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Spectacular!!!!
By The Horns: Part Nine
Attn: This one got a bit longwinded but itâs a turning point and Iâve been on a roll lately sooo I hope yâall enjoy!
Word Count: 3,297
Pairing: Bull Rider Sy x OFC Collins Cooke (CC)
Summary: Sy and Collins grow closer.
Warnings: 18+, Face riding, coming untouched, fingering, squirting, p in v sex, multiple creampies, mirror sex
Previous Part:
Part Eight
The next morning Collins wakes up tangled in Syâs sheets. When she reaches out for him she finds the bed empty. A frown crosses her face before she realizes the smell of bacon is permeating the house. She gets up and tends to herself before digging in her bag for her underwear, and opting to snag one of Syâs shirts, a threadbare Lynyrd Skynyrd shirt that just brushes her knees.
She finds him at the stove shirtless in his boxer briefs. âNice ass,â she says as she wraps her arms around him from behind. She can feel him chuckle as she presses a kiss to the middle of his back. Her hands roam over his chest and she smiles to herself at the way his skin ripples beneath her touch. âDarlin if you donât want burnt bacon you best cut that out⌠just for a minute anyway,â he says before turning and taking Collins in his arms.
âSince when did you decide you can tell me what to do Syverson?,â Collins chides playfully. âOh Iâd never dream of it baby, just warninâ because your hands on me is an absolute distraction,â he tells her. âI see,â Collins says before raking her nails through his chest hair. âI like this,â she then says. âMy chest?,â he questions. âThat too but I mean⌠the hair,â she admits. âBaby I think that pussy eatinâ short circuited your brain. You ainât ever been this complimentary,â he smirks.
âMaybe it did,â she says as she looks up at him, and instantly heâs hard as a rock. âWhat are you doinâ to me woman,â he groans. âCut the stove off and Iâll show you what I want to do to you,â she purrs. âGoddammit,â he huffs before hastily cutting everything off and following her to his bedroom. Collins strips before instructing him to do the same. âLay on the bed,â she tells him. When she straddles his face he nearly comes all over himself.
âFuck baby,â he mumbles before going to work. He canât help himself. As she rides his face his hands roam and hips thrust against nothing. Before itâs over Collins has slid down and collapsed from the intensity of her orgasm, and heâs shooting cum all over his stomach and her ass. âDid you just come without being touched?,â she asks. Sy can only nod, cheeks burning with embarrassment. âHot,â she murmurs before kissing his lips.
He tangles his fingers into her hair and kisses her passionately. âYouâre gonna be the death of me Collins Cooke,â he whispers against her lips. âI wonât allow that. Youâve got me now. Canât have you goinâ and dyinâ on me,â she says as she gets up. âWhere you goinâ?,â he questions. âGoinâ to shower and clean up your mess before havinâ that breakfast. You cominâ?,â she asks. Sy shakes his head before following after her like a puppy.
âWhatcha wanna do today baby?,â Sy asks as Collins sits in his lap and has breakfast. âI dunno. MaybeâŚ,â she trails off just before Walter comes barging in. âOhâ oh shit. Youâre still here,â Walter says before coming on in anyway. âWell this is my boyfriendâs house Walter. Figure I can be here all I want,â Collins sasses. She misses the way Sy absolutely beams at the mention of being her boyfriend because Walter comes and snatches a piece of bacon from her hand.
âHey!,â she says angrily. âYouâre a little brat, you know that? Iâm not afraid of brats though,â Walter says with a shit eating grin before taking more bacon from her plate. âIâm gonna kick your ass,â she insists. âNow baby I canât let yâall fight,â Sy says. âWhy not? Heâs always pickinâ on me,â she huffs before crossing her arms. âBecause I think you might hurt him, and if he accidentally hurt you Iâd be ready to commit murder. You donât want me murderinâ Walt now do you?,â Sy says. âI guess not,â Collins says with an eye roll.
âWhatâs brought you here so early?,â Sy asks. âWell, you know you gotta ride two Saturdays from now⌠I just wanted to warn you theyâre bringing back Rex. I am sorry if I caught you two at a bad time, but I really do enjoy messing with CC so,â Walter shrugs. âWhoâs Rex?,â Collins asks, noticing how still Sy has gone. âThe meanest bull in the circuit,â he replies. âCan you ride him?,â she then asks. âIâm pretty sure I can, but you know as well as I do it ainât guaranteed which bull you get. Not likely weâll draw him, right?,â he says, eyes meeting Walterâs. âProbably not. Just thought Iâd tell you. I guess I need to call before just dropping in these days, huh?,â Walter questions. âProbably,â Sy agrees, looking down at Collins.
âIâll leave you guys to it,â Walter says before getting up to leave. âShould I be worried?,â Collins then asks. âNaw little darlinâ. Everythingâs gonna be fine. Now⌠like I asked, whatcha wanna do today?,â he reiterates. âCan we just cuddle? Watch some tv maybe?,â she asks. âAnything you want,â he tells her. He gently runs the back of his fingers over her cheek before leaning in for a kiss. âI love you,â he tells her. âSyâ,â she begins before he shushes her. âDonât say it till youâre ready baby. Itâs okay,â he assures her.
She wants to.. God does she want to say it. Itâs on the tip of her tongue as he carries her over to his couch, but that small fear still holds her back. She can feel it blossoming within her though. His insistence, his devotion to her⌠itâs been unwavering. Heâs made her feel safe, and cared for, but it just wonât fall from her lips, not yet. It makes her feel like shit in a way. Syâs laid back on the couch, her face on his strong chest as she tries to fight back tears. Sy doesnât notice, Collins just tucked beneath his chin.
His hands massage her back softly, more content than heâs been in years. Just having her close, having her be his is enough, and he meant what he said, she shouldnât say it until sheâs ready, until sheâs sure. Until then heâs happy to wait. âI wanna take you out on a date next weekend. I should be takin��� you on more as it is,â he comments. âYouâve taken me on plenty, honey,â Collins says softly. His arms tighten around her. âMaybe, but I wanna take you to that fancy Italian place. Have our Lady and The Tramp moment,â he says, making her giggle. âI think you just wanna see me in a fancy dress,â she goads. âThatâs just a plus,â he comments.
âIâd be happy to go,â Collins says, looking up at him. âGood because I already made reservations,â Sy tells her. Collins scooches up and kisses him tenderly. âAnd what if Iâd said no?,â she questions. âI was figurinâ youâd go. Been pretty lucky with you so far baby. Iâm just gonna keep pressinâ it,â he tells her. They spend the rest of the day together before Sy finally brings himself to take her home.
âI didnât wanna let you leave,â he says as he holds her at her doorstep. âI enjoyed spending the day with you too Sy,â she replies, making him smile. âLunch dates this week?,â he questions. âAny day you want. Momma and Daddy took vacation and told me to do the same,â Collins says. âSooo everyday?,â he asks playfully. âIf youâre lucky,â she says with a kiss before going inside.
That week Sy shows up at her door, either to take her out bring lunch to her house, and before they know it Saturday⌠their date night is here. Sy shows up in a suit, roses in hand and nearly passes out at the sight of Collins. Her hair is half up, black dress with a slit that fits her just right, red lip and shoes. She looks so good. âThose for me?,â she smiles at Syâs stunned expression. âThese are for you,â he says as he holds them out. Collins canât help but giggle. âCome in here so I can put these in a vase,â she tells him.
He watches her, same dreamy look on his face, as she puts her flowers in water. She walks over to him and takes his face in her hands. âYou gonna make it Syverson?,â she questions. âI might,â he replies with a dopey smile. âWell letâs go then,â she tells him. She takes him by the hand and out the door. Sy helps her up into his truck before driving to the restaurant. Itâs a miracle they make it there, him having a hard time taking his eyes off her.
Syâs nervous all dinner, in honest disbelief that heâs here with Collins and sheâs his. They eat, having causal conversation as usual, things having become so easy between the two of them⌠like theyâd been together all along, trying each otherâs food and enjoying the company between the two of them. Theyâre sat there for a moment, Collinsâs small hand in Syâs as he kisses it when she speaks softly to him.
âAre you ready to go home with me?,â she asks. âIâm goinâ home with you?,â he smiles. âMmhm. Iâm ready⌠Iâm ready for you to make love to me,â she tells him, taking his breath. âCollins baby we donât haveâ,â he begins. âI want to feel how much you love me Sy, and Iâ I want you to feel how much I love you too,â she says, eyes brimming with tears. âDarlinâ donât cry,â he says, furiously swiping away at any that dare to fall. Collins scoot in closer to him, clinging to him desperately. âTell me you will Sy. I want this. I want you,â she tells him.
âI will. I want you too baby. Come on,â he says as he stands, taking her with him. He pays before heading out to his truck. Collins moves the console, making it where she can sit in the center seat next to him. She tucks her face into his neck and holds him tight. It had been eating at her all week, the feelings she had for him could be nothing other than love, and while loving again made her fearful in ways, she shouldnât be, not with Sy. Heâd done nothing but prove to her again and again that he was hers, totally and undoubtedly.
When they pull into her driveway Sy pulls her back just enough to let his lips crash into hers. âYouâre sure baby?,â he asks before she climbs into his lap. âYes. Iâ I need you,â she insist before kissing him again. He opens the door and quickly carries her inside before taking her to the bedroom. Collins sheds her dress and heels as Sy rips his clothes off. Once bare, Collins jumps into his arms, kissing him like itâs the last thing sheâll ever do. âNeed you,â she murmurs. âI gotta get you ready baby,â he says before putting her down.
He sits on the bed and pats between his legs for her to sit. She does, letting her back rest against his strong chest. Her hands run up and down his thick thighs, kneading at the furry skin. Sy cups her breasts before letting one hand trail down between her legs and through her slick slit. âFuck baby youâre soaked,â he husks as he teases her puffy clit for a moment. He lets his middle finger slide back down and sink into her.
His cock jumps at the feeling of how tight she is, and her comment about how he was ever going to fit comes back to mind. His arm wraps around her before sitting her up on his thigh, leaning her back slightly and adding a second finger. When he curls his fingers Collins cries out. âThatâs it ainât baby? Thatâs your spot huh?,â he asks. âYâ yeah,â she shudders, trying to grab his cock. âNot yet baby. Let me take care of you,â he tells her as he speeds up his movement.
âAhhh,â she moans, unable to protest. Collins wraps her arms around him, trying to tuck her face into him. âDonât hide from me. Lemme see you,â he insists. When she meets his eye she explodes, white bursting in her vision as her arousal pours from her. He gently works her through it before sliding his fingers out. Collins trembles in his arms as he kisses her softly. âYou did so good for me darlinâ,â he praises. âWhat the hell did I do?,â she asks breathlessly. âYou squirted,â he smirks. âIâve never done that,â Collins admits, cheeks flushing red.
âDarlinââŚ,â he breaths before quickly moving her around and burying his face between her legs. âYouâ ahhh. Mmm,â she whimpers. Collins was going to ask did he not think that was gross but with the way heâs lapping and absolutely slurping on her pussy is all the answer she needs. She comes again, thighs shaking around his head. âSy pleeease,â she pants. âTell me whatcha want darlinâ. Lemme hear you say it,â he says as he slides the head of his cock through her cunt.
âI want⌠you to put your cock inside me,â she says through breaths. âYeah?,â he questions. âMake love to me Sy,â she tells him. He grabs his cock and lines up before leaning over top her. âTake a deep breath baby,â he says before leaning down to kiss her. Collins claws at his shoulders as he eases in, the sting of the stretch making her mind cloudy. âEasy up darlinâ,â he says before kissing her cheeks. She minds her nails, opting to let her hands sit at the base of Syâs neck, the two of them looking each other in the eye when he finally hits bottom.
Sy sits still, letting the two of them get used to the feeling. âYou okay?,â he asks, caressing her face. âYeah, just a bitâŚ,â she says before he cuts. âTight as fuck?,â he chuckles, making Collins do the same. âThank you,â he then says. âFor what?,â she questions. âLetting me show you how much I love you, for showing me how much you love me,â he tells her. Collins brow furrows. Heâs inside of her but theyâre not even properly having sex yet.
âThis took a tremendous amount of trust baby. Iâm honored,â he then says. âReally?,â she asks. He looks down at her face, so many emotions dancing across her features. It both breaks his heart and makes it swell at the same time. âYeah because I donât deserve it at all, but Iâm not gonna question it. Youâre everything to me,â he admits. âYou do deserve it. You do,â she says before pulling him down for a kiss.
âI need you to move honey. I wanna come on your thick cock now. See if I can be good for you again,â she says, making him shudder. âYou canât say things like that baby,â he replies as he starts thrusting gently. âI can say whatever I want,â she answers before her eyes roll back. âLook at me. I wanna see your face while you make all them pretty sounds for me, and definitely when you fall apart for me,â he tells her, and damn if it isnât the hottest shit sheâs ever heard.
âI like that,â she tells him. âYeah? I like knowing all the things you like baby. Donât ever stop tellinâ me. You like this?,â he asks as he thrusts into her a little harder. âFuck yes,â she squeaks. Collins wraps herself around him, basically hanging off him while he fucks into her. He cups the back of her head, supporting her neck before letting out a guttural moan. âFuck you feel so good. Never felt anything like this,â he manages.
Collinsâs pussy is clenching and pulsing around his cock, driving him crazy, but itâs not just that. The way sheâs looking at him⌠no one has ever done that. Like they actually see HIM. âFaster Sy. Iâm so close,â she begs. He speeds up, both of them moaning louder and louder. âPlease tell me I can cum inside you Collins. Iâ fuck⌠I dunno if I can pull out. Feels too good,â he tells her. âYes⌠yes,â she screams just as she begins pouring on his cock.
The feeling of him dragging against her walls, rubbing her gspot just right, the way his hairy body is scrubbing all over her, her nipples and clit particularly, has her pussy gushing and pulsing uncontrollably⌠unendingly. It snatches the cum right out of Sy with such force it takes him by surprise. He collapses on top of Collins, arms wrapped tight around her as his hips push forward, entire lower half convulsing from how good his orgasm feels.
When it stops heâs still so damn hard it hurts. âAgain,â Collins demands. âGonna be sore baby Iâ, he stops short when she starts sliding her pussy up and down his cock. He sits up, and starts mimicking her motions, watching how her body trembles beneath him and how fucking good they look connected like this. He pulls out, making Collins pout momentarily. Before she realizes sheâs in his lap, slid down his cock. âHold on to me,â he says.
She reaches back and circles her hands around his neck before he stands, hooking his hands beneath her thighs, spreading her open, and taking her over to the mirror in the corner. âLook at that baby. Watch while I make love to you. See how good your little pussy looks stuffed with my cock,â he tells her. âSyyy,â she whines, his words making her pussy clench. âFuck you look so pretty like this. Why donât you touch your clit for me baby. Look how puffy she is. Needs some attention,â he tells her.
Collins usually would feel embarrassed about something like this, but Sy is making her feel so good she doesnât care. She reaches down and rubs circles over her clit, adding to her pleasure. âThatâs it. Doinâ so good for me again baby,â he says. She said she liked him talking to her and he can tell she really does by the way her pussy leaves a creamy ring around the base of his cock. âHarder,â she tells him. âAnything you want darlinâ. Hold on,â he says.
She tightens her grip before he starts pounding into her. Her legs twitch and tense in his hands letting him know sheâs close. âKeep playinâ with that pretty little clit baby. I can tell youâre close. So am I. Gonna fill you full,â he says just before Collins tumbles into the abyss yet again. He canât help but watch as her eyes screw shut, head thrown back in pleasure as her cum spurts out of her and onto the mirror. It makes his balls draw tight to his body and his cock tense. When he starts unloading the feeling makes Collins moan. She swipes at her clit furiously, greedily taking another orgasm for herself. âThatâs my girl,â Sy growls as he works them both through it.
He carefully backs up and sits down, legs feeling weak. When he does Collins spins in his lap, resting her head on his sweat slicked chest. Sy rubs her body soothingly before she cups his face. âI love you,â he tells him. âI know baby. I love you too,â he says as he rests his forehead against hers. âThank you for not giving up on me Sy, even though Iâd given up on myself,â she then says. âYouâre all Iâve ever wanted darlinâ. Iâm never givinâ up on you,â he says before kissing her lovingly.
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You Up? (Bucky Barnes x Reader)
Summary: Bucky Barnes felt exhausted, out of touch with the times, and surprisingly vulnerable, when he asked you to teach him how to use Snapchat. You didnât expect that heâd start sending you late night snaps from his bed, and he didnât expect youâd send them back.
BONUS SCENE HERE
Word Count: 5.3K
Warnings: 18+ MDNI, smut, age gap, sexting, old-ass man baffled by modern technology, unprotected sex, oral sex (fem!receiving)
Kitchen, 1:04 AM
The hum of the fridge was the only sound in the kitchen until the cupboard door creaked behind you.
You glanced over your shoulder, spoon still in your mouth, and there he was: James Buchanan Barnes. Sweatpants, black t-shirt, dog tags faintly catching the light. Silent as a ghost.
âDidnât mean to scare you,â Bucky murmured, stepping in with a nod.
âYou didnât,â you said around a mouthful of cereal. âYou always move like all⌠stealthy like that?â
âOccupational hazard I guess.â
You watched him open the fridge, grab a bottle of water, and lean against the counter. He looked tired. Not exhausted the way he usually did post-mission, but something softer. Restless.
âCouldnât sleep?â you asked.
âDidnât try,â he replied. âDidnât feel like staring at the ceiling yet.â
You swallowed your bite and gave a half-smile. âSame.â
Buckyâs eyes landed on your phone next to the bowl. âThat the one that makes your face look like a cat?â
You blinked. âWhat?â
He gestured toward it, brow pinched in confusion. âThereâs this app. You were showing Yelena yesterday. It"s got filters, right? Turns your voice all squeaky?â
âSnapchat?â
âYeah, that one.â He cleared his throat. âCan you explain it to me?â
You paused, spoon halfway to your mouth again.
ââŚYou want me to teach you Snapchat?â
âI donât want to,â he muttered, a little sheepish. âBut the kid we pulled out of that HYDRA site yesterday, I think he sent me something. Said heâd âsnap me later.â I have no idea what that means.â
You blinked again. Then you laughed.
Bucky rolled his eyes, but there was no bite to it. âIâm serious.â
âNo, I believe you,â you said through a grin. âItâs just⌠you asking me to teach you Snapchat is likeâŚI donât know. A medieval peasant asking about TikTok.â
He looked unimpressed. âI know what TikTok is.â
âDo you?â
He didnât answer.
Still smiling, you unlocked your phone and turned it toward him. âAlright. Letâs start with the basics.â
He sat beside you at the island, arms folded as you explained how to take snaps, send them, use filters, and view stories. He was attentive, really attentive, the way soldiers listened during briefing. Like it mattered.
âYouâve got to press and hold to record video,â you said, demonstrating. âAnd thatâs where the filters are. Tap through them. And that,â you pointed, âthatâs my Bitmoji. Donât laugh at her.â
He stared at the cartoon version of you on screen, blinking slowly. âThat doesnât look anything like you.â
âIâll take that as a compliment.â
âAnd people use this⌠why?â
You shrugged. âTo send life updates. Memes. Flirt. Post thirst traps.â
Bucky frowned. âTraps?â
You just grinned. âYouâll figure it out. There's also a normal chat feature, kind of like text messaging. All of this disappears after a certain amount of time unless you change some settings around.â
He was still looking at the screen like it was speaking another language. âThereâs too many apps now. Used to be, you just called someone. Or wrote a damn letter.â
You leaned back on your stool, watching him with a small smile. âYou really are a hundred years old, huh?â
âIâm a hundred and nine,â he corrected, dry.
There was a beat.
Neither of you moved.
Your smile softened. âWell⌠if you ever want help with anything else, I got you.â
Buckyâs expression twitched. Something between amused and unreadable.
âNoted.â
He stood, finishing his water, and turned to leave. Then paused at the doorway.
âThanks for the lesson.â
âAnytime.â
You watched him disappear down the hallway, and then you gathered your bowl and phone and padded off toward your room. Just another late night in the Watchtower.
Your Room, 1:32 AM.
Youâd just climbed into bed, blanket pulled up to your chest, when your phone buzzed.
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a Snap
You sat up straight.
No. Way.
You tapped it.
It was a blurry picture.
You could see the corner of a pillow. Part of his stubbled jaw. A little bit of his collarbone. Shadows.
Your heart flipped.
Caption:
âDid I do this right?â
You snapped a reply. Smirking into the camera, hair a mess, and your blanket pulled up to your chin.
âyou did perfect, grandpaâ
Two minutes later: @jamesthefrozenone sent you a chat
âYouâre lucky I like you.â
And for a long, long time, you just stared at the screen, smiling into the dark.
Your Room, The Following Night, 1:04 AM
You told yourself to go to bed.
Your brain was, as always, too busy.
But when you finally crawled under the covers and picked up your phone again, your heart jumped.
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a Snap
It was a photo of his face, dim, sleepy, barely visible. He was in bed. The sheets were pulled up to his chest. He looked... soft. Human.
Your breath caught, and you stared at the screen for a while.
The caption:
âAre you awake?â
The snap sat, open. Just Bucky in his bed, dim and warm and undeniably attractive in that relaxed, casual way. He hadnât posed. He hadnât tried. And that was the problem.
There was something unguarded about it.
And something very deliberate.
You bit your lip and flopped back against the pillows.
You swiped to reply before you could think too hard. You adjusted the camera before taking the picture.
You, your face. Messy hair, moonlight brushing your cheekbone. You looked sleepy. Flushed.
You hit send. Regret hit a second later.
The caption:
âyeah. you?â
But it didnât last long.
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a Snap
This one was darker, just the vague silhouette of his chest and shoulder, the curve of his dog tag chain barely visible against his collarbone.
Your heart tugged.
The caption:
âI can't sleep either. My brain is too loud.â
That same tight ache from earlier. The kind that came with late nights and soft confessions from people who rarely if ever gave them.
You took another snap.
Half of your face. Blurry.
There was a pause.
The caption:
âwhat are you thinking about?â
Long enough to make you incredibly anxious.
Then, @jamesthefrozenone sent you a chat
âYou.â
You blinked.
Your stomach dropped straight through the mattress.
Not subtle. Not vague. Just the truth.
You stared at the chat, thumb hovering over the keyboard.
Then you exhaled.
Screw it.
Snap sent:
Your bare thigh on top of the blanket, the bottom hem of your shirt just barely visible.
The typing bubble started.
The caption:
âsay more.â
Stopped.
Started again.
You imagined him lying there, debating if he should answer. Imagined him in that dark room, lit only by the screen, chewing the inside of his cheek while his brain screamed not to do this.
Then your phone buzzed again.
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a Snap
It's his face this time. Jaw tight. Eyes dark.
You stared at the message.
The caption:
âThis is dangerous.â
Then you snapped back, sending a blurry, close-up shot of your mouth.
No response.
The caption:
âprobably. and?â
Not for several minutes.
And then, @jamesthefrozenone sent you a chat
âGo to sleep, kid.â
You rolled your eyes, and sent your reply.
âwhatever you say, gramps.â
And you both laid awake all night.
Your room, 7:02AM
The quiet hum of the Watchtower felt heavier than usual, as if the building itself was holding its breath.
You rolled over, staring at the ceiling, heart pounding too fast for this early in the morning. You replayed last nightâs snaps in your mind; the way his words had set your skin on fire, the way the space between you had felt electric and raw.
The problem was: now that the night had passed, you werenât sure what to do with all that heat.
He knew what the snaps meant.
You knew it, too.
But neither of you had any intentions of saying a word about it.
Not yet.
Kitchen, 8:17AM
You made your way to the kitchen, muscles tight and breath shallow.
You found Bucky already there, leaning against the counter, nursing a black coffee. The quiet between you stretched thin and taut.
He glanced up as you approached, eyes wary but soft.
âMorning,â you said, voice barely above a whisper.
âMorning,â he replied, clearing his throat.
Neither of you moved to fill the silence.
You poured yourself some coffee, hands trembling just slightly.
Your eyes met his over the rim of your mug.
You wanted to ask him if last night had been a mistake.
You wanted to say something. Anything.
But all you managed was, âDid you sleep at all?â
Buckyâs lips pressed into a thin line.
âNot really.â
The confession hung in the air, heavier than either of you expected.
You shifted, setting your mug down.
âI wasnât expecting that snap.â
He looked at you then, the ghost of a smile tugging at his lips.
âNeither was I.â
The space between you felt charged, alive.
You could feel the invisible thread pulling tighter.
But fear held both your tongues.
Neither wanted to be the first to say what was already known.
The Watchtower began to creak with the early stirrings of the team.
You heard footsteps, then Johnâs voice carrying down the hall.
âHey, you two! There's breakfast in the lounge.â
Bucky shot you a glance, an unspoken question hanging there.
You nodded.
Later, sitting across from each other in the lounge, the rest of the team buzzed with casual chatter around you both.
But the silence between you was noticeable.
You caught Buckyâs gaze a few times. Each time, his eyes flickered with something raw and unsure.
At one point, Yelena nudged you, a teasing smirk on her lips.
âSomething going on?â she asked softly.
You just shook your head, lips twitching.
She shrugged and sipped her coffee, but you caught her watching Bucky with sharp eyes.
Your Room, 12:38AM
You told yourself you werenât going to do this again.
You were going to go to sleep. Like a normal person. Like someone who didnât stay up fantasizing about a hundred-year-old man with a vibranium arm, copious amounts of trauma, and a voice that made you ache.
But still, Your fingers drifted across your phone, opening Snapchat before you could talk yourself out of it.
You snapped a photo from the bridge of your nose up, just your eyes. Sleepy. Bored. Safe.
The caption:
âyou up?â
Then:
A minute passed.
Then two.
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a chat
âI thought we agreed that this is dangerous.â
No greeting. No pretense. Just⌠that.
Your heart thudded.
You blinked at the screen.
Your fingers hovered over for a moment, contemplating before you replied.
âCouldnât sleep. I wasnât planning to snap you but alas.â
He replied instantly.
âFunny. I was hoping you would.â
You stared.
It wasnât anything dirty, not really.
But it hit.
You felt it in your chest, in your stomach. Between your thighs.
You swallowed hard.
Your sleep shirt had ridden up a bit. You pulled the blanket aside and adjusted the angle, snapping a photo of your bare thigh, only the soft curve of skin showing.
The reply didnât come right away.
The caption:
âso now what?â
When it did, your breath caught.
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a Snap
The empty side of his bed. A poorly drawn arrow pointing to the pillow.
You exhaled sharply.
The caption:
âI wish you were here.â
Your stomach flipped.
He was always so careful. So distant. Always trying to pull away just enough to keep you at bay.
But this?
This was something.
You snapped a photo of your face, one eyebrow raised as if you were challenging him. Your skin flushed, and your shirt revealing a hint of cleavage.Â
You stared at the screen. Waiting.
The caption:
âand if I was?â
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a Snap
His hand. The metal one. Resting flat on his stomach. His muscles tight. You could see the waistband of his sweatpants.
You sat up in bed, legs suddenly restless under the sheets.
The caption:
âThen Iâd ruin you.â
You sent back a snap, one of just your shoulder and neck, blurry.Â
He opened it immediately.
The caption:
âiâd let you.â
The typing bubble flickered.
Then, @jamesthefrozenone sent you a chat
âThis is a bad idea.â
You replied.
âa really, really bad one.â
No reply came after that.
But you saw him open it.
And for the second night in a row, neither of you slept.
Your Room, 8:07AM
You tried not to rush through your morning routine.
You kept your hoodie zipped all the way up and your hair a little messier than usual, hoping it would hide the restless tension thrumming just beneath your skin. You hadnât slept. Youâd spent the night scrolling back to that final snap, your thumb hovering over the screen long after your phone dimmed.
He hadnât replied.
But heâd seen it.
That soft, hazy photo of your shoulder. That quiet admission. And of course, was it a bad idea?
a really, really bad one.
You knew the message wasnât just about sex. Not really. It was about the whole idea of you and him. About what it would mean to cross that line, and what theyâd both lose if it went wrong.
You told yourself it was fine. You werenât disappointed. You were a grown-ass woman who could handle a little sexual tension.
However, you were a grown-ass woman who found herself avoiding the lounge. Skipping breakfast. Keeping her head down.
Which is exactly why you ended up wandering into the kitchen, distracted, hoodie sleeves pushed over your hands, only to freeze at the sight of him.
Bucky.
Standing in front of the open fridge, looking just as tired as you felt.
He was in sweatpants. The ones you'd seen last night in that snap, the waistband resting low on his hips. His hair was still wet from a shower, and when he turned and saw you, his entire body stilled like heâd been caught doing something he shouldn't.
You werenât sure what expression was on your face, but his eyes softened just slightly, like he could feel whatever heat still lingered from the night before.
âMorning,â he said, voice low, unreadable.
âHey,â you replied. You forced yourself to move to the coffee machine, gripping the mug a little too tightly. âSleep okay?â
He hesitated. You didnât look at him, but you felt it, the way he paused before answering.
âYeah,â he lied.
You smiled into your mug, looking up at him. âLiar.â
He grinned.
You kept your back to him, letting the silence stretch.
But the silence was disrupted by John Walker entering the room.
âMorning, sunshine squad,â he said, grabbing an apple off of the counter and taking a bite. âYou two look like hell.â
You both ignored him.
He leaned on the counter, chewing obnoxiously.
âSooooo,â he said, stretching the word out, âI got the craziest snap from Bucky last night.â
You blinked.
Bucky froze.
âWhat?â you asked carefully.
John smirked. âYeah. Real late. Opened it around 1am. Thought it was a mistake.â
You felt your stomach tighten.
Bucky turned toward him slowly, brows furrowed. âWhat snap?â
John pulled out his phone and scrolled with theatrical flair. Then he turned the screen to you both andâŚ
There it was.
A dimly lit snap of Buckyâs bare stomach, metal hand resting against his skin.
Your jaw dropped.
And the caption, clear as day:
âThen Iâd ruin you.â
Bucky looked like heâd just been hit by a truck.
âJesus Christ,â he muttered, rubbing a hand down his face.
âOh my God,â you whispered, covering your mouth.
John burst out laughing. âI know that wasnât meant for me, but damn if Iâm not a little curious.â
âI meant to send that to her,â Bucky said without thinking, then immediately shut his eyes, realizing what heâd just admitted.
You choked on your coffee.
Johnâs eyes went wide.
âHoly shit,â he said. âYou were sexting her. You nasty old bastard.â
Buckyâs mouth opened, then closed again. He looked like he wanted to disappear.
âIâm still figuring out how this app works,â he muttered, voice tight. âI didnât realize it sent to you too.â
âI didnât need to know that,â John said gleefully. âBut Iâm so glad I do.â
âForget this happened, Walker,â Bucky said.
âOh,â John said, still messing with his phone. âI'll be screenshotting it for blackmail purposes. This is gold.â
Bucky looked like he was weighing the pros and cons of tossing him out the window.
John winked at you. âJust say the word if you ever want a guy under eighty-five.â
âGet out,â Bucky growled.
John held up his hands. âAlright, alright. Donât break your hip over it.â
He left, whistling.
The door closed behind him, leaving you and Bucky in the thickest silence yet.
You didnât say anything for a long moment.
Then finallyâŚ
âI would,â you whispered, âlet you.â
Bucky sighed and leaned against the counter. âYouâre trouble.â
You bit your lip, watching him quietly.
A flirtatious smirk crept across his face. He tried to suppress it. He grabbed his coffee mug and sauntered out of the kitchen without another word.
Your Room, 11:17 PM
You hadnât spoken to him since that morning.
Not really.
Youâd seen him in passing; at training, during a strategy briefing, when Yelena threw popcorn at Alexeiâs head during movie night, but the tension had shifted. It was no longer something building slowly between you, unspoken and dangerous.
It was active.
It demanded attention.
And now you couldnât look at him without remembering that snap. Without hearing the words in his voice.
Then Iâd ruin you.
You had replayed it in your head so many times, you werenât sure if you were turned on or emotionally unstable. Realistically, both.
You stared at the ceiling for a while after turning the lights out, curled beneath the blanket, your phone resting on your chest like a paperweight.
He hadnât snapped you.
Not all day.
You told yourself that was good. Smart. Mature. He was pulling back. Being careful.
But you didnât want to be careful anymore.
Not with him.
Not tonight.
So you opened Snapchat. Again.
You turned on the front-facing camera, adjusting the angle until it was just your mouth and chin. Lips parted. A little bit wicked.
The caption: âthis still dangerous?â
You hesitated only a second before hitting send.
Then you waited.
Long enough to regret it. Long enough to bite your lip, curse under your breath, throw the blanket over your face like that would somehow undo what youâd just done, and yell into your pillow.
And then, @jamesthefrozenone sent you a Snap
It was a shot of his hand. The metal one, resting against his chest.
The caption: âI canât stop thinking about you.â
Your breath caught.
This time, you didnât reply right away.
You needed him to say more.
You needed him to risk it.
You needed to make him sweat a little.
A minute passed.
Then another.
And finally:
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a chat
âWhat are you wearing?â
You stared at the message, heart thudding in your chest. Heart thudding everywhere.
You rolled slowly onto your side, letting the blanket fall lower.
Sleep shirt. Bare thighs.
You adjusted the camera carefully, making sure it was suggestive, not graphic. A tease. A temptation. A glimpse of your hip, and the tiniest hint of blue lace panties, and the hem of your shirt.
The caption: âcome find out.â
There was no pause this time.
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a Snap
A selfie now. Buckyâs face. Hair tousled. Jaw clenched. His cheeks warm.
He looked⌠desperate.Â
The caption: âDonât tempt me. I swear to god.â
Your thighs pressed together.
You opened the camera again, this time bringing the shot closer. Your fingers curled under your hem, not showing anything, but hinting at everything.
The caption: âi want you to.â
Another snap came instantly.
His bare chest. Dog tags. Muscle.
The caption:âTell me what youâd let me do.â
You exhaled, hot and shaky.
Your whole body buzzed. Every inch of you begging for contact, even through a screen.
You snapped a photo of your shoulder, your collarbone, and your throat.
The caption: âi'd let you pin me down.â
Your phone buzzed immediately.
His hand. Gripping the bedsheet this time. White-knuckled.
You snapped back before you lost your nerve, fingers grazing just above your panties, shirt still hiked up high.
The caption:
âAnd then?â
The caption: âTouch me. Make me squirm. Make me come.â
Another photo arrived in seconds.
His torso this time, arm flexed, abs tight. His skin glowed under dim light, sweat along his collarbone.
The caption: âYouâd be begging me not to stop.â
A quiet, desperate noise escaped your mouth.Â
You adjusted again, this time your hand disappeared beneath the sheets, between your legs, nothing visible but everything implied.
The caption: âiâm already beggingâ
There was a longer pause this time.
You stared at the screen. Waiting.
You could feel the hesitation. The way he fought himself every step of the way.
And then, @jamesthefrozenone sent you a chat
âThis is a really bad idea.â
You stared at it.
Bit your lip.
And sent the final snap for the night.
A photo of your pillow. Empty beside you. Invitation, suggestion, ache.
The caption: âStill, might be worth it.â
You waited.
Watched as he opened it.
The reply never came.
But you knew.
You both knew.
Kitchen, 8:05 AM
The kitchen was too quiet again.
You stared at the toaster, watching it slowly brown two slices of bread, pretending your heart wasnât still thudding from last night. Pretending you hadnât spent the past eight hours tossing under your sheets, skin hot, mind louder than it had any right to be.
He never replied.
Not after your last snap.
But you saw him open it. You knew what that silence meant.
And still, you couldnât stop thinking about the way heâd looked. That low light. That look in his eyes. Like he wanted you. Like he was struggling not to want you more.
You shifted on your feet, hoodie sleeves covering your fingers, trying not to look like you were waiting for him.
But then, he walked in.
Bucky.
Damp hair. Long sleeves. That damn quiet tension clinging to his shoulders like a shadow. He stopped when he saw you. Not startled. Just still.
You didnât look away.
âMorning,â you said softly.
He nodded. âMorning.â
He moved past you to the fridge. His hand hovered on the handle. His back to you.
You stayed where you were, clutching your mug with both hands.
The silence stretched.
Thick.
âYou didnât reply,â you said finally, voice just above a whisper.
He closed his eyes for a second before turning, leaning back against the counter.
âI wanted to,â he said. His voice was rough. âBut I didnât trust myself not to come upstairs.â
Your stomach flipped.
He looked tired. Worn. And guilty.
Your throat tightened. âDo you regret it?â
âNo,â he said instantly. âI regret not stopping this before it started.â
That stung.
Even if it was fair. Understandable.
Even if you knew it wasnât just about the flirting. Or the sexting.
It was about the line you kept crossing. And what it would mean when it broke for real.
âYou think I canât handle you?â you asked quietly.
He looked at you then, directly.
âI think you donât know what youâre inviting,â he said.
And then, softer, âAnd I donât want to hurt you.â
You opened your mouth, ready to say something, anything, but you didnât get the chance.
Because John Walker chose that exact moment to walk in. Again.
âWow,â he said, biting into an energy bar. âYou two have the most intense breakfasts Iâve ever seen.â
You both turned toward him in sync, like a pair of teenagers caught passing notes.
John grinned. âIâm assuming that Iâm the only one of the three of us who didnât get a snap last night?â
Bucky scowled. You stared down at your coffee.
John snorted. âCome on. Donât look so guilty. Iâm just impressed you figured out how to snap without sending it to the whole team this time.â
âWalker,â Bucky said, as a warning.
But John wasnât done.
He leaned his hip against the counter, looking right at you with a smirk, "Whatever is good for team morale, I guess.â
John turned to the cabinet, fishing for a mug, and muttered to himself, âI give it two more nights before one of you caves.â
âWhat was that?â you asked innocently.
He grinned. âNothing, sweetheart. Just betting against Buckyâs self-control.â
Your Room, 1:16 AM
You werenât going to do it.
You werenât going to open Snapchat.
You werenât going to reach out first.
You werenât going to let your whole body ache over someone who clearly didnât want to cross the line⌠even though he wanted you.
But still, the app sat there. Waiting. And so did the tension. And so did you.
You scrolled back through the thread, past the soft snaps, the suggestive ones, the ones where he said too much without saying anything at all.
He was trying so hard, but he hadnât stopped looking at you like he was two seconds away from ruining everything.
You pulled your blanket tighter, took a slow breath, and snapped a photo; just your fingers tangled in the sheets on your bed. Feeling brave, you typed it out.
The caption: âi keep thinking about how your mouth would feel on my skin.â
You sent it.
Then immediately wished you hadnât.
But then, before you had time to panic, @jamesthefrozenone sent you a Snap
His chest, bare. Lit only by the glow of the phone. The curve of his shoulder, where his skin met with metal.Â
The caption: âIs that what you want?â
You sat up. Heart pounding.
Your thighs pressed together beneath the blanket. Goosebumps across your skin. Every nerve in your body screamed.
You snapped a photo from the waist up, angled carefully. Your sleep shirt clung to the curve of your chest, just a hint of cleavage visible and your hard nipples visible through the fabric. Your expression said the rest.
The caption: âyou already know it is.â
He opened it immediately.
You waited.
You didnât expect what came next.
@jamesthefrozenone sent you a chat
âOpen your door.â
You froze.
Then stared at it.
Then, you launched yourself out of bed, heart hammering so hard you thought it might bruise bone. You flung the blanket aside and scrambled to your feet.
You barely made it halfway across the room before there was a knock.
Three fast knocks. Barely loud enough to hear.
You opened the door, and there he was.
Bucky. Shirtless. Sweatpants slung low on his hips, chest rising like heâd sprinted the whole way to your room.
You didnât say a word. Neither did he.
You just stared⌠and then you reached.
Your fingers curled into his chest like youâd earned the right by now. Like he was already yours. He surged forward, slamming the door shut behind him without ever looking back, lips crashing into yours with the kind of need that didnât ask permission.
His hands were rough, urgent, gripping your waist and pulling you into him until there wasnât a breath between you.
You moaned into his mouth, heat rushing through you as he backed you into the wall. His hips pinned you there. You could feel him, already hard through the thin fabric of his sweats, thick and heavy, pressing right where you needed him most.
âI feel like you're supposed to say you shouldnât be here,â you whispered, voice wrecked. His mouth brushed your jaw, your cheek, your throat. âI know,â he growled, âso tell me to go.â
You didn't.Â
Instead, you grabbed a fistful of his hair and crashed your mouth against his.
He groaned, deep from his chest, before grabbing the backs of your thighs and hoisting you up, your legs wrapping tight around his waist.
âI mean it,â he rasped, carrying you toward the bed. âTell me to leave. Right now.â
You clung to him, pulse hammering. âShut up and fuck me.â
He kissed you hard, like it was the only thing keeping him alive. One hand slid up under your shirt, dragging it over your ribs, possessive. The other gripped your ass, squeezed hard, like heâd been dying to do it for years.
You barely had time to gasp before he carried you to the bed, as if he couldnât wait another second. He dropped you onto the mattress, then peeled your clothes off with shaking handsâdesperate, reverent, like he needed to see all of you *now* or heâd break.
âJesus,â he muttered, looking down at you, eyes blown wide. âYouâre unreal.â
âThen get inside me,â you said, breathless. âDonât make me beg.â
âOh, I want you to beg,â he rasped, crawling over you, mouth trailing down your chest, biting just enough to make you gasp. âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted this. How long Iâve wanted you.â
You arched up against him. âThen have me god damnit.â
He didnât need to be told twice.
He dropped to his knees on the floor with you still wrapped around him, peeled your panties down and shoved your thighs apart. His mouth was on you in seconds. His tongue hot and greedy, lapping between your folds, groaning like he was devouring his last meal. You cried out, hips bucking into his face, and he didnât stop, just locked his arms around your thighs and fucked you with his tongue until you were shaking.
âGod, oh my god, Bucky, Iâm gonna-â
âDo it,â he growled, voice thick, jaw slick with you. âLet me taste it.â
You shattered.
Your body locked up and trembled, a sob tearing from your throat as you came on his tongue, legs shaking around his shoulders. He kept going, licking you through it until you whimpered from the stimulation, clawing at his shoulders.
He stood, wild-eyed, flushed, jaw tight, and shoved his sweats down just enough to free his cock.
Big. Thick. Veins prominent.
He bent you over the mattress, dragged your ass back into position, and slid inside you in one brutal thrust.
âFuckââ he groaned, head dropping between your shoulder blades. âYouâre so fucking tight.â
You gasped, your back arching, nails digging into the mattress. âDonât stop. God, please donât stop.â
And he didnât.
He fucked you like he meant to break you. Every thrust hit deep, hard, hungry. Metal hand around your throat, the other gripping your hip, keeping you right where he wanted you. You were soaked. Sloppy, hot, pulsing around him, and he couldnât stop the filthy words from pouring out.
âThis what you wanted, sweetheart?â he rasped in your ear. âWanted me to ruin you like this? You thinking about it every time I walk into a room?â
âYes!â You cried out, helpless, twitching under him. âIâm so close, please- please-â
âI wanna feel you come.â
You did.
Loud. Messy. Legs trembling, vision white-hot.
Bucky swore, pulled you upright with your back against his chest, fucked into you hard a few more times, and then he came with a rough moan, teeth gritted, arms wrapped tight around you like heâd fall apart if he let go.
His breath came fast and ragged against your shoulder.
You both collapsed onto the bed, your limbs tangled, skin slick, and nerves fried.
âStill think itâs a bad idea?â you whispered into the quiet.
He laughed. Hoarse. Spent.
âAbsolutely.â
And then he kissed you again, deep, slow, filthy, and he didnât stop for a long, long time.
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Hell of a Ride
Attn: Smutty little August idea I had. I hope yâall enjoy.
Word Count: 888
Pairing: August x Reader
Summary: Thereâs something you want, but will August let you have it?
Warnings: 18+, oral (male receiving), dick riding, titty sucking?, squirting, teasing, creampie, aftercare
You straddle his hips, his hands grabbing, kneading harshly at your ass. Heâs shoved them beneath the skirt you wore to dinner, the two of you only making it as far as the couch when you get inside his apartment. His lips glide over your throat, mustache tickling your skin. You feel him tense, readying himself to flip you and fuck you senseless. âWâ wait,â you stammer.
âWait?,â he questions, eyes darkening. You never ask him to wait, you never want him to, but lately⌠thereâs something you have been wanting. Something heâs never let you have. âLet me ride you August,â you plead, fingers tangled into the back of his curls. âThatâs what you want Princess?,â he coos. âMmhm. Iâve never done it before and I really want to,â you admit. âOn one condition,â he says as he palms at your thighs. âOkay,â you say tentatively. âOnce you start, you have to finish. No whining, no excuses. If you canât wellâŚ,â he trails off.
You know it means punishment, but you donât care. Youâre determined. âYes, sir,â you nod. You stand and undress before taking his clothes off as well. You kneel a moment, unable to resist the shiny beads of precum on the tip of his cock. âMmm,â you hum in contentment. âYou like that?,â he asks. You hum again just before he grabs the back of your head and gags you. The sensation of it makes your eyes water. When he pulls you off he wipes a tear away. âMe too,â he murmurs before pulling you into a harsh kiss.
Before itâs over heâs pulled you back into his lap by your throat. âYou wanted to ride me, now do it. I want that tight little cunt of yours wrapped around me,â he rasps. You line him up before easing your way down. Heâs so big itâs always a bit of a stretch, but once youâre set you can hardly breathe. You wiggle your hips experimentally and gasp. The angle is sharp. Heâs so deep like this itâs ridiculous.
You brace yourself on his shoulders before getting into a squatting position. After a few moments you find your rhythm. The only disadvantage is you canât quite get the speed youâre used too, but still you come with your nipple sucked harshly into Augustâs mouth. He groans against you, and before he thinks much of it, his arms lock around your waist and he begins thrusting into you at breakneck speed.
âUhhhh,â you keen over and over as his increased speed makes you gush all over him. He releases your breast with a pop before smirking up at you. âI like you like this Princess. Fuck. Canât help myself. Fucking take it,â he growls. He sucks the opposite nipple into his mouth and keeps throttling you. Your clit rubs against his pubic hair just right and within moments youâre gushing again.
âFuuuck,â you whine. He shoves his fingers into your mouth before removing them and slipping them through your asscheeks. You feel his middle finger pressing against your puckered hole before it gives way. He slides it in deep then out and back again while he keeps his pace. Your eyes roll back at all the sensations heâs pulling from you. His cock in your pussy, his finger in your ass, his mouth sucking at your breasts.
Itâs so much you donât even realize how your hips are pressing hard back against him until youâre cumming so hard you nearly pass out. âFucking hell,â he groans before pulling out and putting you on your knees against the back of the couch. He slips back into your pussy. He puts his back against your chest and fucks you so hard all you can hear is skin slapping against skin.
His hand finds your throat as the other begins pinching at your clit. âYou on top was nice baby girl, but this⌠this is my favorite,â he groans. âAugust,â you moan as you come again. âThatâs it,â he husks before he starts grunting into your ear. âI might cum on your ass,â he manages. âNo⌠please no,â you beg. You feel him smile against you. âThatâs my girl. You want my cum?,â he asks. âYes sir. Need it,â you whine. âFuâ fucking take it,â he says as he slams deep.
Your thighs shake as his cock thrumming inside you sends you into another orgasm. By time heâs spent youâre absolutely trembling in his arms. âShhh Princess Iâve got you,â he says soothingly. When he eases out you whimper at the loss. âI know,â he says a with a kiss to your shoulder before carrying you to the bathroom. He sits you on the toilet and starts a warm bath.
âDid you go?,â he questions as he comes to help you. âIâ I canât,â you stammer. âRelax,â he says as he leans down to caress your body. He finally calms you down enough for you to go so he can put you into the bath with him. âIâve got you,â he says again as he holds you in his arms. âYouâll let me ride you again right?,â you sleepily mumble into his chest, making him laugh. âOf course,â he replies before kissing the top of your head. âThank you,â you say before leaning up to give him a kiss.
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Her waiting for himđ
Donât Mind If I Do
Attn: Inspired by the Riley Green song. I hope yâall enjoy.
Word Count: 710
Pairing: Sy x Reader
Summary: Sy lets you go, but will he find his way back?
Warnings: angst, alcoholism, ptsd
There he sat⌠deep in the bottle once again. Drink after drink after drinkâŚ. Rinse and repeat. Then there was you. So beautiful, so understanding, and yet⌠Sy could tell it was breaking you. Chipping away at that sweet exterior heâd always loved so much. He couldnât take it, so he pushed you away.
His last deployment had been the hardest of his entire career. It left him fighting demons, ones too dark for you to even imagine. You did your best for him, but he didnât deserve it so one day he sent you away. âI donât understand,â you sobbed in his driveway. âI know you donât darlinâ, but you just⌠deserve so much better. Right now I canât give you that,â Sy told you. He tried to reach out and dry a tear when you jerked away harshly. âHow dare you. How fucking dare you,â you screamed.
He knew he deserved it. Youâd been with him nearly half your lives. Youâd loved him, waited faithfully through every deployment. Heâd had every intention of coming home and proposing, heâd even chosen the ring before he left, but now⌠he was so broken he just couldnât break you too. âItâs kinder to let you go darlinâ canât youâ,â he tried before you stopped him. âI canât believe you,â you hiccuped before getting in your car and driving away.
That night he drank himself damn near to death he imagined. He loved you so much, but he loved you enough to let you go. Over the next few months he kept trying to convince himself it was for the best, hell he even tried to convince himself he didnât love you anymore, but it was just a lie. Finally heâd had enough of his own shit. He cleaned all the liquor out of his house. He was going to quit⌠to be better.
Heâd been doing well for a while. He stopped drinking, stopped thinking about you so much. Until one particular night. He couldnât stop thinking about you. He thought just maybe if he built up a little courage he could show up at your house. He didnât make it that night.
Another week went by and he fell back into his old vice. Whisky over ice, then another, and another until finally he couldnât stand it anymore. He knew he couldnât drive so he took off walking the two miles to your house. When he got to your front yard, he was surprised to find you sitting on the porch, drink of your own in hand. When he got to the walkway he couldnât help but fall to his knees.
You approached him tentatively, before running a hand over his buzzed head. His eyes fluttered shut as he let out a breath heâd been holding. âDarlinâ iâ itâs been killinâ me. Iâ,â he stammered. âIâve been waiting for you,â you told him. His hands reached out to pull you close before his arms circled your waist. âIâm sorry,â he sobbed into you. âI know baby,â you replied. You didnât at first. You were hurt and angry, but with time, reflection, and support from family and friends you realized how bad things actually were.
Before his deployment he was the ideal partner. Always so giving, so loving, and passionate. Whatever heâd been through had to be horrific. It had to change him in ways you couldnât truly understand because your Sy never wouldâve let you go, but deep down you knew you still loved him and he loved you. You could only have hoped for this moment when heâd find his way back to you.
âIâ I hope you donât mind me showing up like this, but I still love you darlinâ. Iâm gonna be better. I need you,â he breathed as he looked up at you. âI still love you too Sy, never stopped,â you told him. He then rose from the ground and pulled you tight against him. âFeels so good to hold you,â he murmured into your hair. âCome in. You can hold me some more,â you said before leaning back and kissing him tenderly. He let you take him by the hand, then into your home and bed where he could hold you all night long.
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Him Part 3
Jake 'Hangman' Seresin x Reader / Bradley 'Rooster' Bradshaw x Reader
Summary: Torn between safety and fire, you're caught in a love triangle with Bradley Bradshaw and Jake Seresin. In the aftermath of heartbreak, you must choose between the comfort of what was and the challenge of what could be â and finally fight for the love that makes you feel alive.
Word Count: 10.8k (literally the longest thing I've ever written omg)
Trigger warnings: Cursing, toxic relationship dynamic? , yelling, I'm sorry if I miss anything! unedited asf
A/N: I honestly wasnât going to write a part 3 to this but all it took was at least 3 people asking lol. This is the final part and I even included 2 very short extras at the end just for the very long wait. I kinda of love how this turned out, it didnât go the way that I thought it would when I first wrote the other 2 parts but the ideas started flowing when I started writing this so. As always, if there is anything else you want to see please ask!Â
Him part 1 Him part 2
Asked to be tagged plus original taglist: (so sorry if y'all don't want to be on here, please just lmk and I'll remove you, I know its been a long time since the last parts have be released!) @khouse712 @mrsevans90 @dempy @budugu
NOT MY GIF
You stood on that sidewalk long after Jake disappeared back into the Hard Deck. The door had swung shut behind him, muffling the sound of laughter and musicânone of it reached you.
You were alone.
The realization slammed into you harder than any landing you'd ever pulled. Bradley was gone. Jake was⌠right. And you were still standing in the same place like your feet were cemented into the pavement, heart broken and head spinning.
Finally you decided to leave, but you couldnât go home, not just yet.Â
You sat in your car for what felt like forever, parked just down the street from the Hard Deck. The ocean breeze carried in through the open window, cooling your skin, but nothing could calm the war raging inside your chest. Your fingers still trembled slightly from what had just unfolded â from the way Bradleyâs voice broke when he said goodbye, from the way Jake didnât flinch when you screamed at him like he had expected it, like he had braced for the blow long before you even threw it.
And the worst part? You didnât even know who you were crying for.
Bradley was good. So good. Kind, steady, dependable. He was what you thought love was supposed to be â warm, safe, handed to you easily. With Bradley, there were no games, no confusion, no second-guessing. He showed up. He stayed. He loved you with the kind of softness that shouldâve been enough. That maybe was enough⌠for someone else.
But lately, it felt like everything he gave you was just⌠too easy. Like you didnât earn it. He worshipped you without making you fight for it, handed you his heart without question, without challenge. And maybe thatâs what broke your heart most â the realization that you never had to work for Bradley's love made it feel⌠less real. Or maybe just less yours.
You loved him. You did. You cared deeply, you admired the way he loved your family, how he noticed little things about you, how he made room for you in his life without hesitation. But were you in love with him?
You werenât so sure anymore.
Because then there was Jake.
God, Jake.
Jake who made you feel everything so intensely it was exhausting. Jake who never let you settle into autopilot. Who called you out, challenged you, made you rise to the occasion just to stand beside him. He didnât hand things over â he made you work for them, earn them. And it wasnât cruel, not really. It was invigorating. It was fire. It made the wins feel real, like they were born from effort, not expectation.
With Jake, you werenât soft. You were sharp, quick, alive. Competitive. You gave as good as you got, and he loved that. He saw you â the messy, hard-headed, complicated version of yourself â and never tried to fix it. He matched it.
Bradley gave you peace.
Jake gave you purpose.
Bradley made you feel safe.
Jake made you feel seen.
You didnât grow up with safety. Your childhood taught you that love was something you had to earn â to hustle for, to prove yourself worthy of. So when Bradley gave it to you without question, you clung to it like a lifeline, convinced this was what youâd always wanted. This was the dream. Easy. Whole. Gentle.
But easy started to feel like a trap.
Maybe love wasnât supposed to be easy. Maybe it wasnât supposed to be one-sided devotion without friction. Maybe it was supposed to burn a little â not so it hurt, but so it meant something.
Jake made it mean something.
He didnât hand himself over. He made you chase it. And when you got it â when he let that guard down, when he smiled at you like you were the only one in the room, if he told you he loved you â it would feel earned. Real. Yours.
Bradley never made you question how he felt.
Jake made you question everything else.
And now⌠you had neither.
You made it home somehow.
You didnât remember the drive â just the distant hum of the engine, your hands white-knuckled around the wheel, the sting in your chest growing sharper with every mile between you and the Hard Deck. Jakeâs voice still echoed in your head, raw and pleading. Bradleyâs goodbye carved itself into your memory like a scar youâd never be able to scrub clean.
By the time you pulled into your driveway, your body felt foreign â like you were moving on autopilot. When you stepped out of the car, the wind was too quiet. The world felt too still. Every sound muffled under the crushing weight of everything you didnât say, everything you couldnât take back.
Your keys trembled in your hand as you tried to unlock the door, tears blurring your vision until the key finally slid into place. You pulled the door open and stepped into your apartment.
The silence was deafening.
The emptiness hit you like a punch to the chest.
It was too quiet. And it was still his.
Bradleyâs jacket was still hanging by the door â the one he always wore after flights, the one that still smelled faintly like jet fuel and his cologne. His toothbrush was still resting in the holder next to yours, toothpaste cap unscrewed just the way he always left it. There were takeout menus on the counter from the Thai place he loved. The couch still had the dent from where heâd fallen asleep watching movies with you two nights ago.
Your home was haunted by him. Every inch of it. Every breath.
Your knees gave out the second the door closed behind you.
You crumpled to the floor in the hallway like a puppet whose strings had been severed. No strength. No structure. Just grief. Just regret. The sobs tore from your chest without warning â raw, desperate, ugly. You folded in on yourself as the ache took over, chest heaving, heart splintering open in real time.
You didnât even try to stop it.
You couldnât.
Because this was the moment it hit you â not in pieces, but all at once.
You had lost them both.
Bradley, with his quiet steadiness and gentle heart. His hands that knew how to hold you without asking. The safe place you never thought youâd be lucky enough to find.
And Jake, with his reckless love and sharp tongue. His fire that burned hot enough to wake something in you you didnât even know you had. The challenge you didnât realize you craved until he gave it to you.
You loved them both. In different ways. For different reasons.
But now you had neither.
And the emptiness of your apartment â your life â was deafening in their absence.
You buried your face in your hands and cried until your body couldnât take it anymore. Until the sobs became silent and your muscles trembled with the weight of it all. Until the only thing you could feel was the cold of the tile beneath your legs and the thudding pulse in your ears.
You were in love with two people.
And now you were utterly, completely alone.
You couldnât sleep that night, no matter how exhausted you were. Mentally, emotionally, physically, it felt like you couldnât move on.Â
You thought back to different moments, the small ones. Ones that felt so insignificant at the time, like it was something that just happened and you wouldnât remember it, but they replayed in your head on a loop.Â
The smell of garlic and basil filled the kitchen, warmth radiating from the oven and the soft flicker of the overhead light. You moved around each other like magnets, pulling away just in time to avoid collision, then falling back into rhythm like you were choreographed â a duet barefoot on the tile floor.
Bradley stood at the stove, stirring a pot of sauce with lazy focus, while you diced tomatoes at the island, your eyes flicking up every so often just to watch him. The sleeves of his flannel were rolled up, curls a little damp from the shower heâd taken not long after his flight. He was humming something under his breath â the same melody playing from the old record player in the corner. Fleetwood Mac, maybe. Something slow. Something warm.
Every now and then, heâd drift closer. Drop a kiss to your temple. Steal a piece of tomato from your cutting board and wink when you swatted at him. It was easy. So easy. Like youâd done it a million times before. Like this was your life. Like this had always been your life.
You turned your back for a moment to rinse off your hands, and when you turned around again, he was watching you.
Not just looking â watching.
Like you were the whole world.
âWhat?â you asked, bashful but smiling.
He just shook his head slowly, eyes soft. âNothing,â he said. âJust⌠I hope this is what forever looks like.â
Your heart clenched â not in fear or confusion, but in the gentle swell of something safe. Something certain. Because this, right here â quiet music, shared space, easy laughter and full hearts â this was the kind of life little girls dreamed about. And for a while, you believed it would be enough.
Maybe it still couldâve been.
But then there was also Jake who wouldnât stop infiltrating your mind. It was a constant war about whoâs turn it was on the tv screen in your head.Â
You sat on the floor of the training room, back against the cold wall, legs outstretched, flight suit peeled halfway down. Sweat clung to your skin, and so did the weight of the last few months â the pressure, the expectation, the failure you couldnât outrun.
Your head hung low. Breaths shallow. You didnât hear Jake come in until he sat down beside you.
He didnât speak at first. Just sat there, close enough that your knees almost brushed. Let the silence settle without suffocating you. Let you breathe.
âI canât do this anymore,â you finally muttered. Voice raw. âIâm done. Iâm not good enough. This isnât for me.â
He didnât jump to disagree. He never did.
Instead, he leaned back on his hands and tilted his head toward you. âYouâre not good enough?â he repeated, voice low but steady. âYouâre one of the best pilots Iâve ever flown with, and youâre sitting here acting like the Navyâs doing you a favor by letting you show up.â
You looked away. Shame burned at your throat.
He kept going. âThe Navy should be scared to lose you. Hell, Iâd be scared to lose you. Because what you bring to that cockpit? That fire? That instinct? You canât teach that. You just have it.â
You blinked fast, trying to hold back the sting in your eyes.
Jake shifted to face you fully now, his voice dropping lower. âYou donât have to carry all this shit by yourself, yâknow. Let someone help. Let me help.â
âWhy?â you asked, bitter. Tired. âWhy would you even care?â
He looked at you like the question wounded him. âBecause I believe in you. Because youâre better than you think. And because⌠I want you to be better. I want you to stay. I want you to fight for it.â
And somehow, when he said it â when he believed in you â it was enough to make you believe in yourself again.
From that day forward, you worked harder. You flew sharper. And on the days you faltered, he was always there â pushing you, pulling you, reminding you of the strength he saw even when you didnât.
He didnât give you the easy path.
He gave you the one you had to earn.
And somehow, that made it worth it.
The days passed in a blur â not fast, not slow. Just weightless. Like time was happening to you and you were floating above it, watching everything burn from behind glass.
Youâd stopped checking your phone after the fourth day. Bradley hadnât replied to any of your messages. Not the short apologies. Not the long paragraphs. Not even the voice memo youâd recorded with shaking hands, pouring every bit of your confusion, your guilt, your sadness into a cracked whisper in hopes heâd hear the honesty in your voice if not the words.
But it didnât matter.
Everything was left on âread.â
Every message a ghost hanging in digital purgatory.
You still saw him, every day. In the hangar. In briefings. On the tarmac. You sat just a few chairs down from him during debriefs, but it might as well have been miles. He didnât look at you. Didnât speak your name. He was polite, professional â cold. Like you were nothing more than another pilot in the room.
Jake was no better.
Heâd returned to the version of himself the Navy had always known â cocky, aloof, emotionally impenetrable. He didnât look at you either, not even in the subtle, quiet ways he used to. He didnât linger in doorways, didnât find excuses to brush past you in the halls or throw a one-liner your way just to see you roll your eyes.
Both of them had disappeared, even though they were still right there.
You were invisible.
And maybe â deep down, where it hurt the most â thatâs what you deserved.
The squad felt it too. The Dagger squad, normally so tight-knit, so loud and full of banter, had grown quiet. Disjointed. Like everyone was waiting for a storm to pass, unsure of whether they were supposed to take shelter or run.
You kept your head down. You flew. You followed orders. You pretended.
Until the locker room.
Youâd just finished a grueling training flight. Your body ached, your eyes heavy, and your chest⌠hollow. You peeled out of your flight suit in silence, mechanically reaching for your towel when you heard the door swing open behind you. You didnât even need to look to know who it was.
âJesus,â Phoenix muttered, leaning against the row of lockers. âYou look like hell.â
You didnât respond at first, just slumped onto the bench, elbows on your knees, staring at the floor like it might offer you answers.
âIâm not here to start anything,â She said, arms crossed, voice gentler now. âBut someone has to say something. And no offense, but you're starting to bring the rest of us down with you.â
You managed to look up at her, eyes rimmed red, exhaustion written into every line of your face. âWhat do you want me to say?â
She sighed, tilting her head. âI want you to stop pretending like no one knows what happened.â
You flinched, eyes darting away.
âJake told you how he felt,â She guessed. âAnd Bradley found out?â
You didnât say anything for a long moment. Then you gave the faintest nod.
Phoenix exhaled slowly, pushing her tongue into her cheek like she was trying to decide whether to go easy on you or rip the Band-Aid clean off. âDamn.â
Your voice cracked. âI didnât ask for any of it. I didnât want this to happen.â
âBut it did,â She said, not unkindly. âAnd now you have to figure out what the hell youâre going to do about it.â
âI donât know,â you whispered, the words falling from your lips like dead weight. âI donât know what Iâm doing. I donât know what I want. I justâ You trailed off for a second, âI donât want to lose both of them.â
âWell,â She said, crouching beside the bench so you had no choice but to meet her eyes, âthen maybe you shouldâve thought about that before you stood on that damn deck and didnât walk away.â
You swallowed hard.
âIâm not judging you,â Phoenix added, more gently now. âGod knows, none of us are perfect. But you do have to stop acting like this all just happened to you. Like you werenât in the middle of it.â
You blinked, and a single tear slipped down your cheek.
Phoenix reached up and handed you a towel â not for your body, but for your face.
âIâm saying this because I care,â She said. âAnd because Iâve seen what you look like when youâre fighting. Youâre not fighting right now. Youâre spiraling. And thatâs not the version of you I know.â
You pressed the towel to your eyes, shaking hands trying to contain something so much bigger than just heartbreak.
âI think you love them both,â Phoenix said. âBut love isnât just a feeling, itâs a choice. So stop running from it and figure out which one youâre willing to fight for.â
And with that, she stood up and left you in the silence again.
Only now, you couldnât ignore it.
Because she was right.
You were spiraling.
And it was time to decide whether you were going to keep free-falling â or finally pull the damn chute.
You didnât plan it.
You were still in your flight gear, sweat dried to your skin, eyes swollen from another night of half-sleep and restless thinking. But something in you couldnât take the silence anymore. The limbo. The not knowing.
You just had to see him.
Had to try.
Bradleyâs truck was in the driveway. Your heart twisted when you saw it. The porch light was off, curtains drawn. His house looked cold. Uninviting. Nothing like the home it used to be â the place where you cooked dinner, made fun of each otherâs music tastes, talked about the future like it was a shared promise.
You stood at the door for a full minute before knocking.
There was a long pause, then the door creaked open.
Bradley stood there in a worn t-shirt and flannel pants, looking like he hadnât slept either. His face was unreadable. Eyes tired. Shoulders tight.
You opened your mouth but didnât know what to say.
He beat you to it.
âYou shouldnât be here.â
Your chest sank. âI know. I just⌠I wanted to talk.â
He laughed â bitter and joyless. âYou want to talk now?â
âI didnât know what to say then,â you said quietly. âI still donât. But Iâm trying.â
âYouâre trying?â he snapped. âNow youâre trying?â
You flinched.
âI begged you to be honest with me. I told you from the beginning, all I wanted was the truth. And instead I get blindsided by Hangman, of all people, pouring his heart out to you while you just stood there.â
âI didnât know how to reactââ
âYou didnât say no,â he cut in sharply, stepping closer. âYou didnât push him away. You didnât even look surprised. Because part of you wanted it. You wanted him to say it.â
Your voice cracked, âThatâs not fairââ
âWhatâs not fair,â he said, voice rising now, âis that I let myself believe you were all in. I gave you everything. I loved you like Iâd never get the chance to again. And the whole time, you were still looking for a reason to run.â
His volume tipped just above what it should have. His voice didnât just rise â it hit.
And you flinched again, harder this time.
Not because he would hurt you. You knew he wouldnât.
But raised voices had never sat well with you. Not after what you grew up with. Not after the nights you pressed your hands over your ears and prayed for it to stop.
Bradley saw it the moment it happened.
The way your breath caught. The way your shoulders stiffened, instinct kicking in to shut down and protect.
He froze, instantly regretting everything.
âShit,â he said, softer now, but the damage had already sunk in.Â
You shook your head and took a step back, eyes glossy. You couldnât be here anymore. Not like this. You turned without a word and walked off the porch, fast. You didnât hear him call your name because you were already running.Â
He had every right to yell, every right to be angry but your instincts kicked in too fast.Â
You didnât know where you were going until you were standing in front of Jakeâs place.
And suddenly it was the only place you could go.
You knocked once, lightly.
The door opened slowly.
Jake blinked at you, clearly surprised. He looked you over â the flushed face, the trembling hands, the way your chest rose and fell too fast. He knew. He didnât have to ask.
You saw the wall go up behind his eyes. The way he almost turned you away. You saw him think it â Sheâs only here because she has nowhere else to go.
And maybe that was true.
But he didnât close the door.
Because Jake could be a lot of things â arrogant, sharp, selfish when he wanted to be â but cold wasnât one of them. Not when it came to you.
He stepped aside.
You walked in.
You didnât say a word.
Neither did he.
You sat on the edge of his couch. He grabbed a blanket from the other side and handed it to you silently before sinking into the armchair across from you. He didnât ask questions. He didnât press. He just⌠stayed.
The room was quiet. The only sound was the soft hum of the fridge in the kitchen and the buzz of the air conditioner kicking on.
The silence wasnât awkward. It wasnât heavy.
It was safe.
And somehow, that was all you needed tonight.
Because for the first time in weeks, your body stopped bracing for impact.
You didnât sleep that night â not really.
You dozed off sometime after midnight, curled under the blanket Jake gave you, the hum of silence louder than any conversation couldâve been. He didnât sit near you. He didnât even stay in the room. You heard him retreat to the kitchen at some point, maybe to give you space, maybe because he couldnât handle the closeness either.
When you finally left, it was just after sunrise.
You folded the blanket. Set it gently on the arm of the couch. You didnât leave a note. Didnât say thank you. You didnât want to turn this into something it wasnât.
And Jake?
He didnât come to the door. Didnât say goodbye.
You were grateful and heartbroken at the same time.
The days that followed passed in a haze. You went through the motions â drills, briefings, PT. You kept to yourself. The squad, bless them, said nothing, though you could feel the way they looked at you when they thought you werenât paying attention.
Bradley didnât speak to you. Not even in passing.
Jake didnât either.
It was like the night at his place never happened. Like it lived in a box you both refused to open.
And maybe that was for the best.
Maybe it had to stay that way.
Until a week later â when the new mission roster hit your inbox.
And there it was.
Your names next to each other. Dagger 2 and Dagger 3. That's all you were reduced to. A callsign and a number.Â
Your stomach dropped.
You stared at the screen, rereading the names over and over, like maybe theyâd rearrange themselves into something easier to swallow. Your cursor hovered over the âReplyâ button. Your mind scrambled for an excuse â pulled emergency leave, claimed mechanical issues, begged Warlock to reassign the pairing.
But you didnât.
You couldnât keep running.
So you swallowed the knot in your throat and showed up to pre-flight with your game face on.
Jake was already there, standing beside the jet with his helmet tucked under one arm, checking the chalked checklist without sparing you a glance.
You felt your skin prickle just being near him. Not because you were angry. Not even because you were nervous. But because the silence between you had shape now â weight and memory.
It knew things no one else did.
You cleared your throat. âIâm good to go.â
Jake nodded, jaw tight. âLetâs just do our job.â
No banter. No warmth. Nothing.
Not even the barest flicker of what used to sit between you.
You climbed into your cockpit and strapped in, forcing yourself to focus. To breathe. To fly. Because if there was one thing you still knew how to do, it was to survive in the sky â even when everything else in your life felt like it was crashing around you.
The canopy sealed. The world narrowed.
You and Jake â just miles of blue above and tension thick as gravity between.
And the mission hadnât even started yet.
You were in the air fifteen minutes when the comms crackled, his voice cutting through the static like a blade.
âBreak left, incoming bogey at seven.â
Just like that â instinct. Command. No hesitation.
âCopy.â
You yanked hard on the stick, pulling into the maneuver without thinking, body braced against the Gs. But it wasnât the sharpness of the turn or the angle of attack that made your pulse spike.
It was him.
Jakeâs plane slotted in behind you seamlessly, wings a shadow to your own. His movements were precise, in sync with yours in a way that only came from muscle memory and years of trust. It was effortless â a language built in the sky. The kind you didnât forget, even when everything else fell apart.
For a second, it was just like old times.
For a second, it almost felt like home.
But that illusion shattered the moment your boots hit the tarmac again.
The adrenaline crash hit you like a wave. You climbed down from the cockpit, unsteady, breath catching in your throat. You looked up just in time to see Jake walking away â helmet in one hand, shoulders squared, spine rigid.
You didnât even think. Just called out.
âJake.â
He didnât stop.
You tried again, louder, heart in your throat.
âJake, please.â
That stopped him. Just for a beat.
You jogged to catch up, footsteps echoing too loudly against the concrete. He stood still, back to you, head bowed like he didnât want you to see the expression on his face.
âI canât keep doing this,â you said, words spilling out. âPretending like nothing happened. Like you didnât change everything.â
He exhaled, a sharp, bitter sound. âI didnât change anything. I just told you the truth.â
âAnd Iâm trying to understand what that truth means for me,â you said, stepping in front of him, forcing him to look at you.
Jake finally lifted his head, eyes locking on yours â tired, guarded, angry. Wounded.
âFigure it out,â he said, voice flat. âThen come talk to me. Until then? Donât use me as your emotional fallout shelter.â
That hit deeper than you expected. You flinched like it was a slap.
âIâm not trying to use you,â you said, voice soft but urgent.
âBut thatâs what it feels like.â His voice cracked, and suddenly the edge wasnât anger â it was pain. âYou show up when youâre hurting. You fall apart in my arms and then walk away like it didnât mean anything. Like I donât mean anything.â
âI never meant toââ
âBut you did,â he cut in, tone sharp again. âAnd maybe you didnât realize it. Maybe you didnât see what it did to me. But Iâm not just some goddamn rebound.â
You felt your eyes sting, but you held his gaze.
âYou think Iâm gonna just wait around while you grieve a relationship I never had a shot against?â he asked, voice lower now, like it physically hurt him to say it.
You didnât know how to answer. Because he wasnât wrong.
Youâd clung to Bradley because he was easy, safe, known. And you hadnât even realized how deeply Jake had gotten under your skin until it was too late. Until he looked at you like this â like you broke something you didnât even know you were holding.
âI donât know what Iâm doing,â you finally admitted. âIâm just⌠trying to breathe.â
He nodded once. Like he understood. Like he hated that he did.
âI meant what I said,â Jake told you, voice quieter now, raw. âI love you. Iâm not gonna pretend I donât. But I canât keep tearing myself apart to be your second choice.â
Then he walked away.
And this time⌠you didnât stop him.
You just stood there, heart in your throat, hands shaking, wondering if maybe youâd finally broken the one person who never asked you to be anything other than exactly who you were.
That night, you drove to the beach.
You didnât plan it. You didnât pack a jacket or check the forecast. You just turned off your phone, pointed the car toward the coast, and let your instincts take over. The radio was silent. The only sound was the low hum of the engine and the thoughts clawing at your skull.
By the time you reached the shoreline, the sky had turned charcoal â the stars veiled by shifting clouds, the moon a pale glow above the waves. The wind pulled at your clothes, chilled your skin. You didnât care.
You stepped out of your car and walked barefoot across the cool sand, your shoes slung from your fingertips like dead weight. The ocean roared in the distance â chaotic and endless â and you walked straight toward it until the foam licked at your ankles and shells pierced into your feet, cold and sharp and grounding.
You stood there, motionless. Let the waves take what they wanted.
And in the stillness, your thoughts split in two.
You thought of Bradley â of the way he touched you like you might break, like you were something worth protecting. You remembered Sunday mornings cooking in his kitchen, his hands grazing your hips as he reached past you for the coffee, the soft hum of music on the record player, his lips against your temple. The way he whispered, âIâve got you,âand how, for a while, you believed him.
His love was gentle. Predictable. Safe.
And part of you ached for that. Ached for the comfort of it â for the stability you never had growing up, for the soft place to land you never knew you needed.
But then there was Jake.
Jake, who looked at you like you were made of fire and dared you to burn anyway. Who never gave you what you wanted without making you earn it, fight for it, prove yourself over and over until you believed you were worth it. Jake, who called you on your bullshit, who saw the darkness in you and didnât flinch.
His love wasnât quiet. It was a storm â reckless, consuming, real.
And you wanted that, too.
God, you wanted both.
You stood in the surf, staring into the black horizon, and felt the weight of your indecision crush you. Two men. Two loves. Two versions of yourself, depending on who you chose.
With Bradley, you were soft. You were held. With Jake, you were alive. You were seen.
And you? You were drowning somewhere in the middle, unsure of which version of yourself deserved to survive.
A tear slipped down your cheek.
Then another.
And for the first time in weeks, you didnât try to stop them. You let yourself cry â silently, hopelessly â as the wind whipped your hair and the sea threatened to pull you under.
You cried for everything youâd ruined.
For what you wanted and couldnât have.
For the two men who gave you pieces of themselves, and for the part of you that wondered if you were ever capable of giving something whole in return.
The ocean roared louder. The sky wept in your place.
And still, you stood there, ankle-deep in the surf, as the tide tried to take you â bit by bit â back to somewhere you couldnât name.
Your mind kept wandering â like it always did these days â backward.
You thought about the night you first kissed Bradley. How warm his apartment had been, lit only by the low flicker of a lamp and the soft sound of some old country spinning on vinyl. You had both been a little drunk on wine and comfort, laughter still caught in your chests. He leaned in like he already knew youâd say yes. And when he kissed you, it felt⌠safe. Like sinking into a warm bed at the end of a long day. Easy. Familiar.
He was like a Sunday morning â slow and soft, like nothing in the world could hurt you for a little while. And when you were with him, the rest of the world did fade away. He let you breathe. Let you rest.
You couldâve built a life there. You almost did.
Then your mind shifted, unbidden, to Jake.
To the first time he challenged you in the air, when he rolled his jet too close on a training flight and you cursed him through the comms. He just laughed. Called you "pretty killer" with that damn smirk and dared you to catch him. You did. Barely. But you never forgot how alive you felt chasing him through the clouds.
You remembered the night in the training room â the one where you nearly broke. Youâd sat on the bench, head in your hands, whispering that it was too much. That you werenât sure you were strong enough to keep doing this.
And he hadnât tried to fix it. He didnât offer you an escape.
Instead, he crouched in front of you, looked you dead in the eye, and said, âYouâre one of the best. You belong here. Donât let them make you forget that. And if you canât believe it yet â fine. Let me believe it for you until you do.â
He didnât coddle you. He fought for you.
With Jake, there was fire. There were sharp edges. There were sleepless nights and flushed cheeks and arguments that ended with both of you out of breath and hearts wide open. He didnât make it easy. And maybe that was the point.
With Jake, you earned your place. And somehow, that made it feel realer.
You looked down at your feet in the dark water, your jeans soaked halfway up your calves now. The ocean still pulled at you. But not as hard as the war in your chest.
Bradley had offered you a soft landing.Jake had dared you to fly higher.
And now, you stood somewhere in between â grounded in the sand, heart still hanging in the balance.
You werenât ready to choose. Not yet.
But when you closed your eyes, the last voice you heard wasnât Bradleyâs.
It was Jakeâs.
Low and fierce and unshakable.
âLet me help you be better.â
And maybe⌠just maybe⌠that was the kind of love you needed now.
Not comfort. Not rest.
But resurrection.
The Dagger squad had never been quieter.
Briefings were mechanical now. Eyes flicking between files and screens, no one daring to linger too long on anything â or anyone. You sat in the corner of the room, silent, tension bleeding from your shoulders like an open wound. Jake sat across from you, jaw locked, gaze glued to the floor. Bradley didnât even look your way.
The air was thick, humming with a silence that was somehow louder than any shouting match.
You used to joke, used to laugh, used to fly like you were part of a living, breathing machine. Now, you were fragments. Pieces barely holding shape.
When the roster for the day went up and your name was paired with Bradleyâs, the breath caught in your throat.
You didnât look at him. He didnât look at you.
Just a muttered, âCopy that,â as he stood and walked out.
The flight started fine. At least on paper.
You kept it clean, stayed in formation, hit every mark. But there was no rhythm. No flow. Bradley moved a second ahead of your instincts, and you lagged just a second behind his â which, for pilots like you, was an eternity. The comms were clipped, tension breaking through even in the way you said âCopy.â A small error in formation â barely noticeable â turned into a correction, which turned into overcorrection.
And then⌠radio silence.
You landed with your hands trembling slightly on the stick, your heart hammering against your ribcage. As the canopy opened and the dry heat hit your face, you pulled off your helmet and stared straight ahead. You didnât move. Didnât breathe.
But Bradley did.
He was already out of the jet, helmet under his arm, striding toward you like a storm was about to break.
âSeriously?â he snapped the moment your boots hit the tarmac. âWhat the hell was that?â
You didnât answer. Couldnât. You just stood there, eyes fixed on the ground.
âDo you even want to be up there?â he bit out. âBecause if not, say something. Donât make me look like a goddamn idiot in the sky!â
You flinched.
He was yelling. Not loud, but sharp. Bitter. The kind of yelling that was full of hurt dressed as anger.
âBradleyââ you tried, barely above a whisper.
âNo. No, donât Bradley me,â he cut you off, stepping closer. âYou checked out the moment this started. You didnât want to fly with me? Fine. Say it. But donât jeopardize the flight just because you donât know what the hell you want!â
That did it. Your vision blurred instantly. You clenched your fists, trying to will the tears away, but they were already tracking down your cheeks before you could stop them.
âIâm sorry,â you said, voice cracking.
He blinked â surprised, maybe, that you didnât argue. That you werenât fighting him the way you used to.
That you just stood there. And took it.
You could see it the moment regret hit him, see how the rage in his chest wavered when he really looked at you â really saw the tears slipping down your face, how small and still you stood.
But it was too late.
âBradley,â a voice called out behind him â maybe Coyote, maybe Mav â and a firm hand pulled him away before more damage could be done.
You didnât watch him walk off.
You couldnât.
You ducked behind the nearest jet, collapsed against the cool metal, and broke.
Your sobs were silent, shaky, body curled inward like maybe, if you folded in on yourself tightly enough, youâd disappear.
It was your fault. All of it. He was angry because of you. Hurt because of you. The squad walked on eggshells because of the crater you had created in the middle of them.
But even as you cried, another truth came bleeding through the cracks.
You werenât crying because of the fight. You were crying because somewhere deep down, you had made your choice.
You wanted Jake.
Not just the fire. Not just the thrill. But the way he saw you. The way he pushed you when the world made you small. The way he made you feel like you could take a beating from life and still stand taller than before.
And you were ready to fight for that. For him.
And that's why you didnât fight Bradley back.Â
But when you looked up, wiping your face with shaking hands, your breath caught again.
Because Jake was standing on the far side of the tarmac.
He had seen it.
All of it.
