along with him, guiding him over to where he parked his motorcycle and handing him a helmet and placing him into the back seat. Eichi tried his best to keep himself awake during the ride, clinging tightly to Rei, not paying attention to their surroundings.

 When the motorcycle finally stopped Eichi lifted his head trying to make sense of where he currently was, Rei seemed to have thought it was a good idea to take him to his family home, not the familiar dorm he had grown attached to.

 He tried to look towards Rei for an answer, receiving a shrug and a hand coming to the small of his back guiding towards the unfamiliar mansion.

 "I couldn't exactly take you back to the dorms and risk waking up our dear Shiratori-kun could I?" Eichi tried to sound his protest, he knew Aira was currently having a sleepover with his friends, but Rei didn’t let him go thought with them "Don't worry Ritsu is sleeping over at Mao and my parents aren't home"

 As if that was the problem. Either way it was the Sakuma household or going back to his family home, between the two the answer was obvious. Also, Eichi was too tired to actually start their usual banter.

 "Rei..." he let out a yawn, still following whatever place Rei was taking him to in his maze of a house. Rei hummed at the sound of his name turning his head towards the blond waiting.

“Yes?”

“Thank you for finding me”

  "You know I would do it all over again if you needed" he pressed a kiss to the blond's forehead.

 Eichi wasn’t one to be opposed to Rei’s affections, but the sudden kiss had taken him off guard and he could feel his face begin to turn red. Rei, thankfully, chose not to comment on it, still guiding them towards his room.

 "Oh here we are, make yourself comfortable on my bed, I will only grab some more water from the kitchen"

 He tried to communicate he didn’t want Rei to leave him, taking hold of his shirt and refusing to let it go “Don’t worry it will be really quick” He tried to appease Eichi “We can do whatever you want when I come back, how about it?” The blond thought for a while and decided it was a good compromise, letting go of the shirt and turning towards the room.

 Rei's room was mostly normal, save for the coffin, and it surprisingly had a bed in it, which Eichi waddled towards, falling down on it as if his strings got cut moving under the covers and making himself comfortable. He never spent much time at the Sakuma household, sometimes he did go in but they were for a small amount of time, mostly when Ritsu found him outside waiting for Rei and ushering him in, ‘Stop being a creep outside my house Echan’, and making him wait on the couch present in the living room.

 He heard the door open, signaling Rei coming back to his room with another bottle of water in hand and something for him to eat in the other, moving closer and sitting at the other side of the bed, handing him the bottle of water and putting what looked like a disfigured cupcake on the dresser.

 Eichi didn’t pay any mind to the bottle, dropping it to the mattress, instead turning towards Rei and opening his arms, waiting for him to get the hint. He took a second to understand the meaning, but threw himself at the blond’s embrace right after, waiting patiently for the next move.

“You didn’t answer me earlier” He said it while playing with the raven’s hand, trying to look uninterested.

 He could only laugh, of course Eichi would still be hung up on that and show it in such a childish way. 

“Well, I thought it was implied when I ran all over town looking for you” That wasn’t the answer Eichi wanted at the time, grabbing Rei’s hand and biting his index finger, making him let out a small yelp “Ouch don’t hurt this old man” he bought his hand towards his heart “Of course I missed you too” He pressed his lips against the younger’s and pulling back after a second.

“Again”

 He kissed him again, laughing into the kiss. Only to feel a sting on his lips when he tried to pull back.

“Who said you could stop?” He felt his eyes starting to drop, but still tried his best to show a pout.

“Sorry your majesty, it just looks like you might fall asleep into our kiss” Even saying that pressed another kiss to the other’s mouth “Go to sleep love, tomorrow I have a small surprise for you” 

 He felt lips being pressed against his forehead, he didn’t want to admit Rei was right but his eyes were refusing to keep themselves open and he could feel himself being pushed further into sleep, so he decided to finally let sleep take over, hugging the other even tighter. He heard the sound of what he supposed was the bedside drawer being opened and then feeling Rei shuffling from his position, which he let a annoyed noise out, a hand came to play with his hair making him nuzzle closer to it, he felt something cold come in contact with his hand and right after being slipped into his finger. He didn’t have the energy to actually look at what just happened, falling asleep right after.

