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ofdaxtons​:

             HIS WHOLE FACE LIT up at the way the girl in front of him was so enthusiastic about what he was doing, a part of him was a little worried whoever would stumble upon him would find what he was doing to be childish….but that wasn’t the case. “isn’t it?!” dax hummed as his smile widened, looking at the structure with a satisfied sigh, “i mean, i’m studying engineering…chemical engineering, but, i like building and making things. so, i’m glad it shows?” he offered before placing the next lego in it’s place, motioning to the half built space ship, “apollo eleven.”

maude quirked a brow in interest. “chemical engineering sounds intense. what kind of chemicals do you engineer? could you create a poison to slip to a rival?” she flashed a quick grin, tongue poking at the inside of her cheek. “to be clear, i am not commissioning you to perform an assassination. i’m just curious. i don’t know much about engineering. too many numbers, not my thing.” she eyed the model closer, nodding. “ah, i can see that. what a classic. do you make other things, or just spaceships?”

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cecilyaxo·:

“   the   diagnosis,   i   agree   with,   ”   she   says,   her   tone   even   and   her   interest   peaking   as   she   turns   her   body   in   the   stool,   emotional   turmoil   temporarily   on   hold   as   she   tries   to   forget   herself   looking   at   the   blonde   across   from   her.   she   leans   inwards   and   slides   her   wine   glass   towards   the   bar   tender,   “   refill   please,   ”   she   says   with   flippancy   before   edging   her   head   towards   the   girl   that   had   joined   her,   her   voice   lower,   “   but   i   don’t   trust   doctors.   never   seen   a   good   one   in   my   life   -   if   anything,   they’re   some   of   the   craziest   people   in   the   world.   ”

the bartender glanced at maude’s id and flicked it back across the bar as she tacked on her drink order. “mmm...something tropical. can you mix vodka, blue curaçao and, like, sprite or something?” maude didn’t wait for a response before turning back to the girl sitting next to her. “so i take it you’re not a med student,” she replied in amusement. “oh but we need doctors. who else is gonna tell you you’re faking it, then charge you twelve-hundred dollars? well, at least in america.” smiling as the bartender set an electric blue drink in front of her, maude continued. “so what’s the cause of your strife? is it finals? because i feel like everyone is bugging out about what they got on their finals.”

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ofdaxtons·:

WITH EXAMS OVER, this was typically whenever dax didn’t know what to do, far too much time on his hands as summer approached…but he was situated in the student lounge as he pieced together some of the legos he lugged in a box all the way from his dorm. nothing but pure concentration in his eyes as he put parts together, sitting back to survey the work as he noticed someone looking and sheepishly offered a smile, “it’s a spaceship modeled after the first one to land on the moon….”

@seasstarts·

“whoa, that’s so cool!” maude exclaimed, cherry lollipop-stained lips dropping open into an ‘o’ shape. there was no hint of sarcasm or irony in her voice. while model spaceships composed of legos may not have been everyone’s cup of tea, maude was thoroughly impressed. “you look like you’re really into it, too. you look like me when i took an adderall to study for my american history final. now,” she plopped down. “are we talking first manned spaceship or unmanned?” she asked, getting into the nitty gritty. 

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How do you feel about Elle

"this feels like such a gotcha question. like whatever i say, it's gonna be drama starting. i feel like fred jones in the scooby-doo movie when they take his words out of context and make him say, 'i think coolsville sucks'. like...am i fond of elle as a person? no. but i'm sure she'll have a very successful future selling her clothes to boring, stuffy middle-aged housewives or whatever her goal is." @mswoodhcuse

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are you seriously happy with where you are in life?

"geographically? oh yeah, it's a lovely temperate climate. who could complain? no but, duh i'm happy. i won a friggin' lottery to sail around on a boat and go to college. if i wasn't happy with that, i'd possibly be the world's most ungrateful person and deserving of a public flogging."

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tell us a really good memory you have

"i'll try to be real here, so i won't use my previous answer which was winning a wet t-shirt contest on a particularly questionable booze cruise during spring break two years ago. we went to daytona when i told my dad we were going to disney. but, uh, no honestly, this really good memory is one i never considered happy until recently. the last day i spent with my mom. we were on the beach. it was all rainy and misty. i remember she'd just let my dye my hair pink with that washable hair dye for kids, and i was scared it'd rise right out in the rain. we walked along the beach in our rain boots and looked in the tide pools. it was a thing we did. one of the things we did. i could probably talk about it for a while but this isn't a therapy session. anyway, i, like, never thought it was a happy thing. but i guess i look more fondly on it now."

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whats your favorite pet youve had

"my dad got me a lot of pets when i was a bit younger. he thought it'd make me happy. my favorites were my guinea pigs frodo and bilbo. both female and they were definitely girlfriends. that's when i was big into tolkien. i'd stay up real late with my flashlight and have them under the covers with me while i read the books. i used to crochet little outfits for them to wear too. have you ever seen a guinea pig in a crochet sweater? they were an iconic duo. wish they were here today so i could make a tik tok for them."