His eyes met yours â far, but not far enough to miss the tears, the shuddering chest, the apology written all over your face.
And for a split second, it looked like he might come to you.
But he didnât.
He just stood there, frozen in the moment, torn in half â the part of him that wanted to run to you was battling the part that didnât know if he was still welcome. Still wanted.
And when he finally turned away, walking off without a wordâŚ
It shattered something in you.
But it also settled something too.
Because now you knew â really knew â who you couldnât live without.
And this time, you werenât going to run from it.
It had been another week.Another week of silent glances and unfinished thoughts. Jake didnât speak to you. Not during briefings. Not during drills. Not even when the two of you passed in the hallway, shoulder to shoulder, like strangers in a place that used to feel like home.
You were slowly breaking from the weight of it all â of him â pressing in your chest.
Bradley didnât say much, either. But the way his eyes slid off you like water on glass made it clear: the damage was done. Irreparable or not, it had changed something between you.
And Jake⌠he didnât even look at you anymore.
You tried not to resent it. You really did.
But the more you thought about him â about how he held your career and your heart with equal weight, how he never treated you like something fragile or too delicate â the more it hurt to be on the outside of it.
He hadnât turned away from you on the tarmac because he didnât care.
He did it because he did.
You knew that now.
You knew what you wanted â who you wanted.
And it terrified you.
But not more than losing him for good.
So when the sun dipped low behind the hangars one night and you saw Jake in the distance by the training deck â leaning against the railing, arms crossed, looking like the wind might knock him over â you finally gathered the pieces of yourself.
And you walked toward him.
Slow. Steady. Determined.
He heard your footsteps and turned, stiffening immediately.
âNot now,â he said, low and tired. âI donât have the energy for this.â
âI know,â you replied. âBut I need to say it anyway.â
Jake turned away, eyes on the horizon. âDonât make this harder than it has to be.â
âIâm not trying to,â you said gently, stopping beside him. âIâm trying to be honest. For the first time in a long time.â
He didnât respond. But he didnât walk away, either.
So you took a breath and began.
âYou make me better, Jake. Not because you praise me. Not because you fix me. But because you push me. You believe in me â more than Iâve ever believed in myself. You make me fight for what I want. You make me work. And I like that. I need that.â
His jaw clenched, but still, he didnât move.
âI thought love was supposed to be easy. I thought it meant safety and softness and never having to try. But you taught me something else â that the right kind of love doesn't coddle. It challenges. It lifts. It demands you grow, not because you're not good enough, but because you're already great, and someone sees that.â
You blinked hard, the emotion rising faster than you could contain.
âI wouldnât be here if it wasnât for you, Jake,â you whispered. âNot in this squad. Not in this place. You pulled me out of one of the darkest times in my life and reminded me of who I was. You never let me give up. You saw me slipping and you didnât let me fall.â
He exhaled, shoulders rising with it like the weight was physically painful.
âI donât want someone who gives me love like itâs an obligation,â you continued, voice thick. âI want someone who sees me. Who expects me to show up for myself. Who loves me and my ambition. And thatâs you. Thatâs always been you.â
Jakeâs eyes flicked to yours â glassy, stormy, full of the kind of ache that didnât go away with time.
âBut Iâm broken right now,â you said, voice trembling. âIâm not whole. Iâm still bleeding from what happened. And I donât want to drag you through that. You donât deserve to carry my weight.â
Jake swallowed, throat bobbing, his silence saying more than words could.
âI want to choose you,â you admitted, stepping closer. âAnd I will. I am. Not because I have nothing left, not because youâre my last option, but because youâre everything I want and Iâm scared I saw that too late. But not until I can give you everything. Not until Iâm steady on my own again. Because you deserve all of me. Not a half-formed version thatâs still haunted by someone elseâs ghost.â
Jake looked at you like he wanted to reach out, to touch you, to say something â but his hands stayed at his sides. His mouth opened, then closed.
âI just needed you to know,â you finished softly. âEven if you hate me. Even if itâs too late. I needed you to hear it.â
The silence that followed was long and heavy. The sun finally dipped below the edge of the base, casting long shadows across the flight deck. You waited for a word â a reaction â anything.
But Jake just stared ahead again.
You nodded once, feeling the tear slip down your cheek.
âOkay,â you whispered. âOkay.â
And you turned to leave â your chest cracked open but your soul, for once, lighter.
You had said it. All of it. And now, it was his turn.
The knock on Bradleyâs door echoed louder than you expected. Your knuckles stung from how tightly your hand had been clenched the whole drive over. You hadnât realized you were holding your breath until you exhaled, shaky and uncertain.
The porch light flickered above you. You knew this house like the back of your hand â had laughed in this driveway, kissed him in the glow of that bulb on more than one late night. You remembered the smell of his detergent on your clothes, the familiar hum of his record player behind easy dinners, the feel of his arms around you when the world felt like too much.
Now you felt like a stranger.
You adjusted your jacket. Clutched your phone tight like it might anchor you.
You werenât sure what you were going to say â not exactly. You had gone over it in your head a hundred times on the drive: âYou didnât deserve the way this happened.ââI never wanted to hurt you.ââYou were my safe place, but Jake⌠Jake lit a fire I didnât know I needed.ââI did love you. Maybe I still do. But not the way you deserve.â
Each version felt like peeling skin from a wound still raw.
But the truth was, you owed him this.
You owed him your honesty.
You owed yourself the closure.
Your fingers trembled as you reached up and knocked again. One soft tap. One breath.
The door opened.
Bradley stood there, backlit and unreadable â eyes tired, jaw tense, like the past few weeks had aged him by years. You swallowed hard.
âHey,â you said, voice barely above a whisper.
He didnât move.
You took a small step forward, heart hammering.
âI think we need to talk.â
He didnât answer. Just stepped aside.
You walked in.
And the door closed behind you.
You stood in the middle of the living room, the same room where you used to sit with your legs over his lap, laughing at old movies, stealing kisses between bites of takeout.
Now you stood there like a guest. Like an intruder.
Bradley didnât sit. He stayed by the door, arms crossed over his chest, like he wasnât sure if he could trust himself to get closer.
You turned to face him slowly, your voice catching before it even came out.
âI owe you an apology,â you started softly.
His jaw ticked, but he said nothing.
âI didnât mean for any of this to happen. I wasnât planning it. I didnât⌠I didnât know I still had those feelings for Jake until they hit me in the face. And by then, it was already too late.â
âToo late for what?â he said sharply. âToo late to not rip my heart out?â
You flinched.
He sighed immediately, scrubbing a hand over his face. âShit. Iâm sorry. That wasnât fair.â
âNo,â you whispered. âIt was.â
There was a beat of silence before you continued.
âYouâve always been good to me, Bradley. So good. Safe. Solid. And I thought⌠I thought that was what love was supposed to be. Simple. Easy. Something that didnât make my heart race in fear or uncertainty. I wanted that. Needed it, even.â
His eyes dropped to the floor.
âAnd I do love you. That hasnât changed. Butââ
âBut you donât love me like you love him.â
Your heart cracked a little deeper. âNo. I donât.â
He swallowed hard, and you could see the sheen in his eyes â the hurt he was trying so hard not to show. He nodded once, slow and resigned.
âI gave you everything,â he said, voice rough. âI thought that would be enough.â
âIt was,â you said quickly, stepping closer. âFor a while. But Jake⌠he didnât just love me. He challenged me. He pushed me to be better. He reminded me that I donât have to choose between being loved and being strong.â
Bradley looked up, finally meeting your eyes. âAnd I didnât?â
âNo,â you whispered. âYou did. But it wasnât your fault. I got too comfortable. I let myself become someone who stopped growing. And you kept loving me anyway.â
âI wouldâve kept loving you forever.â
âI know,â you said, tears brimming. âThatâs what makes this so hard.â
Silence again.
You stepped back, letting the space between you stretch and settle.
âIâm sorry for how it ended. For how I hurt you. That was never what I wanted.â
He nodded once. âI believe you.â
You turned toward the door, heart breaking all over again.
âI hope one day youâll forgive me. But I understand if you donât.â
Bradley didnât stop you. Didnât ask you to stay. He just said, quiet and tired:
âTake care of yourself.â
You paused in the doorway. Took one last look back at the man who had held you gently, who had never once asked you to be anything but soft.
The door clicked shut behind you, and for a long moment, you just stood there on the porch.
You didnât cry. You didnât move. You just breathed.
In.
Out.
Your chest still hurt, but the weight pressing against it had shifted â not gone, but different now. It wasnât the ache of confusion or guilt or being torn in two. It was the ache of mourning something you had to let go of.
You had finally told the truth. And somehow, in the stillness that followed, you felt like you could breathe again.
But God, it hurt.
Then you left.
And the chapter closed.
The days that followed were strange.
Not easier. Just... quieter.
You didnât text Jake. Didnât try to see him.
Youâd made your choice â but now you had to sit with it. Had to let him decide what he wanted in return.
And so, you gave him space.
Two weeks passed.
The ache in your chest dulled into something more bearable. You still caught yourself looking for Bradley out of habit â across the hangar, in the ready room, during takeoff. But the ache of missing him had shifted too. It wasnât longing anymore. It was love, still â but love accepted. Love released.
And work, slowly, got better.
You started flying sharper again. Cleaner. Your confidence came back â not all at once, but little by little. You smiled more in the mornings. You joked with Fanboy and Bob at the coffee machine. You let Phoenix drag you into conversation at lunch. You didnât have to fake your laughs anymore â not all the time.
You were taking care of yourself.
Not perfectly. But better.
You started sleeping again. Started eating better. Started trying again.
And though Jake hadnât said a word to you since that day on the tarmac â not even a nod in your direction â you caught him watching sometimes. Just quick glances across the hangar, lingering half-seconds during drills. Never long enough to mean something. Never short enough to mean nothing.
And you didnât push. You didnât chase.
Because this time, he had to come to you. If he wanted to.
So you waited â not with desperation, but with quiet, hopeful stillness.
And somewhere in the middle of all that silence⌠You started becoming yourself again.
He saw you before you saw him.
From across the tarmac. On the catwalk. In the hangar. Always there â always just out of reach.
And you looked... lighter. Not happy, not yet. But lighter. You weren't wearing that same grief on your face anymore. The smile you gave Fanboy over coffee one morning made something twist in Jakeâs gut. Not out of jealousy â not really. Just that aching reminder that he wasnât the reason you smiled like that. Not anymore.
He knew you had talked to Bradley. Word got around.
Jake hadnât asked what happened. Didnât want to.
He told himself he needed space â you needed space. But the truth?
He was afraid.
Afraid heâd mean too much and still not be chosen. Afraid he was the choice and would still somehow fall short. Afraid of holding your heart and finding out it was only half full.
So he waited.
He watched.
And in the quiet corners of his mind, he relived every moment with you. The arguments. The tension. The night you cried in his arms without saying a word. The way you looked when you first confessed how he made you feel â that you wanted to earn his love, not just be handed it.
God, he wanted to hold onto that.
Heâd spent so long pretending he didnât care. Telling himself that staying distant protected you both.
But every day you stood taller, every time you laughed again â something inside him cracked a little more.
You were healing. And he wasnât part of it.
Until one afternoon, when he saw you walking the flight line alone, sunset bleeding orange across the sky.
You looked over your shoulder â not at anything, just in thought â and something in him snapped.
Jake found you the next night.
Not in some grand, dramatic moment. Not with some perfect line ready. Just⌠him. Just you. Just everything they'd been holding back.
You were sitting on the hood of your car just outside base, legs pulled to your chest, staring up at the stars like You could decode the whole goddamn universe if You stared long enough.
He cleared his throat as he walked up. âHey.â
You looked at him â tired, cautious, but not angry. âHey.â
Jake didnât speak right away. He stood a few feet away, hands on his hips, heart thudding so loud he thought you might hear it.
âIâve been giving you space,â You said after a moment.
âI noticed.â
You looked down at your hands. âDidnât know if you wanted it.â
âI didnât know either.â
Silence.
He gave you a long look, like he was trying to read every fracture in your chest.
âYou seem better,â he said.
âIâm working on it.â
âYou talked to him?â
You nodded. âTold him everything. Told him I loved him. But not the way he deserved. Not the way IâŚâ You faltered. âNot the way I love you.â
Jakeâs expression didnât change, but his posture did. Shoulders lifted. Jaw clenched a little harder.
âIâm still not whole,â You said. âIâm still messed up about a lot. Iâve got things I need to fix â in myself, with Bradley, with everything. And I donât want to drag you into that if I canât give you all of me.â
He stepped a little closer. Not much. Just enough.
âIâm not asking for perfect,â he said.
âNo,â You whispered. âBut I am.â
You looked at him now, really looked at him. His tired eyes, his messy hair, the tension in his stance.
âI love you, Jake,â You said. âBecause you never let me settle. Because you see me for who I am â and who I could be. You didnât fall in love with some version of me you made up. You fell in love with the mess and the fire and the fight. You saw it all and you still believed in me.â
He swallowed hard, his throat working around the emotion.
âYou make me feel like I earned something. Like I worked for love and it meant something. Like I can stand next to you, not behind you. And Iâve never had that before.â
You stood now, standing eye to eye with him under the moonlight.
âI want that. I want you. But not if Iâm going to drag you down while Iâm still finding my footing. You deserve more than half of someone. So if you need to walk away right now, Iâll get it. I really will.â
Jake looked at you for a long, silent moment.
Then he shook his head.
âIâve waited this long,â he said hoarsely. âI can wait a little more.â
And for the first time in weeks, You smiled a true, genuine smile â not because everything was fixed, but because You finally felt strong enough to believe it could be.
Things didnât change overnight. But they did change.
It started in the air.
The first time you and Jake got paired for a flight again, there was no tension in the comms. Just quiet focus, a steady rhythm â the same way it had always been when things were good.
Jakeâs voice came through your headset, calm and familiar. âYouâve got a bandit on your six â let him chase you.â
âCopy that. You going to bail me out?â
âWouldnât dream of it.â
There was a grin in his voice. And this time, you smiled too.
After that, the space between you began to shrink. At work, you didnât avoid each other. You spoke during briefings, shared a laugh when Phoenix made some sarcastic remark. He nudged your shoulder in the hallway once. You bumped his boots with yours the next day.
No grand declarations. No dramatic gestures. Just⌠rebuilding. Quiet. Steady. Earned.
He helped you review footage after drills. Gave you notes, but softer now â not because he was holding back, but because he was holding you up.
One afternoon, you walked into the hangar to find him leaning against your jet, arms crossed, posture easy in that way only Jake could pull off.
âLooking for me?â you asked, teasing.
Jake tilted his head. âMaybe.â
You stopped in front of him, arms folded, heart pounding the way it always did when he looked at you like that â like you were made of wildfire and gravity.
âIâve been thinking,â he said.
âDangerous,â you replied.
He smirked, then softened.
âYou said you love me because I push you. Because I donât coddle you. Because I lift you up when you canât do it alone.â
You nodded slowly, your throat already tightening.
âWell,â he said, standing up straighter, voice lower now, more vulnerable, âI want to keep doing that. Even if youâre not whole yet. Even if youâre still figuring it out.â
You didnât move. Didnât breathe.
âI donât need you to be perfect,â Jake said, stepping closer, his words gentle. âI just need you to let me be there. For the good days, the brutal ones. I donât want to be some prize you feel like you have to earn. I just want to be someone you lean on. Thatâs what love is to me.â
You couldnât speak â not yet. The feeling in your chest was too much, but it wasnât pain anymore. It was release. It was clarity.
âIâm not running anymore,â you said quietly. âIâm tired of running.â
He smiled â soft, real. âThen stay. Right here.â
So you did.
You stayed through the days that followed. Through the early mornings, the mission drills, the long hours in the hangar where he leaned over your shoulder during film review just to be close.
You didnât rush anything. You didnât need to. Because every look said it.
He brushed your hand once after a post-flight debrief. You didnât pull away. You brought him coffee the next day and waited quietly by his locker. He took it without saying a word.
It wasnât a fairytale. But it was love. The kind you worked for. The kind you chose.
And for the first time, you werenât drowning between two versions of yourself. You were just⌠you. Strong. Healing. Home.
And Jake?
Jake finally had you â not as a broken piece or a backup plan. But as something steady. Something real.
And he never let you fall again.
A small little bonus scene for waiting so long for part 3 <3
The sun was setting behind the hangar, spilling warm gold across the tarmac. The kind of light that made everything look softer â even steel, even warplanes, even Jake Seresin.
You sat on the hood of his truck, legs stretched out, boots unlaced and dusty from the day. The air smelled like salt and jet fuel, the ocean just down the road humming quietly in the background. Your hair was still pulled back from the last flight, and Jakeâs hoodie hung loosely off your frame â one youâd stolen months ago and never gave back.
Jake leaned against the passenger door beside you, sipping from a Gatorade bottle, glancing at you every so often like he couldnât quite believe you were real. Or still here. Or his.
You caught him staring and raised an eyebrow.
âWhat?â
He shook his head. âNothing.â
âJake,â you warned, a smile teasing your lips.
He grinned, then turned fully toward you, one arm draped lazily over the hood behind you.
âI just⌠I donât know. You ever look at someone and think, âGoddamn, I really thought I lost youâ?â
Your throat tightened.
You looked down at your hands for a second, then back up at him. âYeah,â you whispered. âEvery day.â
There wasnât any sadness in it now. Just truth. Gratitude. A kind of peace that only came after the storm.
He leaned in slowly, pressing a kiss to your temple â soft, reverent. Like he was still scared to wake up from this.
And you let yourself lean into him, just for a moment. Let yourself breathe.
âYouâre different now,â he murmured against your hair.
You nodded. âI know.â
âYouâre stronger.â
You looked up at him, eyes soft. âSo are you.â
He gave a small laugh. âGuess weâre a hell of a pair.â
âGuess so.â
The sky burned pink and orange above you as the world went quiet. No pressure. No drama. Just the calm of knowing youâd made it â bruised, maybe, but not broken.
And you had him. And he had you.
No more chasing. No more proving. Just love â the kind you chose, and kept choosing, every damn day.
Another one because I can
The house wasnât big. Just a small place near the coast, not too far from the base. You could still hear the jets if the wind carried right. Jake insisted that was a plus â âlike a lullaby,â heâd joked, his arms around you, chin on your shoulder the day you signed the lease.
There were always dishes in the sink and sand on the floor, and you didnât mind. Life had never been this quiet for you, but that didnât mean it was boring.
Jake still flew like he had something to prove â but when he came home now, it wasnât with tension in his shoulders or distance in his eyes. It was with sunburnt cheeks and a smirk that made your stomach flutter no matter how many times you saw it.
You had your own routines. You still got up early to run, still kept your boots by the door, still cursed the occasional bad debrief. But the heaviness that used to sit in your chest was gone. Replaced by something quieter. More certain.
You didnât need him to complete you. But God, he made everything feel more alive.
He was in the kitchen now â cooking something that definitely smelled burnt. You watched him from the hallway, barefoot in his faded Navy tee, talking to the dog like she was an old friend.
âI donât know what she sees in me either,â he said to her, crouching down to ruffle her ears. âSheâs smarter, funnier, better looking. Probably couldâve run circles around me in the air if I let her.â
You leaned against the doorframe.
âShe still could,â you teased.
Jake looked up, startled, then grinned. âJesus, youâre stealthy.â
âIâm literally walking down a hardwood hallway.â
He straightened and crossed the kitchen to you. âStill. Youâve got that sneaky thing going.â
You looped your arms around his waist, his body familiar and warm under your touch. âYouâre getting soft, Hangman.â
He raised an eyebrow. âI let you sneak up on me. It's romantic.â
You rolled your eyes, but your chest ached with something tender. He leaned in and kissed your forehead, and for a moment â there was nothing else. No noise. No ghosts. Just now.
âHey,â he said quietly. âAre you happy?â
You pulled back just far enough to meet his eyes.
âYeah,â you said. âIâm really happy.â
Jake smiled then â not cocky, not performative, just real. The kind of smile that made you want to stay in that kitchen for the rest of your life.
And you would.
Because you had fought for this. For each other. And this time, no one was walking away.
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Jake 'Hangman' Seresin x Female Reader
Explicit, obviously. MDNI!
WC: 10k, sorry it's a long one!
Warnings: SMUT. SMUT. mentions of cheating, divorce, arguing, sexual shaming, sexual healing?
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You watched for a few moments, knowing he was oblivious to your hard stare. You watched as his hands wrapped around her waist. You watched as she giggled and wrapped her hands around the back of his neck. You averted your gaze as they kissed.Â
You went home and grabbed only essentials and begged a friend to stay at their house for a few days while you sorted out your brain. They obliged after you told them what happened, but they couldn't seem to believe it either.Â
When you didn't come home that night, he called, panicked.Â
âI had an overnight at work. I told you the other day.â You said and he scoffed.Â
âGuess I'll see you tomorrow then.â He murmured and hung up the phone.Â
And the next day you got a call from the girl in the office at your husband's workplace.Â
âI saw him this morning getting coffee with Alina. They were holding hands and she kissed him.â
You thanked her for telling you. You took a personal day and moved the rest of your stuff out, but made sure you were there to confront him. You regretted that immediately.
âI've been seeing her for about two months. She needed a friend when she started there and you claim to be busy at work all the time lately. We never have sex anymore. I heard you with the fucking vibrator in the shower. I'm so bad that you'd rather a dildo? Are you fucking kidding me?â His words were full of malice.Â
âYou haven't made me come in months. I've been working my ass off to try to give you extra money to put for a down payment. I'm exhausted. I can barely afford to pay my own bills.âÂ
âWell that's your problem. You don't have a real job so why would you expect to make real money.â He said and you shook your head.
âI'm sick of your shit. You cheating was just the icing on the bullshit cake you've been feeding me. I'll send you the divorce papers.â You said, turning and walking out of the apartment with the last of your bags.Â
It would be nice for you to enjoy a week away from home and not have to think about anything except how you couldn't really afford to take a week off. You'd have to find a new place to live when you got home, feeling horrible that you'd be shacked up at a friend's for nearly two months.Â
You'd saved up a bit and it would be enough for a couple of months rent, but you'd still need to work your ass off to live on your own. You'd thought about finding someone to rent with but who? All of your friends at home were in relationships.Â
As you and Patrick headed to the parking lot and put your bags into the back of his shitty old Rav 4, you did take a deep breath. You were fascinated as you watched the city pass by out the window and then it turned over into desert before arriving at the on base housing at Fightertown.Â
Patrick had a cute little cottage, just a few rooms split between two floors. You put your bags down in the spare room on the first floor. He didn't have another bed, but you assured him the couch would be just fine for the week.Â
âJust like high school, right?â He asked, remembering simpler times when you crashed on each other's couches after long nights of studying and talking about which boys were the cutest and which were just plain jerks. Patrick settled on the couch next to you for a minute, putting an arm around your shoulders. âI'm so happy you could come out. I think it'll be good for you to get away. And my parents couldn't make it so you're my chaperone at the bars when we go, okay?âÂ
âYeah, I don't drink remember?â You said and he nodded.
âI know, I'll try to contain myself, but I know there's some hot pilots in town this week too.â He said, wiggling his eyebrows. You smacked him gently.
âI'm not dating yet.â You murmured and he bumps your shoulder with his.
âYeah. But you can still look. Maybe talk. Maybe kiss? Maybe fuck?â He chided and you couldn't help but smack him again.Â
âStop it!â You yell, pushing him. He falls to the cushions with laughter and you can't help but think of how much you missed him all these years and how easy your friendship had been back then. When everything was simpler.
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You get dressed that night, ready to head out to his favorite bar and one that apparently the entire Navy touted about. You put on a cute number, a long floral patterned dress, a dark teal undertone and a little bit of skin showing at your sides and your upper back, down to a vee that fastened just above your tailbone. You wore flats, not heels. You didn't want to stand in heels all night, as apparently this place got busy quickly and you probably wouldn't be guaranteed a table.Â
Patrick dressed in his Navy standard khakis with his new rank badge on. Captain Patrick McLaighan. It sounded pretty nice to him, and when his friends all shouted his callsign âIrishâ as he entered, it brought a wide smile to your face.Â
You were unbelievably happy for him. He worked his way through the ranks and finally got the promotion that he had always been hoping for, despite being bullied for his choice in a partner.
Now if only you could get to a place where you were that happy again.
You stood at the bar, waiting for your Coca-Cola and Patrick's Moscow Mule. You turn, glancing around, surveying, when a pretty, tall, and broad shouldered blond man walks up, placing his hands on the bar for a moment before turning to face you. He motions for three beers to the bartender, then smirks at you.Â
âHey. I'm Jake.â He nods, reaching out to shake your hand. You oblige and introduce yourself. He smiled when you said your name.Â
âPretty name for a pretty lady.â He leaned on an elbow on the bar as the bartender placed his beers in front of him.Â
âThanks...I guess.â You said, taking a deep breath. You glanced back over at Patrick, who was dancing next to his boyfriend.
âAre you new in town? Never seen you before.â Jake asked, not even touching his beers. You pursed your lips.
âJust visiting a friend.â You said, studying the man as he did the same to you. He also wore Navy standard khakis and you recognized that he was a Lieutenant Commander. His badge said âSeresinâ and you rolled the name around your brain for a few moments before his voice met your ears again.
âAh, boyfriend. Right? Or maybe husband?â He asked, seemingly defeated as he grabbed all three beers.Â
âNo actually. Just a good, old friend. He got promoted. He's over with his boyfriend and friends. I was just grabbing him another drink.â You explained as the bartender placed your coke and Patrick's drink down for you to take. Jake's smirk returned then.
âBut you're not single.â He half asked, half stated and you nodded.
âJust divorced actually. I know, red flag .â You said, smiling and rolling your eyes. Jake chuckled.
âNot the worst red flag. Maybe I'll see you around.â Jake said, tipping his head and wading back through the crowd to his friends. You made your way back to Patrick. He put his arm around your shoulders as he slipped his drink and his friends all began to sing something about a drunken sailor. You just simply went along with it, taking in the merriment of the evening.Â
At some point the party atmosphere died down and many of the other sailors dispersed. You had finally been able to sit down. You glanced at your phone. You had four texts and eighteen Facebook notifications.
Ex-Husband: i cant believe you put it on facebookÂ
Ex-Husband: thats so embarrassing why would you do that to me
Ex-Husband: everyone is asking me what I did wrong
Ex-Husband: its unreal how you always get everyone on your sideÂ
You werenât even going to dignify that with an answer. He knew exactly what he did wrong. He was just trying to get you to text him back.
Facebook: 18 likes on your relationship status, 3 comments
Jenny commented: good for you hun đÂ
Kallie commented: what the fuck happened???
Nancy (your mom) commented: sad its over but happy you can make new memories love you
You groaned and placed your phone face down then rubbed your hands over your face. You felt weight next to you on the bench seat, and a loud creak of the leather and wood along with it. You expected Patrick to sling his arm around your shoulders again but when he didnât you glanced out from behind your hands.
âYou okay?â It was Jake. Jake that you met earlier. Jake Seresin. Lieutenant Commander Jake Seresin. You waved a hand dismissively.
âFine. None of your business.â You said sharply. His brows knitted and he moved off the seat, holding his hands up defensively.Â
âSorry. Won't bother you again.â He murmured, a faint and playful smirk still on his lips, hoping that you didn't mean it. You didn't.
âNo wait! I'm sorry. I'm just...â You sighed heavily.Â
âStressed? You seem stressed. I know we don't know each other but if you'd like to talk to an unbiased party...I'm your man.â Jake interrupted softly, offering his support, something that not many people had been willing to give.Â
âYeah?â You perked up a bit, his smile winning you over in the end.
âLay it on me.â He sat, sitting back down next to you.
You swallowed hard, giving him only so much detail, just the bare bones that he needed to understand what had happened. When you finished, he blew air from his lips and folded his arms across his chest.
âYou know what I think? Your ex sounds like a dick. I don't know you but from what you said it seems like you were doing the best you could and he couldn't or wouldn't see it no matter what. You deserve a lot better, sweetheart.â Jake said, placing his hand over yours gingerly, testing the waters. You allowed it, allowed the comfort he was providing, and you both stared at each other for a few moments, soaking in the seemingly quiet moment you shared. You noticed the green in his eyes, a sagey but bright color flecked with gold that seemed to sparkle even more as he stared at you. He was looking at you, really looking at you, not through you, like your ex would.Â
You pulled your hand away and smiled weakly. âI appreciate you taking my side. It wouldâve been nice to have that a couple of months ago.â You said softly, folding your arms across your chest. You leaned back and Jake placed his arm across the back of the bench, fingers only inches from your shoulders, never touching, just waiting.
âI see youâve met Hangman.â You heard Patrickâs voice over the lessening din of the bar as it cut through the moment you and Jake were settled in.Â
âThat your callsign?â You asked, smirking at him. Jake nodded.
âYeah and maybe Iâll tell you how I got it over dinner.â Jake mused, leaving a card on the table as he retreated. Patrick sat down next to you, a wide smirk on his face.Â
âThat is a prime specimen and if you donât at least fuck him while youâre here, youâre nuts.â Patrick said with a lilt of humor in his voice. You nudged him, watching as Jake made his way out of the bar, letting a last glance fall upon you. He smiled and saluted you. You tipped your head, acknowledging him. You did hope you'd see him again.
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This time you wore a pretty lavender colored dress, flowy in the skirt and a plain cotton material with a vee neck and short sleeves. Patrick's official ceremony was today, where he would get a service medal for his last deployment and his new rank announced in front of a group of his peers.Â
You sat in the back of the crowd, simply there to support. When the ceremony was over, and he was conversing with his friends, fellow sailors and pilots, and his superiors, you decided to sneak off and try to find a bathroom. You had to pee. Bad. Making your way through double doors, you came to a foyer, a large entry way with pictures, of several higher ranking officers and candid moments from deployments.
As you peruse the photos, you forget about the bathroom. You smiled as you took in the memories displayed, but heard booted footsteps behind you.Â
âLong time no see.â It was Jake. You did a double take. He was in his Navy standard khakis, hands folded behind his back as he strode up, a smirk painting his lips. He looked clean cut and well put together, even though he had looked that way the other night too. Without the haze of alcohol, without the noise and excitement of the bar, he looked handsome. He was handsome.
âI was looking for the bathroom.â You said sheepishly, glancing around. Jake chuckled and pointed down a hall to where there was a restroom sign. You sighed.
âYou look beautiful.â He said softly, stepping closer. Your cheeks heated and you fidgeted with your fingers.
âHow long are you here for?â You asked, brows furrowing.Â
âFew months. On a break before my next deployment.â He murmured, leaning against the wall casually. He smirked. âYou?â
âJust the week.â You said. He shook his head.
âDo you even want to go back? It didn't sound like you wanted to last night.â He asked. You shrugged.
âI have to.â You said, almost dejected.
âYou don't have to.â He grinned.
âI can't afford to stay out here.â You said, folding your arms across your chest. Jake blew air from his lips and bounced off the wall.
âThat's unfortunate because I'd love to get to know you better.â He said, stepping in closer to you. You took a shaky breath.
âYou would?â You asked, backing into the wall behind you. You felt heat pool lower and your lips parted.Â
âI would.â He placed a hand by your head on the wall and leaned in even closer. Your hands met his chest, stopping him from getting any closer.Â
âI've never done this before.â You said, your voice cracking with emotion, thinking of your ex. Goddamn him.
âBeen interested in a guy after a break up?â Jake asked, voice softer than you expected.
âNo...been divorced...thinking about moving on so quickly. I don't know how to do this.â You murmured. Jake reached up, brushing his thumb against your cheek, wiping away the tear that you hadn't even realized had escaped.Â
âHow about you just let yourself feel something other than guilt? What he did wasn't your fault.â Jake's voice was low but almost...reassuring.
âThen why does it feel like it is?â You asked, as if you're begging him to have the answer.
âBecause you weren't given closure and you didn't deserve not having that either.â Jake wiped another tear away, then cupped your cheek.
âWhat do you think I deserve?â You asked, your voice beginning to shatter like glass, just like your emotions. Your fingers claw at his shirt, as if they were grasping for that closure in him.
âA second chance.â He said, his lips now only inches from yours. Your breath quickened and he watched as your eyes darted from his to his lips and back.
âYou're just trying to get into my panties.â You offered but he shot it down immediately.
âI'm not. Give me a chance to show you.â He pleads softly.Â
âWhat by taking me to dinner?â You asked, nearly scoffing. Dinner was the oldest trick in the book and you were tired of it.
âNo, something different.â He said, staying in your space. You let him.
âLike?â
âGive me your number and I'll text you tomorrow with plans.â He said and you hesitate, one, two, three beats before holding out your hand. He gives you his phone and you put it under âeast coast girlâ with an anchor emoji. He smirks when he sees it. He drums his fingers on the wall and then pushes away from you. He winks and backs away, nearly hitting the opposite wall as he leaves, making you giggle at how silly he looked.Â
Your heart sounded in your chest, excitedly by the thought of trying something new with someone new.Â
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Jake shoots you a text in the morning just like he said he would. That makes your heart flutter again.
Hot Pilot Jake: pick you up at seven, wear comfy clothes, nothing fancyÂ
His name in your phone was courtesy of Patrick and you hoped Jake never saw it. You'd change it before tonight just in case. You edited the name to just âJakeâ. You puzzled over what he meant then.
Nothing fancy. The only not fancy thing you'd brought was a pair of jeans and an oversized t-shirt with your favorite band's logo on it. You figured maybe it could be a talking point. You got dressed and lounged for most of the day, panicking slightly at all of the emotions you were feeling around this âdateâ. You felt guilty,like you shouldn't be entertaining this but maybe Jake was right. Maybe you did need to just let go and feel something else. And he was offering to guide you there which he wouldn't ever know how much you appreciated. Not right away, at least.Â
When Jake arrived to pick you up, your breath caught in your chest at the sight of him. Backwards ball cap, black muscle shirt with a silver logo on the front, and black shorts, along with running shoes.Â
He was too gorgeous for you. At least that's what your brain kept telling you. He was too good looking to be interested in you. And you kept telling yourself that s he wanted was what was between your legs. He'd prove you wrong by the end of the night.
He helped you up into the big black GMC diesel truck that he drove and then you were off. He had the radio on low, country music, and you found yourself comforted at the fact that he even listened to anything. Your ex preferred silence when he drove.
The sun was beginning to set and when he pulled off the road and parked, your heart started up again.Â
âWait here.â He said, putting a hand up. He gathered some things from the back and went to the bed of the truck. He prepared a place for you both to sit and pulled the cooler out where he had food and drinks. Once everything was ready, he went to your door and helped you out, then into the bed of the truck. He climbed up after and pulled his shoes off. You did the same and he placed both pairs on the tailgate away from you.Â
âWhat kind of sandwich would you like?â He asked, reaching in and pulling one out for himself. You shrugged.Â
âSurprise me.â You said with a small smile. He handed you a sandwich wrapped in foil and you opened it. Turkey, cheese, mayo, mustard. Coincidentally, one of your favorites. You both ate quietly and he cracked open a cold cider beer for you both. You clinked bottles together and took a sip.Â
He opened a bag of chips and you both reached your hands in at the same time. You blushed. He chuckled and took his out, letting you go first. You did and when he took a chip after, he held it out to you. You attempted to grab it with your fingers but he pulled it away. He tried again and held the chip in front of your lips. You took it in your mouth and smirked as you chewed. He grinned wide and took another for himself. As you both finished your food, Jake cleaned up the trash and then he leaned back against his side of the truck bed. You smiled as you swirled the last of your beer around in the bottle and then pointed at him, leaning back as well.
âI thought you were gonna murder me.â You laughed and he feigned hurt before chuckling.
âI would never. Iâm not a monster like your ex.â Jake mused and your brows furrowed. He wasnât exactly wrong. While your ex wouldnât go that far, it was still horrible of him to do what he did to you. Jake motioned for you to scoot over next to him. You hesitated, but eventually decided to move and sit next to him. He placed his arm around your shoulders and you let him.Â
You glanced at him, observed him, seeing how devastatingly charming he was. How very handsome he was. The charisma almost reminded you of your ex. But Jake was different. Jake had an ego, but one that he could back up. He was, after all, a decently higher ranking Naval Aviator. You studied Jake as he did the same to you. Both of you locked eyes, but it was Jake who leaned in. It was Jake who reached up and brushed his knuckles over your cheek. It was Jake who waited for you to close the distance between the two of you, but begged for it at the same time.
And it was you who touched your lips to his first.
It was a tentative kiss, almost unsure, but not from him. No, from him you felt certainty. From him you felt...steadiness. From him, you felt safety. He reached up and cupped your face in his hands, gently. He was taller, broader, stronger than your ex, but somehow he was softer. Somehow he was more sensitive. Maybe it was because you were looking for it, or maybe it was because he just was that way, but you melted into Jake, into his warmth and refuge.Â
As you parted, Jake's sage green eyes met yours, and his lips twitched. He saw in your eyes, what you were feeling. He saw the guilt, the anguish, the struggle, the fucking turmoil that your mind was wheeling and dealing and he pulled you into a tight embrace. One that made you think twice about going home. One that made you want to stay here a little longer.
âWhat are you doing to me?â You whispered unintentionally and you felt Jake smirk into your hair.
âTrying to convince you it wasn't your fault.â His voice was low, but soft, and he smoothed a hand over your hair. You bit your lip and looked up at him.
âYou're making it too hard to let go.â You said softly and Jake tilted his head.
âI don't think you wanted to let go in the first place.â He murmured. You stayed silent for a while, rifling through the confusion in your brain. You wanted to stay. You wanted Jake. He had shown you more care and respect in the past three days than your ex ever had in the years you had been married. You swallowed hard, wondering what your life might look like if you decided to stay here. How could you afford it? Would Jake take care of you? Or would he dump you as soon as he got in your panties? Everything was uncertain and that felt awful to you.Â
But with Jake, it all felt a little lighter.
He brought you home, and at the door, he simply kissed your temple and then shoved his hands in his pockets, watching as your hand lingered on the door. You invited him in.
âI may not read words on a page...but people...people I read every piece of.â Jake murmured, his eyes flicking to yours and holding your gaze. âAnd I don't think you're the kind of girl lookinâ for a one night stand. I think whoever he was, because of whatever he did, he didn't deserve you.â
âAnd you do?â You asked, brows furrowing. Jake reached for you, intertwining his fingers with yours.
âI didn't say that. No, I don't deserve you. But I'd sure as hell like to earn the right to have you.â Jake's fingers lingered on yours, gentle, steady, not begging, just waiting. You took in a shaky breath.
âYou seem like the type of guy who just takes what he wants.â You said, drawing back slightly. He chuckled lowly.
âOh, I am, but with some things, you can't do that. Some things are too good to take. Sometimes the journey to getting them is far too beautiful to not enjoy.â Jakeâs lids lowered, and you noticed his lips twitch. Your gaze caught his, stayed there, searching. You were searching for a reason not to go through with this. A reason to stop. But you couldn't find one that Jake wouldn't turn down, that he wouldn't poke a hole through. You wanted him to come in. You wanted the one night to turn into many more. He squeezed your hand and pulled away, his fingers leaving yours. His smile was weak, like he knew he was hurting you at that moment. âIf youâd like, Iâll see you tomorrow.â
You nodded, biting your lip. âIâd like that.â You admitted. Jakeâs smile grew wider then before leaving and it stayed that way until he was home and laying comfortably in his bed. He thought of you that night, and you thought of him, until you both fell asleep.
After your date with Jake, Patrick had wanted to know everything, but there was a little bit of your date that you wanted to keep close to your heart. The way Jake made you feel, you wanted to keep that between you and him. That wasnât for anyone else to know, not even your best friend.
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Jake: ill pick you up, i have something else planned, is seven okay?
You replied with a yes and this time, you picked a pretty blue dress, simple short sleeves, v-neck, skirt that fell flowy to just above your knees. You just paired it with pretty flip flops, just incase Jake had something crazy planned.
Your ex had hated when you wore dresses.
Everyone is looking at you. I donât want people looking at you.
Just a reminder of how jealous and insecure he was. Here and now though, without him, you were free to do what you wanted. And you had a feeling that Jake didnât mind if people looked at you, especially if you were hanging off of his arm.
Jake picked you up at seven on the dot, and when you asked what you were doing, he simply replied ânothingâ with a big smirk. Your brows furrowed and you watched out the window as the small cottages passed by, all cookie-cutter like in size and shape. It didn't take long and Jake pulled into the driveway of a small house, similar to the other, except an American flag and a Navy flag hung from near the front door.Â
Jake turned his truck off and hopped out, going around to your side to help you down, much like a princess exiting a horse drawn carriage, except your chariot was a tuned GMC Duramax diesel that you looked at a little too long when Jake left last night, and your prince was a Naval Aviator, dressed in a white t-shirt that showed every defined abdominal muscle when the wind blew, and black athletic shorts.
He led you up the steps and through the door, where you were greeted by a beautiful black dog, with amber eyes, pointed ears, and a sleek coat. He was medium sized and excitedly jumped at Jake, but poked at your hand gently.Â
âBallast, platz.â Jake commanded and the dog obeyed, going to a bed in the corner of the room. When you entered, you noticed there was no hallway, just the living and kitchen. There was a small square table, presumably his dinner table, and he had a tv mounted on the wall. His sofa was small, just enough for no more than four people to sit on, but everything felt cozy. Jake turned to you. âDid you want me to show you around or...â
âSure. Iâm assuming this is your place?â You said with a small smile. He nodded and smirked.
âIt is. A little better than on base housing. Closer to the water. And a backyard for the pup.â He glanced at the dog, who wagged his tail. Jake released him from his place and the dog circled you and Jake a few times before settling. Jake ran a hand over the dog's head and the dog whined and panted, while looking between you and Jake.Â
Jake knelt down and rubbed the dog's neck. âI know I brought a girl home. It's supposed to be against bro code but I really like this one.â He said to the dog, then his gaze shifted to you.Â
You blushed. Then, you decided to try something. You batted your eyelashes and smiled wide.
âYou like me, huh?â You asked, and Jake rose, crowding your space immediately. You feel your cheeks heat more at his proximity. His breath is warm and minty in your face as he reaches up to brush hair from your face. He's staring at you in a way that you've never known or seen. You might call it reverent.
âI do like you.â He murmured, closing some of the distance between the two of you. You searched his eyes then, looking for a shred of a lie, as if you could see it in his irises. You knew you couldn't but you knew what love looked like, and you might dare say underneath reverence, was love.Â
You closed the gap. Jake draws back, only slightly, almost surprised at your neediness. It manifests in your fingers, tugging at his short blond locks, in your hips pressing against his, in your body begging for his.Â
You could feel his smirk. You could feel the lust coursing through him. And you felt it deep down within yourself, that primal need to fuck. You hadn't felt this way in a long time. Not since you had met your ex husband, but this time it felt different. This need felt different. It was stronger, more solid. Maybe it was because this was all new and exciting, or maybe, just maybe you were starting to develop feelings for the blond aviator.
His arms wind around you and pull you closer. He presses his body into you, pushes you back toward the stairs and when the back of your heels hit the step, you glance back. Your gaze settles on Jake and he raises his brows, motioning toward upstairs.
âYou wanted a tour right?â He said, huskily. You nodded with a huge smirk. You turned and he followed you upstairs, biting his lip as he watched your hips sway, your ass in his face as you both headed up the stairs. The black dog followed, hot on Jakeâs heels but as you both got the top step, Jake asked the dog to âplatzâ again. He turned to you and guided you toward an open door, where you saw a bed, with a white sheet and two pillows. Very standard. There was a small balcony and there was a cool breeze coming through it, making the sheer curtains blow gently.Â
Jake led you to the balcony, letting you look out at it for a moment. You took in the shoreline below, the palm trees sparsely littered along the coast here and there. The sun was setting, hues of orange, pink, and blue melding together in the sky. Jakeâs arms snaked around your waist and you let yourself melt into him. You let your head fall against his chest. You let your back lean into his chest and you let his fingers trace patterns across your mid-section.Â
You turned in his arms, and reached up to run your fingers through the blond hair at his temples. You tilted your head, noticing there was a tiny bit of grey on either side.
âDoes this conclude the tour?â You asked softly. Jake grinned.
âWell, this concludes the house tour, but...thereâs another type of tour I could give you.â He said, as you giggled, your hands meeting his chest then. Your eyes locked for a long few moments before you spoke again.
âI think Iâd be up for that tour.â You say softly, stretching up to kiss him. You felt him sigh heavily, and he began stepping into your space, forcing you backwards away from the balcony, and toward the bed. He was gentle, his body leading the way. Your legs hit the back of the bed and you lowered yourself, looking up at him from hooded lids. You poked your nose toward him and he knelt down in front of you, his hands meeting your thighs, pausing.
He was looking for permission.
You placed your fingers atop his, then moved his hands to the hem of your dress. You wordlessly asked him to start there. It had been months since you had been with anyone. Months since youâd had release. You needed this, wanted it, but you were nervous. Youâd gotten used to your ex, who, at the end, wouldnât even look at you when you had sex.Â
Jakeâs eyes met yours, his hands moving up and under the skirt of your dress. They were warm and rough as they met your hips. He hooked his thumbs in the band of your panties. You placed your hands on the sheets and leaned back slightly, allowing Jake to pull the pretty lingerie off that you'd picked.Â
âMy favorite color.â He murmured, holding them up by one finger, his gaze fixated on the navy blue satin panties. Yes, you did match it to your dress. Yes, you guessed at what color he might like. Yes, you had worn it hoping he would get the chance to do exactly this. You didn't want a one night stand. You just wanted Jake.
He stood then, slotting himself between your thighs. He pulled you closer, letting you feel him through his shorts. Your cheeks went red and his eyes narrowed slightly.
âYou sure about this?â He asked, as he pushed the skirt of your dress up at the same time. You nodded hesitantly and he clocked it. He reached up, cupping your cheek. âWe donât have to.â
âI want to.â You said, firmly. Jake raised a brow.Â
âWhy?â He asked, fingers trailing down to your shoulder, pushing the fabric of your dress down so that it rested against your upper arm, exposing your bare skin. He tilted his head.
âBecause I want to know if I actually like you or if I just want to have sex with someone.â You admitted. Jake bit his lip and his other hand came up to pull the dress sleeve from your other shoulder. His eyes were hooded as a small smirk formed, his thumb brushing against your collarbone. The gesture was small but it made you shiver. The way his fingers moved didnât feel like he wanted to have sex, they felt like he wanted to explore. Like he was excited to explore you.
âSo, if we have sex, and you donât want me after, are you just going to leave?â He asked, hand traveling around to the middle of your back. He was looking for a bra. His fingers paused when he found none, head tilting the other way, smirk growing wider.
âIf you wanted me to, yes.â You said, as his hand traveled around to the front of your dress. Your breasts fit perfectly in his hands and he squeezed gently before you saw his eyes darken even more. The realization hit him that the front of your dress was padded and all he had to do was slip it down to expose your breasts made his cock twitch.
âI wouldnât want you to.â He murmured, eyes darting to yours. His hands were warm on your skin and you could almost feel the electricity between the two of you, the sense of anticipation that was coursing through you both. Your brows raised at his comment.
âBut if I didnât want you...â You began and he leaned down, taking your lips in a needy kiss before speaking.
âI would convince you otherwise.â He said softly, and your hands met his chest then, fingers curling into his shirt. You tugged unconsciously and he pulled away for a short moment, to remove the white t-shirt. You swallowed hard as he revealed tanned, toned skin, rippling muscle that flexed with the smallest movement. Your eyes traveled down to the v-line that led into his shorts and your breath caught, noticing the outline of his length. Youâd felt how hard he was, but now that you were seeing it, you almost didnât believe it.Â
Your ex could barely look at you, and Jake was looking like he craved you. You werenât the problem.
âYou okay?â He asked and you nodded, your eyes tracking up over the hard planes before you to his face, that naughty smirk plastered there. You took a deep breath, letting it out shakily before reaching for your dress. He watched as you slowly pushed the fabric down, exposing your breasts to the cool air, the nipples pebbling. Jake licked his lips as he watched your breasts bounce free. He wanted to grab them, squeeze them, suck on them, but he didnât want to scare you away either. He wanted to take it at your pace, because he could tell you were still unsure. His hands met your forearms and traveled up, thumbs tracing your jawline, then stopping to cup your cheeks again. He bent down once more, lips gentle on yours.Â
You reached for his chest, never having felt muscle like he had. You explored for a few moments, hands feather light against his skin. He allowed it, letting you run your hands up and down and memorize his body. You paused at his hips, at the waistband of his shorts, and you glanced up. He nodded.Â
Your fingers dipped beneath the elastic, pushing the material down. He had boxer briefs underneath, and the scent of his sweat, his arousal hit your nose then. His shorts fell to pool at his feet and your hands reached for the briefs, beginning to pull them down too. Jake stopped you though.
âWhoa there, let me give you some attention too. We can take turns.â He said, placing your hands on his stomach. He guided you further onto the bed, climbing over the top of you. As he pulled your dress down, fingers brushing your sides, and your hips, and your thighs, you let your head fall back against the mattress. His touch was soft, and you hadnât felt anything like it in such a long time that it felt almost too good to be true.Â
Jake studied you for a moment as he removed your dress completely, watching your expression change from reluctance to pleasure. He threw your dress to the floor, again climbing over you, but this time he spread your legs, and pressed his length against you, the only barrier being the fabric of his boxer briefs. The feeling of his hardness elicited a small moan from you.Â
âWhat do you like, baby? Do you wanna do it like this, or is there a position that's more comfortable for you?â He asked, mouth hovering over your breasts. He pressed a kiss to the top swells, and you sighed, the feeling of his warm lips on skin reserved only for a lover sparking fire low in your belly.Â
âI don't know...I've never been...â
âNo one has ever asked you what you like?â He asked and you shook your head. He scoffed. âWell, you've never been treated right by a man then.â
Jake let his lips fall further, connecting with one of your nipples. Your breath caught and you felt him smirk, as he gently touched his teeth to the skin, not hard enough to hurt, but not too soft that you couldn't feel them. He teased both nipples, sucking and nipping carefully, all the while his eyes on your expression, which delved deeper into pleasure the more he worked.
When he ceased, he rose, his lips meeting yours in a fiery kiss, more wanton than before. It made your head spin and your hands gripped his biceps. You felt the muscles underneath flexing as he hovered over you. Your hands traveled up and around to the back of his neck, nails pressing into the back of his shoulder muscles. He drew back, and pushed the boxer briefs down all the way finally, letting a groan of relief escape his lips. You felt heat blossom below your waist and at the back of your neck, spreading around to your cheeks. Jake saw this, saw the rosiness settle, and it only fueled him more.Â
âOne second.â He said softly, backing off the bed. He went to his nightstand and opened the top drawer. You propped yourself up, watching as he pulled a condom and a bottle of lube from it. He placed them on the bed next to your hip and then he knelt at the side of the bed, pulling you by your hips toward him. He splayed his hands on your stomach and rubbed his thumbs over the soft flesh there. Your brows furrowed as he kissed just above your belly button. Then below it. Then he kissed the dip at your hips, grazing his teeth over the layer of natural padding you had.Â
You felt the room spin as you watched him kiss up and down your inner thighs, You felt your pleasure building and he hadnât even touched you where you wanted him most yet. No man before him had ever taken this much time before shoving his face between your legs, but Jake. He was teasing you and taking his time so that you would be ready for him.Â
âIf at any point, itâs too much, or you donât like something, tell me. I want you to feel comfortable, okay?â He said, rubbing his thumbs up and down the back of your thighs, before pressing a long kiss to the crease where your leg and thigh met. You nodded, because that was all you could muster. You couldnât form words at the moment. You barely had any thoughts either, just static between your ears and that static ceased when Jake dipped his tongue inside you for the first time.Â
He was gentle, more so than youâd expected. He was a damn Navy pilot. They were all raucous and wild. Not Jake. Jake was reserved. He commanded any room he was in. But he was also calculating. He was puzzling over every move he made and not just how it would benefit him, but how it would benefit you.
He took long, languid laps at your center with his tongue, his hands still splayed wide on your stomach. He felt your abs tense and release as he worked you further up to the peak of your pleasure. He hummed, letting his eyes close, letting himself get lost in your taste. He drew away for a moment, inhaling evenly through his nose and dragging a hand down to pull your pussy lips apart at the top. He used his thumb to push the skin up and expose your clit even more.Â
When he dove back in, alternating between sucking on your clit and thrusting his tongue into you, your hips bucked, unable to control your bodyâs natural urges. He chuckled as you kept moving, your head lolling back against the sheet, your hands gripping the sheets above your head. He stayed there, but his warm breath only pushed you closer as he coaxed you toward that final peak.
âThatâs it, baby. Doinâ so good. Such a good girl.â You laughed at his words, out of surprise, out of excitement, out of ecstasy, as he continued, adding one more layer to the mix of sensations. His thumb. He pressed his thumb firmly on your clit, and drew small circles before placing his mouth back over you, taking one long drag, sucking hard one last time before you fell apart. You called his name, felt your walls pulse hard at nothing, felt your muscles seize, your fingers dig into the sheets. Your breath came out in shallow pants and he kept his mouth on you, gently licking you through your comedown.Â
Your heart pounded and your breathing took a few minutes to come back to baseline again. Your eyes met his, and then you reached down, running a hand through his short blond locks. He preened, smiling like heâd just done the best thing ever. And he did. At least for you. He wiped his mouth on the sheets, then stood, and you couldn't help but look down at his cock, hanging hard between his legs. Youâd seen the outline of it earlier, felt it against you, but seeing it now, you realized he was a little bigger than average. He was certainly bigger than your ex. Not by much, but enough for you to notice and you bit your lip as he reached for the condom, ripping it open with his teeth. He rolled it onto his length and placed the wrapper on the nightstand. He took the lube and flicked it open, but before he poured any out, he looked at you.
âIs it okay if I use some? I donât want you to be uncomfortable.â He said and your brows knitted. You propped yourself up.
âUhm. Iâve never needed it before.â You said and he raised a brow.
âYouâve never used lube?â He asked. You shook your head.
âI mean, Iâve wanted to but...â You began but he shook his head, waving a hand.
âHe didnât want you to? Thatâs shitty. Doesnât matter if youâre wet already. A little lube helps it feel even better, I promise.â Jake assured you.Â
âIâm not opposed to it. I just wasnât expecting it. I wasnât expecting any of this really.â You said, your voice still slightly shaky from the orgasm heâd given you. He smiled, a genuine one that reached his eyes. He climbed onto the bed and repositioned your legs so they were spread wide again, slotting himself as close as he could.Â
âI want you to feel good. If you feel good, I feel good. Got it?â He asked and you nodded hastily. His cock was draped over your center. He glanced down, then back up at you for permission. You bit your lip, wanting to ask for something, but not wanting to interrupt his actions. He noticed though, watching your eyes dart from his length, to his lips. He squirted some lube onto his palm, then rubbed along his length to spread it. He put a little bit more on two fingers, then dipped them just at your entrance. He saw you still looked hesitant, so he asked,âWhatâs wrong?â
â I...um ...can you...Iâm sorry, itâs silly, Nevermind, go ahead.â You stuttered, glancing away from him, embarrassed. He wouldnât have that though, guiding your gaze back to his by way of two fingers on your chin.
âWhat do you need from me? Tell me. Is there something you like that you want me to do?â Jake said, and your bit your lip a little harder before your jaw tightened.Â
âCan you...when you put it in...can you kiss me...at the same time?â You shifted uncomfortably after asking, feeling silly. You avoided eye contact, but Jake wouldn't have that either. He leaned down, using one strong forearm to hold himself up. His lips hovered over yours.
âI can do that, of course.â He said, doing exactly what you asked, lips connecting with yours. You brought your hands up and cupped his cheeks, fingers combing through the hair at his temples as he took himself in his other hand and rubbed the tip of his cock through your folds, coating himself with more lube and your wetness. When he pushed inside of you, he moaned into your mouth, and you did the same, melding into one shared sound of satisfaction. Once he had an inch or two in, he let go and brought his other hand up. He placed both hands around your head, sinking further into you, letting you feel every inch, letting you adjust slowly to him. He slid in so easily, between the lube and your own arousal, as you continued making out, you could only think how nothing had ever felt this good with your ex.Â
When he was fully sheathed inside your warmth, Jake paused, and broke the kiss.Â
âGood?â He asked, his voice dropped an octave from before. You smiled up at him, brushing your fingers through the hair at his temples. He leaned in for another kiss, then began to move his hips, slowly at first, and you knew this was very different. You could feel how strong he was, and how much he was holding back. You moved your hands down to his chest, dragging your nails gently down. His thrusts were measured, even, and your movements didnât seem to affect him, even as your fingers brushed over his nipples, down his torso, feeling the coils of muscle in his lower half as he began to pick up his pace slightly.Â
You thought it was all innocent, but Jake was barely hanging on. He was breathing in through his nose and out through his mouth, trying to keep his composure, trying to make love to you, not fuck you. He didnât want this to be one night. He wanted more, and if he could show you just how good he could be, maybe youâd think about staying.
Your hands traveled back up to his shoulders, then down to his biceps, where they stayed, wrapping your small hands around his bulging muscles. He slowed for a moment to kiss you again, and you could feel the lust passing between the two of you. You hadnât realized your second orgasm was building, coming quickly, not until your lips met again. You felt your walls clench, and you know Jake felt it too, because he shifted slightly, tilting his pelvis just slightly for a different angle. You sucked in a sharp breath at the same time he did, your eyes locking onto his green ones.
Jake felt his balls draw up tight, his abdominal muscles tighten and he knew he was at the edge, just about where he couldnât come back from. He sped up a little more, and that was when your mouth dropped open, small sounds of pleasure begging to leave your lips in time with his thrusts. He kissed your neck, down to your collarbone, grazing his teeth over it as his hips stuttered, losing rhythm, losing control. He held on for a few more thrusts before he let out a low and guttural groan, burying his face in the crook of your neck. Your hands flew up to the back of his neck, nails digging in as you too, came undone, muscles clamping down hard around him. He stilled, filling the condom. He stayed there, raising his head then to kiss your jaw.
Jake felt a wave of exhaustion roll over him, his vision blurring for a second as he felt your pussy flutter around his length. Your fingers combed through his hair comfortingly, letting him know that you were good.
He didnât ask how you felt. He knew. He could feel it. Could feel you. He could see just how flushed your cheeks were, how swollen your lips were, and he could feel the warmth between the two of you. Jake let his length slip from you, and he stepped off the bed for a moment. You sat up, taking a deep breath, body still feeling electric with post orgasmic bliss. Jake motioned for you to follow him, helping you to stand, legs shaky.Â
He led you to the bathroom, and he carefully pulled the condom off, disposing of it, then wiping himself off.Â
âDo you want to rinse yourself off or do you want me to help?â He asked, eyes flicking to the shower.Â
âHelp?â You half-asked, and the corner of Jakeâs lips turned up. He brushed past you, turning the water on warm, borderline hot, before taking your hand and guiding you over the short wall, making sure you didnât slip. He stepped over it as well and closed the curtain.Â
âI only have my soap and shampoo so if you want to actually wash yourself, youâre gonna smell like blue cypress and...â He took the bottle from the shelf and read it aloud. âUh...coastal air. Apparently.âÂ
You giggled softly. âI wouldnât mind smelling like you.â
He smirked wide as he squeezed some of the body wash into his hand and lathered it, then began to wash your body first. He didnât scrub, just smoothed his hands over your wet skin, and he took special care to between your legs. Once you were all soapy, he washed himself, just a quick and rough scrub before helping you rinse yourself off.Â
When all was said and done, he offered you a towel and he wrapped his around his waist, leaving you to do anything else you needed to, but not before pressing a kiss to your forehead. As he left the bathroom, you took a moment, looking in the mirror. You looked, really looked at yourself and for a moment, you studied yourself in the mirror. You felt the tension of the past few months had melted away, and as you thought of the blond pilot just across the hallway in the bedroom, you smiled. Not a fake one, a genuine, huge smile. A smile you hadnât smiled in a long time. After drying yourself and peeing quickly, you headed back into the bedroom, and found Jake laying under the sheets, an arm behind his head. His other was draped across his stomach.Â
âSo, are you staying?â He asked, and you grinned, climbing underneath the sheets and cuddling against him.
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You shifted, opening one eye halfway. You felt hot breath on your neck, and a warm body against your own. You pushed back against him, remembering that Jake was laying behind you, under the sheets, and it was hot under them. You rolled just in time to see him grin and open his eyes.Â
âYou're up early.â His voice was raspy and rough, his fingers instinctively dancing across your lower back.
âEvery day.â You said softly, and Jake brought a hand up, running his fingers through your hair gently. His eyes studied you.
âStay.â He begged, his nose brushing your cheek, fingers working steady circled on your bare hip. You knew what he meant. Not just stay the morning, or the rest of the day. He meant stay with him, be with him.
âJake...I...â You hesitated. You're brows knitted. You felt tears sting your eyes.
âDon't tell me you can't. Just promise me you will.â He murmured, his lips feather light as they connected with yours. He was offering something that you didn't think would ever come again. A second chance, and safety. You wanted it. Craved it. Needed it, just like you'd needed him last night. You bit your lip. He was staring expectantly.Â
âI'll...â
âStay. Give this a chance.â He said, your brows knitted in the middle, never having known the want that he was displaying. He bit his lip then. âGive us a chance.â
âI...want...to...but...â Your gaze dropped.
âDon't tell me you're scared. I don't believe that for a second.â His voice was softer then, as if he knew you needed reassurance.Â
âI am though.â You admitted.Â
âYou've already done the hardest part. You left him.â He said.Â
âYeah, but the next part...leaving my home. The only one Iâve ever known. Thatâs even scarier.â Your voice trembled and Jake pulled you closer, wrapping his arms around you.Â
âIâm on leave for a few months until my next deployment. I can help. Iâll come with you.â Jake said into your hair, kissing the top of your head.Â
âYou donât need to.â You curled into his chest, your words a lie. You wanted him to. You did need him to.
âBut I want to.â He murmured, and you settled, listening to his heart, and hearing your own sync up with his while you both began to drift back to sleep.Â
You slept until late morning. You awoke and you had sex again, a different position, a different, more needy, rougher, encounter but still wholly satisfying in the same way as last night.Â
Jake made you breakfast and you helped him with the dishes after. You both walked Ballast on the beach, chatting as you went, learning new things about each other every minute.Â
And when you got back, you went for round three, learning each other's bodies. Learning everything that you could about each other, trying to figure out if this was what you really wanted. If he was who you really wanted.Â
You told Patrick you were going to stay with Jake again tonight. He screamed with happiness on the other end of the line, making you laugh.Â
It felt easy with Jake, the domesticity, and you wondered what you would do if you stayed, and when he was deployed again. What would that look like? Jake assuaged your fears though, telling you it would look like you exchanging letters back and forth for three months and living in his cottage with Ballast to protect you, while he flew missions and told you how much he missed you.Â
Jake wanted to settle down. He wanted to find someone he could care for and he was willing to do whatever he had to give you a second chance because he knew you deserved it.Â
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You were ready to leave. To go back home. You'd said goodbye to Patrick, thanked him for everything, and now standing at the terminal in the airport, you took a deep breath. You looked at the flights, 10:15 to Logan International Airport in Boston. You watched as it got closer, as the time between now and you arriving home got shorter.Â
You felt a hand at your back, and warm lips at your temple. You glanced up into sage green eyes. His tags hung on the outside of his shirt, and he held the black dog's leash in one hand and rolled his suitcase in the other.Â
âReady?â He asked, smiling and you reflected it back.
âReady for anything, Jake.â You said, intertwining your fingers with his and heading to your plane. You were headed home.Â
With Jake.Â
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pairing: jake seresin x f!reader rating: 18+ (minors dni) warnings/triggers: smut? yes. word count: 5,463 summary: jake seresin, your childhood crush, makes his way back into town while on leave from his home squadron in lemoore. naturally, it calls for a nostalgic swim at the old quarry. A/N: two of two entries for @echoingbirdsofpreyâs summer challenge on discord in typical âmeâ fashionâright under the wire. Prompt is âSwimming with Jake Seresinâ. this is completely un-beta'd. There are likely a shit-ton of mistakes as I posted this in a fugue state at 2 AM. plz forgive any glaring errors. tysm. âĄ
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By the time the last bell of the day rang through the halls of Grover Elementary, the Texas sun still sat high in the sky, summer fully settling in now with its long, golden afternoons.Â
Primarily, it meant that youâd have time to finish grading the pop quiz and still be able to enjoy the last stretches of pink-orange fingers of sunlight on the porch swing with your latest romance book and a glass of wine.Â
âRemember to bring your books into class for Monday!â you called over the bustling gaggle of six-year-olds as they tore to the coat room to grab their things.Â
Straightening a few papers on your desk, you turned to adjust the âRoom 6 Countdown to Summer Break!â chart tacked to the corner of the whiteboard, wiping the â7â away and replacing it with a bubbly â6â.Â
âMiss!â Brett Corrigan called, the edge of his little lisp reaching you from around the corner.Â
Heâd been doing a great job with his shoelaces recently. Only calling you over when heâd really gotten the âbunny stuck around the treeâ as he put it, hopelessly tangled, as you liked to call it.Â
Today was an extreme case of bunny stuck around the tree situation.Â
Brett huffed dramatically, in only the way that a six-year-old could manage, when you rounded the corner. âItâs stuck, Miss.âÂ
âItâs okay,â you hummed, crouching in front of him and examining the damage. Tangled. Hopelessly. Youâd have to suggest a different approach. Â
When you looked up at his face, cheeks smudged with paint from earlier in the day, you smiled gently. âHere. Letâs start from the beginning together.âÂ
You made quick work of the knot, straightening the lacesâoffering him a clean slate. You motioned to the shoe then, tapping the top of Brettâs toe. âTry again. Weâll do it together.âÂ
Brett nodded once, sharply before he set in on the shoes with determination etched into his tiny features.Â
Fumbling with the laces, Brettâs small fingers worked through the loops and pulls while you whispered encouragements beside him. His tongue peeked out from the corner of his mouth in intense concentration at intervals, and for a moment, you stayed quiet, letting him figure it out when he paused, unsure.Â
When he finally got the loop through and tugged tight on the second shoe, he beamed, cheeks flushed with pride. âI did it!âÂ
âYou did do it, buddy,â you grinned, ruffling his hair. âThat bunny made it around the tree and into the hole like it was nothing. Twice.âÂ
He giggled and shot up from the bench, backpack bouncing against his back as he ran toward the door.Â
âIâm gonna tell my dad!â he called over his shoulder, not looking back as he sprinted down the hall.Â
You stood slowly, brushing your hands against your skirt, your knees making their usual quiet protest. You turned to head back to your deskâÂ
And stopped.Â
He leaned one shoulder casually against the doorframe, arms crossed over his wide chest, wearing an âany manâ crisp white t-shirt and his favourite dark blue jeans. His aviators, sitting on the bridge of his nose, reflected your face back at you, and even in the dim school hallway lighting, he looked unfairly goldenâtanned, relaxed, a little smug.Â
Trademark Jake Seresin. Â
Down to that dumb toothpick hanging out the corner of his mouth.Â
âSince when do you teach kids how to tie shoes?â he drawled, a slow grin tugging at the corner of his mouth.Â
You blinked, heart doing a small, traitorous stutter. Â
You hated how he could literally disappear from your life and reappear, days, weeks, months later and heâd still be able to make you feel things you wanted desperately to bury with just a smirk and a few words. Â
âSince they started showing up with shoes and not the ability to tie them.âÂ
âAh.â He tilted his head like he was considering something serious. âI still double knot mine, just in case. Think you could show me the bunny trick?âÂ
âI think youâre well past the bunny trick stage.âÂ
He stepped into the classroom, gaze drifting over the crayon drawings taped to the whiteboard, the âCountdown to Summer Break!â with its freshly drawn â6,â before finally landing on you.Â
He looked like he belonged and didnât belong all at onceâtoo big for the room, too bright, too Jake. It was the same way he felt in this town. Like something it couldnât quite hold. Too much for the quiet routines, the polite gossip, the town whose biggest flex was a Buttermilk Festival in Augustâarguably the worst month for a dairy-based event in Texas, in your very humble opinion.Â
And yet, he was familiar, too. I In the way you, at once, knew the lyrics of an old song after the first bar even when you hadnât heard for years. Something forever present in the woven fabric of your life.Â
âSo how long were you standing there?âÂ
âLong enough to witness that kid tie the hell out of those shoelaces.âÂ
You rolled your eyes, but the corners of your mouth betrayed you. âWhat are you doing here?âÂ
âCame home for a few days. On break. My CO at Lemoore was feeling extra generous.â He paused, eyes holding yours. âThought Iâd pick you up. Maybe get you out of here before you get too involved in grading those quizzes on a Friday night.âÂ
Your brows lifted then, pausing as you gathered the papers with the slanted, crooked writing. âYou remembered the pop quiz?âÂ
âYou said something about it in a text last week.âÂ
âYou barely replied to that text.â Â
You remembered because it stuck with youâbeing left on read, especially when you still felt that connection you couldnât explain. You remembered having to quash the thoughts your mind raced to about why he hadnât answered.Â
âDoesnât mean I didnât read it.âÂ
The weight of that hung between you for a second longer than it should have. He shifted, then smiled again, a little softer this time.Â
âSo? You got plans tonight?âÂ
You exhaled a breath you hadnât realized you were holding, your voice quieter now. âNo. No plans.âÂ
Jake nodded once, like that was all he needed.Â
âYou ready to get out of here then?â he tipped his head toward the door, like it were the most natural thing in the world, like he hadnât been gone, and things hadnât changed between you two.Â
You considered the stacks of spelling tests one last time, the glitter from the morning activity still catching light on the rug at the front of the class, the clock on the wall ticking past your contracted hours.Â
âGod, yes. Let me grab my bag.âÂ
He waited patiently while you shut your laptop and tugged on your jean jacket, but you could feel his eyes on you the whole timeâwatching you like he was trying to memorize what had changed and what hadnât. You tossed him a look over your shoulder, caught the look in his eyes before it shifted and was gone just as quickly.Â
âYou taking me to Sonic, or do I have to call your mama and tell her you forgot how to be a proper Southern gentleman?âÂ
Jake was already shaking his head, stepped toward the classroom door and holding it open as you passed through. âYou drive a hard bargain. The usual? Cherry limeade and tots?âÂ
âYou know me so well, Seresin,â you teased, already smiling as you stepped into the too bright fluorescent lighting of the hallway.Â
The cicadas had started humming, the sky blooming orange and lavender as you and Jake walked toward his truckâshoulders brushing, just like they used to when you were sixteen.Â
Then he said, low and thoughtful, âYou ever think about whatâd happen if we never left here?âÂ
You glanced up at him, nudged him with your elbow. âYeah. Youâd still be trying to impress me, and Iâd still be beating you at everything.âÂ
Jakeâs grin stretched wide. âSome things never change.âÂ
You kicked off your flats in the cab, tucking your feet beneath you, and the truck rumbled to life beneath you like a long-forgotten memory, triggered. Â
A few blocks from the school and several bars into his playlist, you reached out and turned the volume down, eyeing him.Â
âWhere are we really going, Seresin? Sonic doesnât usually require that dumb little smirk.âÂ
He feigned offenseâbadly. âYou wound me.âÂ
âThatâs not an answer.âÂ
He drummed his fingers against the wheel, the last rays of sun catching his profile like a memory you werenât ready to feel. âI mightâve made a detour before coming to get you. Jimâs back in town. Cassidy too. Weâre heading out to the old quarry after darkâjust for a swim, some beers. Like we used to.âÂ
You stared at him for a beat.Â
âThe swimming hole?â you echoed, unsure whether to laugh or groan. âJake, that waterâs probably full of leeches and adolescent regrets.âÂ
He let out a laugh that echoed in the cab. âExactly. And just my luck: Iâm in desperate need of both.âÂ
You shook your head, but there was no stopping the warmth crawling across your chest. âWho else is going?âÂ
âJust the old crew. Nothing crazy. Just⌠a night.âÂ
You looked at him. Really looked.Â
And when you saw what was sitting behind the smileâsomething quieter, something a little tired, a little searchingâyou sighed, tucked your feet in tighter, and nodded.Â
âFine. But if something bites me in that water, Iâm holding you personally responsible.âÂ
Jake gave you a mock-serious nod. âFair. Iâll even let you push me in first, if that helps.âÂ
âI think youâll find youâre gonna regret telling me that.âÂ
When Jake pulled a u-turn to head back to your place, you were already texting your sister. Letting her know (in not so many words) you were heading off into the middle of nowhere with the boy who once dared you to eat a worm and talked you into jumping off the roof of your barn into a haystack.Â
Her reply came quickly: âWAIT. Jake? Giiiiiiiiiirl. Donât get knocked up. đâÂ
You tossed the phone into the depths of your bag as it continued to buzz with a flurry of incoming texts. Your cheeks heated quickly and you turned to look out the window, suddenly interested in the RV park and the fast-food places that zipped by.Â
Jake stopped by your place so you could change into your bathing suit. You didnât pretend not to know what you were doing when you grabbed the cutoffs that made your ass look fantastic and the tank top that made your B cup breasts look like generous CÂ cups.Â
When you returned, quickly locking the door while you hopped on one foot to secure a flip flop, Jake was leaning against the trunk of the overgrown maple tree whose roots had pushed up the paver stones on the walk leading to the house. You didnât miss the way his head tipped up and his eyes watched you in a way that made your stomach knot and unfurl at the same time.Â
Keep it together, you reminded yourself as you skipped down the porch steps. This isnât different than before, he wonât stay.Â
Flip flops echoing in your ears as you made your way down the long front walk, your smiled at him.Â
Jake whistled low, pushing himself to stand now. âYou clean up alright, Teach.âÂ
The scoff that left you wasnât convincing, not to your own ears at least. It doubled as a cover for a nervous laugh. Why you were nervous around this boy���man, you corrected yourselfâwas beyond you. Except, it really wasnât, was it?Â
âDonât flatter me, flyboy. Youâre not even my third favourite pilot.âÂ
âOh yeah? Whoâs number one?âÂ
âSnoopy. Then Han Solo.â You smirked, brushing past him as you headed for the truck parked at the curb in front of the house that had once belonged to your parents.Â
The sound that left Jake, close at your back now as he trailed you, was wounded. âI get bested by a beagle and a fictional character?âÂ
âWelcome to humility, Jacob. You could use some.âÂ
When you reached the truck, Jake was only a beat behind, opening the door for you without hesitation. âIâm letting that slide only on account of us being late, and Jim will absolutely call me a city slicker if I donât show up on time.âÂ
You climbed up into the passenger seat, adjusting the hem of your cutoffs just enough to feel a breeze tickle the tops of your thighs. Â
Jake shut the door gently after youâuncharacteristically so, like you were something to be handled with careâand rounded the front of the truck. Â
You caught your reflection in the side mirror as he climbed in on the driver side: sun-kissed cheeks, that same tilt of your mouth you hadnât worn in a long time. A little crooked, a little too pleased with yourself.Â
The truck roared to life beneath you.Â
The truck had left the city limits before youâd broken the silence. Youâd already clocked Jake glancing at you once or twiceâalways quickly, never long enough to get caught when you turned to look back. Â
âIâm curious to see if the quarryâs still as murky and questionable as I remember,â you mused, kicking your feet up onto the dash like it was old habit, just as reflexive as breathing.Â
Jake glanced at you sideways; a bit longer than he probably should have for a man driving 60 on backroads, past open fields of brittle grass, in the twilight. âWorse, probably. But Jim swears itâs âcharmingly rustic.ââÂ
âYouâre gonna owe me a tetanus shot if I step on a rusty bottle cap.âÂ
âDarlinâ, Iâll carry you out myself, if it comes to that.âÂ
It shouldnât have meant anything. But it did. That simple kindness, offered so easily, sent a ripple through your chest you didnât know what to do with.Â
You cranked the window down, turned your face toward the growing darkness, let the wind tangle your hair and cool your cheeks.Â
You drove in companionable silence for a while, windows down, country music low on the radio. It was the kind of silence that only ever came with history. The kind that knew where all the soft spots were, the yellow of almost healed bruises, but hadnât decided whether to press them yet. Hadnât figured out if the pain of memory was worth the feelings that came with it.Â
You reached the clearing overlooking the quarry by the time dusk had bled fully into night. Â
The others were already thereâJimâs old Jeep parked haphazardly too close to the edge, a cooler cracked open beside it. Â
Cassidy was dancing barefoot near the fire pit, beer in hand, shouting something about a playlist that no one was listening to.Â
Jake killed the engine and stepped out, tossing a wave to the group. âLook who I dragged out of the classroom.âÂ
There were cheers, familiar whoops and greetings, arms thrown around shoulders, handshakes turned to back slaps. Â
You were hugged, passed a drink, teased about being late.Â
Then someone, likely Jeremy, yelled, âCome on, Seresin! Letâs see if you still got it.âÂ
Jake, never one to resist a challenge, didnât hesitate. Â
He kicked off his boots and peeled off his shirt in one smooth motion. His jeans followed and you caught yourself staring, transfixed. The hard line of muscle cut down his spine and disappeared under the waistband of his boxers, and for a moment, you forgot how to breathe.Â
Jake Seresin had always been attractive. That wasnât new. It wasnât even worth denying. Anyone with eyes could see it.Â
But something about the night, about tonightâthe flicker of firelight, the scent of pine and beer in the air, the way his skin caught the golden glowâmade it dangerous. Â
He stood at the quarryâs edge like he was carved into the landscape. Like he belonged in this wild, open space in a way few people ever could.Â
You knew you should look away.Â
But your eyes couldnât follow the way your brain told you to keep it in check. Instead, they swept down the line of his shoulders, the broad plane of his back, the flex of muscle just above the waistband of his boxersâand lower, where the fabric clung to the dip of his hips like a dare. Â
It was entirely unfair, the way he looked. Tanned, effortless, built like every bad decision youâd ever almost made in high school but grown into something worseâbetterâwith age.Â
And then there was the way he moved. Like he knew the effect he had on you, on everyone. Like it had never occurred to him to be self-conscious.Â
Your thighs pressed together instinctively, and you forced yourself to pull a deep breath into your lungs, half hoping the cold beer would douse the flicker starting low in your stomach.Â
And then, in the middle of your self-chidingâhe looked at you.Â
Not direct. Not bold.Â
Just enough to let you know. Let you know that he knew.Â
Heat crawled up the back of your neck. You tore your gaze away too late, caught. Guilty. Wanting. You tilted your drink up to your lips, using the bottle like a shield, but your heart, hammering in your chest wouldnât slow down.Â
When you risked another glance, he was gone.Â
Thenâsplash. A clean, echoing crack of water as Jake hit the surface below the edge. Â
Cheers erupted around you.Â
You were thankful for the sudden refocus.Â
âStill got it!â Jeremy shouted, before he was at your side, hand clapped on your shoulder. âHeâs still got it!âÂ
You chuckled, a bit uneasy, before you nodded and took another gulp of the drink in your hand.Â
Jake surfaced with a grin, water sliding off his shoulders, making his skin look slick and touchable andâÂ
Stop. Â
Stop it.Â
Get it together. Â
His dirty blond hair was slicked back now, darker in the moonlight, and the second his green eyes locked onto you again, it stole the breath from your chest.Â
âYou coming in or just here to stare?â He smirked.Â
You couldâve played it off. You should have.Â
Instead, you cocked your head, eyes narrowed, arms folded across your chest, a growing smirk pulling up the corners of your mouth. It was one you hoped masked the way your pulse was pounding in your chest and between your legs.Â
âJust evaluating your technique, Lieutenant. It's⌠passable.âÂ
He laughed, sharp and delighted, and that glint in his eyes was unmistakableâheat. One that wasnât just friendly. One that wasnât innocent.Â
Cassidy tossed you a wink and nudged your foot with hers. âYou just gonna let him show off alone all night?âÂ
You shifted, brushing your palm down your thighs, trying to get a grip. âJust waiting for him to wear himself out,â you muttered, not trusting your voice to say more.Â
Jakeâs voice cut through the air, low and teasing. âThatâs gonna take a while.âÂ
The words hit harder than they should have, thudding low in your belly. Not just because of the challenge in his tone, but because part of you wanted to test it. To call his bluff.Â
To find out just how long he could keep going.Â
Cassidy whooped and jumped in next. Â
Then two more followed. Â
The group was in full swing now, laughter echoing off stone, water slapping and splashing as people surfaced and called to each other.Â
Beer finished, you stood at the top of the ledge, flipflops abandoned near the firepit, arms crossed loosely over her chest. Watching.Â
Jake tread water below, squinting up at you. âCome on, sunshine. You too good for us now?â  You didnât answer right away.Â
Maybe because the nickname sent a jolt straight through you. Maybe because you werenât ready to pretend that standing here in cutoff shorts and a barely-there tank top, under the weight of Jake Seresinâs attention, didnât feel dangerous. Not the kind of danger that came with a sharp edgeâbut the kind you wanted to touch anyway.Â
âIâm just waiting for the water to look less like a leech-infested mystery and more like a good idea,â you called back.Â
Jake grinned. âThen let me help you make up your mind.âÂ
And then he was swimming to the edge and climbing out.Â
Water rolled off him in rivulets, slicking over his chest, his abs, the trail of hair disappearing into his boxers. His hands came up to rake through his hair, and your mouth mightâve fallen slightly open becauseâwell, damn. Every muscle in his body seemed to tighten under the moonlight, like the air itself flexed around him.Â
You backed up half a step. âWhat are you doing?âÂ
âHelping,â he said, with that shit-eating grin that always came right before he did something reckless.Â
âJakeââÂ
But it was too late.Â
He closed the distance in five quick strides, hands slidingâhot, sure, and very realâaround your waist before you could blink.Â
âJake!â you yelped, grabbing for his shoulders instinctively. âDonât you dare drop me.âÂ
âI wonât,â he said, and his voice was low, steadyâintimate. His arms tightened, cradling you to his chest like you weighed nothing. âPromise.âÂ
And then he jumped.Â
Your stomach lurched as the quarry disappeared beneath you, wind rushing past your ears and Jakeâs laugh rumbling against your chest like thunder. You had just enough time to register the way your hands clung to his bare shoulders, your legs instinctively curling in toward his hips. Too close. Too much. And then the water swallowed you whole. Â
You hit with a splash that echoed into the night, the cold shocking the breath from your lungs.Â
Then you surfaced, sputtering and gasping and laughing all at once, your arms still around him, his arms still around you.Â
âYouâre insane,â you managed between gulps of air.Â
Jake just smirked, water beading on his lashes. âYou screamed like I dropped you.âÂ
âYou practically did.âÂ
âSunshine,â he said, breathless but grinning, âif I was gonna drop you, Iâd have done it years ago.âÂ
And thatâthat did something to you. Right there in the dark water, bodies pressed close, his hands slipping lower on your waist under the guise of keeping you afloat.Â
You were in trouble.Â
And God, part of you wanted to sink.Â
Theyâd swum until their fingers pruned and their laughter turned breathless, and now theyâd settled into that easy lull that came afterâwhen bodies were tired, hearts were full, and the air buzzed soft with embers and crickets.Â
Jake had backed his truck up close to the fire pit like they used to, the tailgate down, a blanket thrown across it. Jimâs Jeep sat open nearby, the Bluetooth speaker tucked in the back playing low country guitar and soft vocals. The fire cracked and hissed, flames licking the dark, casting everyone in gold and shadow.Â
Someone passed around beersâcheap ones, mostly warm. Â
Cassidy nursed one, curled into a camp chair, retelling a story about Jim falling into the pond at homecoming and dragging Jake down with him. Â
Jake, sprawled across the tailgate with a damp shirt over his shoulder, let out a laugh and didnât deny it.Â
You were cross-legged on the blanket beside him, one of your knees brushing his, still barefoot, your hair drying in loose waves from the swim. Your fingers toyed with the label of your drink, half-listening, half-watching him.Â
Then, somewhere between Cassidy switching songs and Jim lighting another marshmallow on fire, Jake spoke.Â
âHeadinâ back to Lemoore at the end of the week. Probably going to get assigned to Miramar for a bit.âÂ
His voice was casualâtoo casual. Like he hadnât just thrown a rock into still water.Â
You looked over at him, brows drawn. âThat soon?âÂ
Jake didnât meet your eyes. âThey bumped up our schedule. Some new training pipeline starting. Just a few weeks of leave, thatâs all they could give me.âÂ
You nodded, slowly. âRight.âÂ
The laughter around the fire dulled. Cassidy stood to stretch. Jim made some excuse about early errands. One by one, everyone trickled offâhugging goodbye, slinging bags over shoulders, waving as headlights blinked on and tires crunched down the gravel road.Â
Until it was just you and Jake, sitting in the flickering light, the fire low and the night deepening around you.Â
He leaned back on his elbows, looking up at the sky. âStill remember all the constellations you taught me.âÂ
You didnât smile. Not quite. âYou only remembered the ones with good stories.âÂ
He turned his head toward you, eyes catching the last licks of firelight. âThey were good stories.âÂ
Silence stretched. Not heavy. Just full. Like neither of you quite knew how to fill it without saying too much.Â
Finally, you said, âFeels like you just got here.âÂ
Jake nodded but didnât respond.Â
The fire popped, loud in the quiet.Â
You looked down at your hands, at the chipped nail polish and the old friendship bracelet still tied around your wrist from a hundred summers ago. âI hate that I keep losing people.âÂ
Jake sat up slowly, shifting so he was facing you. âYou never lost me.âÂ
âDidnât I?â you asked, voice soft.Â
Jakeâs jaw flexed. âNo. You just⌠stayed. And I kept moving. But I always come back.âÂ
You held his gaze. âThen donât wait so long next time.âÂ
His smile, when it came, was smaller than before. Realer. âI wonât. Swear.âÂ
You didnât reach for him, not yet, but the space between you felt like it was humming. Something unspoken but pressing. A tension not quite resolved. A question neither of you had been brave enough to ask out loud.Â
The fire burned lower, but neither of you moved to leave. Not yet. Not while there was still something tethering you to the moment.Â
You werenât sure when Jake moved closerâonly that you felt it first.Â
A brush of his knee against yours. The shift of his arm, slow and deliberate, until his hand found the edge of the blanket beside yours. His pinky grazed your thigh, light enough to pretend it was accidental, intentional enough that your breath caught.Â
Neither of you said anything.Â
Your eyes stayed fixed on the fireâwhat was left of it. The glow that barely reached the stones. You could hear Cassidyâs car rumble down the path, followed by silence so deep it made your skin prickle.Â
Jake's voice broke it.Â
âI donât want to go back yet.âÂ
You looked at him, and something in your chest twisted.Â
âYou will, though.âÂ
âI have to.â He paused, then added, âBut tonightâcan we just... not think about that?âÂ
The air stretched taut between you. You couldâve filled it with sarcasm. With deflection. With every excuse you'd used before to keep your distance.Â
But the fire was almost out, the night was already too far gone, and the way he was looking at youâbarefoot, hair mussed from swimming, green eyes too honest under the moonlightâmade it impossible to pretend.Â
So you nodded.Â
Jake exhaled once, like youâd given him permission to breathe again, and then he reached for you.Â
Not with hunger, not at firstâbut with intention. A slow, steady pull, his hand at your back guiding you toward him, until your legs unfolded and you were in his lap, knees bracketing his hips, your hands planted on his chest to keep yourself steady.Â
You didnât kiss right away.Â
You just sat there, breathing each other in. Feeling the heat radiate off his skin, the way his fingers dug into your hips like he was grounding himself.Â
âI used to think about this,â he said quietly, his voice rough with restraint. âYou. Me. That summer before I left.âÂ
You nodded once, your lips inches from his. âI know.âÂ
His hands slid under the hem of your tank top, thumbs brushing the warm skin at your waist. His touch wasnât rushed, wasnât asking. Just there. Steady. Present.Â
And when he kissed you, it was slowâachingly so. His mouth moved over yours with a kind of reverence that made your chest go tight. Like he wasnât just kissing youâhe was remembering you. All of you.Â
The teasing, the heartbreak, the years in between.Â
And just like that, the dam broke.Â
You shifted in his lap, grinding down just enough to make him groan into your mouth. His hands moved to your thighs, gripping tight. Your fingers slid into his damp hair, tugging until he hissed.Â
âYou sure?â he asked, lips brushing yours.Â
You nodded, already breathless. âAre you?âÂ
His mouth curled against your skin. âHavenât been more sure of anything in a long time.âÂ
You pulled back just enough to meet his eyes, your hands resting on either side of his face. âThen donât be careful.âÂ
Something dark and beautiful flashed across his face.Â
âI wonât,â he saidâand then he laid you back against the blanket in the bed of the truck, body pressing into yours with all the weight of everything youâd both been trying not to say.Â
His mouth was on your neck, hot and possessive, tongue dragging against your pulse before he suckedâhard enough to make you gasp, hard enough to leave a mark.Â
âStill so goddamn sweet,â he muttered, voice thick, dragging his teeth across your collarbone as his hand slipped beneath the waistband of your shorts. âDid you miss this?â he asked, like he didnât already feel the way your hips tilted up into his hand, desperate.Â
You didnât answer. You couldnât. Not when he had his fingers on you, slipping past the cotton to find you already slick, already aching for him.Â
âFuck,â he groaned, eyes half-lidded as he dragged his fingers through you slowly. âLook at you.âÂ
Your hands tugged at his shirt until he helped you strip it off, baring warm, tanned skin and muscle. You leaned up and kissed his chest, teeth grazing just enough to make him hiss. He let you for a secondâthen gripped your jaw, tipped your head back, and kissed you hard.Â
There was no hesitation, no fumbling. Just heat and friction and a long-restrained hunger breaking wide open.Â
Jake didnât waste time after that. He shoved your shorts down your thighs with a growl low in his throat, cursing softly when they stuck to your skin. You reached for his jeans in the same breath, unbuttoning them with fingers that trembled more than youâd like to admit.Â
He pushed them down just far enough, then gripped your hips and dragged you to the edge of the tailgate until your legs dangled off. He didnât ask again. Didnât have to.Â
He lined himself up, dragged the head of his cock through your slick once, twice, teasing. You whimpered, hips chasing him, and Jake just grinnedâdark and hungry.Â
âStill impatient,â he murmured.Â
Then he sank into you in one deep, devastating thrust.Â
Your mouth fell open. No soundâjust the shock of being filled. He didnât move. Not right away. He stayed there, buried deep, jaw clenched tight as your thighs wrapped around his waist.Â
âYou always felt like this,â he rasped against your ear, hips starting to move. âTight. Hot. Fucking perfect.âÂ
He didnât take it slow. He fucked you like he meant it, like he was making up for every year apart, every near-miss, every memory that kept him up at night. His hand found your throatânot tight, just groundingâand his mouth was on your jaw, your shoulder, your chest. Your name fell from his lips between curses, breath shallow, body flush with yours.Â
You moaned for himâquiet and ruinedâand he kissed it from your mouth.Â
âTell me this ainât just memory,â he said, voice breaking, pace unrelenting. âTell me itâs still us.âÂ
You pulled him down until your forehead touched his, your voice catching. âItâs still us.âÂ
That broke something in him. His rhythm faltered, deepened, became messy and desperate, like he couldnât hold back anymore. You met every thrust, body straining for more, and when you came, it hit like a waveâviolent, hot, clenching around him so tight he choked on a moan and followed you over the edge.Â
He stayed inside you, panting, forehead pressed to your shoulder, one hand tangled in your hair.Â
Neither of you spoke for a long time.Â
Then Jake lifted his head, looked at you like heâd forgotten how to pretend.Â
âYouâre it,â he said hoarsely. âAlways been.âÂ
And when you kissed him again, you didnât say anything back.Â
You didnât have to.Â
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ice ice baby.
