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[musaeon]

     She keeps her hand there for a moment longer before returning it to rest in her lap. There's something about this that feels... familiar, but she can't quite put her finger on it. Maybe it was something her mother had done long ago or something else, but it makes her feel... content. There's a warmth she feels and it makes her feel at ease around him. It's... nice.

     Nozomi doesn't say anything as he eats. She simply watches him, sees the shake in his hands and can't help but be reminded of the reality of this situation. That despite everything, they're still just teenagers. Teenagers who were living ordinary lives before being thrown into this situation. It's awful and yet... they're here, doing what they have to. They're the only ones who can do this, but it doesn't mean they have to like it.

     And well, considering what had happened, it only just goes to show what can happen. She had been worried, and that hasn't gone away, even now. It's part of why she wants to stay by his side, but it isn't just that. She doesn't want to leave him alone and... she cares about him.

     "You're welcome, Sumino-kun." There's really no need to thank her, but she appreciates the words all the same. She's just doing what she wants to do. It's her own decision to be here.

     She notes that while he didn't finish the food, he has eaten it at least. It's a good sign. Slowly but surely, he'll get better. And she'll be there to help him if needed. If not her, then someone else for sure. They were all worried about him, after all.

     Lavender eyes watches him as lays back down. A small smile crosses her face as he looks back at her, as if to reassure him, or maybe herself, that what happened before is over. That they're both back here, alive. That it will all be okay, in time.

     "Of course we can," she replies, thinking for a moment before speaking again. "It hasn't been that long, only a couple of days at most. So not a lot has been happening. The others have been handling things, and we've been taking turns looking after you. We've been okay." There's been worry for him of course, and worry about what could happen if the enemy attacks while he's still recovering, but she doesn't want to make him feel bad about that.

     "We don't have to just talk about that though. It can be about anything. Whatever you want." She can still remember what he said when she found him, but she doesn't know if it's right to bring it up now. Maybe some other time.

He remembered a long time ago when he had gotten sick. Karua had stayed with him. Rice porridge. Just like Nozomi had brought him now. It made his heart sting a little bit. He still didn't have answers in that regard. Maybe he wouldn't until they got back home. But regardless... He felt safe with her. He felt... warm.

He eats slowly. His hands were still shaking. His entire body felt weak from pain and blood loss. Takumi had faced death before, but it had always been where he knew he could get back up. And it had never been such a slow descent. It felt more real. He had been so afraid and yet... He had lost the capacity to truly understand it while it was happening. His body had been failing. He had grown weak.

He can't deny feeling a tiny bit guilty. After all... She was probably staying with him because she felt pity for him. He knew she was a kind person. But he couldn't stop himself from kicking himself for showing his weakness to her earlier.

"Thank you... Kirifuji. For everything." He says it quietly. But it is sincere. She might not know the depth of their connection or his feelings. But he did want her to know that he appreciated her.

He finishes eating. He doesn't eat all of it. He still feels a little sick to his stomach. But at least the food and water helped a little bit. He moves to lay back down, wincing as pain moves through him at the slightest movement.

Once he's laying down again, he lets out a shaky breath. He hated this. He didn't have time for it. He looked at her. Remembering how she had carried him to safety. The guilt and adoration came flooding back. And it took everything in him to fight tears forming in his eyes.

"I... Can we talk? How long have I been out? What's been happening?" He just doesn't want silence. That's all. And her voice was a little bit comforting to him.

[musaeon]

@hcmoanima replied: SLANDER. Kirifuji-san, you are so loyal… Right?

"Eh?"

"Of course I am! This thing has to be rigged..." That's not the only objection she has here but it sure is the biggest one to her.

[musaeon]

Love traits

Horny: 9/10

Attractive: 4/10

Honest: 6/10

Caring: 15/10

Loyal: 0/10

Red Flag: 1/10

Romantic: 26/10

"Aha..." She really doesn't know what to say. Is this thing even accurate...?

[musaeon]

     She can only hope this isn't a dream. That the past few weeks hasn't been something she dreamt up, despite how terribly real it had felt. It had been a selfish wish, during those last few moments they were together, that maybe somehow she could save him. Deep down, she knew when he left with the others that it was the last time she was going to see them. She hadn't wanted it to be true, but it seemed unlikely they would've been able to make it out alive. And yet, she still held out hope only for it to be dashed in the end.

     It feels all too real to be a dream. She can feel the way her body trembles, from sobs, from relief and probably from more feelings she can't think of in the moment. Even in the dark, the silhouette of him brings her just a bit more reassurance that this is really happening.

     "It's really me, I'm right here." She replies. Whether or not he believes her isn't something she can control, but she wants him to know that this is real, that somehow he is alive. In a way, the words are as much for her as they are for him. That this is really happening, after all her efforts from the past few weeks.

