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Hahaha for a second I thought this was about Anne Shirley and Gibert Blythe

had a realization about persuasion today that the reason Anne can’t move on for 8 long years is not just her own sorrow but the fear that he will and can and does hate her for what she did to him. I think that fear and then that realization that it’s true settles into her bones and freezes her up and she can’t get past it. I’ve always felt really deeply (without understanding why) that Anne recovers from her heartbreak before we think she does, that before everything reaches its resolution between them at the end of the book Anne is better than she was before—less frozen, less traumatized. That it’s not his declaration that changes things, but something earlier.

And I never really understood it before now but I think it’s because she has proof that he doesn’t hate her. At first she sees that he’s still angry (and because she’s Anne doesn’t really take that as the triumph she could have, as a testament to the power of how deeply she affected him, but is instead pained by it) but when he’s kind to her in spite of it, when he pays attention to her well-being and looks out for her in these small but particular ways, she responds to it with this humble gratitude because she’s been set free from the guilt that’s been holding her captive for so long. She never imagines that anything else will happen between them, that he’ll pay any attention to her romantically. She knows she blew that chance long ago, but she’s so relieved to know that he doesn’t hate her that it’s almost enough and at least is definitively better than it was before. The wound that’s been eating away at her wasn’t her own pain, not really, but his, and then her pain at the thought that he was alive in the world hating her for causing him that pain. That’s a special kind of twisted torment to live with and to watch it be undone by acts of gentleness and kindness—even if the doer of them is still sometimes begrudging and resentful, to watch her be able to breathe again after 8 years of holding her breath is very soft and it makes me cry.

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Yesterday my little brother told me something very sweet and touching, that when he was a kid and had nightmares about monsters chasing him or whatever he would be able to end the nightmare by finding me in the dream and I would protect him by fighting off the zombies, or carrying him away. This is adorable, and makes me feel like the greatest older sibling in the world, but the hilarious thing is that when I was a kid I had nightmares of needing to save him from zombies and such. so many dreams where he was in trouble and I needed to save him. Like my nightmares began where his ended. Low key I think he mastered the ability to psychically transfer his nightmare to me as a child and I'm kind of annoyed with him.

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and when I looked, the moon had turned to gold

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I had a dream that Lu Ten visited from the spirit world to tell Zuko that he needed to wear more turquoise colored robes because he’s really a winter.

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Tolkien is 1000% done.

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I wasn't too happy with my last whale painting so I painted a new one in SAI instead of Procreate. (SAI will always be my fav art program) I want to show the stars glowing in the stomach more clearly🌟 SAI doesn't have a timelapse feature so I did a work around but the resolution is kinda low. Does anyone know a better way? The high res hours long recordings will be DMed on my Patreon on Nov5

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this part of stevie nicks’ interview with rolling stone is taking me out

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modern au where this is how Hiccup lost all of Berk's gold

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the pevensies discovering the treasure room in the ruins of cair paravel must have been like stepping into their own tomb. here is the ruin of what you were. here is the remnant. here is where they took what you left them with and laid it to rest. here is your funeral shroud, daughter of eve. the skirt is too long for you now. here is the cordial, half-full. they dared not use it to save anyone without your hand to do the saving. here is your bow, still strung, and your arrows, unshot. here is the sword your hand still remembers, and here is the face you have forgotten. you did not die here, and yet still you were buried. what is a legend but another kind of ghost?

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@whumpgifathon | Day 15: Trapped | Locked Inside Lockwood & Co. | S01E03 | Anthony Lockwood, Lucy Carlyle & George Karim

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History has its eyes on you

Parallels & References 12/?

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