pairing: tyler owens x f!reader rating: 18+ (minors dni) warnings/triggers: i'm gonna go to horny jail. there's a lot of smut, some semblance of plot. you've been warned. mention of seppuku (ritualistic self-harm). word count: 4,540 summary: in the thick of an oklahoma heat wave, tyler owens, tornado wrangler himself, cools you down just to set you on fire. A/N: one of two entries for @echoingbirdsofpreyâs summer challenge on discord. prompt: âice cubesâ.  title inspired by vanilla iceâs âice ice babyâ.Â
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The little farmhouse with the cornflower blue front door and the wrap around porch on the outskirts of Marlow, Oklahoma was sweltering. Â
The once painted shut windows had been pried open, but the stickiness of humidity outside hadnât offered any relief. To call the air that whispered in on occasion a breeze would have been extremely generous and when it did slip in, youâd be pressed to call it more than the hot breath of yet more suffocating warmth.Â
It had been like this for daysâno reprieve.Â
It wrapped around the old house like a second skin, oppressive and thick, soaking into the swollen floorboards, the bedsheets that had been marketed as âalways cool!â (clearly, a lie), and every inch of exposed skin.Â
The first day had been a welcome change from the week of seemingly relentless rain, hell-bent on turning your and Tylerâs newly acquired seven acres into a squelching mud pit, killing the cute patch of tomatoes and cucumbers youâd planted just off the back porch.Â
And while youâd moped at the sight of the overwatered plants from the doorway, your fingers absently twisting the gold band on your left hand, you knew this shift in weather meant something else tooâyour favorite time: the end of storm season.Â
Heâd only been home a day and a half when the ceiling fan started its campaign of sabotage. You were still getting used to hearing his boots in the hall again as the two of you quickly learned that setting the ceiling fans to any speed above âTahitian beach resort in a movieâ would trip the circuit breaker. Â
After the third time emerging from the crawlspace hatch in the pantryâthe definitely-against-code breaker box tucked insideâhair dusted with cobwebs and sweat streaked with dirt across his brow, Tyler announced that you could both pretend it was a beach vacation. He promised to actually take you next month.Â
If you both survived the heat, of course.Â
How you married someone so goddamned optimistic was beyond you. Youâwho came from a family that treated complaining like an Olympic sport, where going home with anything less than a gold medal was a shame that required seppuku.Â
In the time youâd been with Tyler, youâd slowly adopted some of his optimism, almost in spite of the people who raised you. Thought outside of the box. Patched small problems with duct tape, stubbornness and a little imagination.Â
When the power had gone out once at his old place one summer, youâd hauled the blankets outside, made a bed on the porch and slept under the starsâsweat gathering under your palm where it rested on his chest, rising and falling with each breath.Â
You could do this. You could survive the heat.Â
Then, on the third day, in the early hours of the already sticky morning, the A/C gave one final, pathetic groan, followed by an acrid puff of smoke that had you both scrambling to shut off the breaker. Â
Tyler crouched beside the unit, toolbox already out, sweat clinging to his temples as he poked around with the kind of stubborn hope that usually ended in curses.Â
After twenty minutes and a long sigh, he wiped the back of his hand across his forehead and stood.Â
âItâs done,â he muttered, bunching up an oil-stained rag and placing his wide hands on his hips, squinting up at you on the porch. âIâll call Boone laterâsee if heâs got a part, but I think this old bastard might be beyond saving.âÂ
You didnât bother asking if Boone was a licensed HVAC technician. You knew better. Youâd seen him with Tylerâs truck and the Storm Chaser RV.Â
By 10 a.m., Tyler had declared war on his shirt, flinging it over the porch rail in silent surrender as sweat traced the curve of his spine like a winding river. Â
You caught a glimpse of him through the screen door that didnât shut quite right, hands on hips as he looked at the grey sky in the distance. Thought you heard him mumble something about a storm breaking soon. That once the rain came, itâd cut through the heat.Â
Youâd never wanted rain so badly.Â
âCrazy thought, Ty,â you sighed, padding barefoot across the sticky and cracked kitchen tile, âbut I think we should move to Michigan. Weâll give you a rebrand: Squall Seeker or something.âÂ
His soft laugh echoed from the other room as you pulled open the freezer and let yourself bask in the burst of cold air that escaped. It vanished too quickly, but you grabbed the ice trays and carried them to the sink.Â
Cracking the ice loose, you scooped cubes into tall glasses, watching one begin to melt almost instantly against your too-warm skin. You didnât flinch when it dripped between your fingersâjust held onto it, brought it up to the curve of your neck, slow and deliberate.Â
Eyes closed, you sighed, savouring the temporary reprieve, the cool path of water from the melting ice sliding down over your collarbone and disappearing beneath your shirt.Â
It was Tylerâs voice that pulled you back.Â
âYou tryinâ to kill me, sweetheart?â he drawled from the doorway at your back, voice low and rough, laced with a different kind of heatâthe kind that made your legs go soft, something hungry stirring just behind it.Â
You smirked, turning just enough to catch the glint in his eye, his arms folded across his bare, sweat-slicked chest, gaze locked on you, battered ball cap tucked on backward. âJust trying to cool off.âÂ
He pushed off the doorframe, slow, deliberate. The kind of movement, sauntering and careful, you knew was always followed by trouble. The good kind. The kind that left bruises on the fleshy parts of your thighs long after your heart settled and want melted into satisfied bliss.Â
âYouâre playing with fire,â he warned. You knew there was no danger behind it.Â
You plucked another cube from the tray and dragged it slowly down the side of your throat with a hum, the drip of condensation racing down your neck, your wrist. Â
âNo,â you smirked, forever sassy. âIâm playing with ice.âÂ
You felt it snap in himâthat heat-laced stillness breaking like a line of storm clouds overhead.Â
In three long strides, he was behind you, hands, tanned from the long days of storm chasing over the last month or so, coming down hard to frame your hips. The weight of him pressed your stomach into the edge of the counter and it pushed a gasp from your lips. But he didnât move. And you didnât want him to.Â
âGive it to me.â His lips were against the shell of your ear, one hand leaving your hips, palm open and waiting.Â
Without hesitation, you carefully placed the cool ice, already half melted, into the center of his large hand.Â
The first touch came to the back of your neckâa single cold drag of the ice down your spine that made you arch like youâd touched a live wire. Â
Reflexively, you reached back to grip his thigh through his jeans, anchoring yourself as he swept the cube lower, tracing it lazily over the exposed skin on your back until it met the waistband of your jean shorts.Â
âYou wearinâ anything under these?â he asked, the edge in his voice betraying that he already knew the answer.Â
You shook your head, the dizzy haze of want fast closing in like a vignette. Your body had already taken over; every nerve turned to the hard line of him pressed against your ass.Â
You could feel the low pulse between your thighs, a throb like a heartbeat.Â
His low groan vibrated against your back as he reached around, thumbed open the button of your shorts one-handed with practiced ease, and pushed the fabric down. The cotton hit the floor in a whisper at your feet.Â
The ice cube was nearly gone now, a trickle of cold water slipping down the back of your sweat-drenched thighs. It was little more than a slick on his fingersâbut still enough to make you gasp when he touched you.Â
You shifted, arching slightly, just enough for him to slide his hand around andâGodâtouch you where you were already aching for more, for him, his fingers finding your pulsing center like the eye of a storm.Â
The jolt of cold contrast was shock enough to pull his name from your lips on a breathless gasp.Â
âTyââÂ
âIâve got you, darlinââ he murmured, barely a whisper, his lips ghosting the curve of your throat as you opened to him, his fingers tracing the line of your slick folds. âJust let me cool you down.â Â
His right hand stayed firm on your hip, anchoring you in place as you pressed into his hand on instinct, chasing the pressure. He found your clit, stroking in an achingly slow, deliberate rhythm.Â
The moan that spilled from your mouth was involuntary, your whole body tightening with need as Tylerâs hips bucked against youâhis erection twitching against your bare skin, the heat between you building quickly toward something dangerously close to undoing.Â
You could barely stand it, having him this incredibly close andâmaddeninglyânot close enough. Not after weeks apart, imagining all the ways heâd fill you, riding out an orgasm alone to the sound of his voice across a phone line as he did the same.Â
Now that he was here, against you, one hand skating up under your shirt to pinch your peaked nipple, his other keeping time, working you with slick, steady strokes, the wet sounds becoming almost obscene. Â
You wanted it all. Greedy. Needy. Wet.Â
Youâd never felt closer to combustion. And yet, you never wanted him to stop.Â
You could feel it buildingâyour body tensing, begging for just a little bit more pressure, just one more stroke. Every nerve drawn taut, every flick of his calloused fingers coaxing you closer to the edge he clearly wanted you to fall over. Â
He was focused, relentless, even as he became impossibly harder against you, whispering how much he missed you, how much he loved you, how perfect you were beneath his hands. Â
He spoke each word like a promise, reaffirming vows heâd made the day he slipped a ring on your finger.Â
âI thought about you every night,â he murmured, breath warm against your neck. âMissed you so bad it hurt.âÂ
âFuckâTy, I...â you gasped, breath hitching as he nipped at the curve of your shoulder, then kissed the spot his teeth had scoredâhalf apology, half wicked promiseâas he rolled your nipple between his fingers.Â
âWhat was that, baby?â his voice was lyrical, teasing, a hum in your ear.Â
You could see the edge, feel it rising too fast toward a crest. But even through the panting, whimpering haze of want, you knewâyou didnât want to come undone alone.Â
Blindly, you reached back, found the line of his tented jeans, tugged when your words failed youânot enough to stop him, but enough to let him know. Not yet.Â
âTy,â you breathed, pleading, voice shaky on the precipice. âI want to feel you.âÂ
You knew it got his attention. You felt it in the way his hand slowed, just enough, in the way his breath stuttered against your neck as you pushed back against him, hips shifting, grinding.Â
You didnât miss the opportunity.Â
Reaching for another partially melted ice cube, you turned against his chest to face him, breathless and already flushed. He hissed when you pressed it to his peck, and it melted on contact. Reflexively, he caught your wrist, holding it between you both.Â
âIf youâre gonna tease,â he murmured, his eyes gleaming with something that set you alight, your thighs messy with your own slick, chest rising and falling fast. He dipped low, his mouth ghosting your jaw, âyouâd better be able to take the heat.âÂ
He kissed the spot near your ear, along your jaw, the corner of your mouth.Â
âIâm counting on it, Owens,â you huffed out a shaky breath, almost a laugh, light and airy.Â
That was all it took. He didnât waste any more time.Â
His mouth was on yours, hot, urgent, tongue brushing yours and sealing in your gasp as you wrapped your arms around his neck and he lifted you onto the counter at your back.Â
Tyler slotted himself between your legs in a fluid motion, his hands sliding up the outside of your bare legs, squeezing the curve of your ass pressed against the melamine.Â
He kissed his way downâlips brushing from one collarbone to the otherâthen mouthed your left breast and the right over your shirt, lingering. By the time he made it to the inside of your right knee, thunder cracked in the distance.Â
The loud boom rolled through the old house, rattling the thin windowpanes and making the screen door shiver. Glasses in the cabinet behind you clinked softly, kissing each other from the vibration, and the counter beneath you trembled as the boom gave way to a low, lingering echo.Â
It was nothing compared to the storm Tyler was stirring under your skin.Â
âYou hear that?â Â
You looked down at him, breath shaky, plucking the old beat-up hat off his head only to tug it onto your head backward before threading your fingers through his hair.Â
He paused for only a moment, grinned up at you before he continued, kissing higher, a whisper closer to where you needed him. Â
His lips grazed the small birthmark he once said looked like the last star in the handle of the little dipper. He was slower now, careful, his warm breath coming out in puffs against your skin between reverent kisses. Â
âI did,â he hummed. âDonât care.âÂ
A flash of lightning lit up the kitchen, a staccato pulse across his bare back as he continued to kiss up your inner thigh, his hands framing your hips like he couldnât bear to let you go for even a moment. Â
The next roll of thunder, paired with the small nip Tyler grazed against your skin caused you to jump. He was so close now, his warm breath on the cool wetness at the apex of your legs. Â
You gripped to edge of the counter tightly, your knuckles white.Â
âYou should care,â you whispered, tone wavering with the want barely concealed. You were on fire. A wave of heat that had nothing to do with the weather washing over you. He was so good at this. So good at knowing how to unravel you fast. Â
You swallowed hard before you spoke again. âCould be a funnel cloud.âÂ
âI care,â he murmured, breath hot against your thigh. âI care that youâre already shaking. That Iâve barely even started.âÂ
Your stomach clenched, breath catching as the bottom dropped out.Â
Tyler looked up onceâjust onceâand the way his eyes met yours, a storm brewing just behind the blue green of them, made your entire body stutter. There was something reverent there, something feral. He didnât speak. Didnât need to.Â
His hands slid beneath your thighs, lifting, adjustingâpulling you to the edge of the counter like heâd done it a thousand times in his mind since heâd been away. And then, with agonizing control, he sank to his knees.Â
Your world narrowed.Â
You could feel your pulse everywhereâyour throat, your fingertips, the place between your legs that throbbed with anticipation.Â
He didnât touch you yet. You were sure youâd die if he didnât do it soon.Â
But Tyler had never been the kind of man to rush the part you knew heâd missed the most.Â
His thumb stroked lazy half-circles against your inner thighs, grounding you in a moment when you thought the anticipation of his touch where you needed him might lift you off the counter.Â
âJesus,â he murmured, and you just about opened your mouth to fire off a smart-ass comment about something sacrilegious when the words caught in your throat.Â
The first brush of his mouth came like a promise. Gentle. Teasing. Testing. An excruciatingly slow drag of his mouth across your clit that had your hips jerking up into him and a gasp ripping from your lips before you could stop it.Â
Your head cracked back against the cupboards. Your heels dug into his back, pressing him closer. Wordlessly begging for more.Â
âThatâs it,â he breathed against your soaked center, pulling back just enough that you whined over the loss of sensation. âLet me hear you. Want the neighbours three houses down to know Iâm taking care of you.âÂ
His tongue followed, flat, hot and slow, before adopting a torturous rhythmâlike he had all the time in the world to reacquaint himself with you, to claim you again with nothing but his mouth.Â
He shifted, his shoulders pushing under your legs now to get a new angle, arms wrapped around, palms pressing your thighs open as you pressed back against the pleasure. His fingers bit into the soft skin there, hard enough that it sent another tremor of bittersweet ache straight through you.Â
Outside, the storm was closer now, another roll of thunder shook the farmhouse. This time, you moaned with it, fingers twisting in his hair, back arched, already close.Â
âTylerââ it was barely a sound, lost on the last of the echo of thunder. A plea.Â
He groaned, like the sound of his name on your lips, the wild, uncontrolled buck and grind of your hips into his mouth was enough to make him come.Â
The vibration of it nearly undid you.Â
âYou taste like every goddamned mile I had to drive to get back to you,â he said, voice hoarse, rough, nearly broken with his own need.Â
He didnât stop. Didnât falter.Â
And when he finally sucked just hard enough, tongue flicking in just the right pattern, you came apart at the carefully held together seamsâthighs trembling, breath shattered, his name on your lips like the only true thing in this whole world.Â
Tyler didnât let up, pushing you to the edges of overstimulation, squirming against his mouth until you sagged back against the upper cabinets, spent and dizzy, your hand sliding from his hair as your chest heaved.Â
When he stood, his lips were slick with you, eyes blown wide with heat and something elseâsomething tender, something completely and always yours.Â
You reached for him, the greedy, empty feeling still begging for the stretch of him.Â
âStill hot?â he asked with a crooked, lazy grin. You could feel his heartbeat in his lips, tasted yourself on them as you pulled him to you and he deepened the kiss.Â
âI think you broke the thermometer, Owens.âÂ
You were pulsing again, sated only enough to know there was still an ache only his cock could soothe. You arched into him, your chest, nipples still peaked through the thin layer of tank top, pressed hard against his.Â
He knew what you wanted. You could tell by the way he chuckled, kissed your jaw, then your temple. âStormâs just about to open up. Maybe we oughta see if the bedroomâs any cooler...âÂ
âTake me to bed, then.âÂ
He kissed you slow and deep, your thighs sticking to the counter as he peeled you off and your legs hitched around his waist.Â
âSweetheart,â he rasped, shifting you in his arms like you weighed nothing, âIâm gonna take you through every kind of storm tonight.âÂ
By the time youâd made it to the bedroom, youâd lost your tank top but still wore Tylerâs hat. Â
Halfway up the stairs, he sat you on the first landing, peeled away the last scrap of clothing on your body, and closed his mouth around a hardened nipple.Â
The tread bit into your low back. Head tipped, mouth slack, you were pretty sure your brain might just leak out your ears as a curseâlong and drawn outâslipped from your lips on a moan.Â
You didnât mention how unfair it was that he was still wearing those damn jeans.Â
The storm had rolled directly overhead by the time he lowered you onto the bed.Â
âYou sure youâre not too tired?â you teased, propping yourself up on your elbows as an impossibly loud peel of thunder rolled deeply, rumbled in your chest. The cousin flash of lightning lit up the room in a bright white blue on its heels.Â
All you could focus on was the way Tyler took you inâhis eyes scanning you, pupils blown wideârousing that hollow clench between your legs.Â
Your eyes flickered down to the offending jeans, belt buckled and a dull shine in the low light.Â
You bit your bottom lip, hard. You werenât above begging Tyler for his cock. You knew he liked itâliked when you were pleading for the stretch of him, your desperation turning to something nearly feral when he gave you what you needed.Â
He shook his head, as if the question were ridiculous, undeserving of an answer. Then, his knee sank into the mattress between your thighs and his mouth caught yoursâhungry, open, stealing the breath right from your chest.Â
âSweetheart, I could be half-dead and Iâd still crawl after you.âÂ
He was kissing you again, slow, deepâlike he could stay there, between your thighs for the rest of his life and die happy. As if he could live off your breath and the sounds you made for him alone.Â
When he finally pulled back, he hovered, his heavy breaths mingling with your own as his hips pressed down, just enough to let you feel him. The hard line of his readiness, still clothes, still infuriatingly distant.Â
âTy,â you whispered, your breath catching as he pressed again, a long drag against your core.Â
You felt the smirk on his mouth as his lips ghosted your jaw, your throat. âWhat do you need, baby?â he murmured, voice ragged, just this side of ruined, a step away from losing control. âTell me.âÂ
You arched beneath him, restless, chasing the friction. âYou,â you huffed. âI need you.âÂ
But he didnât move. Not yet. His hand drifted down between your bodies, found your wetness, stroked once, then twice in lazy circles. âNeed me how?âÂ
You bit back the delirious moan as he slowly slid a finger into you, offering a long, languid stroke and then another before adding a second finger. He curled them inside you, searching for the spot that made you see actual fucking stars. Â
âLike this?âÂ
Your mind was on fire, so unsure of what sensation to lend attention to that you almost didnât register the sound of his belt coming off.Â
âLike this?â he repeated, voice thick with heat, curling his fingers again in a slow, devastating rhythm.Â
Your mouth fell open, a strangled noise slipping free. You were far too gone to be embarrassed by it.Â
You were shaking your head before the words caught up. âN-no,â you managed, even as your hips bucked into his hand, chasing more, always chasing him. âFuck, Ty. Iâ,â a moan ripped through you, âI need you. Please. Baby. Inside of me. Need to feel you. Please.âÂ
He pulled his fingers from you as he tugged off his jeans with a groan, almost as though the pressure of them was too much now. Â
Even in the dimness of the room, you could see the darkened patch on the material of his boxers.Â
He cursed lowâdeep and gutturalâas he shoved the boxers down just enough, his cock springing free, flushed and hard, leaking at the tip. He braced one arm beside your head, the other wrapping around your thigh, lifting, spreading, possessing.Â
You barely breathed.Â
And then he was thereâright thereârubbing the head of his cock against your soaked entrance, teasing the glide of it through your slick folds, but not pushing in. Not yet.Â
âGoddamn, baby,â he rasped, voice breaking. âYouâre so fucking ready for me.âÂ
You whinedâactually whinedâand thatâs what did it.Â
He sank into you in one long, slow thrust, your bodies slotting together like gravity had pulled him home. The stretch was everythingâjust the way you remembered, just the way you dreamed it would be when he was gone.Â
âFuck,â he gritted out, his forehead pressing to yours, hips trembling as he held himself still, buried deep, as if he were trying to regain some control. âYou have no idea how good you feelâŚâÂ
You clenched around himâreflexive, greedyâand felt the sharp jerk of his hips in response, a muttered curse punched against your throat.Â
His breath stuttered above you. Â
âJesus. Baby, Iâm trying toââ he broke off, eyes shut tight like he could breathe the edge away. ââslow down.âÂ
But your body didnât want slow. It wanted all of him. Yesterday.Â
You rolled your hips once, wicked, a deliberate grind, and his restraint shattered like glass.Â
He was everywhere.Â
The weight of him above you, the stretch of him inside you, the gravel in his voice rasping low in your earâthatâs it, baby, just like thatâpulling you closer to the edge with every thrust.Â
Your body trembled, arching into him, chasing the drag of his cock, slick and perfect, dragging over every place you needed him most. The rhythm had turned punishing in its precisionâeach stroke purposeful, hitting that spot deep inside you that made your vision blur.Â
You couldnât think. Couldnât speak.Â
Only feel.Â
âTyââ It came out strangled, broken by a moan. âTyler, IâmââÂ
âI know,â he breathed, forehead pressed to yours again, his hips never faltering. âI feel it. Let go for me, sweetheart. Iâve got you.âÂ
Your hands clung to his back, nails digging into his sweat-slicked skin. Your legs were shaking, the pleasure cresting so violently it almost hurtâtightening like a fist in your gut.Â
And thenâÂ
He shifted, angled just right, and with one hard thrust that hit deep, his thumb found your clit, circling fast and tight.Â
It was over.Â
Your orgasm crashed over you with a force that stole your breathâyour cry sharp, your whole body going rigid beneath him as you shattered around him, your walls pulsing, clenching, holding him in a vice that tore a low curse from his throat.Â
âFuck, babyââ Â
He barely got the words out before he was right there with you.Â
His hips stuttered, lost their rhythm, and then he buried himself to the hilt, groaning into your neck as he came hard, hot, his body trembling as you took every last pulse of it from him.Â
For a long moment, neither of you moved. Just your hearts, pounding against each other, your breath tangled between kisses, your bodies locked in a kind of aftershock.Â
Tyler didnât pull away. Didnât speak.Â
He just held you tighter, like the space between your bodies was the only safe place on earth, fingers tangled in your hair. You could feel his heartbeat against your ribs, wild and full.Â
âIce cubes, huh?â He murmured between breathless presses of ginger kisses just under your ear. âWeâre keepinâ those up here from now on.âÂ
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Let's say he's a werewolf.
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Capt Syverson, all man but hidden wolf, has been hooking up with you for months. He told you he was a werewolf; you said "nice". He said he could smell your arousal; you said "good". You fucked then, but he didn't knot you.
"Is this because I'm *not* a wolf", you asked afterward, admittedly with a bit of petulance.
"Naw", he assured you. "I don't wanna hurt ya. That pussy's the best I've gotten in years. I'd rather not get cut off over a stupid mistake." He promised he was working up to it, but it's. been. MONTHS.
The full moon is in two days, and he's desperate, vibrating like a nest of angry hornets. You run him a cool bath, wash him nice and slow, massaging as you work your way from head to toe. He relaxed finally. Well, not Lil Captain. His ample girth has let you know what it wants: first, flopping up onto his belly; then bouncing and throbbing whenever you touched a spot he likes; and then, oh fuck, it seemed to curved toward you when you leaned over him to grab the shampoo. You knew he'd caught your scent full in the face. He was absolutely going to give you his knot tonight.
You had him on his back in bed, a faint sheen on his skin from the oil you'd rubbed into him. He was good and spoiled, looking half-asleep but ready to fuck you senseless. So you climbed aboard, took him all at once, nice and slow. He sighed happily as you did, letting you run the show. You also rode him nice and slow, and for the first time, you felt his knot swell at the base. You swirled your hips, switched back and forth on it, teasing. Then you reached down and lightly scratched at it.
Syverson croaked out a moan, eyes open and pupils blown. He was panting, watching you watch him. His hands clenched your hips, and you knew what he wanted, but he held back. So you kept swirling and scratching, tickling at his knot, driving him crazy. His hips canted beneath you in a staccato rhythm: he was close, but still not ready for total surrender.
You leaned forward, kissing up his chest to his neck. You nibbled at him. You knew he loved it. It was a wolf thing. The mating ritual required broken skin and blood, but a gentle bite was erotic. So you focused on the area where his neck met his shoulder, licking and grazing with your teeth. He held your hips with a vice grip, his own pounding you from below.
"Yer gonna make me cum", he groaned. "Yer gonna make me cum... fuck" Syverson was begging and insistent, needy. You bit him properly, and that was it: He pushed your hips down firmly, your slick heat slipping around his knot until you were fully seated. Your eyes rolled back in your head, and you came instantly. "Aw, please", he whimpered, your cunt squeezing him so deliciously tight. "Make me cum."
You felt Syverson's cock swell, then he released a hot, thick load, more than he'd ever cum with you before. He held you tight to him, grinding and moaning like his soul was escaping his body. He throbbed so hard, so deep that, combined with the ropy jets still filling your canal, you found yourself shuddering in pleasure again.
"You know we're stuck like this until I calm down", Syverson muttered into your ear, a few minutes later. You nodded, just catching your breath. He flipped you over, a lascivious glint lighting his eyes. He started thrusting again, grinning as your eyes got wide. "That ain't gonna be for awhile." He pressed against you, grunting when you reflexively clenched. "Yer too good a fit, darlin'. I might be here all night." He accentuated his point by raising your hips and putting a pillow under your bum. "Hang on tight, girl". You chuckled as he began Round Two.
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the line between rival and regret ; a top gun: maverick rivalry story [part one]

word count: 6.5k words
synopsis: the dagger squad returns for a new mission, but something feels off. unfamiliar faces are watching, and a rival team is coming. when their leader is revealed, rooster's past catches up with him fast. hangman, on the other hand, is hit with a memory he probably should not have enjoyed as much as he did. what happens when the line between rival and regret gets too thin?
warnings: mild language, military tension, mentions of past conflict, unresolved emotional history, subtle trauma undertones, slow burn rivalries, everyone has something to prove.
flight log: finally, after a few months of working on this fic, i can finally share it with you. this story means a lot to me and iâve poured so much into the characters, the tension, and the slow build. updates will be posted daily since everythingâs already in draft, so buckle up. itâs about to get intense, aviators. also, reader is written as a full character.
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The chairs had hardly cooled from their last mission debrief when the Dagger Squad was called again. This time, they met in a secured conference room at the northern edge of the base. It had reinforced windows and no decoration except for the Navy insignia above the main screen.Â
The air inside was filtered and cold, creating an uncomfortable silence. The squad entered quietly and arranged themselves by proximity and rapport. Rooster sat next to Phoenix, Payback paired with Fanboy, and Hangman maintained his usual distance in the front, casual yet alert.Â
At the front of the room, Vice Admiral Beau Simpson stood with a crisp uniform and exact posture. His expression was unreadable. Although no announcement had been made, the tension suggested something serious was afoot.Â
Next to him was Commander Bates, Warlock, holding a secure tablet. His eyes scanned the room without saying a word. Both men stood still for a long moment.
That was enough to put Rooster on edge, though he hid it well. He focused on maintaining the rigid composure of military discipline, watching the Admiral as intently as he did in the cockpit.Â
Then Admiral Simpson stepped forward and spoke. His steady, low voice cut through the silence. âYou are not here for a debrief.âÂ
The words landed clearly, but the room remained motionless. Only a slight tilt of Phoenixâs head, a narrowing of Hangmanâs eyes, and Bobâs subtle shift in his seat showed they were paying close attention. The Admiral waited a moment before continuing, his tone lacking ceremony.Â
âEffective immediately, all Top Gun graduates here are assigned to a temporary classified mission. This operation takes priority over any current postings, and your participation has already been approved by your respective chains of command.âÂ
He paused to let the information sink in, then turned slightly to address the screen behind him. Warlock tapped his tablet, and the central monitor turned on, but it remained blank for now. The Admiral then returned his attention to the squad.Â
âThe operation is called Project Olympus.âÂ
A brief silence followed. Rooster frowned slightly at the name, but he said nothing. It sounded grand, almost theatrical, but the Admiralâs tone was purely factual.Â
Commander Bates took a step forward, standing just beside the Admiral but at a respectful distance behind. His voice was less commanding than Simpsonâs, but it was still clear.
âThis is not a training assignment,â he said, his tone calm but firm. âAnd this is not an evaluation of your past performance. You have already shown your skills in the field.âÂ
Hangman shifted in his seat again, but this time, he didn't smile. His focus sharpened as Warlock continued. âInstead, Project Olympus is a joint-force initiative that needs the leadership of an elite strike team. That position has not been decided yet.âÂ
A wave of tension spread through the room, slight but clear. Phoenixâs fingers tapped against the folder in front of her. Fanboy shared a quick glance with Payback, and Bob let out a slow breath through his nose. No one spoke.Â
Then, Admiral Simpson resumed. âYou will not get this mission based on your last performance. You will earn it by doing better than the squad selected to compete against you.âÂ
He paused for a moment, letting the weight of his words linger before he continued. âThe purpose of this competition is to assess how well you adapt tactically, plan strategically under pressure, and perform in flight across various simulations and real conditions.âÂ
Although the Admiralâs tone did not change, the significance of his message began to weigh heavily in the room. The Dagger Squad had trained to be the best. They had proven that much. But this was different. This was a challenge to their standing.Â
Rooster leaned forward slightly, though not enough to attract attention unless someone looked closely. The air felt more tense than it had ten minutes ago, as if a layer of certainty had been stripped away from beneath them.Â
Commander Bates cleared his throat softly, then added, âThe competing unit is one you have probably never faced. They are not part of Top Gun. They are not assigned through traditional command structures. Their work is operational, off the books, and permanent.âÂ
Simpsonâs gaze remained steady. âThey are called Shadow Squadron.âÂ
No one moved, but the change in atmosphere was clear. Phoenix blinked slowly. Hangman's jaw tightened. Even Bob, who rarely showed emotion in settings like this, lowered his eyes, furrowing his brow as if he were trying to remember whether he had ever heard that name before.Â
The Admiral did not explain further, nor did he allow for questions. Instead, he nodded once to Warlock, who tapped the tablet. The screen behind them flickered and then displayed a grainy surveillance image of a jet climbing against the bright sky, sleek and unmarked, recognizable only by its path and the accuracy of its movements.Â
âYou will meet them soon,â the Admiral said, then he stepped back.Â
The screen stayed still for several seconds after the image appeared, as if the silence itself demanded attention. Then, without any gesture or command, Captain Mitchell quietly stepped forward from where he had been standing near the back. Until that moment, his presence had gone almost unnoticed.
He had separated himself from the other officers, leaning against the far wall with his arms crossed and his expression hard to read. Only now did he move to stand next to the Admiral and Commander Bates, glancing briefly at the image on the screen before turning his attention to the Dagger Squad seated in front of him.Â
For a moment, he remained silent. He scanned the familiar faces, those he had trained, flown with, and fought for. There was something almost serious in the way he looked at them.
When he finally spoke, his voice was steady, but a slight shift in tone marked it as different from the formal briefing so far.Â
âI wonât be present for most of this assignment,â Maverick said, lightly clasping his hands behind his back. âYouâll still have access to command, of course. Iâll check in as needed, but for the majority of this evaluation, Iâll observe from a distance.âÂ
The squad was taken aback by the statement, but no one interrupted. Hangman leaned back in his chair, a brow raised, while Phoenix narrowed her eyes with suspicion. Even Rooster, who had become accustomed to his godfatherâs presence both in and out of the cockpit, tilted his head slightly, waiting for an explanation that didnât come.Â
Maverick continued before anyone could respond. âThe reason is simple. It wouldnât be fair.âÂ
There was no judgment in his tone, just a quiet fact. He looked at them closely, as if making sure they understood without needing more explanation.Â
âThe squad youâre flying against has no captain,â he added after a pause. âThey operate under a different structure. Their commanding officer is a lieutenant. If I stayed too involved, it could upset the balance of the evaluation.âÂ
The room absorbed this slowly. Commander Bates stayed still, while Admiral Simpson showed no expression at all. Meanwhile, a faint buzz could be heard from somewhere near the corner of the room, possibly from an unseen vent or cooling unit, but even that felt muted under the weight of Maverickâs words.Â
âSo, from now on,â Maverick said, âyouâll report to Admiral Simpson and Commander Bates for all formal matters. If you need my input, Iâll provide it through secure channels. Otherwise, youâre on your own.âÂ
There was no finality in his voice, but a sense of distance had crept in, one that hadnât been there during the last mission. This was no longer the tight-knit team preparing for an almost impossible strike. This was a competition, and Maverick had stepped back from the field.Â
Still, before he returned to his spot at the back of the room, he let his gaze linger a moment longer on them. He offered no advice or encouragement, just a quiet nod that conveyed what he chose not to express.
After Captain Mitchell stepped back into the shadows, silence filled the room. It did not ask to be filled; it pressed down like a second atmosphere. The Dagger Squad sat still, absorbing the weight of what had just been said.Â
While no one said it out loud, Maverick's absence felt odd. His presence had always been constant, even when his methods were illogical or his attitude bent the rules. His stepping aside without a word suggested that this new squad was not only different but also dangerous.Â
Admiral Simpson continued the briefing without pause. His voice once again became the only sound that mattered. âIn the next seventy-two hours, you will start preliminary integration. You will stay in separate quarters from the opposing squad and be briefed individually throughout the evaluation. All exercises will be watched and recorded under Joint Operations protocol. You are expected to keep the same level of professionalism you demonstrated during your last deployment.â
The Admiral scanned the table with precise attention. He did not raise his voice or add flair to his words. There was no need. Each word landed exactly as it should.Â
âInsubordination, disrespect, or failure to meet this standard will be recorded and will affect your final assessment. This is not a game, and this is not an exercise to see who can fly faster or talk louder. You are being observed to determine which squad can perform when the mission becomes real. That is all.â
With that, he stepped aside again, letting Commander Bates take over. The change in speaker was subtle but significant. Warlockâs posture was slightly less stiff; his tone stayed formal but had a familiarity the Admiral did not show.
âYouâll get your schedules within the hour. Your first simulation is set for 0600 tomorrow. There wonât be any joint briefings before then. For now, you are dismissed to your assigned quarters. You can direct any questions through the proper channels.â
No one moved at once. It was not exactly hesitation, but a shared moment to regroup. The atmosphere had shifted too much to simply stand and leave.
Even Hangman, who usually jumped up first to stretch his legs and crack a joke, stayed still a moment longer, his eyes slightly narrowed in thought.Â
Then, as if triggered by an invisible signal, the room changed. Chairs moved back, folders were collected, and whispers began to rise. The formal structure of the meeting broke apart, yet tension lingered like static.Â
Rooster stayed seated until Phoenix nudged his arm lightly. He got up without saying anything, still processing all they had just heard.Â
Meanwhile, near the back, Hangman leaned closer to Bob as they exited through the side door, his voice low enough to avoid being heard by the officers still present.
âYou ever hear of a squad being run by a lieutenant?â he murmured. Â
Bob shook his head, then glanced over his shoulder. âNever. Thatâs... unusual.â Â
âItâs not just unusual,â Hangman replied, sounding more serious now, though he still carried that familiar edge of challenge. âItâs strategic. Theyâre hiding something. No captain, no ranking voice, just a name and a shadow. Boring.â Â
Fanboy caught part of the sentence as he walked by but didnât say anything. Whatever Shadow Squadron was, it was clear it operated on a different logic, one that didnât fit into Dagger Squadâs world. Â
By the time they exited into the hall, the sunlight outside had faded to a muted blue. The base beyond the windows buzzed with the usual activity of aircraft and personnel, but everything felt distant, like it belonged to a different reality. Â
Within the next twenty-four hours, Dagger Squad would face their rivals. Whatever shadow awaited them would not be easy to escape. Â
Outside the briefing room, the hallway buzzed with a different kind of energy. It was the kind that came after secrets were shared and before battle lines were drawn.
The Daggers moved in small groups, some lingering by the door while others made their way toward the long corridor that led to their new barracks.Â
There was no real formation now; formality ended once the door closed behind them. Â
Rooster walked with Phoenix and Bob, their steps steady but relaxed. Phoenix had her arms crossed, her brow furrowed and her mouth set in a line that dared anyone to speak first. Rooster looked at her, waiting, then finally broke the silence. Â
âA lieutenant in command. Thatâs rare,â he said quietly, not quite asking a question. Â
âRare or reckless,â Phoenix replied, her voice sharp. âIt depends on whoâs making the choice.â Â
Bob kept looking forward, but his tone was thoughtful when he added, âYou donât get put in charge of a squad like that unless youâre good, or dangerous, or both.â Â
Meanwhile, further ahead, Hangman was halfway through a provocative sentence. He walked beside Coyote and Fritz, his arms swinging a little too casually, his voice loud enough for anyone nearby to hear. Â
âA black-ops squad with no captain?â Hangman scoffed, smirking to himself. âSounds like someone forgot to finish building the team. Maybe theyâre still waiting for the adult to show up.â Â
Fritz chuckled quietly, shaking his head. âCome on, man. You donât think thereâs something off about it?â Â
âOh, thereâs something off,â Coyote said, smiling without humor. âThatâs what makes it interesting.â Â
âInteresting is what they call it when youâre about to get your ass kicked,â Fanboy said from behind them. He walked with Payback, both of them curious, though Payback seemed more amused than anxious. Â
âTheyâre probably trained differently,â Payback said. âFewer rules, more results. The kind of pilots who fly like missiles and think like algorithms.â Â
âSounds boring,â Harvard muttered, rolling his shoulders back. He walked with Yale and Omaha, the three of them locked in their own triangle of confidence. Â
âSounds precise,â Yale corrected. âProbably the kind of flying that looks like choreography.â Â
âI donât care how pretty they fly,â Omaha said, his voice low but certain. âIf they think theyâre taking the mission from us, theyâll have to claw it out of our hands.â Â
Behind them, Halo jogged lightly to catch up, her hair tied back, her face unreadable. She had said little during the debrief, but now that they were alone, her expression was no longer neutral. There was something sharp in her eyes as she joined the others, just in time to hear Hangman still talking. Â
âYou know what I think?â Hangman offered, as if anyone around had asked. âI think theyâre overhyped. All this mystery and secrecy. No names, no faces, no captain. Makes you wonder if they even exist, or if someone made them up to scare us into trying harder.â Â
âThat would explain your ego,â Halo said, brushing past him. âAlways needs an enemy to feel important.â Â
Fritz let out a low whistle, and Coyote snorted. Hangman, to his credit, only grinned, watching her with a mock-wounded look that no one believed. Â
âOh, sheâs got claws,â he said. Â
âSheâs got aim too,â Bob reminded him, finally chiming in from behind, his tone mild but his eyes sharp. âMaybe donât test either.â Â
The group began to slow as they reached the doors to the new barracks. The building had no sign, no designation, just a secured keypad and a reinforced handle.
It looked like it had been added to the base quietly, without ceremony. Inside, the lights were on, and the halls were clean, empty, and unsettlingly quiet. Â
Phoenix glanced over her shoulder as they entered. âHow long until we meet them?â Â
Rooster didnât answer. Neither did anyone else.
Because no matter how confident they were, how loudly they joked, or how calmly they walked, each of them felt the same thing creeping up the back of their necks. The shadow was already moving.Â
The temporary barracks had a cold, efficient design, meant more for containment than comfort. The walls were sterile white, and the air carried that faint metallic chill typical of new buildings. The Dagger Squad walked through the corridor, their boots echoing softly against the polished floor. They spoke in low voices as they made their way to their assigned quarters.Â
Their rooms were organized in pairs, with each duo sharing an adjoining bathroom and a small common space at the end of the hall. It felt like a mix between an officerâs quarters and a mission bunker; clean, strategic, and impersonal.Â
âFeels like weâre being watched already,â Harvard said as he stepped into the room he would share with Yale. He dropped his duffel onto the lower bunk without hesitation and walked over to the window.
The glass was narrow, just a slit in the wall, but it gave a view of the adjacent hangar. âThereâs no way theyâre not monitoring everything.âÂ
Yale followed him in and turned on the overhead light. âThatâs the point of an evaluation,â he said simply. âLet them watch. Theyâll see what weâre made of.âÂ
Down the hall, Phoenix entered her room with Halo. The two women had developed a smooth rhythm together over the past few months, a respectful, direct style with enough space to coexist without crowding. Phoenix glanced around the room once, then leaned her shoulder against the doorframe.Â
âYou think theyâre already here?â she asked in a low voice.Â
Halo tossed her gear onto the desk and took off her jacket, her expression hard to read. âMaybe. If they are, theyâre staying quiet.âÂ
âTheyâre called Shadow,â Phoenix replied, pushing off the door and stepping inside. âQuiet is probably part of the brand.âÂ
Meanwhile, Bob stood in the narrow hallway outside his room, looking at the names on the doors. He saw his last name just as Fanboy leaned around the corner, already talking.Â
âWe get surveillance access to the hangar?â Fanboy asked, raising his eyebrows as if Bob had the authority to grant it. âJust want to know whoâs parking what.âÂ
âI think youâre overestimating how many secrets I have,â Bob answered, though a faint smile crept onto his face. He opened the door and stepped inside, thankful for the familiar shape of the bunk and the soft sound of the central air unit.
Further down, Rooster stood near the end of the hallway, alone for the moment. He had not yet unpacked. Instead, he leaned against the wall beside the common area, watching the others move through the space.
He had spent most of the walk over in silence, letting the noise around him fill in the gaps. Now, though, the silence crept in again.
It wasnât fear exactly. It was more like tension, like the kind that coiled low in his gut when the deck went too still before a carrier launch. The kind that made him glance up instinctively, as though expecting movement in the skies above.
Coyote and Omaha entered the common room with Payback and Fritz, all of them carrying their duffels and a few convenience snacks scavenged from the vending machine down the hall. The moment they saw the bare table in the center of the room, Omaha dropped his bag and pulled out a deck of cards.
âYou want to talk big game, you bring it to the table, baby,â he said, already shuffling.
âIâm going to destroy you,â Payback warned, cracking open a bottle of water and kicking his boots off.
Fritz dropped into a chair beside him, pulling out his phone to check the time. âThink theyâll show up tonight?â
âNo way,â Coyote replied. âTheyâll wait. Make us sweat.â
âThey wonât make me sweat,â Hangman said from the doorway. He leaned one shoulder against the frame, arms crossed, the look on his face bordering smug. âTheyâre just people. Maybe better trained, maybe quieter, but still people. Weâve flown harder missions. Weâve hit higher stakes. And we made it out.â
âShadowâs not about stakes,â Fanboy said as he stepped inside, catching the end of the conversation. âTheyâre about control. You donât even see them until itâs too late.â
âThat sounds like myth-making to me,â Hangman replied, though he didnât move from where he stood. âTheyâre good, sure. But all that silence and secrecy? Thatâs usually a sign someone wants to look scarier than they are.â
Rooster pushed off the wall then, finally speaking. âOr maybe they just donât need the noise.â
That silenced the room more than anything else had all day.
No one replied. No one argued. The cards hit the table again. Somewhere in the building, a ventilation unit clicked softly to life. The sun outside had dipped fully below the horizon, leaving only pale light spilling from overhead fixtures and the dull hum of fluorescent bulbs.
The squad settled in for the night, but the atmosphere never quite relaxed. They spoke like pilots off-duty, but their hands stayed close to their gear. They laughed, but their eyes drifted toward the doors each time a hallway creaked. None of them said it aloud, but they all knew the truth.
The longer the shadows waited, the louder the silence grew.
Night settled slowly, but the squad did not scatter to sleep as quickly as command might have expected. Instead, they lingered in the common room, sprawled across the worn couches and rigid chairs that lined the space like an afterthought.Â
The overhead lights were dimmed slightly, casting a soft yellow hue across the room that made everything feel smaller, quieter. Someone had turned on the wall-mounted television, but the volume remained low enough that no one could follow what was playing.
It served more as a distraction rather than entertainment, like something to keep the silence at bay.
Coyote had stretched out across one of the couches, hands folded behind his head as he stared at the ceiling. Occasionally, he would chime in with a one-liner or an offhand thought, but mostly he listened.Â
Omaha leaned against the armrest beside him, flipping through a worn deck of cards. He had stopped playing twenty minutes ago, but the habit of shuffling and reordering the deck gave his hands something to do.
In one corner, Halo and Phoenix sat side by side, their legs stretched out in front of them, arms crossed in quiet reflection. Neither spoke often, but both kept their eyes alert, occasionally scanning the doorway as if expecting someone to appear.Â
They had not spoken much about the squad they were about to face, but it lingered at the edges of every thought, unspoken and constant.
Bob had claimed a seat near the wall, close enough to the rest of the squad to stay involved, but with enough distance to keep to himself. He had a notebook open in his lap, though he wasnât writing in it, just occasionally flipping the pages as if scanning old notes.Â
Fanboy sat on the floor nearby, tossing a small rubber ball against the far wall, catching it every time with mechanical ease. Each quiet thump echoed just enough to fill the spaces between their conversations.
Payback was the most relaxed among them, or at least pretending to be. He had propped his boots up on the edge of the table, leaning back in his chair with his arms folded behind his head, occasionally whistling quietly to himself. Beside him, Fritz kept checking his phone, scrolling through the same three screens as if expecting a notification that would change everything.
Hangman stood near the doorway again, arms crossed, gaze flicking between the television and the hallway outside. Despite his posture, there was something restrained in him tonight, a tension he hadnât voiced. He cracked jokes and threw smirks like usual, but they didnât land quite the same. The quiet was wearing on all of them.
Harvard and Yale sat at the far end of the room, trading observations in soft voices. The two had always operated like mirror images, calm under pressure and rarely rattled, but tonight their conversation was shorter than usual. They were focused, their words clipped, as if preparing for a chess match they had not yet seen the board for.
Rooster remained near the back wall, seated with one boot resting on his opposite knee, watching the group in silence. He didnât need to speak to be present. His posture, relaxed but aware, said enough. Every now and then, he would glance at the hallway that led back to the barracks entrance, but there was no movement. Not yet.
Eventually, someone cracked a joke about Shadow Squad being government-trained phantoms, and a few soft chuckles broke the stillness. But the laughter didnât last long. It faded quickly, swallowed by the silence that followed, as if even their jokes could not stretch far enough to reach past what they didnât yet understand.
It wasnât fear exactly, none of them would admit to that, but there was something close to it. A discomfort in the unknown, a low buzz of pressure that they could not quite shake. They had faced real enemies before. They had flown against impossible odds. But this time, the enemy was faceless, silent, and walking the same hallways.
Tomorrow would bring introductions, and with them, answers, but for tonight, the waiting was louder than any battle.
The base always felt different at sunrise. Not quieter, there was always movement, always the distant drone of engines and the occasional murmur of personnel beginning their shift, but there was a stillness to the air that belonged only to the early hours.Â
The sky was a dull grey-blue, streaked with the last remnants of night, and the ground was slick with dew that hadnât yet burned off under the California sun.
The Dagger Squad had assembled just outside their barracks in near silence, save for the rhythmic thud of laces being tightened and boots scraping against concrete. They didnât need orders to do this. It was routine, muscle memory, the kind of shared discipline that came without discussion.Â
Some still rubbed the sleep from their eyes, others bounced lightly on their heels to warm up, but before anyone could settle into the usual pre-run haze, Hangman clapped his hands once, loud enough to cut through the soft morning fog.
âAlright, children,â he announced, voice too bright for the hour, âweâre moving in formation today. Keep up or eat my dust.â
Bob groaned under his breath, already regretting the decision to show up on time. Payback rolled his eyes, but started jogging in place anyway. Phoenix muttered something sharp under her breath, though she still took her place beside Rooster without hesitation. Halo tucked her earbuds into her pocket instead of her ears, knowing she wouldnât hear anything over Hangmanâs commentary.
âKeep the pace sharp, hearts steady, and egos inflated,â Hangman added, already bouncing on the balls of his feet. âLetâs make this base look good.â
And with that, he took off at a brisk pace, confident and annoyingly cheerful.
The others fell into step behind him, some reluctantly, some naturally. Rooster jogged just behind Hangman, his stride long and even, while Phoenix kept pace beside Halo, the two moving with practiced efficiency.Â
Harvard and Yale fell into rhythm with ease, while Coyote and Omaha stayed near the rear, their conversation low but constant. Fanboy matched steps with Fritz and Bob, who both looked awake enough to participate, though not enthusiastic.Â
Payback drifted between groups, his energy somewhere between playful and competitive, watching the others like he was tracking a race that hadnât officially started.
At first, the run followed the same path they had taken dozens of times before, down the long stretch of tarmac behind the flight hangars, past the training fields, looping toward the observation towers.Â
The familiar path grounded them. The rhythm of their footsteps, the synchronized breaths, the way no one needed to speak to stay in sync, it all pulled them into the kind of flow that made the morning feel manageable.
But then, gradually, things began to shift.
The first sign came as they turned past the main hangar and saw a row of vehicles parked in a formation that hadnât existed the day before. There were six matte-black SUVs, all unmarked, with identical tinted windows and spotless rims.Â
They were parked with clinical precision, like someone had measured the space between them with a laser. Next to them, two motorcycles stood out; sleek and low, more customized than regulation, one of them bearing the unmistakable silhouette of a Kawasaki that looked far too similar to the one Maverick had been riding since the eighties.
Rooster slowed his pace slightly as they passed, his eyes scanning the vehicles, expression unreadable. Beside him, Phoenix noticed the same thing and tilted her head just enough to confirm that she was seeing it too.
âThat Mavâs?â Halo asked Maverickâs bike as she jogged past it.
âNo,â Rooster replied, âbut close.â
Further ahead, Hangman had noticed the same change but didnât comment on it. Instead, his smile flickered for just a moment before he straightened his posture and picked up the pace again, as if outrunning the weight of the thought.
They continued past the hangars and turned toward the rear strip of the base, where most of the maintenance buildings and secondary training equipment were stored. There, they spotted another irregularity; a cluster of personnel moving in a formation they didnât recognize.Â
They wore flight suits, but the patches were subdued, almost blank, save for one small marking on the shoulder that no one could identify.
They moved as a unit, precise and silent, like they had rehearsed every step. As soon as the Daggers approached, the other group turned a corner and disappeared behind a hangar wall.
Omaha slowed slightly. âAnyone else see that?â
âYeah,â Coyote said. âDidnât recognize a single face.â
âNo names, no chatter,â Fanboy added. âWeird.â
âShadow,â Phoenix said quietly, almost under her breath.
The word passed between them without confirmation, yet no one corrected it.
As they rounded the final corner back toward their barracks, the sky began to brighten, the sun climbing higher over the edge of the runway. The morning was technically the same as any other, yet none of them felt like it was.Â
The rhythm of their run had been clean, the pace steady, but something had shifted beneath the surface. The base felt heavier now, more observed, more staged.
Hangman slowed to a walk as they reached the front steps again, stretching his arms with a grin that didnât quite reach his eyes.
âAlright, team,â he said. âShadowâs definitely here.â
The signs were everywhere. And whatever was coming, it was coming fast.
By the time they returned from the run, the base was fully awake. Sunlight poured in sharp angles across the tarmac, casting long shadows behind every tower and jet. The faint tang of jet fuel clung to the wind, mingling with the low rumble of engines kicking into life on distant runways.Â
Morning drills were already underway near the primary hangars, but the Dagger Squad had other orders to follow.
Their showers were brief, more functional than indulgent. Still, the steaming water and the silence of those few minutes alone helped peel back the tension that had wound through the squad during their run.Â
One by one, they emerged back into the hallway, dressed in standard flight suits or their Top Gun gear, boots laced tight, hair still damp from the water. The energy among them was calmer now, but it carried a quiet charge; the kind that came before storm fronts, before first contact.
âStill feel like someoneâs watching,â Bob muttered as he zipped up his suit, brushing water from his brow.
âYou always say that,â Payback replied, stepping into the hallway with his arms crossed over his chest. âAnd youâre always right, which is the scary part.â
Rooster ran a towel over his neck one last time before tossing it onto his bunk and stepping into the hall where Phoenix and Halo were already waiting. Halo had her flight bag slung over one shoulder, sunglasses perched just above her brow, eyes sharp.
âHangmanâs gonna say something stupid today,â she said flatly.
Phoenix smirked. âItâs barely eight and thatâs already a fact.â
As they regrouped, Hangman himself appeared at the far end of the corridor, fresh-faced and obnoxiously energized. He clapped his hands together once and spun on his heel as if presenting himself to a non-existent audience.
âLadies, gentlemen, and Harvard,â he said cheerfully, âlet us descend into the sacred halls of ego and excellence.â
Harvard walked past him without pause. âOne more word and Iâm turning this into a courtroom.â
âObjection, overruled, sustained, whatever,â Hangman replied, trailing after him.
Fritz and Fanboy followed next, the two carrying matching expressions of restrained amusement. Coyote and Omaha brought up the rear, deep in discussion over the last time Top Gun had felt this quiet before a major shakeup.Â
Yale and Payback debated mission parameters from a recent joint drill, their tones casual but focused, as if already preparing for the next simulation.
Soon, they made their way down the steps and across the concrete path that led toward the Top Gun Detachment Hangar; the one that had become their home, their proving ground, and their battlefield more than once.
The hangar loomed ahead, its large bay doors open to the sunlight, casting deep shadows over the interior. From outside, it looked exactly the same as always; quiet, still, and waiting, but as the Daggers drew closer, something about the air shifted.
Not physically, not in any way you could measure, but in a way every pilot in that group instinctively felt. It was subtle, like walking into a room moments after someone had left and still sensing their presence.
Inside, the hangar was pristine. Jets sat lined along the walls, gleaming under the natural light that filtered in through high windows.
Everything had been scrubbed clean, every tool returned to its place, every cable coiled with precision. The long tables and mission screens remained untouched, but someone had clearly been through; reorganizing, preparing.
Rooster walked toward one of the side stations, brushing his fingers along the edge of the console. It was cool and clean beneath his hand, but something about it felt unfamiliar.
âTheyâre getting ready for something,â he said quietly.
Phoenix nodded as she stepped beside him. âFeels like the stage is set.â
Near the center of the hangar, Bob stood with Halo, both scanning the flight roster on the overhead screen. It was blank.
âNo schedules, no call signs, nothing,â Bob said.
âTheyâre waiting to see who earns the sky,â Halo replied.
Coyote crossed the hangar floor with Payback, the two examining the jet placements. Even the aircraft configuration had changed slightly, with a few new birds brought in overnight, their serials different from the usual Top Gun fleet.
âI donât like it,â Payback muttered. âI donât hate it either.â
âI like the challenge,â Coyote said. âBut I like seeing who Iâm flying against more.â
Hangman approached the center of the hangar with his hands in his pockets, eyes scanning the space like a predator casing familiar ground.
âTheyâre close,â he said, mostly to himself. âI can feel it. The showâs about to start.â
He turned back toward the group, grin spreading slowly. âHope theyâre ready to meet legends.â
The squad said nothing, but the glance they exchanged said it all. No more waiting. No more guessing. The silence was coming to an end.
And somewhere, perhaps behind a tinted window, or within the walls of a hangar not marked on the base maps, the other squad was already watching.
The hangar felt colder than before. It wasnât the temperature exactly, but something quieter , and something in the air that shifted when the base intercom clicked on.
The sharp buzz of the overhead speakers cut through the low hum of the squadâs voices. All heads turned as a calm voice echoed down from the ceiling, steady and composed.
âAll personnel assigned to Top Gun Detachment, report to Hangar 1. Immediate assembly required.â
There was no elaboration, no warning. Just the kind of command that didnât invite questions.
The Daggers didnât speak, but movement followed instinct.
Rooster stepped back from the console where he had been standing.
Phoenix narrowed her eyes slightly as she turned toward the center.
Hangman raised both brows, then tilted his head like someone hearing the bell before a fight.
Within a minute, the squad had assembled in a clean line near the front of the hangar, their boots scuffing lightly against the floor as they formed into a loose but respectful formation.
The open hangar doors spilled sunlight across the floor, turning the space into a stage. Silence settled heavy over them again, but not awkward, just sharp with anticipation.
Commander Bates stepped forward. His posture was firm, his voice perfectly level when he spoke.
âThis morning, you begin evaluation exercises against an elite unit assembled under specialized criteria. The team is permanent, active, and classified for operational flexibility.â
The words were familiar, sterile, and clinical, but the way he delivered them was not. There was weight behind it. Deliberate, and controlled weight.
âYou will be flying against pilots selected not only for skill but for discipline under unpredictable conditions. This is not a drill. This is not training for the sake of training.â
He paused for a moment, letting the quiet stretch just long enough.
âLeading this unit is a Lieutenant with extensive black operation records, advanced certification in atmospheric combat maneuvering, and the highest operational kill count in her year group.â
Bates turned slightly, facing the bright light pouring in from the open bay.
âLieutenant Thalia Kazansky,â he announced, his voice carrying with sharp precision. âCall sign: Winter.â
The name dropped like glass on concrete.
Bradleyâs head turned sharply toward the hangar doors, his entire body tensing as if struck. His mouth opened, and before he could catch himself, the words escaped under his breath, barely loud enough for the row to hear.
âWhat the fuck.â
Phoenix flicked her eyes toward him in surprise, then toward the woman stepping into view.
The rest of the Daggers followed her gaze, watching as the figure moved forward, posture clean, boots steady, mirrored aviators hiding her eyes, expression unreadable.
And then, from somewhere in the row, a softer voice broke the silence.
ââŚno fucking way.â
Jakeâs tone was quiet, more stunned than cocky. His brows pulled together as he tilted his head, green eyes locked on her with dawning confusion, not from recognition, but from memory creeping in sideways.
He blinked, then looked again, this time slower, like something he was trying not to believe had just been confirmed.
âYouâve got to be kidding me,â he muttered, almost to himself.
He didnât say what he was thinking, but it was written all over his face.
Somewhere in the back of his mind, a night came rushing back: dim lights, too much heat, and a woman who never gave her name.
And now she was standing there in front of him. Wearing a flight suit. Wearing a name that hit like legacy. Wearing a callsign he never expected to hear out loud.
Jake straightened slowly, jaw locked tight. He didnât say another word, but whatever game was about to begin, he had just realized he was already a few moves behind.

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Glen Powell Masterlist
Jake "Hangman" Seresin
Love In The Sky
Jake "Hangman" Seresin and Ava "Nova" Brooke return to TopGun for classified training. But they must keep their relationship secret from Nova's very strict Admiral father. (COMPLETED)
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four - smut warning on this chapter!!
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven - smut warning on the chapter!!
Chapter Eight - smut warning on the chapter!!
Chapter Nine
Talk To Me
New pilot Ryder takes an interest in Nova. Disregards her relationship with Jake. Things take a dangerous turn. Protective Jake. (COMPLETED)
Chapter One
Chapter Two - smut warning on the chapter!!
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Gravity
Ava "Nova" Brooke arrives to TopGun from her elite special tactics squad - Strike Squadron Six. She is trained to be lethal. What she did expect was to catch the eye of a particular pilot and have her secret revealed. (ON GOING)
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
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Dad Jokes
Attn: Just idea that bounced off this about Sy telling cheesy jokes. Hope yâall enjoy!
Word Count: 959
Pairing: Sy x Wife or Longterm gf Reader
Summary: You point out Sy telling dad jokes, it gives him an idea.
Warnings: 18+, breeding kink, dry humping, fem receiving oral, fingering, p in v sex, squirting, multiple creampies
âGod youâre always telling those dad jokes,â you chuckle. âI ainât a dad,â Sy replies. âWell you donât have toâ,â you say before stopping short. Syâs pulled you astraddle his lap, eyes darkening. âBut I could be,â he says as he paws at your thighs, cock swelling beneath you. âSy,â you breathe.
âIt would be so easy⌠slipping right in, no condom. Fillinâ you up with load after load of cum. Then keeping myself plugged in tight, not wasting a drop. Fuck. Your pussy would be so warm wrapped tight around me,â he says as he begins grinding against your clothed core. âYouâd look so fuckinâ sexy pregnant,â he husks. And you canât help yourself. With his words and movements, your body is humming with arousal. Your hips rock against his until you come from grinding against him.
âThatâs my girl. Gotta be nice and slick for me to slide right in that tight pussy of yours. Whatcha think baby? Gonna let me put a baby in you? Breed that sweet pussy of yours?,â he nearly growls. His hands start roaming, squeezing every tinder bit of flesh he can grasp as his lips suckle on the sweet spot of your neck.
You and Sy had talked about having children someday, but youâd never imagined something as simple as mentioning dad jokes would set him off like this. Itâs making you so hot though⌠Youâve got to be ovulating, you think. âLet me make you a mama,â he says against your lips before kissing you hungrily. His hips keep rutting at you, making you come again. He hums in approval against your lips as your thighs shake.
âYes. Please Sy,â you manage, and with that he carries you to the bedroom and strips the both of you in record time. He buries his face between your legs moaning at the taste of you, before adding two fingers and curling into your gspot. âSy Iâ I canât,â you say, your poor clit already oversensitive from all the stimulation. âJust one time baby. Wanna make sure youâre good and ready,â he says before going back in. âIâ Iâm ready I swâ,â you choke out before gushing.
He works you through it before kissing up your body. âMy beautiful, perfect girl. I knew you could do it,â he says before sliding his tongue into your mouth. You can feel his bare cock sliding against you. It makes you whimper. âTell me you want it darlinâ,â he says as he reaches down and teases your entrance. âI want it. I want you. Want your cum inside me. Wantâ,â you get out before he slides in. âMother fucker,â he gasps once heâs fully set.
He kisses you, letting the both of you adjust to the feeling before sitting back. âI gotta see,â he says as he pushes your thighs back against your chest. âOh God,â he says at the sight of the two of you. âLooks so fuckinâ good baby,â he tells you as he starts slipping and sliding in and out of you. You let out a few choked moans as your eyes roll back. âIâm.. so close,â you sob. âHottest fuck of my life baby. Let me have it. Wanna feel you,â he says.
He watches in awe as your pussy convulses around him, leaving a creamy ring around the base of his cock. Sy fucks you for what feels like hours, loading your pussy up with more cum than heâs ever put out. He can tell youâre getting fucked out, and quickly pulls out long enough to spoon up behind you and shove back in. He wraps an arm around you, clasping your breast in his hand, before sticking two fingers in your mouth.
âMmm,â you hum around them. When he pulls the slippery digits out, he reaches between your legs and strums at your puffy clit. âSy⌠Sy please,â you squeal. âNeed this last one darlinâ. I know youâre about spent, but youâre doinâ so damn good for me. Just one more and weâll go to sleep. Can you do that for me?,â he asks as he pushes in and stops for a moment. Your mind is foggy, and honestly unsure but your body is responding nonetheless. âYes,â you tell him, pushing back against him.
âThatâs a good girl,â he praises as he starts back a steady pace. âFuck me harder. Want it,â you tell him. He holds you tight, hand squeezing your breast while the other simply applies pressure to your clit as he throttles you. You moan nonsensically, getting louder and louder. Sy knows what that means and starts back stroking your clit. âCome on,â he huffs into your neck.
Your entire body seems to vibrate as you come harder than you have the entire night. Sy holds your hips tight as your cum pours out of you. âFeels good donât it baby? Iâm about to bust too, all in this sweet slippery cunt. You want some more of my cum sweetheart? Tell me you fuckinâ want it,â he grits out. âI want it. I want it,â you sob. âSâall yours,â he says just as he explodes.
As promised he lets you rest after. Heâs still hard as a rock, and keeps himself pressed tight inside your sopping pussy. âThank you,â he says, turning your head and giving you a kiss. âMmhm,â you mumble tiredly. He reaches down and grabs the covers before throwing them over you. âI love you. Youâre gonna make such a good mama,â he whispers. âI love you too Sy. And youâll make the perfect dad, youâve already got the jokes down pact,â you reply sheepishly, making Sy chuckle.
Safe to say the two of you donât leave the bedroom much the next few days.
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FLIGHT RISK



Jake Seresin X Female!reader || WC: 9.7K
SUMMARY: Jake "Hangman" Seresin had a reputation for flirting with anything that breathed, which is exactly why you never paid him much attention whenever the Dagger Squad rolled into the Hard Deck. But the more time you spend around him, the more you realize heâs not the arrogant jerk you assumed he was. Against all odds, you fall for him, hard. So when you suddenly start pulling away, Jake can't help but wonder what he did wrong.
WARNINGS: One-sided miscommunication, angst, self-deprecating thoughts, implied daddy issues, jealousy, fluff, cursing, platonic reader x Dagger Squad, lovesick!Jake, making out, probably some inaccurate military details (sorry)!
A/N: Literally hated his character when I first watched the movie, yet the more I watch edits and read fanfiction the more this man has grown on me... which is how this came about. Hope y'all enjoy! Divider by @thecutestgrotto <3
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The Hard Deck was buzzing as it usually was on a Friday night. You and Penny moved in perfect sync behind the bar, dodging each other with practiced ease as the room filled with the clamor of laughter, clinking bottles, and the low hum of music from the jukebox in the corner. The scent of citrus and salt clung to your skin, your fingers sticky from pouring whiskey sours and popping lime wedges into beers.
You wiped your hands on a towel tucked into your apron, catching Pennyâs eye just as she slid a beer down to a waiting customer. Penny leaned in as she wiped down the bar, eyes flicking toward the entrance. âTheyâre here.â She murmured, barely suppressing a grin. You didnât need to ask who. The sound of boots scuffing the floor and the unmistakable blend of egos and energy meant only one thing: The Dagger Squad, fresh off another brutal day of training.
Maverick mustâve put them through hell, judging by the way Bradley dragged his hand through his hair like he might tear it out. Natasha looked like she was already plotting revenge, and Mickey was slumped against the pool table like gravity had it out for him personally. âThey look like death.â You noted, already lining up glasses. Penny smirked. âExcept for a certain blonde whoâs looking at you like youâre his reward for surviving it.â
You threw her a dry look, but heat bloomed at the back of your neck. âYouâre imagining things.â Penny rolled her eyes, nudging you with her elbow. âOh, sure, I must be also imagining the way you check your lip gloss every time he walks in.â You snorted and turned away to hide your smirk, reaching for the tequila. âGod, youâre even worse than Amelia.â Penny raised an eyebrow. âIâll take that as a compliment.â
The squad fanned out across the pool tables, dropping into their usual spots with groans and exaggerated sighs. Bradley clinked his dog tags against the counter like a bell, while Natasha stretched out her shoulders and grumbled something about Maverick trying to kill them. And then, right on cue, Jake Seresin. He swaggered in a few beats behind the rest, as if the doors themselves had waited for his entrance.
His hair was a little messy, his skin kissed by the sun, dog tags catching the low light as they swung against his collarbone. He moved like he owned the room, like heâd fought gravity and won. But you knew better now. Heâd fooled you once. That cocky smile, that drawl, that insufferable nickname, Hangman. Youâd pegged him for exactly the kind of man who flirted with anything that moved and forgot the names of anyone who didnât. So you ignored him.
Every night he came in, you barely spared him a glance. And every night, he tried again. But Jake didnât win you over with charm. He won you with patience. When your car wouldnât start after a long shift and you were ready to scream into the night, he appeared, hands in his pockets, smile soft. No teasing, no smug remarks. Just a quiet offer to take a look. Thirty minutes later, he had it running again. He didnât ask for anything in return.
He started walking you to your car after closing, no pressure, no flirting. Just company. And then he started showing up on your off days. Not in uniform. Not with the squad. Just Jake. Heâd sit at the bar, nursing a soda or a single beer, and talk to you while you cut garnishes or cleaned glasses. He asked about your family. Your hometown. Whether you liked working nights or if you ever thought about leaving the beach behind.
He never made it about himself, not at first. And when he finally did, it was different. One night, long after the bar had emptied, you found him leaning against the jukebox, staring at the floor like it had personally offended him. âMy dad never thought Iâd amount to much,â He murmured when you passed him. âGuess part of me still tries to prove him wrong.â Youâd stopped in your tracks. That was the moment something cracked. Not in him, in you.
Because behind all that swagger, Jake Seresin was carrying something heavy. Something private. And he trusted you enough to let you see it. That was when you started falling. It wasnât dramatic. It wasnât sudden. It was slow. Unavoidable. A creeping warmth that found its way under your skin and settled there. So now, as Jake leaned across the bar, sweat-damp and sun-touched from a long day of dogfights, you didnât feel annoyance anymore. You felt fear.
Because youâd let him in. Because he wasnât who you thought he was. Because he looked at you like you were more than just a bartender, and you werenât sure what to do with that. âEveninâ, darlinâ.â His voice dropped low into that familiar Southern drawl, thick like honey and rough at the edges, and it sent goosebumps skittering down your spine before you could stop them. Jake leaned one elbow against the bar, casual as ever, but his presence was anything but forgettable.
Sunlight from the open doors caught in his windswept hair, and sweat still clung to the base of his throat. Those hypnotic green eyes, greener tonight under the warm, flickering lights, swept over your face with the same lazy intensity they always did, as if he were memorizing you every time. You arched a brow, letting your hands stay busy with the shaker. The clink of ice helped mask the fact that your heartbeat had kicked up a notch. âYou look like Maverick dragged you through a jet wash.â
Jakeâs grin curled slow, but it didnât quite reach his eyes. There was an edge in them, subtle, but there. Maybe it was exhaustion. Maybe it was something else. âHe sure as hell tried,â He muttered, rolling his shoulder with a wince that was half hidden. âBut itâs nothinâ I canât handle.â You slid a cold beer across the polished wood without looking up, but your fingers brushed his for half a second longer than they should have.
His hand was warm, calloused and steady, and instead of pulling away, he lingered. Just a breath longer. Just enough to make your skin tingle where he touched you. You hated that it made your pulse skip. Hated it even more that he seemed to know exactly what it did to you. Jake gave you that heartbreaker wink before peeling away to join the others, the beer already raised in a half-salute. âThanks, sweetheart.â
You watched him walk, shoulders still squared from the cockpit, tags clinking lightly against his chest, and tried not to let your eyes linger too long. Penny had, of course, seen all of it. As she restocked the limes with a knowing look, one perfectly sculpted brow lifted in dry amusement. âYou keep looking at him like that,â She murmured, voice low as she tossed a handful of garnishes into a silver tray. âHeâs gonna think that you actually like him.â
âHe already thinks that.â You rolled your eyes, mostly to distract from the flutter blooming in your chest. âBecause you do,â She countered without missing a beat, slicing through a lemon with precision. âMight as well admit it before you combust.â You didnât answer. Not because she was wrong, but because she wasnât. And you hated how easily she saw through you. The truth was⌠you did like him. Too much. In ways you didnât want to admit out loud.
Jake Seresin had wormed his way past your sarcasm and rolled eyes and cool indifference like it was nothing. And the scariest part? He hadnât even tried that hard. âIâll be right back.â You muttered, grabbing five beers from the cooler and sliding them onto a tray with practiced ease. You tucked a cold can of Coca-Cola into the front pocket of your apron, Bobâs usual, always sipped with quiet contentment while the others knocked back drinks like they were on shore leave. Penny caught the gesture and smirked.
âGo get your man.â You didnât dignify her with a reply. Just rolled your eyes and turned on your heel, weaving between the crowds with practiced grace, the tray balanced effortlessly in your hands. But your stomach flipped all the same, traitorous and fluttering, because the moment your eyes found Jake again, laughing with Bradley. And you werenât sure how long you could pretend you werenât. Taking a deep breath, and squaring your shoulders you shook those thoughts from your head.
âYou all look like you could use a pick-me-up.â Every head at the table turned toward you, some sluggishly, others like your voice alone had jolted them back to life. âA beer for you,â You chirped, placing the cold glass in front of Mickey, who looked like heâd barely survived the day. His forehead rested on the edge of the table until he forced himself upright. âYouâre an angel.â He groaned, already reaching for the glass like it might bring him back from the dead.
âAnd a Coke for you.â You placed the soda down with a satisfying clink in front of Bob, who was seated slightly off to the side, content with his quiet corner and a half-eaten bowl of peanuts. His cheeks turned pink as he straightened his glasses and smiled shyly. âFor my favorite WSOs.â You added with a playful wink. Both men flushed under your gaze and responded with a thank you, in perfect unison.