     "Yes, somehow. I... I'm so..." She trails off, unsure how to answer. Truthfully, she still can't believe her power was able to do this, but it's always been so mysterious, even after learning the truth behind it. And yet, here they are. Together, when it seemed unlikely that it was possible to happen again. It's a miracle in so many ways.

     She feels his other hand grab hers, both of them within her grasp. That reassurance from before only seems to strengthen a bit, making everything feel just a bit more real. At the very least, her sobs die down just a bit.

     It's hard to know what to feel. She has no idea what Takumi is feeling, her own emotions are all over the place. She can feel his own trembles and it only adds to the confusion of what she's feeling. Even though, there's really no right way to feel in all this, she thinks. It's been a lot, but at the very least she's tried her best and this is what its lead to.

     The words are quiet, but she still hears them. It's almost enough to make her want to start crying again, but Nozomi doesn't let that happen. She has to be strong, right now. For herself or maybe for the both of them, she doesn't know.

     "No… you don’t have anything to be sorry for. If anyone should be saying that…” It’s her. For being selfish, for making the choice she did. For letting her power try and save him, even if it might have been better for him to have died. For wanting to keep their promise, that they'd all come back.

He knows he must be dreaming. The injuries he had sustained were fatal. He knew that. He couldn't have been revived. When they were together last time, he couldn't even see her. His body had been rapidly failing. And he had accepted death. Maybe he had accepted it from the moment the chose to save the people of this planet.

Hearing her cry out his name and feeling her squeeze his hand.... It felt real. It was dark enough that he could only see her silhouette, but he could hear her sobbing. She takes his hand in both of hers and Takumi can feel her trembling.

"Kirifuji....?" He asks. Tears start welling up in his eyes. This is a dream, right? It had to be. There was no way he survived. He felt his body dying. He didn't have any other reason to live. Nozomi deserved to live. But he didn't. Not when everyone else was gone... Not when he...

"Am I alive...?" His voice shakes. It takes effort, but he manages to roll onto his side so his other hand can reach hers. "How...?" He doesn't ask why. Even though it keeps repeating in his mind. Nozomi was a real person. He was just artificial. If the others were all dead... He had absorbed them knowing he wasn't walking out of there either... But...

He shuts his eyes, both of his hands grasping hers. The exhaustion and pain from his injuries. The cold air. Her warm hands in his... It isn't a dream. He's alive. It wasn't fair... After what he had done... What he WAS.... Was this really okay?

He didn't allow himself to sob. He cried silently, tears running freely as he trembled. He didn't want to make this harder for her. Had she been trying to care for him this entire time? He... knew it would have been better for her if he had died.

"I'm sorry...." He says it quietly. To his friends that had died, that he had taken the power of. To Nozomi for making her carry around dead weight and for being so resolved to leave her alone before. To everyone.

[musaeon]

From @lastdefenders: "Kawana-San... What does it feel like to drive a vehicle?" From Shion because I'm adding him!

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     "Oh, are you curious?"

     Tsubasa turns to him, his words pulling away from her current work. She was in the parking lot today instead of the garage, trying to keep up with the maintenance there. While there wasn't as much as other places in the school it was still worked that need to be done. Shion had decided to join her and she didn't mind, him silently watching her until he spoke up.

     She shouldn't be surprised at the question. After all, her weapon did take the form of a vehicle, and there was the bus here even if it hadn't been driven in a while. Still, it made her stop and think, resting one of her fingers against her cheek.

     "Well... I think that depends on the person you're asking. I mean, you've seen how Yakushiji is during battles considering his weapon and all. Though I guess that also goes for me too, huh..." An awkward laugh escapes her.

     "Besides that though... At first it was a bit scary, being put behind something that powerful, but you get used to it after a while. It becomes familiar, something you do without thinking in a way. Of course you still have to pay attention, but it's rather freeing. You can really go anywhere if you set your mind to it. It's one of the things that made me feel confident in myself before I came here. That being able to drive meant I could do what I wanted to do, even if I was afraid." And even here, those feelings still ring true whenever she's behind the wheel during battle. It's something she can do, and be confident in. That she can push down that fear and fight to protect what matters to her.

[musaeon]

OTPs + nOTPs for Tsubasa?

to ship or not to ship // accepting

otps: takumi and darumi i am once again thanking kg route for all that it has done (though you can also count romance for helping with takumi as well). what can i say that route just really makes both of those relationships work.

other ships i like: hmmm.... i think it's kinda the same case as with nozomi. there's definitely some possibilities for more ships i'm just not sure who with. yugamu could be fun considering the above and nozomi too. but i guess i'm just keeping things open minded for the most part. and as always i’m open to crossovers/ocs with the right chemistry/plotting.

notps: the twins yet again for much the same reasons as before. it falls somewhere in the middle of being platonic/familiar for both of them. and gaku for... yeah, much the same reasons listed in the other ask.

other than that i’m pretty much neutral on anything else not listed here.