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cecilyaxo·:

sat   atop   a   white   plush   stool   at   the   sandbar,   she   releases   a   short   angry   sigh   as   her   phone   makes   the   familiar   lock   sound.   summer   break   just   around   the   corner   and   a   very   unpleasant   encounter   with   her   older   sister,   good   grades   were   not   enough   to   put   a   stop   to   the   ever   spiralling   stress-o-meter   in   the   arslan   household.   going   home   was   a   true   nightmare,   “unbelievable,”   she   frets   seemingly   to   herself.   

legs dangling down from her barstool swinging like a restless child’s, maude eyed the person next to her briefly. biting her lip like she was a detective about to connect the dots on a huge case, she finally stuck her finger up in an exaggerated a-ha moment. “you,” she began confidently. “you look like someone who could use a drink. sitting and mumbling to yourself alone at a bar is a telltale sign. i diagnose you with needing a liquor fueled rant. trust me, i’m a doctor.”

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noahshreds​:

“ do you want to go to the gift shop with me ? i told my parents i’d bring them back some souvenirs and right now all i’ve got is a shot glass and a cheesy shirt. ” @seasstarts​

“the gift shop?” maude echoed, her expression twisting into that of someone taking a swig of soured milk. “why? so you can get them a microwave-safe mug that says s.s. university?” maude liked to consider herself a creative gift giver. “you definitely have to get something more unique. you should’ve done matching booty shorts with the name of one of the cities we docked in spray painted on the asses.”

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welcome aboard, maude monaghan, student #21. we are excited to set sail with you !  has anyone told you that you look like hunter schafer? according to our records, you hail from washington, usa prefer she/her pronouns, are a trans woman, and are here to study art. we also see you received a spot on the ss university because of your online lottery win — we won’t tell anyone. during your first few weeks here, other students said you were + passionate, + vibrant, but also - fickle. it sounds like you spend most of your time at the sweet shack. upon checking your luggage, we noticed you packed a hand-made crochet patchwork sweater brought from home. hopefully your roommates don’t steal it!

* / stats

full name: maude monaghan

birthday: march 06

zodiac: pisces

birthplace: washington state, usa  

traits: kind-hearted, open-minded, creative, nonjudgmental, passionate, alluring, fickle, restless, irresponsible, easily-influenced

hobbies: drawing, writing, crocheting, diving, foraging, cooking, online gaming

major: art

*/ background 

— maude is from washington state. she was raised on an island in puget sound. she spent her early childhood surrounded by a lot of nature ; she grew up on a little house by the water so she had miles of coastal beaches at her disposal for frolicking and exploring. her mother was an artist, her father worked in banking. they were an unlikely pair, but they worked well as a team. 

— maude made it very clear from the time she was a young child that she was a girl. her parents were both really supportive of her being trans, but in different ways. her mom was much more quick to act and allow maude to socially transition as a child while her father took a little longer to fully accept it. but they both loved maude and wanted to do what was best for her. maude realizes that she’s super lucky to come from such a supportive family. 

— as such, she was always very close with her mother. her mom was the one who encouraged maude to embrace being trans, not hide it. whereas her dad wanted her to be more secretive about it for fear of maude being targeted for bullying and harassment. but maude’s mom was always able to quell her father’s worries, which allowed maude to live fully and freely as a kid. 

— (car accident, death, grief tw) when maude was nine, her mother passed away very suddenly in an accident. they were driving home from the beach. it was a rainy day, but they’d gone to the tide pools. on the way back, their car hydroplaned off the road. it was so sudden for maude. she doesn’t even really remember a lot of it, despite being old enough to remember. it’s something she’s blocked out. her father didn’t handle it well. he became very closed-off. like, even though maude knew he loved her, she felt this distance between them. he couldn't really talk about what happened so maude felt like she couldn't either. and their house went from cheery and colorful to more somber and empty.

— after this, her dad went into overprotective mode and kind of shut maude away from the world. he let her leave the house, of course. but she was homeschooled until she graduated high school. maude’s dad was not mean or unaccepting of her. he’d look up lgbtq youth organizations in the area and take maude there to make friends and whatnot. and when she got older he’d let her do various activities. but he was always there supervising. he was just really scared of maude being harmed physically or emotionally by transphobic people out there in the world. so his solution was to shelter her away. 

— maude’s salvation was the internet. she loved playing mmorpgs like world of warcraft and chatting on various online chat rooms. she used the internet to socialize a lot. but because she felt suffocated in her own life, she’d often make up wild stories and catfish people because she wanted to seem interesting and be someone different. as a teen, she wasn’t quite at peace with herself and especially not with her life, which is why she lied to others. 