You kept moving, passing out drinks with ease and affection. Natasha muttered something about you being a godsend as she reached for her beer, lifting it in a silent toast before taking a long, grateful sip. Rooster gave you a wink and a crooked smile that probably worked on half of San Diego, though it never really had an effect on you. Javy nodded with an appreciative grin, and Reuben gave you a friendly fist-bump.
âFor my favorite pilots.â You teased, grinning as you finally came to rest beside Natasha. She leaned her head onto your shoulder with a contented sigh, her hair brushing against your cheek. âMarry me.â She mumbled, half-serious, half-drunk on exhaustion. Before you could even talk, a familiar voice, smooth, smug, and laced with that Southern twang, broke the silence. âThatâs just cruel,â Jake drawled. âI thought I was your favorite.â
Your head turned before you could stop yourself. And just like that, your heart didnât just skip a beat, it slammed into your ribs like it was trying to break free. Jake stood at the pool table, cue stick in hand, body bent low as he lined up a shot. His back arched just enough to make your mouth go dry. His biceps flexed as he adjusted his grip, veins prominent, forearms corded with strength. His khakis clung low on his hips, his flight belt hanging lazily from a loop.
He looked ridiculous. Unfair. Like heâd walked straight out of a damn recruiting ad, but dirtier. Infinitely more dangerous. Jakeâs head lifted slowly, eyes cutting toward you from beneath those long lashes. The corner of his mouth tugged into a smirk when he caught you looking. Caught staring. âYou wound me, sweetheart,â He added, standing to his full height. âAll that charm, and I donât even rank in your top five?â
You masked your thudding heart with a dry laugh. âI said favorite pilots,â You shot back. âDidnât say anything about most high-maintenance.â The squad erupted in low chuckles, a few of them tossing mock âoofsâ in Jakeâs direction. Jake only grinned, unbothered, sauntering toward the group with that same easy swagger that made it impossible to tell whether he was teasing or flirting, or both. You forced yourself to look away, turning back toward the tray.
Yet, your stomach was doing somersaults, and the heat creeping up your neck wasnât from the warm summer air drifting through the doors. You leaned your hip against the edge of the table, tray balanced on one hand, the soft clink of glass against wood fading into the background as you glanced around the table. Everyone looked a little less dead now, drinks in hand, shoulders relaxing bit by bit. âDo I need to talk to Maverick for all of you?â You teased, eyes flicking from one exhausted pilot to the next.
Bradley groaned loud enough to turn heads. âPlease do. Tell him we're human. Or at least that some of us are.â Natasha scoffed, lifting her beer toward her mouth with a half-glare, half-laugh. âWe were human. Until Mr. Hotshot over there decided he could outfly Mav.â All eyes slid toward Jake. âOkay, whoa. Letâs not point fingers here.â He was already making a face. âYou tried to buzz Maverick,â Mickey interjected, half-leaning across the table with animated hands. âIn a tight turn. In a no-fly zone.â
âAnd missed.â Reuben added between mouthfuls of peanuts, a smug grin spreading across his face. Jake raised both hands, feigning innocence with the precision of someone whoâd practiced. âI wasnât trying to buzz him. I was maneuvering. Strategically.â Javy snorted covering it up with a cough as he received a glare from Jake. âAnd we all got punished for it,â Bob chimed in quietly, lifting his Coke as if to toast to their shared suffering. âOne hundred push-ups.â You winced at his words, that sounded brutal.
âIn flight suits.â Reuben groaned, rubbing his shoulder like the soreness was still setting in. You clamped a hand over your mouth to stifle your laughter, the image forming vividly in your mind, Jake, cocky as ever, probably smirking even as Maverick made them drop. The others glaring daggers at him while dripping sweat onto the tarmac. Jake, of course, leaned into the attention with no shame. âYouâre welcome, push-ups build character.â He grinned, sliding into the empty chair beside you with smooth ease.
You barely had time to register the motion before his arm draped over the back of your chair, knuckles grazing your shoulder. âYouâre lucky they didnât bury you under the tarmac.â Natasha muttered, but her lips twitched. Jake leaned a little closer, the heat of his body now radiating into your side. His voice dropped a note, low and velvety. âYou know, I think I could use a little personal motivation to recover from today.â Your breath caught before you could control it.
His fingers brushed lightly against the bare skin of your upper arm as they âaccidentallyâ adjusted across the tables edge. You turned toward him, ready to make some smart remark, maybe put him back in his place before he got too cocky again, but your gaze collided with his, and just like that⌠you froze. His eyes werenât just green, they were alive with something deeper. Mischief, sure. But behind it, a flicker of something that made your stomach swoop. Like he wasnât just teasing you tonight. He was waiting.
âJakeââ
âY/N!â Your name snapped through the air like a whip, pulling you back to earth. You turned sharply toward the bar where Penny stood, waving a bar rag like a battle flag. âBus just pulled up, I need you.â You groaned under your breath but moved fast, peeling yourself away from the table. Jakeâs arm slid off your shoulders with a warmth that lingered longer than it should have, his fingers brushing your back as you stood. The moment broke, but not before you caught the small smirk tugging at his lips.
He knew exactly what he was doing.
âTry not to cause anymore trouble while Iâm gone.â You grabbed the empty tray and backed away from the table, shaking your head. âNo promises, sweetheart!â He called after you, voice lazy, teasing. But his eyes, they lingered. Watching you like a man who knew the exact altitude youâd started falling. You spun on your heel and disappeared behind the bar, pulse still hammering, trying to remind yourself that you were here to work.
But even as Penny tossed you a bar towel and pointed toward the flood of sailors crowding toward the taps, all you could think about was the warmth of Jakeâs body next to yours, and how dangerously easy it would be to let yourself fall. Thankfully, the flood of newcomers provided the perfect excuse to busy your hands and bury your thoughts. You moved, mixing cocktails with quick flicks of the wrist, pouring beers until foam kissed the rim, sliding credit cards back with a polite nod and a practiced smile.
Every small task became a wall, something to hide behind. Something to keep your mind off of Jake. Or at least, thatâs what you told yourself. As the crowd dwindled and the bar quieted into a low murmur, the shield began to crack. The last round of locals had migrated toward the dartboard. The jukebox slowed to soft rock. A few scattered voices still rose in laughter near the back where the Dagger Squad remained, sunburnt, beer-drowsy and content.
You peeled off your apron with a sigh and glanced at Penny, who gave you a reassuring nod and a knowing smile, motioning for you to take a breath, take a break. Your feet moved before your heart could object. You stepped out from behind the bar, every movement purposeful, steady, because if you hesitated, you knew the ache lingering just beneath your ribs might crawl up into your throat and give you away. You smoothed a hand down your shirt and walked toward the group, fully prepared to ask if they wanted one more round before last call. But then you heard it.
Jakeâs voice.
Clear. Familiar. Cruel. Coated with disgust. âI just cannot stand her.â The words stopped you mid-step, your sneakers suddenly glued to the hardwood floor. The air left your lungs in one cold rush, and your feet carried you just far enough to place yourself behind the wooden beam beside the jukebox, half-hidden in the low light, half-ashamed for eavesdropping, but too frozen to move. âShe walks around following me like a puppy, flirting, even her voice is annoying.â
Your pulse thudded in your ears, louder than the low hum of music, louder than the clatter of a dropped glass in the far corner. His voice cut straight through you, each syllable like a shard of glass. âShe just doesnât get the hint. Iâm not interested in girls like her.â The blood drained from your face. You knew it. God, deep down, you always knew it. Jake Seresin was never going to want someone like you.
Youâd seen the women he flirted with, tall, perfectly made-up, curves in all the right places, confident, playful, bright in the way that lit up a whole room. You? You were just the bartender. The convenience. The friend. The joke. The girl with rough hands from long shifts. The girl who hid behind sarcasm because confidence never came easy. The girl who, despite everything, had let herself believe, hope, that the way Jake looked at you sometimes meant something real. A dull ache bloomed in your chest. You pressed your hand against it like that would stop it from spreading.
At least now you knew. At least now the daydream could die. Now you could stop pretending. You swallowed down the lump clawing its way up your throat, nails digging into your palm as you pivoted, quick, silent and fast, back toward the bar. You didnât even bother pretending to smile. Didnât care who saw your glassy eyes or the way your breath came out shaky as you ripped the apron from its hook and slung it over the counter.
Penny turned, concern flickering across her face clearly noticing the entire shift in your demeanor, but you simply waved her off with a weak motion and a whispered goodbye. Not trusting your voice to hold steady. Not trusting her not to ask. If she so much as asked if you were okay, youâd break. You were out the door before Jake could even glance up. Before he could offer that sweet, mocking drawl. Before he could try to walk you to your car like he always did, like it meant something. Your heart couldn't take it. Not now. Not after that.
Back at the bar, Jake still reclined in the chair, nursing the same beer he hadnât touched in ten minutes, finishing his train of thought with a huff. âI just hope Mav doesnât put her on our training rotation again,â He muttered, rubbing the back of his neck. âIâve told her time and time again Iâm not interested,â He continued with a groan. âShe just doesnât get the hint that sheâs not my type.â Mickey nearly choked on his drink.
âYeah, Hangman, we all know what girl is your type.â He grinned, elbowing Bob. Bradley leaned in, all smugness and raised brows. âThe pretty bartender you make eyes at every time sheâs near? The one you nearly punched me over for breathing near last week?â Jake froze. Bradley tilted his beer toward him, that smirk spreading. âThe one you pretend not to care about, then sulk like a teenager when she walks away with anyone else?â Javy whistled. âDude, just admit it. Youâre into her. Bad.â
Jake ran a hand over his face, jaw tightening. âShut up before she hears you.â But as he turned to glance toward the bar, expecting to find you rolling your eyes behind the counter, maybe catching his gaze just long enough to blush, his brows drew together. You werenât there. Your station was empty. No apron. No sarcastic smile. No parting wave. Just⌠gone. His chest tightened without reason. You never left without saying goodnight.
A flicker of unease passed through him, but the others were still laughing, throwing teasing comments like darts, unaware of the sudden shift in his expression. He forced a grin, let the moment pass. But something inside him knew. Something felt wrong. And you, already halfway down the boardwalk with tears blurring your vision, didnât get to hear the rest. Didnât get to hear the way his voice softened when he talked about you.
You were cautious, careful, even. Every move you made around him became intentional. Guarded. Since that night, since the moment his words gutted you like a blade between the ribs, youâd started pulling away. Not all at once. No. That wouldâve been too obvious. And despite the ache still lodged in your chest like a stone, you refused to let Jake, or anyone else, see you unravel. Instead, it was subtle. Gradual. A slow withdrawal masked as busyness, exhaustion, distraction.
When Jake came to the bar now, you didnât linger. You took his order without looking him in the eye, handed him his beer with a polite smile that didnât quite reach your eyes. No teasing remark. No small talk. Just efficient, impersonal service. The kind you gave to strangers. The kind you gave to men you didnât want to know. And you definitely didnât allow his touch to linger, not that heâd had much chance.
Gone were the moments where his fingers brushed yours over a glass, or the way his hand would rest at the small of your back when you passed too close. You kept distance now. Measured it. Maintained it like it was a lifeline. You didnât let him close. And Jake? He noticed. At first, it was subtle confusion. A longer-than-usual pause when you walked away. A look that lingered too long as you joked with Bob or nudged Natashaâs shoulder with a grin that used to be his.
Then it turned into something else, hesitation, maybe even hurt, though if it was, he didnât show it outright. Luckily, or maybe tragically, the squad had been kept busy by Maverick all week. Long hours on the tarmac. Briefings that dragged past sunset. Extra sims, surprise drills, and mock dogfights that left them sore, sweating, and barely able to keep their eyes open when they dragged themselves into the Hard Deck each night. It gave you an excuse.
To work the bar, serve the drinks, and disappear behind orders before Jake could try and ask what was wrong. It was easier this way. Safer. You told yourself it would fade, the sting, the weight in your chest, the memory of hearing her voice is annoying and Iâm not interested in girls like her whispered in that same drawl that used to melt you. But it didnât fade. It stayed. Like smoke in your lungs.
You heard it in the silence after your shift when the beach was quiet and the waves were the only sound. You felt it in the ache behind your ribs when someone mentioned his name in passing. You even dreamed about it, twisting memories into warped versions where his words echoed again and again, his face turned away from you, laughter in his throat while you stood invisible behind the jukebox. You hated how much it hurt.
You hated that it still mattered.
The fifth night after it happened, the bar was quieter than usual, just a slow Thursday, a break between storms. You were stacking clean glasses behind the bar when Jake walked in alone. No squad. No backup. Just him. He looked tired. Disheveled in a way that felt different than post-training exhaustion. Like he hadnât been sleeping much. His hair was messier than usual, shirt a little wrinkled, tags tucked into his collar like they were suddenly too heavy to wear out in the open.
You felt his eyes on you the second he stepped through the door. You didnât look up. You couldnât. He approached the bar slower than normal, his boots echoing too loudly in the now-quiet space. You busied yourself with organizing lemons. Limes. Anything not him. He stopped a few feet short of the bar. Didnât speak. Not right away. Finally, his voice broke the silence, low, cautious, unsure. âYou alright?â You kept your gaze focused on the citrus you were already over-slicing. âFine.â
âYouâve been distant.â He murmured, like he was still trying to piece it together. âDid I do something?â You shrugged. Cool. Detached. âJust tired, Jake.â A lie. But he didnât push. He just studied you, jaw working slightly like he was chewing on whatever thoughts were flooding in. âRight,â He said eventually, voice quieter. âOf course.â You turned to put the knife down, finally meeting his eyes for a split second. And it nearly undid you.
Because Jake wasnât smirking. He wasnât cocky. He lookedâŚconfused. A little wounded. The way someone does when theyâve lost their grip on something they didnât even know they were holding. But you couldnât tell him the truth. You couldnât admit that the thing youâd overheard, the words that werenât meant for your ears, had unraveled you completely. Because what if you were the only one who misunderstood?
What if, worse⌠you hadn't? So you turned away. Left him standing there with his fingers curled slightly over the edge of the bar, like he wasnât sure whether to stay or walk away. Jake didnât push. He never did. But that didnât mean he didnât notice. And tonight, you knew heâd felt it, that little bit of space youâd suddenly started putting between the two of you. Because if he kept getting closer, you wouldnât just fall.
Youâd crash.
The days blurred. Long shifts, short sleep, aching feet, and a heart you couldnât seem to quiet. You kept your rhythm sharp, precise, like it was armor. You showed up, moved through the motions, mixed drinks, gave smiles, told stories to sailors who needed a little kindness. And avoided Jake Seresin like he was a fault line waiting to break beneath your feet. You werenât cold. Just distant. Detached in a way that made you feel like you were watching your life from the outside in.
It didnât go unnoticed. Late one night, the bar winding down into a lazy hum, Penny passed you a glass of water and leaned her elbows onto the bar. You felt her gaze before she spoke, quiet, steady, knowing. âYou alright, Y/N?â You didnât look at her. Just nodded, wiping down a spill that didnât need wiping. âIâm fine.â It was clipped. Dismissive. Enough to signal that the door was closed. You had mastered the lies and excuses, yet Penny wasnât stupid.
She knew you like the back of her hand. She watched you for a few seconds longer, watched the way your eyes didnât meet hers, the way your fingers trembled slightly when you reached for the towel. She gave a tiny, imperceptible sigh, then pushed away without pressing no matter how much she wanted to know what was wrong with you. Safe to say, you were grateful for it. Because if she had asked again, your walls mightâve just cracked.
Jake wasnât doing any better. After your "talk", if you could even call it that, heâd been a wreck. Not the kind anyone outside the Dagger Squad would immediately notice. No, Jake Seresin still smiled at the rookies. Still strutted across the tarmac with his usual confidence, boots scuffing against the concrete, sunglasses low on his nose like he didnât have a care in the world. But those who knew him best could see the cracks forming.
The way he flinched when your name was mentioned. The way he scanned the bar every time he walked into the Hard Deck, hoping, praying, that this would be the night you looked at him like you used to, eyes soft, smirk tucked behind your lip, leaning on the bar like you were daring him to flirt first. But that look never came. And it was driving him insane. Even in the air, his escape, his safe place, he felt off. Slower. Sloppy in a way that set off alarm bells in every seasoned pilotâs gut.
His reaction times were lagging, the sharp, lethal precision that earned him the call sign Hangman dulled under the weight of something heavier than G-forces. Natasha had picked up on it immediately. âYouâre flying like youâve got a piano strapped to your back,â She muttered through comms one afternoon after a sim run went sideways. âThe hellâs going on with you?â Jakeâs jaw had locked so tight, he didnât even answer. Back on the ground, it was no better.
Bradley had cornered him near the locker room the next morning. âYouâre off, you look like you havenât slept in weeks.â He told him bluntly. Jake ran a hand through his hair, matted from the helmet. âIâm fine.â Even he didnât believe the words coming out of his mouth. âYouâre not.â Jake simply shrugged. âLet it go, Rooster.â But they didnât. Not really. They just watched. Waited. Wondered what the hell had happened that turned cocky, unshakable Jake Seresin into a man unraveling from the inside out.
What they didnât know, what he wouldnât dare say aloud, was that it was you. The problem was you, or more accurately, the way youâd slipped through his fingers before he even realized how tightly heâd been trying to hold on. He didnât understand it. How things had gone from warm glances and shared touches and that night where you had almost let something real slip between you⌠to now. To this cold distance. Where you wouldnât so much as look at him unless it was absolutely necessary. And the worst part?
He didnât know what heâd done.
The nights dragged on like this. Jake would come in with the squad, sit down like nothing was wrong, but the light in his eyes was gone. His jokes were duller. His smirk half-hearted. Even his beer sat untouched longer than usual, condensation dripping down the bottle as he watched you move around the bar like a ghost he couldnât reach. Sometimes, heâd almost say something. His hand would twitch, or heâd lean half out of his seat, like he was on the verge of getting up.
Of walking over. Of fixing it. But you never gave him the chance. You never looked long enough to invite it. A deep, sinking pull in his gut. Like something was breaking open inside him and he didnât know how to stop it. And so the distance remained, a thick, aching thing that hovered between you both, invisible to everyone else but suffocating just the same. Neither of you said a word. Neither of you walked away. But neither of you dared to move closer, either.
And it was killing you both.
Four days later, the Hard Deck was full, buzzing with heat and voices and that low, salty tension that clung to late summer nights on the coast. Dagger Squad was there, scattered across their usual pool table. Jake wasnât with them yet. And for once, you were thankful. You could breathe without feeling his eyes track your every move. Or so you thought. You were behind the bar when you saw her walk in. Tall. Glossy.
Designer jeans that clung perfectly to her long legs and a strappy black tank that dipped low in the back. Blonde hair curled, nails perfect, and a walk like she owned every pair of eyes in the room. You recognized her instantly, one of the women youâd seen Jake flirt with a few times before. Only this time⌠she wasnât looking at you. She was looking for him. And then, like a movie in slow motion, Jake walked in. He hadnât seen her yet.
He was laughing with Bradley, dragging a hand through his hair, unaware of the way her eyes locked on him like a target. She moved toward him with purpose, lips already curling into a smile, like she knew heâd be hers the second he looked up. Your chest constricted so sharply it almost knocked the air out of your lungs. You turned away fast, heart hammering like youâd been punched. God. You were such an idiot. What were you expecting? That heâd pine over you?
That heâd choose you over someone like that? You braced your hands on the edge of the bar, the stainless steel biting into your palms. Donât cry. Donât cry here. Not in front of him. You grabbed two beers off the counter, trying to ground yourself in the moment. If she was what he wanted⌠fine. You werenât going to compete for someone whoâd already made their choice. But you could prove that he didnât affect you anymore. At least, not on the surface.
So when you saw Bradley standing alone near the dartboard, you moved toward him without thinking, hips swaying just a touch more than usual, the corner of your mouth lifting in a practiced smirk. âHey, Bradshaw,â You breathed as you passed him a beer, your fingers brushing his arm as you leaned close. âYou winning?â He blinked, caught off guard by the softness in your tone, then chuckled low in his throat, catching on quickly. âI am now.â You laughed, light and teasing, and let your hand linger just long enough to be seen.
It wasnât real. Not really. But it didnât have to be. Not when Jake was watching. Because he was watching. Across the room, Jake's head snapped around the second he heard your voice. Heâd been leaning against the bar, cornered by a girl with glossy lips and a laugh that grated on his nerves. She was touching his chest, twirling her straw between her fingers like a goddamn prop, but he hadnât registered a single word sheâd been saying.
Not since he walked in and saw you glowing in that golden Hard Deck light, laughing with everyone but him. But now? Now you were touching Rooster? His jaw clenched. There it was, that look. That flicker of heat buried deep in his eyes, something possessive and raw curling beneath his cool exterior. He was trying to keep it contained. Failing. Youâd been giving him nothing but distance all week. Cold shoulders. Professional smiles.
And now you were here, cozying up to Bradley fucking Bradshaw, touching his arm like it meant something. Jake barely acknowledged the girl in front of him. Didnât even glance her way when she laughed again, too loud, too fake. He stepped away like she wasnât even there, a muscle ticking in his cheek as he moved. Fast. Direct. Heat rolling off him like the pavement in July. You tried to stay cool. Calm. Unbothered. But the second you felt him behind you, everything inside you began to splinter.
His shadow fell over you before his voice did, low and rough, like he was holding back something sharp. âCan we please talk?â No drawl. No swagger. Just those five words, spoken low enough for only you to hear. You turned slowly, lifting your gaze to meet his. And what you saw there made your throat go dry. His jaw was tight, lips pressed together like he couldnât trust what might come out next. His breathing was shallow.
His chest rose and fell like heâd just finished a sprint. And his eyes, God, those eyes, were burning. Not with arrogance. Not even with anger. But with desperation. Desperation and hurt. Something cracked in your resolve. You'd spent days convincing yourself you didnât care. That you were over it. Over him. That whatever you thought was between you had been imagined, one-sided. Stupid. But the way he was looking at you now? There was nothing one-sided about it. You hesitated. Your mouth didnât move. But your heart answered for you.
You nodded.
And Jake exhaled like it was the first real breath heâd taken in days. Wordlessly, he led you outside to the back patio where the air was cooler, salt-stung and quieter than the inside. The string lights overhead glowed gold against the dark, and the music became just a dull vibration through the wood beneath your feet. Jake stopped near the railing, raking a hand through his hair like he didnât know whether to speak or scream. His chest rose, then fell, like the effort to stay composed was costing him something.
âWhat the hellâs going on with you?â His voice wasnât angry. It wasnât even demanding. It was tired, frayed around the edges. You folded your arms across your chest, forcing your spine straight, your eyes sharp. âNothing.â Jake scoffed. Harsh. Humorless. âBullshit.â He stepped forward. âYouâve been avoiding me for days. You won't even look at me anymore.â You turned your face away, blinking too fast. The ache in your throat burned. âMaybe Iâve just been busy.â He exhaled through his nose, slower this time. âDid I do something?â
You wanted to scream. To shove the words into his chest and make him feel what youâd been carrying since that night. But fear twisted around your tongue like barbed wire. So you said nothing. Jake took a step closer. Slower now. Careful. Like you were something on the edge of shattering. And you hated it, hated how much you wanted him to reach out. To touch you. To say something that made it all make sense. âIâI heard what you said,â You whispered, voice thin and raw. His brow furrowed.
âThat night. After training.â You swallowed hard. âYou were talking to the squad. You said you werenât interested. That I wasnât your type.â A bitter laugh escaped your throat, hollow and trembling. âGod, itâs my fault, really. I was stupid enough to believe that Jake Hangman Seresin, serial flirt, top gun, legendary pain in the ass, would ever want someone like me⌠when he could have Malibu Barbie throwing herself at him.â The words spilled out before you could catch them. Sharp. Bare. Bleeding.
Jake flinched. Confusion flashed first, wide-eyed, disoriented, then understanding slammed into him like a punch to the gut. âNo,â He breathed, face paling, panic crashing behind his eyes. âYou thought I was talking about you?â Your silence was answer enough. He stumbled back half a step, hands dragging down his face. Like he needed to wipe the guilt from his skin just to breathe. âJesus Christ, Y/N.â His voice cracked. Rough. Gutted. âI wasnât talking about you. God, no. I didnât even know you were there.â
âDoesnât matter.â You looked away, arms tightening around yourself like armor. âIt does matter,â He snapped, voice raw. âYou think I could ever, ever, talk about you like that?â His voice faltered, and he ran a shaking hand through his hair again, pacing once before turning back. âYou think Iâd look at you and say your voice is annoying? That Iâm not interested? Are you serious?â You finally met his gaze, and what he saw nearly dropped him to his knees.
You werenât angry. You were hurt. Really hurt. âI donât think you meant to,â You whispered. âBut you don't see me. You never do.â Jake looked like heâd been hit. The silence stretched, tangled between you, trembling and thick. Then he stepped closer. One step. Then another. His voice came softer now. Hoarse. Frightened. âI see you.â You shook your head. âI see you,â He repeated, louder this time, like if he said it enough it would finally reach you. âMore than anyone ever has. And it scares the hell out of me.â
Your lips parted. A sound escaped, half-breath, half-sob, and the first tear slipped free before you could stop it. You turned your face away, but his hand lifted, gently brushing the drop from your cheek like it hurt him to see it. He hesitated, fingers twitching near yours, unsure if he was allowed. Then, with a breathless whisper, âDarlinâ⌠I donât want Malibu Barbie in there,â You blinked brows drawing in confusion. His hand hovered near yours, trembling.
âI want you. The girl who makes Rooster blush. The one who doesnât back down when I flirt, who gives it right back. Who knows when Iâm lying through my teeth even when I donât.â He reached again, this time slower, curling his hand around yours like it was sacred. Like letting go would ruin him. To his surprise, you let him. You didnât flinch. Didnât pull away. His fingers threaded through yours like they belonged there, like theyâd always belonged there. And God help you⌠they did.
You were silent for a long time. Then, finally, so quiet it almost wasnât real, you spoke pushing past the lump in your throat. âI thought I wasnât enough.â Jakeâs heart cracked clean in two. âYouâre everything,â He whispered. âEverything, Y/N." Jakeâs thumb brushed over the back of your hand like he couldnât stop touching you now that youâd let him. His gaze was locked on yours, open in a way youâd never seen before, no walls, no smirk, no cocky bravado. Just Jake. Real. Unfiltered. Bleeding.
âIâve been gone for you since the day you rolled your eyes at me instead of blushing.â You blinked, caught off guard. He huffed a breath that mightâve been a laugh if it werenât so wrecked. âI flirted. God, I poured it on. You remember? That night I tried to buy you a drink and you told me to grow up and learn how to pour my own?â A reluctant smile tugged at your mouth. âYou called me a heartbreaker.â You whispered recalling the moment as if it were yesterday. âBecause you were,â He whispered, voice cracking just slightly.
âYou are.â You swallowed, hard, but he didnât stop. âI kept telling myself I just liked the chase. That I could move on. That you were just another pretty face behind the bar, exceptââ He shook his head, jaw tightening. âYouâre not.â Your brows knit, but you didnât look away. âI told you about my dad.â Jakeâs voice dropped, softer now. âI didnât even realize Iâd done it until after. Iâve never talked about him. Not to anyone. Not like that.â The memory came back instantly. That night after last call, lights dimmed, your elbows resting on the bar between you.
Heâd looked so tired, so open. Youâd asked one small question, something about his hometown, and suddenly he was talking about Texas and silence and a man who never really told his son he was proud. Jake stared at you now, breathing hard like he was barely holding himself together. âYou didnât say anything when I told you. You just⌠listened.â He looked down, eyes catching on your joined hands. âYou let me be someone I donât let anyone see.â He swallowed. âI noticed everything about you, Y/N.â Your lips parted, but nothing came out.
âI know you hate wearing your hair down when youâre working because it sticks to your lip gloss and drives you crazy. I know you pretend to be annoyed when Bob leaves peanut shells on the bar, but you never actually throw them away until after he leaves, because you donât want to make him feel bad.â Your eyes stung. His voice was reverent now, like he was listing truths heâd memorized like scripture. âI know you tie your apron the same way every night, double knot on the left, even though youâre right-handed,"
"You hum when you count cash. You clench your jaw when youâre about to cry and you never cry in front of people, andââ He exhaled, blinking fast. âI know how it felt. That night you sat beside me after training, shoulder to shoulder, not talking much.â He was close now. Closer than before. âI replay that night more than I want to admit,â Jake murmured. âThe way your knee brushed mine and you didnât move it. The way you leaned into me without even realizing it. I wanted to grab your hand so bad, but I was scared itâd ruin it. Scared youâd pull away.â
You hadnât realized your breath had hitched until he reached up, gently tucking a piece of hair behind your ear. âIâm not scared now.â You were blinking back tears. âI was falling for you then,â He breathed, thumb brushing the edge of your jaw. âAnd Iâve just kept falling. Every damn day. Even when you stopped talking to me. Even when it felt like you were slipping through my fingers and I didnât know why.â His voice dropped to something trembling and soft. âYouâre it for me, Y/N."
"The real thing. No games. No stupid lines. Just you.â You opened your mouth and closed it. Shaking your head, just slightly. âBut Iâm not your type.â You whispered, voice thick with emotion. Jake smiled, and it wrecked you. âDarlinâ,â He coaxed, stepping even closer, pressing your joined hands gently against his chest. âYou are every type I didnât know I needed. Youâre the only girl Iâve ever wanted to stay for.â Your heart was a drumbeat in your throat. Jake leaned in, breath warm and uneven between you.
âI want late nights on this patio with you. I want to sit on your kitchen counter while you complain about your day and steal your snacks. I want you in my bed. In my arms. In my life. All of it. You.â The tears spilled freely now. âI donât want Malibu Barbie, or any of those girls who laugh at jokes I didnât even tell. I want the girl who saw straight through me before I even knew who I was.â Your fingers clutched his shirt now, knuckles white. Jake leaned his forehead gently against yours, voice barely a whisper now.
âI love you, Y/N.â
The words hung there, raw, open, real. And for the first time in weeks, the ache in your chest lifted. Because he meant it. And heâd never looked more terrified⌠or more certain. Your breath caught. There it was, laid bare between you. His heart, stripped and beating in your hands. Jake Seresin, the man everyone thought was untouchable, cocky, invincible was standing here, terrified. Loving you with everything he had. For the first time in weeks, the fear that had been curling like smoke in your chest started to ease.
But it didnât vanish. Because you were still scared. Not of him. Of you. Of how badly you wanted this. How deeply you felt it. How vulnerable it made you to need someone this much. You lifted your head slowly, his forehead still resting lightly against yours, your breaths mingling in the salt-tinged air. âI love you too Jake.â You whispered, and it cracked something open inside both of you. His eyes squeezed shut as he let out a slow, unsteady breath, like heâd been drowning, and those words were the air heâd needed for weeks.
âBut Iâm scared,â You admitted, your voice trembling, fingers still clutching his shirt. âScared that this is just a moment. That youâll wake up one day and realize Iâm not what you want. That Iâll never be enough.â Jake opened his eyes, and the look on his face made your chest cave in. There was no hesitation. No uncertainty. Just devotion. He cupped your face like you were something fragile but precious, like he was honored just to hold you. âY/NâŚâ He breathed, stepping even closer, until your body was flush against his.
âIâm gonna spend every damn second we have proving just how wrong that voice in your head is. Every second.â You blinked fast, your heart pounding against your ribs like it was trying to reach him. âIâll show you,â He whispered, thumb sweeping along your cheek. âNot just once. Not just tonight. Every day. Iâll show you in the mornings, when youâre grumpy and still half-asleep and stealing the covers. Iâll show you when youâre mad at me, and Iâll deserve it, but Iâll still be there, because Iâm not going anywhere.â He kissed the corner of your mouth, just barely.
Like he didnât want to overwhelm you, only remind you he was there. âIâll show you when things get hard. When I have a bad day, and you have worse, and weâre tired and angry and still choosing each other anyway. Thatâs love, darlinâ. And Iâve got it bad for you.â Your breath hitched, and your hands came up to grip his forearms. âIâll prove it in every single look, every word, every time I hold your hand or brush your hair behind your ear or make you laugh after a long shift,â He murmured.
âIâll remind you that youâre it for me. Youâve always been it.â The tears returned, but this time they came softer. You looked at him through the blur, voice nearly lost. âWhat if I fall even harder?â Jake smiled, gently resting his forehead against yours again. âThen Iâll be there to catch you. Every damn time.â You didnât mean to lean in first. Maybe it was the look in his eyes, wild with devotion, soft with fear. Maybe it was the way he said youâre everything like it was the simplest truth in the world.
Maybe it was just that you couldnât take it anymore, the aching distance, the space youâd both been tiptoeing around for too long. But suddenly your lips were on his. It was slow, searching. Like you were both discovering what it meant to be held this close by someone who knew you, who had seen you, in the mess, in the fear, in the fire, and chose you anyway. Jake let out a broken breath against your mouth.
Like heâd been waiting for this moment longer than he wanted to admit, and kissed you like it might kill him not to. It started slow, trembling. His hands cradled your face with aching reverence, thumbs trembling slightly against your cheekbones. But the second your fingers curled into his shirt and your lips parted on a gasp, everything between you snapped, weeks of tension combusting all at once. He kissed you harder. Hungrier.
One hand slid into your hair, curling into your ponytail, while the other held your waist like he needed you closer. Like he couldnât bear another second of space between you. His mouth moved against yours with heat and purpose, lips molding, tongue brushing yours, breath hitching as your bodies pressed together like magnets pulled tight. You whimpered softly against his mouth when he tilted his head and deepened the kiss, the sound swallowed by him as if heâd been starving for it.
He tasted like mint and beer and Jake, home, somehow, even in the chaos of it. Your teeth grazed, breath catching. Then your tongues slid together again and it was messy and warm and real. His hand fisted gently in your hair. You pulled him closer by the collar of his shirt, dizzy from how easily your body molded to his, how his chest rose and fell in stuttering exhales, like you were the only thing keeping him grounded. He kissed you like it was a promise.
And you kissed him like it was the first breath after drowning. Jake finally broke the kiss, gasping softly, but only just enough to press his forehead back to yours, breath mingling, both of you shaking. âBelieve me now?â Jake grinned, the edges of his mouth still curved from that kiss, the one you were still trying to catch your breath from. He leaned in, nudging your nose with his playfully. Your lips twitched into a smile, still dazed. âItâs hard not to after a kiss like that.â
He chuckled low in his throat, the sound warm and rich, before dipping his head to press one last, lingering kiss to your lips, this one slower, softer, like a promise more than punctuation. âCome on,â He murmured against your mouth, hand already sliding into yours. âI want to show off my girl.â Your heart fluttered hard in your chest, giddy and unsteady. His girl. You could definitely get used to that. The two of you walked back toward the patio doors hand-in-hand, the cool ocean breeze still trailing behind you.
Jake was practically glowing, his grin wide, his shoulders relaxed in a way they hadnât been in weeks. You could feel his thumb tracing slow circles against your knuckles as you walked, grounding you in the surrealness of the moment. As you stepped into the warm buzz of the Hard Deck, the shift in the room was instant. Bradley let out a long, low whistle, raising his beer. âWell, finally.â You flushed instantly, heat crawling up your neck as Natasha gave you a knowing grin from across the table. Even Penny was grinning from behind the bar, sharing a look like theyâd known all along.
Jake didnât even hesitate. Still beaming, he strolled right up to the squadâs table, pulled out an empty chair, and dropped into it without letting go of your hand. Before you could react, he tugged you gently down into his lap. You gasped, startled by the sudden PDA, hands bracing against his chest as he held you there, one arm wrapped around your waist like a vice, the other resting lazily on your thigh. His body was warm beneath you, solid and steady, and for the first time in a long time, you didnât feel like you had to hide.
Now that he had you, really had you, Jake Seresin clearly had absolutely no intention of letting go. The squad erupted in cheers and teasing jeers, beers clinking, boots scuffing against the wooden floor. But then something caught your eye. You watched, wide-eyed, as Mickey, Reuben, and Javy each reached into their wallets and started sliding bills across the table, straight into the waiting hands of Natasha and Bradley. âHold on,â Jake barked, brows shooting up. âYou assholes had a bet going?â
âPlease. Weâve been placing bets since the second she didnât slap you the first night.â Natasha leaned back smugly, counting her winnings with all the grace of a champion poker player. âI thought I heard someone say âby Valentineâs Day or bust.ââ You muttered, staring at Bradley as he fanned out a crisp stack of twenties. Jake turned, brows raised in mock betrayal. âBob.â You looked toward the quietest member of the group, who was sheepishly sliding a twenty toward Natasha, cheeks flaming.
âNot you too!â You gasped dramatically. âI-It was obvious.â He mumbled, rubbing the back of his neck. âWe were all just waiting for the two of you to stop being blind and realize you were already in love.â Mickey stayed matter-of-factly. Jake groaned, shaking his head with a dramatic flair. âUnbelievable.â But then he turned, eyes softening as he looked at you. âWell youâre right about one thing Fanboy, damn straight I love her.â He declared, suddenly and loudly.
His words were loud enough to carry over the music, his drawl curling around the words like honey. The table lost it, laughter exploding around you, but all you could do was stare at him, your cheeks burning, your heart thundering in your chest as he tugged you tighter into him, pressing his lips to your temple, warm and unashamed. And just over Jakeâs shoulder, you caught a glimpse of the blonde from earlier, the one whoâd been leaning against him when your heart had first started to break.
Her mouth twisted, her eyes narrowed. She scoffed, turned on her heel, and stormed out of the bar without so much as a backward glance. Only, Jake didnât even see her leave. Because his focus was entirely on you. Not some bottle blonde who he didnât know the name of. As you leaned back into his chest, the smell of salt and citrus and something utterly Jake wrapped around you like a memory, you realized you werenât afraid anymore. Not of falling. Not of love. Not with him holding you like this, like heâd waited a lifetime to.
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By The Horns: Part Eight
Attn: Sooo I was trying to get this done before the holiday but we had a lot going on and all so itâs late lol, but I hope yâall enjoy nonetheless!
Word Count: 2,622
Pairing: Bull Rider Sy x OFC Collins Cooke (CC)
Summary: Collins and Sy attend Walterâs 4th of July party together.
Warnings: 18+, oral (female and male receiving)
Previous Part:
Part Seven
After their first rodeo, Collins goes to watch Sy twice more, and no woman even dares to approach him, which hasnât gone unnoticed. âSo⌠scared off all the buckle bunnies huh?,â Walter teases her. âYouâve seen me fight Walter. They should be scared,â Collins smirks. âYeah, yeah. Little baddie. You donât scare me though,â he says as he playfully puts her in a headlock.
âMe being around ruined your chances though? Iâd hate that,â she says as she straightens out her hair. âThey never took much interest in me,â he shrugs. âSeems like a shame to me. Youâre a nice enough guy, good lookinâ, responsible,â Collins says before Sy cuts the corner. âGood lookinâ? You must be talkinâ about meâ, he smiles. âActually she was talking about me,â Walter goads. âWhat?,â he says before Collins leans up and gives him a kiss.
âI was just sayinâ. Walter was tellinâ me he doesnât get many dates is all, and that doesnât make sense to me,â she shrugs. âOh so you were empathizinâ,â Sy comments. âYeah. Nothinâ wrong with Walter. He needs a girlfriend,â Collins replies. âMaybe we couldâ,â Sy begins before Walter cuts him off. âOh no. The two of you arenât playing matchmaker for me,â he shakes his head. âAnd why not?,â Collins sasses. âI justâ focus on your blossoming relationship. Iâll be fineâ, he insist.
âWell⌠okay, but my cousin Melissa is gonna be in town next week and sheâs cute. Lot more docile than I am as wellâ, Collins says. âMore docile⌠as if you have a docile bone in your body,â Walter chuckles. âIâllâ,â Collins says before Sy catches her about the waist. âNow, now darlinâ. Canât have you clobberinâ my manager and best cousin,â Sy tells her. âOh have you invited her yet?,â Walter then asks. âI was gonna tonight. Baby, would you like to go to a barbecue at Walterâs for the fourth? Lots of the other bull riders and their partnersâll be there. I usually go, but I donât wanna go without you,â he says.
âSure,â Collins agrees. âAlright then. Itâs a pool party so wear your bathing suit and bring a side or dessert of some sort. Sy and I cover the meats and drinks generally,â Walter adds. Collins nods as she leans back against Sy. âIâll pick you up Friday around one if thatâs alright. I usually get there an early to help out,â Sy tells her. âThatâs fine with meâ, Collins agrees.
Friday rolls around and Sy arrives at one as promised and nearly buckles at his knees when he sees Collins in her bright pink sundress. âOh darlinâ,â he breathes as he takes her in his arms. âWhat?,â she laughs as his stubble tickles her cheek. âI ainât ever seen nothinâ prettier,â he tells her, bringing a light blush to her cheeks. âItâs not too much right? Iâve got a change of clothes in my bag and all if it is andâ,â she gets out before he stops her. âYouâre perfect,â he insists before giving her a kiss.
When they arrive Walter and a few other guys are there already setting up. Walter smiles brightly when he sees the two of them. âGlad you two are here,â he says before hugging each of them. âI hope butterfinger cake is okay. We stuck it in the fridge before heading out here,â Collins mentions. âSounds delicious,â he replies. âBaby these are two of my coworkers I guess you could call them, Theo and Rhys,â Sy introduces.
âSo youâre the little lady that wrangled in the big bull, huh?,â Theo teases. âThatâd be me,â Collins smiles. âGood for you,â Theo nods. âThanks. Now, how can I help?,â she asks. They all get to work setting up a buffet of sorts, getting drinks on ice, and finally Walter lights the grill just as more people arrive. âAhhh!,â someone squeals from the doorway.
âDarcy come on now sugar. Youâre gonna scare her off before youâve even met her,â Theo groans. âOh you hush. Iâm Darcy, Theoâs wife. Me and all the girls have just been dying to meet you! Weâve been hoping for Sy to calm down for years now. You donât know how happy it makes us. Weâre all like family, you understand?,â she blabbers. She seems nice enough but it takes Collins a moment to process. âOh Collins.. dâ did I overstep?,â she frets.
âNo, not at all. I just⌠wasnât expecting all of that,â Collins chuckles. âSee,â Theo says as he wraps his arms around her from behind and pulls her close. âI am a bit extra. Donât mean no harm though I promise. You wanna come lay out over here with us girls awhile?,â she asks hopefully. âSure, Iâd like that,â Collins replies. âGood. You boys round us up some drinks,â Darcy says before walking away. Theo just shakes his head before Collins shrugs and follows her.
Whenever she gets over to a lounger, Sy watches as she sheds her dress. Underneath is a bikini that matches the shade of pink of her dress. âFuck,â he breathes before he thinks much about it. âEasy there,â Walter teases. âHuh?,â he stammers while turning his head in Walterâs direction. âEasy. Little Sy doesnât need to make an appearance. This is a family event,â Walter teases with a shit eating grin. âShut up,â Sy mumbles.
When the food is done, the table fills up quickly. âUnderestimated seatingâ, Walter says, looking around. âSâalright,â Sy says as he pulls Collins into his lap. âSy,â Collins whispers in his ear. âYeah?,â he questions mischievously. She gives him a pointed look before he laughs. âYou just look so good baby. Been havinâ a hard time controllinâ this thing all eveninâ,â he whispers. âWanna go for a swim after eating? Cool water might help,â she comments. âDunno if seeinâ you all wetâll help or not, but Iâm not gonna pass that up,â he says, earning an eye roll from Collins.
When theyâre done eating and talking a bit, Sy grabs Collins up and jumps into the pool with her. âThatâs not what I had in mind honey,â Collins glares when they come up. âHoney? Callinâ me pet names now huh?,â he smiles. âYou just canât let nothinâ be can you?,â Collins huffs. âCanât let you be Collins Cooke. Iâm too far gone,â he says before kissing her like no one is watching. âNo banging in the pool!,â Walter shouts before splashing them.
âHey!,â Collins and Sy say in unison. âJust saying,â Walter replies. âYou are such a shit stirrer you know that?,â Collins tells him. âYeah but youâre my friend anyway sooooâŚ,â he trails off with a grin. âThat could change,â Collins deadpans. Walter places a hand over his furry chest and gasps. âCC how could you? After everything weâve been through too,â he fake sobs. âI think Iâm gonna be sick,â she tells Sy. âYeah layinâ it on a little thick ainât he?,â Sy agrees. âI can hear the both of you,â Walter comments, making them laugh.
The night goes on, the two of them mostly in their little bubble after having socialized with everyone a fair amount. Itâs nearly eleven by time Walter and Theo set off the fireworks. Collins is wrapped in a towel, sat in Syâs lap on Walterâs back lawn. After watching a few shoot off Collins leans back further, tucking her face into Syâs neck. âAlright there darlin?,â he asks. âMhmm, just a little tired,â she replies. âI should probably be gettinâ you home, Iâm tired myselfâ, he says.
âWhere do you live?,â she questions. âJust up the road a bit, why?,â he asks. âIâve got extra clothes. We could just go there since itâs closer. I donât want you drivinâ if youâre tired,â she says before placing a soft kiss to his neck. She nuzzles her head closer and feels his pulse racing. âYâ yeah we could. You sure baby?,â he asks. âYeah. I want a shower and sleep⌠And I kinda still want to be with you, if thatâs okay,â she tells him. His arms tighten around her, before he kisses the top of her head. âCourse it is. Letâs go say our goodbyes,â he tells her before helping her up.
âLeaving already?,â Walter asks as they approach. âYeah man. It was fun, but my little darlinâs done got tired so weâre gonna head out,â Sy tells him. âThanks for coming,â Walter says before pulling Collins in for a hug. âWouldnât have missed it,â she replies as he lets her go. âYou two be good,â he says with a wink. âIâm always good,â Collins scoffs before walking away, making Walter laugh.
Sy just smiles to himself before following after her.
Collins has lightly dozed off by time they reach Syâs. She startles when he lifts her out of his truck. âJust me baby,â he says softly. âMy bag,â she mumbles. âI got it,â he assures her. She lets herself rest against him as he carries her inside before asking to be put down. She takes in her surroundings. The words rustic and masculine come to mind before Sy takes her by the hand and leads her to the master bathroom.
âAlright so I might have some shampoo under the sink. I didnât think this through⌠beinâ buzzed I usually just wash what little hair I have with soap. Ah. There it is andâŚ,â he trails off when he raises up and finds Collins stark naked. âCâ Collins what are you⌠darlin Iâ,â he stammers. âIâm gettinâ a shower. Wanna join?,â she asks. His brain short circuits for a moment, her slender little body there before him. âYeah,â he finally breathes just before she steps in.
He quickly strips and steps in behind her. He sits the shampoo aside and wraps his arms around her. âThis okay?,â he questions. âYeah. I wanted to keep beinâ close to you,â she admits, and itâs all he needs. He moves even closer, pulling her body flush to his. âYouâre perfect baby,â he says against her cheek. She turns her head up and pulls him down for a kiss before turning in his arms.
When she pulls away sheâs face to face with his strong, hairy chest. âYouâre not so bad yourself,â she comments, running her fingers through his chest hair, then down his muscular back. She can feel his hard cock jump between them. She doesnât look just yet, but it feels massive. âLet me clean you up darlinâ,â Sy then says before walking her back beneath the water to wet her hair.
After gently cleaning one another and drying off, Collins wraps her arms around Sy and pulls him in for more kisses. Before itâs over, sheâs jumped up into his arms for a better reach. âKillinâ me CC,â Sy murmurs as he lays her down on his bed. âYou can touch me⌠if you want. Would that help?,â she whispers. âDamn sure ainât gonna hurt,â he gets out before kissing her again and letting his hands roam.
He canât help but think just how perfectly her body fits in his hands. âIâ Iâve gotta taste you baby. Please,â he begs. âTaste me where?,â she asks, lips swollen from kisses. âAll over, but Iâm dyinâ to eat your pussy baby. If you donât want it, thatâs okay but you canât blame a man for tryinâ,â he says, eyes still pleading. Collins knows sheâs soaked and has pressure building down there. She worries her lip for a moment before looking into his eyes.
Theyâre soft⌠so soft for her. He then leans down and kisses her gently before kissing across her cheek to her neck. âAinât even worried about myself I justâ want you,â he murmurs into her hair, and thatâs all it takes. âYes,â she says and Sy doesnât hesitate. He moves down her chest, sucking one breast into his mouth and groans, nearly all of it fitting, before giving the other the same treatment. He feels Collins shudder at he kisses down her stomach, and down to her thighs.
She lets him open her up for him, watching as his pupils dilate further, his breath fanning over her mound. âThank you,â she hears him say before kissing her clit. Goosebumps erupt over her skin when he kisses it again. Then when his tongue darts out, it doesnât take long for Collins to get carried away. She couldnât lie to herself, the man ate pussy like he was eating a five start meal. Starved and appreciative.
He lets his hands roam, squeezing her breasts, her ass, kneading her hips as he suckles her clit. Collins doesnât realize all the noise she making, but Sy does. Every little whimper, every moan is noted, and he does whatever made her make that sound over again. He holds her hips in place, watching as she gaps. âGonna come,â she rasps just before Sy feels her pulsing in his mouth. Itâs damn near enough to make him release but somehow his cock only feels as if it gets harder.
When Collins finally calms down she sits up. âGet up,â she tells him, and he readily obeys. She feels like sheâs on fire, and wants to taste him as well, but when sheâs met with the behemoth between his legs her eyes widen in shock. âWhat the fuck is that?,â she says before thinking, making Sy laugh uproariously. âThatâs me darlinâ,â he says, taking her face in his hands and giving her a kiss. âJesus Christ,â she says as she reaches out and lets her fingertips run down the shaft.
âNow baby you ainât gottaâ,â he gets out before her hand wraps around him, her thumb just touching her middle finger. âIâm gonna⌠unless you donât want me to,â she says, suddenly becoming a bit timid. âOf course I want you to. I just donât want there to be no pressure darlinâ. Youâre in charge here,â he gets out. âDamn right I am. Just didnât know this is what you were workinâ with. Howâs this ever supposed to fit in me,â she says as she strokes him lightly.
Sy was about to say something, but words leave him at the mention of him being inside of her. He didnât ever think theyâd get to this point, let alone more. She strokes him a bit more before lapping at the precum on the head of his cock. âCollins Iâ I donât think Iâm gonna last too long here baby,â he shudders just as she seals her lips around him once and pulls off. âThatâs okay,â she says before getting back to it. She works his cock head, only slipping down the shaft a little, his size being a bit much for anything further.
He cups her face in one hand and looks down to see her looking up at him. âYou gotta stâ stop baby Iâm gonna spill in your mouth,â he nearly whimpers. âI donât want to stop,â she tells him before continuing. âOhfuckohfuck,â he huffs as his cock swells. Heâs mindful not to push forward, not wanting to hurt Collins, but the orgasm he has is nearly blinding, and once sheâs finished he all but collapses after being on his knees.
Collins climbs on top of him, bringing his attention to her. She leans in close to his face just before he flips her and gives her a lingering kiss. She caresses his face, letting her nails rake through his beard lightly. âYou really are mine, arenât you?,â she says, finally feeling it to be true. âI am, and youâre mine,â he said before scooping her up onto the bed. Collins tucks herself into his chest, Sy rubbing her back softly. âGoodnight,â she says. âNight darlinâ, love you,â Sy replies.
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at least we were electrified ; jake "hangman" seresin x reader
pairings: jake "hangman" seresin x reader
word count: 23.6k words (argh it's too short)
summary: youâre the only pilot who ever beat hangman in the airâand heâs been obsessed with you ever since. now you're stuck training together, sparring with every word, and pretending you're not seconds away from tearing each otherâs clothes off.
warnings: enemies to lovers, slight rivals to lovers, mdni, smut, bathtub sex, slow soft sex, emotional sex, face sitting, oral (f receiving), multiple rounds (3+), breeding kink, overstimulation, begging, praise kink, cockwarming, aftercare, bath aftercare, love confessions during sex, jake seresin is down bad and soft and obsessed, mutual pining resolved, this man will absolutely cry during sex and then keep going, soft dom jake, reader rides him, sleepy post-sex cuddles, taylor swift inspired, based on âdressâ from reputation, both of them get emotionally wrecked in the most beautiful way
notes: i cannot believe i wrote this filth in the middle of work anyway, you guys voted for this to be posted first, so expect my rooster x rival pilot!reader to be posted after this fic hahaha thank you for enabling me once again, i love you all even though jake seresin now lives in my brain rent free and wonât stop being a menace
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your callsign is crash.
You hit the deck with textbook precision, wheels screeching against the tarmac before the jet finally hissed into silence. The canopy cracked open, letting the salt-thick wind in as you exhaled slow through your comms. Another clean run. Another win. The flight crew scrambled into motion below, yellow shirts waving you in, but you barely heard them over the rush still pumping through your veins.
Meanwhile, a second jet came in behind yoursâless graceful, slightly late, and visibly annoyed. Jake âHangmanâ Seresin touched down like the landing had personally offended him. You watched from the edge of the flight line as his Super Hornet taxied in, his moves tight and rigid, posture too stiff to be casual. You could feel the heat of his frustration radiating from across the tarmac.
Once your boots hit the ground, you pulled your helmet off, tucking it under your arm as you made your way toward the hangar. The late-afternoon sun beat down hard, and your flight suit stuck to your skin in places you didnât want to think about, but the satisfaction of todayâs victory dulled everything else. Inside, the air was coolerâbarelyâand the metallic scent of jet fuel still hung heavy in your nose as you peeled the zipper down to your chest.
Then, his shadow stretched long across the hangar floor behind you.
âHell of a move out there,â he drawled, voice slick with that Texas edge he sharpened like a knife.
You didnât turn around right away. Instead, you leaned against the bench, unfastening your gloves with slow, deliberate movements. âYou mean the part where I left you hanging in my six? Or the part where you stalled trying to catch up?â
There was a beat of silence, and then you heard his boots close the distance. Not storming. Not angry. Just⌠deliberate. Controlled. Like a predator who knew patience was part of the kill.
Finally, when you met his eyes, he was standing a little too close, heat rolling off him like he never left the sky.
âDonât look at me like that,â Jake muttered, jaw tight, voice low enough to make it feel private.
âLike what?â you asked, tilting your head just slightly, giving him that slow, crooked grin he hated. The one that said I know Iâm better, and you do too.
âLike youâre proud of it.â
You stepped in, just enough to make him flinchânot back, never back, but enough to make something in him lock up.
âOh, I am,â you said, voice syrup-thick with challenge. âIâm very proud of it.â
Jakeâs gaze dropped for a fraction of a secondâquick, sharp, dangerousâbefore it came right back up. He was smiling now, but it was the kind of smile that came with teeth.
âCocky, Crash,â he said, voice like a spark on gasoline. âMight wanna watch that altitude before you stall out next.â
But you didnât answer. Not with words. Not yet. Because you knew exactly how high you were flying.
And more importantly, you knew he was chasing.
Before either of you could throw the next punchâverbal or otherwiseâthe hangar doors groaned open again, letting in the rest of Dagger Squad with the kind of loud, casual chaos only they could bring. Payback was the first to speak, his voice echoing off the walls as he pulled his helmet off and shook out his damp curls.
âWell, if it isnât Crash and Burn,â he grinned, tossing a glance between you and Jake. âHowâs the air up there, sweetheart?â
You smirked. âClean. Unlike your record.â
Coyote let out a low whistle, already unzipping his flight suit. âDamn, sheâs still got fire left in her and just smoked Hangman at ten thousand feet. Manâs gonna need therapy.â
Jake didnât take his eyes off you. âI donât need therapy. I need better wingmen.â
âYou need humility,â you replied, tossing your gloves into your locker with just enough force to make a point.
Then came Phoenix, swaggering in with her usual post-flight strut and zero patience for testosterone-soaked one-liners. âWhatever this is,â she said, gesturing vaguely between you and Jake, âcan it wait until after we all shower and donât smell like burned jet fuel and fragile egos?â
Fanboy laughed under his breath, already halfway to stripping down. âYou sure? This is better than Netflix.â
Harvard and Yale brushed past you on their way to the lockers, both nodding politely before catching on to the tension and exchanging a glance that said oh great, itâs happening again. You didnât care. You didnât exist to be anyoneâs entertainment. Not even Daggerâs. Especially not Jakeâs.
You made your way to the female side of the locker room, where a metal divider sectioned off the spaceâstandard setup, rigidly enforced. No overlap. No excuses. You walked like you werenât burning, even as you peeled out of your flight suit and let the cool tile of the shower area offer temporary relief.
Meanwhile, through the thin wall, you could still hear themâJakeâs voice louder than the rest, no doubt throwing around some snarky excuse for why he got beat again. You rolled your eyes under the stream of water, letting it scald your skin and wash away the sweat, but not the irritation.
Not the heat.
Then, as if summoned by sheer force of will, his voice filtered through the locker chatter again.
âCrash thinks sheâs untouchable just because she got lucky once.â
You clenched your jaw, fingers tightening around the bottle of shampoo. Once? That was your third win in five days, and you both knew it.
Over in the male locker room, the conversation was shifting. Roosterâs voice cut through next, calm but edged in something sharp. âYouâre obsessed, man. Youâve been spiraling since the first time she beat you. Admit it.â
Jake responded too fast. âIâm not obsessed.â
There was a short pause, and then Paybackâs laugh bounced off the walls. âSure youâre not. Thatâs why you talk about her in your sleep.â
You didnât mean to smile, but it happened anywayâquick and gone, like turbulence.
By the time you emerged from the shower, towel wrapped around your neck and flight suit half zipped again, the squad had already started to head out. The locker room buzz had died down to a low murmur of sarcasm and soap. Phoenix passed you at the doorway, giving you a nod and a raised brow.
âHeâs still pacing,â she said under her breath. âYouâre in his head, Crash.â
You just shook your head, brushing past her without comment. Jake Seresin could burn through every ounce of pride he had and it still wouldnât be enough to eclipse yours. You didnât need to be in his head.
You were already in his airspace.
The corridor between the locker room and the flight debriefing room was narrow, lined with flickering fluorescents and the hum of vents that couldn't quite beat back the post-flight heat. You moved through it with practiced ease, boots scuffing against the tile in sync with your steady breathing, body still thrumming from the high of the sky. Youâd flown clean, sharp, and unapologetically fast. Faster than him. Again.
Then, just as you rounded the corner past the exit hatch, you caught him.
Jake leaned against the wall like he belonged there, one arm braced high over a locker, hair still damp, towel slung lazy around his neck like it hadnât been weaponized in half a dozen locker room showdowns. His flight suit hung open to the waist, dog tags swinging with every shift of his frame. His eyes flicked up the moment he saw you, dark and unreadableâbut not unreadable enough.
You paused mid-stride, giving him a glance sharp enough to cut through any lingering sweat-fog between you.
âIf youâre waiting for an apology,â you said, tone dry as desert wind, âyouâll be collecting dust.â
Jake pushed off the wall, slow like it meant nothing, like he wasnât waiting at all. âYou think I want an apology?â
âI think you want something,â you replied, not bothering to stop walking as he fell into step beside you.
He chuckled low in his throat, the sound curling through the narrow hall like smoke. âYou always this arrogant after a flight?â
You turned your head slightly, just enough to give him your profile. âOnly when I fly better than the guy who wonât shut up about being the best.â
Jakeâs grin twitched wider, but there was no warmth in itâjust edge. âYou donât fly better than me, Crash. You fly dirtier.â
You stopped short, the words hitting a little too close to something you didnât care to name. âFunny. I thought getting results mattered more than looking pretty for the scoreboard.â
He leaned in then, just enough to make you feel it. The space tightened. The air thinned.
âKeep talkinâ like that,â he said, voice low enough to make you forget anyone else even existed on base, âand I might start thinking you want me to bite back.â
You blinked at him, expression carefully blank, even as heat crawled up your neck. âBite harder, Seresin. Youâre already choking.â
For a second, you swore he forgot how to breathe. His jaw twitched, and his fingers curled at his sides like he needed something to grip. He stepped back before he did something stupidâor worse, something obviousâand ran a hand through his hair like it could tame what was already out of control.
Then, from the corridor ahead, Coyoteâs voice rang out, oblivious and perfectly timed.
âBriefing room in five! Mavâs not gonna wait!â
You didnât spare Jake another glance as you brushed past him, but you could feel his stare burning into your spine like afterburner exhaust. You walked faster, not to get away, but because you knew heâd follow.
And he did. Because whatever this was, it wasnât over.
It was just about to enter a new altitude.
You broke into a jog the second Coyoteâs voice echoed down the corridor, knowing full well that if you were even a minute late, Maverick would make you run the entire flight line in full gear as penance. Not that youâd mind the workoutâbut the humiliation? You werenât about to hand that over, especially not with Jake Seresin breathing down your neck like a heat-seeking missile.
Behind you, you could hear his boots pounding against the tile, fast and cocky, like he was trying to pass you just for the hell of it. Typical.
Then, with the door to the briefing room coming into view and Jake gaining a little too much ground, you made a split-second decision. A barely perceptible shift of your elbow. A subtle, graceful move of your foot.
Not enough to trip a normal man.
But Jake Seresin was not a normal man. He was an ego on legs and pride in motion, and pride, as always, made people sloppy.
His shin clipped your boot. It wasnât hardâit didnât have to be. Momentum did the rest.
There was a sharp, stuttered curse, followed by the unmistakable sound of six-foot-something of Navy muscle stumbling mid-sprint. He flailed for half a second, arms windmilling, before regaining his balance, barely catching himself on the wall with a thud that echoed like thunder.
You kept running.
By the time you burst through the briefing room doors, your breathing was under control and your expression was as smooth as your landing had been earlier that day. Maverick was already standing near the front, arms crossed and brow raised in that unreadable instructor expression heâd perfected years ago.
âYouâre cutting it close, Crash,â he said, nodding toward the clock.
You slipped into your seat with a shrug. âBetter late than sloppy, sir.â
Just then, the door slammed open again.
Jake stormed in, hair even messier than before, dog tags clinking violently against his chest as he shot you a look that couldâve grounded aircraft. You smiled sweetly, already leaning back in your chair, hands behind your head like you had no idea what he was so worked up about.
He didnât say a word. But his glare said everything.
Phoenix coughed into her fist, clearly holding back a laugh. Payback nudged Coyote with his elbow and muttered something that earned him a full-bodied snort. Even Rooster lifted his brows in mild concern-slash-amusement.
Maverick narrowed his eyes at both of you, clearly sensing the hostile weather front in the room.
âGlad you two could join us,â he said dryly. âNow sit. Down.â
Jake dropped into the seat across yours, still fuming, still wordless. You didnât look at him, but you could feel itâevery molecule of heat radiating off his body like his fury alone could melt steel. There was a tightness in his shoulders that didnât ease, even as the briefing started and the screen flickered on.
Still, you leaned in just a little and whispered, voice barely above a breath.
âYou should watch your step, Seresin.â
His jaw clenched. He didnât look at you.
But you knew youâd just declared war. And you were already winning.
The lights dimmed as Maverick keyed the projector, the screen flickering to life with a grainy playback of the final dogfight of the day. The room hushed immediately, the air shifting from casual post-flight sarcasm to focused, near-surgical attention. All eyes faced forward, shoulders squared. Whatever rivalry burned beneath the surface would have to waitâat least for now.
âAlright, letâs start with the final engagement,â Maverick said, stepping to the side as the video played from the onboard camera of your jet. âNorth of Bravo Six, two thousand feet above deck, lead aircraftâCrash.â
A few heads turned toward you, though no one spoke. You didnât need to bask in it. The screen spoke for itself. Your Super Hornet banked hard into a tight split-S, dodging Jakeâs pursuit and twisting into a vertical climb that shouldâve stalled you out if you hadnât already throttled preemptively and calculated the airspeed differential in advance. It was clean. Precise. Dangerous as hell.
âNow that,â Maverick said, turning to face the room again, âwas a bold move. Most pilots wouldâve blacked out halfway through that climb. Crash here timed it down to the damn second and pulled out with two Gs to spare.â
You sat straighter in your seat, but didnât grin. You didnât have to. Instead, you nodded once, calm and composed, like it was exactly what you expected to hear.
Across the row, Jake stiffened, arms crossed tight over his chest. His jaw ticked the way it always did when something didnât sit rightâand apparently, you being right was what bothered him.
âSir, with all due respect,â he started, voice clipped, âthat maneuver wasnât boldâit was reckless. She dove straight into a negative pitch at a rate that wouldâve flattened most pilots. If her timing was even half a second off, she would've stalled out and taken both of us down.â
You turned to him then, brow raised, calm as glass. âBut I wasnât off, Seresin.â
Jake didnât back down. âThat doesnât change the fact that it was reckless.â
âActually,â you said, tone even and deliberate, âit does. I factored in the barometric drop from the marine layer, calculated the drop-off in air density, and initiated the climb before your nose even cleared my tail. I had twenty-three hundred feet of vertical to bleed speed and an angle of attack set at precisely sixteen degrees. You were flying by instinct. I was flying by math.â
The silence that followed was almost smug. Payback muttered something that sounded suspiciously like âdamnâ, and Phoenix just raised her brows at Jake like you walked into that one, didnât you?
Meanwhile, Maverick simply crossed his arms and nodded, clearly not surprised.
âSheâs right,â he confirmed, glancing at Jake before turning back to the screen. âThat was some of the cleanest risk mitigation Iâve seen from a junior officer. She knew her limits. More importantly, she knew your limits, too.â
The jab landed harder than any turbulence. Jake looked away, jaw clenched so tight you could hear his molars grinding.
You didnât gloat. You just kept your eyes on the screen, watching as your jet pulled out of the maneuver with smooth, practiced grace while his frame lagged behindâsharp, but not quite sharp enough.
Then, without needing to be prompted, you added, âAlso, that wasnât a dive. It was an accelerated vertical escape into a high-speed climb. If I had pulled two seconds later, I would've clipped the wake vortex. But I didnât. So maybe instead of calling it reckless, we start calling it what it was.â
Jake muttered under his breath, something just shy of a curse, and you smiled to yourselfâsmall, barely there, but satisfying all the same.
Maverick exhaled like he was hiding a grin. âAlright,â he said, âletâs move on.â
Maverick clicked to the next frame, pausing on a still image of your Hornet mid-climb, the vapor cone beginning to bloom from your wings. He narrowed his eyes at the angle, thoughtful, and then turned slightly, directing his next question toward the roomâbut you could tell it was meant for you.
âAlright, walk me through this. You initiated the vertical afterburner climb hereââ he pointed to the timestamp, ââbut you didnât switch to combat spread until two seconds later. Why wait?â
You didnât hesitate.
âBecause I needed Hangman to commit.â
That earned you a few startled glances. Maverick tilted his head, curiosity piqued. âElaborate.â
You sat up straighter, sliding your flight data tablet closer and tapping to bring up your own recorded metrics. The graph glowed pale blue on your screen as you began.
âHe was tailing too close for a clean break. If I broke right into spread, he wouldâve mirrored it and stayed locked in. But by delaying and keeping him in the pocket, I forced him to stay on my vector while I manipulated speed bleed through vertical gain. He was flying with nose authority, but not enough roll control at that angle to compensate for thrust lag.â
You tapped the chart, zooming in on the data.
âThe second he hit ninety percent throttle and lost yaw stability, I banked leftâjust outside his field of correction. That gave me a clean line to reposition and full weapon sim lock before he could recover trim.â
There was a long pause. The room stayed quiet. Even the air vents seemed to hum a little softer.
Then Payback let out a low whistle. âShe baited him.â
Phoenix blinked. âThat wasnât just instinct. That was textbook manipulation of enemy error.â
Rooster gave a single, incredulous laugh under his breath. âHoly shit, she played you like a violin.â
From across the room, you heard Fanboy mutter, âIâm not even mad. That was art.â
You stayed composed, unbothered, because it wasnât the first time youâd outflown someone by outthinking themâbut it was the first time you did it in front of all of them.
Meanwhile, Maverick just nodded slowly, visibly impressed in the way that meant something. âThatâs the kind of situational awareness most pilots donât develop until theyâve logged ten times your hours.â
You nodded, calm. âIâve always liked math, sir.â
That got a few more chuckles, the kind laced with genuine awe and no small amount of respect. Even Phoenix cracked a smile, bumping her knee lightly against yours in a rare show of squad affection.
And Jake? Jake looked like heâd just been punched in the gut, stripped of rank, and made to salute you all in the same breath.
His mouth opened like he had something to say, but nothing came out. His jaw tightened instead, his grip on the edge of the table white-knuckled and furious. He stared at the screen like it had betrayed him.
You didnât look at him. You didnât have to. Because this wasnât just your winâit was your arrival. And no one, not even Hangman, could deny it anymore.
The briefing wrapped with Maverickâs final nod, and the squad filed out in clustersâboots scuffing, side comments exchanged, the occasional lingering glance in your direction. You didnât need to hear the whispers to know what they were about. You had just executed a maneuver that would probably be added to training tapes, and you made it look like muscle memory.
Meanwhile, Jake didnât say a word.
He stood slower than the rest, arms folded tight across his chest, that unreadable look on his face carved from pride, heat, and something just short of fury. You could feel it before you turnedâhis eyes dragging over your shoulder blades like a targeting laser. Still, you didnât look back. Not until you stepped into the corridor.
Then, as if youâd conjured him, you heard his voice behind you. Sharp. Icy.
âReal clever stunt in there.â
You turned on your heel, facing him fully now. The hallway was quiet, most of the squad already vanished into other rooms, the locker halls, the mess. Out here, it was just you and him. Just enough space to make something dangerous feel inevitable.
âYou mean the one that worked?â you asked, crossing your arms.
Jake took a step forward, his gaze locked on yours. âYou humiliated me.â
You arched a brow. âI outflew you. Thatâs not the same thing.â
âNo,â he snapped, closing the distance again, âyou calculated me. Used me. Like a move on a goddamn chessboard.â
You tilted your head slightly, biting back the smile that wanted to surface. âAnd youâre mad because I did it better than you?â
âIâm mad,â he growled, stepping in until the space between you could barely hold a breath, âbecause youâre not just flying dirtyâyouâre flying like youâve got something to prove.â
âMaybe I do.â
Jakeâs eyes scanned yours, lingering too long on your mouth before he caught himself. He looked furious. He looked obsessed. He looked like he couldnât decide whether he wanted to fight you orâ
âYouâve been gunning for me since the second you walked into this base,â he said, voice lower now, rougher. âWhat is it? You think youâre better than me?â
You leaned in just slightly, close enough to make him shift, to feel that tension coil between you again.
âI know Iâm better than you,â you whispered. âBut it kills you more because Iâm right.â
He laughed thenâshort, humorless, almost breathless. It didnât soften anything.
âCareful, Crash,â he murmured, voice like gravel, âyou keep pushing and one day Iâm not gonna let you walk away with just a smartass line and a smile.â
You stepped closer again, toe to toe now, and stared him down like you were locked at altitude.
âThen donât.â
The words came out low, clean, and lethal.
Jakeâs breath hitched, and you watched the war play out behind his eyesâthe one between pride and want, fury and restraint. His hand twitched at his side, like he didnât trust it not to reach for you.
Then, from around the corner, someoneâs voice called outâRooster, maybe, or Coyote, you couldnât be sure. The sound broke whatever fragile, electric moment was about to combust.
Jake took a slow step back. His jaw clenched again, but this time, he didnât say anything.
He just turned and walked away.
And for some reason, that was worse than anything he couldâve said.
The Hard Deck was glowing with neon and noise, the jukebox throwing out some Tom Petty track while pilots crowded around pool tables, beers in hand, laughter spilling like spilled salt across the floorboards. You were leaned over the edge of the far table, cue balanced against your thumb, eyes narrowed in focus. Rooster stood beside you, arms crossed, already grinning like he knew you were about to win.
You made the shotâsmooth, clean, corner pocketâand straightened with a cocky tilt of your head.
âDamn, Crash,â Rooster said, nudging your shoulder, âyouâve been on fire lately. Whatâd Jake do, give you all his luck?â
You laughed, passing him the cue. âIf Seresin gave me anything, itâd come with a side of unresolved trauma.â
Rooster barked a laugh, lining up his own shot. âYouâre not wrong.â
Meanwhile, at the bar, the doors swung open with a gust of salt air, and Jake strutted in like the devil himself had opened the door just for him. Coyote trailed at his side, followed by Harvard, Yale, Fritz, and OmahaâJakeâs usual entourage when he needed backup for his ego. He spotted you almost instantly. You didnât look, but you could feel the shift in atmosphere the second he zeroed in.
Then he strolled over, beer in hand, the swagger turned up to eleven.
âWell, well,â Jake drawled, coming to a stop right beside the table, âdidnât realize you and Bradshaw were dating now. Should we start calling you Mrs. Rooster?â
You didnât flinch. Instead, you leaned one elbow on the table, cocked your head, and shot him a smile so sharp it couldâve cut glass.
âJake,â you said sweetly, âif jealousy had a face, itâd still be prettier than yours.â
The reaction was instant. Coyote howled. Rooster nearly choked on his drink. Harvard and Yale exchanged wide-eyed glances. Omaha laughed so hard he had to grip the edge of the table for balance.
Even Phoenix, just now walking over with Bob, Payback, Fanboy, and Halo in tow, caught the tail end of it and raised her brows. âDamn,â she said, sipping her beer. âYâall starting early tonight.â
âStarting?â you said, turning to face her with a smirk. âIâve been cooking him since he walked in.â
Jakeâs jaw ticked, but he covered it with a smug shrug. âWeâll see whoâs cooked when I wipe the floor with you.â
âIn what, delusion?â
âNope. Pool.â He stepped closer, snagging the spare cue from the rack and twirling it between his fingers like it was a weapon. âYou and me, Crash. Best of five.â
Rooster set his drink down and gave Jake a look that fell somewhere between exasperated and knowing. âHangman, you sure you wanna do that? Sheâs been on a streak.â
Jake didnât look away from you. âI like streaks. Especially when I get to break them.â
You stepped forward, grabbing the chalk and spinning it slowly in your fingers. âAlright,â you said, meeting his gaze head-on, âbut donât cry when I make you look bad in front of your fan club.â
He grinned, sharp and wild. âJust donât choke when the heatâs on.â
The squad began to gather around, drinks in hand, forming a loose circle around the table. Phoenix climbed onto a nearby stool with her beer. Fanboy leaned against the wall, already grinning. Bob stood a few paces back, quiet but invested. Payback and Halo threw down a few bills on the corner of the table, already betting on the outcome.
You racked the balls, slow and steady, hands precise. Jake stepped to the other side, chalking his cue like it was part of some ritual. Then you both leaned over the table, eyes locked.
Two apex predators in one room, each convinced they were the only one worth watching.
The air snapped tight around you, and neither of you missed.
Jake broke first. The cue ball cracked against the rack with a sharp, brutal snap, scattering the solids and stripes with precision that bordered on violent. One dropped. Then another. You leaned against the table, arms crossed, watching him circle the felt like a predator sizing up terrain he already thought he owned.
He sank a third before he finally missedâbarely, by inches. The crowd gave a collective breath, and then it was your turn.
You stepped into position like you belonged there. Your hips grazed the tableâs edge. You lined up your shot, cue gliding through your fingers with practiced ease. One tapâclean, sharpâand the ball dropped.
âCRASH!â Rooster whooped from the sideline, raising his beer like a trophy.
âLetâs go, baby!â Phoenix yelled over the music.
âHot damn,â Payback grinned. âShe donât miss.â
âCrash! Crash! Crash!â Fanboy and Halo chanted in rhythm, smacking their drinks against the bar in time.
You didnât react to themânot outwardly. But your next shot curved with just the right amount of English, bouncing off the side rail and sinking your second with a casual kind of grace that looked like you were barely trying.
Jakeâs voice cut through the noise. âShow-off.â
You smiled without looking at him. âBetter than a sore loser.â
You nailed a third. Then a fourth. When you finally missedâonly slightly, the cue ball grazing too far rightâit was Jakeâs turn again. He moved with fire now, slick and deliberate. He lined up three shots in a row, executing each with brutal efficiency. Coyote clapped like it was the Superbowl.
âHANGMAN!â he yelled, riling up Harvard, Yale, and Omaha into a full-blown cheer squad.
âLetâs go, Seresin!â
âClean kill, baby!â
âSend her crashinâ!â
The Hard Deck was fully invested now, drinks forgotten, crowd circling the table as people pressed in for a better view. The jukebox volume had been dialed down, not officially, but like the bar collectively understood something bigger was happening here. It was more than pool. It was battle. Banter. Bravado and blurred lines.
Your next turn had to be perfect. And it was.
You pivoted around the table, spinning your cue once before sinking a bank shot so clean the crowd actually gasped. Your corner pocket stroke after that was surgicalâsnapping the eight into position like youâd choreographed it in your head three plays ago.
"CRASH!" the crowd erupted again, louder now, voices echoing off the walls.
Rooster leaned back, hollering. âSheâs cookinâ!â
Phoenix threw both hands up like a ref signaling a touchdown. Bob even smiledâBob smiled.
Jake didnât blink. Didnât flinch. But his grip on the cue tightened enough to make his knuckles white.
Then he stepped up, wordless, and went to war.
His next shot curved like poetryâsleek, exact. Another fell, then another. Harvard screamed his name. Yale slammed his hand against the nearest stool.
The scoreboard was nearly even.
You were two apex predators circling a kill neither one wanted to share. And the kill was glory. Admiration. Each other.
But no one in the room could miss the difference now. Jake was damn good. But you? You were unbothered.
You were better. And the whole damn bar was watching.
By the time you lined up your next shot, the score was dead even. One ball left for each of you, eight still waiting like a final dare. The crowd had gone near silent now, the kind of hush that happens when people realize theyâre witnessing something unrepeatable. The jukebox kept spinning something low and slow, but even the music sounded like it was holding its breath.
Jake was posted up against the far corner, cue slung casually over his shoulder, but his eyes never left you. He watched you like a man waiting for a lightning strikeâlike he wanted to be hit. You felt the burn of his stare trailing down your back, across your legs, over your arms as you bent slightly to study your angle.
You didnât look up at him. Not yet.
Instead, you backed up just a littleâslow, measured, deliberateâand bumped into him with a subtle sway of your hips.
âOops,â you murmured, not bothering to hide the smirk in your voice.
He didnât move.
You shifted again, cue stick low in your hand, angling to line upâright as the tip of it just so happened to swing directly between his legs with a gentle tap.
Jake inhaled sharply, catching it with both hands as he flinched back half a step.
âOh my godââ Fanboy choked somewhere in the crowd.
âDid she justââ Payback was laughing, doubled over.
Coyote barked, âDirect hit!â
Phoenix let out a low whistle. âSheâs playing dirty tonight.â
You turned your head slightly and looked up at Jake over your shoulder, your smile sugar-sweet and fake as sin. âSorry, Hangman. You were standing way too close to the danger zone.â
Jake was frozenâlike he couldnât decide whether to strangle you, kiss you, or throw you across the damn table. His jaw flexed. His eyes burned. And there was this twitch in his fingers, like every bone in his body wanted to grab you and do something about it.
You moved back to your shot without another word, leaned down, and sank the last ball with surgical precision.
The crowd exploded. âCRASH!â they screamed in unison, fists pumping, laughter and cheers flooding the bar like someone had just won the Super Bowl.
You didnât look at Jake, but you felt him behind you. Still. Staring.
Like youâd knocked the wind out of himâand he was trying very, very hard not to beg for more.
Jake didnât say anything after you sank the final shot. He just stood there for a second, cue slack in his grip, gaze locked on the pocket like he could will the outcome to change. But the eight-ball was gone. So was his win. And the cheers echoing through the Hard Deck were all for you.
You passed by him without a word, just a slow, deliberate glance that said everything he needed to hear. The crowd was still riled up, people clapping you on the back, offering drinks, showering you in affection like you were the patron saint of pool table warfare. And maybe tonight, you were.
Meanwhile, Jake drifted toward the bar, alone. He didnât limp, exactly, but his pride definitely did. He ordered something sharpâwhiskey, probablyâthen leaned against the counter, nursing the glass like it could drown the sting. His eyes flicked to you more than once, but you didnât look his way again. Not yet.
Thatâs when she approached.
A tall brunette in a slinky black tank and heels too impractical for a place with peanut shells on the floor. She leaned on the bar beside him like she was in a perfume commercial, all breathy smiles and glossy eyes. Jake saw her. Of course he did. And predictably, his expression smoothed into that practiced smirk, the one that usually knocked people flat before he even said a word.
âWell hey there,â he said, voice lower now, just shy of sultry. âYou lookinâ for something?â
She smiled, coy. âYeah,â she said, dragging out the word with a lilt. âActually, I was hoping you could help me get it.â
Jake leaned in slightly, shoulders shifting. He sipped his drink and gave her that full Seresin tilt-your-head-and-look-charming move. âWell now, that depends,â he said smoothly. âWhat exactly are you looking for?â
There was a pause. A beat. A little twist of the universe.
Then she leaned closer, cupping her drink between both hands, and said with a little wink:
âCrashâs number.â
Jake froze.
It was microscopic, but you knew him. The twitch in his temple, the sudden flare in his nostrils, the faint noise that might have been a strangled laugh or a dying breathâhe was flabbergasted.
âCome again?â he asked, blinking once.
She laughed softly, tilting her head. âCrash. You know, the one who just smoked you on the table? God, sheâs so hot. Like, I almost asked her myself, butââ she swirled the straw in her drink, ââyou looked like you might have an in.â
Jake took a slow step back like sheâd just hit him with a taser.
You, across the room, turned just in time to catch the moment. His eyes flicked toward you, burning with a mixture of disbelief and embarrassment. And you? You just smirked. Cool. Effortless. Like you knew.
Because you did.
His glare hit you like a storm cloud. You met it with sunshine.
And in that exact moment, the only thing more bruised than Jake Seresinâs ego⌠was his dignity.
The bar emptied in waves, laughter spilling out onto the parking lot like the tide receding after one hell of a storm. Most of the guys were buzzed or straight-up hammeredâFanboy giggling against Haloâs shoulder, Coyote yelling something about karaoke into the night, and Payback dramatically fake-snoring in the bed of someoneâs truck. Bob, ever the responsible one, was helping Phoenix wrangle Rooster into handing over his Bronco keys before he could insist he was âtotally fineâ to drive with a beer still in hand.