 Rei turned the hand towards him, the ring shining under the light of the room, kissing it.

“Happy birthday my love”

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remember when himeru said "himeru even got title 'pull god' in the game nagumo plays". so i placed my little bun himeru on my lap and said "if you won't get me tsukasa i put you into freezer" AND YOU KNOW WHAT????? HE GOT ME TWO TSUKASA!!!

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hey guys let's see how much i prepared for my biology exam(nah bro you just procrastinating again). there you go, new characters(only esu and raika bc i like them and chitose is too old) as enstar comfort pairs' children! with some explanation ofc.

well, for me raika looks like kanata and rei's child. you can see rei's eye colour and incomplate dominance w/a hair colour(it looks like a bland of their hair colours i mean). and as i know raika's behaviour is like a bland of rei and kanata's (i may be wrong bc i red new story with one lazy eye before my naptime, welcome to correct me please). sorry for joke with surenames i can't don't do this bc difference is only one charcter(and meaning ofc)

now it is esu's time. here we can see wataru's eyes and two types of gen dominance: co-dominance(two colours of hair) and incomplate dominance(bland of wataru's blue and rei's black hair). yea ofc i know it is impossible for two types of gen dominance go in the same time, but naahhh it is enstars guys here everything is possible(i mean himeru and ibara are cousins and u don't believe me yet??). so yea this is cringe but hey all enstars is cringe so why not?(he loves enstars more then his future, tho)

sorry for cringe and my shitty handwriting again. aaaand i was too lazy to change "mother" to "father" so rei is "father is fathering"

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so i have my chemical exam tomorrow and between video lessons i drew him. he is such a cute being

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SPOILERS FOR HONKAI STAR RAIL!!!

guys ain't no way this is original design, hoyoverse literally copy-pasted susanoo's third skin WHAT THE ACTUAL FCK.

anyway here is a meme for you

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MULTISHIPPER WARNING!!! DNI IF U AGAINST MULTISHIPPERS OR SOMEWHAT

oh, yes. my favorite thing is multishipping(not polyamour necessarily!! i respect every comfortable and no proship pair, tho). and the same thingy goes with enstars, so here you can see my fav pairs. not all tho, but i guess those pairs is my most favorite. well the truth is that im a bit lazy before exams so did not make another picture or two. but i hope you can forgive me!

let's get started!

i think if both ibara and rei are looking after aoi twins, then they can be divorced(or not!!) couple. or may be they caring after yuuta and hinata separately. in any way aois are being loved and cared properely by their parental figures!!

but i also think if rei calls aoi twins his children but at the same time dates eichi then aira is child of reichi and eichi is aoi's stepfather. have you heard that part of 'aristocats' when that was like "and here is only two of us. uhm, three of us. four..? five??" so this is pure reichi in my vision, yeah. i like how reichi is so parents for aira. like "aira do you want some tea?" or "hm, i think i must buy some sweets for shiratori." well i can say that the most of enstars fandome see reichi as tipical hate/love trope, but i think there is more then just hate/love(i really don't like this dinamic tho). their relationships is very slowburn'ish, so i think it's starting with "enemies" then go to the "neutral", then to the "maybe friends" and then only then we have "lovers reichi". and in idol story "black and white" you can see that they can interact peacefully and even drinking tea together and show worry about each other work and schedule. not only that, in the same idol story you can read thet keito(eichi's childhood friend who understands a lot of eichi's emotions) says smth like 'well i guess they both enjoy conversations like that. ...especialy eichi" SO PLEASE GUYS THEY ARE SO CUTE-

and himeniki are kohaku's parents i swear y'all. u know in 'crazy anthem' nikimeru was kohaku's parents and runne is like an uncle who got his brother(i think himeru) and his family on the trip to california!! btw if u ask me i'll tell you, that even before 'foolish alien' mv there was a lot of nikihime. remember even a 'lucky scrumble' story or 'yubisake no ariande' story. there is a lot of nikihime!!

(yubisake no ariande) even that detail that himeru was ready to wait untill niki can cook and eat his food so they can go further, and how much himeru was worried that niki only drunk a sauce. and i like that moment when they got an idea to touch chests together. it's cute rly!!

