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was really mad that the couches in the lobby at my work got removed :( then I remembered that most days I open there's someone sleeping on them, meaning someone reported that to housekeeping and their "solution" was to remove the couches entirely?? I was pissed about it, then noticed this sign today

the removal of comfort in public spaces to 'deter' homeless people impacts everyone

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if we meet again some day...

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Thinking of Mydei letting Phainon use him as a fighting dummy...

Mydei knows Phainon enough to know when he's not okay, when something is troubling his mind. And when he can get him to talk they do just that.

But that doesn't always work, as there are times where Phainon won't budge and tell him. Too stubborn for sincerity and maybe scared of his own mind.

Sometimes it's both. As Phainon carries a grief inside that turns into pain and rage, and he doesn't know where to put it if it's not into the battlefield. Mydei is familiar with that feeling.

That is also a fact Phainon's never been willing to truly speak of.

And it's not like Mydei can say it's unexpected. After all, neither is the emotionally open kind, or good with words when it matters.

So when push comes to shove, Mydei can only trust their fists to do the talking—or at least get the ball rolling.

He drags Phainon to the training grounds, where there is no one around to make him hesitate, and pokes the bear. Testing his luck.

Because Mydei knows what buttons to push, and Phainon needs an excuse to let go of his restraints, he takes the bait.

It starts with a punch followed by a kick, and in no time they have turned the training grounds into the battlefield Phainon needs.

Those are fights that would make an onlooker think there was some form of bad blood between them. But to those who know them, it would be easy to see the truth.

As Phainon doesn't even wield a wooden sword, and Mydei never punches back.

Phainon ends up landing blow after blow in a reckless, almost suicidal fashion, screaming from whatever is killing him inside. Only focused on offensive, leaving so many openings for Mydei to take him down. Yet Mydei doesn't retaliate. He stops Phainon's hits, takes a defensive stance, lets the blows land at times.

Because he can take them for him. Whatever is burdening Phainon, he can take it. In all its forms.

To make sure he gets it all out Mydei keeps provoking him to go further, harder, all out. "Is that all you got?" "Was that supposed to hurt?" "C'mon, I know you can do better." Anything he can think of to make Phainon not hesitate.

And each time, without fail, at some point Phainon abruptly stops. Sometimes sooner, sometimes later.... His eyes get teary, and he just... Breaks. He falls to his knees, sobbing about something he cannot put words to. His shoulders shaking and he cannot even bring himself look at Mydei from the shame of his actions.

And each time Mydei sighs, mentally making a note to make sure to change the blankets to something softer tonight. He approaches Phainon, sits on the floor, and waits quietly for him to reach out.

Eventually Phainon does just that. Nothing verbal, though. He just leans against Mydei and closes his eyes, not even daring ask for a hug or comfort.

But Mydei understands, of course he does, and offers him one either way.

Without a fail they end up on the floor, quiet, in an awkward hug. Mydei turning his body and Phainon leaning in with his full weight, both sitting next to each other, their clothes getting dirty from being on the floor.

It's uncomfortable, and Phainon's muscles burn from the strain and from landing all the hits wrong. But it's okay, he can get a massage later. His knuckles are bruised, but it's okay, Mydei will just bandage those and scold him for being careless later.

After a while Phainon stops crying, just taking in the sounds around him. The birds, the people from afar, the wind, Mydei's heartbeat. The world is so full of things to consider, big and small. And eventually he softly pushes Mydei away, getting up.

Giving him a silent look Mydei gets up with him, making a wordless question. "Are you okay now?"

And Phainon answers just as silently, offering a small, tired smile.

They don't talk about the specifics of the pain. Whatever it is, now has calmed down. If it really is that important they can talk about it at home later, when Phainon is too exhausted to argue about it or find clever ways of evading the topic.

Someone has to help Phainon carry the burden, make it bearable. And Mydei can do just that. Or at least make it so Phainon has in him something to load the overflowing parts of himself to.

If nothing else, he can do what he's good at and take the blow as many times as Phainon needs. Then help him pick up the pieces and rebuild that gentleness they both know, or at least Mydei knows, is core to him.