You sighed, catching the jingling keys mid-air after Phoenix tossed them your way. âIâll drive him,â you said simply. âHeâs two blocks from my place anyway.â
âCrash for MVP,â Phoenix muttered, dragging Fanboy toward her Jeep like a tired babysitter clocking out.
You rounded the Bronco, throwing open the driverâs door just as Rooster plopped into the passenger seat with a dramatic groan, head already tilted back like he planned to fall asleep the second you hit the road. You reached for the door to close it behind you whenâ
A hand slapped flat against the frame, stopping it mid-swing.
You didnât have to look. You knew who it was.
Jake Seresin stood there, still reeling from the night, still wearing that perfect mix of ego and frustration like a custom-tailored flight suit. His other hand braced against the Broncoâs roof, effectively caging you in with his arms and the dark and the heat rolling off him like summer thunder.
âWhat,â he said, low and sharp, âare you doing to me?â
You turned, leaned your hip into the seat casually, unbothered. âDriving a friend home. Want me to call you a cab?â
âThatâs not what I meant and you know it.â
You tilted your head, gaze traveling slowly over his face. âYou're going to have to be more specific, Seresin.â
Jake leaned in just a little closer, breath warm near your ear, voice dipping into something dark and quiet. âYouâre under my skin. In my head. Hell, I dreamt about you last week and woke up pissed off and hard.â
You blinked once. Then smiled.
Calm. Controlled. Deadly.
âMustâve been a good dream if it lasted long enough to piss you off.â
Jake exhaled like it pained him. His eyes searched yours, wild but tethered, and his mouth twitched into something between a grin and a grimace.
âYouâre driving me insane,â he muttered.
âGood,â you replied, brushing past his shoulder deliberately as you leaned forward to grab the seatbelt. âMaybe that means youâll stop talking for once.â
But just before you could buckle yourself in, his hand shot out againâcatching the seatbelt strap right by your fingers. The movement was fluid, unfairly fast, and suddenly you were nose-to-nose again, your breath catching before you could stop it.
âYou keep poking the bear, Crash,â he said, mouth barely moving. âYou really think I wonât bite?â
Your lips partedâjust slightly, just for a fraction of a second. You felt it in your gut, in your thighs, in the base of your damn spine. But before you could answer, before you could say something biting or kiss him or deck himâ
He stepped back.
Fully. Cleanly. Smirking like the devil after a sermon.
âSweet dreams, hotshot,â he said with a wink.
Then he turned and walked away, hands in his pockets, like he hadnât just rearranged your entire circulatory system with one sentence.
And in the silence that followed, you buckled your seatbelt, turned the key in the ignition, and stared at your own reflection in the windshield.
Because goddamn him⌠you were thirsty now.
The Bronco rumbled down the coastal highway, headlights cutting through the early a.m. haze like spotlights on a bad decision. The window was cracked just enough to let in some sea air, though it didnât do much to cool the wildfire that Jake Seresin had lit in your bloodstream thirty minutes ago.
You gripped the steering wheel tighter, lips pursed, trying to focus on the road and not the fact that your pulse hadnât slowed since the moment that smug bastard backed away like he hadnât just whispered his way into your frontal lobe.
Meanwhile, Rooster was passed out in the passenger seat, limbs loose and tangled, head tilted back so far he was nearly kissing the ceiling. He snored once, then muttered something about "Mav's fault" before going limp again.
You almost laughedâuntil, completely unprompted, he shot up straight, eyes still closed, and bellowed into the night:
âYOU SHAKE MY NERVES AND YOU RATTLE MY BRAINââ
You nearly swerved. âOh, my Godââ
Rooster slapped the dash like it was a piano and launched into the next line: âTOO MUCH LOVE DRIVES A MAN INSAAAAANE!â
You blinked at the road, deadpan. âAre you serious right now?â
But he was already gone again, flopping sideways against the window like someone had unplugged him. You stared at him for a beat, jaw slack, then back at the road with a slow, broken laugh. âYou are a menace.â
Still, the second you hit the red light, your thoughts slid right back where theyâd been since Jake cornered you. His voice. His eyes. That goddamn heat that crawled under your skin and made your spine twitch. You tried to shake it off, but your thighs had other ideasâpressing tighter like you could trap the thought and suffocate it before it reached your core.
No such luck.
Because it had been months since you let yourself think about anyone like that. Even longer since you touched yourself to the idea of someone who knew your name, let alone whispered it like a curse.
But now? All you could think about was his voice in your ear, hot breath on your neck, that smirk that made you want to throw hands and then straddle him right there on the Bronco hood.
It was disgusting.
It was shameful.
But it was so, so hot.
You sighed sharply, punching the gas when the light turned green. âGod, I am so using my vibrator tonight.â
Rooster stirred beside you, one eye cracked open. âDid you say something?â
You kept your face forward. âNope. Youâre dreaming.â
He nodded solemnly. âDreaminâ of piano bars.â
Then he passed out again. You kept driving.
And tried very, very hard not to pull over and scream into your palms.
Rooster blinked up at you with bloodshot eyes and a stupid smile, legs still tangled on the Broncoâs seat. âIâm just⌠Iâm just gonna sleep here,â he mumbled, arms crossed like he thought he was making a strong case.
âNo, youâre not,â you snapped, already half-dragging him out the passenger side door. âYou're not dying of heatstroke in your own damn driveway, Bradshaw.â
He groaned dramatically, but let you help him stand. It was like guiding a baby giraffe in flip-flopsâknees wobbling, weight shifting every direction but forward. Eventually, with a key dug out of his back pocket and a lot of grunting, you got him to the front door. Then inside. Then to the couch, where he dropped like a sack of aviation-grade potatoes.
You threw a blanket over him with a muttered, âDonât puke on this, or Iâm setting you on fire,â and turned to leave.
But not before locking the door behind you like a good friend. And then? Then you ran.
Like full-on, boots-slapping-asphalt, Olympic sprinted down the sidewalk, because your place was only a few blocks away and every second between now and your own bedroom felt like torture. The whole way, your mind was an endless loop of Jakeâs voiceâgravel and heat, laced with that godforsaken smirk: âYou keep poking the bear, Crash⌠you really think I wonât bite?â
You fumbled with your keys when you got to your door, nearly dropped them twice, cursing under your breath like you were being hunted by the ghost of your own horny decisions. Finally, you got it open, stepped inside, slammed the door, and locked it behind you with a click that felt like salvation.
Then came the shower. A quick, cold rinse that didnât even try to calm you downâjust enough to wipe off the sweat from the bar and the shame from sprinting like you were in the Hunger Games. You didnât even dry your hair. Just scrubbed your teeth, spat, wiped your face on a towel, and bee-lined straight to the nightstand.
And there it was. Your true co-pilot. Your vibrator.
You didnât even hesitate. Pulled open the drawer, grabbed the vibrator like it owed you backpay, and collapsed on the bed with a groan that came from somewhere deep in your soul.
âGod damn you, Seresin,â you muttered, flicking it on.
And then you let yourself finally, finally take the edge off the way only a desperate, pissed-off pilot with Jake Hangman Seresin living rent-free in her head could.
- Jake -
Jake Seresin was in hell.
Not literal hellânot the flames and brimstone kindâbut the slow, grinding, full-body, carnal kind that made his brain short-circuit every time you so much as breathed in his direction.
And right now? You werenât just breathing.
You were doing push-ups.
In the dirt.
Sweaty, flushed, jaw tight with focus, and wearing that goddamn fitted undershirt that clung to your back like a second skin. Every time your arms bent, your triceps flexed in the most unfair way imaginable, and every time you exhaled, he swore he could feel it in his spine.
Meanwhile, Mav paced behind the group like a disappointed father, barking out counts while the entire squad groaned under the weight of hangovers and regret.
âPush-up number forty-two! You wanna be late to my tarmac? You better be ready to earn it!â
Jake didnât even care. Let him do fifty. Hell, let him do a hundred. He deserved it for the things he did to the mental image of you last nightâthings he was still recovering from.
Because after you strutted out of the Hard Deck like the devil in boots, all victorious smirks and slow blinks, Jake had barely made it home before he was jacking off with the desperation of a man trying to exorcise you from his bloodstream. He didnât even bother putting on music or pretending it wasnât about you. It was disgusting. It was shameful. And it was the only thing that got him to sleep.
But it hadnât helped.
Not even a little.
If anything, it had made it worse. Because now he knew what it sounded like to moan your name, even if it was just in his own head, and now here you were, doing push-ups beside Phoenix, sweat rolling down the side of your neck like a damn baptism, and Jakeâs mind was already halfway to hell again.
He clenched his jaw, gritting through another rep.
God, the way your body movedâlike you didnât even know how distracting you were. Your hair was pulled back, messier than usual, little strands clinging to your cheeks. Your lips were parted just slightly, breath steady, focused. But your ass? Perfectly arched. Your back? Shimmering. And every time your chest lowered to the ground, he had to dig his fingers into the gravel just to keep from groaning.
âFifty!â Mav shouted. âThatâs the price for being a squad of hungover jackasses!â
The group groaned and collapsed onto their stomachs, catching their breath.
Jake rolled onto his back, arm over his eyes like it could block out the sight of youâbut it was too late. You were burned into his retinas. Into his frontal cortex. Into the pulse in his pants that was now pressing insistently against his flight suit like it had any right to ask for round two.
He peeked at you from under his forearm.
You were grinning nowâfucking grinningâand wiping your forehead with the hem of your shirt, revealing just a sliver of skin at your waist. Just enough to ruin his morning, afternoon, and potentially career.
God help him. He wanted you so bad it felt like a fever.
And the worst part? You knew.
Jake had survived missile lock, blackout spins, G-force trauma, and enough high-risk training exercises to make most people piss themselves.
But nothingânothingâhad ever tested his willpower like the way you stood in front of him now, chugging from your water bottle like the heat didnât bother you, like your shirt wasnât plastered to your skin, like your sports bra wasnât visible under white cotton like the setup of a goddamn wet dream.
He watched a droplet of water slip from the corner of your mouth, trail down your chin, and disappear down your neck.
He blinked slowly.
Focus.
But there was no focusing. Not when the sun was kissing your collarbones, and sweat had turned your skin into something glistening and golden. Not when your shoulders looked like they could cut steel and your legs were carved like a Roman statueâlean, powerful, flexed with every shift of weight as you leaned over to tie your boot. You didnât even bend like a normal person. You bent like a temptation.
Meanwhile, Jake was standing next to Coyote, nodding absently at something about flight rotations, pretending he wasnât one heartbeat away from turning around and walking headfirst into the ocean just to cool down. He clenched his jaw again. If he did it any harder, his teeth would break.
You tossed your water bottle into your duffel, then stretched your arms overhead, back arching just slightly, shirt rising with the motion. Jake caught a glimpse of the slope of your lower stomach and swore he saw God. Or maybe the Devil. Whoever made it so that looking at you felt like a punishment.
You yawned next, like it was nothingâlike the whole squad wasnât already down bad, but Jake? Jake was on the edge of a breakdown. You rubbed your neck, turned toward Phoenix, and laughed at something she said. That sound? That laugh? Jake wanted to trap it in his hands and crawl inside it.
He shifted on his heels, forced himself to look away, but it was no use. Every time he glanced at youâevery flick of your wrist, every cocked eyebrow, every stupid smirkâyou just looked hotter.
Hotter than last night.
Hotter than when you beat him at pool.
Hotter than when you hit him in the balls with your cue stick and smiled about it.
He was so screwed.
And not in the fun way.
Every single part of you was a problem. From the way you stood with one hip popped, weight balanced like you were permanently ready for takeoff, to the way you looked in that damn flight suitâzipped down just low enough to hint at the curve of your collarbones, sleeves pushed to your elbows like you didnât even know you looked like sex personified.
Jake knew that if you told him to get on his knees, heâd do it without thinking.
He hated that about himself.
Worse, he was starting to like that about himself.
And the next time you smirked at him, like you knew exactly what you were doing, like you felt how hard he was trying not to think about what your thighs would feel like wrapped around his head?
He nearly groaned out loud. So, Jake tried to play it cool.
He shifted his weight, crossed his arms, squinted at the tarmac like there was somethingâanythingâmore important out there than the way you adjusted your hair with a slow, careless drag of fingers that damn near made him whimper. But the second he thought maybe, maybe, no one had noticed the mental gymnastics he was doing to stay uprightâ
Coyote leaned in with the subtlety of a brick and dropped the line like a live grenade. âSo⌠howâs that chastity belt feelinâ, Hangman?â
Jakeâs head snapped to him. âWhat?â
âOh, donât âwhatâ me,â Coyote grinned, sunglasses slipping down the bridge of his nose as he turned his whole body to face him. âYouâve been eye-fucking Crash since warm-ups.â
Rooster snorted from behind, slinging a towel over his shoulder. âBro, he nearly passed out at push-up number twenty. Man was suffering.â
Jake scowled. âI was focused.â
âYeah,â Rooster nodded. âOn her ass.â
Coyote laughed loud enough to draw a glance from Halo and Phoenix. âDude, you looked like a Victorian husband watching his wife show ankle. I thought you were gonna faint.â
Jake opened his mouth, closed it, and then pointed a finger in Roosterâs direction. âYou were singing in your sleep last night. âGreat Balls of Fire.â In falsetto.â
Rooster just shrugged. âYeah, and you were singing her name while holding your drink like it was holy water. So whatâs your point?â
Jake flushed. Fully. From the neck up. A violent, betrayed shade of red.
Coyote leaned in closer, voice lower now, like he was trying to counsel a man who just lost the war. âJust admit it, Seresin. You got it bad. Like⌠âlate night sock drawerâ bad.â
Rooster made a choked-off sound that was half-laugh, half-gag. âYou think he cried after?â
âI think he cried during,â Coyote replied solemnly.
âYâall done?â Jake muttered, jaw clenched like he was trying to chew through steel.
âOh, weâre just getting started,â Rooster grinned. âBecause if you donât do something about it soon, youâre gonna combust mid-flight.â
Jake rolled his eyes and turned away, desperate for a distraction, anything, but then he looked upâ
And saw you again. Walking toward the hangar. Hair tied back.
Sunlight bouncing off your cheekbones like it knew he was watching.
He cursed under his breath and shut his eyes. Yeah.
He was doomed. And his so-called friends? Not helping.
The water was hot. Scalding, even. But Jake stood under the spray like he wanted to boil the memory of you right off his skin.
It wasnât working.
He scrubbed a palm down his face, leaned a forearm against the tile, and exhaled slowly, hoping the heat would drown the ache that had settled in his gut since yesterday. But every time he closed his eyes, you were right thereâsmirking, sweating, stretching, tying your damn boot like you knew he was watching.
The worst part? You did know.
The water hit the back of his neck, rolling down his spine, but all it did was make him feel hotter. He clenched his jaw, tried to think about anything else. Flight schedules. Fuel consumption ratios. Maintenance reports. Hell, even Mavâs disappointed dad voice.
But then he remembered the way your shirt had clung to your chest during push-ups, and it was over.
He groaned low in his throat and thunked his head against the wall.
Get a grip, Seresin.
And thenâ
âHey, Hangman,â Coyoteâs voice echoed from across the shower stalls, loud and evil. âYou better not be jacking it in there, man. We still got drills.â
Jakeâs head snapped up. âIâm not, asshole.â
Rooster laughed somewhere behind him. âYou sure? âCause itâs been like ten minutes and we havenât heard you breathe.â
âI swear to Godââ Jake turned slightly, water still cascading over his back, face red from heat and humiliation.
âHey,â Fanboy added, âif you are, at least aim down, alright? Shared pipes.â
Coyote coughed. âDude, Iâm begging you, not near the drain.â
âI will punch all of you.â
Then, like an angel dipped in irony, Bobâs voice drifted inâcalm, diplomatic.
âGuys, donât tease him,â he said gently.
Jake sighed in relief.
Then Bob added, âHeâs clearly going through it.â
Jake tensed.
âPoor guyâs got a crush,â Bob finished, completely deadpan.
The showers erupted.
Laughter echoed off the tile, a few slaps ringing out as someone clapped the wall, someone else mimicking kissing sounds. Jake wanted to crawl into the drain and disappear.
He shouted over the chaos. âSheâs not a crush! Sheâs a menace!â
âYeah,â Rooster called, voice thick with smug, âa sexy, sweaty menace.â
Coyote chimed in, âWho lives rent-free in your right hand, bro!â
Jake groaned, turned the water off, and slammed his palm against the tile. âI hate all of you.â
Bob, towel wrapped around his waist, peeked around the edge of the stall with a perfectly innocent expression. âNeed a minute, Hangman?â
Jake grabbed the nearest bottle of shampoo and chucked it at him.
The ramp buzzed with energy as Mav stepped back from the line of jets, arms crossed like he was about to scold a bunch of toddlers. He gave his usual pre-flight breakdownâtight formation, real-time targeting drills, and "keep your egos on the ground, I don't need another set of wings lost to pissing contests."
Jake stood next to his bird, helmet tucked under his arm, nodding along like he was listening. But really, his eyes kept flicking toward the jet two rows down. Your jet.
And inside it?
Bob.
Because of course Maverick decided to pair the smartest WSO in the group with the one person guaranteed to send Jake straight into therapy. Just a casual âBob, youâre with Crash today,â like it wasnât the equivalent of handing a match to a man already drenched in jet fuel.
Jake bit the inside of his cheek, hard.
Meanwhile, you were tucked into your cockpit, already pulling your helmet down, adjusting your gloves like you were born for this. You didnât look his wayânot even onceâbut that somehow made it worse. Because it meant you werenât doing it to tease him. You were just being yourself. Just competent and composed and so goddamn hot in your gear he couldnât see straight.
Then Bob turned.
Met Jakeâs eyes through the open cockpit.
And smirked.
Jake narrowed his eyes immediately, jaw tightening. He gave a slow, deliberate shake of his headâthe universal sign for donât you fucking dare.
Bob shrugged. Smiled wider.
And then he leaned into the cockpit and adjusted your helmet straps for youâgently, methodically, like a gentleman helping royalty with her crown. His gloved fingers moved with practiced care, and you?
You smiled.
Warm, soft, that soul-melting smile that Jake had never been on the receiving end of. And just to make sure Jake died fully and completely, you reached up and patted Bobâs cheeks.
Twice.
Like you were blessing him for his service.
Jake made an actual, audible soundâsomewhere between a scoff and a choking coughâand had to take two steps back before he threw his helmet across the tarmac.
Coyoteâs voice crackled in his ear through comms. âHangman, your blood pressure okay, man?â
Jake growled into his mic, âShut up.â
Bob gave a thumbs-up, turned toward the ladder, and waved at Jake on his way down.
Jake glared so hard he saw red behind his visor.
Then he finally climbed into his own jet, muttering under his breath the whole way.
âTouch her again and I will replace your shampoo with engine degreaser, Floyd.â
- You, Crash -Â
The hangar was still buzzing when the jets touched down, the echo of roaring engines slowly fading as everyone rolled out from their cockpits, adrenaline cooling into sweaty exhaustion. You popped your canopy with a lazy grin, helmet under one arm, flight suit unzipped just slightly at the top to let some air in. Meanwhile, Jake climbed out of his own jet like a man climbing out of a grave, every movement a little stiffer than usual, a little tighter in the shoulders. He didnât say a word as he walked past you.
He didnât have to.
Youâd smoked him.
Again.
It wasnât even close.
Youâd cut him off mid-roll, anticipated his throttle push like you were reading his mind, and pulled a counter-maneuver so fast and clean the tower had to replay it twice to confirm it was even legal. Mavâs voice had crackled through comms after the final passââGoddamn, Crash. That was art.â
Jake hadnât said anything then, either.
Now, the squad was gathered in the debriefing room, still sweaty in their flight suits, the lights dimmed just enough to keep the projector screen visible. Maverick stood at the front with a remote in one hand, flipping through the recorded flight footage with a casual grace that always made him seem ten years younger. The screen showed a slow-motion replay of your final maneuverâyour jet slipping into a controlled stall, dropping altitude just enough to force Jake to overcorrect and shoot wide, right into your six.
âAlright,â Mav said, glancing back at the room, âCrash, walk us through that last move.â
Without missing a beat, you stood up and stepped toward the screen, eyes tracking the footage like it was muscle memory. âHe went high on the third loop, which meant his velocity would drop faster on the vertical. I knew if I stalled into a break and cut my throttle just enough to slip into his blind spot, Iâd force him to reacquire visual manually. But by the time he did, I was already behind him.â
You didnât say it to brag. You said it like you were pointing out a weather pattern or explaining the laws of gravity. Calm, steady, with the easy confidence of someone who knew their craft inside and out.
Mav nodded slowly, visibly impressed. âThat was textbook.â
Phoenix let out a low whistle. âTextbook, but ballsy.â
Rooster muttered under his breath, âThatâs our girl.â
Meanwhile, Jake sat in his chair, arms crossed so tightly over his chest it looked like he was trying to hold his ribcage together. His jaw was locked, lips pressed in a tight line, and he refused to look at anyoneâespecially you.
Coyote nudged him. âSheâs not even sweating, man.â
Jake didnât respond.
Bob, bless his diplomatic heart, tried to lighten the mood. âAt least you didnât crash into the ocean.â
Jake glared at him like he was about to eject in the classroom.
You finished your analysis, stepped back, and gave Mav a small nod.
He smirked at you. âNicely done, Crash. Iâm running that clip for the next class.â
You shrugged, already sinking back into your seat. âIt was just physics.â
Jake let out a slow, audible exhale that sounded dangerously close to a growl.
- Jake -
The Hard Deck was loud with end-of-day energyâpool balls clacking, jukebox humming, pitchers of beer sweating on every table. You were in the middle of it all, perched on the edge of the squadâs usual booth, laughing as Phoenix tossed a peanut at Fanboyâs head and Bob tried to explain the physics of beer foam to Rooster. Everyone was talking over everyone, a storm of noise and movement and warmth that dulled the sting of todayâs brutal flight.
Then, casually, you stood and stretched. âGonna grab another drink,â you said, waving off Haloâs offer to come with.
None of them noticed when the man intercepted you halfway to the bar.
At first, it seemed harmless. Just some average guyâcivilian, definitelyâleaning in with that drunk, too-smooth smile, asking your name like he didnât already know it. You gave a polite nod, tried to turn toward the bar, but his body shifted to block the way. His voice dropped lower. His eyes dragged down and back up like you were inventory.
Meanwhile, across the bar, Jake had been half-listening to Payback and Harvard argue about jukebox etiquette, but his eyes had been on you the whole time. It wasnât on purpose. Not really. He just always seemed to know where you were. And when your shoulders stiffened just slightly, when your smile flattened into something tight and fake, he felt it like a change in pressure.
Without a word, Jake stood.
The guy didnât see him coming at first, too busy leaning closer, murmuring something that made you shift your weight back. But Jake saw it all. The way your jaw clenched. The way your arms foldedânot relaxed, but defensive. And that was enough.
Jake crossed the floor like a storm, his presence immediate and hot, and then he was right there, between the guyâs shoulder and your space, voice low and sharp.
âShe said move.â
The man glanced over, smirking like he was being challenged to a game. âThis your boyfriend or something?â he asked, eyes still on you.
Jake didnât even blink. âWalk away.â
But the guy didnât. He chuckled, slow and ugly, and then leaned forward like he had something clever to say. âShe doesnât seem like she needs protecting. But if she doesâhell, Iâd volunteer.â
Jakeâs fist hit the guyâs face before the sentence even finished.
The bar exploded into shouts.
You immediately stepped between them, pressing both hands flat against Jakeâs chest, holding him back. âItâs not worth it,â you said quickly, voice low but firm, eyes flicking between Jakeâs clenched jaw and the stunned man stumbling back. âLetâs just go back. Come on.â
Jakeâs chest heaved beneath your palms, his eyes burning holes through the guyâs face, but he didnât moveânot forward, anyway.
Behind him, Rooster and Coyote were already out of their seats, Payback cracking his knuckles like it was a warm-up round. Phoenix stood halfway up on the booth, eyes sharp, while Bob muttered something that sounded like âoh boy, here we go.â
Then the man made his second mistake.
He sneered at you, lip split, ego bruised, and muttered, âTypical pilot bitch. Probably thinks flying makes her special.â
The silence was instant.
Even the music felt quieter.
Then you turned.
And decked him.
Your fist cracked against his jaw so hard his knees buckled. He dropped to the floor like a sack of disgrace, and you surged forward, ready to land anotherâbut Jake caught you around the waist, arms locking across your stomach, pulling you back just in time.
âLet me go!â you shouted, trying to twist free, face flushed with fury. âIâm not done!â
âYouâre done,â Jake muttered, half-laughing, half-panicked, holding you tight as you kicked back lightly against his shin.
âCoward ass, limp-dicked, mansplaining fossil of aââ
âCrash,â Jake warned, barely restraining the smile breaking across his face.
The bar was chaos nowâcheering, clapping, voices rising. Rooster and Coyote were already dragging the guy toward the door like bouncers, Payback holding it open while Penny stood behind the bar with a dishtowel and one raised brow. âToss him,â she said flatly.
And they did.
Jake hadnât said a word as he guided you out the back of the Hard Deck, his hand still warm against the small of your back. The door swung shut behind you, muffling the lingering chaos insideâcheers, music, Phoenix probably trying to convince Penny not to ban the squad for the hundredth time. Out here, it was quieter. The breeze off the water was sharp and salty, cooling your skin where it burned from the fight.
He led you past the deck, past the strung-up lights and weather-worn picnic tables, toward a row of old wooden lounge chairs facing the beach. They were half-sunk in sand, tilted like drunk old men, but the moment Jake eased you toward one, you jerked away from his touch.
You rounded on him, voice still tight with leftover fire. âWhyâd you hold me back?â
Jake blinked, clearly not expecting the bite in your voice. âBecause you were about to break his jaw,â he said, as if it was obvious.
âSo?â
He exhaled, pinched the bridge of his nose, and took a slow step back like giving you space might defuse you. âSo, you already won. The guy was on the ground.â
You crossed your arms, eyes narrowing. The moonlight made your features sharp, feral, still coiled like a spring. âYeah, and I wanted to finish it. You didnât have to touch me.â
Jake ran a hand through his hair, his own frustration peeking out beneath the surface. âJesus, Crash. You think I did that to whatâcontrol you? Embarrass you?â He scoffed and shook his head. âI was trying to get you out of a bar fight before you lost your commission. You punched him once. That was enough.â
Your jaw clenched, lips parting like you were ready to snap back, but the words got tangled in your throat. The worst part wasâyou knew he was right. The second worst part? He hadnât been rough about it. He hadnât dragged you out. Heâd been gentle. Almost⌠careful. And for some reason, that made you angrier than anything.
You looked away, fists still tight at your sides. âI didnât need saving.â
Jakeâs voice dropped, low and soft. âDidnât say you did.â
He sat down slowly in one of the lounge chairs, elbows on his knees, watching you with that same unreadable expression he wore in the cockpit. Somewhere between studying you and preparing to be burned by you.
Then he added, almost like a confession, âYou scare the shit out of me sometimes.â
Jake laughed, but it wasnât amusedâit was bitter, tired, raw. âYou think this is about wanting you?â he said, voice cutting through the night air like a blade. âYou think thatâs the whole story?â
You squared your shoulders, already bracing for whatever self-righteous bull was about to come out of his mouth. âOh, Iâm sorry, did I bruise your ego? Again?â
Jakeâs eyes flashed. âNo, what bruised my ego was busting my ass for two years at the Academy just to have you breathing down my neck like a damn shadow every step of the way. You wanted it more than anyone. More than me. I won, Crash. And you still made it feel like I lost.â
You stepped closer, chest tight, voice sharp. âYeah, you won. Top of the class. Best scores. Best pilot. Everyone sang your damn praises like you were the second coming of Maverick. And I? I was second. Always second.â
Jake flinched, just slightly, but you saw it.
âI was second to you in every damn brief, in every damn report card. And you want to know what that did to me?â you continued, your voice rising with every word. âIt made me better. It made me sharper. It made me come back swinging every time just so I could finally say that I beat Jake fucking Seresin.â
Jake's expression tightened. âSo thatâs what all this is? This whole time? Youâve been trying to settle a score?â
âYouâre damn right I have,â you said, breath shaking now, âbecause no one talks about who came in second. No one remembers her name. And I knewâI knewâif I couldnât be the golden boy, I was going to be the storm that beat him.â
The silence between you stretched, thick and electric.
Jake ran his tongue across his teeth, pacing a few steps before whipping around again. âYou think I had it easy? That it was all just handed to me? You think I liked being put on a pedestal I didnât ask for, being the one everyone expected to fly perfect every damn time or else I was a failure?â
You blinked, caught off guard by the crack in his voice. He wasnât yelling anymore. He was breaking.
âThey never gave me space to mess up,â he continued, quieter now, but more dangerous. âThey just expected me to win. And when you came in second, you had something to chase. I didnât. I had something to lose. Every second. And then you showed up again at North Island, all sharp edges and scars, and suddenly I wasnât the best anymore. Suddenly you were beating me. Outflying me. Outthinking me.â
He stopped, looked at you.
âYou think I hate you for it,â he said. âBut I donât.â
You swallowed hard. âThen what, Seresin? What the hell do you feel?â
Jake stepped closer, breathing hard, eyes burning.
âI feel like youâre the only person who ever made me doubt myself,â he whispered. âAnd I hate that I fucking need you because of it.â
You shook your head, scoffing as your arms dropped from your chest, hands balling into fists at your sides. âYou think I wanted to make you doubt yourself? That was never the point, Seresin. You were already standing on the podium. I just wanted to prove I deserved to be there too.â
Jake looked at you like he didnât recognize you. âYou think I didnât know that?â
âYou didnât act like it,â you snapped. âYou never once looked back. Not when they gave you that medal. Not when they handed you command over a squad you didnât even respect. You didnât look back at the person who came in second, who gave you a run for your goddamn money every time.â
âI couldnât look back,â Jake said, voice low and shaking. âBecause if I did, I knew youâd catch me.â
You blinked.
And then he continued, stepping closer like every word was pulled from a place heâd buried deep. âI saw you every damn day after graduationâwhen you got posted to Fallon, when your name popped up on the ranking boards. Every time I turned around, you were climbing higher. You were everywhere. And I couldnât breathe, because I knew the minute you got the same chance as me, youâd be better.â
You didnât move. Couldnât. Because hearing it from himâfrom the golden boy who never brokeâfelt like the world cracking open.
Jake let out a breath, almost a laugh, except it sounded like it hurt. âI hated you for it. And I hated myself for hating you. Because no matter how hard I tried to outrun you, you kept showing up. Stronger. Sharper. Smarter.â
Your voice was barely above a whisper now. âSo you tried to ignore me.â
Jake nodded slowly. âYeah. Because if I acknowledged you, I had to admit you were everything I wasnât.â
That made your chest tighten, your mouth part slightly with something soft and unspoken. But the fire hadnât burned out yetâit was just turning blue-hot, simmering low and dangerous.
âSo what now?â you asked, tone still laced with heat, but not just the angry kind. âYou wanna tell me Iâm good enough and shake hands and call it even?â
Jake's eyes dropped to your mouth, then back to your eyes, and there was something dark and hollow in his voice when he said, âI donât want even with you. I want everything.â
The words knocked the air right out of your lungs.
And still, you stood your ground.
Because for all the fury, all the tension, all the years of circling each other like predators in the same skyâthis was the moment that stripped it all bare.
And you had no idea what would happen next.
âYou think youâre the only one who sacrificed something?â you yelled, chest rising and falling so fast it felt like your ribs might crack. âI gave up everything to be here! My family, my fucking sanity, years of grinding just to prove that I could be better than the boy they called untouchable!â
Jake was shaking now, fists clenched at his sides, face red with anger and something deeper, something that had been boiling under the surface for years. âAnd I never asked you to! I didnât make you chase me!â
âNo, you didnât!â you shouted, voice almost hoarse now. âBut you sure as hell enjoyed knowing I was always behind you!â
That did it.
Jake surged forward, hands gripping your face so fast, so rough, it made you stumble back a stepâand then he kissed you.
It wasnât soft. It wasnât romantic. It was a collision. A spark catching flame after years of dry kindling. His mouth crashed against yours like he was drowning in it, like kissing you was a punishment and a reward at the same time. Meanwhile, your hands curled into the front of his flight jacket, dragging him closer, not because you wanted to be held but because you wanted him to feel everything heâd made you carry.
Then, he bit your lip.
And you gasped against him, nails digging into his shoulders as his hands slid from your jaw to your waist, gripping like heâd been starved for this exact contact. There was no space leftâonly the taste of anger and adrenaline and longing on his tongue.
And still, neither of you pulled away.
Not even for air.
His mouth was frantic against yours, all heat and teeth and helpless, frustrated longing. There was no finesseâno clever lines or slow lead-up. Just years of tension detonating between your lips. He kissed you like he hated himself for it. Like he couldnât stop. Like the taste of you might ruin him, but he wanted it anyway.
You couldnât breathe. Didnât want to.
Because the way his hands movedâsliding up your spine, gripping the back of your neck, then curling into your hairâit felt like a man trying to memorize you. Meanwhile, your fingers fumbled at his collar, bunching the fabric of his jacket like it was the only thing anchoring you. Your teeth clashed, lips bruised, but you didnât let go. Neither of you did. Then his tongue slid past your lips and you groaned into himâsoft and guttural, like something sacred just cracked wide open.
Jake pulled back just barely, panting, forehead pressed to yours. His eyes were wild, his jaw tight, voice gravel when he finally spoke.
âI hate how bad I want you.â
Then he kissed you againâharder this time, like the words had cost him too much, and only your mouth could take the sting away. Your body curved into his as you answered with your whole damn soul, kissing him like revenge, like release, like all the nights youâd laid awake thinking about this moment and hating yourself for it.
And still, it wasnât enough.
Because the more you kissed, the hungrier it got. The more his hands explored your waist, your ribs, the way your flight suit clung to your body like a second skinâthe more he knew heâd never be able to look at you again without remembering the taste of your mouth and the fire of your fury.
And he didnât care.
He kissed you like a man gone mad.
And you let him.
Jake kissed you like heâd been holding back for yearsâbecause he had. Every sparring match, every smirk, every insult thrown across briefing rooms and bar tables, theyâd all been smoke screens for this. And now that the dam had broken, he wasnât stopping. Couldnât.
Your back hit the nearest lounge chair, and he followed, crowding you against the weathered wood like the night itself was bending around the two of you. His hands slid down your waist, then up again, palms splayed like he was trying to cover every inch of you at once. Meanwhile, you curled your fingers into his hair, tugging hard enough to make him groan into your mouthâa low, feral sound that made your knees weak.
He kissed you like your lips held answers he didnât know he was asking. Then he pulled back just long enough to breathe, his forehead against yours, his voice rough and breathless.
âTell me to stop,â he whispered.
You didnât.
Instead, you grabbed him by the front of his jacket and dragged him back in, crashing your mouth against his againâfaster this time, deeper. His tongue found yours, hot and messy and perfect. The kiss turned hungry, frantic, like you were both starving and the other was the only thing left to devour.
Jakeâs hands slipped under your flight suit, fingertips skating across bare skin, and it hit you like a gut punchâhow long youâd wanted this. How long youâd hated wanting it.
But right now? You didnât care.
Because his mouth was on your jaw, then your neck, then back to your lips like he couldnât stand being away for more than a second. Then he breathed your name between kisses like a prayer and a curse, and your nails raked down his back through his shirt, trying to get closer, closer, still not close enough.
And Godâwhen he bit your lower lip and tugged, just enough to make you gasp?
You almost lost it.
Your breath came in short, sharp pantsâragged and desperate. Your lips were red and kiss-swollen, smeared with the taste of him, your fingers still tangled in the collar of his damn flight jacket like you could anchor yourself there. Jakeâs hands were everywhereâyour hips, your lower back, gripping you like he didnât know where to touch first, couldnât choose, so he chose all. His thumb dragged slow, filthy circles against the side of your neck, reverent in the most unholy way.
But you tilted your head back and let out a laugh, breathless and soaked in want, more of a whimper than a joke.
âLetâs not fuck on a beach chair like drunk teenagers,â you rasped against his mouth, voice wrecked and ruined.
Jake just looked at you, eyes wild, pupils blown wide. His mouth was parted like he wanted to bite down on the words you just said and swallow them whole. He blinked once, slowâlike processing language took too much effort while his cock was already rock-hard and straining against the front of his jeans.
Then he exhaled, a groan caught halfway between frustration and reverence. He pulled back just enough to glare at you like youâd just suggested celibacy.
âMy car,â he growled, voice hoarse and lethal. âNow.â
You didnât even pretend to argue.
Minutes later, you were in the passenger seat of his truck, door slamming behind you. The inside was hotâday-warmed leather and sun-stale airâbut it didnât matter. Jake didnât even touch the key. He turned, jaw tight, eyes burning like he could already see you bent over the console. He stared at you like a man seconds from snapping.
You stared right back.
And then?
You pounced.
Your knees straddled his lap before he could even speak, thighs spreading like a prayer turned sacrilegious. Your mouth crushed into his, all teeth and spit and hunger. The kiss was messy, obsceneâmore tongue than technique, more need than patience. Jake groaned deep in his chest as you rocked against the bulge in his jeans, hard and hot and already leaking.
His hands shot down to grip your ass, squeezing like he could mark his name there. âFuck, baby,â he muttered, voice broken. âYou gonna ride me right here?â
âUnless you want me dripping down your thigh instead,â you hissed, and he swore, low and guttural, fingers fumbling to shove your panties to the side.
The truck shook with the force of your bodiesâseat springs creaking, windows fogging like sin was sweating from your skin. His hand slid between your legs, cursing again when he felt how wet you were. âShit,â he groaned, pressing two fingers inside without warning. âSo fucking ready for me.â
You moaned against his neck, hips rolling down on his hand like your body knew him, like it had been waiting on this exact moment forever. âJake,â you breathed, and his name on your lips damn near undid him.
He dragged his soaked fingers back out and smeared them along your inner thigh, grinning like a bastard. âYouâre fuckinâ dripping, baby,â he murmured, eyes dropping to watch it. âGonna make a mess all over me, huh?â
âFuck, yes.â
âLetâs get out of here first, yeah?â
You nodded, nails digging into his shoulders, and he kissed you againâharder, dirtier, tongue deep in your mouth like he wanted to taste every filthy thought in your head.
And still, still, it wasnât enough. Not even close.
He started the engine with a jerk, jaw tight, knuckles pale from how hard he gripped the wheel. You shifted in your seat beside him, thighs still spread from straddling him moments ago, breathing like youâd just finished a damn marathon. The heat between you? Still alive. Still feral.
Jake didnât say a word. He couldnât. His voice wouldâve cracked or cursed or begged. Instead, he yanked the gear into reverse with a force that nearly made the whole truck shudder.
You sat there, smug and aching, dress bunched up too high on your thighs, no underwear in sight because he had shoved them into your jacket pocket like a trophy. His scent was on your neck. Your slick was probably still drying on his jeans.
The silence was thickâdangerous. Carnal.
Jakeâs jaw was clenched so hard it couldâve cracked stone. His right hand gripped the gearshift, but you felt the twitch in his fingers. Like he was seconds away from pulling over and fucking you in the backseat instead.
You shifted again, slow and shameless, and let out a little sigh. Just to test him.
His head snapped toward you for a secondâeyes dark, wild, starvingâthen back to the road.
âJesus Christ,â he muttered under his breath. âYou trying to get me arrested?â
You smirked, dragging one hand slowly down your own thigh, deliberately, until it brushed over your knee. âI dunno,â you murmured. âYouâre the one with the loaded weapon.â
He choked. Literally choked on a breath. âIf I crash this damn truck, itâs on you.â
You leaned closer, voice all syrup and sin, whispering, âIâm soaked, Jake.â
His groan was primal, a sound pulled straight from the chest of a man two seconds from wrecking. âKeep. Talking. And I will pull the fuck over.â
âThen pull over.â
The growl that ripped from his throat was almost a laughâdark and wrecked and barely human. His hand shot across the console, gripping your thigh, fingers digging into the skin hard enough to leave bruises. âYou are not helping.â
âIâm not trying to,â you purred.
The rest of the drive was a war. His hand stayed tight on your leg, dragging higher every few seconds, testing just how much self-control he had left. Your skin buzzed beneath his touch, your whole body humming with anticipation. Every red light was a goddamn curse. Every green one, a lifeline.
By the time he pulled into his driveway, neither of you had spoken in minutesâbut the air was so heavy it couldâve been sliced with a blade. Jake slammed the gear into park, killed the engine, and turned to you.
No words. Just fire in his eyes.
And you? You looked right back at him. Still smug. Still aching. And so very ready.
The front door slammed behind you with a sound that echoed off the walls, low and final, like the starter pistol to something primal. Jake didnât bother with the lights. There was no needâhe knew this house in the dark, and he was already walking you backward down the hallway, one hand splayed across your lower back and the other gripping your jaw like he could keep you right there, right where he needed you.
Your breath hitched when your spine hit the cool wall, and he was already on youâmouth hot and unrelenting, tongue sliding past your lips like he owned every gasp he stole from you.
Meanwhile, your hands yanked his shirt up, impatient and clumsy, fingers skating over hard muscle and warm skin. He groaned against your mouth when your nails scratched lightly down his abs, but he didnât stop kissing you.
If anything, he got rougherâteeth scraping your lower lip, then sucking it between his like he wanted to leave a mark. You kicked your shoes off blindly, one hand fumbling behind you for anything to hold onto as his thigh slotted between yours and pressed up, hard. Your hips rolled instinctively, a whimper escaping you before you could catch it.
Then Jake pulled back, just enough to look at you, his eyes glittering in the low light like something dangerous. His voice was low and hoarse, barely more than a breath. âBedroom. Now.â
You didnât hesitate. He let you lead the way, but only for a momentâhis hands stayed on your hips, guiding you down the hallway like a man possessed.
By the time you stepped over the threshold of his room, he was already peeling your dress over your head and tossing it somewhere behind you. It hit the floor with a soft whisper, but the sound was drowned out by the rustle of clothing and the hiss of breath through clenched teeth.
Jake didnât stop moving as he undressed you, didnât slow down even when his fingers found bare skin and heat and soaked thighs. He cursed, soft and reverent, under his breath, then leaned in to kiss the hollow of your throat. âFuck, baby,â he murmured, lips brushing your skin with each syllable. âYouâre dripping for me.â
You were. You knew you were. And still, you didnât care. You just wanted himâon you, in you, wrecking you. His touch was rough now, greedy. He walked you backward again until the backs of your knees hit the mattress, and then you were falling, legs spread, chest heaving, completely bare under the sharp, hungry gaze of a man who looked like he was deciding whether to kneel or devour.
Jake dropped to his knees like it wasnât even a question.
Then, with one hand on your thigh and the other spreading you wider, he leaned in and tasted you.
His mouth was hot and slick and obscene, dragging through your folds with a slow, deliberate hunger that made your hips jerk against the sheets. Jake groaned into you like your taste was the only thing heâd been craving for days, maybe years. H
is tongue was relentless, flat and wide one second, then sharp and focused the next, circling your clit like he was memorizing the exact pattern that made you tremble. Meanwhile, his fingers bruised into your thighs, holding you open, holding you still, because you were already writhing, already on edge from the buildup that started the second he growled âmy car.â
You gasped, back arching as he sucked harder, and that only earned you another moan from himâdeep and guttural, vibrating straight through your core. The sound sent shivers down your spine and made your thighs try to clamp shut, but his grip was unrelenting.
Jake didnât just want you to take itâhe wanted to wreck you with it. He wanted your legs trembling, your breath caught in your throat, your voice reduced to nothing but curses and moans tangled in his name.
Then he slid two fingers inside you, slow and thick, curling them just right, and your cry was sharp enough to echo. Your hands flew to his hair, tugging, anchoring, not because you wanted him to stop, but because it was too good. It was too much.
He was fucking you with his fingers and devouring you with his mouth like the world was ending and this was the only way he wanted to go out.
âJakeâshitâJake, Iââ You couldnât even finish the thought. Every time your voice rose, he doubled downâfaster, deeper, filthier. His mouth was soaked, your slick coating his chin, and he didnât care. He groaned into it, tongue flattening again as your thighs began to shake. You were so close you could taste it, breath catching, legs threatening to give out.
âCome on,â he growled, voice low and wrecked against your cunt. âCome for me. Right fucking now.â
And you did.
It hit you like a wave breaking loose, your entire body arching, gasping, clenching down on his fingers while your orgasm tore through you with vicious force. Your thighs shook. Your hands tightened in his hair. Your voice broke apart on his name as he kept licking you through it, slowing only when your legs finally gave out, twitching against the bed like youâd been electrocuted from the inside out.
But he didnât stop.
Not really.
Even as your body trembled, even as your breath stuttered in your chest, Jake was already rising, standing between your knees, dragging his shirt off over his head. His chest heaved. His mouth glistened with you. His eyes? Still feral.
And then he reached for his belt.
He yanked his belt free with a sharp snap, the leather whispering through denim loops like a warning. Then, without a word, he unbuttoned his jeans, the fabric straining around his thighs as he shoved them down just enough to free his cockâthick, flushed, already leaking.
He stroked himself once, slowly, eyes locked on your bare, trembling form sprawled across his sheets, your chest still rising and falling in the aftermath of his mouth. He looked like he wanted to savor you, stretch this moment out, but restraint was slipping from his fingers fast, unraveling with every second you laid there, slick and spread and waiting.
Meanwhile, you reached for him, your touch greedy as your hand wrapped around his wrist and tried to pull him closer. He let you, but barelyâhe resisted just long enough to press the head of his cock against your entrance, sliding it through your folds, dragging it slow, wet, and taunting. The sound alone was sinful, sticky and obscene, your slick coating him so thoroughly it made him shudder.
Then he pushed inâjust the tip at first, then more, inch by devastating inchâand you both moaned at the same time, the kind of sound that was deep and guttural and torn straight from the soul.
Your walls stretched around him, velvet heat pulling him in, and Jake cursed under his breath as he bottomed out, hips flush against yours, staying there for just a secondâbreathing heavy, hands on either side of your ribs, trembling with the effort it took not to lose it right there.
âFuck,â he groaned, dragging his mouth along your jaw. âYou feelâJesus, babyâyou feel like you were made for me.â
You couldnât answer. You could barely breathe. You just nodded, wide-eyed, hands clinging to his shoulders as he started to moveâslow at first, deep and deliberate, each thrust dragging against the most sensitive parts of you with precision. Meanwhile, your moans turned needy, breath hitching with every grind of his hips, every wet slap of skin against skin.
Then he sped up, and the rhythm shiftedâless careful, more feral. He fucked into you with a purpose, hips snapping forward like he was chasing something with every thrust, dragging moans and curses out of you until all you could do was hold on.
One hand gripped the headboard above you for leverage while the other tangled in his hair, desperate for something to anchor yourself as your body rocked under the weight of his. Jake leaned down to press his mouth to your throat, biting just hard enough to make you cry out before soothing it with his tongue, hips still slamming into you with relentless force.
The bed creaked beneath you, headboard knocking against the wall in time with each thrust. Your skin was slick with sweat, your legs wrapped around his waist, heels digging into the small of his back to keep him deep, to keep him there.
And Jake? He looked completely wreckedâhair wild, muscles tight, sweat dripping from his brow as he kept chasing that high, as he fucked you like he wanted to leave an imprint on your soul.
Still, it wasnât enough.
Jakeâs rhythm started to falterânot from exhaustion, but from the sheer effort it took to hold back. His thrusts grew sharper, deeper, hips snapping forward with that brutal precision that made your breath catch every time he bottomed out.
Meanwhile, his eyes were locked on where your bodies met, watching his cock disappear into you again and again, coated in your slick and glistening in the low light like the filthiest fucking dream. His mouth dropped open with a growl that vibrated in his chest.
âGod, you take it so well,â he hissed, voice low and wrecked. âFucking perfectâso fucking tight for me.â
Then he leaned in, face flushed and hair damp with sweat, his voice dropping to a whisper that was somehow even filthier. âYou ever think about what youâd look like,â he murmured, thrusting deep enough to make you cry out, âround and dripping, full of me?â
Your moan was instant, raw, involuntary.
Jake grinned, sharp and unholy. âYeah,â he groaned, snapping his hips hard, making you jolt up the bed. âBet youâd look so fucking good carrying me. All swollen, leaking for daysâfuck, baby, I could make you mine. Over and over, till your pretty little body canât hold any more.â
He was feral now, hips punishing, one hand reaching to grip your thigh and push it higher against your chest, folding you in half so he could get deeper. His cock dragged against your walls just right, brutal and perfect, making stars dance behind your eyes. You were gasping now, clutching at the sheets, fingers white-knuckled from how hard you were hanging on.
Meanwhile, Jake was falling apart right above you. âYou want that, donât you?â he growled, voice slurring with lust. âWanna feel me come inside, wanna know I fucked you so deep, so good, youâll still be dripping when you wake up.â
You couldnât even form words. You just nodded, moaned, whimperedâanything to tell him yes, please, more.
Then his hand slid down to your lower stomach, pressing down lightly while he thrust, making you feel everything. âFeel that?â he whispered, completely wrecked now. âThatâs me. All of me. Fuck, Iâm gonna fill you up so good, baby. Gonna come so fucking deep youâll feel it in your throat.â
The way he said itâlike a promise, like a prayerâwas enough to send another wave of heat crashing through you. Your second orgasm slammed into you with no warning, tearing a cry from your throat as your walls clamped around him, squeezing, milking, begging.
Jake snapped.
He cursed viciously, hips stuttering, and then he buried himself to the hilt, grinding deep as his cock pulsed, spilling into you with a low, guttural moan that sounded more like a man losing his religion. He stayed there, locked tight against you, hand still pressing your belly, like he wanted to feel his cum take root.
Even as you trembled beneath him, aftershocks rippling through every inch of you, Jake didnât move. He just kissed your throat, your collarbone, your lipsâslower now, reverent, but still with that edge of obsession burning in his touch.
And then? He pulled back just enough to look down between your thighs⌠and smiled.
The air was thick with sweat and sex, the room dim and humming with the afterglow of what you just didâbut your pulse hadnât slowed. Neither had your hunger. Jake lay flat on the bed, chest still rising and falling hard, face flushed and jaw slack, utterly wrecked from the way heâd come inside you. He looked dazedâblissfully fucked-out and completely unaware that you were far from satisfied.
You shifted beside him, still trembling a little, but a new kind of heat lit beneath your skin. Then, without a word, you swung your leg over his hips and settled yourself on top of him, thighs spread wide, still sticky from his cum. He blinked up at you, confused at first, but then your fingers wrapped around his cock againâslick and still rock-hard despite the fact heâd just finished inside you minutes ago.
He groaned, long and broken. âFuck, babeâgive me a secondââ
But you didnât give him anything. Not mercy. Not pause. Not relief. You just smiled slow, fingers stroking him deliberately from base to tip, your palm gentle at first, then tighter, then featherlight just to make him twitch. Meanwhile, your hips ground down against his stomach, heat rubbing into skin, body still greedy and dripping.
Jakeâs hands flew to your thighs like he could steady himself, but his eyes were already wild. âShit,â he muttered, head pressing back into the pillow. âToo much. Tooâfuck, Iâm stillââ
âI know,â you whispered, tilting your head, voice syrup-sweet and soaked in sin. âYou said you could handle me. So⌠handle it.â
Then your thumb dragged over his tip, spreading his own slick around the head, and he jerked, muscles twitching like heâd been shocked. His breath hitched, chest stuttering, hands tightening on your legs.
âYouâre killing me,â he gasped.
âGood,â you purred, eyes locked on his. âThen maybe youâll learn not to think you can fuck me once and call it a night.â
You leaned forward, hand still working him slow, torturous, squeezing just enough to make him twitch and throb under your palm. He was sensitive, overstimulated, every nerve on fireâand you knew it. You thrived on it.
Jake was panting now, voice strained and begging. âPlease. Baby, I swearâfuckâstop teasing. Let meâlet me come inside you again, pleaseââ
But instead, you dragged your soaked core along the length of his cock without letting him in, slick smearing over him like temptation incarnate. You rocked your hips once, twice, just enough to let the head catch at your entrance, and his hands flew up like he couldnât decide whether to pull you down or beg harder.
Then, with a smirk and no warning, you sank down onto him in one slow, devastating push.
His entire body arched. A sound ripped from his throatâsomething between a moan and a curse, utterly helpless.
âFuckâfuck, babyâIâm not gonna lastââ
âI donât care,â you whispered, riding him slow and deep, your hands braced against his chest. âYouâre mine tonight. Iâll take what I want.â
And you did.
You rocked your hips slow at firstâtaunting, grinding down until his cock was seated deep, then rolling your pelvis just enough to make him twitch beneath you. His hands flew to your thighs again, gripping hard like he was trying to ground himself, but you slapped them away, breathless and wicked.
âUh-uh,â you murmured, grinding down harder this time, your cunt clenching around him so tightly it made him gasp. âYou donât get to hold on. You just get to take it.â
Jake looked up at you, eyes wild and pleading, sweat dripping down his temples. His mouth fell open like he wanted to argue, but no words cameâjust a broken moan as you lifted your hips and sank back down, slow and deliberate, making sure he felt every inch. He was already throbbing, overstimulated, your walls squeezing him like a velvet vice, and the way he whimpered under you only made you ride him harder.
Then you started to pick up the pace.
Each bounce made the bed creak under you, your thighs slapping against his as you moved faster, harder, chasing the edge with no mercy. Your tits bounced with every thrust, sweat rolling down your spine, and Jake was completely wrecked.
His head was tipped back, mouth open, eyes fluttering, and his cock pulsed inside you like it was trying to come again alreadyâhot and aching and too much.
âFuck, fuckâI canâtâIâm gonnaââ he babbled, one hand fisting in the sheets, the other hovering like he didnât know if he should grab you or pray.
You leaned down then, your lips brushing his ear, voice thick and filthy and pure control. âYouâll do nothing unless I tell you to,â you whispered. âYou hear me? You donât get to come. Not yet.â
Jake whimpered. He actually whimpered, and the sound shot straight through your core like lightning. You rode him faster now, chasing your own high, slamming down on him with every bounce, making his cock hit that spot inside you that made your eyes roll back. You clenched hard around him just to feel him twitch again, and he cursedâloud and rawâlike it physically hurt to not come.
âBaby, please,â he begged, voice broken. âPlease, I canâtâlet me, fuck, let me comeââ
But you didnât slow down. You slammed down harder, faster, feeling him stretch you wide and full, every thrust making your thighs quake and your breath stutter. You were closeâso closeâand you wanted to drag him there with you. Not gently. Not sweetly. Ruthlessly.
You ground your hips in tight, punishing circles, your nails dragging down his chest, leaving red lines in their wake. âBeg for it,â you said, panting, your voice high and wrecked with pleasure. âBeg me to let you fill me again.â
Jake nodded, desperate, his voice nothing but air and agony. âPleaseâfuck, please, I need toâI wanna come inside you again, wanna fill you up, make you messy, baby, pleaseâpleaseâIâll give you all of it, I swearââ
And with a final, devastating grind of your hips, you pushed yourself over the edge, your orgasm crashing through you so hard it ripped a scream from your throat. Your walls clamped down around him like a vice, fluttering, pulsing, and Jake snapped.
He surged up, hips lifting off the bed to meet yours one last time, burying himself deep as he came with a loud, hoarse cryâcock twitching violently as he spilled inside you again, even more this time, thick and hot, filling you until it dripped down your thighs.
You collapsed on top of him, bodies slick and trembling, his cock still twitching inside you as your breath mingled in the heavy air.
But neither of you moved. Not yet.
You barely had time to breathe.
Jakeâs cock was still inside you, still thick and hot, twitching with the aftershocks of his second orgasm, but he didnât soften. Not even close. Instead, he gripped your hips in both hands and flipped you effortlessly, your back slamming into the mattress with a gasp before you could react.
The sudden shift knocked the air from your lungs, and before you could speak, he was already on top of you againâeyes dark, jaw clenched, sweat glistening across his chest like sin itself.
âRound three,â he growled, voice low and savage, dragging his cock out just enough to make your cunt clench. âYou think Iâm done with you?â
You barely had time to answer before he shoved back in, one hard, brutal thrust that made you wail.
âDo you have any fucking idea,â he hissed, pulling out again, slow and deliberate, âhow many times Iâve jerked off thinking about this pussy?â
He slammed into you again, harder, deeper, making the whole bed rattle beneath you. You clawed at the sheets, head thrown back, thighs trembling from the sheer intensity of it.
Jake didnât stop.
âEvery goddamn night,â he gritted out, thrusting in time with every filthy confession. âIn the shower. In my room. On base. Anywhere I could get my hand around my cock and picture you moaning like this.â
Then his hand wrapped around your throatânot squeezing, just holdingâjust enough to keep your eyes locked on his. His hips snapped against yours, brutal and fast, the sound of skin slapping skin echoing through the room.
You were already sore, already overstimulated, and yet you wanted more. You wanted it rougher. And Jake? Jake was giving it to you like he had a grudge against your body and worshipped it all at once.
âYou made me wait,â he growled, fucking into you harder, deeper, your legs pushed back until your knees nearly touched your chest. âMade me suffer. Made me fucking ache for this.â
You tried to respondâtried to tell him yes, to beg for more, to say you were sorryâbut all that came out was a strangled moan as he slammed into you again, making your voice catch and your vision blur. Your nails dug into his biceps, clinging to him like you were drowning in the heat and weight of him.
Meanwhile, he wasnât letting up.
His pace stayed relentless, cruel even, the kind of rhythm that bordered on punishment. His cock pounded into you like it belonged thereâlike it had always belonged thereâand his words spilled out in low, breathless curses between every thrust.
âYou think riding me was enough?â he rasped, leaning down to kiss your jaw, your throat, your collarbone. âYou think I was just gonna let you get on top, get your pretty little orgasm, and walk away?â
He thrust harderâdeeperâand your entire body jolted, the bed slamming into the wall.
âNo,â he growled. âNow itâs my turn. And Iâm not stopping until Iâve filled you again. Until youâre ruined.â
And god, you were.
You could feel the mess between your thighs, the raw ache of your pussy from being used and stretched and filled again and again, and stillâit wasnât enough. Still, you wanted more. And Jake? He wasnât even close to finished.
Jake pulled out suddenly, and you whimpered from the loss, from the aching emptiness he left behindâbut he didnât give you a second to mourn it. Instead, he grabbed your hips, flipping you onto your stomach like you weighed nothing, and hauled your ass up into the air.
Your knees barely hit the mattress before he had you positioned how he wantedâspine arched, face pressed into the sheets, and cunt on full display, flushed and dripping with the mess of everything heâd already given you.
âStay just like that,â he growled, voice so low and rough it scraped through your spine like a knife. âFucking perfect.â
Then he shoved back in, one hard, vicious thrust that made you scream into the pillow. He didnât ease in. Didnât rebuild the rhythm. He just fucked youâraw, hard, and punishing. His hips slammed into your ass over and over, the sound obscene, echoing off the walls with every brutal snap.
Your fingers clutched at the sheets, mouth open in a silent gasp, tears pricking your eyes as the pace pushed past pain and straight into ecstasy.
Meanwhile, Jake was groaning behind you, loud and ragged, hands gripping your hips like handles. âYou hear that?â he growled, slamming into you harder. âThatâs how fucking wet you are. You did this. You made me like this.â
He reached forward and grabbed a fistful of your hair, yanking your head back just enough to hear the broken sob that slipped out of you. âGod, Iâve waited so long to ruin this pussy,â he spat, driving into you deeper, harder, until the mattress shook and your legs started to give out. âAll those nights with my fist wrapped around my cock, thinking about bending you over like this, fucking you so deep you canât even stand after.â
Then his hand slipped between your thighs and found your clitâalready swollen, already throbbingâand rubbed it in tight, merciless circles. The double stimulation made your back arch, a high, helpless moan ripped from your throat as your walls fluttered around him again, already spiraling into another orgasm.
Jake felt it. Saw it. And it only made him fuck you harder.
âThatâs it,â he growled. âCome again. Milk my cock. I want to feel itâwant to feel you break around me.â
And you did.
Your climax hit you like a lightning strike, white-hot and blinding, your thighs shaking violently as your pussy clenched down on him, tight and relentless. You screamed into the sheets, body going slack beneath him as wave after wave ripped through you, each one more devastating than the last.
But Jake didnât stop.
He kept going, chasing his own end like a man possessed, fucking you through your orgasm and into another, his moans turning into curses, then into praise. âSo fucking good. So tight. You were made for thisâfuck, baby, Iâm gonna fill you up again. Gonna breed you so full it leaks out of you for days.â
His thrusts turned erraticâdeep, savage, hungryâand then he buried himself one final time, cock throbbing as he came hard inside you, spilling deep with a loud, wrecked groan. His hips rocked through it, dragging it out, grinding into you as his cum filled you again, hot and endless, dripping down your thighs before he even pulled out.
You collapsed beneath him, completely destroyed, gasping and twitching, skin marked with sweat and teeth and everything in between.
Jake dropped forward over your back, breathing heavy, cock still twitching inside you, and murmured against your shoulder:
ââŚstill not done.â
Jake didnât give you a chance to recover.
Even as you collapsed into the mattress, your limbs boneless and your cunt aching from how hard heâd just fucked you, he stayed buried inside youâhard again before heâd even finished panting into your neck. You felt the twitch of his cock still lodged deep, felt the drip of his cum leaking down your thighs, and just as you sucked in a breath to beg for a pause, he growled low and dark right in your ear.
âGet back up.â
You whimpered, shaking your head, legs trembling beneath you, but he didnât ask twice. He dragged you up by your hips, repositioning you like a ragdoll, ignoring your protests, your stuttering cries of Jake, I canâtâ because he knew. He knew your body better than you did by now. Knew youâd take it. Crave it. Come again before you even realized you could.
Then he started to move.
This time, it was brutal from the start. No buildup. No mercy. Just pure, punishing rhythmâdeep, raw thrusts that had your voice breaking open in cracked sobs. You were already overstimulated, your clit throbbing with every slap of his hips against your ass, your walls fluttering weakly around him as he shoved his cock deeper into you, harder.
âYou think Iâm done?â he snarled, grabbing a handful of your hair and yanking your head back again, your spine arching beautifully beneath him. âNah, baby. Iâve barely fucking started.â
He slammed in againâhard enough to shove you forward on the bedâand your hands clawed uselessly at the sheets, legs struggling to hold your own weight. But Jake caught you, kept you upright, one arm wrapped under your stomach as he fucked you harder, faster, the wet slap of skin-on-skin growing downright filthy.
âFeel that?â he groaned, grinding deep, cock twitching. âThatâs the third load dripping outta you. Gonna make it four. Gonna pump you so full, itâs all you can smell. All you can feel.â
You sobbed into the pillow, throat raw from moaning, and stillâstillâyour body rocked back against him, desperate, greedy, utterly ruined. You didnât know what time it was. Didnât know your own name. All you knew was Jake. The way he filled you. The way he broke you.
Meanwhile, his hand reached down again, fingers working your clit with ruthless speed, rubbing tight, fast circles that made your entire body seize. âOne more,â he muttered, voice barely a breath now. âGive me one more. Milk my cock again, baby. Show me you can.â
You didnât even have time to answer.
Your orgasm tore through you like a goddamn explosionâloud, vicious, legs giving out as your pussy clamped down so hard around his cock, it made him curse. Your cry was sharp and raw, the kind of sound that came from deep inside your chest, and Jake rode it out like a man starved, fucking you through it, into it, until you felt yourself tipping into a haze that was almost too much.
He came againâloud, wrecked, fingers digging bruises into your hips as he spilled another hot, endless load inside your already used cunt. He didnât pull out. Didnât slow down. He pressed in, grinding, as if trying to force every last drop as deep inside you as he could.
Then he collapsed over your back, panting against your spine, chest heaving, body shaking from the sheer force of it.
And still, the only thing he could sayâraw, reverent, filthyâwas:
ââŚfuck.â
The room was quiet nowâjust the heavy rise and fall of breath and the soft hum of night air spilling through the open window. Your body was still trembling, skin slick with sweat and streaked with the rawness of everything heâd done to you, but the moment his arms wrapped around you from behind, the chaos softened.
Jake didnât speak at first.
He just held youâtight and sure, like you were something precious. His lips pressed into the curve of your shoulder, a kiss so gentle it almost made you cry. And then, when he finally moved again, it wasnât with hunger or force. It was careful. Reverent. Like he knew heâd already ruined your body and now he wanted to worship it in the wreckage.
He rolled you onto your back, slow and easy, his hand smoothing over your thigh as he settled between them again. His cock was still hardâof course he was, this was Jakeâbut there was no rush in the way he reached for you. He cupped your cheek, thumb dragging along your bottom lip, and whispered:
âYou okay?â
You nodded, voice caught in your throat, heart aching from how tender he sounded. And just like that, Jake leaned in and kissed youâreally kissed you. No tongue. No teeth. Just slow, deep pressure. Lips brushing. Breaths mingling. Like he was pouring every filthy confession back into your mouth in the shape of love.
Then he entered you againâslowly this time.
Your breath caught. You were sore, still so swollen from everything that came before, but the stretch was familiar now. Comforting. Home. He sank in inch by inch, one hand cradling the back of your head while the other pressed against your lower stomach, grounding you, holding you open for him.
And when he was fully inside youâdeep and still, his hips flush against yoursâhe rested his forehead against yours and just breathed.
âFuck,â he whispered, almost like he was in awe. âYou feel like heaven.â
Then he started to move.
It wasnât rough now. It wasnât fast. It was slow, aching, like he wanted to feel every pulse, every squeeze, every breathless whimper you gave him. He rocked into you gently, hips rolling with that practiced ease that spoke of pure control, his gaze locked on your face like watching you fall apart beneath him was his new religion.
Meanwhile, your arms wound around his shoulders, dragging him closer, your chest brushing his with every deep, dragging thrust. The sounds now were softerâthe wet glide of his cock inside you, your breath catching, his low, broken moans melting into your skin.
âYouâre so beautiful,â he whispered, voice hoarse and trembling. âYou have no idea what you do to me.â
And he meant it.
Every touch, every kiss, every deep, slow stroke of his cock inside your raw, used bodyâmeant something. This wasnât just fucking anymore. This was his heart, bared and messy and desperate to be felt. His lips pressed to your jaw, your eyelids, your throat. Like he couldnât get enough of you. Like he wanted to kiss every part of you that had just taken him like that and now still, somehow, loved him enough to hold him this way.
He reached down between your bodies again, fingers ghosting over your clitânot fast, not rough, just soft circles, teasing and devoted. Your hips twitched, breath catching, and he whispered, âGive me one more, baby. Just one more. Let me feel you like that again.â
And you did.
You came slowly this timeâquiet, shaking, moaning his name like a prayer, like you were unspooling thread by thread. Your walls fluttered around him, warm and wet and full, and Jake groaned as he followed you over that edge, coming deep againâbut this time with a soft, aching moan, one hand curled into your hair as he buried his face in your neck and just breathed you in.
You held each other there, still joined, his cum leaking down your thighs, your heart thudding steady against his chest.
And in that silence, in the aftermath, Jake kissed your temple and whispered,
âIâve never wanted anything the way I want you.â
Jake didnât rush. Didnât pull out right away. He just stayed there for a few more seconds, cock still nestled deep inside you, chest pressed against yours, his breath warm where it fanned against your collarbone. You could feel the aftermathâhis cum leaking down your thighs, your body trembling with leftover pleasure, your heart beating so hard it hurt. You were used, ruined, absolutely undone.
And he kissed you like you were holy.
Then, finally, he pulled out slowlyâso careful, so gentleâand sat back on his heels, just watching you for a second like he couldnât believe you were real. His thumb brushed over your swollen bottom lip, and then he whispered, voice rough but soft, âDonât move, baby. I got you.â
You heard the soft pad of his bare feet on the floor, the rustle of water running. A second later, the lights in the bathroom dimmed low, and the sound of the tub filling made your already-tired limbs melt deeper into the sheets. You could barely lift your head when he returned, one arm sliding beneath your back, the other under your thighs, and he carried youâcompletely naked, completely spentâinto the bathroom like you were something fragile heâd accidentally broken and now wanted to piece back together.
The tub was already half full, steam curling in the air, and Jake had dropped a few drops of something into the waterâlavender-scented, soft and floral, the kind of thing that told you he cared. Really, truly cared.
He stepped into the tub first, sitting down with a grunt, and then gently lowered you in with him, your back to his chest, his arms wrapping around you the second you hit the water. The heat enveloped your sore muscles, the ache between your thighs soothed by the softness of it, and you sank into him with a breath that sounded like the first real inhale youâd taken in hours.
Meanwhile, Jakeâs hands never stopped moving.
One cradled your thigh under the water, thumb tracing lazy, slow circles over the bruises heâd left. The other brushed over your stomach, then up to your ribs, then back down againâjust touching, just being.
You felt him shift, reaching for a soft cloth, and then he began to wash you, starting at your collarbone and working down. It wasnât sexual. Not now. Not after what youâd just done. It was⌠intimate. Reverent.
âI made a mess of you,â he said against your shoulder, lips barely moving. âGotta take care of my girl now.â
You hummed, eyes closed, breath hitching just slightly when the cloth brushed between your thighs. Jake slowed, soft as anything, cleaning you up with such care it almost made you cry. He kissed your shoulder again, then your jaw, then nuzzled into the side of your face with a low, satisfied sigh.
âGod, I love you like this,â he whispered. âSoft. Safe. Mine.â
You turned your head just enough to kiss him. It was slow. Deep. The kind of kiss that doesnât beg for more but just isâlike a heartbeat. Like breathing.
And then the two of you sat there, soaking in the warmth, his cum floating between your legs, your bodies tangled and still, like nothing existed outside the walls of that steam-heavy room.
The bathwater had gone a little cooler, the lavender bubbles clinging to your skin in soft ribbons, and your back was still nestled to Jakeâs chestâhis arms loose around you, lips brushing every so often against your temple like he couldnât help himself. The chaos of the night had finally calmed, but under the surface, there was still want. Not lust. Not hunger.
Need.
Youâd tipped your head back, resting it on his shoulder, fingers lazily trailing over his thighs under the water when you murmured, âYou remember that Taylor Swift song?â
He huffed a little against your cheek. âYouâre gonna have to narrow that down.â
You smirked, voice low and barely a breath. âDress. The part that goes: Iâm spilling wine in the bathtub, you kiss my face and weâre both drunk.â
Jake froze, then let out the softest exhaleâlike something in his chest cracked. âGod. Yeah.â Then quieter: âThatâs what this feels like.â
You turned, slow, just enough to see his faceâwet strands of hair clinging to his forehead, eyes soft and ruined. You kissed him, and it tasted like salt and lavender and exhaustion. You were both drunk off it. Drunk off each other.
Jake shifted behind you, adjusting, and you felt the way his cock stirred beneath the waterâhalf-hard, barely there, but responding to the heat of you, the softness of you leaning into him.
Your hand slid down without thinking, curling around him gently beneath the bubbles, and he groaned quietly into your mouth, his hand tightening just a little on your waist.
âYou sure?â he asked, voice hoarse.
You nodded, and instead of answering with words, you lifted yourself just enough to turn around and straddle him, knees pressing into the slick porcelain, water lapping over the edge. The shift made the whole tub creak beneath you, but you didnât care.
Jake looked up at you like you were something out of a dream, his hands finding your hips again like they belonged there, fingers brushing over the bruises heâd left earlier with reverence now.
And when you sank down onto himâslow, so achingly slowâit wasnât frantic or desperate. It was like melting. Like coming home.
His head dropped forward, forehead pressing to your chest, arms wrapping tight around your waist as you rolled your hips with gentle, fluid rhythm. The water sloshed with every movement, bubbles slipping down your back, and the whole thing felt suspended in timeâlike if you stopped breathing, the world would too.
Jakeâs lips found your throat, then your collarbone, then the valley between your breasts, pressing kisses there like he needed them to live. And when he looked up at you againâeyes glassy, mouth partedâhe whispered, âIf I get burned, at least we were electrified.â
You whimpered, your walls fluttering around him, your hands tangled in his wet hair. âWe are,â you breathed. âWe always have been.â
The rhythm stayed slow. Sweet. Every thrust was deep, gentle, intentionalâyour foreheads touching, lips brushing, his hands slipping down to cup your ass under the water as he rocked into you with that aching, all-consuming kind of tenderness. Like he didnât just want to come inside you again. He wanted to leave a piece of his soul behind.
âEveryone thinks they know us,â he murmured, his voice cracked open now, his thrusts growing slower, more reverent.
You kissed the corner of his mouth. âBut they know nothing about us.â
Jake moaned quietly as your name slipped from his lips like a promise, and your hips stuttered as your orgasm built slowlyâsweet, soft, warm like honey melting in your veins. You clenched around him, your breathing shallow, and Jake was right there with youâcoming with a low groan that vibrated against your chest, his cock pulsing inside you, thick and hot, lost in the warmth of the water and the mess of both of you.
You stayed like thatâpanting, connected, tangled up in each other, water cooling around your bodies and steam curling in the air like a sigh.
And when he finally spoke again, it was so quiet, you almost didnât hear it.
âIâd drown in you a thousand times,â he said, kissing your shoulder. âJust to feel this.â
The water had gone quiet again, soft ripples fading around your bodies as you rested on his chest, your heartbeat finally slowing. Jakeâs arms were still around you, one hand lazily gliding up and down your spine, and your cheek was pressed against the slope of his collarbone where it felt safeâsacred, even.
The air was heavy with lavender, and the only sound left was your breathing and the occasional creak of the tub when either of you shifted.
Jake hadnât said much since the last kiss. Just held you like you were the only thing tethering him to earth.
But thenâsoft. Almost too soft to hearâhe whispered, âCan I tell you something without you laughing?â
You tilted your head, brows furrowed gently. âJake. Iâd never laugh at you.â
He paused. Swallowed thickly. His throat bobbed against your temple. Then he exhaled a shaky breath, and everything about him shiftedâno swagger, no cocky grin, just Jake. Raw. Honest. Terrified.
âI think Iâm obsessed with you,â he said, voice cracking just a little. âNot in some unhealthy, possessive way. Not like that. Justâfuck, like I think about you all the time. Youâre in my head even when youâre not trying to be. When I fly, when I sleep, when Iâm laughing at something dumb on my phoneâIâm wondering if youâd laugh too.â
You blinked. Your heart fluttered. And he didnât stop.
âIâve replayed every time youâve touched me. Every sound you made. Every look you gave me. I think Iâve imagined kissing you in more places than I can count. Not just the sexy shit. I mean, like⌠the back of your hand. The corner of your smile. Your shoulder when youâre falling asleep.â
His hand was trembling slightly where it rested against your back, but his voice kept steadying the more he spoke. The more he gave.
âI wanna know every version of you. I want the quiet mornings and the late-night breakdowns. I want to kiss you when youâre angry and hold you when youâre too tired to talk. I want all of it.â
You could barely breathe.
And then he leaned his head back against the porcelain edge, looking up at the ceiling like the weight of what he was about to say might crush him.
âBut none of that matters unless you want it, too,â he whispered. âSo Iâm asking. Just once. No games, no pressure. Will you let me? Let me love you? All the way? Because I swear, I wonât fuck it up. I wonât let you down.â
He turned back to you then, eyes glassy but so clearâlike he was laying down every weapon, every mask, every part of him that pretended not to need.
âIâll be whatever you need me to be,â he said. âJust⌠let me.â
And there it was.
Not just love. Not just lust. Not just obsession. But devotion. Willing, reverent, forever kind of love. The kind that sits quietly in the bathroom at 2AM, holding you in a bathtub that smells like lavender and memories you havenât even made yet.
Your voice came soft, trembling, nearly swallowed by the gentle ripple of water around your bodies. âYes.â
Jake froze.
You felt it in the way his chest stopped moving, in the way his hand clenched ever so slightly at your hip. Your head was still against his shoulder, cheek damp from bathwater and emotion, but when you tilted your face up and looked at himâreally lookedâhis eyes were already glassy. Not from lust. Not from tension. But from the sheer weight of being seen.
âYes,â you whispered again, surer this time. âLove me, Jake. Please.â
His breath caught, like youâd just ripped the last bit of air from his lungs and replaced it with something sweeter. And then his hand came up to cup your jawâslow, gentle, almost reverentâas he leaned down to kiss you.
Not rushed. Not rough. Just everything.
His lips moved over yours with unspoken promises, his thumbs brushing away the dampness on your cheeks, and you melted into himâsoft and slow and safe. The water shifted around you, warm and quiet, wrapping you both in a kind of hush that felt sacred. Jakeâs mouth broke from yours only to kiss your jaw, your cheekbone, the tip of your nose. Every touch was a vow.
Then, barely audible, he murmured against your skin: âYou have no idea how long Iâve been waiting to hear that.â
You climbed into his lap again, this time not out of hunger or heatâbut closeness. Wanting to be so near to him you didnât know where your body ended and his began. You settled over him gently, your knees on either side of his waist, your arms looped around his neck like he was the only thing anchoring you.
When you sank onto him this time, it was slow. So slow. Like you needed to feel every inch of him stretch you, fill you, remind you that this? This was what love felt like. His cock pressed deep, and you both let out shaky, stunned breathsâlike the fit of it was just as emotional as it was physical.
Jake buried his face into your neck, his lips parting on your skin as he whispered your name like a prayer. âSo good,â he breathed. âSo fucking good. Youâre everything.â
You rocked against him in slow, lazy rolls of your hips, bodies slipping and gliding beneath the water, skin against skin. It was gentle, loving, like every thrust was a heartbeat. A reminder. He held you close, his hands traveling up and down your spine, over your ribs, his thumbs brushing the sides of your breasts in quiet reverence.
Meanwhile, your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging gently as your lips found his jaw, his cheek, his temple. âIâm yours, Jake,â you whispered, lips grazing his skin with every word. âI always was.â
That made him shudderâa full-body reaction, like the weight of your words had sunk right through his bones. His hips bucked up a little harder, a little deeper, and his mouth found yours again. It wasnât frantic. It was fullâhis tongue gliding against yours like he wanted to memorize the way you tasted when you gave him your heart.
âI want this,â he murmured between kisses. âEvery night. Every morning. I wanna wake up with you like this. I wanna hold you when you're tired. I wannaâfuckâI wanna make love to you until you're too full of me to ever forget it.â
You whimpered into his mouth, your body trembling with the slow, warm build of pleasure that came not from forceâbut from feeling. The way he touched you. The way he kissed you. The way he looked at you like you were the only real thing heâd ever known.
He was close. You both were. But neither of you rushed it.
Because this time? It wasnât about release. It was about belonging.
Jakeâs breathing hitched as you rocked against him, his hands splayed wide across your lower back, fingers sifting through the suds to hold you steady. He was so deep inside you, and yet he kept whispering like it still wasnât close enough. âYou feel like⌠everything,â he breathed. âLike Iâve been chasing this without even knowing.â
Your head dropped to his shoulder, the crook of his neck warm and slick beneath your lips. You pressed soft kisses thereâone after anotherâuntil you felt his pulse jump under your mouth. He was trembling now. So were you.
That quiet build between your thighs, that familiar ache curling in the base of your spineâit wasnât loud. It wasnât brutal. It was tender. It was yours.
âIâm gonna come,â you whispered, voice breaking. âWith you. Like this.â
Jakeâs hand slid to cradle the back of your neck, pulling you forehead to forehead. His nose brushed yours. His eyes were wide and aching as he nodded, as he begged, âYeah, baby. Please. Come with me. I need to feel it. Just you and me.â
And when you did?
God, it was gentle. But devastating. Like something cracked open inside you. Your body went still, legs trembling around his waist, head falling back slightly as your orgasm swept through you like warm rainâwaves, slow and shattering, moans slipping past your lips like prayers.
Your walls clenched down around him, and you felt him let go tooâhis breath caught, his whole body shuddering as he came deep inside you, thick and slow, his arms locking around you like heâd fall apart if he let go.
There were no words for a moment.
Just panting. Soft cries. The sound of water sloshing as you both stayed tangled, still joined, not ready to let go.
Jake buried his face into your neck, whispering, âI love you,â like it was something heâd been dying to say. âI fucking love you.â
You cradled his head to your chest and kissed his temple.
âI love you, too.â
He eventually stood, the water cooling now, and carried you out of the tub like you were made of silk and sunlight. He dried you off with that same reverent touchâone towel for you, one for himâand tucked you beneath the covers with care, as if the warmth of your body might flicker out if he moved too fast.
In bed, he curled behind you, bare chest pressed to your spine, his hand slipping to rest low on your belly, where his warmth lingered inside you still.
There were no more words left. Only silence. Soft breathing. The sound of your hearts syncing under the hush of the night.
And as your eyes fluttered shut, as the moon spilled soft light over your tangled limbs and tear-streaked cheeks, you felt it againâthat current between you. Not fire. Not thunder.
Just electricity.
Because maybe the world wouldnât understand what you were. Maybe theyâd never know how much youâd given each other. How much youâd bled to arrive at this placeânaked, vulnerable, utterly seen.
But at least?
