mycringypoetry

[mycringypoetry]

A Gift.

If I were recieve a gift

Id want it to be from God

If I were to recieve a gift from them...

Id want her eyes.... Why?

Because her eyes can see everything

Everyone

Her eyes can see the good

They can see the love around the world

They can see the people who need help

Who are alone

And scared

And need someone by them

They can see the answer to the problem inscribed on your heart.

If i received a gift from God

Id want his legs

Because those legs could carry me anywhere

They could catch up to anyone

They could help me hold up the world That's crashing down around me

Those legs could allow me to run toward my problems instead away

I could reach my goals, I could reach you

If I were to recieve a gift from God

Id want their heart

Because that heart would allow me to love everyone around me

I could follow that heart down the right path

That heart would tell me what to say and what to do

That heart would allow me to follow the ambitions I'm scared of

The gift id want from God would be the courage they hide from me

I'd use that courage to fight

I'd fight myself

I'd fight the world

And I'd fight for the people

I wouldn't need to run anymore

I wouldn't have to be scared

I could finally smile without a problem

Id have the courage to love myself

But the reality is i won't receive any of these gifts

Why?

Because an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind

All these gifts belong to god to guide us down our path

We are angry at God for playing these games

But the reality of it, is God is crying as they have to watch us suffer while they scream, trying to show us the light

I may not have what god has

But...

Ill follow their light and use what they have given me to help those who have fallen along their path and cannot get up

Ill follow the ambitions I'm tip-toeing around

Ill run towards my fears with a smile and carry myself across those harsh times

And ill find love for everyone

Ill save everyone

Ill die for this world

That will be my gift

To everyone

Signed Zach.

[mycringypoetry]

My Storm

Its the summer

So hot

So dry

So "relaxing"

That may be for some...

But for me, everything's a storm

The chaos is building

Everything hurts

I recluse myself within that storm...

I hide...

I cry...

I wait...

I have all this aggravation

But all this love

All this insecurity

But yet all the answers i need

I say I cry...

But my body won't let me...

It replaces those tears with the loss of sleep...

Now I'm the sleepless king

Always plotting

Always awake

Always thinking

Ambitious on taking the world

Utilizing this storm...

I made this

Its my fault

I'm the king of devastation

Being sleepless was just the perk

Now I'm just hiding from myself

This storm has my heart surrounded

I don't know if ill come back the same person...

Sighned Zach

[mycringypoetry]

Give me a second.

I need a moment

Just some time

A little space please

Just some personal time

A walk through a park

Let me mull over this

Ill sleep on it

Let me just think

Because what I have to say comes from me

The emotionless

Emotional

Robot

Zach

Ill tell you when I'm ready, okay?

Thank you

Sighned Zach

[mycringypoetry]

Song.

Im a man

No a boy

And i had a dream

My dream involved lights

It involved a crowd

It involved me and you

It involved these words i spew

My dream was the song we create

The song deep inside

The anthem that lives inside your heart

This dream had confidence

It had tears

Smiles

It had my courage

And as i sit here dreaming more i can only wish

I can only wish this dream was a reality

Because the song that lives inside...

The song that can change us is beautiful.

The song made from all these words i write

I'm only 16 and yet these words I write cut me deeper than anything

No one can cut these scales

No one can sing this song

No one can bring out this anthem

No one can do it... Except you

Sighned You... Zach

[mycringypoetry]

Philosophy.

Let me philosophisize with you

Let me tell you my thoughts

My troubles

My beliefs

And all my fears

Let me tell you the about the day the light became my darkness

Let me tell you about my fight

The one sided fight with myself

All the things i believed that were pushing my forward are all my negatives

Everything that held me back were my positives

All my fears were my desires

And my desires had become a misconception

The tears that fall from my face became confusion

My silence became my scream

My strength faded

Now when i smile I want to cry

When I'm angry i want to give up

My fight is gone...

And all because the light that held me together was the darkness that was pulling my apart

The darkness i believed that surrounded me was the light that was trying to bind me

Everything i felt I knew fell apart

All my negatives became positives

All my positives negatives

Now i don't wheather to cry to laugh

Wheather i should fight or run

Let me convey my philosophy

Let me tell you something

My Ying is my Yang

And my Yang is my Ying

The light is what lies

But the darkness tells you the truth

I smile at my fears

I cry at my joys

My emotions are so far gone I don't know what they really are now

This poem is chaos

I don't know what to call this

Its just a chaotic philosophy

Sighned Zach

[mycringypoetry]

When its Cold

When I can feel pinch of ice

See my breath in the air

Feel the numbness of frost

Ill think of you

I think of those weeks when it was us

Ill think of all the fun we had

Ill think of the food we ate

When its cold ill remember you

Ill remember how dumb i was

How struck with the lag of love

Ill remember my idiotic tendencies

Ill remember our friendship

When its cold

When I become the frost

And when I go numb

Ill always think of you

And all the mistakes I make

When its cold.

Sighned Zach

[mycringypoetry]

No More Words.

