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I know I haven't posted here in a while. Here meaning all three of my tumblr blogs: cappellapalatina (the general and hannigram-focused blog), busymarina (my studyblr account) and muchdan (the dan and phil blog). At different stages of my tumblr life, I've accumulated a few thousand followers on all of these combined. This is literally the biggest platform that I ever had. Which is why I wanted to pop up on your dash to share something. The very worst thing happened. My country is at war. I know you've been hearing about what's happening in Ukraine all around, but I realized that most of the news cover some high-level stuff -- the politics, the history, the horrors of war in scary numbers. Not many have heard what war has been like from the perspective of a normal person. Like me, my friends, colleagues. Just someone like you. Before the war, I lived in Kharkiv. It's a big, modern city. Every day, I went to work in the office downtown, went for lunch and shopping in the nearby mall, grabbed coffee with a friend, and spent evenings in my wonderful apartment. It was blissful life, truly. I didn't know it then. We knew Putin was going to do something. Kharkiv is close to Russia's border, and for the weeks before the war, we lived in constant fear. I started thinking about moving to Ukraine's western regions. I packed bags. This was heartbreaking. Imagine having to flee your home, your favorite place in the world. I also had a cat, so I couldn't take much stuff with me. I packed very few shirts, I didn't know if I should take summer clothes if I need them. I was hoping I'd return soon. It's been a month and I'm nowhere close to going home. I was lucky to escape the very first day -- on the bus, with my colleagues, their families, and pets. It took us three days to travel across the country and I've been here ever since. My partner and I rent an apartment from a nice old lady, but every day I miss home. I'm so angry that my life was stolen from me. I still have my job, my cat, all my family is safe for now, so I'm very lucky. But I'm so angry and devastated. Every day I try to check if my house still stands if it wasn't destroyed by bombs. I know this horror won't end any time soon. I know people who've lost their friends, families, pets. Those who haven't been in contact with their loved ones for weeks have no idea what's happened to them. Mariupol, the city on the shore of the Sea of Azov, is in a literal hell. People there have nothing, no food, water, electricity, gas. They have to drink snow, which is gone by now. They can't escape because civilian cars and buses are being shot by Russian soldiers. They live through some things we're used to seeing only in films or video games. I'm not asking you for anything. I just wanted to share what war is like from the perspective of a tiny human existing in the midst of it all. But I know that many of you want to help. Here are some of the ways to do that. Reach out to someone you know from Ukraine. Ask them how they're doing, tell them you're thinking of them. A few of my online friends messaged me since the start of the war and it was a tremendous support. Even if you can't help in reality, your words and your care mean everything. Host refugees or give them any support that you can. If you're in Europe, you can help refugees. Yes, you can share your home with them, but it's obviously not feasible for many people. But refugees still need so much information support. They're in a new country, they don't know the language, they're very lost and confused. If you know someone coming to your country, help them get around, translate for them, explain where they can get groceries, what apps citizens use, basically anything that can make their lives a bit easier. Donate. Please, don't send your money to huge organizations like Red Cross. They're cool, but their logistics are so complex and long that we likely won't get much from them soon. You can help volunteers that you know personally, maybe someone helping refugees or sending direct humanitarian help to Ukraine.

There's also a GoFundMe page that my company created, which operates through our American partners. I can vouch that this money will go where intended, namely to help people from my hometown Kharkiv. Of course, like and share this post if you can. If you have questions, ask away. I know Ukraine will win, but we still need to get through this horror. Thank you.

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Fem!Dan and Phil Series: wearin ur gfs jacket… oops i did it again

dont you fucking dare steal/remove my caption

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my first digital sketch. fun times

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babes there’s a thing called queering the map where lgbt+ people can leave their best queer-related memories. this is such a joy to read and i can’t start ugly crying at seeing so many wonderful things happening in my homophobic area. here are a few that i found from there:

Odessa, Ukraine: You took me to this hill, after we met at the beach. We had sex and cuddled during sunset. Out of sudden, a group of men walked in our direction. We were still naked and had to hide ourselves by laying down in the grass. I will never forget how your penis was still erect, and almost betrayed our existence. 

Kiev, Ukraine:  When standing here under the light rain, smoking one more cigarette to make the hands less shaky and the waiting less long, and finally seeing her slowly approaching me, I for the first time caught myself thinking that I am in love with her.

Minks, Belarus: the place where on a cold night I fell in love with your hands, fingers, into you. why did not I kiss you then? asshole.

Moscow, Russia: We took our first selfie here! We wore matching floral blouses and looked stunning.

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the To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before au we deserve ✨💌

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planning ahead

summary: with a little convincing, Phil finally sees a doctor to try to figure out why he has been feeling so unwell for so long. though he’s nervous, with Dan by his side, Phil knows that he can face his diagnosis and all the ups and downs that come along with it. sequel to ‘weak knees, stubborn heart’ word count: 2340 rating: e - everyone warnings: chronic illness, chronic pain, anxiety, mentions of depression a/n: this is a continuation of what is essentially my journey of diagnosis and living with Rheumatoid Arthritis. a giant thank you to @huphilpuffs and @fourthingsandawizard for being my betas. this story wouldn’t be what it was without you guys <3

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Phil heard the paper beneath him on the exam chair crinkle each time he moved, and he couldn’t help cringing at the sound. The gown they made him wear was itchy and he wanted desperately to rip it off. He hated hospitals. More than anything in the world, he hated going to the doctors and had always avoided it.

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we played hide and seek in waterfalls phan, M word count: 545 A snippet of Dan and Phil in Jamaica in 2010.

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I want another fandom meet up :(((

i never hosted one....why are you addressing this to me anon? :(

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why do you think dan and phil haven't come out yet?

It’s after midnight in Australia right now, they’re probably staying in because it’s middle of the night and they’re tired. 

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why do you think dan and phil haven't come out yet?

It’s after midnight in Australia right now, they’re probably staying in because it’s middle of the night and they’re tired. 

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found this post from november. nice

can i start dreaming abt thomas sanders’ taking a pic with dnp after the show or is it too early??

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flowers drawn by dan and phil! on my body forever! love them! ah!

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where the trees we planted grow rating: t word count: 2.3k Summary: Dan and Phil take a trip to Japan after the tour is over.  Notes: Written for my thirty minute fics for charity fundraiser to benefit PhandomGives. Special dedication: an early birthday present for Kamillester with lots of love, from D

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Years ago, so many years ago that Dan was still a teenager and Phil still felt crushed under the weight of an uncertain future and his own inability to commit himself to doing what normal people are supposed to do when they finish uni, they spent the better part of a lazy spring day reading each other articles on Japan out loud and planning a holiday that seemed like a distant dream.

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“Hit me!”

a rough lil animation from this dapg video !

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a night in the life of dan and phil on tour ✨🔮 @danielhowell @amazingphil

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im gonna just post these drawings of @amazingphil and @danielhowell bc they’re literally a year and a half old and i still havent gotten around to finishing the phil one hsdgjdk (and i feel my art has improved enough that i dont really like the dan one anymore)

but anyway these sparked from that time when dan said he didn’t like sunflowers lmao

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my painting of @danisnotonfire‘s ankles+shoes!