At least you were both electrified.Â
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the fool, the golden boy, and everything in between ; jake "hangman" seresin x reader [epilogue]
pairings: jake "hangman" seresin x reader
word count: 26.5k words (so short, i am sorry)
summary: jake seresin was the golden boyâcocky, fast, untouchable. the kind of man who flew too close to the sun and smirked when he burned. but then he met you. and you didnât just ground himâyou remade him. you were the reckoning he never saw coming. and somehow, between old wounds and second chances, you built a life together. a home full of laughter, bickering, and soft kisses between chaos. and now? now the golden boy is a fool in love, wrapped around your finger and utterly whipped for the tiny, sleepy baby cradled on his chestâhis son, his softest landing yet.
notes: goodness, weâve come to the epilogue nowâwild, right? from enemies to lovers, to co-commanders, to baby-making soulmates⌠itâs been a ride. thank you for being here, for reading every chaotic chapter, and falling in love with these two fools right alongside me. and hey, who knowsâi might drop a few bonus chapters if anyoneâs curious about post-baby chaos or wedding shenanigans (hint hint). just say the word. âĄ
warnings: filthy smut, breeding kink, pregnancy sex, soft!jake, jealous!jake, public teasing, emotional angst, comfort, fluff, domestic chaos, baby fever, hurt/comfort, jake being obsessed with you (as he should), and language that would make cyclone retire early. 18+ only. donât read this on your grandmaâs kindle.
part one , part two , part three , part four , part 5
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Six months ago, you wouldâve swornâsworn on seared pride and buried rageâthat you would never, not in a thousand lifetimes, so much as touch a hair on Jake Seresinâs head. And yet, here you were now. Bare skin tangled in cotton sheets, a warm, familiar weight pressed behind you, his arm slung over your waist like it belonged there. Like he belonged there. The morning light filtered through the blinds, golden and drowsy, casting lazy stripes across your shared bed. Jakeâs heartbeat thudded slow and steady against your back, and without even realizing it, your breath synced to his.
The silence wasnât awkward. It hadnât been awkward in a long time. It was... quiet in the way only true comfort could be. The kind you didnât question. The kind you couldnât fake. Jake was still asleep behind you, mouth parted just slightly, chest rising and falling in a rhythm you knew like your own. Heâd shifted once already, tugging you closer in his sleep, and when heâd murmured your name into the curve of your shoulder, half-conscious and warm as a prayer, youâd closed your eyes and pretended not to hear it. You hadnât trusted yourself not to melt.
Meanwhile, the apartment was still. Only the distant hum of the ocean outside and the occasional creak of wood settled into the quiet. Somewhere under a heap of Jakeâs Navy hoodie and your half-zipped duffle bag was your phone, buzzing silently with texts from the squad. You ignored it. There was no flight today. No emergency debrief. No Hell Day looming. Just a soft morning, sunlit and slow, wrapped in sweat and afterglow and the scent of his skin.
You hadnât told anyone. Not officially. Not even the squad, which was a miracle in itself considering Payback couldnât keep a secret to save his life and Fanboy was nosier than a Sunday tabloid. It wasnât shame. It was protectionâof rank, of respect, of careers neither of you could afford to gamble. You were the higher rank. You knew what people would say. And Jake, for all his reckless charm, hadnât argued once. When you explained itâhalting, carefulâheâd just nodded, cupped your jaw in his hand, and said, âThen we wait. For as long as you need.â
Still... you had your suspicions. Jinx side-eyed you more than usual. Ruin had made one too many jokes about pilots suddenly âgrowing up overnight.â Maverick? Well, Maverick just watched you both like he knew every damn thing and was waiting for you to admit it. But they never said a word. Because youâd earned your place. Because Jake had changed. Because your glare could still cut glass when you wanted it to.
Then Jake stirred behind you with a low, sleepy groan, voice thick with dreams. âYouâre thinkinâ too loud again, sunshine.â
You smiled into the pillow before you could stop yourself. âAm not.â
âAre too,â he murmured, pressing a soft kiss between your shoulder blades, his voice barely a breath.
And for a moment, the world outside your bedroom faded. All the years and wounds and mistakes blurred into the kind of peace you never thought either of you could deserve.
âSo⌠about last night,â he drawled, voice husky with sleep and something thicker.
You rolled your eyes, but you could already feel the warmth creeping up your cheeks. âDonât start,â you warned, your voice barely above a murmur. âIâm still recovering.â
Jake chuckled, low and smooth. âRecovering? Sugar, I was the one who couldnât feel his legs for a solid ten minutes.â
You shoved him lightly, and he grabbed your hand before you could pull away. His thumb brushed across your knuckles, slow and reverent. âYou know I mean it, right?â he said. âThis⌠you. Me. All of this.â
Something in your chest softened, melting like sugar over heat. He wasnât just joking anymore. There was that quiet, tender honesty againâthe one he didnât always wear so openly, but never faked when it showed up.
You leaned in, pressing your forehead to his, closing your eyes against the weight of it all. âI know,â you whispered. âAnd I do too.â
âYou should be sore,â Jake murmured, voice thick with sleep and sin, his palm already sliding between your thighs like he owned the space there. âBecause last night? I didnât just fuck youâI ruined you.â
You let out a breathless laugh, but it hitched halfway, because his fingers were already brushing over your foldsâwet, swollen, aching from how hard youâd come hours ago and already greedy for more. âYou sound pretty cocky for someone who begged me to let you come,â you shot back, lips curved in lazy defiance.
He grinned, slow and wolfish, and leaned in, pressing a kiss to your neck, just below your ear. âDamn right I begged. You make me pathetic,â he whispered, voice a rasp, fingers circling your clit like he was playing a song only you got to hear. âYou make me lose every last bit of control.â
Your body arched, hips tilting up to meet his touch. God, he was barely doing anything and you were already soaking his fingers. It wasnât fair. He knew exactly how to take you apartâwhat made you whimper, what made you scream. And the worst part? He loved knowing it. Loved watching you fall apart because of him.
âJake,â you whispered, already breathless.
He kissed down your chest, lips wet and hungry, until his mouth closed over your nipple and you gasped. He sucked hard, biting just enough to make you jolt. Then he pulled off with a pop and looked up at you, pupils blown wide, sweat already beading at his temples.
âSpread your legs for me.â
You didnât even hesitate. The second you did, he shifted down and dragged his tongue up your center in one slow, devastating stroke.
âOh my Godââ
âNot God,â he growled, voice muffled against your cunt. âJust me. And youâre gonna pray to me anyway.â
He devoured youâno finesse, no teasing, just filthy, open-mouthed hunger. His tongue circled your clit, then flicked it quick and merciless while two fingers slid inside you, curling, pumping, coaxing you toward that edge with ruthless precision. You were already shaking, already crying out his name like a chant.
âFuck, Jakeâfuckââ
âThatâs it,â he groaned, lifting his head just enough to speak while his fingers stayed buried deep. âLet me hear it. Let the neighbors fucking know who owns this pussy.â
Your orgasm hit hardâviolent, shaking, stars behind your eyes. You came with a broken scream, thighs clamping around his head, and he moaned like he loved it. Because he did. He lived for it.
He slid up your body, mouth shiny, beard slick with you, and kissed you like a man deranged.
âTaste that?â he rasped. âThatâs mine.â
You were still trembling when he flipped you over, dragged your hips up, and shoved his cock in with one brutal thrust that made your mouth fall open. No teasing. No easing in. Just Jake, raw and ready and filthy.
He fucked you from behind, one hand twisted in your hair, the other gripping your hip so hard youâd have bruises for days. His thrusts were fast, deep, punishingâlike he was trying to ruin you all over again. And God, he was.
âSay it,â he growled, snapping his hips so deep you sobbed. âSay youâre mine.â
âIâm yours,â you cried, voice high and desperate.
âLouder.â
âIâm yours, JakeâfuckâIâm yours!â
He bent over your back, mouth pressed to your neck. âYouâre gonna come on my cock again. Gonna feel me so deep, you wonât be able to sit without thinking of me.â He reached around and rubbed your clit hard, fast, relentless. âCome for me, baby. I want to feel you milk me.â
You shattered againâbody locking, cunt spasming around him, and Jake cursed as he came too, loud and guttural, hips jerking, spilling into you like he needed to mark you from the inside out.
The only sound left in the room was the ragged panting of two people who had just seen Godâand decided He wasnât enough.
He collapsed next to you, chest rising and falling fast, pulling you against him with shaking arms.
âI shouldâve fucked you like that years ago,â he muttered, voice wrecked.
You laughed, dazed and warm and still pulsing with aftershocks. âWouldâve saved us a lot of bullshit.â
He grinned. âYeah, but then I wouldnât get to earn you like this.â
The shower was scalding, steam curling into the air like smoke off a battlefield. Your body was still buzzing, thighs aching, skin raw from the way heâd taken youâtwice, maybe three times if you counted what he did with his mouth before that last round.
And yet, here you were. Back against the cool tile, water running down your shoulders, your legs wrapped around Jakeâs waist like you hadnât just come undone minutes ago.
His mouth was on your neck, your jaw, your collarboneâbiting now, not kissing, like he was trying to leave proof you were his. âFuckinâ canât get enough of you,â he growled, hands gripping your ass like he was holding on for dear life. âI just had you and I still want more. What the hell did you do to me?â
You whimpered, grinding against him, feeling how hard he already was again. âMaybe I wrecked you.â
He looked upâwild, flushed, pupils blown to hellâand grinned. âYou did. And now I get to return the favor.â
He slid in with one brutal thrust, and the sound you made was damn near filthyâa broken, strangled gasp that bounced off the tile. You were still so sensitive, still stretched from before, and he knew it. He could feel every twitch, every pulse of your walls clenching around him.
âJesus, baby,â he hissed, forehead pressed against yours, hips grinding slow and deep. âYouâre so tight like this. So fuckinâ wetââ
âItâs the shower,â you managed, but your voice cracked halfway through.
âNo,â he snapped, slamming into you again, making your head hit the wall. âThatâs me. Thatâs your body needing mine.â
And fuck, he wasnât wrong.
He rocked into you like he was trying to break something openâslow, punishing thrusts that had you shaking, water and sweat mixing down your back. One hand held you up, the other slid between you to rub tight, hard circles on your clit.
âJakeâfuckâI canâtââ
âYes, you can,â he rasped, biting your bottom lip between his teeth. âYouâre gonna come again. Right here. On my cock. Against this wall. Let it drip down my thighs. Let me feel it.â
You were already so close. Every thrust dragged across every nerve ending. Every grind of his fingers sent sparks up your spine.
âDo it,â he demanded. âCome on. Give it to me.â
And when you cameâagainâyour whole body snapped. Your back arched. Your legs trembled. You screamed into his mouth and clenched around him so tight it nearly broke him.
He followed instantly, hips jerking, spilling into you with a groan that echoed like a thunderclap in the wet heat of the shower. His whole body went tense, then slack, and he buried his face in your neck, panting like heâd just flown a Mach 10 mission and barely survived.
For a while, the only sounds were the water, your ragged breathing, and the distant hum of reality returning.
Then Jake leaned back, looking at you with a cocky little smirk and wrecked, reverent eyes.
âRound three?â he asked, like a fool.
You laughed, legs still trembling. âLet me stand first, you absolute menace.â
He grinned, kissed your forehead, and whispered, âIâll hold you up, baby. Always.â
You didnât even make it out of the bathroom.
He was still toweling off, chest flushed, abs glistening, hair dripping into his eyesâJake in his final formâwhen you turned, yanked the towel from his hips, and shoved him down onto the counter like he was the plaything now.
He blinked, stunned and stupidly turned on. âBabyââ
âShut up.â
Your voice was low. Commanding. Dripping with authority that had his cock twitching back to life in seconds. You climbed into his lap like it was your throne, dragging your fingers up his chest, watching the way his breath hitched under your touch. His hands flew to your hips, ready to grip, control, guideâ
âTouch me and you donât get to come.â
His hands froze. Just like that.
His eyes met yoursâwide, glassy, pupils blown so far there was no green left. Just hunger. Just desperation.
You lined him up and sank down slowly, painfully slow, inch by inch, keeping your eyes locked on his the whole time. Watching him break. Watching the cocky fighter pilot beg with his eyes. His head fell back, jaw clenched so hard it looked like it hurt.
âJesus fucking Christââ
âNope,â you said, grinding your hips in slow, torturous circles once he was buried deep. âJust me. And Iâm going to ride you âtil you forget your own name.â
He choked on a moan, hands twitching at his sides like they were dying to grab, anchor, survive. You started to moveâhips rolling, slow at first, deliberate. Your pace was lethal. Pure torment. Every drop of you squeezed around him like a vice and he was losing it.
âPleaseâplease, Rogueâlet me touchââ
You leaned in, lips brushing his ear, voice a venomous purr. âDidnât I just warn you?â
Then you started to fuck him. No rhythm, no mercy. Just frantic, reckless movement, skin slapping, breath shattering. His head fell forward, mouth open, and you could feel how close he was. His thighs were trembling under yours, stomach tight, every muscle locked down.
âYou like being used like this?â you whispered, hand wrapping around his throatânot tight, but enough to own him. âLike being just a cock for me to ride?â
His groan was feral, strangled. âFuck, yes. Anything you want. Anythingââ
You moved faster. Harder. Your nails dug into his chest, your breath ragged, your thighs burning. And he watched you, wide-eyed and reverent, like he was witnessing a goddess losing her mind in the sky.
When you came, it hit like a bomb. You cried out, body locking, nails raking down his chest. And when you leaned forward, mouth crushed to his, letting him feel the quake of you unravelingâthen you whispered, âNow you can come.â
And fuck, did he obey.
Jake let out a growl so deep it shook his chest against yours, then snapped, hips jerking up into you as he spilled inside, trembling, breathless, completely and utterly wrecked.
You stayed there, on him, around him, both of you panting, shivering, sweaty. His hands finally found your thighs, holding you like you were all that kept him grounded.
âHoly shit,â he whispered.
You smirked, dragging your fingers down his cheek, then tugging his face up so he met your gaze again.
âYou still cocky, flyboy?â
He looked at youâfucked-out, flushed, breathlessâand whispered, âMarry me.â
âShut up.â
You were barely off his lap when he grabbed youâone arm around your waist, the other under your thighsâand walked you back toward the bed like you weighed nothing. His cock was still hard, already twitching back to life, slick with your release and his own, and you knew the second your back hit the mattressâ
He wasnât done.
He hovered over you, jaw clenched, eyes blown black. Not cocky. Not smirking. Just obsessed.
âI need it,â he rasped, voice ruined. âNeed to feel you come around me again. Need to get deeper. Need to fucking breed you.â
Your breath caught. Everything inside you clenchedâbecause fuck, the way he said it? Like he meant it? Like it wasnât just some filthy talk but a mission statement?
âJakeââ you breathed, already squirming, already soaked again.
He gripped your thighs, pushed them back, wide and open and helpless, and growled, âYouâre gonna take every drop. Gonna let me fuck you full and keep it in.â
Then he slammed into you in one brutal stroke.
You screamedâhigh and wreckedâas your body arched, already raw and sore and overstimulated. And he just groaned, deep in his chest, like your tight, used heat was all heâd ever wanted.
âThatâs it,â he grunted, thrusting hard, fast, balls slapping against you with wet, obscene sounds. âThatâs my girl. So fuckinâ perfect. So ready for me. Your pussy wants it, doesnât it?â
You nodded frantically, gasping. âYesâyes, pleaseâfill meââ
âOh, I will,â he growled, slamming into you harder. âGonna put a baby in you. Gonna fuck you so deep your body has to take me.â
He grabbed your jaw, forced your eyes to his. âSay it.â
âPut a baby in me,â you cried, wrecked. âBreed me, Jake. Fill me up.â
That broke him.
He lost all rhythm, hips pounding into you like a man deranged, sweat dripping, hair stuck to his forehead. He grabbed your hips and forced you down on him with each thrust, chasing that final high, that last act of claiming.
âTake it,â he snarled. âTake it like my good fuckinâ girl. My wife. The only one Iâll ever breed.â
You came hard, body locking up, a scream tearing from your throat as you clenched around him like a vice.
And then Jake snappedâhips jerking once, twiceâand he came with a guttural moan, pouring into you, hot and endless, thick ropes spilling so deep you swore you could feel it in your chest. He kept moving, slower now, grinding it in with each lazy thrust, like he was trying to make sure not a drop got wasted.
When he finally collapsed, body pressed to yours, both of you drenched in sweat and panting like youâd just run through hell and back, he didnât pull out.
No. He stayed inside.
âNot done,â he whispered, lips pressed to your throat. âGotta keep it in. Gotta make sure it takes.â
You laughedâbroken and breathless. âYou trying to give me twins now?â
He chuckled, still inside you, still rock hard. âIâll give you a squadron if thatâs what you want, baby.â
And the worst part?
You almost wanted him to.
You didnât even realize youâd fallen asleepâstill full, still warm, still claimedâuntil his mouth brushed over your lower stomach.
Soft. Reverent. Filthy.
âThink youâre holding onto me already,â he murmured, voice wrecked and raw, lips ghosting over the curve just below your belly button. âThink your bodyâs already makinâ a home for it.â
You whimpered, barely able to lift your head, thighs still slick and shaking. âJake⌠I canâtââ
âYes, you can,â he whispered. He was between your legs again before you could breathe, dragging your legs open slowly, carefully, tenderlyâlike you were breakable now. âYou will. Just one more. Let me love you like this. Let me seal it in.â
You shivered. Because holy hell, you were ruined and overstimulated and achingâand you wanted it anyway. Wanted him.
He didnât slam into you this time. No, this time he pushed in slow, inch by aching inch, watching your face like a man watching the sunrise after war.
You gaspedâso full, too fullâbut he stilled the moment he bottomed out, letting you feel the stretch, the heat, the intimacy of it.
âThatâs it,â he breathed, forehead pressed to yours. âJust feel me, baby. Let me stay in you. Let me fill you again. I need to.â
And he movedâslow, deep thrusts that had you keening, trembling, tears springing in your eyes because it was too much and not enough all at once.
âFuck, youâre still so tight,â he groaned, kissing the tears from your cheeks. âYou were made for this. Made to take me. Made to be mine.â
His hand slid between your bodies, rubbing tight circles over your clit again, and your whole body buckedâpleasure sharp, unbearable, blissful.
âJake, Iâ I canâtâpleaseââ
âYes, you can. Just one more, sweetheart,â he whispered, mouth at your throat. âCome for me. Milk my cock. Take all of it. I wanna fuck it in so deep youâll still be leaking when you walk tomorrow.â
You shattered. Screamed. Clawed at his back like it was the only thing keeping you grounded. Your orgasm tore through you like fireâhot and electric and endless.
And Jake? He followedâgroaning your name, pressing so deep into you you swore he touched your fucking soul, spilling into you again, harder this time, longer, like his body was trying to carve a legacy inside you.
When he finally collapsed, still inside, still hard, he wrapped his arms around you like he never wanted to let go.
âI hope it sticks,â he whispered, one hand cradling your lower belly, the other stroking your thigh. âI want everyone to see you swollen with me. I want the world to know youâre mine.â
You were too gone to answerâjust clung to him with everything you had left.
But in your chest?
You were already hoping it stuck too.
The sun had risen higher than youâd expected. Its golden light spilled lazily through the open window, warming the tangled sheets and the well-wrecked bed you still lay in. You blinked at the clock sluggishly, brain swimming in post-orgasm haze, only to see the glowing red numbers: 9:03 AM. Your heart jumped in mild panic as your eyes widened. âShit,â you rasped, voice still hoarse from sleepâor more accurately, from the downright sinful things Jake Seresin had done to you just hours ago. âIâm late for work.â
Before you could fully bolt upright, a warm hand pressed lightly to your stomach, keeping you anchored to the mattress. âRelax,â Jake murmured beside you, voice rough with sleep and still laced with that smugness that always meant he was hiding something. âI already called Jinx. Told him youâre not feeling well.â
You blinked again, disoriented. âYouâwhat?â
He grinned, sleepy and cocky, propped up on one elbow, his other hand lazily smoothing over your waist beneath the oversized shirt he had put on you sometime after round three or fourâwhen youâd passed out cold and he, the menace, had tucked you into bed like you werenât the same woman whoâd ridden him raw against a bathroom mirror. His boxers hung low on your hips, loose and warm and entirely his. âSaid you woke up with a fever,â he added. âAnd youâre showing...symptoms.â
You scoffed, pressing a hand to your forehead dramatically. âOh? And what symptoms would those be?â
Jake leaned in close, voice barely a whisper as he brushed a kiss to your jaw. âSoreness. Fatigue. Uncontrollable trembling in the legs.â His hand squeezed your thigh pointedly. âClassic post-Seresin syndrome.â
You groaned, flopping back against the pillow. âTheyâre going to know, Jake. Jinx is not stupid.â
âLet them know,â he replied with a shrug and a wicked smile. âI also called Maverick. Told him it was an emergency.â
Your head shot up. âJakeâwhat kind of emergency?!â
âThe kind that involves a bed, a lot of sweat, and you screaming my name,â he said without missing a beat.
You smacked his arm with a pillow, laughing despite yourself, cheeks already heating from embarrassment. âYouâre gonna get me killed.â
âNah,â he drawled, pulling you closer and kissing your cheek. âTheyâll just be jealous.â
Then, as the laughter started to die down, the room softened. Jake reached for his phone, scrolling through a playlist before one quiet, scratchy old tune began to play from the speakerâsome 60s ballad that your dad probably danced to with your mom in the kitchen when they were young. You arched a brow. âReally? Youâre playing this right now?â
Jake stood and offered you a hand, completely unbothered by the fact that you were both half-dressed and still radiating sex like the whole damn house couldnât tell. âDance with me,â he said simply, like it was the most normal thing to do at 9 a.m. on a Wednesday after being thoroughly fucked into the mattress.
âIâm not dancing with morning breath,â you said, sliding out from the covers on shaky legs. âGive me thirty seconds before you start pretending weâre in a rom-com.â
Meanwhile, Jake just watched you with soft, fond eyes as you disappeared into the bathroom. He didnât need the music or the sunlight or the moment to feel perfectâbut hell, they didnât hurt.
You returned a few minutes later, face washed, teeth brushed, hair loosely tied back. His shirt was still hanging off your frame, sleeves too long, collar wide and falling over your shoulder. He was already waiting in the middle of the room, hand extended again, expression gentle nowâno smirk, no teasing. Just him. Just Jake.
And this time, you took it.
His hand closed around yours, warm and sure, pulling you gently into him like gravity had nothing on the way your bodies naturally fit together. You rolled your eyes a little as the soft croon of the old song filled the roomâsomething wistful and full of crackling vinyl charm, the kind of music old souls kept hidden away for rainy days and love-drunk mornings.
Jake pressed a kiss to your temple and swayed with you slowly, guiding your hands to his shoulders while his rested at your waist, fingers splayed just beneath the hem of his shirt. The motion was simple, lazy, just a soft back-and-forth like neither of you had anywhere to beâand you didnât, not today. Because heâd made damn sure of that.
âYouâre ridiculous,â you mumbled, though you made no move to step away. You even rested your head against his chest, letting his steady heartbeat lull you deeper into the haze.
âAnd yet youâre still dancing with me,â he murmured, spinning you a half-step before pulling you back in close, chest to chest, nose brushing yours. âMust mean Iâm doing something right.â
You sighed, pretending to be exasperated, even though your lips were already curving into a smile. âThe bar is so low, Jake.â
âGood,â he smirked, dipping his head so his mouth hovered near your ear. âMeans I can clear it without spilling you.â
You snorted, but didnât protest when he tightened his arms around you and rocked you gently, rhythm matching the slow tempo of the song. Then, in a moment that caught you off guard, his voice dropped even softer.
âI could dance with you like this forever, you know.â
That made your breath hitchânot because it was cheesy, but because he meant it. He always meant it when he got like thisâwhen the cocky smirk faded and that rare, unguarded honesty bled through. You lifted your head to look at him, to meet those sea-green eyes full of everything he couldnât say out loud in a crowd, but always told you when the world was still and the room was quiet.
âIâd let you,â you whispered, fingers curling at the nape of his neck. âEven if itâs to music like this.â
Jake chuckled, twirling you lazily before pulling you back into his arms again, your bare legs brushing his as you swayed. âDonât act like youâre not secretly into it.â
âI am not,â you said with faux offense.
âSure,â he said, lowering his mouth to yours. âThatâs why your hips are moving like youâre in a black-and-white movie and Iâm about to carry you off to war.â
You kissed him before he could say anything elseâjust a soft press of lips, slow and sweet and so wildly at odds with the way heâd wrecked you hours ago. Then you buried your face in his chest again, letting the song wrap around you both like a second blanket.
And in that little cocoon of music and stolen time, nothing else mattered.
Not Maverick. Not Jinx. Not Ruin. Not the Dagge Squad. Not the world outside those walls.
Just him, and you. And the music between your breaths.
The song faded into silence, leaving only the soft hum of the morning and the lazy beat of Jakeâs heart beneath your ear. He didnât move right awayâjust held you like he was trying to memorize the exact way you fit against him, the smell of your hair, the quiet way you sighed when you felt safe.
Then, without warning, his arms tightened around your thighs and lifted you clean off the ground.
You squeaked in surprise, arms flying around his neck. âJake!â
He grinned, cocky and unbothered, carrying you like it was nothing. âWhat? You danced. You earned breakfast delivery.â
âI can walkââ
âI know you can. I just donât want you to,â he said smugly, brushing a kiss to your cheek as he padded barefoot toward the kitchen, both of you still dressed in barely-there remnants of last nightâs chaos. His shirt on you, his boxers barely clinging to your hips, and his scent absolutely everywhere.
When you entered the kitchen, the smell hit firstâeggs, bacon, toasted sourdough, and the lingering whisper of coffee.
âWait,â you blinked. âYou cooked?â
Jake set you gently on the counter, your legs dangling as he turned back to the stove and grabbed a plate. âYeah, Iâm a man of many talents. Fighter pilot by day, domestic god by morning-after.â
âYou cooked before or after you wrecked me into a coma?â
âLittle of both,â he said over his shoulder, plating eggs with a precision that was honestly terrifying. âHad the bacon going before round two. Turned it off. Turned you on. Multitasking.â
You stared, vaguely scandalized. âYou timed our sex between flipping bacon?â
Jake looked over, eyes glinting. âWell, not intentionally, but if weâre giving out awardsâŚâ
You rolled your eyes but couldnât stop the grin creeping across your face. âUnreal. Youâre unreal.â
He handed you the plate, then picked up a second for himself and leaned against the counter beside you, bumping his shoulder into yours. âEat up. Gotta rebuild your strength.â
You gave him a flat look. âJake.â
âBaby, Iâm just saying... youâre gonna need it. Weâre not leaving this house today.â
Your stomach flipped, and not just from the scent of breakfast.
Meanwhile, the coffee maker burbled behind you, sunlight pouring in through the window like the universe was in on the jokeâlike it knew the two of you were wrapped in something bigger than just heat and hunger.
Something softer.
Something permanent.
You took a bite, and he watched you, eyes lingering on your lips like he hadnât just kissed the life out of you three times over. And as the music shifted to another slow tune in the background, he reached out again, brushing your thigh with the back of his fingers.
âAfter breakfast,â he said, voice low, âyouâre mine again.â
And you believed him.
Because you always were.
After breakfast and a bit of lingeringâokay, a lot of lingering, with Jake nibbling kisses along your shoulder every time you tried to put your plate in the sinkâyou finally managed to peel yourself away and head for the bathroom to shower properly. You shut the door behind you with a firm but playful âStay out, Seresin,â and heard him let out the most dramatic groan from the hallway, like youâd just exiled him from paradise. Which, honestly, you kind of had.
By the time you stepped out, hair still damp, fresh-faced and finally wearing real clothes instead of his shirt and boxers, Jake was sprawled on the bed like a man in mourning. One arm tossed over his eyes, the other resting across his bare chest like he was waiting for someone to come and play a sad country song over his broken heart. He lifted his head the moment he heard your footsteps.
âYou dressed?â he asked, voice a mix of genuine betrayal and outrage. âYou got out of the shower and got fully dressed without calling me back in?â
You glanced down at your jeans and tank top, drying your hair with a towel. âYes, because unlike you, I have errands to run. We need milk. Also vegetables. We canât survive on bacon and orgasms.â
Jake let out an actual whine, sitting up on the bed and reaching for you like youâd just announced you were enlisting for war. âBut why do you have to go? We were having such a nice time. Thereâs eggs. We have leftovers. Iâll cook again. Iâll make pancakes. You like pancakes.â
You raised an eyebrow as you tugged on your shoes. âPancakes arenât gonna keep us alive when we run out of coffee and toilet paper, Jake.â
He stared at you for a second, then dramatically stood up, completely naked and unbothered by it. âTake me with you.â
âNo.â
His jaw dropped. âWhat do you mean no?â
âI mean, youâve ruined my entire body. My legs still feel like jello. Iâm going to do the one normal thing today that doesnât involve being pinned against a surface, thank you very much.â
Meanwhile, he crossed the room like a puppy denied his favorite toy, trailing behind you as you grabbed your keys and shopping list. âPlease let me come,â he said, voice pitiful. âIâll carry the bags. Iâll push the cart. Hell, Iâll even use the self-checkout without complaining.â
You turned around, arms crossed. âJake. You donât even like grocery stores.â
âBut I like you in grocery stores,â he insisted, eyes wide with devotion and desperation. âYou get this little furrow between your brows when youâre deciding between two brands of pasta sauce and itâs the cutest thing Iâve ever seen. I need to witness that again.â
You tried not to smile, but your lips were already twitching.
âIâll behave,â he added, now clutching his chest like youâd mortally wounded him. âI wonât even make a scene when you ban me from the snack aisle again. Scoutâs honor.â
âJake, you werenât a scout.â
âFine, but I am a fool. For you. Let me come, babe. Iâll wear a shirt. Iâll even brush my hair.â
You laughed, shaking your head as you grabbed your tote bag. âI donât know what spell I put on you, Seresin, but itâs clearly too strong.â
Then, while you werenât looking, he grabbed a shirt off the floor and began putting it on with the speed of a man trying to make a plane.
Jake, did, in fact, not behave.
It began well enoughâhe held the basket like a gentleman, followed you through the produce aisle without once trying to juggle the apples, and even nodded seriously when you debated the merits of frozen versus fresh spinach. For a brief, shining moment, you thought maybeâmaybeâhe would actually make it through one single errand without devolving into chaos incarnate.
That illusion shattered somewhere near aisle five.
You had turned to check the grocery listâhalf-distracted by the absurd number of brands under the âalmond milkâ labelâwhen Jakeâs voice echoed out like a proud child: âBabe. Look what I got.â He was grinning like heâd just won the lottery, holding up the very last box of your favorite double-chocolate cookies, the ones that were almost always sold out.
Except you were pretty sure those hadnât been on the shelf a second ago.
You narrowed your eyes. âWhereâd you get that?â
He tried to look innocent, which only made him look more guilty. âIt was just... there. On the edge of the display.â
Suspicious, you glanced past himâand thatâs when you saw the child. Maybe seven or eight years old, standing just down the aisle, eyes wide and watery, lower lip trembling in real-time horror. His small hands were still frozen in the air, like heâd just reached for something that wasnât there anymore.
âOh my God, Jake,â you hissed, smacking his arm. âTell me you didnât just steal cookies from a child.â
Jake looked between the boy, the box in his hands, and you. Then he leaned closer, voice hushed and defensive. âOkay, first of all, he was taking too long. It was like a three-second window and he wasnât committed. I was.â
âGive them back!â you whisper-shouted.
But Jake was already stepping back, holding the box over his head like it was the golden idol in a temple full of booby traps. âItâs the last one,â he said, the tiniest, most chaotic smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. âSurvival of the fittest.â
Then he stuck out his tongue at the kid.
You were horrified.
The childâs mouth started to wobble. His eyes brimmed with tears.
âJake, heâs going to cry!â
âRun!â Jake shouted, already grabbing your hand as he turned on his heel and sprinted down the aisle with you in tow.
You both darted past the paper towels and dish soap, breathless with shock and a little too much laughter, while Jake clutched the box of cookies like it was the Declaration of Independence. Shoppers turned their heads. One woman gasped. Another glared. But neither of you stopped until you rounded the corner and ducked into the cereal aisle, hiding like criminals.
Panting, you leaned against the shelf, trying to catch your breath. âYouâre insane. I cannot take you anywhere.â
Jake was grinning ear to ear, eyes sparkling with mischief. âYou canât leave me anywhere, either. Thatâs the real problem.â
Then he offered you the box with a dramatic little bow, like he was gifting you a national treasure. âFor my queen.â
You snatched it and smacked his arm again, trying not to laugh. âWeâre going to hell.â
âWe were already on the list,â he said, winking. âThis just bumped us up to first class.â
Once the cookie heist adrenaline wore off, you both returned to your regularly scheduled shoppingâalbeit with a few more giggles under your breath and the occasional glance over your shoulder, just in case the childâs parents were plotting revenge. Jake behaved for the next few aisles, which in his case meant only tossing two unauthorized bags of snacks into the basket and humming the Star Wars theme song under his breath while pushing the cart with entirely too much swagger.
And then you passed the baby section.
It was tucked into the corner, just past the seasonal displays, where pastel-colored onesies hung on little plastic hooks and tiny socks were bundled together like clouds. It wasnât even on your radarâuntil Jake suddenly stopped walking.
You glanced back and saw him frozen mid-step, basket in one hand, staring wide-eyed at a rack of baby clothes like it had just whispered state secrets to him. His face was lit with something ridiculousâwonder, mischief, and the kind of open awe that made your stomach twist.
âJake?â you called, cautiously.
He turned toward you, eyes still locked on the rack. âWe should get these.â
You blinked. âGet what?â
He was already moving, grabbing a tiny navy-blue onesie that said Daddyâs Co-Pilot in white lettering. Then he picked up anotherâthis one soft gray, with a little jet embroidered on the front and a patch that read Squad Goals.
âTheyâre on sale,â he said like that explained anything.
You squinted. âJake. We do not have a baby.â
âI know,â he said, not looking the least bit discouraged. âBut look at this one. Itâs got aviators printed on the butt. Thatâs hilarious. Câmon.â
You walked closer, lowering your voice. âYouâre seriously proposing we buy baby clothes just because theyâre cute and discounted?â
Jake looked at you then, really looked at you, that playful glint softening into something warm beneath his gaze. âNo,â he said, quieter now, thumb brushing along the edge of the fabric. âIâm saying... maybe we could use them someday. And in the meantime, Iâd like to imagine it.â
You opened your mouth to reply, but your heart had already jumped straight into your throat. Because for all the teasing and chaos and chaos-causing, Jake Seresin was standing there holding a onesie with a tiny fighter jet on it, looking at you like you were the missing piece in every future heâd ever imagined.
Then, before the moment could get too heavy, he held up the onesie again and added, âAlso, this one says My Daddy Flies Faster Than Your Daddy, and I kind of need it.â
You snorted, shaking your head as you pulled the cart forward. âYouâre out of your mind.â
âIâm in love,â he corrected, tossing the onesie into the basket like it belonged there. âLet me dream, babe.â
You rolled your eyes, but your fingers still brushed his gently when he caught up with youâand you didnât move away.
Not even when he reached into the basket again, pulled out the ridiculous jet-butt onesie, and held it up to his chest like he was already imagining matching flight suits.
You sighed, long and exaggerated, but it didnât hide the way your lips twitched when he started making plane noises under his breath and pretended to fly the onesie like it was on a carrier launch sequence. The man was a literal naval aviatorâa decorated, sharp-as-hell fighter pilotâand yet here he was, making vroom sounds with baby clothes in a grocery store like a five-year-old with a new toy. It shouldâve been absurd. It was absurd. But it was also Jake.
And Jake was impossible to stay mad at when he looked this damn happy.
âAlright, Hangman,â you muttered, tossing another onesie into the basketâone that said Future Wingman with little dog tags printed across the front. âWe buy three, and thatâs it. Weâre not starting a collection for someone who doesnât exist yet.â
He beamed at you, actually beamed, and for a second you forgot you were in the middle of a Target next to a display of car seats and pacifiers. His fingers curled gently around your wrist as you moved to push the cart forward again, grounding you in place.
âYouâd be a great mom,â he said suddenly, voice low, almost too serious for the moment.
You froze, blinking at him. âWhere the hell did that come from?â
He shrugged, but his gaze never left yours. âJust thinking. Watching you plan and make lists and drag me through produce aisles like itâs war prep. Youâre organized. Patient. And you didnât let me return the cookies after I emotionally traumatized a child.â
âYou literally stole from him,â you pointed out.
Jake smirked, unapologetic. âAll Iâm saying isâyou take care of people, even when theyâre ridiculous. Thatâs kind of your thing.â
You werenât sure what to say to that. Your hand tightened a little on the cart handle, the soft rustling of plastic packaging the only sound between you. And then, like he could sense the emotional weight tipping just a little too far, Jake bumped your hip with his and grinned. âAlso, Iâm like ninety percent sure if we ever do have a kid, theyâll come out with a pilot helmet and ask for clearance to taxi.â
You barked out a laugh, the tension breaking like sunlight through clouds. âTheyâll come out with attitude, thatâs for sure.â
âAnd perfect hair,â Jake added, flipping his own with dramatic flair.
You gave him a look. âI will personally shave your head if that attitude passes down.â
âWorth it,â he said, sliding his arm around your waist as the two of you finally made your way to the checkout line. âTotally worth it.â
Meanwhile, a passing elderly couple gave the two of you a smileâthe kind reserved for people who look like theyâve figured it out, like theyâre just starting something real and donât even know it yet. Jake nodded politely, but once they passed, he leaned in close to your ear.
âWeâre buying matching flight suits for Halloween next year. Itâs not a suggestion.â
You laughed, shaking your head as the cashier started scanning. He was chaos, he was relentless, and he was yoursâGod help the world when that baby ever did exist. Because if Jake Seresin had anything to do with it, the poor kid would be flying paper airplanes before they could walk.
The sun was warm on your skin as you stepped out of the grocery store, bags in hand and the gentle hum of a perfect morning settling between you. Jake, of course, had insisted on carrying everythingâeven the lighter bags you clearly couldâve handled yourselfâbut he strutted down the sidewalk with all the pride of a man protecting national treasures. You didnât argue. You just adjusted your sunglasses and strolled beside him, listening to the paper rustle with every step.
You passed a few little storefronts as you headed toward the carâbakeries with hand-lettered signs, a florist already putting out midday bouquets, and a vintage record shop that immediately caught Jakeâs eye before you tugged his sleeve and pointed to a tiny bookstore tucked between a cafĂŠ and a candle shop. The display was charmingly crooked, with a chalkboard sign out front that read Half Off Paperbacks, Full Price Escapes.
You gave his sleeve another playful tug. âCome on, weâre going in.â
But Jake had stopped walking.
His head had whipped to the left like heâd just seen something he wasnât supposed to, body going a little stiff. His grip on the bags shifted, like he was about to boltâor do something deeply suspicious.
You narrowed your eyes. âWhat?â
He glanced back at you, far too casual for someone acting so obviously not casual. âHey, babe, go on ahead. Iâll be back in a sec.â
You blinked. âWhere are you going?â
Jake hesitated. âJust, uh... there was a... navy buddy I think I saw across the street.â He pointed vaguely in the opposite direction, nowhere near the traffic lights or crosswalks. âJust wanna say hi real quick.â
âYou wanna cross four lanes of traffic to maybe say hi to someone who might not be your friend?â
He nodded, grinning with that innocent who-me? expression that never fooled you. âExactly. Wonât be long.â
You stared at him, unblinking. âYouâre lying.â
âIâm not.â
âYou are.â
He raised his hand like he was taking an oath. âScoutâs honor.â
âYou werenât a scout, Seresin.â
He winced. âRight. Forgot you remembered that.â
Still, you let him go. You rolled your eyes and shoved the bookstore door open, muttering under your breath about chaotic pilots with secrets and terrible excuses. A little bell rang as you entered, and the familiar, dusty smell of old pages and quiet corners wrapped around you like a soft blanket.
You wandered between the shelves aimlessly at first, fingers trailing the worn spines, until you hit the graphic novel sectionâand there it was, practically glowing on the middle shelf.
A Star Wars comic.
Not just any issue, but the one Jake had been whining about for a weekâthe continuation of the arc heâd blazed through at 2 a.m. with a bowl of cereal in hand and zero patience for cliffhangers. Youâd told him to go buy it himself. He hadnât. Typical.
You pulled it from the shelf, flipping through the glossy pages, already imagining his smug little smile when you handed it to him. For all his cockiness and chaos, Jake Seresin had the attention span of a golden retriever with too many toys and not enough time. He would absolutely devour this one by sundown.
You brought it to the register, paid in cash, and tucked it into one of your grocery bags, smiling to yourself as you stepped back outside.
But Jake wasnât waiting where you left him.
He was across the street, looking shifty as hell, standing near one of those boutique jewelry stalls that sprouted like wildflowers in this part of town.
Your brows lifted.
What the hell was he up to?
You barely had time to process the scene before Jake noticed you watching him. His head jerked up from the stallâeyes wide, like a kid caught red-handed in the cookie jar for the second time in one dayâthen he grinned, bright and crooked, and took off into a full jog across the street.
âNo running!â the vendor called after him, waving a paper bag, but Jake just offered a sheepish salute and sprinted toward you like the sidewalk was a runway and you were the touchdown point.
You crossed your arms, trying to look unimpressed, but the sight of him bounding toward youâwith the wind tousling his hair, grocery bags swinging in one hand, and something clutched carefully in the otherâmade your chest tighten in that familiar, dangerous way.
He stopped just short of you, slightly breathless but beaming, and held something out between you.
A bouquet.
Not just any bouquetâwhite lilies. Your favorite. The petals still held traces of dew, edges soft and glowing in the sunlight, and Jakeâs hand trembled ever so slightly as he offered them like they were the most sacred thing he could give.
âFor you,â he said, a little bashful now, that confidence softening into something boyish and warm. âI saw them and... I dunno. Thought they looked like you.â
You blinked. âLike me?â
He scratched the back of his neck, still holding the bouquet toward you like he wasnât sure if youâd take it. âYeah. Kinda impossible to miss, kinda... I dunno. Bright. Clean. Right.â His voice dipped a little, the words less rehearsed now, more raw. âDidnât wanna leave without them.â
Your hands reached out on instinct, wrapping around the stems. They were cool against your skin, firm and freshly cut, and your fingers brushed his when you took them. âJake...â
âI know,â he said quickly, trying to downplay it even as his ears turned pink. âItâs corny. I just... wanted to get you something. Something real.â
Meanwhile, your heart was trying to beat out of your chest, wild and sure all at once. You stared at him, this ridiculous man who stole cookies from children, flew jets for a living, made plane noises with baby clothes, and now stood in front of youânervous, hopeful, and holding lilies like they were some kind of vow.
So, you leaned forward and kissed himâsoft and slow and right there on the sidewalk, lips pressed to his like youâd waited your whole life for this exact moment. And maybe you had.
Then, when you pulled back, you smiled and said, âYouâre lucky I like flowers. And bad liars.â
Jake grinned, exhaling like youâd just let him breathe again.
âIâm lucky you like me,â he said, brushing a stray hair from your face. âEven when Iâm the worst.â
âAnd the loudest,â you added.
âAnd the hottest,â he said shamelessly.
You rolled your eyes and laughed, looping your arm through his as you started walking again, grocery bags and lilies in tow, the comic still tucked safely inside like a secret surprise.
The sharp clack of your boots echoed through the halls of North Island as you moved with the practiced confidence that only came from years of doing this job and doing it damn well. The sun outside was already brutal, casting heat across the tarmac, but inside the debriefing room, the air was cool and sharp with tension. The Dagger Squad had assembled earlyâsome perched on the edge of their chairs, others leaning back like they didnât have a care in the worldâbut all eyes turned the moment you walked in.
You wore the uniform like it was etched into your skin, every patch earned, every rank commanding respect without needing to say a word. Behind you, Ruin and Jinx followed, their expressions unreadable save for the way they both slid a very knowing glance in your direction. You met them with a hard stare, unflinching. Jinx smirked and Ruin arched a brow, but neither said a word. Wise. You didnât have the energy for their commentaryânot after yesterdayâs chaos, and definitely not with Jake sitting two rows back, looking at you like youâd hung the stars and wrote the manual on gravity.
Which, to be fair, you sort of had.
You moved to the front of the room, clearing your throat once. The chatter died instantly.
âDagger Squad,â you began, voice sharp and clear, âas of last month, your status as a provisional unit has officially ended. You are now a fully recognized elite squadron under North Islandâs command structure.â
There were a few exchanged glances, a low whistle from Payback, and an unmistakable fist-pump from Fanboy. You kept your expression flat, but your eyes flicked toward Jakeâwho was, unsurprisingly, not paying attention to the details. His chin was resting on his hand, eyes fixed on you with that same ridiculous, love-struck awe he always tried to hide but never succeeded in doing.
You ignored him and continued.
âSix months ago, we launched the Gauntlet. A multi-phase crucible to evaluate this squadâs operational effectiveness. Each of you was pushed to your limitâphysically, mentally, tactically. Not just to see how well you fly, but how well you adapt when everything goes wrong.â
Your gaze swept the room. There were no green pilots in here. Every single person had earned their seatâsome with blood, some with bruises, and all with absolute grit.
âFuel-starvation, altitude suppression, no-comm blackout tactics. Every element of the Gauntlet was designed to find your pressure points. And for four more months after that, we watched. We observed. We threw you into unannounced drills, paired you with different command chains, monitored your formation cohesion, and tracked every recovery you made under stress.â
Behind you, Jinx crossed his arms and Ruin gave a quiet nod. Theyâd been there for all of itâyour wingmen not just in the sky, but in the planning room, in the briefings, in the chaos. The three of you had built the test together. Survived it together. And now, the countdown had begun.
âIn another four months,â you said, steady, âthe three of us rotate out of North Island. New command will take over, and youâll be on your own.â
The reaction was immediateâa ripple of disbelief, frustration, and disappointment threading through the squad. Bob sat a little straighter, like maybe he misheard. Phoenix's brow furrowed. Even Hangman looked rattled, though he schooled it fast.
âMake no mistake,â you said, firm, âthis isnât a punishment. Youâve graduated. Youâre ready. But the mission structure is evolving, and so is the command. Youâll be taking point on live ops across the Pacific corridor starting next cycle. The next time you fly together, it wonât be for training. Itâll be for real.â
Meanwhile, Jake hadn't moved.
He was still looking at you like you were the only thing in the room that matteredâlike the speech, the assignment shifts, the impending command change didnât even register on his radar. And honestly, you could feel it. His stare burned into the side of your jaw, warm and steady, and when your eyes flicked over to meet hisâjust for a momentâhe had the audacity to wink.
You almost lost your composure.
Almost.
But instead, you reset your shoulders, flicked your eyes back to the squad, and said, âDebrief begins in ten. Final Gauntlet data packets are loaded in your files. Study them. Youâll be replicating Phase Three this Friday with Maverick observing. Questions?â
The room didnât erupt exactlyâbut it rumbled. Subtle at first, like a brewing storm over the open ocean. The kind you could feel in your bones before it cracked the sky.
Fanboy was the first to speak, hand shooting up before you even dismissed the floor. âWaitâleave?â His voice cracked halfway through, and he didnât even try to hide it. âAs in... permanently?â
You exhaled slowly. âAs in weâve completed our rotation. Weâre being reassigned to the Pacific Theatre Command for intel design and integrated air defense simulation. Forward strategy.â
âBut thatâs notâfair!â he protested, standing now, arms thrown in the air like youâd just announced the squad was being grounded. âWe just got good at this!â
Payback muttered something about mutiny under his breath, and Bob nodded with all the solemn weight of a man whoâd just been told the family dog was moving out.
Then Phoenix leaned forward, elbows on the table, her expression sharp. âSo thatâs it? We get through hell, pass your little flying crucible, and youâre just... gone?â
Ruin let out a soft, measured sigh. âYou didnât pass, Trace. You survived. There's a difference. And weâve trained you to stand on your own.â
âBut we donât want to,â Fanboy interrupted, clearly on the verge of something dramatic. âYou threeâyou're like the brain and the anger and the wrath of God. How are we supposed to function without that terrifying combo?â
That earned a small snort from Jinx, who was tryingâand failingânot to smile. âWeâll still be in the Navy. Youâre not losing us. Weâre just not in your hangar anymore.â
âAnd besides,â Ruin added, tilting his head toward you, âthe wrath partâs staying with you a little longer. Rogueâs got a longer leash. Sheâll be the last to rotate out.â
Fanboy looked at you like youâd betrayed him personally. âThen at least take me with you. Iâll carry your bags. Iâll cry silently in meetings. Iâm very adaptable.â
Jake chuckled low from his seat, but didnât speak. His eyes were still locked on youânot with concern, not even with amusement, but with that same silent, unwavering pride. Like he was watching the best thing heâd ever seen and didnât want to interrupt.
You ignored the butterflies in your gut and leveled the room with a stare. âThis squad doesnât depend on us. We were just the match. You are the fire. What youâve builtâwhat youâve survivedâthatâs yours now. And whatâs coming next? Itâs going to demand everything from you. The training wheels are gone. Youâre flying solo.â
Fanboy visibly slumped. âYouâre so mean when youâre inspirational.â
You allowed the corner of your mouth to twitch. Just a little.
Then, behind you, Jinx added, âAnd for the record? Youâve got the best damn chance out of any unit weâve trained. Donât waste it wishing we were still here yelling at you.â
That silenced the room. Not in defeatâbut in understanding. These pilots had bled for this squadron. Theyâd clawed their way through blackout drills, near-failures, and your infamous no-warning 0400 strike alarms. They were the best. Because you made them the best. And now, they had to be it.
Meanwhile, Jake hadnât moved a muscle.
And even though you were surrounded by elite pilots and two of the most formidable officers in the Navy, it was still his eyes you felt anchored toâthe quiet promise that even when duty pulled you apart, heâd still look at you like you were gravity itself.
The door swung open at the far end of the debriefing room, and the energy shifted immediately.
Captain Pete Mitchellâcallsign Maverickâstepped in with that usual mix of casual defiance and command presence that still turned heads no matter how many decades heâd been in the cockpit. Dagger Squad straightened, and even Jinx and Ruin reflexively stood a little taller as Maverick approached. He gave a nod to the room, then looked directly at you, his expression unreadable save for the faint flicker of something respectful in his eyes.
âCommander Rogue,â he said, voice low but carrying. âPermission to take the floor?â
You gave a crisp nod. âItâs yours, sir.â
He turned toward the Daggers, hands behind his back, shoulders squared. âYouâve all come a long way since I first saw you fly this deck. Some of you were cocky as hell.â His eyes flicked briefly to Hangman, who didnât even try to hide his smirk. âSome of you didnât believe youâd make it. And all of you were thrown into a crucible none of you were ready for.â
He paused.
âBut you survived it. You earned your wings all over again under these three.â He glanced over to you, Ruin, and Jinx, nodding once. âThis squadron wouldnât be what it is without their leadership. Their brutality.â A pointed look at you. âAnd their belief in you, even when you didnât believe in yourselves.â
You felt something twist in your chest, but you kept your posture sharp, unmoving.
Then Maverick turned back toward the front. âIâll be taking over interim command as they prepare for rotation. I wonât be recreating the Gauntletââ more than one pilot visibly exhaled at that ââbut Iâll be reinforcing the systems theyâve put in place. Youâll keep flying hard. Youâll keep pushing. And youâll keep proving that this isnât just a name on your patch. Itâs a legacy.â
There was a quiet, collective breath taken across the squad, a shift in the weight of the moment. You could feel it settle in their bones. Then Maverick relaxed just slightly, the edge of formality lifting.
âOhâand one more thing.â
He looked at you three again, this time less like an officer, more like someone who knew what it was to build something and have to walk away.
âPenny and I are throwing a small thing at our place Friday night. Just a thank you. Nothing formal. You three in?â
Ruin didnât miss a beat. âHell yeah, we are.â
Jinx clapped once. âI will eat so much potato salad. And Iâm bringing bourbon. The expensive kind.â
You raised an eyebrow. âDidnât realize we were celebrating just yet.â
Maverick gave you that slight grinâthe one that always meant he knew more than he was letting on. âYou built a family, Commander. That deserves at least one good night.â
You hesitated only a moment. â...Sure. Weâll be there.â
And just like that, the weight of transition felt a little lighter. A little warmer. You werenât just handing off commandâyou were leaving it in good hands. In capable hands. And whether they realized it yet or not, Dagger Squad had already become something stronger than any one officer.
Meanwhile, behind the rest of the group, Jake tilted his head and mouthed something at you when no one was looking.
âYouâre still the boss.â
Friday night rolled in slow and golden, spilling soft light through the blinds as you stood in front of the mirror, dabbing a final touch of highlight along your cheekbones. Your uniform had been replaced by something more casualâblack jeans, a fitted tee under an open button-down, sleeves cuffed, dog tags still tucked beneath your collar because some habits refused to die. You were going for that lethal mix of effortless and âdonât mess with me,â and it was working, if you did say so yourself.
You leaned in closer, fixing the wing of your eyeliner with the precision of someone who once flew through a canyon at Mach speed. Outside, a breeze rustled the palm trees. The smell of charcoal already teased the air from somewhere distant, and your stomach rumbled in agreement.
Then came the whine.
âBaaaabe...â
You didnât even blink. âNo.â
âYou donât even know what Iâm going to say yet!â
âI do, actually. Youâve been trying to seduce me out of this barbeque for the last hour.â
Jakeâs reflection appeared in the mirror behind youâhalf-shirtless, towel still slung around his neck from the shower, hair damp and tousled in a way that was definitely intentional. He looked like sin and Southern charm and bad ideas wrapped in golden-boy packaging. And he was pouting.
Full lips. Puppy eyes. Bare chest. Weaponized everything.
âLook at us,â he said, walking up behind you and resting his chin on your shoulder. âWe could just stay in. Watch some old movie. You know... something with a loose plot and convenient fade-to-blacks.â
You smirked, grabbing your mascara. âJake. You mean sex. Youâre describing sex.â
âNetflix and chill is a cultural institution,â he murmured against your neck. âIt would be rude to abandon tradition.â
You snorted and flicked him away with the back of your hand. âYouâre not getting me out of this, Seresin. I want ribs. I want brisket. I want potato salad thatâs mostly mayonnaise and regret. And I want to see Ruin try to pretend he doesnât cry when Maverick gives speeches.â
Jake groaned, dramatic and loud, flopping onto the edge of the bed like youâd wounded him. âBut youâre hot, and you smell like vanilla and sharp decisions, and I just shaved. This is prime conditions for a full-blown house arrest scenario.â
You turned and gave him a look over your shoulder. âWe made a promise. We show up. We eat meat. We thank Penny for putting up with all of you.â
âBut youâre my meat,â Jake mumbled into the mattress.
You rolled your eyes so hard you nearly saw stars. âThat is disgusting, and Iâm telling Maverick you said that.â
Jake peeked up, grinning. âTell him. Heâll be proud.â
You ignored him, stepping away from the mirror to grab your shoes and slide them on. âYouâve got ten minutes to get dressed or Iâm leaving without you.â
He sat up immediately. âDo you think Hangman would really miss a party thrown by the legendary Maverick? The man literally saved the Navyâs ass and then married a woman who owns a boat bar. Heâs my hero.â
You gave him one last lookâmessy hair, towel, bare chest, and that wide, stupid grin.
âThen get your ass in gear, Hangman. Weâre going to a barbeque.â
The engine purred under your control, the windows down just enough to let the salty California breeze snake through your hair as you cruised down the winding road toward Maverick and Pennyâs place. The sky was slathered in that perfect sunset gradientâdeep orange bleeding into rose and lavender, like the whole horizon had set itself on fire just to show off.
Jake sat in the passenger seat, finally dressed, finally presentableâwell, barely. His button-down was undone halfway, and his aviators hung lazily off the collar like an afterthought. He looked criminally good, lounging with his arm against the open window, tapping the dashboard to the beat of a country song you werenât even sure was playing. All smug confidence and denim-wrapped thighsâuntil he suddenly snapped upright like he'd been hit by lightning.
âWAIT.â
You slammed the brakes on instinct, the tires skidding slightly against the pavement as your hand shot out across his chest, years of flight protocol kicking in like second nature.
âWhat the hell, Seresin?!â
Jake turned to you, eyes wide with panic, breath caught somewhere between full-blown anxiety and chaotic energy. âWe canât arrive together.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âTheyâll know!â he said, flailing one arm toward the dashboard like it was somehow guilty in your imagined crime. âRuin and Jinx already gave us that look. And now weâre gonna show up in the same car? We might as well walk in holding hands with matching wedding bands and a neon sign that says âBeen boning for months, thanks!ââ
You stared at him, then slowly pulled the car over to the side of the road, parking beneath a palm tree that cast swaying shadows across the hood. âAre you hearing yourself?â
âI am, and I hate it,â he whispered, staring ahead like a man whoâd seen the future and didnât like what it held. âTheyâre gonna say things. Hangman cannot be the punchline. Iâm the one who makes the punchlines.â
You leaned an elbow on the steering wheel and looked at him coolly. âRelax.â
Jake turned to you like youâd just solved climate change. â...You have a plan?â
âI always have a plan.â
âDoes it involve a rooftop insertion or a stealth op under the grill?â
You reached for the gear shift and smirked. âJust trust me, Lieutenant. You get to make your dramatic solo entrance like the attention-starved manchild you are. Iâll be there already, drink in hand, pretending I barely remember your name.â
Jake looked both horrified and delighted. âOh my God. Youâre unhinged.â
âAnd you love it.â
He sighed, sinking back into the seat like the weight of the world had been lifted. âI really do.â
You glanced at him once more before hitting the gas again, pulling the car back onto the road. âNow shut up and let me execute the op. Iâve got a very specific window if I want to get there before Maverick starts one of his war stories.â
âAnd when do I show up?â
âWhen the ribs hit the grill.â
Jake let out a low whistle. âRuthless. Sexy. Tactical.â
You grinned. âI know.â
By the time you pulled up to Maverick and Pennyâs place, the backyard was already buzzingâgrill smoking, music humming low through crackling outdoor speakers, and pilots strewn across folding chairs and patio steps like sun-dazed dogs. Someone had already opened the good whiskey. You could smell the ribs in the air, and it was divine.
You parked just far enough down the street to make it look casual. Intentional. Not at all like youâd spent fifteen minutes strategizing this exact entrance.
Jake had slipped out of the car a beat later, adjusting his shirt like it was armor, running a hand through his hair for the tenth time since you left the base. He followed a few paces behind you, like he wasnât totally sure if this was a setup or a blessing. But either way, he was in it now.
You pushed open the side gate and stepped into view just as the golden hour light hit the backyard, sunglasses still perched on your nose like you were walking into a runway instead of a barbeque.
Heads turned instantly.
Rooster raised his beer. Bob blinked twice. Coyote said âWell, damn,â under his breath, and even Phoenix sat up straighter on the picnic table like something had just clicked in the Matrix.
And then they saw him.
Jake, hands in his pockets, trying his best not to look too happy. He trailed behind you by a few steps, gaze caught somewhere between âkill me nowâ and âI would die for this woman.â His cheeks were faintly pink. Not from sunburn.
You tugged your sunglasses down just enough to meet the crowdâs suspicious silence, cocked a hip, and said with full authority, âSeresin hitched a ride with me. Said his car battery died because he left it running while trying to fix his hair.â
A beat.
Hangman made a wounded sound, halfway between a scoff and a betrayed gasp. âThat is not what happenedââ
You raised a hand. âDonât worry. I logged it under âpilot incompetence.â Already filed the incident report.â
Phoenix choked on her drink. Rooster laughed so hard he nearly dropped his plate. Bob looked between the two of you like he was watching a courtroom drama unfold.
Jake, for his part, just looked devastated. Shoulders drooped. Eyebrows knitted together. He glanced around at the others, eyes wide like an injured golden retriever trying to understand why no one was standing up for him.
âShe made me ride in the backseat like cargo,â he mumbled, voice quiet and wounded.
âI shouldâve made you sit in the trunk,â you shot back easily, brushing past him.
The group howled.
You could feel Maverick and Penny watching from the porch, and when your eyes flicked toward them, Mav just gave you a subtle nod, a ghost of a grin tugging at the edge of his mouth. Penny raised her glass slightly, sipping it like sheâd known this would happen from the moment she set the guest list.
Meanwhile, Ruin and Jinx were already posted near the grill, absolutely giggling behind their beers like two school kids who knew exactly what game was being played.
Jake finally caught up to you, falling into step at your side, voice low. âYou are evil.â
You smirked, reaching out to straighten his slightly wrinkled collar. âAnd yet, you keep coming back.â
He blinked. âYouâre lucky Iâm into terrifying women.â
You leaned in, close enough for only him to hear. âYouâre lucky I didnât tell them you asked me to pick out your shirt.â
He groaned into his hands as you strutted away, completely and utterly victorious.
The sun had dipped lower now, casting long amber shadows across the backyard as the barbeque roared to lifeâflames licking the grill, the scent of charred meat and smoke curling into the air like a battle cry. Maverick, ever the wise host, had somehow vanished just as responsibility was about to be handed out. Penny, with that sly glint in her eye, passed the spatula off to you and Jake with a grin that said âhave funâ and a wink that promised chaos.
Which was, of course, exactly what followed.
âNo, no, absolutely not,â Jake declared the moment you both stepped up to the grill, eyeing the meat like it had personally offended him. âLast time you cooked anything, Rogue, I swear the burger mooed when I bit into it.â
You turned slowly, spatula in hand like a weapon. âExcuse me?â
âIâm still in therapy.â
âYouâre so dramatic,â you scoffed, rolling your eyes. âThe center was pink, not raw. Thatâs called flavor, Lieutenant.â
Jake dramatically pointed to the steak on the tray. âThat is called endangerment of personnel. Iâm not trying to get salmonella in front of my squad. Again.â
You snapped the tongs open twice, as if testing their readiness. âAnd what about the last time you cooked, huh? You incinerated the chicken so badly I thought we were being attacked by a drone strike.â
âThat was intentional.â
âThat was arson,â you fired back, flipping a rib with so much force it slapped the grill with a loud hiss. âYou seasoned it with gasoline.â
Jake grabbed the seasoning with a flourish, shaking it over the slab in front of him like a showman. âBetter than the time you thought garlic powder and cinnamon were interchangeable!â
âThat was one time! And I was distracted because you kept licking the damn spoon and flexing like you were auditioning for a cooking calendar.â
He grinned, unfazed. âStill got the job though, didnât I?â
You leveled him with a look so cold it couldâve frosted the grill, then turned to flip the next slab of ribs.
Meanwhile, the Dagger Squad had gathered in a loose semi-circle a few feet away, holding their plates like theatergoers watching a chaotic stage play. Bob had slowly stopped chewing, mesmerized. Phoenix was barely holding in her laughter, Rooster whispered âfive bucks says Rogue throws him into the pool,â and Coyote was holding up a phone like he was definitely filming this for evidence.
Jake leaned in, voice lower now, playful. âYou know this whole âbickering in publicâ thing? Itâs dangerously close to foreplay for us.â
You didnât even glance at him. âTouch my ribs again and I will throw you onto that lawn chair so hard it becomes part of your anatomy.â
Jake took a small step back and raised his hands. âSo hot when you threaten me.â
The grill hissed louder as if groaning in protest at the combined heatâflames, meat, and whatever fiery tension was practically vibrating between the two of you. The smoke curled up, and somewhere behind you, Maverickâs laugh floated through the breeze, followed by Penny yelling, âDonât set anything on fire this time!â
You both called back, in perfect unison: âNo promises!â
The grill kept sizzling like it was trying to warn everyone that something unholy was about to happen. You and Jake were still locked in your verbal knife fightâtongues sharper than the skewers, egos even bigger than the brisketâbut the meat was cooking, and somehow, no one had died yet. A win.
You reached for the sauce, elbow-deep in rib duties, when a familiar voice slinked up behind you like a cat that had way too much confidence for someone who still couldnât land a perfect vertical descent.
âWell, well, Commander Rogue,â Rooster drawled, leaning on the picnic table with a grin that was a little too smug. âDidnât know you moonlighted as a grill master. Should I be impressed? Or concerned?â
Jake didnât look up, but his jaw flexed just slightly as he flipped a steak with what could only be described as violence.
You didnât miss the tone, but you played along, lips quirking. âYou should be concerned. Iâve got full jurisdiction to throw people into the pool for flirting with their superiors.â
Rooster grinned wider, teeth flashing. âWouldnât be the first time I got wet for a woman in command.â
Jake coughed so hard it almost sounded real. Almost.
âOh no,â he muttered under his breath. âNo, no, noâthis is not happening.â
Rooster stepped a little closer, resting his elbow on the grillâs side, eyes flicking over you like you were a target he was just brave enough to chase. âYou know, if you ever need help in the kitchen, Iâm real handy with my hands.â
Jake dropped the tongs.
Clatter. Sizzle. A moment of sheer disbelief.
âYou okay there, Seresin?â Rooster asked innocently.
Jake bent to grab the tongs, muttering, âOh, just dropped my will to live.â
You smirked, but before you could fire back, Jake straightened up and slid way too close to you, all heat and muscle and the smell of citrus body wash. He leaned an arm casually on the grill right next to yours, cutting off Roosterâs line of vision.
âActually, Rooster,â he said smoothly, âshe already has help in the kitchen. Certified, in fact. I passed the meat handling seminar twice.â
You side-eyed him. âOne of those times you were asked to leave.â
âStill counts,â Jake fired back, then turned slightly toward Rooster, voice perfectly pleasant but with just enough bite beneath it. âAnyway, you might want to cool it. Wouldnât want you to get burned, Bradshaw.â
Rooster blinked. â...From the grill?â
Jake smiled. âSure. Letâs go with that.â
The tension was palpable. Phoenix was now openly eating chips and watching like it was her favorite soap. Bob whispered something to Coyote, who mouthed âOh, itâs getting good.â Even Penny glanced out the kitchen window, eyebrows raised like should I intervene? Or is this foreplay?
Rooster, to his credit, chuckled and held up his hands. âAlright, alright. Standing down. Donât want to come between a man and his meat.â
You almost choked on your soda.
Jake gave him a tight smile. âGood choice.â
As Rooster walked offâstill smirking, because of course he wasâJake turned back to you, bumping your hip gently with his.
âYou liked it, admit it,â he muttered, voice low so no one else could hear. âGot all jealous and southern and everything.â
You rolled your eyes. âYou threatened him with steak energy.â
Jake beamed. âThatâs love, darlinâ.â
Dinner was in full swing now, the backyard steeped in that warm, dusky glow that made the ribs glisten and everyoneâs cheeks a little more sun-kissed. Laughter spilled from the picnic tables like smoke, plates were stacked with dangerously unhealthy amounts of meat, and Penny had finally broken out her famous strawberry bourbon.
Youâd barely sat down on one of the benches, cold drink in hand, ribs stacked on your plate like you were claiming dominance through protein, when he appeared.
âRoom for one more?â Rooster asked, already sliding into the seat beside you without waiting for an answer.
You blinked at him, then shrugged, scooting just an inch to the leftânot too much, but enough to keep up appearances. âSure, Lieutenant. Long as you donât steal my cornbread.â
Rooster leaned in with a grin. âWouldnât dream of it. Unless itâs the kind with jalapeĂąo in it.â
You narrowed your eyes. âIt is.â
âThen Iâm dreaming,â he said smoothly, nudging your shoulder.
Across the table, Jake Seresin paused mid-bite.
His fork hovered above his brisket like it was caught in enemy fire. His seat had been stolenâhis seatâand now he was forced to sit directly across from you, watching Rooster lean in a little too close, laugh a little too loud, and eat his damn jalapeĂąo cornbread.
You didnât even need to look at Jake to know he was internally combusting. His jealousy was so loud it might as well have been on AM radio.
âSo,â Rooster said, mouth full of buttery heaven, âremind me againâwhat exactly do I have to do to earn a second round of training from you, Commander?â
You took a slow sip from your drink. âWell, first? Learn how to finish the first round without crashing into a mountain.â
âOuch,â he winced, but he was grinning.
Jake stabbed his rib so hard the table shook. âYou doing okay over there, Hangman?â Phoenix called from the next bench, sipping her drink.
âIâm great,â he said through gritted teeth. âFantastic. Loving the seating arrangement. Real cozy.â
Rooster leaned back slightly, throwing one arm along the back of the bench behind you. Jakeâs eye twitched. Twitched.
You leaned in to whisper, âHeâs doing this on purpose.â
Jake muttered back, âHeâs dead to me.â
You smirked, playing innocent. âHeâs got good teeth though.â
Jake dropped his fork with a clink and muttered, âI will commit a war crime.â
Meanwhile, Ruin and Jinx were not helping. They were watching this unfold from their own corner of the table, laughing into their drinks, whispering like two agents of chaos blessed with front-row seats to the slowest breakdown of a very territorial pilot.
âMan,â Jinx said under her breath, âI havenât seen Seresin this twitchy since the last time we locked him in a sim with Rogue and cut his comms.â
Ruin chuckled. âIf he flips this table, I called it.â
Jake exhaled sharply, then stood with the slow precision of a man trying very hard not to commit violence in front of his superiors. âIâm gonna go get more potato salad.â
Rooster called after him, âBring me some if itâs the spicy kind!â
Jake didnât even turn around. âI hope itâs empty.â
Jake returned five minutes later, holding a single scoop of sad, unspiced potato salad like it had personally insulted him, whichâjudging by the way he slammed the paper plate down in front of his seatâmaybe it had. His jaw was tight. His eyes locked on the table, not on you and Rooster, who were now deep in a suspiciously lively conversation about call signs gone wrong.
You were laughingâgenuinely, stupidly laughingâand it sent Jake spiraling.
âSo, wait,â you said through your giggles, nudging Roosterâs arm. âSomeone actually called you Beanstalk once?â
Rooster grinned. âMhm. Right out of the academy. I was lanky, awkward, and apparently climbed everything like a freaking kid on a jungle gym.â
âOh, my God,â you wheezed. âThatâs terrible.â
Across the table, Jake finally snapped his head up. âIt wasnât that bad. Iâve heard worse. Hell, Iâve been called worse.â
You raised an eyebrow. âOh yeah? Like what?â
Jake blinked. âUhhhâŚâ
Jinx leaned over, oh-so-helpfully. âDidnât someone call you Blondie Backfire for a while?â
Ruin spit out his drink.
Jake glared. âThat was one time and it was not my fault that missile malfunctioned, JINX.â
Rooster smirked, clearly enjoying this. âBlondie Backfire? Thatâs kinda hot.â
Jake stood again, like his chair had personally offended him now too. âIâm getting a drink.â
âI thought you had a drink,â you said sweetly, glancing at the full cup beside his plate.
Jake blinked, then picked it up and dumped it in the grass. âNow I donât.â
Rooster was cackling now, leaning into you like you two had been friends foreverâhis arm definitely still behind you on the bench, his voice low and conspiratorial. âHeâs real twitchy tonight.â
âMmhm,â you said, not hiding your grin as you watched Jake stalk toward the drink table like it owed him something.
âThink heâs mad?â
You shrugged. âHeâll live.â
Meanwhile, Jake grabbed a cup with such force it cracked in his hand.
Maverick wandered by just then, side-eyeing him with that ageless pilot wisdom and decades of dealing with emotional men in uniforms.
âYou good, Seresin?â Mav asked casually.
Jake stared into the drink cooler like it held the answers to all of lifeâs betrayals. âPeachy, sir.â
Maverick raised an eyebrow. âSure looks like it.â
Back at the bench, you were sipping sweet tea, eyes flicking over to Jakeâs back as he muttered curses at the ice cubes. Rooster was definitely trying to be charming, and you were definitely letting him. A little.
When Jake finally returned, he didn't sit. He just stood behind your bench, arms crossed, the picture of a man scorned. You leaned your head back and looked up at him with a faux innocent blink.
âSomething wrong, Lieutenant?â
Jake leaned down so his mouth was by your ear, voice low and dangerous. âYou are testing me.â
You smiled without turning. âAnd youâre failing.â
Rooster, still obliviousâor pretending to beâtook another sip of his drink and said, âYou know, I always liked the idea of two strong pilots clashing. Very Mr. and Mrs. Smith. Lots of tension. Chemistry.â
Jake leaned in just a fraction more. âKeep talking, Bradshaw. I dare you.â
Rooster raised a brow, catching the shift in Jakeâs voice for the first time. He glanced between the two of you, pausing, brow furrowing just slightlyâlike a man suddenly doing very important math.
Jake straightened up. Smiled sweetly. âSo, Bradshaw⌠how much do you like your kneecaps?â
Rooster blinked.
You turned back to your plate like none of that just happened.
It was always going to be chaos. That much was clear the moment Maverick handed off hosting duties and disappeared toward the grill like he hadnât just left the two most unhinged pilots on base at the same damn picnic table. The only question was when someoneâJakeâwould break.
The answer?
Exactly three minutes and forty-two seconds after Rooster leaned in just a bit too close and said, âYouâve got something on your cheek.â
You blinked, lifting your napkin, but Rooster caught your wrist midair with that signature lazy grin. âLet me,â he offered, thumb already reaching for your face.
Jakeâs soul left his body.
Heâd been watchingâburningâfrom behind your bench, fists clenched, drink abandoned, and knees bouncing like he was trying to keep himself from launching over the damn table. Roosterâs fingers hovering near your cheek were the last straw.
âThatâs it.â
The words were low. Clipped. Nuclear.
Rooster turned slightly, eyebrow raised in confusion, but before he could blink, Jake rounded the bench, hand snaked around your waist, and dragged you up into him like a man possessed.
âWaitâJakeââ you started, caught off guard.
Too late.
His lips crashed into yours with zero warning and absolutely no chill. It wasnât gentle. It wasnât sweet. It was full-on, toe-curling, spine-arching claiming. His mouth moved over yours with the kind of desperation that screamed mine in every tongue imaginable. One hand anchored at your hip, the other threaded through your hair, tilting your head just right so he could deepen the kissâand God, did he ever. You barely remembered where you were. The backyard? The whole damn planet?
Everything else blurred.
Rooster frozeâmouth open, hand still awkwardly raised from where heâd almost touched your face. Phoenix gasped so loud it echoed. Bob dropped his fork. Jinx let out an unholy screech. Ruin shouted, âFINALLY!â like heâd been holding it in for a year.
When Jake finally pulled back, breath ragged, lips flushed, pupils blown wide, he kept you tucked against him. Possessive. Proud. Like heâd just walked off a battlefield holding the enemyâs flag.
You blinked, completely dazed. â...What the hell, Seresin.â
Jake exhaled through his nose, eyes still locked on yours. âHe was gonna kiss you.â
Your eyebrows flew up. âSo you assassinated him with PDA?â
He didnât flinch. âYes.â
Rooster stood there, arms half-raised in surrender, lips twitching into a grin despite himself. âSo⌠Iâm guessing the whole âwe hate each otherâ thing was an act?â
Jake turned to him, expression flat. âBack off, Bradshaw.â
Rooster gave a mock salute. âYessir. Message received.â
Phoenix stood up and slow clapped. âOh my God. This is so much better than the time Coyote accidentally tasered himself in the sim.â
Jinx doubled over, nearly spilling his drink as he wheezed out, âI told you! I told you! I said if Seresin had to watch another man breathe in Rogueâs general direction, heâd explode like a malfunctioning Sidewinder!â
Ruin was laughing so hard he had tears in his eyes, pointing at Jake like heâd just witnessed the second coming. âI had âsix weeksâ in the betting pool. SIX. You made it three and a half!â
Jake didnât care. Jake looked like a man who had just sunk a carrier with one missile. He tightened his hold around your waist, pulled you close againâthough this time it was soft, grounding, not a declaration of warâand dropped a smug kiss to your cheek. âCouldnât help it. He was flirting. And you were letting him.â
You tilted your head at him, one brow raised. âI was not letting him.â
âYou giggled,â Jake deadpanned.
Phoenix walked past behind him, muttering loud enough for the entire backyard to hear, âYeah, you definitely giggled. It was alarming.â
You elbowed Jake, not hard enough to hurt but definitely enough to remind him who the real threat was. âYou ruined the cover, genius. Now they know.â
Jake shrugged unapologetically. âWorth it.â
Rooster, back at the table and dramatically fanning himself with a napkin, piped up, âI donât know what hurts worseâthe whiplash or the fact that you two have been lying to us for MONTHS.â
Bob finally found his voice. âWait⌠months?!â
You pinched the bridge of your nose. âCan we not do this hereââ
But it was too late.
The squad had descended, circling you both like wolves high on gossip and baby back ribs. Phoenix sat down next to Rooster, eyes gleaming. âOkay, spill. When did it start? Who confessed first? Was it during that awful storm in El Centro? Waitâwas it after the Gauntlet debrief? I KNEW it!â
Jinx cackled. âBet it was the Gauntlet. Nothing says romance like emotionally traumatizing a squad together.â
Jake looked entirely too pleased with himself. âIt was classified.â
Ruin raised an eyebrow. âWas?â
You groaned. âApparently itâs not anymore.â
Maverick chose that exact moment to stroll back over, beer in hand, looking like heâd just finished listening to Penny relay the entire scene. He stopped, glanced at the crowd, then looked between you and Jakeâarms still around each other, your cheeks flushed, your eyes narrowed at the squad like you were weighing the pros and cons of a group court-martial.
âCongratulations,â Maverick said dryly. âYouâve managed to turn a barbecue into a briefing.â
Jake stood straighter. âSir.â
You straightened, too. âSir.â
Maverick gave a long-suffering sigh, then sipped his beer. âNext time, just tell us before one of you claims the other like a caveman.â
Jinx burst into another fit of laughter. âTO THE CAVEMAN!â
And because pilots have no chill, someone actually raised a toast.
Jake grinned, unapologetic. âYouâre welcome.â
You shook your head. âYouâre insane.â
And he leaned in close, lips brushing your ear, and whispered just for you: âFor you? Every damn time.â
Four months had passed since the great barbeque incidentâthe day Jake Seresin, golden boy and world-class flirt, had snapped like a dry matchstick and blown your secret sky-high in front of half the Dagger Squadron and most of command. Youâd gone to bed that night with his arms wrapped tightly around you, his mouth muttering sleepy apologies against your shoulder, and still woken up at dawn ready to kick his ass in the name of professionalism.
From then on, the two of you drew a line. You returned to work with your head held high, uniform crisp, voice clipped and clear in the briefing rooms. There were no lingering touches, no slip-ups, no soft eyes across command tables. If anyone thought you were bending the rules, they were wrong. Because you were Commander Rogueâthe superior officer. Jake was your subordinate, no matter how many times he'd kissed you breathless or whispered that heâd follow you into hell. On base, you were steel. At home, you were his.
Today, the debriefing room was full. The walls hummed with low chatter and boots tapping against the tile floor. The Dagger Squadron sat shoulder to shoulder, still sharp despite the lazy summer heat outside. Maverick leaned back in his seat, arms crossed and eyes alert. Hondo grinned beside him, and Warlock gave you a polite nod as you passed. Even Cyclone was present, his usual scowl fixed firmly in place like the sky might fall if he dared to look pleased. You stepped up to the head of the room, flanked by Jinx and Ruin, both standing at attention with the calm swagger of people who had seen these pilots at their very worstâand brought them out better.
The chatter died down the moment you stepped forward. You let the silence stretch, just long enough to demand respect.
Then you began. âOne year ago, the Dagger Squadron was reassembled here in North Island. You were selected not just for your skill, but for your grit, your trust, and your ability to adapt under pressure. We trained you hard. We tested you harder.â
A small chuckle rippled through the room at that, likely remembering the Gauntletâyour very own personal brand of torture.
You continued, voice steady. âSome of you flew better. Some of you fought harder. Some of you cried behind hangars when you thought no one was watching.â
Fanboy visibly flinched. Yale wiped at his eye like something definitely flew into it. Payback patted his back in brotherly solidarity while Phoenix smirked beside them, sharp and unbothered as always.
âAfter the missionâs success, we were tasked with observing the squadâs progression over the next four months,â you said, glancing at Jinx and Ruin, who both nodded. âAnd as of today, that evaluation period has ended.â
Your tone dipped slightlyâso subtle, but just enough to suggest finality. Across the room, shoulders began to tense. Rooster tilted his head. Bob leaned forward. The Dagger Squad had seen enough exits to know what this sounded like.
âWe know what youâre thinking,â Jinx cut in, voice smooth and teasing, eyes dancing with mischief. âYou think this is goodbye.â
Ruin folded his arms. âYou think weâre packing up and heading back to Top Brass HQ.â
You waited. The room went still.
Then you smiled.
âWell... youâre wrong.â
A beat of silenceâthen chaos.
Cheers erupted instantly. Phoenix laughed loud and bright, slapping her hand on the table. Rooster threw both arms in the air like heâd just been handed a winning lotto ticket. Payback whooped. Coyote grinned like heâd just been gifted free beer for life.
Fanboy made a sound that could only be described as a sob. âYouâreâyouâre staying?!â he choked out, grabbing Yaleâs arm for emotional support. Yale, who was also now wiping tears, nodded wordlessly.
You smiled, chin lifted with pride. âAs of today, the three of us have been assigned permanent duty here in North Island. The Dagger Squadron is no longer a temporary experiment. You are officially designated as an elite, high-readiness strike force under our command.â
Jinx added, âYouâre stuck with us, losers.â
Ruin grinned. âHope you didnât make retirement plans.â
While the squad practically lost their minds, your eyes wanderedâjust brieflyâacross the room. And there he was.
Jake Seresin didnât cheer. He didnât clap or shout. He just smiledâsoft, slow, and warm enough to melt through titanium. He looked at you like you were his home and his future all at once. It wasnât cocky or wild. It wasnât the grin of a man whoâd just won something.
It was the smile of someone whoâd known all along that this was where you were meant to be.
- Jake -
Now, Jake stood in front of the mirror, hands braced on the counter, heart pounding like he was about to walk into a goddamn carrier launch. His dress whites were pressed to perfection, gold buttons gleaming, but he couldnât stop adjusting the collar, couldnât stop the way his fingers trembled when he reached for his watch.
Tonight wasnât just another Navy event. Tonight, everything changed.
He swallowed hard and let his gaze drift upwardâto the reflection of the man staring back at him. Not the boy who used to walk through college halls like he owned the place. Not the golden child who thought charm could solve anything. Noâthis was the man who broke hearts and then learned to stitch them back with calloused hands and the quiet ache of humility. And he owed every inch of that growth to her.
You.
He remembered the girl you used to beâsharp-eyed and smarter than any of them, walking with a stack of textbooks and no patience for bullshit. Heâd seen you as a challenge back then, something to conquer, to use. And use you he did. Youâd carried his files, cleaned up his messes, wrote papers he claimed credit for with a wink and a promise he never kept. You were the soft answer to his arrogance. And he, in all his careless glory, treated you like a footnote.
