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I feel i am scared because i hav never been on my own. i always had dependence on someon or the other but now that i am all alone and have to figure out my life that i am getting scared. but i think it happens with everybody? everyone gets scared, some get through and some don’t. i know i have to channel my thoughts on the positive and not the negative. i am trying. everyday i try. and i am sure it will be fine soon. i have to work on myself. i am lazy and cant stick to something.. i dont finish what i start which i should. i have so much to learn. but all i have to know is that i can do it and i will do it. i will get through it and find myself. i really have to and need to so that i can be independent and not depend in anyone but myself so that i dont feel alone.

[my-diary220]

Be happy with what you have while working for what you want.

Helen Keller (via inspirationalinsight)

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May be it happened because I am scared to lose you to anyone else and may be because of my own insecurity of you being touched by anyone else. I need to let it go so that I am not scared of losing you… I can’t be scared anymore… I am tired of being scared… like they say if it’s comes back to you it was always for you and if it does not then it was never meant for you… so that’s what I am going to go… let it go… see if you want me the way I want you and need you to live… I really hope you do.

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I don't know how you let go of someone. Here this someone is my sister. I don't understand how to no care about the people you love and let them do their own thing even if it is wrong. Why and how do u do that... not caring about parents and just doing what you feel like. I understand you become a little more independent and don't care about anybody but what you love which obviously doesn't include family to some extinct. I know it's a phase cause I was there too in that same exact spot you know when you just care about the person you love and spend like crazy for them only to see the day when they won't be next to you and are getting married to someone else. How can you say that you have life and that's why u have to do it welllll our parents have life too but still they do what they have to do every single day without complaining... there is no escaping form it... which actually brings me to a point that we have so much to learn from our parents... the passion with which they work so that we can be happy and live peacefully. I am gonna try and not care about you but at the end of the day I am worried... I want to know if you are safe or not and if you are doing okay.. I have nobody to comfort me about this.. or talk to me and make me feel okay but it's not anyone's responsibility to do that.. I have to take it out somewhere and this is the best place to do it.. cause you just care about your problems and I help you get through them and give you advice about everything but what about when I need someone to listen to me about all these issues... I hate and regret whatever I have done in these 2 years except 2 things. I compromised my self respect for what???? For nothing... I let them take over it and crush me like I am nothing but a fool... but one day they will what I am and where they stand... one day and I will be looking forward to that day... still standing you humbly because I am a nice human being. Even thou I made mistakes and hate to have compromised everything and even my parents respect and money!!!

[my-diary220]

Life is not going to wait for anything, time is not gonna wait for anyone. So do what you have to today, in this moment before it’s gone.

[my-diary220]

You know what I wish you a very happy married life! I hope you get whatever you desire for in life. Hope you have a great family and may you get all the love you deserve! :)  

22/01/2017

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[my-diary220]

I miss waking up in the middle of the night and hear you breathe and kiss you on the forehead and going to sleep peacefully again!

[my-diary220]

It's okay to not feel good all the time. It's okay to be unsure. But make sure you work on it. Make sure you try to feel better each day.. and one day you will overcome it and know how you have to deal with such a situation if it ever happens again. Be strong

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You’ll be fine. You’re 25. Feeling [unsure] and lost is part of your path. Don’t avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. You’ll be okay. Even if you don’t feel okay all the time.

Louis C.K., Untitled (via wnq-movies)

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There is a limit to which you can understand someone in a defined situation before you go crazy thinking about every reason to defend them by your own brain and thoughts which are against them.

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And if he considers you a part of him, he is never ever going to let you feel left out in front of anybody. No matter whoever it is. And if he does, you were never a part of him.

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Some of my music makes me want to cuddle for 7 hours & some of my music makes me want to do drugs in a motel room while wearing lingerie

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May be we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up.

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Neck kissing is like heaven, except it mainly makes you breathe really hard and want to commit a lot of sins right then.

@sexual-texts (via sexual-texts)

Oh so true!

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I promise you
I will try harder 
to be better. 
I
have battled with things
inside me
for longer than you know; 
I do not know
what they are
or why they are there, 
I only know
that they feel 
manageable, 
defeatable, 
when I 
am around 
You.

Tyler Knott Gregson (via feellng)

It's like I poured my heart out...

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Perfect! Now I know why changing Tatum is crazy about his wife! ❤️💙