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Taking a break on all platforms but twitter for a while I’m very close to killing my self

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C9h13n X Obehag

“What do you want me to do to you?” C9h13n asked as his hands scattered through the brunettes hair, admiring how soft and well taken care of it was

Obehag just looked at him, then looked down and up at him again.

“You want me to suck you off?”

“Mhm,” was the closest thing to a proper word that would come out of him, but C9h13n did as he was told, he got on his knees (as good as he could), and watched as Obehag unbuttoned his pants. C9h13n never got used to how slutty this made him feel, he felt like he was just hooking up with some random guy after a gig, it made him feel like Obehag was someone who caught his eye from across the room even though he knew that was far from the truth. But it was still nice having those little feelings in the back of his head to pester him in these moments.

Obehag was already hard, he had some precum coming out, but not too much. His hair was almost touching his hips at this point; he looked angelic. It was such a twisted and tainted juxtaposition between the way that Obehag looked and the location that they found themselves in. It wasn’t just disgusting because it was the bathroom, it was disgusting because it was the stall that everyone would hookup in. The walls were littered with dates and names of couples with hearts around it, each of them leaving their permanent mark on the stall to signify their own debauchery. C9h13n remembers when he and Obehag first had sex there, they were far too busy to archive their time together, but they didn’t need to.

But back to Obehag, he looked nothing short of perfect. Aside from his beautiful hair, the way that he looks down and C9h13n is what he adores the most. The one thing that made his face so perfect was his eyes. If you would tell C9h13n some cheesy quote talking about how the eyes are a “window to the soul,” he would call you naive, but Obehag was the only one who truly encompassed that. Looking at Obehag was looking at a thousand lives he’s lived before. The seemingly endless trips to the mental hospital, the dozens of cuts all over his pale and fragile body. The stories from his childhood that he told to C9h13n whenever he felt comfortable enough to open up to him. There was an err of intrigue and mystery in his eyes, but also a feeling of warmth contrasting with his cold soul.

C9h13n opened his mouth slowly, but Obehag didn’t waste any time to start fucking into his mouth. His head slammed against the door of the stall creating a loud crash that would let everyone else know what they were up to, and hurt like hell in the morning. It's not like C9h13n wasn’t used to his mouth getting used, but Obehag was just being extra rough. His pent up libido had to be released somehow, and C9h13n was the only person who he would ever take it out on.

Obehag knew that he wouldn’t last too long, especially when they were still in public. Whenever they’d fuck in the bathroom like this, they really never lasted that long since they knew that there were other people waiting to take their spot. C9h13n head was still slamming against the wall and causing him to get light headed and hope for his boyfriend to be finished soon, and soon enough, Obehag finally spilled down C9h13ns throat causing him to choke. He tried to tilt his head back to take his cock out of his mouth, but Obehag forced it there. There was nothing that he loved more than listening to C9h13ns desperate and muffled moans.

He finally took his dick out of his mouth, looking down at him with his face flushed with a light pink hue and cum splattered all over his face.

Obehag didn’t even need to say anything to make him feel like the slut he was.

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(Credit @somnlosanatter )

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Ofdrykkja interview 2014 (c9h13ns other band and now goes by pessimisten for thoughs who dont know)

1. When and how were you formed? 

Drabbad: In autumn 2011. I was contacted by Obehag from Apati's page on MySpace, he wanted some help with getting Subutex and pills. Back then, I was - and I still am - living at an institution for the mentally ill, after an incident with Bödeln, and I had lost most contacts. So I couldn't help him, and when I replied his mail, C9H13N (Pessimisten) replied and told me Obehag had recently died. Somehow we started speaking about his band Apati and my old band Lepra, and after some months speaking, we decided to start a band. I contacted my old friend and brother The Associate and told him to join. He's a great musician and we have played together in the past, and known each other since childhood. Pessimisten contacted his old friend Arkomann who also joined, and after a while I also recruited my friend Bödeln who stole a drum-set right away. Me and Pessimisten chose the name Ofdrykkja, and so the band was formed. 

2. What band inspired you to make the kind of music that you do today? 

Drabbad: For me, personally, it's the old Norwegian black metal scene, with bands like Burzum, Ulver, Dödheimsgard, Mysticum and Mayhem. Even if we don't play black metal, this is my source of inspiration. Associate: Me and Drabbad have had our different black metal projects together for the last 15 years. Source of inspiration has always been the depressive black metal you could find during the mid 90's, when we started making music together (for example Burzum and Ved buens). I have broadened my inspiration register along the years, and I'm no longer as bound to a band or genre as before. Instead I'm attracted to and inspired by any dark or sad tones, no matter where they're from. 