But you werenât one. God, no.
You outranked him now. Humbled him. Unmade him.
Jake exhaled, slow and steady, thinking about that night on your birthdayâthe night you shouldâve been out celebrating, but instead found yourself sitting alone under a bleeding sunset. Youâd been a vision, wrapped in solitude and silence, and still somehow he was the one who got to speak. Got to beg. Got to fall apart.
And youâdamn youâyou let him. You let him come undone, then held him while he stitched himself back up. You didnât forgive him right away. You didnât fall back into his arms like a storybook. No, you made him work. You made him earn it. And that was the moment Jake Seresin knew he would never be that boy again. Because you didnât need a golden boy. You needed a man. And he was going to be that man, or die trying.
Now, tonight, he wasnât just going to be Jake. He was going to be yours.
He had the ring. He had the words. And he had the kind of love that didnât come easyâbut burned deep. You werenât just the girl he wanted to marry. You were the girl who changed him. You were the girl who looked at the mess he was and saw potential, not ruin.
Jake Seresin would never stop proving he was worthy of you.
And tonight?
Tonight someone was going to become Mrs. Seresin.
The Hard Deck was humming with life that eveningâlaughter spilling out from open doors, glasses clinking, music threading through the salty ocean air like a second heartbeat. Jake stood near the back of the bar, leaning against a post, eyes locked on you as you threw your head back laughing at something Phoenix said. Penny, Halo, and Amelia were gathered close, drinks in hand, forming a loose circle of warmth and light around you. And there you were, right in the middle of itâeyes bright, lips pink from laughter, that soft glow on your skin that came from golden hour and good company.
Jake knew he had to do it now or heâd never do it at all.
He didnât bother to cut through the crowd with swagger like he used to. No cocky strut, no loud greeting. Just a quiet step forward, weaving around dart players and off-duty aviators until he was by your side. You didnât notice him at firstâyour hand was around a chilled glass, the other gesturing as you recounted something that made Amelia gasp and Penny roll her eyes fondly. But then Jakeâs hand gently grazed your back, fingers brushing lightly at the small curve where your shirt met your skin.
âCan I steal you for a minute?â he murmured, low enough that only you could hear.
You turned, giving him a slight side-eye and a teasing scoff. âJake. We just got here.â
âI know,â he said, shifting on his feet. âBut I was thinking⌠maybe we could take a walk. Just us.â
The groan you let out was exaggerated, and he grinned despite himself. You tipped your head back like he was asking you to run a marathon barefoot. âJake, I just got a drink. Canât it wait a bit?â
Before he could say anything else, Phoenix nudged your shoulder. âGo,â she said simply, sipping her beer with a knowing smirk.
âSeriously,â Penny added, giving Jake a glance that was equal parts amused and suspicious. âLet the man be dramatic. He looks like heâs gonna explode.â
Halo snorted. âYou two are so married already.â
Even Amelia, perched on a barstool and pretending not to be interested, piped up with a shrug. âItâs romantic. Go.â
You narrowed your eyes at them, suspicious, but Jake saw the way your lips twitched. Still fighting a smile. Always trying to act like you werenât soft for himâwhen you were the softest thing heâd ever touched.
âFine,â you muttered, setting your glass down. âBut I swear, if you brought me out here just to complain about who ate the last of your cereal againââ
Jake grinned, already lacing his fingers through yours. âI promise, itâs not about the cereal.â
He didnât miss the glint in your eye as you allowed him to lead you out of the Hard Deck, past the blur of dart boards and pool tables, through the open doors and onto the soft crunch of sand. The cool breeze kissed his skin, and the low rustle of waves became a steady backdrop as you walked side by side, your bare feet sinking into the warm grains beside his boots.
But Jake could feel itâthe weight of every eye behind them. The squad pretending not to watch. The sidelong glances. The elbow nudges. Rooster probably whispering something to Bob, who was terrible at hiding his reactions. And Maverick? Oh, he definitely knew something was up.
Jake swallowed, his pulse ticking high and hot beneath his collar. Every step made the ring in his pocket feel heavier, like gravity itself was conspiring to keep him grounded in the moment. He didnât look back. He didnât need to. He could feel the ears. The eyes. The weight of what he was about to do.
And all he could think was: God, let her say yes.
The ocean whispered beside them, waves folding into the shore with lazy rhythm, and for a while, neither of them spoke. You walked slightly ahead, bare feet sinking into the damp sand while your hand remained laced in his, fingers warm and certain in a way that still made Jakeâs heart ache a little. The sky was a quiet spill of lavender and silver, the last remnants of daylight fading like old photographs. Somewhere in the distance, someone lit a firepit, the faint scent of smoke curling on the breeze.
Jake cleared his throat, squeezing your hand gently. âYâknow,â he said, voice quieter than usual, âI still remember the first time I saw you wear that smug little smirk you give when you know youâve outsmarted everyone.â
You glanced over your shoulder, one brow arched, amused. âWhich time? I do that a lot.â
âExactly,â he said, grinning. âYou do. And I used to think it was annoying.â
You tilted your head, still walking, now kicking a seashell gently out of your path. âUsed to?â
Jake chuckled softly, the sound rumbling low in his chest. âNow I think itâs terrifying. In a hot way.â
You snorted, eyes rolling, but the corner of your mouth twitched, betraying the smile you tried to hide. Then, slowing down until you were walking shoulder to shoulder again, you let your gaze wander to the horizon. The ocean stretched endlessly, horizon bleeding into sky, and the stars had begun to peek out one by one.
Jake looked at youâreally looked. At the wind-tousled strands of hair sticking to your cheek, the slight wrinkle of your nose when the breeze turned sharp, the way your posture relaxed only when it was just the two of you. Out here, you werenât Commander Rogue. You were just you. His girl. The one who wrecked him, rebuilt him, and then let him love you anyway.
âI donât say it enough,â he murmured, eyes still on you. âBut Iâm proud of you.â
You blinked, surprised by the softness in his tone, then gave him a side glance. âFor what?â
âFor everything,â he answered, shrugging one shoulder. âFor not just surviving, but thriving. For being the kind of leader I never had the guts to be. For being smarter than me. For loving me even when I didnât deserve it. For forgiving me⌠when I damn well didnât earn it.â
Your steps faltered, just slightly, but you didnât pull your hand away. Instead, you slowed even more, the two of you coming to a gentle stop where the surf could nearly lick your feet. The breeze carried salt and the faintest hint of laughter from the Hard Deck, but all Jake could hear was the quiet thud of his heart.
You looked at him then, brows drawn together with something softer than surprise. âI didnât forgive you right away.â
âI know,â Jake nodded, eyes locked on yours. âAnd Iâm glad you didnât.â
There was a long pause, the kind that felt full and necessary. Then you looked away, lips quirking slightly, eyes fixed on the stars. âYouâve changed, Jake.â
âSo have you,â he murmured. âBut not in the way people think.â
You turned back, curious. âWhat do you mean?â
Jake stepped closer, lifting a hand to tuck a loose strand of hair behind your ear. âYouâre still that girl who used to show up ten minutes early with your whole life in your backpack and too many dreams in your eyes. But now? You know your worth. You donât shrink anymore.â He smiled, something tender and unguarded. âYou used to orbit around people who didnât deserve you. Now you walk straight through âem.â
You didnât say anything right away, but your eyes softened, and your grip on his hand tightened just slightly.
Then Jake added, voice lower now, âI still canât believe Iâm the one who gets to walk beside you.â
You laughed, breath catching in your throat, and nudged his side with your elbow. âYouâre being sappy.â
âCanât help it,â he said with a shrug. âSand, sunset, and you in that dress? Itâs over for me.â
He grinned when you rolled your eyes again, but this time you leaned in and rested your head lightly on his shoulder. Jake exhaled, shoulders easing, and wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you close as the waves rolled in and the moon rose behind the clouds.
He didnât ask yet.
Not tonight.
But the weight of the ring in his pocket felt a little warmer now.
They stood like that for a while, molded into the quiet hush of the shoreline, your head on Jakeâs shoulder and his arm snug around your waist like it had always belonged there. The kind of silence that didnât demand words â the kind born from knowing someoneâs weight, their shape, the rhythm of their breath. Occasionally, the wind would toss your hair gently against his jaw, and every time, he would press a soft kiss to your temple like a reflex he never wanted to break.
Eventually, your feet began moving again, slow and aimless as the two of you wandered along the sand, letting the tide chase your toes. The Hard Deck was nothing but music and gold light behind you now, swallowed by distance and salt air. Jake didnât mind. He was more interested in the way your hand swung with his, the subtle skip in your step whenever the cold water kissed your skin, the little giggle you bit back when he splashed you once with his foot.
Then, as you passed a spot where driftwood lay bleached and worn, you slipped off your sandals and let yourself climb onto one of the larger pieces like it was a balance beam. Jakeâs hand stayed at your hip, steadying you â even though you didnât need him to. He just wanted to. Meanwhile, you smirked down at him, playful and sharp, and said, âStill think Iâm just a detour?â
Jakeâs breath hitched, but his smirk answered for him first. âNah,â he murmured, reaching up to tug your hand until you stepped off the log and into his arms. âI think I took a lifetime-long wrong turn, and you were the destination the whole damn time.â
You groaned, resting your forehead against his shoulder with a dramatic sigh. âThat was so cheesy, Seresin.â
He chuckled, pressing a lingering kiss to the crown of your head. âYeah, well. Iâm full of surprises.â
Still holding you close, Jake let his chin rest atop your head, breathing in the familiar scent of your shampoo, the warmth of your skin sun-drenched and ocean-kissed. It hit him then, all at once â how much he wanted to keep this. Not just the beach, not just the moment. You. All of you. The good, the hard, the brilliant and bossy and brutally honest commander who had turned his whole damn world upside down.
âI ever tell you how I used to dream about this?â he asked suddenly, voice low against the top of your hair.
You leaned back slightly to look at him, curious. âDream about what?â
âThis,â he said, motioning vaguely to the waves, the stars, the distance from everything but each other. âUs. Not just the fantasy stuff â not just the kissing and the staying in bed all day and you stealing all the covers â but this. Walking with you. Talking with you. Laughing with you like nothing ever got broken.â
Your smile dimmed, but not with sadness. There was something softer there now â something raw and real. âJakeâŚâ
âI know I screwed it up,â he cut in gently. âI know it took too long to get here. But I still dreamed about it. I still thought about you. Every time I passed a girl with a sharp tongue, I thought, âSheâs not her.â Every time someone rolled their eyes at me, I thought, âShe wouldâve decked me by now.â I kept comparing everyone to you, and they all fell short.â
You inhaled deeply, blinking up at him, but before you could speak, Jake reached up and brushed a thumb along your jaw. âI know weâre still figuring it out. I know weâve still got baggage and scars and maybe even a few leftover landmines. But Iâm in this. All the way.â
You searched his face for a moment, heart fluttering in a way that was both familiar and terrifying. Then, with a sigh, you leaned into him once more, your hands slipping beneath his jacket to curl into the back of his shirt. The sound of your heartbeat against his was steady now â not racing, not panicked. Just sure.
Jake smiled into your hair, eyes closed.
And under the stars, beside the sea, with the taste of your breath still warm on his skin, he knew one thing for certain.
He wasnât going to wait much longer.
Jake pulled back slightly, just enough to really look at you. The way your eyes caught the starlight, the way your fingers absentmindedly played with the edge of his collar â like you didnât even realize you were clinging to him, like your hands had learned him so well they reached for him on instinct alone. His throat tightened. Not with nerves, not really. With the weight of it. Of you. Of everything youâd been through and still chosen to stay for.
Then, wordlessly, Jake took a step back.
You blinked, confused for a moment as he let your hands slip from his grip. But then he exhaled, slow and certain, and he reached into his back pocket â and your heart skipped. Stumbled. Froze.
Meanwhile, Jake was already lowering himself to one knee in the sand.
You froze in place, arms limp at your sides, lips parted and eyes wide. The ocean behind him caught the moonlight, waves crashing soft like applause, like the earth itself was holding its breath.
Jake cleared his throat, but his voice didnât shake when he began.
âIâve been thinking about this moment for a long time. At first, it was just a daydream. A maybe. Something I didnât even think I deserved. Hell, something I definitely didnât think Iâd ever earn. But then, you gave me a second chance. You let me prove that I could be more than the kid who didnât know how to love someone right.â He smiled up at you, that cocky, sunlit grin softened by something deeper â devotion. âYou turned the golden boy into the fool. And Iâve never been more grateful to be foolish.â
Your hand flew to your mouth, eyes already stinging. Jake kept going.
âYou humbled me. You outranked me â literally and metaphorically â and thank God for that. Because I needed to be humbled. I needed to be taught that love isnât a reward for good behavior. Itâs something you earn by showing up. By trying. By apologizing and meaning it. By choosing someone even when itâs hard.â His voice thickened, but he didnât stop. âYou made me want to be better. Not for a medal. Not for a promotion. But for you.â
Then, his voice dropped to a whisper, almost reverent. âYou are the strongest, smartest, most terrifyingly brilliant woman Iâve ever met. You know me in a way no one else ever has. You see me â even when I didnât want to be seen. Even when I didnât like what was underneath. And you stayed. You stayed, Rogue.â
He opened the small box then, and the ring glinted like a promise â a simple band, nothing overdone, but so clearly chosen with care. It looked like you. Honest. Steady. Sharp in its elegance.
Jakeâs eyes locked on yours, and his voice barely made it past the catch in his throat. âSo now Iâm asking. Not just as the man who loves you â but as the man who wants to spend the rest of his life making up for every moment I wasnât there. Commander. Rogue. The love of my life.â
He swallowed hard, chest rising and falling with the force of it. âWill you marry me?â
For a second, nothing moved. Not the wind. Not the waves. Not even you. It was as if time had gone still, the world narrowing down to the two of you beneath the stars. Jake could feel his heartbeat in his throat, behind his eyes, hammering inside his chest like it wanted to escape. His knee pressed into the sand, his hand holding the box steady, but everything else inside him trembled â because this was the leap. This was the real dogfight. Not in the sky, but here on the ground, where love didnât just take courage, it took surrender.
Then, you exhaled â a breath caught somewhere between disbelief and joy â and your hands rose slowly, trembling as they covered your mouth. Your eyes were wide, wet, disbelieving in that way that shattered him because how could someone like you ever be surprised that someone would want you forever?
âJake,â you whispered, barely audible over the hush of the surf. âYou⌠idiot. You absolute dumb, recklessââ You were already crying, and Jake felt his own vision blur again. âOf course. Of course itâs yes.â
And just like that, time slammed back into motion.
Jake let out a breath that collapsed into a laugh, choked and giddy, like someone who had just survived something dangerous and divine. He surged up from the sand before you could even finish wiping your cheeks and pulled you into him, arms tight around your waist, mouth pressed to yours like a vow. It was desperate and tender and all-consuming, like he couldnât get close enough, like he still didnât believe this was real â that heâd asked and youâd said yes and the world hadnât stopped spinning from the sheer weight of it.
Meanwhile, your hands were in his hair, in his collar, gripping him like you were trying to hold him to the ground, like you were both afraid he might disappear. He kissed you again, and again, and again, only pulling back just enough to rest his forehead against yours, breathless.
âYou said yes,â he whispered, lips brushing yours. âYou actually said yes.â
You nodded, smiling through your tears. âI did. I said yes, Seresin. Try not to crash the moment.â
Then, he laughed, bright and loose, the sound ringing out into the night air like a victory bell. He held you close, one arm wrapped around your back, the other still holding the ring between you as if the universe needed to know you were spoken for.
He slipped the ring onto your finger with shaking hands and kissed you like a man who had just found the rest of his life.
As the kiss finally broke â sweet and slow, your noses brushing gently as you pulled away â the sound of cheering erupted behind you like a wave crashing against the shore. Jake blinked in surprise before turning his head toward the Hard Deck. The windows were lit up like a festival, filled with blurry silhouettes of your people practically bouncing against the glass. Maverick was grinning from the bar like heâd known all along, Penny beside him wiping at her eye. Amelia was practically climbing the table to see better, Phoenix and Halo were whooping like the sky had just given them permission, and Fanboy had both hands over his heart, dramatically swaying like he might pass out from joy.
Then came the flood â the doors of the Hard Deck swung open, the Dagger Squad pouring out, voices rising in a wild crescendo. âLetâs goooo!â Bob shouted, cheeks flushed and smile bright, while Payback let out an actual bark. Rooster clapped his hands like he was starting a standing ovation, already whistling through his fingers.
Jake laughed, dizzy with all of it, his hand not once letting go of yours. He held it up like a trophy, flashing the ring like a kid showing off a prize from a claw machine. You rolled your eyes, but your smile was all love, all firelight and softness as you leaned in close enough for only him to hear.
âAnd now,â you said coolly, brushing your thumb over his ring finger, âweâve got to choose a godfather and godmother really carefully.â
Jake blinked, confused. âWhat?â
You bit your lip to hide the smirk. âBecause Iâm pregnant.â
For exactly two seconds, Jake stared at you, face slack like his brain had quite literally shut down. Then his jaw dropped. âWaitâwait, what?â
You didnât say anything, just lifted one eyebrow and gave the faintest nod.
âIâm gonna be a dad?â he asked, voice climbing with each word until it nearly cracked. His free hand shot up to his head like he was checking if this was a hallucination. âIâm gonna be a dad?!â
You snorted, and before you could say another word, Jake actually let out a full-blown shout and jumped up, fist in the air like heâd just won the Super Bowl. âIâM GONNA BE A DAD!â
The crowd from the Hard Deck went absolutely feral. Bob actually screamed. Yale dropped his drink. Rooster almost fell to his knees in the sand. Maverick just buried his face in his hands with a laugh, while Jinx and Ruin looked like theyâd just been hit by a tidal wave of unfiltered joy.
Jake turned back to you, grabbing your waist and lifting you slightly off the ground as he spun in one giddy circle, laughing the whole way. âYouâre serious?â he gasped. âYouâre not just saying that to win the proposal?â
âIâm serious, you absolute idiot,â you said, both laughing and crying now. âYouâre gonna be a dad.â
Jake didnât kiss you this time. He just stared â wide-eyed, jaw slack, the sun hitting his face as he tried to process all of it. And you could see it. The exact second it hit him. That his future wasnât just a woman anymore. It was a family.
And it was real.
The car ride home was quiet, sure â but not peaceful. It throbbed. Each second was soaked in everything unspoken: the glitter of a brand-new ring on your hand, the ghost of the cheers in your ears, and Jake fucking Seresin stealing glances like he didnât know whether to cry or pull over and fuck you in the backseat till you saw stars. Like he was one breath away from breaking, but holding it in just to savor the ache.
You parked. The engine died. But neither of you moved.
The porchlight spilled gold over the front of the house, casting long, lazy shadows like it knew what was about to happen. Jake turned to you, slow and reverent, his eyes devouring you like you were his favorite goddamn prayer. His fingers brushed along your jaw with this impossible tenderness, and he whispered, hoarse, âYou sure youâre real?â
You tilted your head into his touch, lips parted. âWas just about to ask you the same thing.â
The door barely clicked shut behind you before the air snapped.
He didnât lunge. He didnât pounce. Jake was slow â agonizingly slow. He closed the distance like a man approaching holy ground. Because thatâs what you were now, werenât you? His woman. His wife-to-be. The mother of his child.
And fuck, if that didnât wreck him.
âI need to be careful,â he breathed, his thumb brushing over the stretch of your lower belly, barely a curve yet â but his whole soul already bowed before it. âYouâre mine. All of you. Both of you.â His voice cracked on the last word. And thatâs when it all snapped loose.
He kissed you, open-mouthed and starved, like a man lost at sea who just found land. His hands slid up your sides, under your shirt, thumbs teasing the underside of your tits till you gasped into his mouth. He growled, low in his chest, âYou better tell me now if you want soft, baby, because I am barely hanginâ on.â
You smirked against his lips. âYouâre gonna be a dad. You really think I want soft?â
That broke him. He stripped you bare with unhurried hands and filthy eyes, every inch of you kissed, licked, marked. He dropped to his knees like it was instinct, spreading your legs with gentle hands, and just looked.
âFuck,â he whispered. âYouâre already so wet, arenât you? Fuckinâ soaked, all for me.â He pressed an open-mouthed kiss to your inner thigh, then sucked a bruise right there, claiming skin like it was sacred. âI havenât even touched you properly yet.â
When he did? Oh, God.
His tongue was sinful. He licked you with slow precision, devouring every drip, every whimper, like he was starving for you. And when he slipped two fingers inside you, crooking them just right?
You screamed.
âShh,â he smirked, lips shiny, voice gravel. âYouâll wake the neighborhood, sweetheart. Let âem know youâre mine, huh?â
You came with his name on your lips and his tongue still buried in you, but that wasnât enough for him. Not even close.
He pulled back, unzipped his jeans, and let his cock slap against his stomach â flushed, hard, throbbing.
âYouâre gonna take all of it,â he growled. âEvery inch. Youâre fuckinâ made for me. Look at you. Fucking perfect, pregnant with my kid, and still so greedy for my cock.â
And then he pressed in.
So slow. Too slow. The stretch burned, and it was glorious. You clawed at his back, panting, writhing, begging â and he just watched you fall apart under him like he was memorizing it.
âFuck, baby,â he groaned, holding himself still inside you. âYou feel that? How tight you are? This pussyâs mine. Youâre mine. All of you.â
You whimpered, bucking your hips, but he pinned you down with one big hand on your hip.
âUh-uh. Iâm gonna fuck you slow, sweetheart. I wanna feel you. Every squeeze, every breath. Wanna fuckinâ watch you fall apart.â
And he did.
Every thrust was deliberate, deep, filthy. He rocked into you with precision, dragging moans from your chest and curses from your lips. His hand stayed on your belly, protective, reverent, even while he was ruining you.
âYouâre gonna carry my kid, wear my ring, and still beg for this cock every damn night, huh?â he rasped, sweat dripping from his jaw. âYou like it. You love being full of me. Stuffed and leaking.â
You moaned â helpless, wrecked, blissed-out.
He kissed your temple, slow and sweet, even as he fucked you harder. âIâll be careful,â he swore. âBut I ainât pullinâ out. Not ever again. This pussyâs got a job now â stayinâ warm and full of my fuckinâ cum.â
When he finally came â deep inside you, groaning your name, shaking with it â he didnât stop moving. Just rocked you through it, slow, deep thrusts while you clenched around him like you never wanted to let him go.
And when it was over? When you were trembling in his arms, filled to the brim with him and still gasping?
Jake kissed your ring, your lips, and your belly.
And then he whispered, âNext round, I want you on top. Wanna watch those tits bounce while you ride me.â
You climbed on top of him, naked and lazy and smug, his hands immediately going to your thighs like they belonged there. He watched you through half-lidded eyes, lips parted, hair sticking to his forehead. Wrecked. Gorgeous. Already getting hard again under you.
âLook at you,â he whispered, awe in every syllable. âGonna ride me with my fuckinâ baby inside you?â
You grinned, leaning down until your lips brushed his. âThought thatâs what you wanted.â
âOh, itâs exactly what I wanted.â
He grabbed his cock, guiding it up between your folds â slow, teasing strokes that made you both gasp. You were still soaked, still sensitive, and when you finally sank down onto him? He shook.
âJesus fuck,â he hissed. âStill so tight. You tryna kill me?â
You rocked your hips, slow and deep, letting him feel every inch. âMaybe.â
Jakeâs hands went to your hips, gripping hard enough to bruise but holding back, letting you set the pace. His eyes dropped to your stomach â just the faintest curve â and his breath caught.
âYouâre carryinâ my kid,â he said like a prayer. âAnd now youâre sittinâ on my cock like itâs yours.â
âIt is mine,â you whispered, grinding down until he cursed. âYou gave it to me.â
He moaned, long and low, hips bucking up just once before he caught himself. âFuck, baby. Donât say shit like that unless you want me to come already.â
You rode him slow â hips rolling in a rhythm that was more tease than thrust, more ache than relief. He let you set the pace, but he couldnât stop watching. The way your tits bounced. The way your belly shifted when you moved. The way his cock disappeared into you like you were made for it.
âYou feel that?â you whispered, leaning down until your lips brushed his ear. âHow deep you are? Right where you belong?â
Jake growled, grabbing your ass with both hands, kneading it as he groaned. âYouâre filthy. Fuckinâ filthy. And I love it.â
You sped up, riding him harder now â still slow, still controlled, but punishing in the way your walls clenched and your moans broke. Jakeâs head tilted back, sweat beading at his brow, his whole body straining under you.
âLet me see,â he begged. âTouch yourself. Câmon, baby, lemme watch you fall apart.â
You obeyed, fingers slipping between your legs to rub tight circles over your clit. You clenched down on him, moaning loud, breath hitching, vision blurring. He watched every damn second of it â eyes locked on yours like you were the only thing left in the world.
âYou look so fuckinâ perfect,â he groaned. âRidinâ me like that, carryinâ my baby. Fuck. I could come just from lookinâ at you.â
You tightened around him and that was it â Jake lost it.
He slammed up into you, losing control for just a second, and you welcomed it â met every thrust with one of your own. He grunted, voice rough and raw, âTake it. Fuckinâ take all of it, baby. You want more, donât you? Want me fillinâ you up over and over till youâre drippinâ with it?â
You came with a strangled moan, clenching hard around him, and that was what finally broke him.
Jake groaned your name like a curse and a prayer, hips stuttering, spilling into you again, deep and messy and so much. He held you down on him, grinding through the aftershocks, panting, swearing, kissing your belly like it was holy.
And then he whispered, dazed, âWhat the fuck did I do to deserve you?â
You smiled down at him, blissed out and aching and full in every sense of the word.
âYou knocked me up,â you said sweetly.
Jake laughed â breathless, ragged â and ran a hand down your spine.
âThen I guess I better keep doinâ it.â
You barely made it to the bathroom. Your legs were shaking, cum dripping down your thighs, and Jake â still flushed and breathless from round two â followed behind like he was stalking prey. The water was already running when he pressed you against the cool tile, his hands rough on your hips, mouth hot on your neck. The steam rose around you like smoke, wrapping both of you in something feral and thick.
"Look at you," he rasped, licking a stripe up the column of your throat. "Still fuckinâ leaking from me. You're mine, baby. Walkinâ around full of me, full of my kid, and now youâre lookinâ at me like you want more."
You whimpered â didnât even deny it.
He spun you gently, pressing your front to the wall, and dropped to his knees behind you. Spread your legs. Didnât even wait.
His tongue buried itself in your cunt like he was starving. He groaned against you, wet and obscene, licking up his own cum as it spilled out of you.
âFuckinâ messy,â he growled, voice vibrating against your soaked folds. âCanât even keep it all inside you, can you?â
He licked every drop clean. Then sucked your clit, slow and relentless, until your knees buckled and you were begging â stuttering his name like a sin.
âPlease, Jakeââ
He stood behind you, dragging his cock through your folds, hot and heavy, pressing against your entrance without pushing in.
âYou want more of my cum in you, baby? You want me to fuck you with our baby inside you, stuff you full again?â
You moaned â needy and feral â grinding your ass back against him. âYes. God, yes.â
Jake didnât ask again. He slid into you from behind, one hand braced on your hip, the other splayed across your belly. His cock filled you slow â too slow â stretching you open again, making you feel every damn inch.
âFuck, baby,â he hissed, hips pressing flush to yours. âThis pussyâs so fuckinâ perfect. Just takes me.â
He started moving â deep, hard thrusts that smacked your hips into the tile, but never strayed from that possessive grip on your belly. Like he was claiming you and the life growing inside you in one goddamn motion.
âYou like this, huh?â he panted. âGettinâ bred in the shower? My cum dripping out of you while I fuck you right back open?â
You couldnât speak. You just moaned, fingers clawing at the slick wall, body arching into every thrust like it was instinct. He bent down, pressing his chest to your back, voice dark and thick in your ear.
âThis pussy belongs to me now. Every time I fuck you, you get tighter. Hungrier. Like your body knows what itâs made for.â
You whimpered, lost in it, and Jake grinned.
âGonna keep you pregnant, baby,â he growled. âKeep fuckinâ filling you up till this bellyâs round and swollen with my kid. Gonna make sure everyone knows who fucked you like this.â
He slammed into you harder. The slap of skin echoed in the shower, filthy and fast, water cascading over both your bodies like it couldnât wash away any of the sin.
âI want you so full you feel me for days,â he groaned. âGonna fill this tight little cunt again. You ready for that?â
You nodded frantically, clenching around him. âPlease, Jake. Fuck, pleaseâneed itâneed you.â
That broke him. He slammed into you once, twice, and then spilled inside you with a shout â hot, thick pulses of cum painting your insides while he held you there, cock twitching deep, his whole body shaking with it.
And even after he came, he didnât pull out. He stayed inside you. Held your hips, kissed your spine. Murmured filth and praise and a little bit of love against your neck while your bodies pulsed and throbbed and trembled together under the water.
âYouâre fuckinâ dangerous,â he whispered. âGonna end up with a whole squad of little Seresins runninâ around if you keep lookinâ at me like that.â
You looked over your shoulder, dazed and fucked-out. âMight not be a bad thing.â
Jake grinned. âThen I guess we better practice.â
Jake watched you step out of the shower, water still clinging to your skin, and something in him snapped. You caught the look â dark and feral, low on patience but high on obsession â just as your back hit the cold counter.
âGet your hands on the sink,â he growled, voice rough as gravel, still dripping wet, cock already hard again. âNow.â
You did it without thinking. Bent forward, palms flat, steam curling in the mirror in front of you. You could see yourself. Eyes glassy. Lips swollen. That barely-there swell of your belly.
And then Jake was behind you.
He kicked your legs apart, wrapped a firm hand around your throat from behind, and leaned down till his lips brushed your ear. âLook at you,â he rasped. âFucked three times already and still so needy. Canât get enough of me, huh?â
You whimpered, pushing your hips back against him. You could feel his cock pressing against your ass, hot and heavy and so ready.
âOh, you want it,â he said, cocky and breathless. âYou want me to bend you over this sink and fill you again while our babyâs still soaking in the last load I gave you.â
And then â fuck â he slid into you.
No teasing this time. No softness. Just one brutal, delicious thrust that knocked the air from your lungs and had your knuckles going white against the counter.
âEyes on the mirror,â he growled. âI want you to watch me fuck you. Watch how good you look when youâre getting bred like this.â
You lifted your head, lips parted, face flushed. In the mirror, you saw it all â the way your body trembled with every thrust, the way his hand stayed right on your belly, protective and possessive, even while he was ruining you.
âGod damn,â Jake grunted, pounding into you so deep you saw stars. âThis pussyâs so fuckinâ perfect. Warm and tight and already so full. But it still wants more, huh?â
You moaned â high and broken â and he gave it to you.
He fucked you hard, relentless and punishing, hips slapping into your ass with obscene sound. One hand on your belly, the other slipping between your legs, rubbing tight circles over your clit that had your knees buckling.
âFeel that?â he panted. âThatâs me. Stuffinâ you full over and over till youâre dripping. Youâre gonna see it â dripping out of you down your thighs, all over this sink, âcause your greedy little cunt canât hold it all in.â
You came with a cry, body spasming around him, and Jake lost it.
He slammed into you, once, twice, and then came with a snarl â hot and so much â his cock twitching inside you as he filled you again. But he didnât pull out. He stayed inside you, grinding slow, watching his cum spill out and slide down your thighs in the mirror.
Jake kissed your shoulder, rough and breathless. âFuckinâ look at that,â he whispered. âYouâre dripping, baby. Dripping with me. I could spend the rest of my life right here â fucking you full, watching it leak out, and doing it all over again.â
You met his eyes in the mirror, ruined and flushed and glowing. âThen do it,â you whispered.
Jake grinned. âOh, I plan to.â
You were still bent over the sink, arms trembling, breath stuttering out of your lungs as your thighs twitched from the last orgasm. His cum was dripping down your legs, thick and hot, pooling at the backs of your knees.
And Jake? He stepped back, panting, eyes locked on the mess between your legs like a man possessed. His fingers brushed your inner thigh, catching a trail of it â and when he brought it to his mouth, licking it off with a groan?
Something unholy took over. âFuck,â he muttered. âYouâre leaking. Look at this shit â I just filled you up and youâre wasting it. Canât let that happen.â
And then he dropped to his knees. No hesitation. No teasing. Just hands gripping your thighs, spreading you open, face diving in like he was starving â like the only thing that mattered was tasting everything he left inside you.
His tongue licked a slow stripe from your knee up to your center, catching every bit of cum as it dripped out. He moaned against your pussy, deep, filthy, obscene.
âJesus fuck, baby,â he groaned, lapping at your folds. âYou taste like me. So fuckinâ good â sweet and messy and mine.â
He started eating you out from behind, tongue pushing into your soaked cunt, licking up the mix of both of you like it was dessert. Every moan vibrated against you. Every filthy word was soaked in praise.
âGonna fuckinâ clean you up with my mouth,â he panted. âGet every drop back where it belongs. Canât let this pussy waste a thing, not when itâs mine.â
You were shaking. Boneless. Gasping his name like it was the only word you knew.
He used his fingers now â spreading your folds so he could see the mess, groaning like it drove him insane. And it did.
âThis right here?â he whispered, licking a drop off your clit. âThis is what I want every day. You, bent over, leaking with my cum, and me down here takinâ care of it like a good fuckinâ man.â
You cried out when he sucked your clit into his mouth, tongue working in slow, punishing circles. Your hands fumbled for the edge of the sink, trying to hold on as he licked you clean and brought you to the edge again â your third, fourth, who-the-fuck-knows at this point.
And when you came, again, shuddering and sobbing and completely undone, Jake groaned into your cunt like it fed him.
He didnât stop until your legs were shaking, your pussy was clean, and your breath was just little broken gasps.
Then he stood, slow, smug, lips glistening. He kissed your shoulder, your neck, and finally your lips â letting you taste just how wrecked you were.
And he whispered, warm and dark, against your mouth: âNext time, sweetheart⌠youâre gonna sit on my face. And you better be leaking.â
Later, you lay tangled in his arms, the room quiet save for the soft hum of the ceiling fan and the steady beat of Jakeâs heart beneath your ear. His fingers traced lazy patterns along your spine, and you could feel his smile in the kiss he pressed to your temple.
âMrs. Seresin,â he murmured, voice thick with love and sleep.
You grinned, pressing a kiss to his chest. âNot yet.â
âSoon,â he whispered, pulling you closer. âAnd forever after that.â
And in that moment â wrapped in his arms, the future glowing just ahead â you believed it.
The first month after your engagement passed in a haze of quiet wonder. You and Jake moved through the days like you were still in a dream, passing the ring between your fingers when the world felt too loud, whispering âfiancĂŠâ like it was a secret only you two were allowed to hold. The pregnancy symptoms hadnât kicked in just yetâjust the whisper of fatigue, the occasional bout of nausea, the way your heart raced when he touched your stomach like it already held galaxies. Jake read every article he could get his hands on, even highlighted some (in three colors), and kept a growing folder on his phone called baby research. You laughed, but part of you melted too.
By the second month, the nausea hit with a vengeance. You found yourself curled on the bathroom floor more times than you could count, your head resting on Jakeâs thigh while he rubbed your back and whispered comfort like prayers. He tried to cook for youâGod help himâand after two failed attempts at scrambled eggs and a melted plastic spatula, you both agreed he was banned from the kitchen unless supervised. Meanwhile, he started keeping saltines in his pockets like some over-prepared dad scout and offered them to you with the most serious face imaginable, which made you want to cry and laugh at the same time. Hormones. Yay.
The third month brought cravings. Horrible, chaotic, unpredictable cravings. You once burst into tears because you wanted fried pickles and caramel ice cream at the same time. Jake, bless his golden soul, did not question the science of your hunger. He just got in the truck at 11 p.m. in his boxers and a hoodie, drove thirty minutes, and came back victorious. âAnything for my girls,â he declared, smug. You, still mid-bite, glared. âJake,â you said with narrowed eyes. âItâs a boy.â He raised a brow. âNope. I googled your symptomsânausea this early? Thatâs a girl. Plus, your feet are colder.â You blinked. âIâm literally growing a person. Every symptom makes sense.â He smirked. âExactly. Girl.â
By the fourth month, you were officially showing. Just a bump. A little one. Enough for Jake to start whispering to your stomach when he thought you were asleep, saying things like, âHey, you donât know me yet, but Iâm your dad. Iâm sorry for being dumb sometimes, but I promise, Iâll learn.â You didnât always cry. But sometimes? You really did. Especially after HR cornered you gently with a memo in hand, officially placing you on maternity leave. You cried in the car with the door open, muttering that you were still capable and just needed another month. Jake held you through it, one arm around your shoulders, the other cradling your belly. âYouâre not leaving the sky,â he whispered. âYouâre just giving someone else a reason to fly.â
The fifth month was when the bickering intensified. Jake, now fully convinced he was correct, began baby-name debates with âgirl options only.â You countered by buying a onesie that read Future Maverick with little aviator wings stitched on the chest. Jake recoiled dramatically. âThatâs your call sign,â he pointed out. âThe babyâs gonna need something more badass. Like Viper 2.0.â You tossed a pillow at him. âYou think weâre having a damn F-14, not a human child.â
Meanwhile, the baby kicked for the first time. And both of you forgot the argument instantly.
Jake dropped to his knees, hands trembling, eyes wide. âDidâdid he just kick?â You looked down at him, smug. âHe?â Jakeâs face faltered. âI meanâthey. They kicked.â You just smiled, threading your fingers through his hair. âGotcha.â
Then came the sixth month, where the weird dreams began. You swore you were fighting aliens with a diaper bag and a lightsaber. Jake swore he saw your belly grow three times in one night. The both of you were sleep-deprived, emotionally unstable, and yet somehow, more in love than ever. He started painting the nursery without telling youâbadlyâand you ended up helping, barefoot on newspaper, both of you speckled with pale green. âItâs gender-neutral,â Jake declared proudly. You raised an eyebrow. âSo is white, but go off, Picasso.â
But even with the teasing and the chaos, something in Jake had changed. He was softer now. Quieter, sometimes. Like the world had finally tilted into focus. Every day heâd pull you close, rest his forehead against yours, and murmur something low, like, âThank you for giving me this.â
And you would answer, always with a smile: âItâs ours.â
By the seventh month, there was no hiding it anymore. Your walk had slowed, your back ached more often than not, and the little kicks had turned into full-blown somersaults that made Jake leap up mid-conversation and yell, âSheâs practicing her turns!â To which youâd calmly respond, âHe is literally kicking my bladder, not flying a sortie.â It was an ongoing war, this baby-gender debate, and both of you were committed to your sides like two stubborn admirals refusing to yield.
Meanwhile, the Dagger Squad had become fully invested. Phoenix took it upon herself to host a âneutralâ baby shower, complete with cake pops, tactical onesies, and a betting board on the babyâs gender. Fanboy made spreadsheets. Yale cried twice while writing a toast. Rooster tried to be the godfather in advance by bringing you smoothies and casually flexing in front of Jake, who responded by following you everywhere like a loyal guard dog.
âYouâre not the one carrying the baby,â you told Jake one evening when he insisted on buckling your shoes for you.
âI know,â he replied, kissing your knee, âbut Iâm the one who loves both of you. So you better get used to me hovering.â
By the eighth month, Penny had dubbed you the Hard Deck Queen. You barely made it three feet inside without being swarmedâAmelia made a habit of talking to your bump like it could respond, Bob offered calming teas, and even Cyclone started opening doors with a muttered âCommander Rogue coming through.â You were glowing, sure, but also perpetually annoyed, emotional, and sweaty. Jake, the fool, found this adorable.
And then the incident happened.
One night, Maverick threw a low-key dinner for the squad, and someone (Harvard) let slip that you had been voted âMost Likely to Scare the Baby Into Good Grades.â Youâd blinked. Then narrowed your eyes. âExcuse me?â But before a proper roast could commence, Jake had stood and clinked his glass like a proud husband at a wedding.
âI just wanna say,â he began dramatically, âthat my wifeâsorry, fiancĂŠeâis the strongest, smartest, most terrifyingly hot woman Iâve ever known. And alsoâŚâ He paused. Then looked directly at you. âSheâs wrong. Weâre having a girl. And I will be a girl dad if it kills me.â
Chaos ensued.
Rooster yelled âTeam Boy!â from across the table. Coyote called it âtoo early to declare.â Yale and Fanboy cried again. You just sat there, hand on your belly, staring at Jake like you couldnât believe he made breathing this annoying.
In the ninth month, you took leave from nearly everything. Not because you wanted toâbut because you had to. Your feet were swollen, your hips were sore, and the baby had taken up residence in your lungs like it was subletting space. You cried when you saw your uniform hanging in the closet, and again when you realized you couldnât zip it anymore. Jake caught you both times, arms wrapping around you gently, forehead resting on your shoulder.
âI miss flying,â you whispered once.
He kissed your temple. âYouâll fly again. Right now, youâre building the best wingman weâll ever have.â
Your days were slower now, softer. The nursery was finishedâaviation-themed, of courseâwith hand-drawn clouds Jake had painstakingly painted himself. Maverick and Penny dropped by often with food, gifts, and very unsolicited parenting advice. Hondo gave Jake a stern lecture about burping techniques. You nearly peed yourself laughing.
But at night, it was just the two of you again. Jake would talk to the baby through your belly, reading flight manuals in a bedtime voice, making little jokes that made you snort and then wince. âShe likes my voice,â heâd whisper. You rolled your eyes. âHeâs trying to sleep.â
It was supposed to be a chill afternoon. Just a couple of hours at the Hard Deck, some mocktails, light banter, and Rooster trying to convince Jake that the baby was going to come out with his jawline. But then, without warning, your glass slipped from your fingers, clinking gently against the floor as your hand went to your belly. You blinked once. Twice. Then you stood, very slowly, and calmly said the words that sent a shockwave through the bar.
âOh, my water just broke.â
For a second, there was silence. Dead silence. Like the music itself paused to listen. Thenâ
âOKAY. EVERYONE. STAY CALM!â Jake barked, standing so fast his chair skidded backward and hit Yale in the shin. âSHEâS HAVING THE BABY. I REPEATâTHE BABY IS COMINGâSTAY CALMââ
No one was calm. Least of all Jake.
He spun in three full circles, pointing to people like he was issuing deployment orders. âPhoenix! TowelsâI donât know, just in case? Rooster! Clear the path. Bob, I needâuhâwhat do I need?â
âYou need your fiancĂŠe,â you said dryly, hands on your hips, looking far too composed for someone whose child was on the way. âPreferably not abandoned in the middle of a bar.â
Jake had bolted halfway to the car by then, keys in hand, but your voiceâlaced with unimpressed Command energyâyanked him back like a leash. He reversed course so fast it was almost cartoonish, scrambling back to your side with wild eyes and flailing arms.
âRight, right, yep, noâbaby firstâyes, okay,â he muttered. âWeâve trained for this. Flight manual said breathe. And support. And snacks. Wait, did we bring the hospital bag?â
âItâs in the car,â you said, wincing slightly as another contraction hit. âSeresin, if you leave me one more time, I will hobble my way to labor and then make you watch the full delivery standing.â
Jake paled. âNever. Never again. Iâm glued to you. Like a barnacle. I am your barnacle.â
Meanwhile, Penny had already called ahead to the hospital, Maverick was handing you your go-bag like a seasoned Navy vet ready for deployment, and Amelia was snapping blurry photos, whispering, âThis is going in the baby album.â
The drive to the hospital was a blur. Jake had one hand on the wheel and the other on your knee the entire time, muttering affirmations under his breath like some half-prayer, half-pep talk. âYouâre doing great. Youâre amazing. Weâre gonna meet them. I swear I didnât mean to say it was a girl this whole time. Boy or girl, I love them. I love you. Did I say that already? Okay, Iâll say it again.â
You groaned through a contraction, gripping the door handle tightly. âJake, please. Focus.â
âI am focused. Hyper-focused. This is me being a calm and rational father,â he said, taking a corner a bit too fast. âAlso, I might throw up.â
But eventually, finally, the hospital doors opened before you like a miracle. Nurses were already waiting, a wheelchair ready, and Jake was practically vibrating out of his skin with nerves. He followed your stretcher like a man possessed, clinging to your hand the second you allowed it, whispering again and again, âYouâve got this. Weâve got this. I love you.â
The contractions were getting closer, sharper, and everything smelled like disinfectant and adrenaline.
Still no baby yet. But soon. So very soon.
The delivery room was a battlefield. Monitors beeped in rhythm with your rising pulse, nurses moved like clockwork around you, and the doctorâs calm instructions barely registered over the white-hot pain pulsing through your body. You were soaked in sweat, your legs were in stirrups, and the pressure building inside you felt like the sky was trying to fall out of you in one violent, miraculous moment.
Jake was beside you. Barely.
âYOU DID THIS TO ME!â you screamed, clutching his hand in a death grip that had him hunched over in pain. âI SWEAR TO GOD, JAKE SERESIN, IF YOU EVER LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT AGAINââ
âIâm sorry! Iâm sorry!â Jake yelped, tears already streaking down his cheeks as he tried to both breathe and not pass out. âYouâre doing amazing, baby, I swear! Iâm never touching you again unless you tell me to. I swear it. Youâreâoh my Godâis that the head?!â
âSTOP LOOKING!â you shrieked. âWHY ARE YOU LOOKING?! STAY BY MY FACE!â
âIâM TRYING TO BE SUPPORTIVE!â he cried, wiping his nose with his shoulder as he braced your hand to his chest. âIâve never been so scared in my lifeâGod, youâre so strong, I love you, Iâm sorry for everything Iâve ever done!â
âDAMN RIGHT YOU ARE,â you shouted, nearly ripping his arm from the socket as another contraction slammed through you. The doctor calmly told you to push, and the nurse offered words of encouragement, but all you could focus on was Jakeâs wide, tear-filled eyes and the fact that youâd probably break every bone in his hand before this was over.
Meanwhile, Jake was trying not to fall apart. He had flown combat missions, been shot at, survived some of the worst conditions known to manâbut none of that compared to watching you fight through the pain like this. Heâd never seen anything so terrifying. Or so holy.
âYouâre almost there,â the doctor said with a calm that made you want to slap him. âOne more push. Come on, Mama. Youâve got this.â
âI hate you,â you told Jake, bearing down with all the strength left in your body.
Jake sobbed. âI love you, too!â
And thenâjust like thatâtime split wide open.
There was a cry. Small. Loud. Angry. The sound of life punching its way into the world.
Your body went slack with exhaustion, your chest heaving as you stared at the ceiling in disbelief. The pain ebbed, not gone but dulled, and your handâstill gripping Jakeâsârelaxed ever so slightly.
Jake gasped. âOh, my God.â
The nurse was cleaning the baby, the doctor already congratulating you, but all Jake could do was cry harder as he turned to you with trembling lips and whispered, âYou did it. Youâbaby, you did it. Lookâlook, itâs our kid.â
Then the nurse placed the tiny, wrinkled, squirming bundle into your arms. Your eyes widened. Your breath caught. And for a moment, nothing existed but this small miracle against your chest, this impossibly warm, impossibly loud creature with your nose and Jakeâs pout.
âHeâs perfect,â you whispered, barely able to believe the words.
Jake froze. âWaitâhe?!â
You looked up with a smug, exhausted grin. âTold you it was a boy.â
Jake Seresinâs knees nearly gave out.
âOh my God,â he breathed, utterly undone, leaning over to kiss your forehead and then the babyâs. âIâm a dad. Iâm really a dad. You're a mom. And heâsâheâs so smallâdo they always come out this small?! Oh my God, you made him. You made this whole person, babe.â
âYou helped,â you muttered with a tired smirk.
Jake laughed through his tears, sitting beside you on the edge of the bed, one hand cradling your shoulder and the other brushing over your sonâs impossibly soft head. âHeâs ours,â he whispered like it was a secret he was still trying to believe. âWe made a whole-ass person.â
You didnât speakâjust leaned your head against his and closed your eyes, letting the weight of it all settle. Your son snuffled gently against your chest, a little fighter already, full of voice and storm and love.
And Jake? He was already gone for him. For both of you.
The room had quieted into something sacred. The dim overhead light hummed faintly, casting a soft golden glow over pale blue walls and the low beeping of machines that monitored steady, rhythmic signs of life. The chaos of labor had given way to something still and warm. You were fast asleep now, your face slack with exhaustion, cheeks flushed, one hand curled against your chest like even in sleep you were still tethered to the memory of holding him.
Meanwhile, Jake sat shirtless in the reclining chair tucked in the corner of the hospital room, the baby swaddled snug against his bare chest, skin-to-skin as the nurse had instructed. His dog tags hung just above the bundle, catching the light every time he breathed a little too hard. The soft rise and fall of his chest matched the slow, steady rhythm of the babyâs tiny breaths. Jake had one large palm curved protectively over his sonâs back, his thumb tracing slow, reverent circles. His other hand rested behind the babyâs head, cradling it with the sort of gentleness no one had ever thought Lieutenant Jake Seresin capable of.
His eyes, thoughâthose were something else entirely.
âHey, little guy,â Jake whispered, voice just above a hush. âWe havenât officially met yet. I mean, not outside the womb where youâve been doing karate on your poor momâs organs for the past few months.â
The baby didnât stir. He was tucked against Jakeâs chest like he belonged there, utterly content, as if he knew this heartbeat by instinct alone.
Jake chuckled under his breath, voice still watery with disbelief. âYouâre⌠youâre really here.â He glanced over at your sleeping form, gaze softening like it always did when he looked at you. Then, he tilted his head back down. âShe did everything, you know that? She brought you here. Fought like hell. Cursed me out like a sailor and nearly broke my fingers, butâGod, Iâve never loved anyone more than I do her. Youâve got one hell of a mom, kid.â
He looked down again, lips twitching into a grin. âAnd you? You look just like me. Thatâs probably gonna be a problem later.â He traced his pinky along the babyâs soft cheek. âYouâve got my chin. My mouth. Even my ears, damn it. Sheâs gonna be so mad when she realizes she carried you for nine months just to give birth to my clone.â
The baby let out a small hiccup of air, nose scrunching as if offended. Jake grinned wider. âYeah, yeah, I hear you. Youâve got her fire, though. I can already tell.â
Outside the window, the world had gone still, the deep blue of night wrapping around the city like a blanket. In that corner of the room, though, time didnât exist. There was just Jakeâonce the golden boy, the hotshot, the reckless oneâand now⌠just a man. A father. Holding the future in his arms like it was the most fragile, sacred thing in the world.
âYouâve got no idea what youâve done to me already,â he whispered, bending to press a kiss to the top of his sonâs downy head. âBut I promise you thisâIâm not gonna miss a single moment. Not one. Iâm gonna be here. Every day. Every late night bottle, every scraped knee, every stupid little joke. Youâre stuck with me, little man.â
He leaned back slowly, eyes growing heavy now but still glued to the tiny miracle against his chest.
âI love you,â Jake whispered one last time. âAnd I love your Mommy. More than anything. Youâre the best thing thatâs ever happened to us.â
Then, just as the night deepened outside, Jake closed his eyes, rocking slowly in the chair, the baby warm and steady in his arms.
Morning sunlight filtered gently through the half-drawn curtains, casting soft, golden stripes across the hospital bed where you sat propped up against a mountain of pillows. Your hair was messy, your eyes still heavy with sleep, but none of that matteredânot when your son was latched to your chest, tiny fingers curling against your skin like heâd known you forever. You watched him in awe, blinking slowly as the waves of love, exhaustion, and straight-up disbelief washed over you in equal measure.
Meanwhile, Jake stirred in the corner, shirt half-on, hair a wild mess of blonde tufts standing at every angle. He rubbed at his eyes with the heel of his palm, blinked blearilyâand then his gaze landed on you.
He froze. A beat passed. Then another. And then, Jake Seresinânaval aviator, call sign Hangman, heartbreaker of yesteryearsâgrinned like an absolute menace.
âWell, well, well,â he drawled, voice still thick with sleep. âLike father, like son.â
You blinked up at him. âExcuse me?â
Jake leaned against the doorframe with his arms crossed, that familiar cocky tilt playing at his mouth as he motioned to your chestâwhere your newborn son was feeding contentedly, as though this were the most natural thing in the world. âLook at him. Locked in. Zoned out. Completely infatuated. Yeah. Thatâs my boy.â
You stared. He didnât even blink.
Then you groaned, adjusting your arm around the baby as you shot him a glare sharp enough to slice steel. âYou are unbelievable.â
Jake grinned wider. âI mean, câmon. You knew what you were getting into when you said yes to marrying me.â
âYou were crying in a chair twelve hours ago,â you reminded him.
âAnd now Iâm witnessing greatness in action.â He stepped closer, crouching beside the bed as he placed a gentle kiss to your temple, his hand brushing softly over the babyâs head. âAlso, I will never recover from how ridiculously beautiful you look right now.â
You narrowed your eyes, though your cheeks warmed. âI havenât showered, Iâm leaking milk, and I just gave birth.â
Jake gave a dreamy sigh. âStill the hottest woman Iâve ever seen. And our son clearly agrees.â
You rolled your eyes, but the smile tugging at your lips betrayed you. âYouâre a menace.â
He leaned in closer, his voice softening now, gaze flickering between your face and the tiny bundle nestled against you. âIâm a menace in love.â
You laughed under your breath, your free hand finding his and squeezing it gently. âYou better be. Because this little one is already a full-time job.â
Jake chuckled, brushing another kiss along your jaw before whispering, âGood thing I already got the job of a lifetime.â
âWe have to name him eventually,â Jake murmured, his voice low and lazy, like the words were slipping through the late afternoon light.
You tilted your head to glance up at him. âWe do,â you agreed. âAnd no, weâre not naming him after a jet.â
Jake feigned offense. âWhat? F-18 has a nice ring to it. Or Raptor. OohâFalcon.â
You snorted, laughing softly as you shifted the babyâs weight in your arms. âYouâre lucky Iâm too tired to throw something at you.â
âIâd dodge anyway,â he smirked, before softening again. âAlright. No jets. What are you thinking?â
You glanced back down at your son, his mouth puckered slightly in sleep, little brows already starting to resemble Jakeâs. âIâve always liked the name Theodore,â you said quietly, the name rolling off your tongue like a secret you hadnât realized youâd been holding. âIt sounds strong. Timeless. Like someone who matters.â
Jake blinked. Then looked down at the baby like he was seeing him for the first time all over again. âTheodore,â he repeated, testing it out. âTheo.â
âTheo,â you echoed, voice hushed with affection.
Jake stared for a moment longer, then smiledâsoft and deep, the kind that only ever reached his eyes when he was looking at you or, now, at the tiny human who somehow made both of you feel brand new. âHe does look like a Theodore.â
âI know, right?â You let your head rest back against him again. âTheodore Seresin. Has a nice ring to it.â
Jake grinned like heâd just won a dogfight. âItâs perfect.â
He reached down and gently touched the babyâs cheek, his thumb barely brushing the soft skin. âHi, Theo,â he whispered. âWelcome to the world, little man.â
Who would've thought? That the quiet girl once overlooked and the golden boy once too proud would end up hereâno longer adversaries, no longer almosts. Just two people, side by side, bruised and rebuilt, holding the life they made between them. In a world made of roaring engines, heavy medals, and call signs stitched onto uniforms, it was never the victories in the sky that defined them. It was thisâlate afternoons wrapped in quiet laughter, soft kisses pressed to sleepy foreheads, whispered arguments over baby names and midnight feeds. It was love, loud and unruly, tender and patient.
And somehow, in the mess of all the years, the heartbreak, the second chancesâthey became a little family.
The fool, the golden boy, and the miracle they named Theodore.
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the golden boy becomes the fool ; jake "hangman" seresin x reader [part five]
pairings: jake "hangman" seresin x reader
word count: 22.3k words (i am so sorry)
summary: jake seresin was the golden boy, then there was you, the fool. he had everythingâcharm, swagger, a future carved out in medals and glory. you were the quiet one, the weird one, the girl he used and tossed aside like a joke. years passed. ranks changed. you rose. he stayed the same, until suddenly he didnât. thrown back together in the sky and on the ground, bitterness turned to tension, and tension lit a match neither of you were ready to put out. old wounds were reopened, truths finally spoken, and under texas stars, it wasnât the fool who brokeâit was the boy who begged. and now everyoneâs asking the same thing: how the hell did the golden boy become the fool?
warnings: angst, unresolved tension, sexual tension, emotional monologues, past bullying, mutual pining, late-night realizations, texas farm setting, childhood trauma, muddy chaos, jake seresin being painfully in love, emotional breakdowns, slow burn, redemption arc, accidental co-showering, stubborn idiots in love, soft!jake, rogue being a baddie, found family feels, one (1) dog named bingo, and a swing set that saw everything. oh, and did we mention? angst.
notes: finally we are in the last part. to be honest, this was supposed to be just two parts and look where we are⌠part five. thank you so much for the love, for screaming with me in the tags, for the asks, for everything. i cried writing this. like actually. and oh, did i mention that we will have an epilogue? yeah. buckle up again, babe. it ainât over just yet
part one , part two , part three , part four , epilogue
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your call sign is rogue.
- Jake -Â
Somewhere between Rogueâs final words in the boardroom and the low hum of the air conditioning unit above, Jake started drifting. Not physically â no, his boots were still planted, his arms folded like always, that cocky lean still balanced just right. But in his mind? He was spiraling. Because now, now it was starting to dawn on him: this wasnât about petty ranks, or her showing off, or the universe punishing him for being an asshole once upon a time. This was about how badly heâd fucked up, and how thoroughly sheâd risen from it.
At first, he told himself she was bluffing. That she couldnât possibly be that good. That maybe this was still the nerdy girl who lit up when he remembered her birthday and blushed when he asked if her puppy was still alive. Then she started talking tactics, commanding a room full of aviators and admirals like it was second nature. And it hit him like Gs to the chest â this was not some lucky rise. This was calculated, earned, forged in fire and fury. Meanwhile, heâd spent the years coasting on talent and charm, grinning his way out of reprimands and leaving his wingmen to hang when it counted.
Then came the real gut punch: the memory of her birthday. Not the part with the cake or the puppy. No â the look on her face when her parents smiled at him. The look that said this is the closest youâll ever get to mattering to me. And heâd still walked away. Walked away like she was nothing but a sweet girl who wanted too much, too fast â when in reality, she was everything he couldâve hoped to become. And he humiliated her.
Back then, it was so easy. He made jokes at her expense because they made his friends laugh. He forgot her name on purpose just to watch her cover up the hurt with a smile. He told himself she wasnât important â but only because he didnât want to admit that she was. And now, here she was: outranking him, outflying him, outclassing him in every possible way. Meanwhile, he was sitting in a debriefing room, unusually silent, drawing side glances from Fanboy and Phoenix like he might be having a stroke.
Jake didnât know when the silence stopped being peaceful and started feeling like drowning. The squad was talking around him now â soft jokes, nervous energy, half-assed optimism â but it all sounded far away. Because in his head, her voice echoed louder than the rest. The calm command of it. The sharp edges hidden beneath the steel. The way she said, âI was just warming up.â And he couldnât stop wondering â how much of her command came from pain? How much had he put there?
And worst of all⌠if this was revenge?God help them all.
But what if it wasnât? What if she never needed revenge â because she won?
And yet, part of him still clung to denial like it was his last parachute. Because if this wasnât revenge, then it was worse. If this wasnât personal â if she wasnât targeting him â then he didnât matter at all. That would mean she wasnât even thinking about what heâd done. That she had risen without him in the picture. That he was just⌠collateral.
The truth burned more than he wanted to admit.
Heâd always been the guy. The one everyone remembered. The one who smiled too wide, flew too fast, talked too much. The one who could get away with anything â until now. Until her. Rogue. The name echoed in his skull, rough and wild. He remembered the way she used to sit quietly, the way sheâd light up at every crumb of attention he tossed her. How easy it was to take her for granted. Now, she didnât flinch when he spoke. She didnât chase. She didnât even blink.
And yeah â fuck, maybe thatâs what rattled him the most.
She was steady. Cold as steel. Calculated, poised, terrifying in her control. Meanwhile, he couldnât get through a single day without watching her hands, waiting for a glance, parsing every word she said like it held some secret message just for him. But it never did. Not anymore.
He started wondering when the scales had tipped. Maybe it was during the dogfight â when sheâd pulled that impossible maneuver, practically bent the laws of physics, and left him choking on altitude. Or maybe it was earlier. That moment in the hangar, when she looked at him like a stranger. That moment when her voice dropped to a whisper and she said, âYou were trying to keep up. I was just warming up.â
God. She hadnât just outgrown him, sheâd left him in the dust.
And what stung wasnât just the pride. It was the sudden awareness that everything she was â everything sheâd become â had happened without him. She had built this legacy on the bones of what he broke, and now she wore it like armor. Commanded fleets. Designed the Gauntlet. Wore the Navyâs respect like it was stitched into her uniform. And he?
He was still trying to figure out how the hell he lost her before he ever even had her.
Meanwhile, the squad kept throwing him glances, poking him for reactions he didnât give. Rooster said something, probably another crack about how hot she was. Jake didnât even flinch. His mind was too far away, somewhere between regret and awe, caught in the eye of a storm that had her name written all over it.
Heâd laughed at her once â humiliated her in front of friends. Told her she was just some PoliSci nerd who got lucky being around someone like him. Now he was the lucky one, just to breathe the same air. And the worst part? She didnât seem angry. Didnât seem wounded.
She seemed finished. Finished with him. Finished with the memory. Finished with needing anything from Jake Seresin. And that terrified him more than anything else in the world.
He didnât hear when Payback called his name the first time. Barely registered it the second. It wasnât until Phoenix threw a pen at his chest that he blinked, jolted back into the present like a man surfacing from deep water.
âJesus, Seresin,â she muttered, leaning back in her chair. âYou look like you saw a ghost.â
He wanted to laugh. If only she knew.
Because truthfully, he had. She was flesh and blood, standing tall in that flight suit â but she was also a phantom of every stupid thing heâd ever said, every choice he couldnât take back. And now she haunted him in the worst possible way: by thriving. By being better. By being so far above him it felt like a cosmic joke.
Jake didnât respond. He couldnât. Not without unraveling.
He just leaned forward, elbows on knees, eyes fixed on the debriefing screen even though nothing was playing. He didnât know how to explain it â the way guilt had sunk in slow and mean, like a knife twisting over years. Back then, heâd thought sheâd bounce back. Thought sheâd grow out of it, forget about him, find someone more her speed. Not...turn into someone who made admirals hold their breath. Not outrank him. Not be the best goddamn pilot heâd ever gone up against.
He wasnât used to losing. Not in the air. Not in life. But this? This wasnât losing. This was a reckoning.
And what made it worse â what really clawed at the insides of him â was the realization that she wasnât trying to make him feel it. She wasnât looking at him with revenge in her eyes. She hadnât dragged the squad through hell just to watch him squirm.
No. She was just doing her job. Brilliantly. Mercilessly. Like she was born to wear command on her shoulders. Like heâd never mattered at all.
And that was the twist of the knife.
Because if she had hated him, maybe he couldâve worked with that. Anger, he could handle. Fury, he could fight. But indifference? That kind of silence? It was the loudest thing heâd ever heard.
So he sat there, quiet. Jaw clenched. Shoulders tense. While the others whispered and stretched and griped about the Gauntlet, Jake was somewhere else. Lost in a memory of a birthday candle, a puppy named Bingo, and the girl who had once looked at him like he hung the stars â back when he barely even knew her name.
And now? Now the whole damn Navy knew hers.
Rogue. Hell of a call sign. Hell of a woman.
And hell, Jake Seresin wasnât sure if heâd ever stop paying for the day he decided she wasnât worth remembering. But where the hell did she go?
That sunshine girl â the one with messy notebooks and a smile that could power a damn jet engine â where did she vanish to?
Jake pressed the heels of his palms into his eyes, willing the headache behind his brow to quiet down. His teammates were still talking, vague mutters about the next flight schedule, about fuel consumption ratios, about anything but her. But for him, there was nothing else.
Because when he looked at Rogue â Commander Rogue â he didnât just see the sharp angles and medals and ruthless authority. He saw echoes. Shadows. Glimpses of someone who used to bake brownies for old folks and let him copy her social science notes just because heâd grinned at her once. God, she was so easy to please back then, wasnât she? All it took was his attention â even if it came wrapped in mockery, even if it was half-hearted, even if it hurt.
And now?
Now she looked through him like he was just another report on her desk. Just another cocky pilot who needed to be broken down and rebuilt.
Jake stared at the faint scuff marks on his boots, letting the silence stretch.
Maybe that sunshine girl didnât disappear. Maybe sheâd been scorched to ash. Burned out by the very heat of his cruelty, until all that was left was steel. Maybe heâd looked at gold and called it dirt. Maybe heâd clipped her wings, thinking sheâd never fly without him, and she turned around and soared so far above that now he was the one grounded.
He didnât deserve her warmth. He never had. But damn it â he missed it.
He missed the way she used to tilt her head when she talked about theories he didnât understand. He missed the way her voice cracked just a little when she got too excited, the way her eyes sparkled when she believed in something. And even if heâd never admitted it back then, he missed how she believed in him.
Jake hadnât realized how dark his world had gotten until she walked back in â not with her sun, but with a storm.
She was lightning now. And maybe that made sense.
Because sunshine forgives.
Lightning remembers.
The debriefing room was thick with tension and silence, stale air and the kind of fatigue that only came from barely scraping through a day like Hell Day. The squad sat in various degrees of slouch and stretch, groaning and muttering like overworked soldiers in a trench. Jake hadnât said a word since the last evaluation â not even when Fanboy elbowed him gently and whispered some sarcastic remark about being emotionally constipated. He just sat there, jaw tight, eyes half-lidded, thoughts swimming miles away from this room and the people in it.
Then the door opened.
He didnât even look up at first â probably Hondo coming to collect one of them or Mav stepping in to remind them to hydrate. But the sound of boots, the tempo of those confident steps, pulled at something in Jakeâs chest like a thread unraveling from old cloth. He lifted his head, just in time to catch a flash of black flight suits â Rogue, Ruin, and Jinx â walking past the debriefing room window. Their faces were unreadable, all business and command, and there was something in the set of Rogueâs shoulders that made Jakeâs body move before his brain even caught up.
He shoved out of his chair with such force it squeaked across the tile. He didnât excuse himself, didnât check if he stepped on someoneâs boot â and based on Paybackâs startled grunt, he probably did. He nearly tripped on the step down from the raised platform but caught himself with a sharp curse under his breath. The squad stared, confused and half-concerned, as Jake threw open the door and bolted into the hallway.
âCommander Rogue!â he called out, voice cracking slightly with urgency.
The three of them stopped.
Rogue turned first, her expression unreadable, eyes sharp under the harsh fluorescent lights. Ruin raised a brow, exchanging a look with Jinx, who just crossed his arms and waited.
Jake jogged toward them, slowing only when he was close enough to speak without yelling. His breath came in fast, uneven pulls, and he hadnât even thought about what to say. All he knew was that if he didnât talk to her now, if he let her slip away one more time, heâd lose something he couldnât name.
âCan we talk?â he asked, trying to sound composed, failing miserably.
Rogue didnât answer right away. She glanced at her watch, then looked over her shoulder, clearly weighing something. âWe have somewhere to be,â she said, her tone clipped but not cold â efficient.
âPlease,â Jake added, and that word came out quieter, almost desperate. âJust five minutes.â
Ruin let out a low hum and tilted his head toward Jinx. âYou hungry?â
âStarving,â Jinx replied, already stepping back.
âWeâll give you the room,â Ruin said to Rogue, then cast Jake a warning glance â not threatening, but definitely cautious. Like he was letting Jake borrow something precious on the condition that he didnât break it.
Once the two men turned away, Jake followed Rogue in silence as she led the way down the corridor, toward the temporary officerâs office the Big Three had been using since their arrival. Her strides were purposeful, heels of her boots clicking softly against the polished floor. She didnât look at him. Didnât speak. And for the first time in his life, Jake Seresin wasnât sure if he should.
The door shut behind them with a soft click, the kind that sounded louder when tension clung to the air. Rogue walked ahead, moving toward the desk at the far end of the room, her posture still poised and unreadable. Jake lingered just inside the doorway, blinking as he took it all in â the quiet space that somehow screamed the presence of three elite operators even in their absence.
It wasnât a sterile office. It was lived in.
To his left, a small side table had three neatly stacked folders, the corners dog-eared from frequent flipping. One had a cracked navy emblem, the kind only handed out at high-clearance briefings. Above it hung a photo â an unfiltered snapshot of the Big Three: Rogue in the middle, standing tall between Ruin and Jinx. All three were in flight suits, helmets under their arms, the open sky behind them.
Their grins were wide, real, the kind captured between war and silence. Rogue had her sunglasses shoved into her hair, and the wind had caught her braid just enough to give it movement. Jake stared at it longer than he shouldâve.
Near the couch â a beat-up leather one that sagged slightly on one side â were two hoodies tossed lazily over the armrest. One read âDeath Before Dishonorâ in cracked white letters. The other had Get Wrecked stitched in scarlet red on the chest, clearly Ruinâs sense of humor bleeding through.
On the coffee table sat an abandoned protein bar wrapper and an energy drink can with its tab popped but barely sipped. A flight helmet sat beside it â Rogueâs. Her call sign, ROGUE, stenciled across the side in thick matte letters, scuffed and worn at the edges.
Jake's eyes trailed along the shelves. No dust. Books on naval tactics, missile systems, aerospace combat strategy â well-used. A sticky note stuck out of one of them, the handwriting tiny and precise. He couldnât read what it said from here.
And pinned to the board by the desk was another photo. It wasnât labeled, but Jake recognized the location â somewhere in the Middle East, by the look of the sand and the sky. The three of them again, this time wearing gear heavier than regulation. Bulletproof vests. Goggles pushed to their heads. War paint smudged and smeared with sweat. Rogue stood at the front, chin lifted. The leader. Always had been, hadnât she?
Jake swallowed hard. This wasnât some office thrown together for convenience. This was their ground. Their turf. It was built off years of flying, of bleeding, of trusting each other with their lives over and over again. He was just a guest here. A trespasser with a fractured past and guilt-riddled shoes.
She didnât tell him to sit. She didnât offer him water or some smooth way to start the conversation. She simply turned, leaned back against the desk, crossed her arms, and looked at him with unreadable eyes â the same way she had that night sheâd left him speechless on the hangar floor.
âTalk,â she said, not cruelly. Not kindly either.
Jake stared back, hands clenching at his sides. God, where the hell did he even begin?
Jake hesitated, the words stalling at the back of his throat like they were jammed behind the pressure of years unspoken. Rogue didnât blink. Her gaze was a scalpel, sharp and still, dissecting him before he even opened his mouth. She didnât need to raise her voice â her silence already screamed volumes.
âI justâŚâ He exhaled, ran a hand through his hair, and shifted on his feet like a guilty schoolboy caught cheating on a test. âIf this is about what happened back thenââ
âItâs not,â she cut in, calmly. Coldly.
Her voice was even, professional, clipped in the way only officers whoâve given too many post-op debriefings know how to deliver. She didnât flinch, didnât frown, didnât soften. She simply corrected him like he was misreading a report.
Jakeâs jaw twitched. âItâs not?â
âNo.â She stood upright now, uncrossing her arms and stepping closer â but not intimately. She didnât let him forget where they stood. âYou think this is some kind of personal vendetta, Seresin? That I clawed my way through the ranks, designed an entire Navy-certified evaluation gauntlet, and got assigned command on a strategic permanent squadron initiative just to settle an old score?â
He opened his mouth â a reflex â but couldnât say a damn thing.
She didnât wait.
âI am here because I earned it. Because I bled for it. Because I sat through mission after mission where people didnât come back, and I made sure the next ones did. Thatâs why Warlock signed off. Thatâs why Cyclone listened. Thatâs why Maverick respected my word when I said Iâd take the lead.â
Jake swallowed, shoulders tensing. âIâm not saying you didnâtââ
âBut you are.â She narrowed her eyes. âBy assuming this is about you, youâre reducing years of work, risk, loss, and leadership into a high school grudge. Youâre disrespecting me. Youâre disrespecting Jinx. Ruin. Every damn WSO and pilot who built this alongside me.â
The words hit like thunder â quiet, steady, but impossible to ignore. Jake felt himself shrinking under the weight of them.
âAnd just so weâre clear,â she went on, voice lowering, more controlled now â like a storm sharpening to a blade, âeven if I wanted revenge, I would never risk my integrity, my crew, or my career for it. Unlike you, I donât use people as stepping stones when Iâm running scared.â
Jake flinched. It was subtle, but Rogue caught it. She always caught everything.
âIâm not here to ruin Maverick. Or the Dagger Squad. I fought for them. I reviewed every file, every hour of flight data. You think youâre the only one who cared if they stayed? If this squadron was approved, I fought for it harder than any of you realize.â Her voice cracked slightly â not with emotion, but with restrained fury. âYou don't know how many times I had to defend this program. And not once â not once â did I use you as my reason for being here.â
Jake finally found his voice, quiet and thin. âThen why did you say yes to this talk?â
âBecause Jinx and Ruin would have called you a coward for running after me in the hallway,â she said, dryly. âAnd because part of me hoped⌠maybe youâve changed.â
She looked at him â really looked â and something unreadable passed through her expression, too fast to name.
But then it was gone, and she stepped back behind the desk.
âYouâve had your say, Lieutenant. Dismissed.â
âNo,â Jake said, louder this time â steadier. âIâm not leaving.â
Rogueâs hand froze halfway toward a folder on her desk, her fingers curling slowly as if resisting the urge to throw it at his head. Her brows lifted, that calm mask cracking just enough to reveal a flicker of disbelief â or maybe it was disgust.
âExcuse me?â
âI said Iâm not leaving,â Jake repeated, jaw tight, eyes fixed on hers. âNot until we settle this.â
âWhat exactly do you think there is to settle?â she snapped, voice sharp now â the edge of command laced with a storm of personal fury she had long tried to bury under layers of discipline. âYou think this is unfinished business? That I owe you some kind of closure? After what you did?â
Jake blinked. âWe never talked. Not really. IâI didnât know what you were going throughââ
âAnd you never asked!â she cut him off, stepping out from behind the desk so fast the chair rolled back with a soft groan of its wheels. âYou never once asked me what was happening. Not when you humiliated me in front of your friends. Not when I handed you your damn project so you wouldnât fail your class. Not when you let people mock me like I was some punchline.â
Her voice trembled on that last word â not from weakness, but from years of venom held tightly in the back of her throat. Jake took a step back, stunned, like he hadnât expected her to still be carrying all of it. As if his sins were something time alone could wash away.
âYou really think Iâve been up at night plotting revenge on you?â she laughed bitterly. âJake, I forgot you for years. Or tried to. I erased you because it hurt too much to remember what it felt like to believe someone saw me⌠and then watch them toss me aside like I was nothing.â
âI never meant toââ
âYou did mean to.â Her voice dropped. âYou wanted your friends to laugh. You wanted to feel cool. And I was just⌠collateral.â
Jakeâs mouth parted. The words heâd rehearsed, the apologies heâd thought might help, all died in his throat. Because she was right. And now, standing in front of her â not sunshine anymore, not soft and sweet, but steel and thunder in a commander's uniform â he realized that even if she forgave him, heâd never stop being ashamed of who heâd been.
But shame didnât stop his anger from flaring. âThen why the hell did you fight for us to stay, huh? Why go through all this if you donât even give a damn anymore?â
âBecause I do give a damn,â she hissed. âJust not about you. This isnât about your guilt, or your closure, or your redemption arc. I fought for Maverick because he deserves better. I fought for that squad because they have potential, even if theyâre reckless idiots. I didnât do this to prove something to youâI did it because itâs my job.â
She stepped closer, her voice low now, seething. âSo donât you dare stand here and twist my work into some schoolyard drama you never outgrew.â
Jake stared at her â lips parted, breath heavy, like he was about to say something else.
But Rogue just looked at him like he was a memory sheâd already burned once.
Then, flatly: âAre we done?â
Jake didnât answer right away. His jaw worked, like the words were caught somewhere between pride and regret, tangled in barbed wire he didnât know how to pull free without bleeding for it. Then he exhaled, sharp and quiet, and scrubbed a hand down his face.
âNo,â he said finally, voice rough. âWeâre not done. Not until I say what I came here to say.â
Rogue gave him a lookâdry, sharp, dangerous. But she didnât speak. She folded her arms and waited, a soldier in command, daring him to step wrong.
Jake let out a shaky laugh, eyes not quite meeting hers. âYou think I donât know I was a dick back then? Because I do. I know it every time someone looks at me like Iâm some goddamn hero, and all I can think about is the girl who smiled at me like I was worth somethingâand how I spat on that.â
He stepped closer, the weight of his boots heavy on the office floor. âI was stupid. I was selfish. I thought you were just this weird, sweet, nerdy girl whoâd get over it. But you didnât. And I didnât. And now youâre standing here in a uniform that outranks mine, giving orders, saving assesâincluding mineâand all I can think is, damn. I deserve this.â
He paused, chest heaving.
âBut I donât want them to pay for it. Not the squad. Not Mav. They didnât screw upâyou didnât screw them over. I did. And if this whole thing is about revenge, if itâs some twisted full-circle karma, then fine. Iâll take it. Iâll walk away. Hell, Iâll quit the damn Navy if thatâs what you want.â
He looked at her then. Really looked. Like a man who finally saw the ruin he left behind and realized too late it had bloomed into something unstoppable.
âBut donât punish the rest of them because I was an asshole.â
There it wasâJake Seresin, laid bare. Not smirking. Not cocky. Just raw and scared and desperate to fix a wound he never thought would still be bleeding.
Rogue didnât flinch. Not once. She stood there, spine like steel beneath her flight suit, arms still folded like she was holding herself back from hurling somethingâmaybe the truth, maybe a fist.
âOh, so now you want to fix it?â Her voice was low, razor-sharp. âNow that your cushy little ego is bruised, you suddenly care about consequences? Jake, you werenât just an asshole. You made me the punchline. You played with someone who wouldâve walked into fire for you.â
Jake opened his mouth, but she cut him off with a hand, like a blade. âYou humiliated me, in front of your friends. In front of myself. You knew how I looked at you. You let me do your work. You let me believe you cared.â
She was breathing harder now, eyes burningânot just with anger, but betrayal, exhaustion, something bone-deep and old. âAnd now, what, you want a neat little bow on it? A âsorryâ? A âletâs not ruin this for everyone elseâ? I have news for you, Lieutenantâthis is my job. I donât play god. I donât hold grudges over peopleâs careers. Thatâs you. That was always you.â
Jake flinched at thatâvisibly, quietly. But she didnât stop.
âI didnât design the Gauntlet for revenge. I did it because Iâve nearly died out there. Because I've watched people burn up in the sky because someone wasnât ready, someone wasnât honest, someone thought charm was a substitute for leadership. So donât you dare stand here and ask me to go easy on a team that still flies like cowboys with something to prove.â
Then, softerâbut only slightly, and somehow more terrifying for itâshe said, âThis isnât about you anymore.â
Jake clenched his jaw. âIt was never about me, huh? Then why are you still this angry?â
Her silence was immediate and blistering.
When she did speak, her voice was calm. âBecause I expected better. Because once upon a time, I thought you were going to be great. And now all I see is someone still trying to crawl out of the wreckage he made.â
Jake stared at her, speechless.
And thenâ
âIâm not doing this,â she muttered, pushing off the desk and heading for the door. âYou want to talk like adults, you know where to find me. But this pity parade? This guilt-fueled performance?â She shook her head. âSpare me.â
She reached the door, hand on the handle.
âWait.â
His voice cracked. Not loud, not sharpâjust hoarse and human. And that alone made her pause. Just for a breath.
Jake crossed the space between them in two strides. Not to block the door, not to touch herâhe didnât dareâbut just enough to make her stop. Just enough to say it.
âIâm sorry.â
She blinked. Not like she was surprised. More like she was exhausted. Like sheâd waited years to hear those words and now that they were finally spoken, they rang hollow in the air.
Rogue turned, slow and deliberate. Her eyes swept over him, scanning for the trick, the loophole, the out. Because Jake Seresin never just said sorry. Not without a catch. Not without a punchline.
And yetâthere it was. No grin. No wink. Just a man who looked like heâd finally run out of ways to pretend he hadnât wrecked everything that mattered.
âFor what?â she asked.
He faltered. âFor... everything.â
âThatâs not an apology,â she snapped. âThatâs a blanket statement. Thatâs what people say when they want to be absolved without being accountable. So try again, Lieutenant. What exactly are you apologizing for?â
Jake swallowed. His throat felt tight, raw.
âIâm sorry for using you,â he said. âFor making you think you mattered to me when I didnât even have the guts to admit you did. Iâm sorry for letting other people laugh at you, for laughing with them. Iâm sorry I was a coward who needed someone like you to lift me up, and the second you did, I kicked the ladder out from under you.â
Her arms had dropped to her sides now, fingers flexing slightly. But her expression didnât soften. Not even a little.
âIâm sorry I didnât realize who you were until you were already gone,â Jake finished, quieter now. âAnd Iâm sorry I still think about you every damn day, even when I know I donât deserve to.â
The silence that followed was heavy enough to crush bone. Rogue stood still, unreadable, a statue carved out of every moment heâd let her down.
Then, finally, she spoke. âYou donât get to apologize and expect forgiveness like itâs some kind of trade.â
Jake shook his head. âI donât expect anything.â
âGood,â she said. âBecause Iâm not giving it.â
Then, as if she were brushing the entire moment off her shoulders like dust, she stepped toward the door again. âAnd donât worry about dinner tomorrow,â she added, almost too casually. âItâs totally fine if you donât come. Really.â
Her hand hit the door handle. No hesitation this time. And with her back still to him, she said, âIâll see you in the sky, Hangman.â
The door closed behind her, and Jake was left standing in the space where a second chance used to be.