He will take anything Phainon has to give. Including the rage, the pain and the suffering, because it's all Phainon's.

And, of course, each time this happens, they spend the night some trashy movie and cuddle for hours in bed after having cooked Phainon's favorite dish and pomegranate cake for dinner together.

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I love that, generally, phainon and mydei are both very intelligent and logical at their core, but once they're together, their brain cells go on vacation. they become incredibly dumb only when they are with each other. all logic goes out the windows. their intelligence dulls. they reduce each other to complete idiots.

because they're idiots in love. they're so used to strife, tragedy, war, that their brains don't know how to handle the overwhelming good feeling they bring to each other, and that causes their brains to short circuit. they can't do anything but share a single brain cell, which results in the most ridiculous public displays like bathhouse challenges. this is especially true because their emotional constipation makes them not realize they're in love for such a long time, and their unrealized feelings cloud their minds even more. it's obvious to everyone around them, but they make each other become idiots, so it takes them longer to realize. mydei realizes first because he's surprisingly less emotionally constipated and more well adjusted than phainon. he uses it to tease phainon because he realizes how cute he thinks the other man is when he's flustered. but the feelings are also so overwhelming for mydei himself that he just ends up getting himself even more flustered while watching a flustered phainon. which results in even more dumb shenanigans to release his feelings since he can't yet take them out on phainon directly.

once they both realize, they do gain another brain cell. but now they just rub them together in a futile manner and continue their dumb shenanigans, mostly when they don't have time to spend alone together, because it turns out neither of them was prepared for this feeling of being disgustingly in love, and they need to release the buildup of feelings somehow. it flabbergasts everyone around how these intelligent young men can act so absolutely dumb and ridiculous, only when they are together. that's what being in love does to these mighty warriors.

unless it's time to be serious, like to protect or help each other. then suddenly every brain cell wakes up, and their usual capabilities are doubled.

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phaideis and stuff i never posted here

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Did we ever find out who this was or…? Is it just Flame Reaver? His mask doesn’t look like that, and he’s not really associated with holding an actual flame. His color would be more blue or night-related not red. But he is wearing a gauntlet? And a possible mask?

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HELLO??????

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love how 3.4 quest was five hours of phaidei leading everyone to aedes elysiae on the gay marriage dromas

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phainon and mydei fight a lot right, so they probably don’t realise how strong the other person is or how they look when they’re fighting.

and so imagine phainon getting an outsiders perspective of mydei sparring with one of the other kremnoan soldiers, and he’s like grinning wildly like eyes looking crazy and teeth bared, gauntlets flashing and maybe a little blood from when he got a gash just trickling down from his nose to his mouth and he just brushes it off or licks it and

phainon just sat there staring wide eyed, jaw slack like oh my good lord maybe he’s into this

meanwhile mydei watching phainon fight is like yeah im DEFINITELY into this. he’s been into it since their first fight, the 10 days and 10 nights one… the one where they recreated the kremnoan festival like yeah he’s fucking turned on by the deliverer. the deliverer who also gets the same crazy look in his eyes, who cackles sharp and loud when he lands a hit and swears gruffly when he gets hit in return

basically. freak4freak phaidei they just Get each other idk

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To enhance the experience, I made clipped parts of the soundtrack by tnbee you should listen to: https://youtu.be/DZ4qLlzC0ic

Please DO NOT watch the video... Just loop the song for the 33550336th time with me. :3

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The funny thing about Phaidei being Achilles and Patroclus coded is that Mydei is technically the one inspired by Achilles. He’s known for being an incredible warrior, he’s got the invincibility and single vulnerable spot, and he even took a swim in a death river.

Except Phainon is also Achilles, because he’s the one who would completely snap over Mydei, not quite as much the other way around. Mydei is his Patroclus— his much more stable counterpart who may or may not be the only one holding him back.

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I made a phaidei wooden amphora pin bc i have major brain rot

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so long — my friend and adversary

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how long until he notices that he's actually being watched

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we meet again?

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i am not immune.