mygamsa

[mygamsa]

02/07/25 - #13

Nôva. She has a parasite in her blood but remains firm and strong, always loving… I'm very lucky to have been chosen by this fighter on June 17th. She's weighing 550kg...

Nikki, my dear sponsor. I love her honesty and how I see so much of myself in the way she responds to life's stimuli… I'm extremely grateful that I got in touch with her right away when I looked for NA Siem Reap.

My apartment. I'm very happy and grateful with the final result of my little corner. But honestly, it's so nice and, at the same time, so much work to have your own place... It's like physical exercise. It's boring but you feel great. Btw, I need to go back to boxing!

In general, I'm pretty grateful for the life I have... It's a privilege to be alive and live the way I'm trying to live.

[mygamsa]

21/06/25 - #12

Grateful for my student. She said "I'm in this new era where I'm trying to depend less on others and depend more on myself."

Baby pink and floral blue tank tops. I love sale! Like to express myself through clothes.

Nôva... Baby, I love you so much. So proud of you... Ate liquid and solid food. Drank goat milk... Pooped in the litter box. Went everywhere with me today... You're the best company.

Colors of Cambodia. Art critique and dinner... Glad to be partially part of an artistic group full of talented people.

[mygamsa]

20/06/25 - #11

NA. Both from Cambodia and Brazil. This international fellowship makes me feel so connected. Witnessing each other's recovery... I'm so grateful to be part of something bigger than myself.

Nôva. She purrs all the time, which, according to Nath, she's happy. She likes to lay her head on my chest and sleep... She meows for affection and learned to eat kibble today. I talk to her a lot and, I swear, feel like she understands me and talks back to me... I love her so much already.

Single. I'm grateful to be single. I have the opportunity to date myself, and this time, I want to do it honestly. And give it my best shot. I kind of like myself but still need to learn to love myself.

"thank u, next" by Ariana Grande. "How she handles pain. That shit's amazing."

[mygamsa]

18/06/25 - #10

Boxing. I'm really enjoying this sport… Sweating, punching, kicking… I never thought I needed it.

Thanks again, Leonardo. "You are a girl who doesn't deserve to use drugs." I will never forget, thank you.

Nôva... I'm loving taking care of my kitten… Giving her medicine, food and affection… I never thought that taking care of someone would make me feel so happy. Btw, I'm a cat person now.

Thanks, Yas C… I loved our brief photo session. So happy that you're Nôva's godmother and that you're going to design a fanny pack so I can carry her everywhere.

[mygamsa]

17/06/25 - #9

Thanks, Leonardo. For helping me serve in the early morning meeting. Serving is amazing, made me feel part of something, responsible. A total of 81 participants and 25 shares, very grateful.

Nôva, my kitten. Yes, I'm a cat mom now... Incredibly grateful for the connection and the opportunity to give my best with this little one. She needs so much care...

Thanks, Nikki. I'm so lucky to have a friend and sponsor who shares my insanity. Increasingly understanding how my disease works and affects certain aspects of my life. Again, NA changed my life.

Ravioli. Gosh, I love Italian food.

[mygamsa]

16/06/25 - #8

Thanks to the Ibis staff. You are incredibly kind.

Thanks, Enio and Leonardo. Today, I felt like I belonged to The Midnight Owls.

Boxing. OMG, I looked in the mirror after training and saw my rosy cheeks... So healthy, it made me feel cool and happy.

NA Siem Reap meetings are like a family reunion. It's where I was reborn, I have my aunt, uncles, cousins, sister, godmother... I'm very grateful to have this fellowship as one of the reasons to stay in Siem Reap.

Vegetable sour soup. With pineapple! Wow, sweet and sour… I loved this soup. I need to go to Tevy's Place more often!

[mygamsa]

14/06/25 - #7

My students… It's truly a privilege to be able to follow their artistic and personal development.

Thanks, Bong Phany... Your generosity teaches me to be a better teacher. Thanks for being so welcoming, I love working with you.

Thanks, mom... For always supporting no matter what. Having been conceived in your womb and coming into the world as your daughter is one of my greatest fortunes.

Aromatherapy and facial massage… I tried to relax and enjoy the present without ruminating about what I could be doing and being.