Jake walked the corridor like a man returning from warâshoulders squared, boots heavy, jaw set so tight it couldâve cracked granite. His flight suit felt too stiff, too hot, like it was suffocating him from the inside out. Every footstep echoed in his ears louder than it shouldâve. He didnât look back. Not once. Not after the door closed behind her. Not after she said his call sign like it was just another name on her checklist. No emotion, no hint of what he used to mean. Just Hangman. Just another damn pilot.
By the time he reached the debriefing room, the sound of the others inside bled into the hallâlow murmurs, the scrape of boots against tile, someone cursing under their breath about the heat. He paused for just a second outside the door. One beat. Two. Then, with a sharp inhale, he threw on the only armor he had left: a smirk.
Jake swaggered into the room like nothing happened. Like his heart wasnât a bruised peach inside his chest. His chin was up, his grin sharp as ever, and when Coyote shot him a lookâhalf worried, half suspiciousâhe just flashed a wink and dropped into his seat.
âMiss me?â he drawled, leaning back like he hadnât just been torn apart in a quiet office two halls over.
Across the room, Rooster gave him a narrowed stare, but didnât push. Bob glanced at him and then at Phoenix, silently asking a question neither of them knew how to phrase. Even Fanboy and Halo had gone quiet, watching him like he might combust if touched too hard.
At the front, Maverick stood with his arms folded over his chest, Hondo just to his right. The air shifted when they noticed Jakeâs return, but Mav didnât comment. Instead, he cleared his throat, stepped forward, and nodded once, firm.
âAlright,â he said, tone clipped. âI just finished a conversation with Commander Rogue.â
Jakeâs smirk twitched. He didnât move otherwise.
âShe reviewed every maneuver, every decision, every comm log. Every one of your flights during the Gauntlet,â Maverick continued, his eyes moving from one pilot to the next. âAnd sheâs made her recommendations.â
There was a collective inhale. The kind that filled the room with a buzzing anxiety, a quiet thrum beneath the silence. Phoenix sat straighter. Rooster leaned forward slightly, hands clasped in front of him. Jake kept his mask on, resting one ankle over his knee like he didnât care. Like he hadnât just begged her to forgive him, and failed.
Maverickâs voice dropped a note lower.
âShe was thorough. And blunt.â
Of course she was.
Jake didnât flinch. He just smiled wider.
There was a long, loaded pause as Maverick closed the folder in his hands. The sharp clap of it echoed in the room, followed by a beat of silence. Then he looked at them allâreally lookedâand the ghost of a smile twitched at the edge of his mouth.
âShe approved it,â he said.
It took a second to register.
Then it hit them like a missile.
A breath released collectively around the debriefing room, like a pressure valve had finally been turned. Maverick didnât say it outright, but the weight in his voice, the lack of disappointment in his toneâit was enough. They had passed. Maybe not all with flying colors, maybe not without bruises or scars to their egos, but they were still standing. Still in this. And more importantly, still a squadron.
Phoenix gave a low whistle and leaned back in her chair, throwing Bob a look that said, I told you weâd survive. Bob just blinked, dazed but visibly relieved, like heâd been holding his breath since dawn. Fanboy fist-bumped Payback under the table, a quiet gesture that still earned a grin. Fritz clapped Halo on the shoulder, muttering something about ânot getting shot out of the skyâ being cause for celebration. Even Omaha and Yale, usually reserved, broke into rare, crooked smiles.
Hondo chuckled from the side, and Maverick just gave a tired, proud nod. âCommander Rogue said you all passedâbarely, but you passed. She said sheâd rather keep a team that learns than perfect strangers who donât.â
âYo,â Coyote said, twisting around to face the rest of them, âI say we celebrate tomorrow. Properly. Barbecue at the beach?â
âI second that,â Rooster chimed in, already looking way too excited. âWe got through Rogueâs personal hellscape and lived to talk about it. Thatâs worth a drink or five.â
Harvard raised an eyebrow, nodding thoughtfully. âAnd food. A lot of food.â
âIâm not grilling again,â Halo warned, deadpan. âLast time yâall nearly set the sand on fire.â
âThat was Fanboy,â Payback said quickly, pointing an accusatory finger. âHe thought kerosene was cooking oil.â
âIt was labeled confusingly,â Fanboy argued.
Jake stayed quiet, still sitting in that deceptively relaxed posture, but his smile didnât quite reach his eyes anymore. He chuckled along, but it was thinner, a little too practiced. When Rooster elbowed him in the ribs and asked if he was in, he just offered a lazy shrug.
âMaybe. Weâll see.â
The squad kept tossing out ideasâwhoâd bring what, whoâd be in charge of music, how many coolers theyâd need for beerâand somewhere in the blur of chatter, someone casually mentioned inviting the big three.
âTheyâre part of the team now, right?â Yale said, tapping his pen on the table. âMight as well include them.â
âYeah,â Fritz added. âMaybe if we feed them, theyâll go easy on us next time.â
âThey donât eat,â Fanboy muttered dramatically. âThey feast on our fear.â
Phoenix rolled her eyes but smirked. âStill. Wouldnât kill us to ask. Especially Commander Rogueââ
No one knew tomorrow was her birthday. No one but one person.
Jakeâs jaw tensed, but his smile didnât falter. He nodded absently, muttering something noncommittal about âgood idea.â But behind his eyes, gears were turning. Because he knew. He remembered the date before he remembered her rank, before her call sign was etched into his damn skull.
She wasnât just Rogue. She was his sunshine. Once.
The Hard Deck buzzed with its usual late-night charm, lights dim and golden, music humming beneath the rhythm of laughter and beer bottles clinking. Dagger Squad clustered around a corner booth, half-shouting over each other about marinades, playlists, and who was bringing what to tomorrowâs beach barbecue. Penny was behind the bar, laughing as Fanboy attempted to mix his own drink and nearly set off the soda gun. It was loud, chaotic, and warm.
Meanwhile, Jake Seresin sat perched at the far end of the bar, staring into the amber depths of a half-finished glass. He wasn't sulking, exactlyâbut he wasnât glowing either. His usual charm, the cocky swagger, the teeth-and-dimple grinâit was all there, but thin as tissue paper. A performance. He'd laughed when he was supposed to, nodded at plans he didnât plan to join, and now he was here, hiding in plain sight with his jaw tight and his eyes distant.
Maverick had been watching him for a while. Quietly. Patiently. He nursed his own drink nearby, leaned against the bar with that weather-worn stillness of a man who had lived through things most people only feared in theory. Eventually, he stepped over and sat down beside Jake without a word. For a few minutes, they both just watched the room, letting the weight of the silence settle between them.
Then Maverick spoke, low and without fanfare. âYou alright, Hangman?â
Jake didnât look at him. He smirked instead, lazy and easy. âPeachy, Cap.â
Maverick nodded slowly. âSure doesnât look that way.â
Jake finally glanced sideways, his eyes guarded but not cold. âIâm good. Just tired. Long week.â
âYeah,â Mav said, letting the word stretch with meaning. âHell of a week.â
Another beat passed. Jake swirled the whiskey in his glass and chuckled under his breath. âYou gonna do the whole mentor thing now? Sit me down and tell me Iâm spiraling?â
âIâm not your therapist,â Maverick said calmly. âBut Iâve been where you are. Stubborn. Stupid. Pretending like nothingâs wrong when everythingâs falling apart.â
Jake didnât answer right away. Then he exhaled hard and said, âI was a real asshole to someone once. A long time ago.â
âJust once?â Maverick joked, and Jake snorted.
âAlright, wise guy.â
Maverick let him speak, didnât press. Jake tapped the edge of his glass, his gaze locked on nothing in particular. âShe was... good. Kind. A little weird, honestly. Smart in a way that scared me. And I made it my goddamn mission to ruin that.â
He paused. Swallowed.
âI thought I was being funny. Cool. I donât even know whyâI think I just... couldnât handle it. So I humiliated her. Over and over. Like it was a sport. And she still looked at me like I hung the damn moon.â Jakeâs voice dropped. âThen one day, she stopped.â
Maverick was quiet. Then he said, âAnd now?â
Jake shook his head. âNow, sheâsââ But he cut himself off.
Mav already knew. He didnât need the name. Didnât need the full picture. Heâd seen the way Jake looked at her during briefings. The way his bravado twitched when Rogue walked into the room. The way he clammed up every time her voice took command. Maverick was a lot of things, but he wasnât blind.
âYou remind me of myself,â Maverick said softly. âBack when I was your age, I made a lot of choices that cost me things I didnât know Iâd miss until they were long gone. Thereâs a danger in thinking weâve got time. In thinking we can burn bridges and still cross back over later.â
Jake didnât respond, but he didnât deflect either.
Maverick took another sip and looked over at the squad laughing across the room. âThis jobâitâll take everything if you let it. Your body. Your mind. The people you love. You gotta decide what matters, Jake. And if someone mattered to you, even onceâdonât let pride be the reason you lose them for good.â
Jake finally looked at him, really looked, and for a moment, he just nodded.
He didnât say it out loud, but Maverick saw it in his eyes: he knew.
Jake looked away again, his mouth tightening, shoulders drawing in ever so slightly. He ran a hand down his face, fingers catching on the edge of stubble like he could scrub away the guilt gathering beneath his skin. His voice, when it came, was quieterâalmost foreign to him. âBut what if itâs too late?â
Maverickâs eyes didnât waver. âThen itâs too late,â he said simply. âBut you still show up. You own what you did. You stand there and take it. And maybe they never forgive you. Maybe they slam the door in your face.â
Jakeâs lips pressed together. The idea clearly unsettled him. He was used to being liked, even when he didnât deserve it. He was used to being the golden boy.
âBut,â Maverick went on, tapping his finger against the bar, âyou do it anyway. Because thatâs what we do. Thatâs what aviators do. We donât get to cherry-pick the consequences of our actions. If you left damage behind, you donât run from it. You clean it up. Even if the person never lets you back inâyou clean it up because itâs the right thing to do.â
Jake nodded once, but there was a bitter curl to his mouth. âYou ever say something so cruel, you still hear it years later? Like itâs stuck under your skin?â
Mav didnât smile. He didnât soften. âYeah. I have. Still do. Every damn day.â
Jake stared down at the bar top. âI didnât just screw up. I killed something. SheâGod, Mav, she looked at me like I was a stranger the other day. Like she didnât even remember the boy I used to be.â
âAnd maybe,â Maverick said gently, âthat boy wasnât worth remembering.â
Jake flinched. But it wasnât meant to hurtâit was meant to land.
Then Maverick leaned in, voice low. âBut youâre not him anymore. Are you?â
Jake didnât answer.
âFigure out who you are now,â Mav said. âThen go be that person. Whether she forgives you or not? Thatâs on her. But the man who walked in here tonight... heâs got a chance. Donât waste it.â
Jake didnât move for a long time. The clatter and laughter of the Hard Deck carried on around them, but it was like he wasnât in the room at all.
Then, finally, he nodded. Just once. Steady.
âYeah,â he said softly. âOkay.â
Maverick watched him for a moment longer, his eyes distant like he was seeing something from long ago, something that never really left him. Then he breathed out slowly, leaned back on the stool, and nodded toward the exit.
âGo now,â he said. âBefore the years stack up like bad debt and you realize you can't pay it off.â
Jake blinked. His brows drew slightly together.
âDonât wait for the right moment, Jake. There isnât one,â Mav added. âJust the one you choose. I waited too damn long, you know? Pennyâshe didnât make it easy. Iâd hurt her more than I had the right to, but she still showed up. And IâŚâ He shook his head, a crooked grin tugging at his lips. âI was a goddamn coward. Kept thinking Iâd fix things tomorrow.â
Jake glanced over at Penny then. She was behind the bar, her hair up in a loose bun, laughing at something Bob had said. The light above her shimmered against her skin like she was glowing from the inside out. Jake saw the way Maverick looked at herâthe way his whole world tilted ever so slightly toward her, like she was north on a compass.
And thatâs when it hit him. Jake Seresin had never looked at anyone like that. Noâscratch that. He had once. Years ago.
When she wore a stupid party hat and carried a puppy in her arms, surrounded by candles and family and cake and joy. When her laugh sounded like sunlight. When her hand found his under the table and he thought, this is what forever might feel like.
And now she walked past him in command stripes and called him Lieutenant.
- You, Rogue -Â
The Texas sun filtered through the windshield like an old friend, golden and familiar, and yet you kept your sunglasses onânot because it was too bright, but because the ache in your eyes hadnât quite left since you left North Island last night.
You had taken the first flight out, the earliest one available, and didnât say goodbye to anyone. Not to Rooster, who had made you laugh more than he shouldâve been able to. Not to Coyote, whoâd offered to carry your bag. And certainly not to Jake Seresin, who had stood in that damn office with those wide eyes and that desperate voice, thinking a single I'm sorry could sew up everything heâd ripped open.
Now, your hands gripped the steering wheel of your momâs old truck, the same one you learned to drive in when you were seventeen, and the tires hummed against the backroads you used to know like the lines of your palm.
Tall grass danced in the breeze on either side of you. Fences leaned where they always had, weathered by years and still standing. You didnât need a map for this part of the worldâthis was home. This was where the sun rose slow and the air smelled like cedar and freedom.
Youâd gotten the text early this morning. Change of plans, sweetheart. Weâll celebrate at the old house. Bring an appetite. And maybe donât wear whiteâyour brotherâs bringing the horses in.
Youâd smiled at that. It had been a long time since you'd driven this stretch of road. Since youâd seen the wild dogs running along the fence lines or the rusted mailbox that still had the dent from when Jake once hit it with his truck mirror on a dare.
God. Jake.
His voice had replayed in your head all night. That manâno, that boyâhad stood in front of you like he still had a right to your time, to your air, to your name in his mouth. And for a secondâjust a secondâyou had wanted to believe him.
But the past doesnât just disappear. Not when heâd humiliated you. Not when you had spent nights trying to convince yourself you were imagining it all. Not when he walked away back then and pretended you didnât matter.
And now? Now he begged you to let him settle things. As if your pain could be negotiated.
You clenched your jaw, adjusting the volume of the radio, letting the old country songs wrap around your thoughts like smoke. You didnât forgive him. Not yet. Maybe not ever. You werenât doing any of this for him.
Youâd come this farâbecome this womanâfor yourself. Because you had learned how to command rooms, how to fly faster than anyone else, how to hold your head high even when your heart burned like hell.
Meanwhile, the familiar arch of trees opened up ahead and the house came into view. The white porch. The worn shutters. The yard where you used to set up obstacle courses for your bike and trip over your own feet. The same swing still hung from the oak tree.
You exhaled. Today was your birthday. And for once, it wasnât about proving anything to anyone.
You were home.
You parked the truck in the dirt patch just to the left of the barn, dust kicking up behind you like the ghosts of old summer days. The door creaked when you opened it, a familiar sound that tugged at the corners of your mouth despite yourself.
Everything was the same. The chipped blue paint on the fence. The faded plastic chairs stacked by the porch. Even the smellâwarm earth, hay, a hint of rosemary from your motherâs gardenâsmelled like memory.
You stepped out slowly, boots crunching on gravel, and tilted your head up to the sky. Texas blue. Endless and unapologetic.
Inside, you could hear your mother laughing with someoneâprobably your brotherâand the sizzle of something on the stove. You didnât go in just yet. Instead, you wandered around the side of the house, past the rusted wind chimes, letting your hand trail along the familiar wooden siding like it could anchor you to something real. Something before everything.
Before the Navy.
Before Top Gun.
Before Jake Seresin broke your heart and then had the audacity to stand in front of you like a damn open wound pretending he could heal something he didnât even understand.
You paused by the swing. It swayed gently in the breeze, unbothered by the years. You sat, slowly, gripping the rope like it might tether you back to seventeenâthe girl who had once looked at Jake like heâd hung the stars. She didnât exist anymore. But sometimes, on mornings like this, she whispered from somewhere deep inside you.
And God, the nerve of him. Standing there with his pretty mouth and that Iâm sorry like it meant something. He didnât even know what he was apologizing for. Not really. He didnât understand that it wasnât just what he said to you that day back thenâit was what he didnât say. The silence that followed. The way he turned away and never looked back. Until now.
Now, when youâd become someone. When you wore medals and held rank and had the power to ground squadrons with a signature.
Now he wanted to talk.
But you werenât that girl anymore. And this wasnât about him.
You smiled despite yourself.
Rising to your feet, brushing your palms on your jeans, you turned back toward the house. The sun was warm against your back. The air smelled like cinnamon and barbecue and honeysuckle. You werenât ready to let Jake back in. Not yet.
But you were ready to celebrate the woman youâd become.
Because today? Today was your damn day.
The screen door hadnât even finished creaking shut behind you when the stampede began.
Little feet slapped against the worn floorboards as your nieces and nephews burst from the hallway like a pack of wild horses. They were bigger nowâolder, louderâbut still the same blur of joy and sugar-smeared cheeks as they flung themselves at you.
âAuntie!â one of them shrieked, and your heart cracked open just a little more.
You caught two in your arms, staggering slightly with the force of their enthusiasm. The oldest tried to look cool but you saw the grin tugging at his mouth before he lunged in for a hug too.Â
Behind them came your mother, wiping her hands on a dish towel and already reaching for your face like she had to confirm you were real. âThereâs my girl,â she whispered, voice a bit too watery. Your father, quieter as always, stood just behind her, but you knew the emotion was there in his eyes. He pulled you into a brief but firm hug.
Then came the rest.
Your brothersâbigger and broader than you remembered, one already holding a beer, the other pretending not to tear up. Your grandparents, slow but steady, offering words of pride in their soft, worn voices. Aunts and uncles who made jokes about medals and jet fuel, cousins who squealed and poked fun at your rank while hugging you tightly.
You barely had time to breathe.
Laughter bloomed in every room. The table groaned under the weight of food. Music played from the old speakers by the window, some twangy country song you hadnât heard in years but could still hum along to. You were home. And for a moment, just a moment, the ache in your chest dulled. Just sunshine and sweat and summer in Texas.
Untilâ
âDamn, yâall didnât tell me she was gonna look this good.â
The voice sliced through the haze like a whipcrack.
Low. Familiar. Dangerous.
Your whole body locked up.
No.
No.
No no no no no.
You turned so slowly you could feel the blood drain from your face before it even reached your toes.
And there he was.
Jake Seresin.
Standing in your childhood kitchen like he belonged there.
Wearing a plain white t-shirt clinging just a little too well to his broad chest, jeans slung low on his hips, and scuffed cowboy boots that had seen more dirt than you were ready to admit you missed. His blonde hair was slightly messy, a bit damp, and his face was flushed like heâd just come in from outside. Like heâd been working. Or running. Or maybe pacing in nervous circles wondering if youâd show up.
He had sweat on his neck.
Your mother, traitor that she was, beamed from beside the stove. âHeâs been here since this morning! Helped fix the gate. Fixed the porch swing, too.â
You stared at her, unblinking.
Jake met your gaze from across the room, and he smiledâslow and dangerous and laced with something like hope. âHey, sunshine,â he drawled, like it hadnât been years. Like he hadnât broken your heart. Like you werenât standing in front of him with a thousand unspoken things catching fire behind your ribs.
Your fingers twitched at your sides.
So many people in this room.
So many things you could throw.
Your mouth dropped open before your brain even caught up with your body. And what came out next was entirely involuntary.
âWhat the fuckââ
âAy!â your mom snapped, voice sharp as a whip. âLanguage!â
Jake had the audacityâthe actual gallâto throw his hands up in mock dismay, laughing like this was a damn sitcom. âYeah, sunshine,â he added, all wide-eyed innocence. âThereâs kids present. Watch your language.â
You blinked at him. Once. Twice.
Then your eyes narrowed, lips curling back into something not quite a smile. âYouâre joking,â you muttered under your breath, fury simmering under your skin like a Texas thunderstorm just seconds from breaking loose.
âOh, sheâs definitely not joking,â your older brother said, already backing out of the kitchen with his beer like he wanted no part of this incoming Category 5.
Your little niece tugged on your sleeve. âAuntie, who is that cowboy?â
Jake winked at her, all smooth charm and self-satisfaction. âIâm Uncle Jake, darlinâ. I used toââ
You cut him off with a stare that could curdle milk.
He grinned wider.
Your hands clenched at your sides. You had dreamed of this momentâJake Seresin begging at your metaphorical altar. Groveling. Crying. Maybe slipping on a banana peel and falling into a pile of cow dung while you sipped sweet tea on a porch swing, untouched and unbothered.
Not this. Not him in your house. Not here, where the walls still whispered childhood secrets and the air still smelled like soil and sun. This was your place. Your safe haven.
And now it was full of him.
Jake, standing there like he belonged. Looking at you like he always didâlike he saw you. All of you.
âYou didnât tell me you were coming,â you hissed, stepping toward him as your family slowly scattered, sensing something heavy crackling in the air.
Jake shrugged, casual as hell. âYour mom invited me. Wouldâve been rude to say no.â
âWouldâve been smart to say no,â you muttered.
Your mother clucked her tongue again from the stovetop, giving you the kind of look that had once kept you from sneaking out after curfew. âHeâs our guest, sweetheart. Be polite.â
Jake leaned against the counter, watching you like you were a particularly beautiful storm he couldnât wait to chase. âYeah,â he echoed, voice dipping lower. âBe polite, Rogue.â
You wanted to throttle him.
Instead, you straightened your shoulders, took a breath, and gave him the most saccharine, venom-laced smile you could muster.
âWelcome to the party,â you said, voice dripping with southern hospitality and suppressed rage. âTry not to choke on the cake.â
You were going to kill him. Not figuratively. Not symbolically. Kill. The kind of murder you could only get away with because you were lovedâdeeply, endlesslyâby nearly everyone in this yard.
And the worst part? He knew it.
Jake Seresin, with that stupidly white t-shirt clinging to his chest like sin, was roaming your childhood home like heâd grown up beside you. Laughing with your uncle, throwing a ball with the boys, helping your grandpa adjust the damn barbecue coals like he belonged there.
No. Nope. Not today, Satan.
You turned sharply on your heel and marched straight to the little onesâyour nieces, your nephews, your cousinsâ kidsâbecause at least they wouldnât ask questions about why your ex crush who shattered your heart into military-grade shrapnel was casually flipping ribs in your backyard.
âAuntie, can you help us with the lemonade stand?â little Mila asked, tugging on your hand, her curls bouncing as she ran ahead.
âYes, baby,â you sighed, following her like she was your designated emotional support human. âLetâs go make a small fortune before the grown-ups get too drunk to notice theyâre tipping us real money.â
She giggled, and just like that, your shoulders dropped a little. Being around the kids always did that. They didnât care who you were in the sky. They didnât know about commands or squadrons or callsigns or men who left you when they promised they wouldnât. They just knew you made the best strawberry punch and that you gave the biggest pushes on the tire swing.
So, you spent the next hour ducking the ache in your chest by being useful. Fixing the lemon mix, adding way too much sugar because Mila insisted, handing out tiny cups to your cousins and childhood neighbors.
You caught up with your Aunt Lou, who still talked with her hands and smelled like gardenia. She pinched your cheek and asked, âWhen are you getting married?â
You almost choked on a grape.
Meanwhile, your uncle pulled you aside and told you the crops were better this year. Your younger cousin asked about the Navyânot about Jakeâand your Granfather gave you a nod of approval that still meant everything.
You wove in and out of the crowd like muscle memory. This was your world. These were your people. This house, this landâthis lifeâshaped you. It was sacred.
And yet, he was here. Like a shadow clinging to your sun.
You did everything to ignore him. Didnât glance his way. Didnât listen to the sound of his laugh or notice how often he kept checking where you were. You refused.
But there was no escaping itâthe hum in your chest, the crackle in your spine, the way your whole damn body knew he was watching you.
And youâd be damned if it didnât set you on fire.
He just had to do it.
You were halfway through helping the kids repaint the old wooden lemonade signâyour hands streaked with pastel pink and yellow, your hair pulled back into a no-nonsense bun that still had wisps falling loose from the Texas heatâwhen you heard the familiar sound of childrenâs laughter crescendo into a shriek of delight.
Thatâs when you looked up. And saw him.
Jake Seresin, all tall and smug and golden, crouched low in the grass with Mila balanced on his back like a tiny, squealing cowboy. Her tiny arms were stretched like wings, and he was galloping across the lawn on all fours, making horse noisesâactual horse noisesâas the other kids chased after him.
âGiddy-up, Hangman!â one of the boys shouted between wheezes.
âYeehaw!â Jake whooped, and it was so stupidly charming you almost forgot to hate him.
Almost.
The kids adored him. Of course they did. He was a walking Disney Channel character with cowboy boots. He let them climb him like a jungle gym. He gave Mila his sunglasses and called her âCommander Cool.â He high-fived every single child like he was campaigning for mayor of the backyard.
And thenâthen, as if the universe werenât cruel enoughâhe glanced over. Right at you.
Eyes locked.
He grinned.
Not the cocky, I-know-you-want-me grin. No. This one was softer. Almost bashful. Like he knew heâd been caught being good and didnât mind it.
You blinked.
Your heart hiccupped.
Then you glared.
Hard.
His grin widened like the absolute menace he was. He gently helped Mila off his back, ruffled the boyâs hair, and made his way toward the drink table like nothing had happenedâlike he hadnât just disarmed you with joy and children and that damn dimple.
You turned back to the sign and scrubbed at a smudge of pink paint like it had personally wronged you.
He was trying to worm his way in. You could feel it.
And worse?
It was working.
Of course he wasnât done. Jake Seresin never quit while he was ahead. Not when there was a mountain to climb orâmore accuratelyâa woman to win back with the same stubbornness that once drove you up the wall and straight out of his life.
You kept your back turned to the lawn, laser-focused on helping Mila paint the corner of the lemonade sign. It was something about the way her tiny fingers clumsily held the brush, her tongue poking out in fierce concentration, that almost made you forget he was still here.
Almost.
Because then you heard him.
Not his bootsâhe was good at hiding his approach when he wanted toâbut his voice. Low, sweet, casual.
âYou missed a spot.â
You didnât even need to look up to know he was standing behind you. You could feel the heat of his presence like sunlight pressing against your spine.
âYouâre gonna smudge the paint if you keep hovering like that,â you muttered without turning around.
Jake crouched down beside you, just close enough for his arm to brush yours.
âYou sure? Looked like you needed help.â
You gave him a pointed glance. âI donât need anything from you.â
He didnât flinch. âDidnât say you did. Just figured youâd want a break. Itâs your birthday, after all.â
You scoffed, dipping your brush back into the pale yellow paint. âDidnât think youâd remember.â
Jake didnât answer right away. Instead, he reached into his back pocket and pulled out something folded. Paper. You recognized the edges before he even handed it over.
The sketch.
Your sketch.
The one youâd done on a napkin years agoâof the farm, of the porch swing and windmill and stars. You thought it had been lost in the fallout. Turns out, it had been with him all along.
âI carried it,â he said softly, not trying to smile this time. âThrough Pensacola. Through Fallon. Hell, even had it on me in Lemoore. Kept it in my flight bag.â
Your fingers trembled around the brush. You swallowed. Hard.
âWhy are you showing me this now?â you asked, voice too thin, too fragile for your own liking.
âBecause Iâm not good with words,â he admitted. âBut I kept this. Every time I saw it, I thought of you. I still do.â
You wanted to scream. Or cry. Or throw the paintbrush at his stupid, perfect face. But Mila giggled beside you and tapped your arm with a tiny yellow-streaked hand, and somehow, somehow, you kept it together.
You inhaled slowly.
Then, like a switch had flipped, you plastered on a calm smile, turned your head just enough, and whispered:
âYouâre still a jackass, Seresin.â
Jake smiled. âYeah,â he said, âbut Iâm your jackass. Right?â
You didnât answer. You stood, handed Mila the paintbrush, and walked off without a word.
He stayed crouched there, that damn sketch still in his hands, watching you walk away like you were the last star in a dying sky.
You told yourself you werenât going to look.
You swore youâd steer clear, keep your head down, stay with the kids or the cousins or literally anyone who didnât make your pulse do Olympic sprints in your throat. But no. Of course not. Of course you looked.
Because he was on a damn horse.
And not just on a horseâriding it like he was born in a saddle, one hand casually gripping the reins, the other resting lazily on his thigh. He sat straight, easy in the way only someone who knew what they were doing ever could. His shirt clung to his back just enough to make you forget how to breathe, a thin sheen of sweat darkening the white cotton at the collar and down his spine.
You hated him.
Jake Seresin, of all people, had the nerve to look like a goddamn cowboy catalog cover while chatting with your brother, who was laughing like theyâd been best friends since elementary school. They were talking about something mechanicalâtractors maybe? Fencing? You couldnât hear, too far across the yard, but Jake tipped his head back to laugh and your brother clapped him on the shoulder like he belonged there.
Like heâd always belonged there.
âStop staring,â your cousin whispered beside you, eyes full of amusement as she handed you a glass of sweet tea.
âIâm not,â you muttered, sipping too fast and promptly choking on the ice.
Your cousin didnât buy it for a second. âMmmhmm. Girl, you might as well be writing his name in the clouds.â
You rolled your eyes and turned away from the corral, back toward the porch, your jaw clenched so tight your teeth ached. But the image was seared behind your eyes nowâJakeâs long legs, the easy grin he threw at your brother, the way the sunlight kissed his cheekbones as he swung down from the saddle like it was nothing.
You didnât want him to be beautiful. You didnât want him to fit in so easily here. This was your space. Your home. Your family.
And yet⌠he wore it like it had always been his, too.
You pressed a hand to your chest, felt the traitorous flutter there, and cursed under your breath.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow, youâd deal with this. With him. With all of it.
But right now? Right now, you needed to not melt into a puddle on the damn porch.
Girl, listenâhe had no business being that fine.
Youâd tried. Swore up and down to every relative, every sticky-fingered kid clinging to your legs, that you were not going to fall into the trap that was Jake Seresin and his dumb, gorgeous cowboy energy. You were here to celebrate your birthday, not combust into flames.
But thenâthenâhe did something unforgivable.
He took his shirt off.
It started simple enough. He was helping your uncle haul a bale of hay from the shedâone of those heavy ones, wrapped tight, stacked tall. You watched from the shade of the porch with narrowed eyes and a paper plate in your hand, just trying to enjoy your damn macaroni salad. You weren't even looking at him. Not really. Just... in the vicinity.
And then the man tugged at the back of his shirt, lifted it clean over his head, and used it to wipe the sweat from his neck like this was a Marlboro ad come to life.
Time paused. The sun wept. Your fork clattered onto your plate.
Tanned skin, broad shoulders, that stupid tattoo on his shoulder blade you used to trace with your fingertips in the darkâall of it was on full display. His abs werenât just abs; they were architectural. Like if God had sculpted a man from summer heat and Southern charm and said, âYup. Thatâs the one thatâs gonna ruin her peace.â
He slung the hay over one shoulder and laughed at something your cousin said, the sound low and smooth, dripping in Texas. Then he spit to the sideâspit, for Godâs sakeâand somehow even that was hot.
âWhat in the cowboy smut novel is this,â you muttered, dragging a hand down your face.
Your mom passed behind you and gave you a little hum of amusement. âIf I didnât know better,â she said, âIâd say someoneâs got a type.â
âI donât,â you snapped. âHe just⌠looks hydrated.â
And maybe you were not.
Because now he was leaning on the fence, shirt still off, muscles flexing as he talked to your older brother like they were planning your familyâs next barn renovation. His fingers tapped absently on the wooden post, drawing your eye down, down, downâ
âNeed a drink?â someone asked beside you.
You didnât even know who said it. You just nodded and reached for whatever they had.
Water. Wine. Holy water.
At this point, youâd drink it all.
You just needed to breathe.
The house was full. The yard was fuller. There were children sprinting like tiny missiles across the porch, uncles hollering about the grill, your mother fussing about potato salad and forks. And him. Jake Seresin, the unholy Texas mirage, was walking around shirtless like he didnât just ignite your central nervous system every time he smirked.
So you slipped awayâquiet as a whisperâtoward the old well tucked behind the barn, the one your grandfather built with his bare hands. It was quiet there. Still. You could almost hear your heartbeat, feel the wind in your hair. That familiar creak of the wooden bucket, the low hum of cicadas in the grass. You rested your hands on the worn stone edge and exhaled.
Just one minute. One moment of peace. No chaos. No memories. No him.
âYou always ran off here when you were mad,â came the voice behind youâsmooth, low, and damn near sinful.
You didnât even jump. You just groaned.
âFor the love ofââ You turned. âDo you own a shirt?â
Jake Seresin stood there in all his shirtless, sun-kissed glory, arms crossed casually over his chest. There was a sheen of sweat on his collarbones and a devil-may-care look in his eyes that made you want to throw something at him. Preferably your dignity.
âProbably,â he said with a shrug, stepping closer. âDidnât think Iâd need one. Not when itâs this hot out.â
âGo away.â
âCanât. Kinda like the view.â
You rolled your eyes, tried to ignore the way your pulse leapt. âIf youâre here to flirt, try again when you arenât radiating âcountry boy thirst trapâ energy.â
He grinned. âI donât remember you complaining about it last time.â
âYeah, wellâŚâ You looked back at the well, swallowing hard. âLast time, I was young. Stupid.â
Jake took a few more steps until he was right beside you, the heat from his body sinking into your skin. He didnât touch you. Just stood close enough that the air felt chargedâlike lightning waiting to strike.
âI was stupid too,â he said, quieter now. âBut not about you.â
You froze. His voice was lower, more honest. The kind of voice you remembered from nights wrapped in his arms beneath a quilt of stars, when he whispered promises against your skin he never had the courage to keep.
You looked at him then, really looked.
And for a second, it wasnât Commander Rogue or Lieutenant Seresin standing in that golden Texas sun.
It was just you. And him.Â
The silence between you shimmeredâtight, fragile, electric.
Jake was too close. Too warm. Too Jake.
You could smell the sun on his skin, that familiar scent of old leather, cedarwood soap, and whatever reckless sin made him walk around like that in broad daylight. His chest rose and fell, slow and steady, while your own lungs forgot how to work. Every nerve ending in your body was on high alert, tuned to the space between his mouth and yours.
He wasnât touching youâbut god, it felt like he was. Like his heat had fingers, like his gaze was dragging along your collarbone and down your spine. Your grip on the stone edge of the well tightened.
âStill mad?â he asked, low, like he was trying not to spook you.
You turned your head slowly. âIs that a serious question?â
Jake gave a soft, crooked smileâthe kind that used to undo you, back when you were foolish and seventeen and let that mouth talk you into the backseat of his truck.
He leaned a little closer. You felt it before you saw it: the flex of his arms, the slight roll of his shoulder as he planted a hand against the well, boxing you in. Not forceful. Not trapping. Just... a little too intimate. A little too familiar.
âYouâve always had a temper,â he murmured.
âAnd youâve always been an arrogant jackass,â you shot back, heart pounding.
He chuckled, deep in his chest. âYeah. But you used to like that.â
You hated the way your body remembered. The way it leaned just slightly into his space before your brain caught up and screamed, abort mission. You turned your face awayâbig mistake. His breath brushed your cheek.
âYou used to like me,â he added, voice like gravel dragged through honey.
âI also used to believe in Santa Claus.â
That made him laugh. And god, that laugh. You remembered it in the worst waysâin dark barns and truck beds and your childhood bedroom when you swore you could keep a secret from the whole damn town.
You tried to step back. Your shoulder hit his arm.
He didnât move.
Instead, his eyes dipped lower, taking in the line of your throat, the heat flushing your neck. You could see it thenâthe moment his cocky little grin faltered. The shift. The hunger. Like heâd just remembered the exact sound you made when his hands were on your hips and his mouth was on your skin.
âI never stopped thinking about you,â he said, voice raw now. Quiet. âEven when I shouldâve. Even when I didnât deserve to.â
You felt your pulse slam against your ribs.
But you didnât say anything.
You couldnât.
Not when every inch of you was screaming, donât kiss him donât kiss him donât kiss himâ
âAuntie!â
The two of you snapped apart like teenagers caught behind the barn, you nearly bumping your elbow on the stone lip of the well. Jake blinked, disoriented for half a second, before scrubbing a hand down his face and stepping back.
A herd of small feet came rushing around the corner, your nieces and nephews tearing toward you like a tactical strike team. One of them had a cowboy hat too big for his head; another clutched a popsicle that was now just red sugar water dripping down her arm.
âAuntie, Auntie! Come play tag with us!â
âUncle Jakeâs it!â one shouted, smacking Jake on the hip and running away squealing.
Your jaw twitched. âUncleâwhat?â
Jake gave a helpless shrug, smirking like the devil himself. âGuess I got promoted.â
You narrowed your eyes. âYouâve known them for less than twenty-four hours.â
âAnd yet Iâm already the favorite,â he said, casually starting to jog after the kids, chest still annoyingly bare, voice all sugar and sin. âYou better keep up, sunshine.â
You glared at his back as he disappeared into the trees behind the barn, chased by three of your brotherâs kids and what felt like the rising heat of your own blood pressure.
The worst part? You wanted to follow.
God help you.
By the time you caught up to themâshoes soaked, jeans streaked with specks of damp soilâJake had already been tackled into the grass by a pack of laughing children. One clung to his back like a baby koala, another tried pulling his boot off, and the youngest had climbed onto his stomach with a triumphant yell of, âVictory!â
âHelp,â Jake groaned dramatically, his hands pinned by tiny, sticky fingers. âIâm under attack. Man down. Send reinforcements.â
You stopped short at the edge of the clearing, arms crossed over your chest, breath stilling for half a second.
God, he looked... absurd.
Sunlight filtered through the trees, catching in the droplets of water clinging to his hair. His white shirt from earlier had vanishedâlong forgotten or maybe tossed aside somewhere in the chaosâand his jeans were now grass-stained and muddied at the knees. One of the kids had drawn something across his chest with blue chalk, and another had clearly poured water from the bucket left beside the well.
Jake Seresin, golden boy, Navy pilot, hotshot of North Islandâabsolutely wrecked by five small children.
It made something in your chest ache.
âStop staring and get over here, Lieutenant Commander!â he called from the ground, giving you a lopsided grin. âIf I go down, Iâm taking you with me.â
âNot likely,â you said, but the twitch at the corner of your mouth betrayed you.
And then the smallestâAvery, your nieceâsprinted up, grabbed your hand, and beamed up at you.
âCome on, Auntie! Youâre on my team!â
You were halfway through the word âWaitââ when Avery yanked you straight into the mess.
Your boots sank into the mud with a wet squelch. Your balance wobbled. And then, like some twisted cosmic joke, Jake reached up and tuggedâlightly, playfullyâon your wrist just as you tried to catch yourself.
You landed with a soft oof right beside him in the grass. Mud splattered up your arms and soaked through your shirt.
âJake!â you gasped.
He blinked innocently. âOops.â
Before you could lunge for him, he was already rolling out of your reach, laughing, the kids cackling with delight as they jumped in after him.
And suddenly, like it hadnât been years of anger and silence and ghosts between you, like there werenât a thousand things unsaid still lodged in your throatâyou were laughing, too.
The sound was light. Real. It hadnât been pulled from you like a demand or forged like armor. It just⌠slipped out.
Jake looked over from where he lay sprawled on the grass, hair wild, dirt on his cheek, and something almost reverent in his gaze.
âSunshine,â he murmured under his breath, so quiet even the wind barely caught it.
You didnât hear him.
But maybe, just maybe, part of you felt it.
- Mom -
From the edge of the porch, camera in hand, your mother watched the chaos unfold in the muddy clearing with an expression somewhere between wonder and suspicion. She stood still, the warm light of late afternoon catching in her silver-streaked hair, her apron smudged with flour from the pies cooling behind her.
She hadn't meant to come out here. Not really. She just wanted to get a peek at the noiseâchildren squealing, someone yelling âmud war!ââand maybe call everyone in for lemonade. Thatâs all. But what she found instead made her stop dead in her tracks, heart twisting in her chest.
There you were. Laughing.
Muddy from head to toe, grass in your hair, sleeves rolled up, chasing after one of your nieces with wild joy in your eyes that she hadnât seen inâGod, how long had it been?
And right beside you⌠him.
Jake Seresin, the Texas boy with charm sharp as spurs and a reputation that had, once upon a time, made her raise an eyebrow more than once.
He was covered in mud too, shirtless and grinning, water dripping down his jawline as he hoisted your nephew up in the air like it was the easiest thing in the world. One of the kids had drawn a smiley face on his back with marker. He hadnât noticed. He didnât care.
Her breath caught.
And then it happenedâyou stumbled back from a slip in the wet grass, and Jake reached out without even thinking, catching you by the waist, steadying you as if his body still remembered the shape of yours. You looked up at him, wide-eyed, startled. He said something she couldnât hear, and you rolled your eyes, trying to shove him offâthough not very hard.
Her fingers moved before she even realized.
Click.
One photo. Then another. Then another.
She didnât say anything. Didnât need to. But there was a knowing tug in her chestâlike an old song she hadnât heard in years playing quietly in the background of her thoughts.
You looked like a girl in love.
And Jake? Well⌠he looked like he had just remembered what it felt like to come home.
She lowered the camera slowly, eyes never leaving the pair of you, and smiled just a little to herself.
âMaybe,â she murmured under her breath, âjust maybe.â
- You, Rogue -Â
You didnât mean to fall.
One second you were lunging after your nephew, hand outstretched to snag the edge of his shirt before he could escape the muddy ambush you and your niece had planned. The next, your foot slid in the wet grass, your arms windmilled, and thenâ
You were airborne.
âShit!â
You barely got the word out before someone caught you mid-fall, arms wrapping around your waist, the rest of you crashing against somethingâsomeoneâsolid and stupidly warm and annoyingly familiar.
âGotcha,â Jake drawled right against your ear, like a cowboy catching a tumbleweed.
And just like that, he had you. Picked you up. Just⌠scooped you up like you weighed nothing at all. His bare chest was damp from sweat and hose water, his jeans soaked and clinging to strong thighs, and you hated the way your breath caught at the feel of him. At the sound of his damn laugh when your muddy hand smeared across his shoulder.
âPut me down!â you shouted, squirming in his grip, even as the kids screamed with laughter around you.
âNope,â he grinned, spinning with you in his arms. âYou look like trouble, darlinâ. Gotta keep an eye on you.â
You slapped at his chest, legs kicking. âYouâre the one with a smiley face on your back, you idiot!â
He paused mid-spin. âWaitâwhat?â
You laughed. Actually laughed. The sound cracked out of you raw and surprised. The chaos around youâthe kids yelling, someone spraying a hose again, your brother hollering something from the porchâit blurred into a warm blur of color and sound as Jake finally dropped you gently onto a pile of soaked grass.
You landed on your butt with a graceless thud, hair a mess, shirt clinging to your back, and mud streaked down your arms. Jake stood over you, grinning like the damn sun, and offered you a hand like a gentleman.
You took it.
Just to pull him down with you.
He yelped, hit the ground with a grunt, and for a secondâjust one heartbeat-long secondâyou both lay there, breathless and laughing, side by side in the summer haze, the world spinning around you in childrenâs shrieks and distant music and the smell of grilled corn and cut grass.
You turned your head. He was already looking at you.
The sky above was impossibly blue. His eyes were impossibly green. And for a split second, you swore the whole damn world slowed down.
You didnât kiss him.
But God, it was close.
- Jake -
Jake wasnât sure when exactly it happened. Maybe it was the moment your laugh cut through the summer air like something ancient and wild, or maybe it was when your muddy hand smeared across his bare chest and you didnât apologizeâjust glared at him like you were still that girl who could outmatch him in every way that mattered. Maybe it was earlier, back when he caught you mid-fall and realized that you still smelled like salt and sunshine and the kind of life he never thought he deserved.
Whatever the hell it was, it hit him like a bullet. Fast. Deep. Irreversible.
You were in front of him now, yelling something at one of the kids, your hair sticking to your neck, droplets glinting on your skin like gold in the dying light. The sun hit you just rightâlike it always hadâand he felt that ache all over again. That same gut-punch he felt the first time he saw you grin under the Texas sky years ago, before he messed it all up with his arrogance, his ambition, his own damn fear.
Meanwhile, you were so alive. Thatâs what wrecked him. It wasnât just your smile or your voice or the way your jeans hugged your hipsâit was the way you moved like you belonged here. Like the earth and sky were built around you. You werenât just beautiful, you were real. Real in a way most things in his life werenât.
Then you looked at him. Brief. Barely a second. But you looked at him with those eyesâsharp and guarded and unknowingly softâand Jake knew. He knew, in the most terrifying, infuriating way, that he was in love with you. Not some crush. Not some what-if. Love. That stupid, all-consuming kind.
He kicked at the grass, trying to shake the thought loose. Tried to convince himself it was the sunstroke or the adrenaline or the leftover tension from every unsaid word between you two. But it wasnât. It was just you. And the quiet knowing that the second he saw you again, this version of youâcommanding and sun-drenched and laughing through mud and kids and chaosâhe was a goner.
And worst of all? He didnât know if he deserved even a second of it. Not after everything. Not after the years. But damn if he didnât want to try.
Jake Seresin swore the sun had nothing on you.
Heâd spent years in cockpits, chasing horizons, burning through the sky like he had something to proveâand maybe he did, back then. But none of it, none of the blinding sunsets or golden-glow mornings that kissed the edges of the world like something out of a dream, ever touched what you looked like in this moment. Hair messy and pulled half-back with a strand falling loose against your cheek. Mud on your knees.
Shirt clinging to your spine in the heat. And that smileâGod, that smileâsharp as ever, soft where no one else got to see. He remembered it. Heâd never forgotten. It haunted him in the quiet and crept into his thoughts on missions and long flights, the ghost of it grinning like it had unfinished business.
Meanwhile, you were laughing with your cousinâs kid, crouched in the grass like you belonged to the wild. You flicked water at Jake and didnât even look his way, too focused on teasing the children, too alive to notice the way his entire world tilted. It was maddening. It was holy. It was like watching the kind of woman poets write about and soldiers carve names into locker doors forâexcept you were real. And you hated him. And maybe he deserved it.
He ran a hand through his hair, watching as you stood up and stretched, the sun hitting the line of your waist in a way that made him clench his jaw. It shouldâve been illegal. That easy sway in your hips. That tired but proud glint in your eye like you knew you ruled this little corner of earth and had no plans of giving it up.
Then you bent down to scoop a toddler into your arms, spinning her, laughing as she screamed with delight. And JakeâŚwell, his knees almost gave out.
Not because he imagined you holding his kid like thatâthough, Jesus Christ, he didâbut because it reminded him of everything heâd tried to shut out.
How warm you could be. How dangerous it felt to love someone who glowed from the inside out. And how badly he wanted to earn even an inch of that warmth again.
He tore his eyes away, just for a second, just to breatheâbut it was no use. You were everywhere. In the sky. In the dirt. In the back of his goddamn mind. A storm in boots and a baseball cap. A fever he could never shake.
And Jake Seresin was parched. Starving. Hopelessly, humiliatingly thirstyâfor a woman who looked at him like he was a closed chapter. A footnote. But stillâŚhe stayed.Â
Because watching you now, sun-kissed and mud-streaked and all fire? It was the closest to heaven heâd ever gotten.
Jake didnât realize when the noise around him fadedâthe laughter, the barking dogs, the clatter of beer bottles and ice bucketsâuntil all that remained was the soft lilt of your voice somewhere across the yard.
You were bent at the waist again, helping one of your nieces wash off a muddy hand, and the light struck your profile like it was painting it for keeps. He could trace every angle by memory. He had, once. Quiet nights in his bunk. Long flights with nothing but time and guilt.
And now, the fantasy was whispering again.
It started smallâjust a flicker in the back of his mind. You in that kitchen youâd once dreamed about. Windows wide open. Coffee brewing. A dog at your feet. Then it deepened.
A blur of tiny footsteps racing across a hardwood floor, squeaky with morning. A giggle that sounded like you. A scowl that mirrored his. And then you, barefoot in the hallway, holding a sleepy-eyed toddler on your hip like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Jake blinked hard, suddenly warm beneath his collar. He wasnât the kind of man who let himself want like that. Not anymore. But the image burned anywayâyou and him in a little house tucked somewhere quiet, the kind of place where he could build what he never thought he deserved.
Maybe a swing in the front yard. Maybe a pickup in the driveway with a car seat in the back. Maybe he plants lilies along the fence because you once offhandedly said they were your favorite, and the look on your face when you saw them? Worth every sunburn and scraped knuckle.
Heâd never even bought a girl flowers before. Never stayed long enough to learn what they liked. But with you? Lilies. White, soft, stubborn things. Grew in the sun. Survived the storms.
Just like you.
Meanwhile, you stood up and laughed again, brushing your hands off on your jeans. One of the kids tugged at your hand, pulling you back toward the yard, and Jake felt something in his chest twist. Not ache. Not quite. It was wantâraw and deep and bigger than anything heâd felt in years.
He wanted to be the one you turned to. The one who carried in the groceries and kissed your temple just because. The one who gave you lilies every damn birthday, no matter where he was in the world. The one you leaned into when the world got loud.
Jake Seresin wasnât stupid. He knew it wasnât that simple.
But God, for the first time in his life, he wanted to try.
And if youâd let himâjust give him one more chanceâheâd give you the whole damn garden.
He didnât notice you walking up at first. He was too far gone, stuck in that half-dream where your hand fit perfectly into his and the world was quieter, softer, wrapped in summer cotton and the scent of lilies. But then your shadow crossed his boots, and your voiceâsharp, familiar, homeâsliced clean through the haze.
âSeresin,â you said, firm as ever.
He blinked up, caught like a deer in headlights. Your arms were crossed, your brows drawn together like they always did when you were irritated. There was a smudge of dirt on your cheekbone, a streak of dried mud on your shirt, and somehow you still looked like you could knock the wind out of him without even trying.
You didnât wait for him to come up with something clever.
âYouâre muddy,â you said, blunt and unimpressed. âGo clean up. Dinnerâs soon, and my mom will actually murder you if you track dirt onto her porch.â
That tone. That exact brand of annoyed-but-secretly-concerned that made him grin before he even meant to.
âAw, sweetheart,â Jake drawled, lazy and smug, âyou always talk this sweet to your guests, or am I just special?â
Your eyes narrowed into something that couldâve cut steel.
âDonât push me, Hangman,â you warned, voice low. âYou are already on thin ice.â
He lifted both hands, palms up, like he was some innocent cowboy whoâd never done a damn thing wrong in his life.
âWouldnât dream of it.â
But you didnât smile. You just gave him one last glareâlike a warning shotâand turned on your heel. Your boots squelched softly in the dirt as you headed back toward the house, leaving him blinking after you, still half-caught in the image of you in a sundress and muddy boots, tossing him that same frown thirty years from now with a ring on your finger.
Jake exhaled slowly, watching you disappear into the crowd.
Get it together, Seresin.
Dinner was coming.
And so was trouble.
The guest room was small but warm, the kind of place that smelled like cedarwood and old books, like history and a lifetime of love carved into the floorboards. Jake dropped his duffle bag by the edge of the bed, the springs creaking just a little when it hit. He paused, blinking at the sight of another bag already thereâdark green canvas, fraying a little at the seams. Not his. He frowned.
Probably belonged to one of your brothers. Or a cousin. Or a friend of the family passing through. The house was full of bodies and boots and energy, after all. He didnât think too hard about it. The need to get clean tugged at him harder than the mystery of who claimed what.
Your mother had been sweet, as always, showing him the room like he wasnât the guy whoâd broken her daughterâs heart clean in half once upon a time. She smiled kindly and said, âThereâs hot water. Fresh towelâs hanging. Go clean up, darlinâ. You look like you rolled through hell and back.â
And he hadâin a way.
So, he peeled off his shirt first, tugging the fabric over his head and feeling the dried mud crumble like dust onto the hardwood. His boots came next, then the rest of his clothes. The bathroom mirror caught a glimpse of his reflectionâsunburned shoulders, flushed cheeks, that damn stubborn smirk still ghosting across his mouth like a man who had no right.
Jake stepped into the shower and twisted the knob. Steam poured in seconds later, curling up around him like a memory.
The water hit him hot and hard, sluicing over skin and sweat, washing the afternoon off his shoulders. But the thoughts didnât go away. If anything, the quiet made them worse.
He braced one arm against the tile, head down, water beating across the nape of his neckâand thatâs when she showed up.
Not in person, no. In his damn head.
You, soaked in rain and mud, laughing in the yard as kids screamed and chased each other. You, yelling at him to clean up, but eyes flicking down his bare chest like you couldnât help it.
You, standing under the Texas sun, defiant and glowing, fire in your glare and something soft flickering underneath. A kind of softness he remembered. A kind he used to know.
Jake exhaled, long and low, like he could breathe you out. Like the heat of the water could chase your face from his mind. But it didnât.
It got worse.
Your voice. Your eyes. Your mouth.
His hand curled into a fist against the slick tile wall.
"Get it together, Seresin," he muttered to himself. "This ain't the time."
But God, it had been a long time. And suddenly, the idea of you sharing this roomâof that duffle bag maybe being yoursâhit him with the force of a jet engine.
Oh, he was screwed. And not in the way he wanted.
- You, Rogue -
The sun had started its slow descent behind the fields, casting golden rays that poured into the corners of the farmhouse like warm honey. Youâd just about had enough of the noise, the chaos, the squealing of kids using your childhood bedroom like it was a damn jungle gym. Your old dresser was littered with dolls that werenât yours, stuffed animals whose eyes stared blankly, and one suspicious-looking crayon mural on the closet door that hadnât been there twenty years ago.
You pouted. Unapologetically.
Your father had chuckled, all gravel and warmth. âSpare guest roomâs empty, sweetheart. You can crash there for now.â
You didnât argueâjust nodded, already tugging your duffel bag from beneath a pile of someoneâs blanket fort. That morning, you had dropped your stuff in the guest room before helping your mom out front.
Now, covered in a layer of dust, dirt, and sticky child-handprints, you pushed the door open and let it shut behind you with a soft click. It was quiet in here, cooler too, the way old farmhouses always held the chill of dusk in their bones.
You locked the door out of habit, drew the curtains, and stripped down without ceremony. Your robe was nowhere in sightâprobably left in the trunk of your carâbut you werenât about to go looking. Wrapping yourself in a towel, you padded barefoot across the hardwood, steps quiet as you made your way toward the bathroom.
Then you paused.
Thereâon the bed. Something that definitely wasnât yours. A second duffle bag. A wrinkled T-shirt. Socks. Boxers. Oh, for the love ofâ
You rolled your eyes with the weight of a thousand exasperated sighs, arms folding as you marched across the room to investigate. Maybe it was one of your cousins. Or maybeâ
The bathroom door opened with a hiss of steam.
And thenâ
âWell⌠well,â came a drawl, slow and rich as molasses.
You whipped around, eyes wide.
Jake Seresin stood there in nothing but a towel, drops of water tracing the carved lines of his chest, the ridges of his abs, glistening like he was carved out of sin and every bad decision you ever made. His hair was damp, mussed perfectly without trying. His smirk? Lethal.
And ohâhis eyes locked on you, towel-clad and stunned mid-step, and lit up like the Fourth of July.
âWould you look at that,â he said again, voice lower now. âTalk about walking into paradise.â
You blinked.
He grinned.
And the towel around your body felt suddenly very, very insufficient.
The steam curled from the bathroom like smoke from a lit match, clinging to the air with the scent of cedar soap and something sinfully masculine. You barely had time to process the fact that the mystery toiletries on the sink werenât yours before the door swung openâand there he was.
Jake Seresin.
Dripping wet.
Shirtless.
Smug as hell.
And wrapped in a towel that was doing the bare minimum.
His broad shoulders glistened, golden from the remnants of the setting sun slipping through the curtains. Water ran in rivulets down the defined lines of his chest, cutting through the faint dusting of freckles and tan like the universe was outlining sin itself. That damn smirk curled onto his lips the second he saw youâtowel wrapped tight, hair damp, standing in front of the bed like a deer caught in a thunderstorm of what the actual hell is happening.
He didnât even flinch. No shame. No embarrassment. Just that cocky, damn-near-illegal glint in his eyes as he leaned lazily against the doorframe, water still dripping off the ends of his hair, traveling down the slope of his neck and vanishing behind the cotton barrier wrapped snug on his hips.
âWell,â he drawled, voice deep and slow like whiskey on a southern summer night. âWasnât expecting company⌠but I gotta say, Iâm not mad about it.â
Your mouth opened. Then closed. Then opened again. Words were thereâmaybe a curse, maybe a screamâbut none made it out. Instead, you just stared. At him. At his bare chest. At the way his abs flexed subtly when he shifted. At the slight dip of the towel where his hipbone peeked out like a damn invitation to ruin your life.
âWhat the hell are you doing here?â you finally hissed, clutching your towel tighter with both hands like it was a lifeline.
Jake blinked, faux-innocent. âYour mom said the spare room was free. Guess we both had the same idea.â
You were going to combust. Not from embarrassmentâno, that ship had sailed the second you caught a glimpse of the way a single droplet of water trailed down his sternum and disappeared beneath the fold of the towelâbut from sheer, blinding, seething indignation.
âThis is my room,â you snapped.
âLooks like itâs our room now, darlinâ,â he said, cocking a brow as his gaze slippedânot rudely, but boldlyâfrom your face down to the curve of your towel-wrapped figure. âUnless you want me to leave.â
You wanted to punch him. You wanted to scream. You wanted to throw something.
And maybeâjust maybeâyou wanted to drop the towel and see if heâd still be standing there all smug.
Jake mustâve sensed that dangerous crossroads of thought because he stepped forward slightly, his voice dipping. âYou gonna kick me out, sunshine? Or are you gonna admit that you missed me?â
You scoffed, cheeks burning. âI didnât miss you. I forgot you existed.â
âOh,â he murmured, tongue darting out to wet his bottom lip, eyes still on you like you were something sacred and forbidden. âThen why are you staring like that?â
You werenât staring. You were not staring. Absolutely not. You were simplyâ
Then his towel slipped just an inch lower on his hips, and you made a noise in your throat that could only be described as a choke.
âEyes up here, sweetheart,â Jake teased, grinning.
You snapped out of your stupor like you'd been slapped. âPut some damn clothes on.â
âSay please.â
âJake.â
He winked, slow and lazy, then stepped back toward the bathroom door. âAlright, alright. Iâll be good.â
He turnedâand you got a full view of his back muscles working under skin still damp from the shower. You gulped.
The door closed behind him.
And you just stood there, staring at the space heâd been in, cheeks burning, pulse racing, and towel clutched like a lifeline.
Hell.
This was going to be a long weekend.
By the time Jake exited the bathroom, the air around him was thick with the scent of soap, aftershave, and smug satisfaction. He was still towel-drying his hair, now dressed in a white t-shirt that clung too well to his chest, and a pair of jeans that hung low on his hips in a way that shouldâve been outlawed in polite society. His boots were offâthank Godâbut that cocky, heat-soaked grin? That was very much still on.
He passed you with a small nod and a whistle-soft, âDonât take too long now. Dinnerâs soon, birthday girl,â before tossing his damp towel onto a nearby chair like he owned the damn place.
You didnât respond. You couldnât.
Because the second the door clicked shut behind him, you lunged into the bathroom like it was your last salvation.
The moment the door locked behind you, your back hit the wall, and your towel nearly slipped with the force of your breath. Your chest rose and fell like youâd just run a five-mile sprintânot walked in on a man you allegedly forgot you were in love with. The steam in the room hadnât dissipated yet, and it wrapped around your skin like a memory, thick and too damn hot.
You blinked.
His soap still clung to the air. His scent still lingered in the steam.
You cursed under your breath, pinching the bridge of your nose.
Why the hell was Jake Seresin always ten times hotter when you were actively trying not to think about him? Why did he have to look at you like that? Talk to you like he had all the time in the world and nothing to lose? Stand there like a walking sin with a towel hanging so low on his hips you were pretty sure your ancestors felt that down their spines?
You were burning up.
Not just from the heat in the room, but from the fire crawling up your neck and down your spine like molten sugar and hellfire. That man had the audacity to exist like thatâjust existâwith a smirk and soft drawl and biceps that looked like they could throw you over a fence.
And you let him.
You watched him.
You remembered every drop of water sliding down his chest, every twitch of that cocky little smirk, every brush of his voice when he said your name like heâd never forgotten it.
God, you needed a cold shower inside a blizzard under a glacier.
Instead, you groaned and stepped under the still-warm spray of water heâd left behind, muttering curses to yourself as if that would rinse the images of him out of your head.
They didnât. They only got worse. Because now you could see him there, in this spaceâhis footprints still on the mat, his breath still clinging to the mirror. And your knees mightâve wobbled just a little as you gripped the edge of the sink and whispered to yourselfâ
âGet a grip.â But you didnât believe it. Not even a little.
You were finally clean. The kind of clean that only came after scrubbing off not just mud but the weight of the entire day â your skin warm from the water, your hair damp and curling against the nape of your neck, steam fogging up the mirror like the aftermath of a thunderstorm. Youâd taken your time, hoping the silence might scrub away the image of Jake Seresin standing shirtless in the same damn bathroom just minutes ago. It didnât work.
Wrapped snugly in a towel, you turned toward the door, ready to put an end to this spiral â only to realize something crucial. Your clothes. Your actual, decent, non-humiliating clothes? Still in your duffel bag. Which, naturally, was not in the bathroom. No. It was on the bed. Out there. With Jake.
Your stomach dropped. Your face flushed instantly with heat that had nothing to do with the shower. You stared at the bathroom door like it had personally betrayed you.
You considered your options. You could march out, wrapped in nothing but your towel, and grab the bag yourself â risk walking past the man whoâd already seen far too much. Or, you could bite the bullet. Ask for help. Humble yourself.
Groaning under your breath, you cracked the door just slightly and peeked through the gap. Jakeâs voice drifted through before you could even speak â humming off-key to some old country song like he was just a man enjoying his own company and not the reason you were considering climbing out the bathroom window.
You exhaled sharply and said his name. âJake?â
The humming cut off, replaced by a beat of silence. You could hear the shift of fabric, the soft creak of the floorboards as he turned toward the door. Then, far too amused for your liking, he answered, âWell, well. Sunshine. Miss me already?â
You resisted the urge to bang your head against the doorframe. âI need my duffel.â
Another beat. You knew exactly what kind of grin was spreading across his face. The smug one. The one that belonged to a man who had never once let you live anything down.
âYou mean the one out here? With your clothes in it?â he asked, faux-innocent.
You closed your eyes. âYes, Jake. That one.â
A low chuckle rolled from his chest, and you heard him moving, footsteps heading toward the bed. âI got you,â he said. âOnly because itâs your birthday. And because Iâm a gentleman.â
You didnât grace that with a reply. Just pushed your arm through the crack in the door, fingers wiggling impatiently. The second the canvas of the duffel hit your palm, you yanked it through â but of course, Jake couldnât help himself.
âYou know,â he said, voice low and teasing, âIâve dreamed about this moment before.â
You were already turning away when he added, just loud enough to reach you, âDidnât say it was a dirty dream.â
The door shut on his smirk, and you leaned your forehead against the cool tile, clutching the duffel bag like it was a shield. Your pulse was still hammering. Your ears were red. You hadnât even changed yet and already you felt half undone.
Inside the steam and silence, you whispered to yourself, âYou are not losing your mind. You are not attracted to him again. Youâre just... hot. Itâs just the weather.â
But even as you unzipped your bag, you couldnât deny the truth.
Jake Seresin, the human migraine, was getting under your skin again. And he hadnât even really started yet.
The backyard had been completely transformed. String lights were strung between trees and porch posts, glowing amber for the deepening blue of a Texas evening later. Long tables had been set with checkered cloths and mismatched plates, pitchers of iced tea and lemonade sweating on every surface. The smell of grilled meat lingered heavy in the air, tangled with the warm, comforting scent of sun-warmed grass and citronella candles. Laughter echoed like a hymn â soft and constant, as if the whole world had taken a breath and decided to stay right here.
You stepped into it dressed and clean, your hair still damp, pulled back in a quick braid that clung to the back of your neck. You had slipped into a loose cotton dress that your mother had left on your childhood bed, the kind of thing that made you feel like someone softer than what the Navy hardened.
Your boots hit the porch step with a solid thud. Then you scanned the crowd â cousins shouting over a cornhole match, your uncles gathered around a cooler, your aunts near the grill gossiping like it was religion. And right there in the thick of it, beer in hand and talking to your brother like heâd belonged all his life, was Jake.
He looked up like he felt you before he saw you. His eyes met yours across the backyard, and for a moment, the noise faded out. He was wearing a clean white t-shirt now, sleeves rolled up, jeans low on his hips, his hair still damp from the shower â the cocky bastard looked every inch like the boy you used to curse under your breath and secretly stare at. But this wasnât some reckless flyboy anymore. This was a man, and that was somehow worse.
You tried to act unaffected, crossing the yard with your chin high and spine stiff. But the way Jake stood up when you got closer â the way he pulled out the chair beside him, grinning just slightly â you knew he was going to get under your skin again. He always did.
âBirthday girl,â he greeted as you dropped into the seat, ignoring the flutter in your chest.
The plate in front of you was empty for two seconds before Jake reached for it and started piling on food like muscle memory. Ribs, your auntâs corn pudding, slices of brisket, and a scoop of the macaroni your cousin swore she made from scratch but absolutely did not.
âThis much brisket?â he asked, shooting you a look.
âYouâre lucky I donât shove it down your throat.â
Jake grinned like youâd just told him a love poem. âThreatening violence on your birthday. Classic you.â
âYou want me to add the fork in your eye to my wish list?â
âI missed you,â he said under his breath, and that? That almost made you drop your glass. Almost.
The table was loud â too loud, and the warmth in your chest too unfamiliar. Jake passed you the cornbread without asking, refilled your lemonade like he had every right to. He didnât push. Didnât flirt. Just stayed close, smiling whenever you spoke, listening when you didnât.
Then came the moment youâd been dreading.
âHappy birthday to youâŚâ
You groaned, dropping your head into your hand as your family sang with full volume and zero tune. Jake leaned in close, voice low beside your ear.
âNo use hiding, sunshine. Take it like a pilot.â
You elbowed him hard in the ribs, and he just laughed. He never even looked at the cake â his eyes stayed on you the whole time, like you were the flame, not the candles.
When it was time to blow them out, he leaned in again. âMake a wish.â
You narrowed your eyes. âI already got what I wanted.â
His brows lifted in surprise. âOh yeah? Me?â
âSilence,â you deadpanned, then took a bite of cake like you didnât notice the way his smile turned into something tender.
Your mother raised a toast. Your father gave a speech. The table clinked glasses and passed plates, and through it all, Jake didnât move from your side. And you let him stay.
Dinner had long wrapped, but the yard still buzzed with life. Lanterns swung lazily from the trees, casting a soft, golden glow over the evening. Kids shrieked and laughed as they ran barefoot across the grass, dodging sprinklers and slipping in the mud.
Adults lingered in clumps around the grills and tables, voices lowered now, soothed by full bellies and the sweetness of homemade pie. It was the kind of night that made time feel like it bent a little â like it curved inward and held everything close.
You were about to help clean up when a familiar sound cut through the hum of conversation. A wheeze. A low huff. Nails on the wooden porch.
You froze.
And then you saw him.
âBingo?â you breathed out, like the word alone might summon him closer.
The old Labrador came hobbling down the porch steps, slower than he used to be, his once-golden fur now dulled to a soft cream shot through with gray. His tail swayed, not wagging as wildly as it had when he was younger, but still moving, still trying. Still happy.
You dropped down into the grass without a second thought, your dress catching on a twig, your hands reaching out. âHey, old man,â you whispered, cradling his tired face. âYou still remember me?â
Bingo leaned into your hands and licked your cheek, huffing softly against your skin. You laughed, even as your throat tightened, and blinked against the burn behind your eyes.
And then, like gravity â like clockwork â Jake was there. He moved into the scene like he belonged, crouching down beside you, boots sinking into the earth. His gaze softened at the sight of the dog.
âDamn,â he murmured, running his hand down Bingoâs back with a tenderness you hadnât seen in years. âStill kickinâ.â
âHeâs a tough one,â you replied, not looking at him.
âI always knew heâd outlive all of us,â he said with a lopsided grin, still looking at the dog. âStill got better instincts than half the squadron.â
You didnât answer. You didnât need to. Bingo huffed again, content to lean his weight against both of you â like he didnât care about time, or history, or everything unspoken hovering between the two people he loved most.
Then your motherâs voice called out from the porch, light and warm, âHey! Letâs get a picture. Come on â just like the one from before!â
You looked up, heart sinking just a little.
Before.
Before everything.
Still, you didnât argue. Not when your dad had already joined your mom on the steps, waving you both over. Not when Bingo began trotting that way with all the shaky dignity he could muster.
You stood and followed, wiping your hands on your dress. Jake moved beside you, just far enough not to touch, but close enough to feel.
On the porch, the photographer â your cousin Ellie â arranged you quickly. âOkay,â she chirped, âjust like before! You and Jake in the middle. Bingo between you. Your parents on either side.â
You and Jake took your places, shoulders brushing. You both knelt again. Bingo plopped his butt between you like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Jake glanced at you, his arm settling gently behind Bingoâs back. âReady?â
You didnât look at him. âJust smile, Seresin.â
The camera clicked. And there it was. A snapshot.
You in your old boots and a sundress, Jake in a white T-shirt and jeans, his hands muddy and hair a mess. Your parents standing tall and proud on either side. And Bingo, the last link to who you used to be, smack in the middle.
You felt something lodge in your throat when you stood. Something small, sharp, and unspoken. You didnât know what it meant yet. Maybe you didnât want to.
Jakeâs hand brushed yours when he stood beside you. You didnât flinch, but you didnât reach back, either.
The swing creaked as you sat down, the familiar groan of old wood and rusted chains filling the quiet air like a memory. The sun had dipped lower now, slanting gold across the horizon, painting shadows long and low across the fields you once called home.
You swayed gently, toes brushing the dust-soft ground, fingers curled loosely around the chain links. The cool breeze carried the scent of cut grass, barbecue smoke, and rain that had never quite come.
And then you heard footsteps.
Not rushed. Not hesitant either. Just⌠there. Steady, familiar. And you didnât have to look to know.
You kept your eyes on the sky, the pale orange bleeding into pink. âIf youâre here to bother me again,â you said, voice calm, cool, unreadable, âI swear to God, Seresinââ
âIâm not here to bother you.â His voice was quiet, too quiet for Jake Seresin, and that alone made your hands tighten around the swingâs chain. âI just⌠saw you come out here. Thought maybeââ He paused. âThought maybe you didnât want to be alone.â
You snorted. âYou thought wrong.â
He didnât answer. You heard the rustle of grass as he walked around, and then he was in your peripheral vision, hands in his back pockets, boots scuffing the dirt like he was twelve years old and about to confess to breaking a window.
You didnât look at him. He didnât sit.
âI wasnât going to come,â he said finally, voice low. âTo today. To any of this.â
âNo one asked you to.â
âI know.â A pause. âYour mom did.â
You closed your eyes briefly, jaw clenching. âOf course she did.â
He shifted again, then leaned against the old post of the swing set. You could feel his gaze, hot and heavy, but still you didnât turn.
âI meant what I said. Back there, in the office.â His voice was quieter now, steadier somehow. âI wasnât lying to you.â
âAnd thatâs supposed to mean something?â you asked, tone sharp like a snap of wire. âYou werenât lying now, but you were lying then. You lied to me, Jake. You used me.â
âI was a kid,â he murmured.
âSo was I,â you snapped, finally looking at him. The anger rose like a tide, quick and bright. âBut I didnât turn someoneâs heart into a party trick.â
Jake didnât flinch. He just looked at you, solemn and still. âYou left.â
You blinked. âExcuse me?â
âI said you left.â His jaw worked. âYou didnât just walk out of my life, you disappeared from the damn map. No calls. No message. Nothing. I turned around and you were just⌠gone.â
Your chest tightened. âI left because I had to. Because staying meant looking at the version of myself I became around youâsmall, pathetic, invisible.â
âI never wanted you to feel that way.â
âBut you didnât stop it either,â you said, standing now, fury crackling beneath your skin. âYou stood there while they laughed. While I was trying so hard not to cry in front of everyone. And when I gave you everything I hadâmy time, my loyalty, my beliefâyou threw it back like it was nothing.â
Jakeâs voice came out quieter. âI didnât know. I didnât realize it meant that much to you.â
You laughed, cold and bitter. âYou think this is about a grade? About a project? You were the first person to make me feel like I was worth seeing, Jake. Like maybe I wasnât just the weird, quiet girl who loved jets and read manuals for fun. And then, when it mattered⌠you made me feel like I was a joke.â
Silence stretched between you. The wind pulled gently at your dress, lifting strands of hair across your cheek. Jakeâs face was pale in the soft light, his mouth parted like he wanted to speak but didnât know what the hell to say.
Finally, he stepped forward. âI donât expect forgiveness. Iâm not asking for that.â
You raised an eyebrow. âThen what are you asking for?â
âI donât know,â he admitted, voice hoarse. âMaybe just⌠to not be a ghost in your story anymore.â
You looked at him. Really looked.
He wasnât the boy you rememberedâtoo smug, too handsome for his own good, too damn reckless with hearts that werenât his. This man in front of you was older, weathered in ways you hadnât expected. He wore guilt like a second skin, pride chipped away beneath a uniform and call signs and medals that didnât erase the kid who once broke you.
But still.
It wasnât enough.
âYouâre not a ghost,â you said finally, voice soft but cold. âYouâre the bruise that never fully faded.â
And with that, you turned back to the swing, sitting down again with a sigh. The air felt heavier now, but somehow clearer too. Jake didnât say anything else. He just stood there, watching the woman he once thought he could forget.
Meanwhile, the cicadas began their slow chorus. The stars blinked into being, one by one. And neither of you moved.
Jake exhaled. It was shaky, like it had been trapped in his chest for years. Then, quietly: âI know I donât deserve to ask anything from you.â
Your eyes flicked toward him, but you said nothing.
He took a step closer, then another, until he was standing right in front of you. You didnât move. Not away. Not toward. Just still.
âBut Iâm going to say it anyway,â Jake murmured. âBecause Iâm tired of letting the best things in my life slip through my fingers just because I was too proud or too scared to admit I screwed up.â
There was a tremor in his voice now. Barely there. But it cracked on the next breath.
âI used to think you were a detour,â he said, his hands clenched at his sides. âJust a stop along the way. A girl who knew too much about engines and didnât laugh at the right jokes. But you⌠God, you were everything. I just didnât know it yet.â
You stared at him, heart thudding, lips parted in disbelief.
âYou were fire wrapped in softness. You were brilliant, and kind, and so damn loyal it scared me. And Iââ his voice broke, and he looked away for the first time, dragging a hand through his hair like he was trying to hold himself together.
Then he looked back. And his eyes⌠they were wet.
âI was the fool. Not you. I was the coward who needed everyone to think he was cool, even if it meant throwing away the one person who actually saw me. Really saw me. And I hurt you. I used you. I mocked what you gave me like it didnât matter. But it did. It mattered more than anything.â
His throat bobbed, his voice raw and cracking as he stepped even closer, as if the distance between you was burning him alive.
âYou donât have to forgive me,â he whispered. âYou donât even have to look at me again. But I needed you to know... I love you. I never stopped.â
You sucked in a sharp breath, the words hitting like a punch to the chest.
Jakeâs shoulders shook now. He tried to breathe, but it came out a choke. He covered his mouth with his hand, tried to blink it back, but the tears were already fallingâsilent, slow, like the kind that donât beg for pity. Just truth.
âI love you,â he said again, quieter this time. âIâve loved you since the day you handed me that stupid project and told me not to fail. I just didnât know how to be someone who deserved you.â
You stood slowly, eyes locked on his. He was crying, nose pink, jaw tremblingâJake Seresin, who never flinched in dogfights, who never let anyone see the cracks.
And now, all of him was cracked wide open. Just for you.
Your voice was quiet at first. Almost too quiet to hear above the creak of the swing swaying slightly behind you. But Jake heard itâheard youâand the sound of your breath hitching as you tried to keep control, tried to keep steel where there was only the slow-melting ache of grief.
âI wanted to forget you,â you whispered, eyes burning. âAnd God, I tried. For years. I told myself you didnât mean anything. That it didnât matter how you looked at me like I was worth nothing in front of your friends. That it didnât matter how you let them laugh, let them joke about the quiet girl who knew too much and felt too much.â You swallowed, hard. âI told myself you didnât mean it. That maybe you were just young. Stupid. Caught in the wrong moment.â
Jake stood frozen, barely breathing, eyes on you like you were the only thing in the world that had ever mattered. Because you were.
âAnd now?â you continued, voice breaking at the edges. âNow you show up like this. With words I waited for years to hear. And itâs not that I donât want to believe youâGod, Jake, part of me wants to. But Iâm terrified.â Your voice cracked completely now, tears slipping down your cheeks like theyâd been waiting for this. âBecause if I forgive you⌠if I let myself fall for you again, and you leaveâif you break me againâI wonât come back from that.â
Jakeâs face crumpled. All of his armor, the cocky smirks, the playboy confidence, the golden-boy glowâshattered. He stepped closer, slowly, then dropped to his knees right there in front of you, in the dirt, like none of it mattered. Because it didnât. Not if he couldnât reach you.
âI wonât leave,â he said, his voice thick and hoarse. âI wonât hurt you again. I swear to you, I swear on everything Iâve got leftâI will never, ever let you feel like youâre not enough. Not again.â
His hands were on your waist, trembling, grounding him. His forehead lowered against your stomach, and you felt his body shakingânot with cold or nerves but with something deeper. Something broken and rebuilt, still raw at the edges.
âI love you,â he said again, almost pleading now. âAnd I know that word isnât enough. I know Iâve got a hell of a mountain to climb to prove it. But Iâll do it. Iâll prove it every damn day for the rest of my life if you let me. Iâll give you every flower, every sunrise, every second chance you thought youâd never get.â
He looked up at you, eyes wet, voice soft but sure. âIâm not that boy anymore. Iâm not running. Not from you. Not from us. I will never leave you behind again.â
And as you looked down at himâat Jake Seresin, on his knees, shaking in your arms, eyes wide and begging like prayersâyou realized he wasnât just asking for forgiveness.
He was asking for forever.
You stared at him, at the man kneeling in the dirt like he wasnât born of sky and pride but forged from something heartbreakingly human. Jake Seresinâyour first betrayal, your oldest wound, your almost. His hands were still on your waist like a tether, like if he let go, heâd float off and lose you again.
And God, your chest ached with itâwith the heat of his words, the trembling in his shoulders, the way his eyes never once strayed from yours. You wanted to run. You wanted to scream. You wanted to collapse into his arms and never let go.
Instead, you knelt in front of him.
It startled himâhis breath caught, his eyes widened like he didnât expect you to meet him on his knees. But you did. Slowly. Carefully. As if any sudden move might break you both again.
âI used to imagine what this would look like,â you said, your voice rough, lips trembling with the effort it took to speak. âYou, apologizing. Me, finally getting to ask why.â
He opened his mouth, but you shook your head, not finished.
âI used to think if I ever saw you again, Iâd slap you. Or worse. And maybe I shouldâve.â You laughed wetly, bitter and exhausted. âBut then you looked at me. Not the way you used toâGod, not like thatâbut like I was real again. Like I wasnât just something you stepped over to get where you wanted.â
Jakeâs lips parted, but no sound came out. He was still cryingâquietly now. Steady. Like it wasnât a thing he could stop, just a thing he carried.
You reached up, thumb grazing his cheek, brushing a tear away. âYou were my first heartbreak, Jake. And maybe that means Iâll always flinch when you get too close. Maybe Iâll always wonder if Iâm just a placeholder again.â
Jake gripped your wrist gently, turning into your palm like it was the only lifeline he had.
âBut maybe,â you whispered, âI want to find out.â
His breath hitched. âYou do?â
âIâm still mad,â you said, your voice cracking with a laugh, with something like fragile hope. âIâm still scared. But if youâre willing to do the work⌠if youâre really in this, Jakeâthen yeah.â
His mouth was trembling now, his shoulders shaking harder. âIâm in. Iâm so fucking in. I donât want anyone else.â
âI donât want pretty speeches,â you warned, even as you leaned closer, forehead pressed to his. âI want the truth. I want actions. I want the man you are nowânot the boy who broke me.â
He nodded, over and over like he couldnât believe you were saying this, like he needed to etch the words into his heart before they disappeared. âIâll be him. For you, Iâll be him.â
Then, finallyâfinallyâyou wrapped your arms around his shoulders. And Jake folded into you like heâd been waiting years just to breathe again.
A quiet, shared exhale against the tender press of foreheadsâhim on his knees, you holding him like he might fall apart if you let go. And maybe you would too. You could still taste the ache between you. Years of silence, of what-ifs and almosts and never-agains. But in that moment, wrapped in the soft amber of dusk and the hush of the farm behind you, there was only one truth left.
You kissed him.
It wasnât gentle, not entirely. It was hesitant, then desperate, then sure. The kind of kiss that tasted of memories and apologies, of pain soothed and promises rewritten. His hands cradled your face like he couldnât believe you were real, like he was scared youâd vanish if he blinked. And you held him like he was no longer the boy who hurt you, but the man who swore he never would again.
When you finally pulled back, both of you were breathing hard. You looked at himâreally lookedâand there it was: the wonder in his eyes, the salt of old regrets on his lips, the trembling hope in his touch.
âYouâre crying,â you whispered.
âIâve been crying since I saw you in that swing,â he murmured, grinning through it now. âYou kissed me.â
âYou begged,â you shot back with a smirk, cheeks burning.
Jake laughed, forehead against yours again. âDamn right I did.â
And somewhere behind you, the sounds of laughter and music and clinking glasses carried from the house. But in the quiet between heartbeats, it was just the two of you. No call signs. No ghosts. No armor.
Just the girl who ran wild in the fields and the boy who didnât know what he had until she left.
Funny, really.
Once, youâd been the fool for loving him. The quiet one. The invisible one. The girl no one expected to rise.
And heâheâd been the golden boy.
But life has a wicked sense of humor.
Because now, as he knelt there beneath the stars, still trembling from the kiss you gave him, there was no mistaking it:
The golden boy had become the fool.
And heâd never been happier to be one.
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