With each breath

With each moment

With each second

I'm filled with words

But now...

Everything is jumbled...

I can't think

I can't see

I can't breath

I feel sick

I want to cry

I want to be real

I want to love

I want to be me...

But...

In the end...

I have no words to help

There isn't anything i can say to explain

Nothing will make you understand

Nothing will explain my pain

Explain this ache in my chest

None of what i say makes sense...

I'm a mad man at this point...

But... As mad as i am my heart aches for love...

But love doesn't want or ache for me

Cupid denied me his arrows...

Aphrodite turned her head away from me...

And now my words...

Their all gone...

Each word that would tell you...

Tell you who i am

What i am

And how to understand my rambling...

In the end I apologize... Becasue you won't understand...

Each poem i wrote never helped....

They only broke the cracked glass of my existence...

And in this moment...

In this poem...

I've shattered...

Signed Zach

[mycringypoetry]

When I Cry.

When my tears fall...

They don't crash

They don't make my eyes go red

They don't carry the weight of the world...

When I cry my eyes turn back to their original color.

To the color of my loneliness...

Grey...

Emotionless...

Lonely...

My eyes show me a window to my past

When I cry its clear to as of why...

When I cry its because of how alone I am

When I cry my evergreen fades away...

When I cry I wish i wouldn't have to feel again...

I wish that grey would leave me...

I wish my pain would dissapear...

I wish i could say I'm not lonely...

But...

No matter how bright my eyes are

It'll always be a shadow to the reality that hides within them...

When I cry ill see the window to my problems.

Sighned Zach

[mycringypoetry]

Time.

So distant

So far

But yet slower than a snail

But faster than lighting

Something that deprives us of happiness

But provides us our happiest moments

Time, something that is endless

Yet ends us

Because we expire

Because the minute we were born

The universe gave us a date

Gave us our timeline

Gave us the opportunity to experience the world for only so long

Time sets us in motion

But also knocks us down and makes us reset

Time does not stop

But that isn't an absolute

Because one day

Your time will freeze when you look into their eyes.

Signed Zach

[mycringypoetry]

Who I Am.

Im Zach

I am a cool dude

Ill help you no matter what

Ill listen to your woes

Ill be here for you

I'm a self sacrificing little shit

But does that matter?

Maybe a bit

But

To be honest with you

Everyone is important to me

I am a future soldier

A future author

And

The wolf who hides among dogs and protects their pack

Who am I?

I'm Zach

Zach the impossible

Because in the end

I make the impossible possible

And I'm impossible to deal with

Im too energetic

I'm too happy

And I'm too much of me

Because I gave up who I WAS

I gave up my demons

And I left my shadow behind

Because why would I need a shadow in the land of light

I'm Zach

The Zach who will sacrifice himself for you

Because why not?

I was born as a mistake

But pave my path to be a success

I may push everyone away but in the end

Ill always extend my hand to help you

And to ask for help

I'm Zach

The Zach who doesn't give up

The Zach who stands up no matter how many times he gets knocked over

I'm the Zach who follows the light

And the Zach who will always love everyone

I'm the Zach who will be here to pick you up

Sighned the real Zach

[mycringypoetry]

What's hiding.

Im behind

Above

In front

And below him

I pull his strings

I'm his puppet master

His heart belongs to me

He owns nothing

I'm what's inside

I'm his demons

I'm his failure

His sadness

And all his hatred

I'm what will take him from everything

I'm the insanity that lurks

And all the low self confidence he has

Ill take him from everyone

He means nothing

And is nothing

He can't amount to anything in this world

He won't find love

He can't find it

Who wants a broken tool

Who wants a child who only cries

In the end

Zach is just the toy I play with

The puppet I use to amuse myself

And the toy ill throw away

Because he won't be needed

Sighned Zach's demon

[mycringypoetry]

What I Hide.

Hi...

I'm Zach...

I'm a cool guy.

I guess... I don't know

I know I act happy

And energetic

And my energy could rival even the sun.

But

What you don't know...

Everything I hide

Not just from you

But everyone

Not even my closets friend knows...

Things I've never wanted to say...

Me, who I am...

I'm a broken child

I'm a sorry excuse

Just a shadow hiding in the light

A wolf hiding among dogs

All I do is preach a gospel of light

Even though my soul follows a gospel of despair

I want to cry all the time

I'm always in a stand off

I can't make friends

I'm not nice

I'm just a toy that's been broken and cast aside

My smile isn't real

I've been slowly falling away for so long

I'm always fighting

And always prepared to start a fight...

I ruin everything and I'm capable of destroying everything

Im called the gentle giant

But in reality

Im just a brute

I use to cry over her

Then one day I realized I was wrong

My love was wrong

Because what do my feelings matter?

You know?

They aren't real

It isn't there

I use to strive to be the best

But then I realized...

My effort means nothing

In the end ill only be striving and striving and striving

Until all I'm doing is crawling and begging

I use to think i was strong

Until I realized the wind could simply knock me over

I use to want love...

