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you took it from me but I would've given it to you

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Oil Paintings by Kristoffer Zetterstrand (2003)

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my heart is trying to touch you so my hands don’t have a use anymore

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yknow, i used to be vers. a vers bottom, even. sure, i'd flip fuck every once in a while *crowd raucously cheers and claps* -- thank you, yeah, thanks -- but the catcher's mitt was my home turf, know what i mean ? that's where the magic happened. but nowadays -- now that, yknow, nobody wants to work anymore -- i happen to be a vers top. that's how the cookie crumbles, folks. i tried to take it slow, changed my grindr profile to Vers, but yknow what happens when you tell people, when you put it out there to, yknow, these puppygirls and catboys and all them, that you're versatile, you say you swing both ways, and all they hear is Top. they say there's a top shortage, right ? *crowd boos and sneers* that's right. so i don't even bother anymore. what they don't tell you, alright -- what they don't teach you these days is that it takes some real vulnerability to be the top. yeah, that's right. when you're a bottom, you think, yknow, this is as vulnerable as it gets, right? to have someone inside of me ? *crowd erupts with laughter* but through that same mechanism, the bottom experiences desire internally, that's the secret. and for the top, it's external-- the top has to extend desire, has to make desire known -- to reach out there, hands exposed to the void between hearts, and say: i want you *crowd gasps, shuffles nervously in their seats* and that's it, folks. that's all she wrote. tops- topping, from that precipice, is the endless enumeration of ways to want. and that's why nobody wants to do it anymore.

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did you go and make promises you can't keep? well, when you break them they break you right back

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i'll fuck you eventually relax let me be funny first

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absolutely love that eating someone out is called that. cannibalistic romanticism really won with that one

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Some articles and essays (and a short story!) about sex, desire, and the politics of both, that I think are best read together. I'm posting these because I learned a lot from reading them, but I'm also left with a lot of questions and would be really interested to know what you all think!

Pussy Hounds by Sarah Gerard (short story)

On Liking Women by Andrea Long Chu (essay + theory)

Does Anyone Have the Right to Sex? by Amia Srinivasan (essay + theory)

Wanting Bad Things by Andrea Long Chu and Anastasia Berg (transcript of an interview)

(Btw just to be clear, I am not agreeing wholeheartedly with ANY of the authors, but I think they all bring up interesting and valid points which I am interested in further exploring)

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I am extremely attracted to men with permanent bags under their eyes. You’re a sleepy little guy huh? Bet that dick is legendary

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baby, this faith is all I have

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[looks for you in everything] [finds you there]

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i don't wanna waste it this time and see fate as the end of me i don't want to waste it, my life and know it was in front of me

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sluttiest thing a man can do is know how to cook delicious meals

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bitey

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i'm tough but i hope i do not heal