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Self embetterment blog - entry 3

Welllll…… My plan from a couple of days ago didn’t go as planned BUT I did do some stuff that I'm proud about. In a zoom with my economics teacher he asked us how our assignments were going. Most were doing pretty bad like me and I can see that no one was taking it seriously. My teacher always says things that keep me motivated (he gives really good advice). In the zoom in an attempt to motivate us he said something that really stuck with me. It was simple but helpful, he said “the goal is to do something that makes you a little bit better after these 8 weeks, you can do a little something 30 minutes every day”. Finally with this i had the motivation to get down to business that night i set a schedule for my week. 

Here's the schedule for the weekends ~

It's short but its something 🤷🏾‍♀️

And in these past days I've actually been sticking to it. (see guys don't give up on me just yet 😂 ). So let's get to talking about my progress, unknowingly I actually followed that guy on youtube's advice and I decided to relearn some lessons I was having trouble with. This sparked my memory and now I'm slowly remembering the things I've already learned. Maybe it's because i've been listening to my doctor's advice and taking care of myself, so my memory is also coming back. I've relearned the basics of a sentence and even have a bit of dialog i can remember and speak. I think I need to invest in an in person teacher after this epidemic is over because I think my pronunciation is off but I can read faster now and I'm retaining the things I've learned the day before. 

I actually wrote that 😌 your girls doing big things!

The lessons haven't been as painful to sit through either. I even went past my allocated 30 minutes just to make sure I remember a few words. What I'm gaining from this experiment is knowledge. Knowledge that if i make a routine and stick with it and it's easier to get things done if i set one, knowledge about korean and knowledge about myself. I'm still having small bouts of procrastination but they don't last more than an hour or 30 minutes. I'm really being strict on myself now and I'm pretty proud of my progress. Honestly this experiment slaps and I'm glad I was forced to do it  . 

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Self embetterment blog-  entry 2 

It's been two days since I worked on the first entry and I'll tell you how my weeks went. I had other homework to do so I used that as an excuse to push this work for the next day. The next day came and I settled myself down to work the night before I started preparing. I opened the website Ive been using in the past to learn korean it's called “Talk to Me in korean.com”. Your girl literally looked at the website and was already thinking “can i change my assignment idea” but I PUSHED THROUGH REGARDLESS. I have a really bad memory so I used that night to recap on the lessons I've already learned. I once heard to learn a new language you have to forget what you already know and start fresh.... that's not what i did .

You see, that's a lot of korean to relearn. It took me a while to learn the alphabet and you really want me to relearn it HA! Funny. So that night notes and app opened I very unenthusiastically recapped the lessons, that is until the website gave my trouble clicking to the next lesson. My genius brain took this as an opportunity to ya know… STOP. yeah that's where my korean lesson for that couple days ended, it ended with a half assed attempt to revisit the lessons i already know. What I really got out of that whole situation was one I needed to try harder and two I literally retained nothing that I learned in the past, maybe that one guy on youtube telling me to relearn everything was right….. Not that I'd actually do it though.

Lets ask a question: what are you doing to learn korean? In all honesty looking at the few posts that happen to find its way into my timeline on instagram from the korean learning profile I followed , I don't write anything down. I read it like a preschooler and go on with my day like I've done really well. I do like korean it's a language I want to master. At least with this I know that I haven't lost interest, I'm going to try harder. But i'm also not going to act like after this i'm not going to go read manga for two hours claiming it to be my “break”. But today I'm actually going to try and actually learn some korean between my zooms for the day. I'll actually get down to business like I'm supposed to. I act dumb most of the time but its really just my lazzyness talking i can do this if i try, bumbs in the road always happen i just need to stop laying down whenever they do. Well wish me luck.

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Self embetterment blog- entry 1

I have been a chronic procrastinator for most of my life as most other teenagers are :) the sad thing is not only do i procrastinate like it's my job, i have no goals either. I have no willpower to do anything and that's why I decided to take this opportunity granted to me by my school to put my attention into. 

Let me give a little back story, during this online schooling one of my assignments was to do a self embetterment assignment aka do something with the time you have during quarantine for 8 weeks (i've already procrastinated on two), and my plan was to do something i've always wanted to do granulated its with the little interest i have in anything. This is one of those things that continues to pique my interest time and time again is learning a language. Really just any language. I've tried my hand at a few languages in the past japanese, I stopped after going to the library for a few weeks and learning words from anime. I'm still learning new words but I'm not properly trying to learn. The next language was Russian i once again had an assignment that had something to do with learning something so I chose to learn russian a language that had recently piqued my interest. i learned the alphabet (barely) and a few greetings but after i presented my research i never went back again and i've even forgotten the alphabet, makes sense i did spend only 1 week learning it. Yet surprisingly a language that i've tried to learn before and  i continue to go back to it time and time again (it's most likely due to how simple it is) is KOREAN. I can't form a sentence but I'm able to read the alphabet without a prompt. I know the majority of the greeting and a bit of words with more practice. I'm sure I can form basic sentences together and that's why I have decided to continue learning korean in this experiment.

This blog will not only be my school assignment but also a personal assignment. It's disturbing to me how difficult it is for me to continue to be motivated in anything. I'm not even going to lie, if something interests me i do my research and wait maybe months or years yearning to do or have this 1 thing and when i finally get it i stop being interested in a week.  That's extremely frustrating. There are a few things that kept my interest for a while but those also couldn't escape my notorious failure to continue to be interested. So this blog will simultaneously be my assignment for school but also documentation of my journey in trying to stay motivated in a subject and what goes through my mind during this process. With my short attention span it was already difficult enough for me to write this. I've wanted to stop multiple times during this. I can already feel myself losing interest but that's why I wrote this in one sitting. If I left it for later I'm pretty sure this one entry would have taken a week. Well, let's hope I come back in a few days.