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All the things I used to like doing now are dry and uninteresting. Sleep is the only time I'm at peace.

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I'm so fucking ugly, I don't got a chance with anyone lol. Only people who would fuck me are horny men who after busting they just throw me to the side. If they ever found anybody who's marginally more attractive I'd get thrown to the side in a millisecond. Fuck life. Fuck people. If I could snap my fingers and render earth human-less I would instantly.

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Getting kicked out the house, they couldn't handle me.

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I might not make it

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It's crazy how many people aren't able to recognize that the world is on the brink of collapse, Amazon for instance is about to break into the medical field basically covering every single need a human could have consolidating their power as a super corporation. The US being a leading super power is having a visible change into facisim and is backtracking. Wages are pitiful. The price of food and essentials are exponentially increasing as every company is taking advantage of the natural inflation and adding artificial inflation on top of it by raising prices. Civil Rights are being increasingly violated all over the world. Cultural decline is killing moral value. Empathy is becoming a scarce resource. The worst part is that countries that are actually doing well (Greenland for example) will eventually be dragged down as well; whether it be to economic pressure or sometype of conflict. Technology is reaching a tipping point where we as humans we be unable to contain it,(im not talking AI takeover more like new weapons, examples such as high explosive drones being used in the Ukraine conflicts; you most definitely could make a swarm of drones with small explosives attached to them) digital art generated through computer programming will eventually replace human creativity, digital writing pieces will take human imagination. We are simply doomed. To put it in perspective if the entire nation's energy grid or internet went out for only a hour, it would result in mass hospital deaths (I.E. life support not every hospital has back up generators) supply lines would not be able to communicate thus bringing them to a halt, mass plane crashes as each flight control tower manages thousands of individual flights every day. There's more I could say but you get the picture. Worlds screwed, people were just too greedy for us to continue to survive.

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I'm starting to see no foreseeable future for me, my friends, and my siblings. Global War seems all but inevitable. Not even in my 20s my social life is dead I'm broke,out of work, and as a finally fuck you I'm going bald, as stupid as it sounds my hair was the only part of my body I actually cared for and now I can't even have that. I thought I was finally past the suicidal tendencies and depressive episodes, but I guess not.

I don't know why I am even bothering to type this out because I know nobody will see it, if by some chance you do see it just leave me alone ok? Either you don't actually care or you got your own problems like me so that anything you say is hollow.

I'm gonna try to get a job that can support me then moving out to get my own place, I've made up my mind, I'll work until I hopefully get to 30 then I'm blowing my fucking brains out. I'm not gonna throw myself against this machine longer then my body can handle, making shitty wages not being able to retire until I'm fucking 70. I'll just enjoy all my little distractions as long as I can. I got 11 years to go so let's hope it's not too bad.

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My laughter is forced and my happiness is feigned.

I'm angry, confused, and lost.

But I'm so frustratingly human too

To be aware of ones own problems but cannot find the will to solve them is a form of torture made by your own mind that is cruel.

I hope one day my suffering brings me success and legacy I can be proud of.

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Suffer and struggle against all odds and find either happiness or a relieving death, if you decide to not struggle and just give up then you'll die in pain and bitterness

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I'm having a hard time trying to figure what ideas I wanna put to part 3 of FCIC. It's gonna to be really long and possibly segmented into multiple parts of its own, I just am trying to figure out how to put these ideas to the pen persay. I'm just a amateur writer with attention span issues so I have a huge amount of ideas but lack to motivation to do them. Idk I will eventually get bored and wanna write it all down in a span of 10 hours one night

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I have not eaten anything healthy in about 6 months now. I feel awful lol

My body is a temple and I'm currently putting it through a siege

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I swear I will work on part three I swear

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Yes

i love this show

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Add to Minecraft Mojang now

big mushroom time

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I'm really pissed I don't have access to the Big MT DLC

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You wanna know the secret to happiness? Just letting everyone's problems and desires wash over you. Just float in the sea of opinions and ambitions and experience the minor waves that you got to balance out yourself out from time to time. Be Humble, Focus on you, Focus on loved ones.

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My 39 followers y'all got any questions?

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This is so fucking cool to look at like wow just wow. Humans are lit af

Hi, I'm 25 and debating starting male-to-female HRT. However, I'm scared that HRT won't help me at all. It seems like HRT does so little after puberty, especially by the time one gets in their 20s. I'm really scared that I'll just end up being someone in a male body, but with breasts. Is there anything you can say to someone having this fear? Thank you, and sorry, I suspect this is a silly question.

Actually, the claim that HRT doesn’t do much after puberty is a myth.  I started when I was 31 years old and now I’m 35. =)  

It’s never too late to transition!