But now

All I do is cry

Because I'm confused

I don't know what to love

What to do

I'm crying while writing these lines because i can't do anything else

I'm so weak

So broken

So forgotten

So disrespected

And so dead inside

What can I do

Can you please tell me

Who am I?

What am I?

Where should I go?

I guess it doesn't matter in the end...

Signed The shadow of Zach

[mycringypoetry]

Me.

I'm broken

I'm lost

And I'm pretty much a burden

But

I'm me

I'm a human

I have heart

I have passion

I have wants and needs

And I'm ready to take my stand

I'm a Texan

I grew up with so many problems

I was born fighting

God gave me depression because he knew if I had my ambition i would have fought him by now

But let me tell you

One thing god didn't plan on was me coming back with a vengeance

Because no matter how sad I am

No matter how many strikes I take

I will not be scared

I will not back down

And I will not bow to anyone

I will not be lead

Because I am the lead

I am the alpha

I am the king of wolves

And I will strike without a moments warning

I am me

I fight not for me

But for others

I give my body to them

I will shield them from violence

No matter how much I may break

Because I am me

Born small

Raised big

Full of a burning passion that's been suppressed till now

So let me tell you something

Let me tell you a story

Let me tell you the story of

Me

Sighned with aggression

Zach.

[mycringypoetry]

No Title...

No thought

Just words

My words must fight

They will fight

I will make my words go to war

Each and every letter will fight

Because each word is broken

They don't know what to do

Or how to organize

These words will show the brutality

They will show the slaughter of my mind

And shattered pieces of my heart

The confusion of my soul

And the blood I've bled to be here right now

Writing every word down

They will whisper in your ear

They'll tell you how you feel

They'll give you the truth

They'll tug at your heart

At your tears

And they'll make you admit the truth

Each word will show something

Each letter will mark my passion

With every word i lay down they will tell me how I feel

And why I'm like this

With every passing sentence ill look at the last then to the next

Ill rant on my page about how i feel

Ill rant to you the reader my problems

And my words will tug at you like little devils

And they'll make you feel what i feel

Because in the end

You feel the same way I do

Broken

Scared

Alone

And longing

But at the end

You'll feel accomplished

Happy

And satisfied because now you understand.

Signed Zach

[mycringypoetry]

You.

Hey

You

And you

And you

And you

All of us

Not just you

But you too

All of you

I need to talk to you

And you

Because we need to sit down

You need to listen

You need to watch my eyes

You need to hear this

Because what I have to say might help

Because I know you

And you

And you

All of you

You are sad

And so I am

So let me clarify

YOU are amazing

You are beautiful

And you are perfect

You have a voice

You have a heart

You have a soul

And you make my life worth living

Why?

Because you are you

And you are a person who makes me gitty

You laugh

You cry

You love

You live

You may cut

But let me take your hand

Because you should know

These scars will show you

You won a war

So remember please

You are amazing

Signed Zach

[mycringypoetry]

Dawn.

With a draw of breath.

A crack of the eyelid

That sunlight beams in

Within moments your eye is blessed

It becomes blessed with the light of today

And the promise of a tomorrow

With each new dawn shows a new tomorrow.

And each tomorrow will promise you a wound to be healed.

That dawn will signify your youth

Your today

And a new beginning for you

Because that light blesses your body and gives you warmth from the heavens.

Damn... I lost my place...

Maybe with the next dawn ill find it

Because that day will be new

It will bring me new words

New experiences

New warmth

And a new blessesing

Maybe ill stop writing poems...

Maybe ill write music

Maybe ill start rapping.

Maybe ill just start drawing

Maybe the next dawn will bring a new me

A new me who is better

Maybe that dawn...

Maybe it'll show me all the answers I've actually been needing

Tomorrows dawn will be glorious and colorful

I can promise this

Signed a new Zach

[mycringypoetry]

Future me.

To future me

From past me

Currently writing in present time

Please remember your talent

Your skill

Your hard work

Your tears

Your sweat

All the blood you have bled to be where you are now

Future me

Please know

You are amazing

And strong

So strong

You can fight

You can climb

You can will always be able to do things others can't

You have power

And you have a voice

Future me, please remember all those cuts on your wrist

Remember the nights you cried into your pillow.

Future me, remember that no matter what

You are strength and you are will

You can be broken but still fight

No matter how many times you fall

You will crawl to your victory

You will take every hit imaginable

You know as well as I do

Your limbs could be torn apart and you will still manage to walk and fight

Do you know why?

Future me, do you know why you will fight.

You are the wrath and will of the people who cant fight for themselves because by a fault you are the hero

You fight for others instead of yourself

Future me

Remeber all that blood you've bled and will bleed

Remember all the heartbreak and sadness

Remember who you are future me

Because one day I won't be writing and it will be up to you.

One day these poems will stop

The pencil will be passed to you

And it will be up to you to finish this poem.

Dear future me, remember to write

And to read, to love, to fight, to cry, to smile, and be you

Goodbye future me, because I can't travel with you on your journey.

Sighned, Past Zach