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[multiple-psych0]

did i ever tell you

about the way your hair

shines under the sun?

did i ever tell you

about the way your eyes

sparkle with mischief?

i don’t believe i have.

allow me to.

and grant me this one favor,

my only request from you.

let me tell you about

the way you smile—

that nothing

could make me happier.

let me tell you about

the decadence of your voice,

that nothing

could bring me more joy.

let me tell you about

your passion for what you love,

that nothing

could be more exciting.

have you had your fill?

eaten and drank enough words

that you might sink

to the bottom of a river and settle there?

have you enjoyed yourself yet?

have you found happiness?

have you felt contentedness in the warmth of your chest?

stay at the bottom of the river,

my love,

where your hair is a dull gleam,

your glassy eyes and vacant.

stay sunken and stuffed,

your smile vacuous,

your words unspoken,

your passion swallowed down.

are you worried yet?

can you still move?

can you still breathe?

are you certain of yourself?

of your surroundings?

where are you?

are you still alive there?

is your heartbeat strong

as it was moments ago?

this is no love,

i'm telling you—

this is murder.

this is where i drown you,

fill your lungs with your arrogance;

the same way i filled your ego with words.

this is where i cross the line,

from love to hate,

from fire to ice.

you were my love.

and i am your lover,

am i?

[multiple-psych0]

I just sit and gaze,

And watch my walls burn in a blaze,

As I become captive to his eyes,

I see my darkest dreams.

But I take a glance

In thought that I have a fleeting chance

Of escaping from him,

Not yet, it seems.

I fall to my knees

And I utter my pleas,

But he just smiles,

In the darkness, his smile gleams.

My demons scream and yell,

But it's no use,

Coz I’m under his spell.

Tue 3/12/2019 7:05AM

[multiple-psych0]

I want to rip off your skin along with your clothes;

I want to slice your body like I'm searching for gold;

I'll swim throughout your bloodstream until I find your soul,

Then I'll bury myself in the hollow spot where I belong.

I pressed myself over you with a glistening sharp blade.

You kick and scream and try to run away.

You set up road blocks to keep me at your arms length.

Your heart bleeds, you fight,

And you realized, there's no hope when your afraid.

If I only I knew that I'm not good enough.

To feel your love back, I even beat myself up.

I sacrificed my own blood to fill your empty cup.

And it's killing me to know that I'm only desperate for your love.

Mon 3/11/2019 6:38AM

[multiple-psych0]

I am a kid who was bullied,

but I didn't knew that this is only a seed

of my future grief.

I didn't pay any head to the matter.

My life was scattered.

From a happy boy to the troubled guy.

My bullies were having fun

by seeing me in a very unease condition.

And then one day, I lost my sanity.

But I had a mask, to complete a beautiful task.

Now in this new disguise,

my emotion was lack.

My heart was now all black.

People are my pawn, yes! There's my own!

In my hands, they're only a gadget —

my target!

I will win their trust and play with them,

in my own mind game.

I achieving my aim;

Oh, giving them pain—

using this blazing flame.

I have no emotion,

I only have a dark passion.

You had buried my feelings,

leave me cold-blooded.

And now, there's no any healing.

Sun 3/10/2019 1:30PM