— (hypersexuality, abuse tw) when she was a little older she began secretly using tinder and other apps to meet people. soon after, she began sneaking out and hooking up with (mainly) guys because she craved the validation and attention. she went through a very hypersexual stage after experiencing trauma after one of these dates. she continues to be a bit hypersexual, hence her history of one night stands. she went down a bit of a self-destructive path. it culminated when she was in college. she did two years of community college before this program and was still living at home but spent a lot of time with new college friends at their apartments. she drank way too much and was definitely that girl you'd see outside sipping a mixed drink at noon instead of going to class. but everyone thought maude was ~quirky~ and ~fun~ because she did it while wearing heart-shaped sunglasses and drinking from a silly straw. a lot of people didn't know what a toxic headspace she was in because of her cheerful demeanor 

— maude is in a much better place now. she’s still a bit of a “sheltered girl gone wild” cliche, but she isn’t as self-destructive about it. she just likes to have fun and live her life. at college, she enjoys having real freedom. it's the first time she ever has. although talented artistically, maude won an online lottery spot to be here. she’s majoring in art, in the comic art area specifically. she wants to write a graphic novel series one day so her minor is creative writing. 

— personality-wise, maude is a social butterfly. she’s one of those girls who seems to know everyone. she flits from one person to the next, but most don’t know much about her. she can talk your ear off while saying nothing of substance at all. she’s very sociable. if she hadn’t been homeschooled she would’ve been popular in high school i think. maude is one of those people who says they’re “down for anything”. except she actually means anything. she’s quite impulsive and can be irresponsible and easily-influenced since she grew up sheltered. maude has a bit of an addictive personality. she can’t really do things in moderation. she’s been known to overdo it. she’s definitely been that drunk girl at a party who stands on a table and, like, flashes a camera. very manny-esque from degrassi. maude is also very fickle. she bores easily. she’s got a lot of hobbies, and that’s one of the reasons why. she can’t commit to just one thing, so she jumps around from one thing to the next. she can be like that with friendships and relationships too. but overall she’s very authentically herself...good-humored, charming, vivacious, and very friendly. 

— romantically maude doesn’t have much relationship experience. she’s had maybe one? serious partner in her life? as a tween online she used to have internet boyfriends and whatnot. then she started sneaking out and hooking up. but she never experienced real dates, only meeting up in parks and people’s houses. when she finally got to experience the total freedom college brought she didn’t really want to be tied down. maude doesn’t want children and thinks marriage is an outdated patriarchal tradition. but she’s torn because she also knows that her parents had a loving marriage and lowkey wants something like that for herself. so she’s got an aversion to love and commitment despite longing for it.

* / headcanons 

maude has a lot of hobbies because of her sheltered upbringing. she crochets, so she’s always got on little crochet crop tops and bucket hats. because she lived on an island she actually got into diving. she’d spear fish and gather scallops and oysters. even sea cucumbers and urchin. she learned how to cook them. she started foraging too so she knew the good mushrooms and berries vs the bad ones. she’s very big into sustainability. her ultimate life goal is to start a commune of friends who forage and dive for their own food and live sustainably.

she’s almost always eating something sweet. she’s a total sugar addict and can always be caught adorning a ring pop or candy necklace. candy and flaming hot cheetos are her vices. other than that she eats pretty healthy.

(drugs tw) she’ll take whatever you give her at a party. she loves hallucinogens and pills. she drinks pretty much whatever as well. at this point in her life, though, she’d much rather do drugs than get drunk. so usually if you catch her at an event, she’s on something and just having a grand ol’ time.

growing up she disliked driving in cars after the accident. as she got older she rollerbladed and biked a lot. she doesn’t have a driver’s license, and she mostly blades or bikes to get places when she’s home.

says she’s poor but still shops at unif. 

* / wanted 

anyone who’d be into diving with her! maybe someone she could teach?

she’s very passionate about sustainable consumption of resources and protecting the ocean. maybe some friends who feel similarly? they can start a club and hand out pamphlets lol 

lots of friends! some gals being gals plots. unlikely friends. frenemies. party friends. stoner friends. late night adventurer friends. 

enemies for the drama of it. maude gets along with a lot of people but there are definitely those who rub her the wrong way, i’m sure. she doesn’t really mesh well with people who are more “type a” or those who are materialistic or more “snobby” for lack of a better word lol. she would not get along with a blair waldorf type as iconic as she was

friends with benefits or one night stands 

chemistry based plots. feel free to assume connections as well 

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solid life advice !!

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CHEERFUL for @rainbowes

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I wanted to wake up and find that I was five years old and my parents and neighbors would say, “My, my, what an imagination.” I wanted to be physically erased and start over again. I didn’t want to be here. I didn’t want to be there. I guess I wanted to be nowhere, I wanted to listen to my brain talk inside of nothingness. I wanted to be untouchable and have no need…

- David Wojnarowicz

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Sharp Objects (2018)