Salvation cries are loud to me
Whereās the soulful resolution
Where we can see clearly?
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Angels have free will too
Theyāre not Godās āyesā people
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Happy birthday
My motivation to live a happy life
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Yet, youāre still searching.
Wandering around, for goodnessā sake.
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You said this time feels different because you know Iām not coming back ā¤ļøāš„
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You were never meant to stay. You pulled me into this. The water is deep and I canāt swim. This love is happening.
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Not a day passes when I donāt wow at the fact that youāre gone forever
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I donāt need anyone to tell me what love looks like
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Iāve made up my mind
Iām going to church on Sunday to sing a song thatāll hurt somebodyās feelings
- Lyfe
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Yesterday is gone
Tomorrow is on the way
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30th January 2021
30 on the 30th
Allah we never wanted this thing to end
Eyes firey
Hold her, guide her, bless her, hear her ššš
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If he doesnāt comprehend, at least he can pretend
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I donāt remember writing this but itās interesting to realise that losing one best friend many years ago didnāt feel at all familiar to losing another best friend more recently. I didnāt get that āIāve been here beforeā feeling
Losing one of my best friends - what it feels like 5 years later
One my best friends passed away 5 years ago and I still donāt believe it. To me, she is still alive and we just havenāt been keeping in touch.Ā
And I feel so guilty. For so many reasons. I feel horrible and guilty every time she crosses my mind and Iām unsure why. So much so that I quickly try and erase the thoughts of her from my mind. And that makes me feel even worse.Ā Maybe because I feel I could have loved her more or been there for her more? Perhaps I could have been a better friend - giving her everything she deserved from me?
And I feel like I didnāt do that. I feel like our banter, Skype conversations, phone calls, DMs and text messages were frivolous, empty discourse and I think to myself ā¦ is it fair for me to reduce our friendship to that? Perhaps it DID mean something? Perhaps I WAS a good friend? I donāt know.Ā
It has been 5 years and Iām replaying our friendship in my mind and Iām still finding so many loopholes. So many things I could have done better to enhance her experience every time she and I interacted. Only the people in a relationship really know the dynamics of that relationship and I have no one but her to verify all these questions. At this point, as I type, I feel selfish because now Iām making this all about me.Ā
So now my train of thought diverts and I think about if sheās happy, safe and at peace. I am now consciously trying to make this about her and not all about me.Ā
I donāt know sometimes. I have a lot of questions and I sweep them under the rug because, like I say, only the people in a Ā relationship really know the dynamics of that relationship and for everyone looking in, although you may have an opinion, you really donāt know.Ā
I also feel like I should be thinking about her more often ā¦ but I donāt because Iāve become accustomed to not wanting to. Perhaps itās time to really let go. I feel like I did let goā¦subconsciously but I canāt account for it because I donāt remember when it happenedā¦
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Everyday I wake up hoping itās the morning I wake up from this nightmare.
Your departure shifted my spirit ā¦ for the better ā¦ which is sick twisted and bizarre but itās true.
Not to say that was the purpose for this. Itās just one of the outcomesā¦
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Itās so simple
The way you tell your riddles
We fight, weāre so pitiful
You did this to me
Whyād you go?
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Life to the lifeless
Christ to the Christless
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