[musaeon]

otps + notps for yusuke or kasumi? or both if u want XD

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already answered for sumi over here so we'll do it for yusuke

otps: akira. it's the first ship i got into when i first played p5 and while i like other ships more, it's still one of my favorites and holds a special place in my heart. ryuji too, i like their dynamic regardless of which way it goes tbh.

other ships i like: not a whole lot tbh. there's always akechi but even then that's a bit thread/plot/chemistry dependent. and as always i’m open to crossovers/ocs with the right chemistry/plotting.

notps: since my yusuke is hc as gay... pretty much any girl, but especially futaba and ann. i prefer the former as friends/bickering siblings despite them not being related and the latter... yeah. i do think they become friends after really talking about what happened with the whole modeling thing.

other than that i’m pretty much neutral on anything else not listed here.

[musaeon]

"OTPs  +  nOTPs  +  Nozomi. And Takumi if you feel like doing him too

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for nozomi

otps: takumi, and for basically all the reasons the game shows us. while there's definitely more they need to work through in some cases they're still very cute and mean a lot to each other. they deserve the world and more.

other ships i like: hmmm... not sure tbh? it's not out of a lack of caring or anything i'm just not sure who else i like her paired with. maybe yugamu or tsubasa? but even then i feel like those could work better platonic. though as always i am open to crossovers/ocs with the right chemistry/plotting.

notps: the twins mainly. it's a little hard to see them working romantically with the cast given their age and i think it works better as a sibling like relationship. also gaku given how... he is.

it's not quiet a notp level so i don't want to list it there but i'm pretty neutral on her with the other girls from 2tlda. i don't hate the idea but i think i just prefer it on a platonic level. and also throwing this here but i really want to see her and eito interact more, regardless of if it's shippy or not.

for takumi

otps: nozomi, for pretty much the exact reasons as listed above. what can i say they're cute, the game gives us a lot of reasons and they both want to protect each other. they deserve all good things. i also really like him with tsubasa and yugamu (thank you kg route).

other ships i like: darumi and hiruko but they're both definitely route/thread/plot dependent. even then i can see it going either way with both of them so there's that. and as always i'm open to crossovers/ocs with the right plotting/chemistry.

notps: the twins for the same reasons i listed above. they will gain an older brother figure one way or another. gaku for the same reasons too. eva too, i just think it works better platonic/potentially familiar depending on the route. and might as well add takemaru and shouma to the pile of prefers platonic while we're here.

and i needed to list this separate since it doesn't really fit into anything else that while i cannot deny that his bond with eito is important i'm not sure if it's necessarily something i like in a romantic sense. i just think that because it's incredibly nuanced on both sides that reducing it to just platonic/romantic/etc and ignoring the nuance is a bit disrespectful given how it changed based off of the routes. i'm not necessarily opposed to it it's just... complicated. but it sure is fun to think about that's for sure.

other than that i'm pretty much neutral on anything else not listed here.

[musaeon]

Sumire, for the OTP and nOTP meme.

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otps: akira and futaba. futaba and her have their similarities and they're just cute together. and akira is someone she does admire and care about. he helps her in her time of need and is someone that's there for her even before the truth about her gets revealed. and it also helps that they're cute together. oh and sophia too, but even if it's not romantic i think they'd have a neat relationship with each other.

other ships i like: truthfully there's not many. i like the idea of her with ann but i'm not sure how it would actually work out. ryuji and yusuke could be fun even if it doesn't become a romantic ship. and as always i'm open to crossovers/ocs with the right chemistry/plotting.

notps: honestly not a whole lot. i don't like her romantically with akechi (but i love their bond regardless) and i just don't see her working with makoto/haru.

other than that i'm pretty much neutral on anything else not listed here.

[musaeon]

"OTPs  +  nOTPs (for Minato!) - @epitomees

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otps: ryoji. they're so doomed but i just love them. yukari too, they're implied canon and i do love them dearly. aigis switches between being an otp and a ship i like. their bond is important regardless of whether it's romantic or not and i cannot deny it.

other ships i like: while it's not my first ship for either of them i do like the idea of him and mitsuru together. i also like him with chihiro too (i romanced her in my playthrough of reload). i'm also always open to crossover/ocs too but that's on a case by case basis (aka chemistry and plotting).

notps: stega mostly, for obvious reasons (though i do like the idea of him and chidori becoming friends assuming they're both alive post canon). junpei counts but that's because i think they're better as friends (also in my head junpei is the token straight in sees but he's an ally so we're cool with him).

other than that i'm pretty much neutral on anything else not listed here.

[musaeon]

𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐎𝐑 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 ? 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑶𝑻𝑷𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒏𝑶𝑻𝑷𝒔.

send  "OTPs  +  nOTPs  +  [a  muse  name]"  for  me  to  list  out  my  favourite  pairings,  and  the  pairings  i  am  not  interested  in,  for  that  muse.

