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Argh I am just getting so fucked around by this SPED chairperson and the process AGAIN. These people are obstructionist and flagrantly breaking the laws they like to quote at parents. It’s making me so angry. Ugh.

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Hey again. A bunch of you asked how you could help without go fund me….

Ash has shared her Venmo which seems like her best option right now. Honestly, I don’t know why go fund me would kill her campaign. I assure you - it is her in the videos, her name in the arrest log, and these are the same people. Her protest was not violent - you can watch the videos for yourself.

I’m incredibly grateful for all of you. Really and truly.

Hi friends.

Maybe you heard about the latest ICE interactions in Worcester MA this week. One of my kiddos friend’s mom was arrested for intervening. She was a school nurse, running for school committee, and has now been placed on leave from her job. Her ex left their life in shambles last year. She’s a single mom, working hard for her kids and for all people.

Anyway. If you’re inclined to chip in, I’d be really thankful.

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Well friends. SO many of you rose to the occasion to help. And today, ash learned that gofundme has shut down her campaign and refunded all donations. She’s having issues on social media and is currently experiencing lots of “shadow bans.” She’s on leave from work, late on rent, and now this.

If you were wondering how bad things were, they’re as bad as you thought they could be. Worse. Things are so fucked up right now and our government is behind a lot of it.

Hi friends.

Maybe you heard about the latest ICE interactions in Worcester MA this week. One of my kiddos friend’s mom was arrested for intervening. She was a school nurse, running for school committee, and has now been placed on leave from her job. Her ex left their life in shambles last year. She’s a single mom, working hard for her kids and for all people.

Anyway. If you’re inclined to chip in, I’d be really thankful.

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Hi friends.

Maybe you heard about the latest ICE interactions in Worcester MA this week. One of my kiddos friend’s mom was arrested for intervening. She was a school nurse, running for school committee, and has now been placed on leave from her job. Her ex left their life in shambles last year. She’s a single mom, working hard for her kids and for all people.

Anyway. If you’re inclined to chip in, I’d be really thankful.

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Have we all just thrown out all those old Covid tests now?

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Friends!! I miss you all! I’ve been taking a rest from a lot of socials since the orange - you know - and all the chaos. But STORYTIME and I don’t know anyone who would enjoy this as much as my pocket friends.

We are on vaca in Turks and Caicos. We are staying at a small resort with a little beach cafe only. So last night, we decided to take a walk down the beach to fine a restaurant for dinner.

The kids do what hungry tired kids do on vaca and start to come apart. Paul and I try to keep cool but clearly are starting to silent panic ourselves.

So we see a place off the beach and smell food, so hoof it up and wander over. As we approach, there’s a group of ladies in front of us just sprawled across the host bench endlessly debating breakfast and pestering the worker to hold them a table for tomorrow morning.

They finally clear and we’re like “table for 4 and pleaseeeee tell me no wait?” And he’s like YUP! Let’s go!

We eat dinner. The kids finally start to settle and decompress once we get food in. The early part was hairy because there were no fries on the menu and that’s basically all my kid eats.

Fast forward to desert (we had apps, wine, desert - the whole deal!) and we ask for the check. The woman looks at us like we are fucking aliens. She’s like “the what?” And I repeat.

“Maam, no check. It’s all inclusive in your stay here.”

Uuuuhbhhhhhhhhh

So I say “ok well, uhm, we’re not staying here?”

And she’s like - stop are you serious? Didn’t the host ask you for your room number??? NOPE.

A few minutes later she’s like “the manager would like to speak with you at the hostess station please.”

The manager just raises her brows at me and is like “MAAM.” And I just unravel in an honest panic like “maam! Here is my credit card. I’m mortified and this is not what we were here to do… if it was, we’d already have left! I am immensely sorry and now see that BEACHES is an all inclusive resort that isn’t open to public!”

After some back and forth she’s like, I’m not trying to embarrass you, that’s why I’ve called you over here to speak privately. But please just finish your meal and go quietly back to the beach? Security will not be happy with any of us if they catch on, and they will want some money at least. I again offer to pay for dinner and she’s like, no please this is not worth the trouble. Just finish and go.

So we pack up and hit the sand like pronto.

I’m still mortified. However, that was probably a $300 meal on this island. I don’t feel bad that beaches served a few extra portions but Jesus I hope that kid working the desk doesn’t lose his job over it all.

But also fuck beaches for owning like a mile long stretch of beach in the middle of everything to close all the borders to rich assholes only. The vibes in there were …. Not chill.

But also. Fuuuuck I can not believe we did that.

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However, megababe by Katie Sturino (I’m too lazy to go look her up to make sure I spelled it right) is a standup company who apologized for the deodorant rash, issued a refund, AND sent me $45 of full sized products (non deo) to make up for it. I love a bunch of their other stuff I’ve used, so bonus.

I’m off beginning Thursday and running through the new year. Fuck this place is the general mantra.

My Christmas shopping is like almost there. The rest might be “fuck it” and finished tomorrow. My wrapping isn’t done but it’s started at least.

Things are all just really hard right now. My little family is lovely and great but my birth family and job are just really extra complicated and hard.

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Work is bad. So bad. I really think I’m probably heading toward business changes that result in the elimination of my job. It’s giving me so much anxiety because my boss is so distant and unconcerned.

One of two betta fish died. In hindsight, he never really did well after coming home from the pet store. The second… well he is fighting a valiant fight but things are a little rough. I have no idea why we’re having so much trouble keeping “basic” fish or whatever the fuck. I like them and feel bad they’ve just come here to die. The kids are sad.

And last night we attempted family fun for my bday. But big kid was not into it at all. And my sister in law reserved at the wrong restaurant by the same name some 50 miles east of where we were.

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Oh and I woke up today with my arm pits a blend of itch and fire, screaming bright red. So yeah. It’s going great.

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The drama in my family of birth is epic levels of insanity between my brother and his wife. They’re currently living separately with no contact per legal requirements and I am just fucking done.

My bday is next week.

Work is a dumpster fire.

I’m in a good mindset but I just feel really… drained and taken from.

Getting older seems to be a special kind of bullshit where bad shit is just… constant? Can we not?

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The good news is that we’ve treated everyone’s hair. The beds are all stripped and washed. And I’ve been on a house purging bender before Xmas anyway, so I took the opportunity to bag as much shit as possible with hopes it never returns.

But seriously. My smart brain knows certain things. But anxiety brain is in full blown panic can feel bugs crawling on me nonstop mode. So yes. I’m washing more than required. I am 100% ok with this fact.

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I haven’t been here in a minute. Life has been busy!!!

But. Lice. We have it. I want to burn my house down.

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Woke up feeling baaaaaaad today.

Took my meds. Drank a ton of water. Took a nap. Had a coffee. Laid around and enjoyed my audiobook. Tidied the house. Got some laundry done for the week. And tonight I am feeling excellent. Really and truly like a new person. Reminder to care for yourself folks. and don’t feel bad about it!

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Still can’t believe she’s here with me.

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Cat is still missing. The well pump cost $3k to replace. And the big kid is now vomiting. I have had my fucking full of this week. No. More.

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A casual disappearance seems on brand for how she might go out of this world. I hope it’s not the case, but it would track for her.

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My very old lady kitty is missing tonight. She isn’t one to wander off outside, and usually wakes from her long naps at dinner time for her evening couch snuggles… but no sign of the old gal tonight. We’ve searched the house high and low, inside and out. 😖