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Trust

One of the most painful feelings is when someone you love has no trust in you. When you trust them with your whole life.

The most painful feeling is being cheated on. Equal to the feeling of finding out someone you love died. The same thing happens. Your stomach drops. You feel sick. You feel angry thinking you could of done something to stop it.

Once you are cheated on, you know you would never ever do that to a person ever. Why would you want someone to feel like someone they love died.

My late night thoughts

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Happy

He is the only thing that makes me happy. The only thing that is keeping me from leaving this place. Why do I have to rely on someone else to keep my happiness alive when it should be me

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Today he said he’s not sure if I’m worth it.

I broke down inside and out

I love you

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I want to know what it feels like to love yourself.

I want to know what it feels like to be happy.

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To the guy who broke me

To the guy who broke me

I hate hearing your name

I hate seeing your face

I hate hearing you breathe

I hate how you go about living your life knowing you’ve destroyed someone’s life

How. How did you do it

Why did you do it

You have never spoken to me

You must have known how old I was

How could you break someone like that

How could you ruin a girls head knowing what you did.

Why didn’t you stop

Why did you even try

You made me feel so disgusting

You have made me feel so scared of everything

I never use to be afraid of the dark

But now I am because of you

I was only a few days off fourteen

What did that make you.

Your in a relationship now

She’s 16

You’re 20

Does she know what you did to me

Or have u done it to her too and just told her it was okay?

You disgust me

You ruined me

My late night thoughts

Note- sorry if this triggers anyone just needed to write this down this memory has been really getting to me

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It’s him

It’s Him I fucking love him.

But is his love the same

I think I trust him

My heart is still healing from the last

Is it me

Am I the problem

Do I love to hard

It’s her

I fucking hate her

Or should I be hating him

No

Because I fucking love him

And I think I trust him

Or does he love her

Still.

I don’t get mad at him anymore

I get really fucking sad

But I think I trust him

Promise was our word

Was

We both broke it

Love

I fucking hate love

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