myg0thb1tchcamewitagl0ck

[myg0thb1tchcamewitagl0ck]

intro/stat check!!

hi, im mira! (18, 235ish lbs sw). longtime 3der/4n4 girlie

sw: 234.5 lbs 02/06/25

gw1: 215 ✓ 03/01/25 (3 weeks)

gw2: 200

gw3: 185

gw4: 170

🪐gw4.5 (my man's weight): 160🪐

gw5: 155

current ugw: 140

started back again feb 2025, lost like 20 without realizing it, got super busy, stopped, but its time to start again. i should never have stopped in the first place but ohwell.

trying to be more consistent and that starts w posting more to hold myself accountable!

i just wanna be hot. and loved. yk?

also heres some of my current fav th1nsp0!!

[myg0thb1tchcamewitagl0ck]

a snapshot of my 2k25 moodboard

by this time next year, i will be educated, sk1nny, pretty (w/long shiny hair and a tiny waist), and i W1LL bag my nerdy little gamer boy yall. jus watch

🌜i. W1LL. reach my

goals, tysm🌛

[myg0thb1tchcamewitagl0ck]

up yearning wit my whole entire soul rn. 👼🙏🫶😽🌛

its so over yall i need him so badly

[myg0thb1tchcamewitagl0ck]

t1ny hands and bones

wrists so th1n and pale and sc4rred you look like youve sn4pped in two over and over

collarbones and shoulder bl4des sh4rp enough to cvt paper

[myg0thb1tchcamewitagl0ck]

so i (18 f), am really disgustingly in love with a guy (21 m) i have been for (two) months now and were super good friends but hes expressed to our mutuals that im not his type (they asked if we were dating or talking)

the thing is is im literally exactly his type: short, somewhere between goth and alt, latina, funny, smart asf, firey and stubborn. the only thing is im not sk1nny. not even close I fear

but the thing is, im so downbad i would do anything to pull him, up to and including ⭐ve myself (i already have an ed dont come for me) for his attention.

he loves sk1nny girls. t1ny girls that drive t1ny cars. girls that sm0ke and have no appet1te and are slightly toxic and are one hundred percent insane.

so im doing it for love. im doing it because i know he loves me as a friend and would adore me as a gf. but physical attraction is a must so.. im going to do whatever it takes. call me crazy but he likes crazy so.

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im think im falling in love with my coworker, who is in downbad for my friend, but she has a bf...

the whole situation is messed upppp but let me explain

important context: im f, 17, said coworker is m, 21, my friend is f 17, a few months younger than i. i turn 18 this month. i usually only date women, so this (being downbad for some GUY?) is lowkey crazy. im also a lover girl thru nd thru, nd I have never had a casual fling, only life ruining relationships that usually end poorly for me because im attracted to rly shitty ppl.

so. theres this guy at work ive recently gotten so super close with, let's call him danny. we have very similar tastes in music, shows, humor, hes very compassionate, and funny and super cute (multiple girls at work think this unfortunately). we both like horror and conspiracy theories and books and yapping and video games and other cultures (he likes the women, I like the languages and history LOL). we worked together for a while before we started talking, but we started a few weeks ago nd havent stopped since. unfortunately what I found out is that he really likes this girl at work, lets call her jen. jen is my ethnicity, and she's a lot prettier than me. she's gorgeous and super funny, and gullible asf, she's everything I am but a thousand times more. her personality is addictive, and I can see why he likes her. she's quickly becoming one of my closest friends, as were both currently seniors at our local highschool.

this brings up the first complication: the age gap. danny would never do anything until either of us are 18 that much is clear- he is not Diddy.

complication 2: unfortunately for danny, even after jen turns 18, she currently has a boyfriend who she loves. however, said bf is super duper awful, an embarrassment to boyfriends everywhere, and I know danny thinks he could treat jen better. ive been friends with girls like jen before, I think that relationship probably still will last another year and a half, even tho ive tried to tell her to wake up nd break up like everyone else in her life.

complication 3: mine and dannys friendship started pretty innocently. I was trying to get with another coworker, a girl, and I was trying to help Danny and jen get together. so now I'm struggling tryna figure out how to move myself out of the friend zone to the "hey shes a possible romantic interest" zone without ruining our friendship

complication 4: I don't know that he is even attracted to me. I'm his type on paper, hispanic and a little bit emo, but I weigh significantly more than jen, and that definitely makes her more attractive to him. he's never dated a heavier person as far as I can tell, and I fear that's one of the biggest things in the way right now (literally and figuratively). I don't know, does weight matter that much to guys? for me personally size doesn't matter but I figure that's not the case for everyone..?? also even if that's not a factor, attraction isn't as simple as being someone's "type". if he's just not into me, that's hard to get past right?

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re1apsng 4n4blr

im soo sick of this I need to be sk1nny again guys. I'm gonna start posting my 3d progress because 3dblr feels so much more supportive than any other group I've seen nd I'm ready to be pretty again

i had 4n4 for years in middle/freshman yr, but I unfortunately never hit my gw, I got super close I was getting so many compliments and soo much attention

that period of 4n4 was like the goal 3d. I never ate, my w dropped so fast, I was b0n3y and my mind was aswell, the 4n4 fog was such a h1gh but i dont remember like any of thoee two ish years

I struggle w/ d3pr3ss10n pretty bad, it's made it so hard to stay consistent, often I will end r3srtiction prds with b1ng1ng, essentially ruining my progress

its my senior year, I'm already 18, this is my last chance to get it together before college, I'm super busy, which I feel like will make it rly easy to ignore 34ting for long periods of time

I'm in sports and theater and I work, etc etc, so I'm very active. I'm very muscular from a very heavy workload of just everything, but I also have this really stubborn layer of f4t on top that won't leave, so my muscles, instead of looking s3ggsy and defined, I look manly and gross and boxy and i just hate it

i try not to sm0k3 n1c, but I hear that it's so good for the w drop. I do like w33d but I don't know how good that is at suppressing app3tit3 comparatively, could someone help me out with that?

anyway I'm gonna try to be active now here, I really feel like this is my year, anybody want to keep me accountable?

I want to be s3ggsy, th1n but still feminine, I don't want to lose my muscles but I still want to be like h3ro1n chic sk1nny

anyway 🥰🥰🥰 so excited to be a part of this community, wish me luck! Imma post updates here weekly maybe?