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There are many good things on tumblr. A lot of talented artists. A lot of funny anime posts. But right now i feel like i need to delete it off my phone. I feel like its making my health worse. Or maybe my health is crumbling. Ill delete it for now and see how it goes.

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I’m back.

Skirt and shirt: Torrid Purse: Ready to Stare Choker: F21 Shoes: Kohl’s Hoops: Aldo

So I kinda gave up blogging. I don’t think anyone reads it. It doesn’t do nearly as good as it used to. But I had an idea for some pics, so what the hell.

My friend took these of me at the state fair. I got plenty of dirty looks, a few “yikes”, etc. Mostly fat women sneering at me. And it baffles me cuz like what rule did I break? They are just closeminded country people who wear flipflops everywhere and old t shirts. I think I was too dressed up for them.

I got a lil self conscious posing in the crowds but I pretended it didn’t faze me. Luckily my friend was there for support. She is also a photographer of people, she assists me on weddings. So my pics look extra this time. Yesss.

I don’t usually like Torrid but this color skirt was perfect for my cotton candy idea. The shirt….I love it but I had to chose between a 0, 00, or 5x. I chose the 5x. It’s HUGE but you can’t tell in the pictures. I added the chunky choker and huge hoops for a bit of an edge.

Since I’ve been gone, I have just been working, enjoying life, and grilling a lot. I also got kinda tan huh? Most Saturdays me and my brother hang out in the pool drinkin brews.

You guys have been thru a lot with me. You’ve seen me down. For the last 5-6 months I have been overall great! My mental health has improved by leaps and bounds. I take care of myself because I finally know I’m worth that. I got rid of a lot of toxic people. I take my meds, go to therapy. I’m social and participate in alot of community activities. I love my job. Thins have been great and I def don’t wanna go back to how things used to be. There is hope!!!!!

Now go out there and make some close minded country people who wear flipflops to church mad as hell about how creative and amazing you look. You know they just jealous anyways.

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Curvy Indian Brides Open Up About The Pressures To Be Thin At Their Wedding [x]

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New Post on the blog

CHE CHE CHE CHE CHE CHEE CHECK IT OUT

WHAWHAWHAWHAWHAWHATITSALLABOUT

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Some actual good advice from cosmo that I thought I should put out there

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Big girl: *minds her business, stays in her lane, eats her tacos* Big girl: *stays glowing*

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fat bodies tutorial!

ALRIGHT SO my pal @kalreyno wanted help with drawing fat characters and as a fat artist i felt like i could give a bit of helpful insight on that. there’s also been a lot of complaining about “boo hoo fat characters are hard to draw so i can’t include them in my work Ever” goin on lately so if that’s your case then this is for you too!! and also just for anyone who would like help with fat bodies in general, ofc. anyway, let’s get this show on the road!!

let’s start with some common misconceptions. these are the two main attempts at chubby bodies i run into, so i’ll focus on them. 

the Anime Chubby i see everywhere, and it’s just……so wrong in many ways. first of all, there is almost no additional body fat compared to your average thin character - except for where it’s added in “attractive” places (breasts, hips, thighs). the breasts are way too perky, and don’t have the realistic shape fat would give them (though how to draw accurate breasts is another tutorial all on its own lmao). there is still a thigh gap, which usually only happens in very thin people, and bones are still visible on the surface of the skin, which also rarely happens in fat people.

the Michelin Man is better in some ways, but still not that great. it’s a slightly better attempt, but basically all that’s done there is taking a thin character and blowing them up, while giving no thought to fat distribution. the thigh gap is usually still present, and they look a lot more hard than soft - and fat is very soft and pliable.

here’s a chart on how fat usually distributes (if you can’t read my messy writing, “1. next to no fat, 2. moderate amount, 3. most of the fat distribution”). basically, the more muscle an area has, the more prone it is to develop fat, such as the abdomen, thighs, and upper arms. it’s important to note that fat sits on top of muscle, and that it does distribute in different levels, and not evenly across the body as shown in the Michelin Man. 

now, here’s an accurate fat body with all of that kept in mind!! notice how the fat isn’t only kept to aesthetically pleasing areas, and how it sits realistically on the character’s body. their breasts sag a lot more, which happens even in thin people with larger breasts, and the nipples are pointing more downwards than straight out. there is no thigh gap in sight, there are no bones in sight, and most importantly, they have fat rolls, which are very important in drawing a convincing fat character!! as far as i know i’ve never met a single person with no rolls at all, and everyone has them, whether thin or fat - they’re just more prominent and more consistently present in fat people. pay close attention to where they are and how they’re shaped.

here are a couple of drawings showing how fat is affected when sitting vs stretching. as seen in the first, the fat specifically on the stomach is distributed a lot more evenly and stretched out, so it becomes “flatter”. the love handles are still pretty visible, though, as well as the fat on the thighs and arms. the breasts are raised with the shoulders, and the fat on the shoulders and near the neck forms rolls as it’s being pushed together. 

in the second, there is a lot less room for distribution, so the fat is all pushed together. the breasts sag and the stomach forms rolls and spills into the lap. a good analogy for the way fat works is to liken it to a water balloon, and thinking of how its shape would change when resting flat on a surface, hanging off of a ledge, held upright, etc.

