musemofme

[musemofme]

I love that she still updates here 🩷

You belong with me. 💚💛💜❤️🩵🖤

Letter on my site :)

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I wish to exist without a body.

I want to be alive without a physical vessel.

Nothing for people to visually consume, no body to regulate with legislation. No “too fat” or “too skinny”. Nothing to be used against me, nothing to tempt others. Just me.

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It’s $80 (with insurance) for my husband to get a vasectomy.

Eighty

Dollars

He’s seen the urologist who is going to do his surgery once

It will be a one month and a week from initial appointment to surgery

In contrast:

I have been going to the same gynecologist for seven years. I have told her that I don’t want kids for the last three years. She refused to remove my tubes and kept telling me to get an IUD.

It’s gotten to the point where I had to switch to a provider that will take my tubes out.

I am not mad at my husband.

It drives me up the wall how easy it is for him and how difficult it has been for me.

It enrages me that women are constantly not given the healthcare we want or need or deserve or even should expect.

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Me: I don't get it. I thought I was doing a lot better than I was a few years ago. I'm like 10 times more on top of things than I used to be. How does everything feel terrible now?

The Tiny Me in OSHA-approved Hi-Vis Gear Who lives in my brain and pulls all the levers: Boss, it's the fascism. You're completely gunked up with cortisol due to the fact that your entire daily life is now underscored with a haunting awareness of the rapid erosion of your rights, dignity, and any and all social safety nets, and you're also bearing witness to the most vulnerable people immediately being persecuted. This creates a natural stress response that basically means you're going to continue having memory and organizational problems, as well as emotional imbalances.

Me: BUT I HAVE A BULLET JOURNAL AND I MEDITATE NOW.

Tiny OSHA Me: BOSS, THE FASCISM.

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Daily fucking reminder that Luigi Mangione is innocent, completely and fully. He has been convicted of no crime. He has had no fair trial. He is a SUSPECT. Luigi Mangione is entirely innocent and everyone needs to stop parroting this insidious propaganda that he “committed” the crime he is only SUSPECTED of. He is not a murderer. He is not a criminal. He is an innocent man.

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Puritanical leftist and liberals would be arguing if they can trust/follow victors in the hunger game series because they played in the games and were mentors in post games

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This is the only place on the internet where I’m not monitored by someone I know in real life

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Tumblr short form video content!!!!?

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Real talk

I don’t care for any of my grandparents. Yes they were my parents parents but those people had nothing to do with me or my siblings for God knows what reason.

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I’m pretty sure I had a conversation with my husband about masking and how annoying it is to be in a completely neutral mood and have people apologize to you for walking past because they’re perceiving that you’re annoyed simply because your resting face is not a giant smile.

“You look annoyed”

Well I’m not

“You sound annoyed”

Well I’m not

“You look and sound annoyed”

I WAS in no mood territory but now that I cannot simply exist without having to perform some kind of social act, now I am annoyed

“See. I knew you were annoyed”

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Me minus the genius part. I’m smart but we’re working with facts and logic here—I am no inventor

she’s unhinged she’s religiously traumatized she’s a child soldier she’s a genius she’s 5’1 and commands every room she walks into she’s middle-aged she’s good with babies she’s bad at baking she’s a horrifying driver and she has never done anything wrong in her life

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LIKE TO CHARGE REBLOG TO CAST LET'S GET THIS FUCKER EXPLODEDED

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likes to charge, reblogs to cast

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When I was a part of the charismatic evangelical church, we would go to a youth camp every year called C4C. Every year, they would have this kid come up and he would beatbox for a good 10 minutes. I guess he was beatboxing for the lord? I never felt closer to god afterword, but maybe it inspired someone to lay sick beats for Christ.

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I’ve been removed from the church for four years now. And while I’ve been removed there have been the occasional times where I’ve been in a situation where people have wanted to pray and I just go along with it because I’d rather not make it uncomfortable.

The thing is I don’t pray. I’ve recently admitted to myself that I’m not a Christian anymore. I think I’m Agnostic, not wholly atheist.

This week was a really big week as I actually denied going to pray with my co-workers before a big meeting they were going to have. I can appreciate prayer as a time of meditation or a conversation with God or a higher power, but it’s not something I do.

Frankly, being put in a situation where my co-workers judge my faith (or lack of faith) is gross. I don’t want my religion (or no religion) mixed into my job.

But it was big for me since I live in the Bible Belt. I’ve been asked more about my faith in the past two months than I have in my entire life. My coworker got really sad that I didn’t want to pray with them. But I’m working on my people pleasing too.

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Having to explain that petrochemicals come from fossil fuels that are made from decayed carbon based organisms that existed millions of years ago and that’s how we know the earth isn’t 5000 years old, but millions of years old to people that have worked in petrochemicals makes me want to tear my hair out.

The earth cannot be less than 5000 years old and you still have a job at a petrochemical plant! They can’t “drill baby drill” without FOSSIL. FUELS. EMPHASIS ON FOSSIL!!!!