The poem "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost... "Two roads diverged in a wood, and I — I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference."

Today's NA meeting was great... I felt so honest about every word I was saying during my sharing... I didn't wanted to sound good. I wanted to be heard.

[mygamsa]

12/06/25 - #6

Pouched egg. It's my way to start the morning... Love how the soft yolk, when popped, paints the egg white yellow, the color of the Sun. It's me saying "good morning!" to my stomach.

Midnight Owls. Very glad for today's NA meeting... Learned a lot and, next Tuesday, I'll be chairing as an assistant! Thanks to the Brazilian NA fellowship for trust and opportunity to serve my best.

Thanks, again, Amber... Having a work partner who has greater maturity to deal with children's behavioral issues is a blessing. I learn a lot from you.

Thanks, Yas C... Love the aerial yoga. The butterfly position and the inversion made me feel like a bird floating. Those little sensations that give you butterflies in your stomach and excitement… So precious.

Thanks, Nikki... After class, Yas C and I went to dinner and talked about our respective sponsors. I noticed how Nikki welcomed me in the friendliest way possible. Since day one, she made me feel home. I still feel like I need to be honest and talk more, especially about my romantic relationships. But glad to be her sponsee!

I'm a Disney girl. Glad I admitted. I have a hopeless romantic view: love's gonna save me from any kind of unhappiness. Need to attend more CoDA meetings... Beginning to understand that my worth is not in the affection of others.

[mygamsa]

11/06/25 - #5

Thanks, Amber… You brought mindfulness techniques into the classroom, which I found essential for children to delve into their creativity with consciousness. I'm so happy that you'll join the classes until I go back to Brazil.

My girl gang of ten years old… I like them so much… As they say "slay, girl!"

Thanks, Meng... Blueberry Octopus.

Thanks, Yas C... I loved every single moment of the open mic night. Funny how it's possible to have so much fun sober...

"Can't Take My Eyes Off You" is my favorite song again. A perfect cliché for a hopeless romantic like me. But most of all, I will always remember how I sang and everyone sang along to "I. Love. You. BABY." It was magical.

Siem Reap. What a time to be alive... I love this city and just so happy to be here.

[mygamsa]

10/06/25 - #4

Sabrina, the movie with Audrey Hepburn. For a while, this movie belonged to us. It was our thing. Mine and T's. Watching after a long time avoiding it, finally understood what it's like not to be able to see yourself the way a person who genuinely likes you sees you. The movie is now mine again.

[mygamsa]

09/06/25 - #3

Carrot cake with nuts and spices... Divine.

Knitting. I started a crazy and colorful scarf today! Can't wait to see it done but, you know, enjoy the process.

Rain... I hate to get wet but it makes me reflect about "bad" feelings... It'll pass. It always does...

Tonight's NA meeting was great! We hung out later, I'll definitely miss the fellowship when I get back to Brazil...

[mygamsa]

08/06/25 - #2

Thanks, Yas C... Amazing brunch and wonderful to talk about "what's actually being an adult?"

Today, my lovely student asked me "how's your day?" when I arrived. I lied and told her I was having a good day... When I was leaving, she hugged me and told me "have a good day..." My day was good after all and someone believed in it. Thanks, pumpkin.

I finished the first chapter of "I Want To Die But I Want To Eat Tteokbokki" by Baek Sehee. And, surprisingly, started the second chapter called "Am I a Pathological Liar?" Yeah...

In love with the idea of "stealing what's worth". Like David Bowie said "the only art I'll ever study is stuff that I can steal from." Bought this book today... "Steal Like An Artist" by Austin Kleon.

[mygamsa]

07/06/25 - #1

Thanks, Yas C... For inviting me for a Sunday brunch. Excited for tomorrow!

Thanks, mom... For, you know, helping me with the credit card bill... So ashamed. But grateful.

Thanks, Yas F, for calling me and showing me a new and so beautiful perspective on Higher Power...

My student, I'll find out her name, she gave me a handmade paper box full of stickers, ribbons and miniature lollipops... With a "For U Teacher S2" written... I feel so loved.

Kampot Pepper Chocolate Gelato. Not that good... But good.

Started to learn to play and sing "I Wish You Love" on ukulele.