[musaeon]

"Nozomi, do you know what color the Pink Panther is? I'm a little stumped on this question. ( from Takumi to Nozomi lol )

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     "..." For a moment, Nozomi says nothing, merely closing her eyes and letting out a small sigh. How exactly is she supposed to answer this without sounding... rude? Mean? Another word that's escaping her at this moment? He really is serious about this, isn't he...

     "Sumino-kun... It's in the name. The pink panther."

[musaeon]

"So sorry that I leaked your secret from before. Well, another me that is. I guess you could say that I'm apologizing for his behalf". Eito is in fact, not sorry for the utter despair it made for all parties involved except of course for him. He just wishes that it was HIM that did that instead of a ghost of him.( to Nozomi )

unprompted/inbox call // always accepting

     Nozomi says nothing, simply listening to what the other boy has to say. While she doesn't know exactly what happened in the previous set of 100 days, she knows enough. Enough to know how her secret got exposed, despite how her previous self had only told Takumi. She still feels... weird, knowing that he knows so much about her, but there's time to sort out those feelings later.

     As for the boy in front of her, Nozomi doesn't know what to feel. She knows Eito is a traitor and hates humanity from what little the team here has been willing to tell them, but not much more than that. It's... weird, getting an apology from someone she doesn't know about something that he didn't do (that she doesn't remember). It's hard to find the right words to say.

     "...I see." she eventually says, looking up at him. "I'm not sure if you need to apologize for what your... other self did to that me but it's... appreciated." Even as she speaks, there's still a hesitancy in her words. After all, it feels like it's not even really meant for her, and more for the other her.

[musaeon]

Nozomi, how does it feel to have failed to protect everyone you ever cared about starting with your mom, the SDU, and Takumi too?

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     "That's... I..." She can already feel the beginnings of tears welling up in the corners of her eyes at the words.

     She had wanted to help her mother, despite how it ended up going. Yes, she gained this power, but her mother died when her research was stopped. Knowing what she knows now, it's hard to know how to feel about it. She doesn't regret helping, but it doesn't stop her from thinking about how much of a hand her mother had in what had been done to her friends.

     (After all, if she hadn't been there, would she have even met the others to begin with? Would she have never been able to sneak in and find the others while they were sleeping? Would she have formed the connection she did with Takumi if she hadn't found him and talked to him? Would she have had the resolve to hide into a spare pod and infiltrate the project despite not being created chosen for it?)

     And even after arriving, going through all the struggles with everyone else, losing their friends, finding out the truth of why they were there, continuing to fight despite knowing they weren't the heroes of this war, wanting to protect the friends she made... it ended up the way it did. Nozomi will never know just what happened in the defense room, but she knows how it ended. She wasn't able to protect them, but with how things ended, she might have just met the same fate as the rest of them. She doesn't even think she would've been able to fight with them with the cryptoglobin having started to leave her body. She might have just met the same fate as all of them and no one would've been left in the end.

     "I know I wasn't able to protect them—I know that and yet...!" She wanted to. It's why she decide to continue and fight when the truth was revealed. Because they were her friends and people she had come to love and care for, despite only knowing them for a little over two months at the time. All she asked was that they came back, even if she knew deep down it was unlikely to happen.

     It hurts to know that they're all gone, that she couldn't protect any of them. That she couldn't be there for them in their last fight. The only thing she could really do was be there for Takumi in his last moments. She can't turn back time like he could, she can only walk forward into the future. The regrets won't leave her, but she carries more than that with her. Everyone's hopes and wishes, and being able to press forward and believe in her decision, like she and everyone else has before.

     "I can't change what happened. All I can do is carry the memory of everyone with me into the future, whatever that might bring. I won't forget them, both the good and bad that we all went through. I'll press forward and trust in my, our decision, no matter what."

     And no matter what happens, she won't regret having met them.

[musaeon]

kako giving your food to the enemy would violate the geneva convention fr

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     "Is my food really that bad? I know the others usually turn it down. but..." She looks just a bit crestfallen at the words.

[musaeon]

❝ lady nozomi, you... er... you took the last helping of breakfast this morning in the cafeteria even though i desired another serving, and for that, i am... moderately disappointed in you! do not let it happen again, or i will... be slightly more disappointed! ❞ (scathing anon hate, how will she recover)

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     "Kyoshika-chan..." She can only give a look to the other girl, unsure of what to say. Or even why she's being told this, but it's not like it's wrong of her to say. She'll admit she did that but she's not sure if it's worth this reaction necessarily.

     "Sorry, I thought I asked and everyone said okay. I'll make sure to not let it happen again. And if you do want more, I can always try and make a bigger helping for everyone."

[musaeon]

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