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problems of anas starting at an actual obese weight

-your lowest weight is other peoples highest.

-people never noticing that you don’t eat due to your weight.

-ACTUALLY being medically fat, not just feeling fat.

-having legitimate problems working out (knees can’t handle all the weight, asthma, etc)

-”you probably shouldn’t eat that, should you?” when taking your first bite of a remotely unhealthy food in MONTHS.

-losing over 70lbs and still not be close to ‘thin’.

-thinner anas looking down on you because you’re not skinny enough. (actually happened)

-thinner anas telling you to ‘stop starving yourself’ or ‘turn back before you get sick’ when you’ve actually been doing this longer than them.

-MORE SIDE EFFECTS!

-being petty and offended when people half your size call themselves fat in front of you, well knowing you weigh twice as much as them. (this is a personal problem but still)

-actually being happy to be at a NORMAL weight for once. 

-”MY BMI IS FINALLY UNDER 25!”

-lower chances of actually hitting your ugw because your body literally can’t lose more.

-LOOSE SKIN. L O T S OF IT. 

-knowing you’ve lost more than most of the fellow anas, but not being able to talk about it because your cw isn’t low enough just yet.

so shoutout to all the bigger people with anorexic tendencies, because they deserve way more. because they’ve gone through this pain for so long without enough recognition. because within the ana community, they’re often not even acknowledged. because THEY ARE VALID TOO. 

i started at over 250lbs and hit my first plateau at 149, so i do have a right to complain, thank you very much. (i’m just over 5′4. just imagine.)

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my brain saw the slippery slope of unhealthy coping mechanisms and grabbed a fucking sled

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I swear I posted this when I made it, idk what happened

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can’t eat while you’re asleep lmao zzz

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a little more sash for your timeline

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Skinny, pretty, confident.

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How do people actually make new friends when you’re over the age of 20

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TWIGGY THINSPO

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Skinny ~130lbs friend: Oh god I really need to loose weight

My 250 lbs ass:

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its funny when youve self diagnosed like. everything thats wrong with you but your parents think youre a completely good and stable and normal kid and youre about to go to therapy finally and its gonna be wack

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no one:

my intrusive thoughts at 6 am: hey so what if u went outside rn and purposely got hit by a car so that u could be hospitalized and for once u could feel like someone genuinely cares about u

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