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only untill you’re dead.. worth it? i think so.. i’m not pro ana so fuck off. i just want to die.

#prorecovery #proana #promia #health #safe #withana #anabuddy #iwanttodie #selfharm #bitch #crazy #slut

“people will like you more!” but you’ll drive away all of your friends and poison all of your relationships. you’ll isolate yourself from your family until no one recognizes you anymore. when did you become so cruel?

“you’ll be beautiful!” but your hair will lose its shine and fall out in clumps. your teeth will ache and rot, and you’ll have bags under your eyes like violet bruises. people keep telling you that you look sick.

“you won’t feel so sluggish!” but you won’t be able to think straight and your grades will plummet. you’ll feel so cold all the time, your heart struggling to beat in your chest. you’ll wonder where all of your energy went. why can’t you remember anything? what day is it?

“you won’t have to get your period!” but you might never be able to have children. amenorrhea is a sign that your body is starting to shut down, and that your bones are withering away. you never thought you’d have osteoperosis at such a young age.

“you’ll stop after a few more pounds!” but you won’t because you can’t and it’ll take over your life until you can’t think about anything else, can’t breathe, can’t quit until it’s too late. it will never be enough.

“you’ll have clear skin!” but it’ll be so dry that it’s always peeling, and acne might bloom on your skin like angry blisters. fur-like lanugo will grow all over your body and face in an attempt to keep your blood circulating.

“you won’t be bloated!” but your digestive system will be severely damaged, and you’ll be constipated all the time. you’ll get cramps that hurt so bad you can’t move. you can’t believe it when the doctor tells you that you need major surgery.

“you’ll sleep better!” but you might develop insomnia or sleep apnea and you’ll lie awake at night, every night, your stomach burning. your mind fighting off food cravings that are so vivid they make your mouth water. you’ll cry silently into your pillow as the hours go by, desperate to close your eyes and rest.

“you’ll be healthier!” but all of your organs will shut down as your body falls apart. you’ll whittle away years off of your life, but what kind of life is this anyway? living but not living, existing only for the sake of seeing the number on the scale go down down down until you end up in a hospital room.

“you’ll be more confident!” but you’ll never be satisfied, and your motivation will blossom into a deep self-hatred that will only get stronger. how much must you loathe yourself in order to deny yourself a basic need for survival?

“you’ll be happier!” but you won’t. because it’s not about losing weight, not really. it’s deeper than that. you’ll never be happy this way, and you won’t heal unless you choose to.

choose to.

eating disorders are not pretty. it’s never too late to recover.

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I wish losing weight was as easy as movies about anorexia portray it. Like hell yeah,i want an aesthetically pleasing montage with a cool soundtrack of me skipping meals and working out for 2 months and suddenly boom I’m skinny. But nooo, all I get binging and crying into an ice-cream container and feeling like I’m about to pass the fuck out 24/7

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reblog and spread

What’s the link for your chat on discord

Here’s the link to my ed discord!!! So if tumblr gets shut down we still have each other. I don’t want to lose you guys. Please please follow the link. Make a discord. I’ll try to make it nice like tumblr for all of us. I don’t want to lose you guys.

Here’s the link: https://discord.gg/PVapp9E

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reblog this to give every trans kid strength for the holidays

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depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

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GOALS!!!!!!!

Me At 136…

130…

126…

105…

102…

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THIS IS TOO REAL!

UGH... fuck

how fast the night changes

2014: daydreaming about kissing that cute boy from english class

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2018: daydreaming about starving until all of my fucking bones show and then dancing like a skinny feather in the rain

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A *CLAP* MEN *CLAP*

FRIENDLY REMINDER

Stop harassing “wannarexics” because they're “romanticising” an eating disorder. Literally, no one thinks to their selves, “hey you know what would be a good idea, starving myself and exercising till I faint” without already having disordered perception so stop acting like they’re neurotypicals just wanting to lose weight, they are literally just in the early stages of an eating disorder you morons

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hehe

🎄Reblog the Weightloss Christmas Tree🎄

To lose 10lbs in a week and be cursed to buy new pants and shirts by Christmas 🎄🎄🎁🎁

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eh, why not?

eh. haha

Reblog the pumpkin king and you’ll lose 5 pounds this week

(just do it)

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Holy fuck

I just noticed that valentines is in 3 more months so bish we better start restricting so you will get

Valentine cards

Reblog to lose 15 pounds by Valentine’s ❤❤

Ignore to gain 15 pounds by Valentine’s 😱😱

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OKAY BEAUTIFUL BITCHES LISTEN UP:

YOU FASTING OR SOME SHIT? MAYBE YOU JUST BINGED?

RADICAL

I GOTCHU WHAT U NEED TO SURVIVE

GET YOURSELF SOME GINGER-ASS TEA, OKAY? THAT SHIT IS GOOD FOR DIGESTION AND BREAKING DOWN FAT CELLS. MAKES YOUR SKIN GLOW LIKE BEYONCE’S DRESS ON THE RED CARPET.

PUT THAT SHIT IN SOME BOILING WATER. NEXT, GRAB A WHOLE ASS SPOON OF HONEY AND DUMP THAT SHIT IN. PLOP MOTHERFUCKER!

THAT HONEY GONNA MAKE YOUR HAIR SMOOTH AND SHINY AS A 1954 PORSHE SPIDER. NAILS GONNA GROW SO DAMN FAST YOU👏WON'T👏EVEN REALIZE👏bye bYE ACRYLIC NAILS

get YOURSELF SOME APPLE CIDER VINEGAR. ONE TEASPOON, TO BE EXACT. ALSO HELPS WITH DIGESTION AND SPEEDS UP UR METABOLISM. NYOOOOOM BITCHES.

CINNAMON. YOU GOTTA HAVE IT, BUT JUST A SPRINKLE.

ADD SOME MOTHERFUCKING PUMPKIN SPICE IF U FEEL LIKE IT.

DAMN. THERE THE FUCK YOU GO. SWEET-ASS APPLE PIE TEA. SHIT’S ONLY 10 CALORIES AND WILL CURB AND CRAVING YOU GOT.

YOU’RE WELCOME.

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US Helplines:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk

b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868

FREE 24/7 suicide hotlines:

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

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Hi I’m starving, but I dont look like I’m starving, so am I really though??

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Hey if you’re against trans women getting uterus implants because it’s “stealing” from afab people, you’re trash

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i give everyone full permission to send me thinspo, sweetspo or meanspo without warning. this bitch wants to be SKINNY and i need constant motivation rn cause i suck.