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don’t really like fics where the girl is sub, like,i wanna see men cry not bossing women around

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I would give everything to see Quaritch connect to a spirit tree. To link his kuru out of pure curiosity, or urged on by a Na'vi, positive that it's all spiritual bullshit, just be hit with a tidal wave of feeling. The crashing, crushing force of the voices of Na'vi long dead, dead by his hand. Songs of joy and sorrow and victory. The snide remarks of Grace flitting through the cacophony. The physical sensations of the final moments of those who fell in the battle against the RDA. The pure feeling of being connected to everything that is and was and Eywa.

And I want to see his crisis. I want to see him struggle and deny and rebel against the fact that all the hippie bullshit Sully and Dr. Augustine spouted about the whole planet being connected by a global consciousness is true. And I want that to make him question himself. I want him to grapple with the fact that the blood running through him is part of Pandora. HE is part of Pandora.

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My mind is 50% music and 50% suicidal toughts

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i romanticize pain a bit too much.

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Me in the nursing home waiting for avatar 13.

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sometimes I forget standing up isn’t painful and difficult for most people so I’ll be watching something like game changer and see the people standing behind their podiums the whole episode and think ‘wow don’t they need to sit down. how can they still think coherent thoughts’ and then I’m like oh. yeah. I have a disease

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Being neurodivergent and chronically ill is crazy because you already have issues with executive functions and then your body hinders you even more. AND your sensory issues are heightened by the pain you feel.

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triggers for dysautonomia flare-ups ✿

these are some things I have noticed, either in myself or in other people, which tend to make symptoms of dysautonomia worse or even cause a flare.

environmental / external:

heat

cold

humidity

changes in barometric pressure

not meeting body's needs:

dehydration

hunger / low blood sugar

sleep deprivation

poor quality sleep

not taking breaks

other bodily-related stressors:

stress

exercise

being upright for too long

drugs / certain medications

raising arms above head

lifting heavy objects

squatting / bending over

strong emotions

standing up too fast

period / menstrual cycle

dietary:

caffeine

sugar

carbs

dairy

alcohol

fatty foods

artificial sweeteners

eating too much / too little

eating too quickly

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