here are a few extra tips i find a lot of people miss!

first on the top is the hip/pubic region. the first circle is showing the way the bellybutton is folded in fat people, as opposed to stretched out in thinner people. the second is the stomach fat spilling over onto the pubic region and creating a separation in the two areas, which is something that’s missing in a lot of art. in addition, the pubic mound also gains fat, making it round as seen in the profile drawing i did up there (i’ve heard people refer to it as fupa?). the last in the hip region is the lack of a thigh gap. i can’t stress this enough!!!! if you’re trying to draw a convincing fat character, make sure their thighs are pretty much always touching!! for reference, mine literally don’t separate until my feet are about 2ft from each other.

the bottom right is showing the double chin, which a lot of people are afraid to draw!! fat does distribute itself here too, and there’s nothing wrong with it, so don’t feel like you shouldn’t give fat characters a double chin in your work for fear of it looking like a caricature.

in the bottom middle, it’s showing how fat affects different types of breasts with the presence of more or less breast tissue. 

lastly, at the very right are stretch marks with their usual locations and directions, which i also can’t stress enough!!!!! i sometimes forget to add them honestly, but they’re so important in accurately portraying fat characters, as they literally come from the skin being stretched from fat being gained (and they’re also just rlly neat lookin like why wouldn’t you lmao). some people have less and some people have more, feel free to experiment with them!

the last thing is body types!! there isn’t one single way for a person to be fat, so feel free to experiment with shapes once you’ve learned the basics!! 

so there you have it, a tutorial on how to draw chubs!! now go forth and make some accurate fanart or some rad fat characters, because the world could always use more of both. hmu if you have any questions or concerns, and thanks for reading!!

EDIT: someone pointed out the bad wording in the tutorial. thank you for bringing it to my attention and sorry for offending anybody. i’ve updated the tut, so please reblog this one!

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This nalgona is down to destroy machismo 💕

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I’ve been working on a dress up game the past two days. I like playing dress up games but I have a lot of trouble finding plus size options, and I definitely can’t find anything more fantasy-themed. Still a lot of work to do, but it’s been fun!

I still need more shading for the clothes and more neutral colors. I want to add jewelry, belts, tattoos for the arms, just more bling in general. Stuff that I realize is needed after playing around with it for a little while.

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You can get back up

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My experince with BED

Binge eating disorder (BED) (Trigger warning- I talk about how I feel with this. So it might bring bad emotions to some people. Read with caution.) The scary part about BED is you never really notice it until you feel really disgusted afterwards. After im done from compulsively eating I feel horrible. I feel like puking and my stomach starts to ache. Eventually i can feel my food coming back up. I throw up in my mouth a bit and feel the pain of it burning my throat. I cry a bit because i know i cant control it sometimes. And even afterwards i still feel like eating. I am still learning how to control my BED. Im trying to have 3 meals a day. And 2 snacks. I try to make sure I dont eat too much but enough to feel full. Its hard. Im use to compilsively eating. I try to eat slower so I can enjoy my food and feel full. I try to make sure i limit my junkfood. Im not gonna lie its really hard. Its hard to limit my food but eat enough to be full. I try not to put just any food in my mouth. I wanna try to keep away from the kitchen and keep myself distracted. I hope I get better at controlling my BED. I hope I am healthy one day. Where I feel good when I eat. And I eat often and am not scared to eat. Thank you for reading. 💕😊

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Self care tip #3

EATING. Eating keeps you alive please eat. Try to eat. I know eating is hard to do. Try to have people around you that remind you to eat, that feed you, and eat with you. Its important to eat till you get full. I am use to count my calories. And i know how hard it is to eat well. I am still learning myself. But please try to not count calories. Its important to be full of energy. Especially with mental health issues that are already draining enough. Try to not be afraid of food, calories, sugar, fat. We need that too. We need it to be healthy. I use to be afraid of gaining weight and being chubby. And im slowly liking being chubby myself! (Chubby power!) Now when people judge me im like whatever youre a mean person. I do want to love myself. That is when I truly am happy. ☺ Who cares about the others. If they dont like me then I hope one day theyll learn to be kind and notice the beauty around. I hope people change. I might be an idiot for thinking that. But i hope one day chubby people are seen as beautiful. That our beauty is recognized. ❤❤❤

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Self care tip #2

Keep hydrated. Drink a lot of water. If your pee is not light yellow than you need more water. Please stay safe and hydrated.

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Alzheimer’s Disease

More infographics on the human brain and behaviour @tobeagenius

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Self care tip #1

Yes I know many people have seen these. But I think a lot of them are hard to do especially with mental illnesses. 1.Feeling horribly tired and icky. You can take a nice shower OR I know a lot of times even I can barely do this I just change my clothes and/or put up my hair. I honestly feel way better afterwards. I feel more awake and productive. If you can't get out of bed I usually drink some water or clean up the area around me. Or dust off my pillow fluff it nicely and dust off my blanket. Anyway I hope this first tip helps some people!