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Scars don’t lower your worth. Scars don’t make you damaged goods.

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Me: I have black & white thinking, severe mood shifts, emotional impermanence, anxious paranoia, etc. as a result of BPD, and am trying my hardest on a daily basis to keep my symptoms hidden so as not to bother anyone.

Them: I completely understand, however, it is hurtful and unfair that your symptoms still sometimes affect me and I don't deserve such cruel inconvenience. :(

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me: wow i am really Not Feeling Good

every single one of my self destructive behaviours: :(((( i’m here for u babe :(( come to me anytime bb

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BPD Questions

1: Think of the last time you were really angry. Why was that?

2: Why did your last friendship end?

3: Do you self-harm? If yes, how?

4: Have you ever attempted suicide?

5: Have you ever written a suicide note?

6: How’s your love life?

7: Have you ever dissociated? If so, how often?

8: Do you have any other diagnoses? Which ones?

9: Do you get mood swings?

10: What kind of impulsive decisions have you made?

11: Is there anything you do that helps keep you grounded?

12: What’s your relationship with your family?

13: Are you a perfectionist?

14: Do you ever become obsessive?

15: Have you ever changed your opinions, depending on the people you are with?

16: Does your style (clothing, hair, etc.) change a lot?

17: What are five of your biggest fears?

18: Do you worry what people think of you?

19: What are some lyrics that describe what you’re going through right now?

20: How do you usually express yourself?

21: How many people know about your diagnosis?

22: What’s a random story from your childhood?

23: How do you think other people see you?

24: If you could pick one year of your life to give back and start over, which one would it be?

25: What’s one thing you wish non-borderlines could understand?

26: Name three fictional characters you relate to.

27: Do you have any bad habits?

28: Do you consider yourself high-functioning or low-functioning?

29: If your mind was a house, what would the house look like?

30: What is your “safe place” when you are upset? (This can also be a person.)

31: Post a picture of yourself and tell us your story.

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Literally had to take 2 Valium’s to keep myself from losing it today at my friend’s brides maid fitting. how the hell am i going to be a maid of honor , who allowed this !!

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Please be careful with me. Sometimes I just get sad and I don’t know why. I’m sorry.

(via clusterfuckofemotions)

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My fp: "can we talk"

Me, already vomiting from stress: "of course :)"

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Are you an “impulse buy everything I see” borderline or a “too afraid of the potential catastrophes of the future to spend a cent” borderline

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Fp: I don't think we should talk anymore

Me: I don't think I have a reason to live anymore

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#JustBorderlineThings

me: *havin a complete self destructive meltdown*

*2mins later*

me: *laughing at memes with tears still drying on my face*

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I have 2 amazing FPs now. I never thought I could have 2??? One of them is kinda new so I’m being insecure aF, but she’s def def def an FP!

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I still cannot I had sex with that dude. Like did I expect to not get attached?!!?

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Reblog if your bpd...

makes you love your friends “too much”

means that the more you care about someone, the more likely it is you’ll smother them until they leave you

causes you to ignore the friends who do care about you because you only want attention from your fp

keeps you up at night because you can’t sleep until you talk to someone, anyone at all

makes you think that if you can’t feel the love other people have for you, it doesn’t exist

tricks you into hating yourself

makes you feel alone

You are not alone, and you deserve to be happy. If any of you ever need anything, my inbox is open and I want to help.

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me: why am i always so tired

me: *remembers i'm mentally ill*

me: oh yeah

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This guy always comes in and out of my life. Only ex I will ever date again.. but idk if I can trust him this time..