Bödeln: For me it's DSBM, a genre I assume we all listen to. But also ambiance and other kinds of black metal. I'm also listening to bands unrelated to DSBM. 

3. How does the creation process look like? 

The Associate: Some kind of melancholic mood tends to help, and is almost necessary for the music not to feel completely forced. I also tend to compose alone with benzodiazepines, sometimes in combination with speed. Benzo makes you really creative. 

Drabbad: For lyrics, it's during the night I get my inspiration and ideas, and I write a few sentences from which I later make lyrics out of. What I write about is kinda dark things such as mental illness, homelessness, drugs, alcohol, misanthropy and hate against society. 

Bödeln: The Associate kind of writes all the music, and the recordings of the drums haven't really been as planned. We are all kinda free to write lyrics. I have rarely had any bad critics about what I've seen or heard. 

4. Describe your sound for those who haven't yet listened to you. 

Drabbad: It's depressive rock music with influences from black metal. The lyrics are poetic and personally I take some inspiration from Grioa when I write. We use speech in some songs and also clean vocals. We've found our own style which we feel comfortable with. The music is kinda easy to listen to, and depressive. 

5. Most bands usually have an annoying fuck who wish to control, in other words a band leader. Do you have a Hitler in the band? 

Drabbad: Hahaha! Pessimisten... yeah, if someone's a Hitler, it's him. He can say a song or a riff just completely sucks. Haha, but we never fight in, we go with democracy. We others thinks it's good he says what he thinks. I prefer that than some ass licker who agrees on everything and lies about what he thinks. We all go along well together, even though we all suffer from different mental illnesses. 

Pessimisten: Haha! I'm definitely our Hitler! I'm really a perfectionist and can't be easy to deal with all the time. But no one has more to say than anyone else in the band, and if we all disagree about something - we'll just vote. We never had any fights. The rest of the band members are really easy to deal with, and we mostly share the same view on things and are satisfied with the music we make. 

Bödeln: I don't think we have any Adolf at all, but I can feel it's sad I haven't been able to contribute much in the creation process. 

6. Tell us a bit about the purpose of your music! 

Drabbad: A part of the purpose is to enlighten people about the dark side of society. The mentally sick addicts who many people don't know. I think I speak for everyone here when I say I turned myself away from society. We aren't normal, we are affected. We do not function socially, and we fail to fit into society. We want to show you the asocial and sometimes depraved reality of ours. Personally, I'm pro suicide and I don't care if people die. 

Bödeln: I find it important to share my view of social exclusion and mental illness, in my lyrics. My purpose has so far been to play drums and contribute with lyrics about the life I live.

7. The video for 'Västerås' is nice and original, how important is the visual aspect for you? 

The Associate: What's important is that what we portray feels honest and right. If it ends up like shit, we can still rely on that we did what felt right for us. Of course everyone wants to public beautiful things, so it's an important aspect. What's difficult is to find your own touch to it, and I can now think that the 'Västerås' video is a bit out of Ofdrykkja's style, yet it has a message I still feel for. My idea to the concept with a stray dog in focus came after a conversation with Drabbad, when he described the situation when he was homeless. I can also relate to this distanced relation to what is seen as normal, but in a whole different level than someone with a home. 

The fact that the video was shot around the worthless ugly concrete which was built during the 60's includes some kind of love-hate relationship. 

Bödeln: Visual parts are good for the listeners. There is an unwritten rule that you can't have pretentious videos within black metal. I think that's sad, because I love videos in which people have put a lot of time and money, as long as there's a message and something mystical about it. 

8. We visited Västerås during a festival and afterwards we were forced to wait for hours before the night bus would arrive, and we don't feel like returning. How do you experience Västerås? You don't seem very happy about the place? 

Pessimisten: Västerås used to be a kinda big industrial town, some decades ago, but most of it has now been shut down, and the town consists of offsprings from the lower working class. There's nothing about this place that would make anyone want to go here. It was once called "powder city", and sure, amphetamine is still consumed a lot here on our grey streets, but quality is something that belongs from the past. These days it's more known as "MDPV city". No one is happy about this place. 

9. Not every city gets a bad nickname like that, but how comes Västerås is called MDPV city? Except the general dissatisfaction. Is it because you consume unusual amounts of MDPV in Västerås, or is the town unusually psychosis inducing compared to other cities you have had personal experience of? 

Pessimisten: Lately it has gotten better, but one or two years ago MDPV was consumed a lot, and it was mixed with amphetamine (you can mix out the amphetamine a lot and just add a tiny bit of MDPV to make it strong again). It really sucks when you expect an amphetamine rush and instead you get a psychosis. 

Bödeln: There are drugs in every city, small or big. I can't tell if there are more drugs in Västerås than in other cities. Here in Hudiksvall/Gävle we have a wide spread addiction of mostly amphetamine, prescribed opiates and benzo. Not much heroin, though. It's easier to see the addiction in smaller towns, than it is in bigger ones.

