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day 1,000,000,000,000 of missing san lang MY SPOUSE oughhhh (btw tag my last post and this post as fictive/introject) - 🩰

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xie lian introject here i miss hua changgggggggggggggggg waaaaaaaaaaaaaa cries like a baby i hope ill find a introject of them someday -🩰

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Called gege my wife publically yesterday. Felt like a weight lifted off my chest.

That’s MY wife!! My wife my wife!!! I hadn’t ever felt shame persay, I could never, when it’s his highness, but it always felt like something I had to keep secret. The cringe coming to get me, or whatever. The “social norm” to not call a grown man who is to the public nothing but a fictional character something like that.

But he’s my wife, and I’m always gonna say it. I’ll never STOP saying it, no matter who hears!! My Wife!!! That is My Wife!!! I’ll never be ashamed that he’s my love, because he’s gege and I love all of him and I’m TIRED OF KEEPING IT LARGELY CONTAINED IN PUBLIC!!!

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somehow, every good deed i've done to someone ceases to ever matter the moment they find out that i'm a demon. my feelings, my capacity of being hurt, my opinions, my compassion, my humanity, ceases to matter to them.

- 🏡💗🎀 (luo binghe)

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happy birthday dianxia! :D

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To the wwx that misses their Lan Zhan: NEVER STOP SEARCHING!!!! I thought I wouldn't find mine either and I found mine by a conglomeration of circumstances, after giving myself headaches sobbing at night over him for months and praying I'd find him... And. Then I did. Don't give up. Please. You'll find him!!! I trust that. - Wei Wuxian (👻👁️)

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Although I do miss Hua Cheng and Luo Binghe something fierce anyway even though I have Lan Zhan, I have what I wanted, but I miss you two, I really really do, hope you're doing well and found happiness 💝 - Wei Wuxian/Xie Lian/Shen Yuan (👻👁️)

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Update on crap: stuff is going great with me and my Lan Zhan, no complaints, we're basically (re)married by now, Mo Xuanyu is in there too, we're. Happy. 💝 - Wei Wuxian (👻👁️)

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hugging all shen yuans out there because life hard and cold, shixiong soft and warm/j

No but on a serious note, I do miss him. I've yet to get any concrete memories of him, but I know we were close. I wouldn't change this separation, but sometimes I do miss what I know I had.

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i miss lan zhan so, so horribly bad. i dont know if ill ever find him. maybe i knew him and now i don't. i've never stopped running away even in this life and i regret a lot :')

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i just wish that she'd answer to my chats for once. show me she's still there. like a lost magnet, i feel the pull, but don't know where to land myself. i miss her, i miss her, i miss her. would she miss me too? i know she would, she's just always been reluctant to show it.

- 🏡💗🎀 (luo binghe)

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i miss those days. i miss her. have i been doomed from the start? what's the meaning of life, to suffer? most people don't really mean that a part of their life is missing when they say they miss someone, do they?

- 🏡💗🎀 (luo binghe)

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we're not as into any of the mxtx novels anymore, and regardless most of our kins&fictives are.. incredibly canon divergent, but none the less it's very nice to come here just to scroll and smile & think of everyone we used to know fondly.

my sincerest regards to mu qing (i miss you dearly, and i hope you're happy and healthy wherever you are), lang qianqiu ((WE LOVE UU! In every universe i would give u the world), may you always find joy in the world around you.), & qi rong (as much of a brat as you were, i never wanted you to be anything but happy. (he-jie would give u anything u could imagine even now)) & of course we CANT forget. ge i miss you i love you & as complicatsd and messy as things got i dont think id ever be able to not love u.

we love u guyyyys SO much and everyone not listed specifically too!!! sending all u wonderful souls all the joy & wonder in the WORLD may your days be blessed and your relationship with the world around u fulfilling. Mwah💋.

-sincerely, he xuan (&shi qingxuan !!!💋💋 lol take a wild guess who said what!!) (we r both fictives btw)

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all i wanted was to be enough for her

- 🏡💗🎀 (luo binghe kin)

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Luo Binghe turned up in a dream where I worked at a fastfood place. I know that's an odd start but - he talked to me for a bit and then I got booted out the dream. That usually happens when I see somebody I know, regardless of source. I don't even know if I looked like myself (Shen Qingqiu) or not, but it was like he knew me personally. I am upset I got kicked out. I feel like I'm retreading canon and it aches. I didn't meant to leave. Maybe I can encourage another dream later...

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Sometimes I really do feel like a beast,, maybe he was right.

—✈️🍜 (bingge kin)

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While I was getting used to the idea of being me, I wrote an essay on SVSSS. As part of my actual assignments. Probably my best score yet. And I do find it a little funny. No, I won't admit to being Shen Qingqiu just yet. However! I will discuss part of my life in detail, and talk about how the narrative and (more importantly) the System influence me. I'm not avoiding it, this is what anyone would do.

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