(lucky scrumble) i had read that story last night so i can tell you with all my sureness that this is the most himeniki'ish thing on global server. just read this event story pwease this is so cute!!!

uh oh im again drawn into nikihime a lot (same for reichi tho) and forgot the main point. so here they are, my sweet nikihime and their child

thank's you all for your time if you read 'till the end!!!

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i have my first exam at this friday, but here we are, making memes. and i'm really sorry for this one Т-Т

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'k, violence is NOT good at all, but sometimes i remember father of these two guys who has married other woman right after his first wife death and abandoned his son in coma and made other son to deal with it on his own including money for treatment in the hospital. and sometimes when i remember him i really feel an urge to make him kiss the pavement and it is such a pity that this is not allowed by law. fck u toujou father but at least thanks your wives for your two sons

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my dear, do you know, that silver is more your colour then gold? anyway i am a little bit dissapointed that they changed his jewelry colour from silver to gold bc gold doesn't suit him. well i luv u in any colour BUT GOLD BABE NO-

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CrazyB x HSR!

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sry im a random person but I really like that youre pointing out that kaname is quite bratty LMAO I feel like people too often reduce him down to being an innocent boy when hes actually quite vain and self-absorbed, to the point where most people HATED him in the first few parts of Obbligato. although I am genuinely curious to hear more about your take on him and Oremeru's relationship, as I always viewed it as mostly opposite (Oremeru keeping Kaname at arms length even though Kaname quickly became dependent on Oremeru, then Kaname became comatose and Oremeru became almost selfishly devoted to fulfill Kaname's dreams and be a better brother)

if ur a random person, then so am I! Which is to say — thank you for your ask.

I'm happy to ramble about Himeru and Kaname some more. I did focus a lot on Kaname's negative traits in the previous post, but ur definitely right that he is also extremely lonely and becomes dependent on Himeru as well for support

I believe this dependence was mutual. I like to think Himeru was bad at reciprocating Kaname's affection because he literally didn't know how to. He has never had the love of a family member before, so he doesn't know how to express love back. but he definitely cared. Right from the beginning, he felt empathy for his little brother. From just a letter, he saw the possibility of someone he could have a real and meaningful connection with.

Between them, I tend to pity Himeru more. His life (such as it was) was uprooted to go to ReiMei to coach Kaname, who he barely knew. He was living outside and surviving off scraps to aid this rude guy who should really just pick a different career path. But Himeru was so lonely and so aimless that he was happy to do it. Enough to make Kaname's dreams his dream too, and eventually, to dedicate his entire life to those dreams.

Himeru is difficult to analyze because he's more of a concept than a character. The master manipulator who can impersonate anyone — turned perfection obsessed idol. I love the idea on paper, since I find the concept of a stage persona compelling. If Himeru truly is a master of deception, then why wouldn't he be able to trick crowds of teenage fans? He should be good at the job. A lot of enstars characters present facades to conceal their true feelings, but Himeru is all facade. His entire identity is a lie, and every word he speaks has to be dissected for his true intent.

I wish he was in a different story telling medium rather than being juggled between different authors through incongruous stories that are released months apart. He would be a more effective character under one writer who could provide a consistent character arc of emotional growth.

I think that's the only natural progression for his character concept, to show the gradual cracks of humanity in the mask of the perfect idol. Which is also why I like to call the character who is currently performing as HiMERU 'Himeru', rather than the fandom assigned Oremeru. He's the one with the talent, he's the one who is finding success for the stage name. It is rightfully his name, even if it was originally Kaname's dream.

Himeru was nothing before he adopted his brother's stage persona — a ghost who could only borrow others' faces. But now he is something. He has become Himeru. He has friends and a purpose and a unit he loves even if he's too emotionally stunted to admit it. I want him to claim the name for himself so that he has a name. I want him to love the name Himeru, because that's the name his friends call him.

And if Kaname is ever allowed to wake up (doubtful. damn live service games can't conclude story lines😡) then I want him to graciously step aside. Perhaps after a stint of emotional growth from him, but ideally, he would come to the conclusion that HiMERU rightfully belongs to Himeru.

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love is.... when he comes to you three pulls after other ssr on your second account♥♥♥♥♥