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opposite of depression nap. depression awakeness. refreshing the same three websites over and over. there’s nothing new on any of them. eight seconds have passed and it feels like a century

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if i’m still alive by 25 i will be seriously impressed with myself

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Nothing feels real

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Me to my anxiety : can u like calm down these people don’t even think about you Depression : ever Me: that’s not what I meant

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me: *literally about to burst into tears for no fuckass reason*

me to me:

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Me: I mean I’m eating 900 calories a day, so really it’s not that bad

My therapist: that’s literally medically defined as starvation. You need to stop eating so little

Me:

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Sick / Not sick enough Always too much or nothing at all.

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I wanna throw up so badddddddd but I promised my girlfriend I wouldn’t and I don’t want to break her trust but it’s so fucking hard eating 200 calories is enough to make me feel sick to my stomach and it hurts and I feel so so sick but I can’t do the one thing that makes me feel better

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anorexia makes you starve yourself and depression makes you wanna eat everything

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*hasn’t eaten in two days*

*not getting enough sleep*

*not drinking enough water*

Omg why am I so dizzy and shakey this is crazy wow.

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I’m so hungry but I know if I eat I’ll just make myself throw it back up and if I’m hungry it’s a good thing, it means I haven’t eaten too much like mother fucking always and I have such bad will power but so much hatred for my body that I’m just gonna have to sit here and wait it out. The pain always goes away soon enough, whereas the fat I gain sticks around

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Louise Bourgeois/ Ode to Forgetting

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I wanna make myself throw up so fucking badly but I can’t, like I gag but nothing comes up and it’s pissing me the fuck off like I know I’m a failure at not eating too much but I’m also a failure at getting rid of the food

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I wanna smooooooooke but I’m too pooooooooor to buy cigareeeeeeeeeettes why is this my liiiiiiiiiiiiiiife