 10. Which band would you preferably do a split with? 

Drabbad: Ved Buens Ende, while they existed, or todays Virus would have been nice to have a split with. Abyssic hate as well. It would have been a big difference in music styles though. 

Pessimisten: If disbanded bands counts, I would definitely say Woods of Infinity. They have self distance and a humor I like, and they make it fit well together with the dark music they make. Other bands in the scene takes themselves too seriously. 

11. Do you have enough material to release a full length or EP through a label? 

Pessimisten: Yes, actually we do, but we want to make two more songs before we see the album as completed. 

The Associate: We already have contact with a few labels and things are looking bright. 

12. Except a CD release, we would like to see a DVD release with your music videos, and which maybe also could include some exciting bonus material. What are your thought about that? 

The Associate: Yeah, we've had discussions about this matter, and it's not impossible. We do like to express ourselves in different ways and it would absolutely be a possible alternative for us, if there is interest. 

Bödeln: About music videos, there are a lot to put energy on. A lot of spaced ideas I hope to express and talk about with the members. 

13. Thanks for your time, and for doing this interview. Now we're just curious about what will happen next?

 The Associate: I thank you too! What's remaining is the recording of two more songs, and we're working on it right now. 

We are looking forward to release our first album as soon as possible.

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@embracethefuckingchaos-blog is c9h13ns old blog

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I have so many c9h13n pics and vids that im gatekeeping all of sorry guys😪 maybe one day

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I’ll fucking kick someones face in tonight. Fuck you!

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See you soon in prison, brother!

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I just got into apati and I'm confused about the band's history and members. Would you mind explaining?

Of course! I am no expert myself so any misinformation can be corrected in the comments if another feels that any of my knowledge feels diluted or missing key componants.

Apati

The core band members consist of:

David (C9H13N)

Fredrik (Obehag)

However their past members consisted of Christian Larsson (Patient C - who later went on to join Shining) and Professor X (which I know little information about)

During this period, most - if not all the members engaged in drug usage and were in a toxic headspace which led Obehag to leave the band, a few weeks later he died from a methadone overdose. The band then ceased to exist.

However, David (C9H13N) started a new band called Ofdrykkja which began with a DSBM musical route, however in recent years have turned towards folk. They are currently preparing to release a new album soon of the same nature.

Ofdrykkja

The core members of Ofdrykkja consists of

David (now known as Pessimisten)

Lars (Drabbad) however in Lepra it is listed that his name is Gamle Dalton; his private facebook and metal archives uses Lars.

Stefan (Bödeln - died in 2020)

And have had some temporary members such as 1853 (from Lifelover) and Ahlström (little known about him too)

David and Drabbad met when Apati was still together and he too was close to Obehag.

"around 2005 or 2006, says Pessimisten. APATI members Obehag and Professor X were standing at a bus stop in downtown Västerås when they were approached by an extremely doped-up Drabbad, who gave them a note with a handwritten link to his band’s Myspace page. Before walking off again, he snarled ’Support LEPRA or die!’"

*Lepra was a band Drabbad was in

On one event, Drabbad and Bödeln were high + drunk which led them to carve words into eachother and smear blood throughout the house. One of them decided to wander outside which frightened members of the public and they were taken away to the hospital. It seems that both were institutionalised for a while however it's commonly referred that Drabbad has been in and out of both psychiatric wards and prison regularly. During this time Drabbad was in a ward, Obehag (Apati) had reached out to him asking for narcotics however due to being hospitalised he couldn't; later he found out Obehag had overdosed. Nowadays, the members are striving for a path of sobriety; atleast abandoning drugs and aiming to better themselves. I have come across old comments on their facebook where they have mentioned they aren't avid users but engaged irregularly but most post from 2020 onwards gives indication that they are not about that life anymore but will maintain the sense of melancholy, addiction and depression within their music.

Here are some Links which may be of your interest! Apati: 1 | image of David snorting Coke 2 | David in Hospital after Overdose - what he has claimed to be at one of his lowest points. 3 | David's poetry blogspot in Swedish with English translation

Ofdrykkja: 1 | interview & images on how Ofdrykkja met includes ALOT of blood. 2 | Drabbad arrested within another situation 3 | Facebook post concerning the incarceration of Drabbad 4 | 5 | Videos of Drabbad (during Lepra years) High David - Myspace , VK , Tumblr (Dead/Might not be real - posts are from 2014 but theres some images I have not seen elsewhere) , Instagram Drabbad - Instagram , Lepra Myspace

View my #Ofdrykkja posts View my #Apati posts All #DSBM can be found here Dividers can be found here

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